#Longish Post

[i-may-be-an-emu]

the other day I watched Wine Under The Bridge again and had some. Thoughts.

Mainly about Troll-Father and Troll-Son’s dynamic and how the whole play can be interpreted as a metaphor for queerness

anyway uh here’s my long, unorganised observations and thoughts :)

troll son seems nervous to talk to his father and be around him (poor boy is so scared because he’s a “closeted” non-goat eater/wine drinker/maker)

troll father implies that he thinks “little floppy trolls with the colourful hair” aren’t “true trolls” (HMMMM THAT SOUNDS FAMILIAR)

“Do you want to be big like troll-father?? or do you want to be little and floppy forever.” - guilt tripping him, trying to make his son another version of himself.

Troll son seems to imply that he is little and floppy and he initiates the conversation about not eating goats, he wants to talk to troll father about it even though he knows he won’t understand deep down. (HE WANTS TO TALK ABOUT IT BUT HIS FATHER DOESNT GET IT)

“Your floppy hair is too colourful my boy” - troll father disapproves of floppy colourful trolls. He doesn’t seem mad just like he wants to change his son to be like him. He seems to think that being floppy and colourful = weakness (because his son won’t dare speak of his mother’s death) (HMM THINKING THAT PEOPLE WHO ARE MORE FLAMBOYANT(?) ARE WEAK HMMM OK OK)

“I want you to be big and tough like me”

Not being supportive of his wine idea and dissaproving

Calling him and seeing him as “goat son”

Troll father decides to exile him just for not eating a goat and wanting to try other foods and drinks

Troll father says “you have shamed me this day” he feels ashamed of his son (LIKE COME ON)

troll father gets upset with troll brother for being with a non-troll

he has a strong reaction to troll brother not confirming to seemingly conventional troll standards

Gets angry when troll brother says he eats food that’s not goat

But after learning about comfort zones seems to understand a bit more (HES LEARNINGGG)

“I chose to cut HIM out before he could cut ME out! Troll father feel safe inside!” Like just this quote, like- idk how to explain it but COME. ON.

“I maybe think there other way” (troll son challenging his fathers beliefs and saying there’s other ways. what if I just cry.)

troll son saying he’s been exiled hurts at first but then he becomes proud of it and keeps saying it (Oh gee being ashamed and hurt about something about yourself that people don’t approve of but then learning to be proud of it instead woah that sounds KINDA. FAMILIAR.)

troll father overhears him being proud and decides to not forgive him (even though there’s nothing to forgive) almost as though he was hoping to just forget about it all and ignore it, then he heard his son embracing it and knew that wouldn’t happen.

when troll father tastes the wine he says he tastes “being out of comfort zone” and accepts his son. Like. Idk. It makes me feel things.

troll father says he’s proud of troll son and that he’s “more troll than any of us” (LITERALLY WHAT IF I CRY. LIKE.)

Calls troll son beautiful when his colourful hair becomes apparent, learning to not only accept but to also love his son even though he’s different.

Also don’t even get me started on how the plot basically mirrors HTTYD. It’s so similar.

[jesncin]

Happy Pride! Now that Lunar Boy (our middle grade graphic novel) is out, we wanted to share our thought process behind queer vocabulary in media. The constant censorship, imposed western biases on queer culture, and what it means to introduce queer vocabulary to a young audience.

Check out Lunar Boy wherever american graphic novels are sold, or check it out at a library!

[sp1resong]

behold. the results of a category 5 autism moment (had hollow knight thoughts and saint thoughts simultaneously)

dialogue is ofc adapted from hollow knight!!

