#Kinda old and ugly but ill post

[luminooni]

Kiss!!

[jamiepaige]

Constant Companions Closeup #5: CADMIUM COLORS

(also on bandcamp and spotify!)

Once again, welcome back to the Constant Companions Closeups - a series of in-depth dives into the songs off of my latest album, Constant Companions! Last time, I wrote a whole diatribe about my OCs while talking about I Wish That I Could Fall, and today, we're eating paint! Cadmium Colors featuring Soneji of Project Mikan!

Consider this a content warning: this post will discuss the pandemic, struggles with mental health, and suicidal ideation/attempts. I'm hoping it'll ultimately be uplifting, but the discussions at hand are incredibly heavy, and it wouldn't do this song right to be vague. Please be warned.

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Let's talk about COVID.

At the beginning of 2020, I was in the midst of a long-term break from making music. It wasn't completely cold turkey, and I might not have even called it a break if you'd asked me at the time, but things were dire. I was still dealing with the burnout I'd sustained from the making of Autumn Every Day; I'd had my ego bruised by a live performance at a house party that went so hilariously bad it'd hurt even the most stoic performers (imagine watching an entire packed room of people clear out in 5 minutes flat from the already hyper-exposed vantage point of being on stage in front of them and knowing you single-handedly caused that lol); I had just moved across the country, and was preoccupied with trying to make ends meet as a 22 year old dealing with pure adulthood for the first time.

I was working a shitty minimum wage job at a discount clothing store I will not be naming, slogging through late-night shifts that wouldn't get me home until 3 am some nights. I had friends and roommates, but they were all just as overworked and exhausted and dealing with their own shit as me. I was mentally ill and unmedicated. Suicidal ideation was rearing its ugly head at my lowest moments.

Then, as I turned 23, a global pandemic shut the world down, my grandpa died with me being unable to attend his funeral, and I had a catastrophic mental breakdown that suddenly turned the voices in my head into a deafening cacophony of self-inflicted malice.

In hindsight, I think being 23 kinda just does that to you

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Fast forward to 2021. I was back at my retail job with the pandemic raging in full force, my sense of self was held together with duct tape, positive self-talk essentially didn't exist for me, and I was the loneliest and lowest I had ever been. I was working the fewest hours I could get away with, and still, almost all spare time I had was taken up either by work or by my recovery from it.

This was around the time I got an email from Crypton, of all places - the people that make Hatsune Miku, for anyone uninformed. They wanted a remix of the song Happy Synthesizer for a Digital Stars compilation. I could not for the life of me tell you how I lucked into this or why they reached out to me of all people, but they did, and I was deathly determined to prove myself worthy of it.

This was August of 2021. I was staring down the barrel, languishing in what felt like only half of a life, fantasizing about death and trying to twist my thoughts into something that could at least keep me blearily shuffling forward another couple days. It was untenable.

(I'd also recently been diagnosed with OSDD 1b - this is a whole can of worms I can't really open until we talk about Breeze Blows, but it's important to at least mention that coping with this was a significant part of this turnaround.)

It's melodramatic, but I had only two options - make things again, or die.

I finished that remix within 24 hours of getting the stems, and I will gladly toot my own horn about it - it's really fucking good, in my opinion. Bittersweet ended up coming together in a mad dash over the next couple months as well. I was making music again.

Even though I was exponentially busier, things paradoxically got easier. I made the creative process a priority in my life, and not only did it give me an outlet for everything that had otherwise been eating away at my soul, but it struck a chord with other people who had been struggling as well. Things just... started getting brighter.

So I kept making music and living and yadda yadda blah blah here I am. This is all a lot of words and very personal stories of mental health struggles to say this:

One: The line between being an artist and being one of countless people forced to work jobs that go nowhere, that put their life at risk, that force them to strip parts of themselves away - it is a faint and transparent line built on circumstances of class and privilege and luck. Making Art and being an Artist aren't magical elevated states of existence, but something anyone is capable of if given the space to nurture their creativity. I believe the world should be a place where any person can do this.

Two: It's easy to convince yourself that art is meaningless in the face of the world at large. And yes, revolutions aren't fought by poetry and paintings, and people aren't fed through songs. But art is a source and a medium for connection; Art is how we find beauty in a disorganized and entropic world; Art is what we come home to and what words we write and pictures we paint and songs we sing to remind us that people matter to us and love is real and life is worth fucking living. Maybe that's corny and stupid, but it's true.

Three: So help me God, I will never work retail again in my entire life.

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This is another song that is heavily inspired by artists like Prefab Sprout, Peter Gabriel, Kate Bush, and other artists of that ilk - very 80s, very flowery and sentimental lyricism, focused on telling a story. I greatly admire songs that aren't afraid to paint otherwise banal or ordinary scenes in abstract reverence!! I wanted the verses to contrast heavily with each other in that way, with verse one's relentless poeticisms (prosaic practice of depravity) and idioms turned on their head (suspending innocents above their disbelief) against verse two's incredibly straightforward depiction of a factory worker's circumstances.

The flowery language might have worked against me somewhat, though! I've seen a lot of folks that thought the ending was darker or much more defeatist than I intended, and while some of that is just inevitable with a work of art, I want to be clear.

Translator's note: this means "don't kill yourself, you idiot"!!

As you may have picked up from the previous post in this series, this song does heavily feature a leitmotif or two predominantly performed under pudgy pretenses. I'm not going to go on that whole novella-length spiel again, but rest assured knowing that this song, too, is one that makes me think about my OCs. Since it's something many people missed, however, I will take a moment to point out that this song quotes none other than Autumn Every Day off of my album of the same name!

Painting and visual art have been something of a reoccurring obsession of mine in my own art. I grew up around visual artists, have always been friends with many visual artists, and generally have a really intense love of it as a medium and a mode of expression. However, there's also always been a sense of... well, I don't want to call it jealousy, but it's jealousy. I've tried many times to start making visual art of my own, and I have made some things, but it's been a struggle, and I worry sometimes that my eye has permanently outstripped my ability.

However, in my quest to toss out grand expectations and simply have fun making art, I did recently pick up a cheap little drawing tablet! I'm excited to be a beginner at something artistic again...

Finally, I want to thank a couple people: Soneji of Project Mikan for the gorgeous, soaring saxophone solo; friend_xp for the mindboggling MV editing; and especially my good friend Que for the GORGEOUS painterly art that goes along with this song! Que's style was just perfect for this, and really tied the whole thing together immaculately!! There's no joke or deeper lore or anything I just fucking love Que's art go follow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And with that, I think this post is complete!! If you have anything else you wanna know about, ask away in the replies! Tomorrow will be Breeze Blows with Marcy Nabors and Marlow Jacobs!!!

MAKE ART AND BE GAY

[tartsniffer]

i cant post better pieces on my computer any more because i mainly draw all my big pieces on there, and my drawing tablets pen is in need of replacing LOL. heres some old art of my babies

this is like. all stuff im sure i havent posted on tumblr, haha. Some stuff is kinda funky and ugly so sorry about that

not sure why the quality is so bad here but this is how i used to draw jimmy, yikes. This was meant to be a design for my cowboy au! but that was scrapped and their designs were kept in my head until

these are the outfits they wear when theyre on the road together! ill probably post the outfits for each chapter when i can, but you can see that stan is much skinnier than in canon and thats because hes POOR and not a lot of men are fond of his services. he either gets beat up or some cash, no in between HAHA

also, my jimstan famrhouse au that has yet to be expanded on!

I MEAN, they do have a fic and a ready set lore for how they ended up in the farmhouse but i havent touched that au in ages despite how dear it is to my heart (i say this about all my jimstan aus, and just jimstan in general. really theyre all parts of me)

heres an abandoned wip of my jimstan zombie au! i dont like to post a lot about this au because its just. me literally gutting myself and pouring my blood and organs into both of them. I wanted to make a fic about them, but it felt too...personal for me.

i mentioned Mallow, Perrine and Jesse in a previous post. I dont have the full references for Mallow and Jesse, but i do have one for Perrine

she is the biological daughter of jimstan, along with M and J. She was originally going to be a twin! but that felt kinda silly since all my jimstan art doesnt even imply that ford and stan are on good terms, or even speaking at all. And while jimmy does have two twin neices in my hcs, it felt more right to make Mallow the oldest and have Perrine and Jesse be twins.

I could go on a long tangent about the snakes/pines family. How they dont have hyphenated last names, how they named their kids, how theyre biological. i just need a trigger word, and ill go wild about them

have i mentioned my highschool jimstan au yet..?

the dude jimmy fights with is not stan btw, i just dont happen to know a lot of hairstyles, haha

and lastly, heres jimmy in his prom outfit

yes. i will be drawing stan and jimmy at prom. just you wait

[goon2venture]

Long hair

hey this is kinda old but do u wanna see something older ?

jumpscare warning vv v

this was when I finished squid game season 2 and wanted 2 do a thing but I didn't know what thing. I'm gonna just ,,,,, leave this here ,,,,, I'm finishing up another thing and Ill just rant on that post instead

fuck ts is ugly

[specific-dreamer]

a whole day late but here are my post show notes from the 2pm showing yesterday (3.8.2025) (also all over the place because my memory is shotty at best but if you have any specific questions feel to ask bc it’s def help jog my memory lol)

when the flashlight shone on everyone, the socs all looked to their rights and the greasers looked to their left (guess who looked to their right. DARREL)

(from fatd but) beverly looked like she was whispering a secret to paul

“the two of us just stayed behind” ive never noticed it before so i could be cornplating but cherry grabbed marcia’s hand tightly (rip to my beautiful la jolla duet that should’ve been there)

also after trip(? brill?) tried to take bobs jacket from cherry she like got mad and tried to go to marcia for comfort or wtv but marcia like jumped back. she still looked lost but was way more willing to follow the others like it was clear she started to believe that it was cherrys fault

paul stepped over two-bit 💔

so it’s like confirmed now that the tire is bobs grave. like during hopeless war (i think) paul was drinking from the flash staring at the tire then passed it to chet(?) who crossed it over his chest and raised it up to god before drinking. then he passed it to someone idk who and paul got it back, raised it to heaven (as if he’d be there) and poured it out ☹️☹️☹️ THEY POURED ONE OUT FOR BOB GUYS IM GONNA KMS

a lot of them got lyrics/words wrong (“why do you know this spec?” bc i memorized the script next question) it was cute idk kept me on my toes

soda beat the dog shit out of chet during the rumble like picked and carried him 😭 i kept repeating to myself let him get up

(next few bullets are connected) “why don’t you boys sit with us? you can protect us” brody pony and sky johnny were so funny despite not speaking

pony: ykw hell yeah

pony: johnny let’s pop our collars

johnny: why tf would i do that

pony: it’ll make us look tuff 😎

johnny: no it- fine sure

pony pops his collar and has this ugly ass smug look on his face and johnny pops his collar top but he looks like he just got a vivid reminder that ponyboy is only 14 yrs old. as soon as pony walk in front of him johnny hurries to fix his collar and im sure the internal monologue was “this mf tryna make me look a goddamn fool”

(bit of a rant soz but it’s might’ve been my favorite part)

darry got so excited during hoods turn heroes he like slapped the car and was damn near jumping out his seat and i heard a “two-bit! lemme see”

during ggah after ace’s you wish steve came over and “lectured” her #bigbrothersteve

i love alex dally

during him and darry’s fight, dally actually seemed? upset ?? like hurt so to speak. “go get a job like a real man” “i have a job 🧍🏾‍♀️☹️” like guys that’s just my baby that’s literally bunny dally

but darry riled him up good like and idk how to explain it but “now i know i don’t look like you / but what” it seems more racial based like idk how to explain without sounding like im reaching but alex’s dally is such a slap in the face to everyone who draws white dally amongst the musical cast (ykw im talking abt) and im very happy for that

soda kept messing with darry during ggah and there was a whole mini argument that i missed but im p sure it boiled down darry being like pony’s just a kid; get that cigarette out his face

“you’re just like that cop: a bully boss man” then dally kinda paused mediating for darrel to disagree before saying no. guys ☹️

when dally said darrys not no real brother guys. i words that want to say but ill sound like im reaching. all i can say is i better not see no more white/blonde dally art amongst the musical cast

during fatd and cherry danced with chet, when she got back up the tire with bob she was like shaking her finger at chet and he rolled his eyes and did like a fake apology to bob. bob my beloved was glaring daggers at him ready to hunt him down if not for cherry

when johnny died and sodas holdin onto pony during that first part of little brother, as soon as pony stood up, soda looked at him in fear and exhaustion almost. like guys i’m telling you soda knew pony was about to shut down again. he kept mouthing “pony? pones, cmon honey” he just looked tired in not like a bad way but in a why is it always us kind of way

victor soda i was unfamiliar with ur game before but omg

ALSO HIS LETTER?? i know soda and pony like make eye contact or wtv towards the end, but idk if im making shit up or what it really felt like soda was looking through pony like. ok darry’s in the back right towards the car, but right behind pony (to sodas pov) is johnny and dally, and i can’t explain but it really felt like soda was talking/looking at dally and johnny

there is something there guys i just know it

i’m gonna write the series from their dead parents pov

dally stuttered A LOT before his monologue. like he could not fathom why johnny wanted to go back. he was so genuine like i was half convinced he was gonna tear up. he didn’t sound angry or anything and i really think if not for the fuckass fire they would’ve gotten and the car and left 💔