[kyogos]

Andy Murray + posts from my drafts

[a-little-dan-and-phil-chaos]

Do you ever just think about the way Dan and Phil talk about and to each other? Like Dan is so poetic and beautiful, whilst also being so unhinged and then Phil is more direct, he just says what he thinks, also being unhinged. Like it's beautiful and unsettling and chaotic, the way they say things like " we're a ranch metaphor" or "hello you stupid bitch" it's a love language like no other. Its so utterly them, no one would talk to their partner the way they do, it's ridiculous as a concept; imagine calling some a fucking ranch metaphor (affectionately or at all) like what do you mean?! You just casually say that! Actually that's the thing, they're so casual about it, they say these things to each other because why the fuck the not? They love each other in way no one will ever understand and this is how they show that love. It's nonsensical, it's raw, it's real, it's 15 fucking years of loving the same person, it's being safe and knowing each other better than they know themselves (probably) and honestly? Fuck yes, I'm so happy for them, it's profound and idiotic and I love them 🧡😭

[fairmerthefarmer]

Some warm up sketches cause I have a whole lot of ideas for HTTYD illustrations/fanart but I need to remember how to draw these guys. (Hiccups hair is so baffling to me to figure out the shapes and have it look right)

My sister and I have very suddenly decided to rewatch the spin-off shows for HTTYD (not that weird new one, just the ones set in between the first two movies)

I love so much how they expand on the dragon lore but also on the side characters!! Ive got my things about the shows I’d critique, but overall it’s just such a good time.

Also I first watched RTTE in highschool (I remember finding it, binging all the episodes available in a night and being left right at the cliffhanger in season 3) and I was embarrassed about it. I think mostly because the animation style is visibly cheaper than the movies? So it looks more made for children (I mean the target audience still is kids, but also probably young teens so me at the time) (also watching it now despite the budget limits I’m loving the lighting in particular) (rtte improved visually a lot over RoB especially.)

It’s always fun to go back to the things you liked when you were younger and maybe embarrassed but then it’s like “oh actually I had good taste sometimes this is fucking great”

[jazzymusicorn28]

Just thinking about the brilliantly crafted yet subtle symbolism with the seasons in the Rebellion OP, and how the seasons present perfectly coincide with their respective characters and their wishes.

Like, we start off with Madoka in the spring. This definitely correlates with her wish to reset the corrupt system of magical girls and witches. She creates a new design for the system and gives herself and the other magical girls hope with the new start, heavily leaning into the themes of rebirth and hope tied to spring. Spring also represents transformations, and it nicely conveys Madoka using hope as a propelling force to her becoming a goddess.

When Sayaka enters the scene, it's summer. It represents her initial hopes and optimism toward becoming a magical girl, and her overall innocence. Her desires for romance and passion tied to her wish to be with Kyosuke also embody some of the core symbolic ideas associated with summer.

Now Mami enters the scene in the fall, which is often associated with themes of adulthood, maturity, and death. This pertains to her resourcefulness and maturity that stems from her dealing with the aftermath of her parents dying in the car crash. Mami also made her wish to avoid death.

Next we have Kyoko, with some of the most blatant symbolism with her ties to winter here. Kyoko made her wish to prevent her family from living in literal squalor, and the foundations of her wish were based upon her not wanting her family to have to endure such hardships and tough times, which winter is commonly connected with. After her father went ballistic, Kyoko was able to survive and live through the most difficult times in her life while sustaining herself as a magical girl and person. She also adopted the "survival of the fittest" mindset too, further representing her ties to the winter imagery shown here.

And lastly we have Homura entering in the spring! Her wish is based on saving Madoka and her initial hopefulness in doing so. She wanted to have a fresh start, a chance to redo her meeting with Madoka, which became the driving force of her life. Spring is heavily tied to new beginnings and transformations, which certainly embodies her change in personality and demeanor with all of the timeline resets.

Homura entering during the spring also foreshadows her transformation into a literal devil; this significantly parallels when Madoka enters in the spring, which is representative of her transformation into a goddess. Currently obsessing over these parallels btw.

[abracazabka]

In sophomore Spanish, there was a trans guy in our class. I want to tell a story about him.

The teacher just really seemed to target him. She always deadnamed him, always referred to him with feminine language, always, always used him as an example during lessons so as to misgender him. It was awful, but. But.

Nobody in class fell for that shit.

We all referred to him correctly in Spanish, even the kids who did not give a shit about learning the language. It was aggressive allyship in that classroom and it pissed off my transphobic teacher to no end.

If paired with him, we wrote masculine words on our work. We all did. She couldn't mark down all of us. And God knows I was a nerd, so if she marked me down, I would have made a scene.

I was willing to make a scene for him, and so was just about everyone else in the class, despite him not being great friends with anyone, or even talking very much. It didn't matter; it was the principle of the thing, it was his human rights.