(tone shift) during ritf when soda kicks them out the house, he drops the basket in front two-bit and points behind him and everyone’s like “are you srs” and soda pointed to the basket like “or you could help” and that got them moving 😭😭

and when darry told pony to wash the grease out his hair pony looked like he was about to object then turned to two-bit like “is he serious? do i have to ??” and two-bit nodded once like “just go do it” DARBIT WIN

he does this every show but sky does the most toddler fucking cough when he’s on the fucking plank i know his chest and throat aches 😭

daryl (tofa) did not sit on the tire at the beginning of hth. that’s not important but i def noticed and was like oh !

at the end, when pony talking abt his story with soda, brent looked away like he always does. but i think someone was either off stage tryna make him break (likely) or he was trying not to cry (a little less likely) because he kept twisting his face

DARRY GOT HIS CLAPS WE CLAPPED AFTER RITF I WAS SO HAPPY

the rumble 😍 i love the rumble so much guys omg

after cherry through the coke on dally, whoever sat on the tire (idk guys i’m trying) laughed his ass off and said “is it bath time greaser?” mans was drunk 😭😭

also bob is such a fucking theater kid idc idc. in the beginning when they jump pony he was passing that football like it was the talking stick i hate him sm

[escrupulo42o]

GARBAGE (art) DUMP‼️‼️🗣

JANET (i love her so much)

OLD ASS johnshi drawing that is kinda ugly? but idc

OLD ASS ashrah drawing that is again kinda ugly but i LOVE ASHRAH so :P

SYZOTH DE BANFIELD‼️‼️🗣 (translations in alt text)

🤏 tiny syzoth eating a mosquito

RAILAO :DD

kung lao :D

btw im still working on the animals au, ill post kuai liang soon

thats it byee :3

[yanderesimp2000]

Extreme Yandere Adam x Fem reader Chap 1/5 Start of your new life !MINORS STAY AWAY!

(hey this is my first post here Just wanna say my english might be bad since I'm from Armenia but I'm excited to post here I USED ALOT OF INSPO FROM OTHER ADAM WRITES TO here are the TWS

Kidnapping, Adam being an incel as usual, threats of violence , Degrading, Manipluation, Violence, Noncon listener, threats of SA ,Gasliting, narcissism and rape if that's not your cup of tea SCROLL

Your are an angel You made it into Heaven recently Heaven would be like a paradise but is kinda like your old life in the big city You have to get a job buy things and Just deal with the classic shit of reality even though your in the FUCKING PROMISELAND

You decided to just be what you did back in Yerevan city and just be a secretary but it was the person to hire you that was strange it was Adam the First man when you met him you expected him to be some wise, kind and Gentle soul but instead you got a creepy, weird man child that you needed to cater to at every Second, Like you could just be standing in Adams office when he says "hey bitch bring me that soda bottle" the bottle was 2 inches out of reach. It seemed like he took pleasure in seeing you be miserable he always said "good girl good good girly" LIKE YOU ARE A FUCKING PET

Every second of your time with Adam was hell he was rude gross and was a FUCKING MISOGYNIST today while you were giving him a back massage he said "yes good girly" again as usual like you were a fucking pet but then he said "that's all you women are good for to serve men" this Made you even more angry but hey the pay is good and that Leeds to today You walk in sad as usual into Adam mansion when he starts making comments about something your already insecure of your wings he rubbed your wings and he then said "heh bitch your wings are so dirty you a fuckin slob yknow that but a hot one at that" he then Grabbed your ass and that's when you broke "GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME" you yelled "I QUIT" you then storm of and back into your apartment crying about the insult of your wings and just fed up in general But that's when you get a text from Adam he always texted you when you were working for him but you quit it read "You really thought you could leave me you DUMB WHORE I treated you soo well I gave you everything you could of wanted and this I how you repay me I don't even need you you stupid fucking slut"

You were used to Adams shit by now but this this was just something else you text back "Adam stop messaging me Ill be back tomorrow at 10 am to get my stuff from my office and you better not try ANYTHING" he then responds "why would I try to interact with a brain dead whore anyway" that hurts you but you brush it off "being verbally abused by that dickhead isn't worth the pay" you thought before going to sleep

The next day you woke up at your alarm you got dressed but on a casual Black hoodie with Sweat pants because you weren't doing anything today other then going to Adams mansion to pick up your stuff. you flew over to his mansion only A 13 minute fly before landing at the door you were nervous but you knocked you waited and waited until someone opened the door "wow the whore really had the nerve to show her face again' He snarled "well I cant be to mad at you your fucking hot all we have to do to make your perfect is Shave down those ugly wings" he said in a arrogant tone. You walk inside and go to were your stuff is before you hear Adam locking the door 'what the fuck are you doing Adam" you snarl His mask lights up into those annoying little circle eyes he looks like a giddy child

"well I Talked to The big man upstairs if you get what I'm saying and since he would NEVER Say no to his precious Adam his first creation the person who gets ALL his love and affection he said I could keep you since your such a low ranking angel and you have no family in heaven no one will miss you " He still looked like a giddy child while saying this as all of a sudden He pulled out a stunning ring filled with jewelry and gems and luxury "cmere" he says before Walking towards you he towered over you, you were a quite short and small angel being only 5,5 and he was a Huge 13,2 foot angel. " ADAM THIS IS NOT FUNNY" you yelled at him but he said "Bitch? its not supposed to now were gonna cuddle and snuggle because Im feeling lonely and you cant do JACK SHIT" he sounded firm and serious you were scared and try to make a run for it but were tackled down "fuckin bitch your not escapin" he said before tossing you over his shoulders and taking you into his room upstairs and throwing you onto the bed before "cuddling" with you which was more like Wrestling a teddy bear he managed to restrain you with ease and he giggles "I love small girls like you so short and weak easy for me to... Manhandle" he says in an ominous tone you keep squirming and this just makes him giggle "so feisty" he says "don't worry my little Slut I'll fix you sooner or later I'll break your brain down till its just mush then I'll rebuild it to my liking and then you'll be loyal to me just me unlike those last 2 whores I married ill make sure you never leave" he says in a low coo ''i don't like you adam' you hissed he then got surprised "oh talking back to me don't you know who I am Im Adam the first man and your my new Wife you were created from my fucking rib you have to that me for your existance Im a superior being and your just my Wife you should me grateful so many people would beg to be in my presence and your trying to leave it ungrateful whore" he hissed as he started down at you you noticed he was starting to undress first his shirt then his pants then his Underwear but he kept that stupid mask on

His dick is fucking massive it was huge or maybe you are just small but damn and around it is just a bush of his grey hair He even has a piercing on his cock and his dad Bod OMG but as much as you hate it he was hot "like what you see" Adam teased you try to squirm away only angering him Well if your gonna resist I guess I'm gonna have to fuck that tiny pussy lose he said eagerly before starting to Teasing his cock around the hole "sh sh sh sh sh shhhh let it happen" Adam cooed "your my new wife you like this you have to your just in denial" he giggled before saying "Oh your sooo small My dick might kill you I bet I'd bet I'm like I don't know fucking 11 feet taller then you and my dick is huger then anything I've bet you've seen" he teased while rubbing his cock at the entrance of your pussy "damn it I just cant hold back" Adam yelled "p-p-please stop Adam" you whimpered but it just turned him on more as he said "going in bitch" suddenly you feel his entire dick in you it was huge and painful you were not enjoying yourself but Adam was "f-fuck babe I'm fucking you loose" he laughed as he kept fucking me so hard I felt like I was gonna throw up blood and organs he rearranged with every thrust it felt like a new bone in your body was being reangared you tried to flap your useless little wings which just made him think you were even more about how precious you are "that's so cute the only thing I dislike about you is your wings they get in my way might have to clip your wings soon" he teased scaring you He kept thrusting and more and more got hurt the more you pleaded whimpered yelped winces or squealed the more turned on he got as he was thrusting he laughed at the bulge in your stomach from his dick "it went to far in you really do like this ya whore"

You let out a whimper when he said that and that was the turning point he said "f-fuckkkkk I'm cummingim cumming" before long ropes of the warm jizz entered your pussy "yeah get pregnant bitch that's your only purpose breeding machines for men" he said at you and said let me clean myself up He then gets a rag and clean you and him up before seeming to get more gentle

"look I'm sorry when I get horny I go feral this is not how I am most of the time your just so fucking hot I just c-cant control myself" he said while cuddling you "I love you I really do and this world is cruel you have no family here no friends Nobody I'm the only one you have so im taking you under my wing figurative and literally" he said laughing since he tucked you in between his warm chubby chest and his soft comforting wings he then gets really soft and says "I've seen you on your own and your in so much danger so many people will try to take advantage of you and you have nobody to run to but me so I take it as my duty to protect you and coddle you like the cute little toy your are" he says that in a low coo while petting you his soft voice seemingly temporally calming you down you start to stop Wriggle and start giving up and snuggling into him causing him to turn bright red "their ya go girlly your a good little Beliver right so you should worship me if it wasn't for me you would not me alive you would not of been a thought you have to thank me for everything and disobeying me is just like spitting in the face of God it will get you banished to rot in hell ya get that" he pats your head as you cuddle into his chest since he's so big you look like a little housecat on his chest ''thats it just let my voice soothe you to sleep once you wake up tomorrow your life will be soon much better he teased as you snuggle against his body "nighty nighty" he says before you drift off to sleep

[theredstargalaxy]

Welcome!

Hello, everyone, and welcome to our little patch of heaven! I know I made an intro post before, but I feel that it’s become outdated already. So, after this post has been submitted, the old one will be unpinned, and possibly deleted, along with the original system intro post. Because all of our info will be in this one submission! Now, without any further delays, let’s get started!

About the Host

My name is Shane, but you can also call me Sylum! I’m 30 years old. I’m physically disabled, chronically ill, and I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety, depression, and inattentive type ADHD. I’m part of the Alterhuman community, meaning that I don’t psychologically identify as a human (This can also include spiritually for some people, but not me.). More specifically, I’m primarily fictionkin. I identify as an individual member of a fictional species known as the Buma from Final Fantasy VII– even more specifically, a subspecies that I developed, called the Icicle Variant. If you’d like to know more, please feel free to message me.

My secondary kintype is shapeshifter. A paleo shapeshifter to be more precise, meaning that I can mentally shift to any extinct species at any given time. So you may wind up talking to a living, breathing dinosaur at some point.

My third kintype is the mythical Kirin/Qilin, a creature that's said to descend from the Chinese Long dragon, or are associated with the Japanese god, Raijin.

Important Info: Due to my anxiety, I may not reach out to anyone outside the system. If you’d like to talk, please send a DM. Please be patient with me, as it may take a bit for me to respond. If anyone’s up front aside from myself, they may answer in my stead. Please be aware that some system mates aren’t social. So I apologize in advance if they come off as rude.

Now, it’s time for the fun part! Let’s meet the system!

Note: I’ve decided to use an almost sci-fi space marine/military naming theme in regards to their roles. (I’m a nerd. Shush./j) Please be aware that the guys aren’t all like their source materials.

The Red Star System

Let’s get one, very important detail out of the way: We are an Endogenic System, meaning that we don’t stem from trauma of any sort. If you would like to know about non-traumagenic plurality, please check out the ICD-11, as it’s a tad more in date than the DSM-5. Now that that’s out of the way, let’s get on with member introductions!

Good afternoon! I’m Knockout, the Chief Medical Officer of the Red Star System. My job is to make sure that the host’s body is well taken care of. Everything from reminding Shane to eat, to administering medication, to checking blood sugar is my responsibility. I’m often at the front whenever Shane experiences some form of medical issue. Or, when he goes to see a human doctor. I often help him cope with medical anxiety whenever it rears its ugly head. Please note that, due to my job as a medic back home, that I may not respond to questions or comments right away. And please don’t ask me for medical advice. I may be the Chief Medical Officer here, but that doesn’t mean I know everything about human biology.

Heyya! I’m Breakdown! I’m kinda like a nurse, which is also what I am back home! I help Knockout with medical stuff in the field, and I help take care of Shane! I also double as a Security Officer. Ya know, making sure that our little guy’s safe and sound! I usually come out whenever there’s a physical problem that needs solving; like figuring out the safest place to park his chair. It doesn’t sound like much, but I promise you that it’s important work! Like Knockout, I might be busy with other things, so I might not answer right away.