We all told her to fuck off without using said words, despite the clear power she had over us. So, the moral of the story for students, especially high school students, is:

Protect your peers. There are more of you than there are of your asshole educator. Trans folks don't need to be your friends for you to stand up for them, quietly or loudly.

Teenagers/students tend to follow the leader; so be a leader, and don't take shit from adults/instructors who would use their power over you to disrespect you, and to degrade you. Don't let them do that to your peers.

You can have an army of sixteen year old allies from all walks of life if you (within reason and safely) take a stand. Don't lose hope, and don't lose agency.

[goshdangitpaul]

ok so y’all know that one line in DR season 1 where Chancellor Gulch says to Zane “I don’t think anyone could live up to the legend of Zane. Maybe not even Zane himself” or something like that? Yeah I think it’s really important.

no spoilers for s2p2, just 3 paragraphs

Arin has high expectations for the ninja, especially the “Legendary Green Ninja”. But Lloyd can’t live up to the hype because at the end of the day he’s still just a guy. A young adult still struggling through life. And yet still Arin doesn’t see that and expects almost perfection (and Ras doesn’t exactly help with this- near the end of s2p1, he says that he’s still weak, despite training with the legends).

And Zane? He’s got a mixed record. The Ice Emperor, the Overlord-defeating nindroid, Murderer, the Titanium Ninja, etc. How could he ever live up to a Savior when he tortured a realm for decades? I like to think that Zane is stepping back from the limelight because they don’t need “Zane” anymore. They need answers, sure, they need an analytical perspective, sure, but they don’t need the cooking, kind, and emotional aspects of Zane anymore. His more “human” traits you could say. In fact, Zane tells Mr. Froghicky that he doesn’t experience heightened emotions, when he most certainly does. He needs to be the “Zane” that’s useful, the “Zane” that won battles.

Maybe the rest of Dragons Rising will give everyone a chance to distance themselves from their legends. A chance to find themselves again, without their past successes or failures haunting them, telling them what they should be.

(Edit: Thanks @/carlostck for the name correction)

[toobbolive]

Hear me out: Pac is just as afraid of intimacy as Fit is. Pac has a specific idea of what being close to other people will entail, and that's why he situates himself by the violent, unstable men.

They'll be exactly what he expects them to be, they're familiar.

That's why he still seeks out Cell during purgatory, and how he's decided to stay with him and try to walk him back to being Cellbit regardless of what Cell's done to him and his friends (including those who did not end up respawning or escaping.) Cell is already close to him, to his body and mind and Pac is afraid to lose that closeness no matter how ugly or unhealthy it is.

Any attention, any intimacy is still intimacy. A hand reaching out to harm you still has to touch your skin.

Meanwhile, Fit is from an environment that paradoxically prevents and ensures closeness, the bond between warriors, the conditional loyalties of where you lay your head.

Fit is aware that getting closer, getting what he wants will hurt him, and he still wants it anyways. I think he's prepared for the pain waiting for them both if he'll just reach out for it. As well, Fit has Ramón, a job, a mission, people who need him, other connections to the people around him. Pac doesn't.

And we see Pac keep people at an arm's length so that he won't have to risk the pain of being left behind by the people he cares about.

Considering old Fuga Impossivel 2 lore (which could be canon! they've been using parts of it) Pac and Mike are orphans, only fully having each other. The single constant between their adventures. Pulling capers, spending a long time in prison and then on a boat with other dangerous escapees, with whom they're now a twisted kind of family, but Richas has other dads, and people like Forever and Cellbit both have their own partners and demons right now.

So Pac during the Happy Pills arc? Walter Bob could be dead. Mike is in deep sleep, and Pac doesn't turn to anyone else for help. He doesn't reach out to the morning crew. He's self-sacrifically on his own, he goes on the drugs alone, and he begins to develop the antidote alone and what he says is that he doesn’t want to be sad again but he isolates himself in fear of it.

Let's think about the Pac who's openly affectionate to cover up the Pac who knows that no one needs him around and who's intelligent enough to know that challenging that understanding could destroy him.

That's why Pac won't confess either.