Greetings. I am Starscream, the Commander– though Shane insists that rank and duty are two separate things here. Regardless, my job is to ensure our host’s physical safety, as well as maintain his psychological security. I am often at the front whenever he is under extreme stress, and needs to be removed from the situation. I am a boundary enforcer; I make sure that certain lines are not crossed. I suggest you tread carefully, unless you wish to face my wrath.

Hi there! I’m Nanaki, and I’m one of the system’s Councilors! My job is to help Shane through some psychological issues. I don’t counsel him in regards to severe problems, like his depression spikes, but I can help him with his anxiety. I can also be a listening ear if he needs to vent. Please remember that I’m considered a minor in human culture, so please don’t mention anything adult whenever I’m at the front, okay?

Name’s Cloud. I’m a Security Officer– which means that I protect Shane from anything, or anyone, that might hurt him. I’m always on the clock, so if anyone tries anything, you’ll have to deal with me.

Hola! My name is Miguel O’Hara, and I’m the system’s head Security Officer. I usually front whenever Shane feels threatened by someone/something. Or, if he’s experiencing acute distress. If anyone gets particularly outta line, it’s my job to make sure they get back in line. Because I’m my universe’s Spider-Man, and a protector of the multiverse, I might not be around all that much. However, I’ll try to respond, or post, whenever I have the time.

Sup? I'm Hawks, better known as Keigo in some circles on here. I'm Shane's social manager and social regulator. Whenever he needs help navigating social situations, or just needs a break from social demands, I swoop in and save the day! If you ever DM us or send us asks, the chances of me answering are actually pretty high! I'm around pretty often, so don't be surprised if you see yellow text!

Hey. My name is Kai Chisaki, also known as Overhaul. I don't really go by that anymore; it leaves a bad taste in my mouth whenever I hear it. I'm a Medical Officer, which means I'm usually in Co-con, helping Shane with his medical anxiety, or making sure he takes care of himself. Unlike most of the people here, I'll be around pretty often. Though, I might not answer any DMs or asks.

Sup? I'm Toya. I'm a protector and boundary enforcer. I keep people in line so Shane doesn't have to worry about 'em. I'm usually nice--as long as ya don't fuck with him. If ya wanna talk to me, just drop a DM, or ask, or somethin'. I don't care. If Shane gets spooked and birdbrain ain't around, you'll likely be dealin' with me, so don't be shocked if I reply to ya.

DNI IF YOU ARE:

Anti-Endo

A transphobe, TERF, Homophobe, etc.

A Pedophile/MAP.

A Zoophile.

An ableist.

Anti-Otherkin.

Anti-Fictionkin.

Transabled (I am actually physically disabled)

Transrace

We hope to see you folks around some time soon! Thank you for taking the time to read all of this! We appreciate it!

[valeisaslut]

hello my dear, my beloved mootie.

i just wanted to say i hope you're doing good and that you're actually relaxing now when summers here. i see you publishing masterpiece after masterpiece, which i've all read giggling kicking my feet, feeling like a spoiled brat. i always see you on my tl answering inboxes with such precision and thoughtfulness. i just hope you get some time for yourself as well <3

btw as i'm typing this i realized i have to tell you that the book binding for collide is in the works, doing it when i dont work as much. its gonna take more time than i thought. my friend, that i just made get a blog, is gonna paint the cover. i'll update you on the process baddie.

!! you totally don't have to answer this inbox, just wanted you to know that i hope you're resting, that i see and admire your hard work. also i didn't know if it would be weird to dm you so just sending it here instead. (also its so funny that we're mutuals on tiktok too lol, feels like an invasion of your privacy having your reposts on my fyp sometimes).

sending you hugs!

oh fel… ♥️ my sweet, loving, insanely talented mootie, this ask hit me like a hug from across the internet. i read it as soon as it came in and — no exaggeration — i started crying. like ugly tears, hand-over-mouth, “oh my god” kinda crying. because sometimes i forget. sometimes i forget who i am as a writer, or i get too overwhelmed with tumblr itself — the noise, the negativity that sneaks in — and i forget that at the core of all of this, the words still matter. that the story still matters. that people still matter.

and then i get something like this. one that reminds me why i started, why i stayed. why i didn't stay as a ghost writer, or stopped posting after collide, my actual and original plan. one that reminds me that what came out of a lonely, hopeful 18‑year‑old in her bedroom can mean something so deep to someone else. that it can outlive its ending, and outlive that version of myself. that it can still matter long after it’s finished. that i can still matter long after it’s finished.

you have no idea how much it means to me that you’re binding collide. that you’re putting all this love and effort and thought into making it something you can hold, with a cover painted by a friend… that’s more than anything i could’ve ever hoped for when i was a lost, awkward girl tapping away at her keyboard. it’s beautiful and overwhelming in the best possible way.

thank you for reminding me that i’m not just yelling into a void, that this space can still be soft and warm and hopeful. thank you for reminding me that this thing we built together doesn’t just live in tags and posts, but in hands and hearts. thank you for seeing me when i forget to see myself.

you’re a treasure, and i am so grateful for you every second. i can’t wait to see what you and your talented friend create — and i’ll be here, tearing up and grinning like a proud mom every step of the way. love you forever and always, fel. you’re so, so special to me 💗🥺 (and i love that we follow each other in tt too. ill start sending you tts)

[teddie-bear420]

tier list

OPINONS UNDER THE CUT

warning this is super long and ranty but does have some silly doodles ill post else where :)

-teddie bear 420

I have had several dreams about vaggie and lute and alastor, they plage my every waking moment. one was me going to smooch city with alastor (very scary that man does not wash his teeth). the others vaggie just shows up sometimes

really liked vaggie in her angel flash back, her hair cut was so cute, not a fan she still has pink eye but what eves. I LOVE HER PONY TAIL THO, give my girl better hair styles!!!

do you think theyve explored each others bodies?

I hated lute at first cuz, just look at her. you could get snow blindness with how white that woman is oh my lord. but once the 8th episode rolled around with hot women fighting my brain kinda clicked on for our old second in command. i keep going back to her in my brain and slowly morphing her into a heart broken lesbian who has a superiority complex and bullies her crush and then moves on to having a sugar mama situation ship with Lilith.

alastor is just so fun and silly, and there's this one x reader fic that ive made fan art of, you've all seen it. i just love this guy but i like to imagine he's a woman just for me :)

i understand why he is a fan favorite

i love charlies look but i hate how childish she is, like girl you are like 24 kill your friends pimp. nifty molly emily are all so cute and i enjoy looking at them. cant wait for the nifty episode (delusional)

i do love nifty more than the rest of these ones tho. i see lots of folks talking about how nifty is alastors daughter or angel dusts little baby daughter SHUT UP

SHES 25 YEARS OLD AND MURDERED HER HUSBAND IN HER SLEEP. NIFTY CALLED ALASTOR OVER TO HAVE THEIR LUNCH DATE AND HIDE THE BODY!!!

OK maybe nifty lives in my dreams too

do you think theyve explored each others bodies?

mimzy makes me mad cuz the show hated having her there clearly, like why is she the only fat person in hell. dont worry girl, I'll appreciate you once again i have to make alastor a dyke for my own sanity

do you think they-

lilith and rosie are good to look at, i like how rosie talks and her showtunes, god i love her show tunes. pentious is the only yellow dude in hell. velvete looks like ass most of the time but I LOVE A BAD BITCH

like i said, no strong feelings

ok most of these dudes are too ugly or too annoying and i hate when they are on screen, lucifers pants are his skin, angel dust has the worst fashoin sense ever UGHS I HATE HIM WHERE ARE HIS TITS WAAAAAA

also i love that her name is sarah, thats such a basic name, like i can type alastor x reader and theres a bunch of results but if i typed sarah x reader, shes no where :(

also shes got that mlp horse face going on i love it

i despise carmilla carmine, i hate her dumb horns, i hate her unnamed daughters, i hate her skirt, i hate her song, i hate her blazed ass eyes, i hate her long hair

vox just looks bad i cant lie

OK ADUM MAKES ME SO MAD HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN JACK BLACK WE SHOULD HAVE SEEN HIM BEING A FAT BASTARD CUZ I WAS CONVINCED HE WAS ANOTHER SKINNY TWINK also i am an anti shipper when it comes to adum x lute cuz that shit is weaaaak. he is so mean to her and not in a hot way, adum is some incel and lute is a goddess

yeah, #adumisoverparty 2024 the most divorced man in heaven

i can not wait for season two dude, im so pumped

[anoonimthepoorchad]

I went to see my teacher the other day, hadn't been to my old school in ages. Since it's the centre of the city, she told me missiles were flying over the school during air raids and sometimes the kids barely had the time to hide in the basement.

On my way home I passed a small trophy weaponry installation, with broken russian tanks and artillery that was beyond repair and couldn't be reused for fighting back in the war. Among those were missiles, similar to those used against us, the civilians, including me. When I hide in the corridor with my family and shake while explosions sound from different directions, I can't imagine clearly what is exactly the danger in the air. I kinda envision a meteor or a burning essence of death staring at my home with hunger and bloodlust. But it's a piece of metal with a huge pack of dynamite covered in various wires. It's thick as a human and slightly taller than me, around 2 meters long I think (I'm 170cm).

A piece of ugly death, the kind everyone in the world is afraid to meet, just out here, dormant, quiet, dead. And then you go away from it, following the usual routes on the streets, because there is so much to do to survive, but the metal piece of death is still there, it's everywhere, and even when you go to sleep it looks straight at your body like at a corpse. It follows your future and you feel it when the sirens start screaming, or when your phone is bursting with worried messages and air raid updates. You can even feel it in everyday life, when you start questioning whether the money you spent on holiday sweets or cheap junk food could have saved you in the future, or saved someone's life on the frontline. And you know you don't do enough but who's there to blame for it if not you. Now you're hunted by two enemies: russians and your own sins, and they never stop following you.

Of course, you live to see another day after dangerous nights, and you keep doing what you can to help. But similar to kinzhal missiles, that are called kinzhals or daggers because they stick into targets and then explode inside of the buildings, russians have already wounded you by endagering your life, home, future, family, everything. Then you feel the dagger inside your mind explode, poisoning every second of "peaceful" life. I've survived the first wave but with each day I can feel the glass and shrapnel poking around my skull, making me behave irrationally or depressively, driving me to believe there is no future for me. I know we'll win, there is no other way, but personally I'm plagued by the damage caused to my psyche. Like everyone else here, in some way or another, we're hurt from the war and we're not safe at all, still fighting for our survival and for the hope of a better future.

I guess the only way I can conclude this post is to ask for help from people reading it. Spread the news about Ukraine, read more about current events from Ukrainians, even on this hellsite. Beware of russian propaganda, don't forget that russians are responsible for this hell. Learn and read and grow to put a stop to this illness of imperialism in your hearts at least. May we all see a better future as result of our fight.

[toomanythoughts2]

GodKlok HC Ideas + Old Fic Idea

In order for my old fic idea to make any sense, I need to first discuss my ideas for Godklok and how they present to me.

GodKlok HCs

Setting: Post-AOTD

Toki: To me, Toki is the messenger of death. He isn't just the god of death, but a messenger, which is further pushed by his association with rabbits. After AOTD, there is still a lot of destruction and death around the world. Toki's duty as the messenger is to guide those who have passed into the other world and also grant those the peace of death who hadn't quite died. He has to basically travel the world and help guide masses of people to the other side and take others along with him. Rabbits are used as his personal messengers through the worlds, mainly to help Toki keep track of the other side. Now, Toki, being a messenger, can also call on and talk to anyone who has passed through possession, meaning, as that being who exists in both realms, he can grant whoever is trying to speak with the living world his body to talk. This shows in a number of different ways such as a simple possession to downright body modification to look, sound, and act like that person when they were alive. He also works in getting messages between loved ones who have passed and who have note, which his bunnys help out with the most. If it's super important, he'll deliver the news himself as the passed on loved one

Skwisgaar: Skwisgaar is life BUT he is not healing! I want to make that clear because I don't think Skwisgaar's duty is to necessarily heal the sick or heal the world, his duty is to provide fertility for the world to heal on its own. For example, there was an interview that stated that Dethklok's music made women hella horny, right? Skwisgaar's influence doesn't make people healthier, it's gives their body's the ability to create and continue. Now, I also see him very tightly connected to music, more so than any other member. That being so, Skwisgaar's influence to encourage life is passed on through his music. I see him spending a lot of time Post-AOTD playing in different areas, affecting the earth and its people. For example, if Skwisgaar were to play on a patch of scorched earth, his influence would allow that earth to become fertile once more, allowing nature to grow there again. His influence also helps re-grow the population, giving humans the ability to grow in numbers in way they have lost. He would spend a lot of time working in tandem with nature to create pieces that fit them. In a way, he can listen to the earth and it's people and know what to play back in order to get the best result. In a way, if Toki is the Messenger of Death, Skwisgaar is the Harbinger of Life.