Pac avoids every concrete escalation because changing a relationship means risking losing it.

[i-may-be-an-emu]

Kiss Stats

decided to count how many times each of the guys have kissed (on stage) that we know of

AJ

AJ + Luke 3 (1 fringe, 1 old show not posted)

AJ + Sam 6

AJ + Tom 7 (2 fringe)

Luke

Luke + AJ 3 (1 fringe, 1 old show not posted)

Luke + Sam 13 (2 fringe, 1 irl show not posted)

Luke + Tom 4 (2 fringe)

Sam

Sam + AJ 6

Sam + Luke 13 (2 fringe, 1 irl show not posted)

Sam + Tom 6 (2 fringe, 1 old show not posted)

Tom

Tom + AJ 7 (2 fringe)

Tom + Luke 4 (2 fringe)

Tom + Sam 6 (2 fringe, 1 old show not posted)

(Fringe means that that’s how many times they kissed at fringe this year and that we don’t have any footage (apart from a couple of photos taken by audience members) of it (yet(?)). Irl show means that someone in the audience at one of their shows saw it, and old show means that it’s something we only have a screenshot of, from a show from early sfth days.)

Note: the stuff in brackets is included in the main number- for example AJ and Luke have kissed three times, and one of those two was at fringe. So there’s 3 kisses, with 1 at fringe.

EDIT:

was looking through my photos and realised I missed two

anyway I missed a Sam and Tom kiss and a Luke and AJ kiss (pictured below because these aren’t really known)

the above stats have been edited with this info.

[jesncin]

Happy Trans Day of Visibility! This year I wanted to celebrate by showing you what Lunar Boy, our upcoming middle grade graphic novel, means to us as queer Indonesian representation: the thought process behind crafting a sci-fi Indonesian future that embraces queer history.

Pre-order Lunar Boy or add it on goodreads! Support QPOC creators and stories!

[mylittleponyauprompts]

I’ve been thinking about cutie marks recently and I think it’s really weird how ponies view them when things like bad luck are an option for someone’s destiny. Couldn’t a destiny like that be considered a disability? Couldn’t Starlight Glimmers spell be altered to have positive medical effects in cases like Trouble Shoes? I just think Trouble Shoes shouldn’t have to live with bad luck for the rest of his life because destiny/fate dictate it and a mark on his butt say so. A pony with a cutie mark and destiny that might as well be a curse to them shouldn’t have to live with that.

There’s a cutie mark disease for crying out loud. Cutie pox is getting too many cutie marks. I think cutie marks are an important magical phenomenon that happens to ponies and it can have good or bad effects. And has magical illnesses and mutations surrounding it. Sometimes a pony can get something like bad luck as a “destiny” or get to many cutie marks, and maybe not get any at all.

Ponies view cutie marks as such an important part of being a pony that not having might as well be not being a pony. Don’t worry you’ll get one eventually! Or suck it up, it is your destiny chosen for you! I think Starlight Glimmer discovering the ability to remove cutie marks, and thus the magical powers it gives, probably changes many ponies views a lot. “I don’t have to live like this? There’s an experimental treatment?” And many probably look down on this. It causes magical fatigue. Your magic skills lower. Your ability to do anything in that field basically becomes nullified.

But if you had bad luck as a “destiny” or had multiple cutie marks where the only known cure for that was extremely rare and hard to get, wouldn’t Starlights spell be promising? Magical fatigue and some skills lost seems preferable.

And my biggest thing with this, is that Trouble Shoes got arrested for having bad luck if I’m remembering correctly. His destiny got him put in jail. And the solution is for him to become a rodeo clown? I just think it’s insulting to him. You’ve been getting arrested for property destruction and vandalism because of your destiny? Go to the circus! Become a clown! Trouble shoes deserves better

[knifegrrrl1312]

so i feel like how aspec sexuality connecting to abandonment trauma and personality disorders is not talked ab enough, well it is by ppl with personality disorders but i wanna talk ab it basically w my experience w bpd and being aro/ace spectrum

and i know fellow bpd havers know the feeling of being unlovable very well. For me i'm demiromantic and it would take literal years for me to actually develop a genuine romantic attraction to someone, and if when i do, that person would straight up become my fp and it would be torture pain and suffering (for me mostly)