Pickles: Ok, I know Pickles is the god of Chaos but stay with me on this. I think Pickles is also of the god Alchemy AKA he is the god of healing. As the person who is chaos, who understands chaos, who grew up in chaos, who is (in a way) immune to chaos (drugs and alcohol), he would be the one who could fully understand how to tame chaos. With his knowledge of so many substances that bring chaos, he would be able to understand how to take it out of the equation and start to heal people around him. Nothing is more chaotic than pain and war, something that they are all suffering from after AOTD. I think, once Pickles has a handle on his duties and powers, he could create concoctions and blends from, not only the substances he uses on a daily basis, but the substances of the world around him, kinda like a medicine man. He knows how to get the desired affect out of different ingredients, which allows him or help those who are hurt or ill. He spend a lot of time hands on with people all over the world and helping provide the necessary drugs for victims.

Murderface: Murderface is the god of ugliness HOWEVER! I think this can be heavily interpreted into something else. In respects to AOTD, I believe that there is nothing more ugly than war. That being said, Murderface is 1. a war fanatic 2. a "morbid crap" fanatic and 3. a jack of all trades. Murderface has a natural inclination toward war and history, ultimately liking the "ugly" parts of war. He is also someone who understands a lot about everything but is not an expert in anything either. For these reasons, Murderface is the god of war and turns into a tactician. His duty is to help the populations be able to face what has happened to them and then provide a plan of what they need to do next. Now, he isn't an expert in anything, so he has to have experts in their fields around him to help, but he is able to craft that much larger picture to start from. Being able to understand "ugliness" means that people must know the truth, and the truth will ultimately set you free. By not being afraid, by saying that he will face this "ugliness" head on, gives others the courage to look at it to and not be afraid.

Nathan: Nathan is the all encompassing sheer dominating power, which we have seen him use in the shower before. HOWEVER! In AOTD, Nathan deliberately went from "the fist" to "the hand" which ultimately changed him as well. Nathan is the voice, he's the spokesperson, he is that over arching power, BUT he is not scary. He is not terrifying. In fact, he becomes this calming presence of, "Nathan is here. Everything is going to be ok." which is what happened when he became "the hand". His voice is used to speak to people day in and day out, whether it be face to face or on tv or over radio, he has the ability to calm nations, to provide security, to provide HOPE! His job is the most important of them all because without his presence helping the public trust them, trust the others, they wouldn't be able to do their job. Think of it like a gothic superman mixed in with Brendon's own words of him being like Jesus and Dethklok are his prophets. He works in tandem with the others so that they can do what needs to be done.

Old Fic Idea

Basically, time has passed since AOTD and the group are exhausted. They decide to take a break for a while. One day, Murderface corners Toki to ask him a question. He'd seen Toki use his body to give those who have passed a chance to talk to their living loved ones. Murderface asks Toki if there is a chance to speak to Knubbler. Unbeknownst to Toki, Murderface is feeling like shit about everything that happened. Toki agrees and they go into a separate room to do it. However, when Toki is calling out for Knubbler to come speak, he does not appear, which is the first time it happens. Murderface thinks Toki is doing it on purpose while Toki is freaking out that something is wrong with his connection. They seek out the others and tell them what happened, which they are all shocked about because they've all seen Toki call onto the other side without fail. So Toki wants to run an experiment, they give him a person to contact and see if he can get to them.

So Pickles goes first and asks to speak to an old friend of his in high school who passed away from an OD. When Toki calls, he answers. Pickles and his friends share a tearful reunion, where Pickles apologizes for what happened to him that night but his friend reassurances him that there wasn't anything he could have done to save him, that he holds nothing against Pickles, and that he's glad he was able to be his friend when he was still alive. Upon coming back, Murderface asks again to see Knubbler, to no avail.

Skwisgaar is up then and he asks to see his grandmother (you can rip Grandma Skwigelf out of my dead fingers, I love her) He feels a weird sense of shame in front of her, feeling like he didn't turn out the way she wanted him to be (mild-mannered, average, married, children) but she reassures him that he wouldn't have him any other way, that she always knew he was destined for greatness. She knew since the moment he was born. So after, yet again, another tearful reunion, where she tells Skwisgaar how proud she is of him, she leaves. Murderface tries once again for Knubbler but gets no one. Toki and the guys are very worried about this revelation.

So lastly, Nathan asks to see old childhood dog, who passed after young Nathan left the back gate open by accident and he got hit by a car. While no words are exchanged, the dog is very clearly not upset with Nathan and missed him. When the dog leaves, Nathan tells him that he expects to see him first when he passes, which the dog barks at. Finally, Murderface is at his wits end and demands to see Knubbler. So Toki tries one more time and finally, someone connects.

But it's not Knubbler.

It's his mom.

After a very tense moment, she rejoices him and Murderface, for the first time in possibly forever, is held by his mother again. She explains how proud of him he is, how much she loves him, how she never once stopped believing in him. But Murderface is so strung up on Knubbler's death that he can't accept her grace and love. This is when she reveals that Knubbler is not dead. He's not dead because he too is still apart of the prophecy in some way and his journey has not ended. It will one day, but for now, he is performing his own duties on another plane. Murderface is finally able to believe her then and accept her love before it's time for her to go.

After this, the guys are relieved that nothing is wrong with Toki's connection and that Knubbler is still "alive" in a sense and working. At the end of the story, Murderface asks if they think that once Knubbler does truly pass that he'll answer Toki's call and talk to them (though he really means him), which they tell him yes.

[its-xornoth-bitch]

new intro post cz the old one is ugly

hi. i'm xornoth.

you probably know me as a literal demon. i am not. i was corrupted by an evil god. i'm still kinda dealing with that so... if i'm doing weird shit that's why.

yes, i have come back to rivendell. no, i will never be in a position of power. if you think, even for a second, that i would let scott put me in charge of anything, why? and even if i did, why would he want a mentally ill still slightly corrupt guy in charge of anything in his kingdom?

Roleplay blog, run by @can-i-explode-now

Xornoth is aroace, autistic and uses he/they/it

I am aroacespec, autistic and use basically any pronouns?? (I'm andy/tilly)

I'm also a minor.

Xornoth is also an asshole so I will be mean. It's not you, he's just a little bitch.