Like romantic feelings for me is nothing fun, because its linked to my mental issues inherently i feel. And i still want a romantic relationship one day but that feeling of being unlovable and like, i'm just not suited for it (in the sense that i couldnt handle it i feel) is like,, i will just not try there is no point. I will suffer for another person always wondering do they hate me will they leave me, ofc they will there's not much i can offer even. I will end up hating the person i love and then go back to loving them and then hating them etc etc.. Not to mention amanormativity (idkkk if thats how u spell it or if thats the right term) but basically i assume people want something from me that i simply cannot give. I will never be able to have sex with someone, i will never want to, I actually just wouldn't put myself thru that for someone else and because i feel like thats all anyone would actually want from me i will just probably never want to be in a relationship. Like for me personally i'm supperrr asexual like u have no idea i've known i was ace since i was literally 10 yrs old and nothing has changed i will always be like this, and i dont mind doing *some* suggestive sexual stuff if its fun and chill but the second a line gets crossed i just want no part in it and i refuse to put myself thru that.

And i'm also very fine w being single like i only ever feel like i want a gf once in awhile but i feel completely whole just by myself and my life is objectively easier and more relaxing without romance. For me i don't think i'll actually be ready for a genuine romantic relationship until i feel like i am and that will be hopefully when i'm older lol

Idk i feel like because of the stigma against aro/ace ppl and also the experience of bpd, it enhances the feeling of being unlovable. But I want to make it clear to ppl reading this post that i'm aware that i actually am lovable, this is just a feeling. And i didn't write this to complain, and if you have the same experience as me or a similar one, that doesn't mean there is no hope for you or for me. The world is so much bigger than how my brain perceives everything. Like i do want to stress that these feelings are mostly a symptom of my mental illness lol and if you have bpd or a pd it doesn't make you unlovable, bc everyone is lovable by default yknow.

Even people who's hearts are a mouthful, like mine. And even if ur reading this and you don't have the experience of having a pd but you still have feelings of being unlovable or like, there is no hope for you in romance because you are arospec or acespec or both like me, well there is hope for everyone because the world is so much bigger than societies stigma and people are as diverse as the stars.. But lmk if you have a similar experience anywayz ppl <3

[abyssalshriek]

I'm tired so I'm going to share a random Agent 24 headcanon of mine (there's Pearlina in the background/premise).

When the bouquet toss happens at Pearl and Marina's wedding, Captain 3 super jumps to be the one to catch it. They then realize, a bit embarrassed, that all eyes are on them as they just did that in front of everyone.

Pearl leans over to Eight and tells her, "Yo, now would be like, the funniest time to propose."

And so she does. The Captain says yes, but laments that, not planning to propose at someone else's wedding (because that is normally considered very very rude), they left their own ring for Eight at home.

Anyway, after that, Pearl and Marina announce they have some planes ready to fly the guests to a Shifty Station for a couple Turf War matches. Someone says that sounds excessively expensive, to which Pearl responds, "Eh, it was just a couple billion g."

[a-little-dan-and-phil-chaos]

I have so many incoherent thoughts about Dan's birthday stream, it was incredible and insane and absolutely wild, I can't even really think straight (haha, oh no, not in my life darling 😉) so much was going on, it was such a strange and ethereal experience but also one of the most unhinged, horny-on- game-gay-vibes-through-the-roof videos I've ever seen, I'm not even sure I'm 100% aware of everything that happened, it feels so much like a weird fever-sex-dream but also channeling religious vibes (read; blasphemy, I guess?) I wanna scream and cry and laugh all at once 😭🤣😳 the whole video was such a rollercoaster, one of the best moments of my life, I wish so much I could have seen it live but watching it back was an experience in and of itself like no other, there's honestly not one part of this that isn't going down in Dnp history 💯

✨Personal Highlights✨

Phlonde meeting Sister Daniel 😫😉

Goth/Punk Phil 🫠❤️

The Flirting 😜🫦

Dan's hair 😍

The Slits 2.0 😳

Father (phather) Philip ✝️

Dan's reaction to his birthday present from Phil 🥹

The unbridled chaos of it all ✨💯🤣