Anything tagged with "#we were children." is young Xornoth (eleven)

[spectral-idiot]

HI, NOW, (RE)INTRODUCING MY OC, NOELLE

HII, SINCE THIS OPTION WON SOME DAYS AGO IMMA INTRODUCE MY CUTIE!!! I LOVE HER SO MUCH

Due to the flop of the first post, I posted this a 2nd time since i posted this at 3 am originally :D

° Her name is Noelle (Ignore the big "Elaine" in the drawing, that was the original name) she is 14 years old and she is Kalish! She is a cutie patootie whit diagnosed ADHD

° She is an red giant star! She tooks the MC place and has the energy electric center! A little (too) distracted , kinda impulsive and maybe reckless, but she has such a beautifull flame inside her and is so big-hearted.

° I based her design on how I looked when I was 14 a couple years ago. Whit the signature bun I had and my love for tank tops and bracelets (Till the dermatitis nation atacked)

°Her lore is kinda dumb, but I wrote it sooooo long so ill release it in other post whit some ugly art i did 4 her if this post get´s love

°I´ve done a ship whit Kieran and her, Chocolapple! :D Since she hates apples but loves chocolate and kieran vice versa (The olive theory)

°If you have ideas of her or how to improve her, let me know! Ideas like that will be apreciated! Or ideas of her team, i have no ideas about how to build it

Fun facts below the cut!

° Her surname is Lambert, she is from Kalos, she is 1.58 mts tall and weighst 67 kg

°Her favourute color is velvet or a soft pink, her favourite songs are Amour plastique and Rosas by La oreja de van Gogh

°She loves so much macarons, chocolate, tea, ham sandwiches and "Media luna rellena" (An arg dish that consist croissant used as ham an cheese sandwich bread)

° Her themes are:

Encounter: Queen - Deltarune

Battle! (Normal): Gourmet Race - Kirby

Battle! Vs Kieran (Championship match): Heartache - Undertale

The Santalune theme plays when you get in her room

° She speaks Kalish and paldean pretty well, as a native. Arven gave the fella extra paldean lessons, but despite being the main pokeworld language, she struggles whit Galarian (Poor girl) she had to take a preetty hard galarian exam to enter Blue berry (Sometimes a "Wi" or an "Orwa" scapes her mouth talking paldean or galarian) (If she wakes up too sleep deprived she confuses languages)

° That makes her have an horrible galarian accent, just imagine french tongue and spanish tongue tryng to pronounce english and fuse voth struggles. She speaks galarian to comunicate whit kieran, that made their bond even harder since none of them speaks it that well

°She is a sweet thoot, but she happens to hate apples, when Kieran gave Noelle a candy apple, hoping that she would love it, she didn´t like it and he got disaapointed

°She hasn't ogerpon in her team since she saw indigo disk kieran (If you lost the battle snd then you say she should catch it, the fact that you are not onay whit that isnt clear, Kieran)

°In BB she is laceys vest friend since they are both cute things lovers and sweet thoots

° She taught nemona and arven to cook "Pokelitos" for their pokemon! And then she also teaches lacey

°She calles her pokemon amies :D

°And she knows how to sew snd makebeautiful dresses, she loves confectioning dresses 4 lacey and nemona, she modified her uva uniform to have an skirt

°She will wear the summer uniform from both BB and Uva until she is freezing (She loves summer uniform so much)

[keyofradiance]

youve heard all about how ive hated change before, time to hear it again!

(honkai ui edition)

really just a post discussing what i like and dont like abt the ui

whys everything so sharp its soooo ugly

restructuring of the main buttons is fine (i will miss you valkyja tho) except for the little “important thing” button it feels off not being next to attack

new supply icon is much weaker

equipment to equip is a weird choice

of course the new elf button is elysia. its nice art tho

i get what theyre doing with the attack button but it looks out of place

the small buttons all look really good actually

the really transparent buttons make them feel smaller even the ones that got larger

dont like the new “click” noise. its like.. wet? i think the old one fit fine

the dark box for the notifs bar amount is super out of place

bar itself is pretty much unchanged so

ill miss the italic writing but i get why it was changed

captain lvl exp bar parts that are unfilled are really hard to see. like it goes all the way to the bp but barely looks that way

the new phone fucking sucks like its literally just a rectangle

the “new!” text is hard to read actually

text is just unnaturally small

old maxed stamina is much better

the orange notifs are abt the same

more hexagons please

the weapon being visible is pretty sick actually

MY FUCKING BRIDGE. ITS GONE. AND REPLACED WITH THE VOID RELATED TO TYPE. IM SO MAD ITS SOOOOOO FUCKING UGLY FREE ME FROM THIS GENSHIN ASS DESIGN

back and home should both have text like serious downgrade

you can click on the type the valk is and see the type chart which is super nice actually

i like the multiple indicators of type in the new character selection considering they replaced the old backgrounds

even more slants/italics killed.. so sad

smaller icons for the select is kinda annoying but i do get it

the outfit/photo/etc buttons being together out is nice

stigmata thing should be bigger its just a lot of blank space thats really ugly

clear guide/tutorial/appreciation mode buttons are really nice

i dont think shes centered anymore

the lack of crystals/coins/stamina bothers me.,you use these to upgrade/get characters why would you remove them

lack of boxes around the skills and battlesuit info is also really ugly

still doesnt seem to have easy access to gear/team plans

[parabiota]

Worstie has a lolcow now

I am a bit conflicted in how I feel about this.

I am no doubt involved with this a little bit (they reference my callout / various posts documenting her scamming) but I personally do not have a lolcow account(?) + have an immense distaste for the website. While people reference my documentation there, I want to be clear that I am not and will not be posting anything on that website. Idk I think the people who use that website regularly need to get a job or a hobby. Why are you guys using the word ‘kek’ in 2025. Embarassing.

I find kaijuno to be a downright disgusting person for her scamming + lying but ultimately she is severely mentally ill and I’m not for people excessively harassing her/baiting her/etc. If your only contribution to this topic is to call her fat or ugly, then you’re just spending your time LARPing as a middle school bully. That’s just as cringe as the shit she is doing IMO. I’m not going to pretend that I don’t partake in schadenfreude but you need to have some class about it.

I’m trying to take a harm reduction policy on this — ie focus more on her scamming (the thing that’s actually causing harm) & less on the fact that she is cringe. In my eyes, her lying about her STEM degrees is directly tied to her scamming, but the real issue is always going to be that she is taking money from people. If she stopped the begging, everything else would be weird & cringe, but ultimately harmless.

I did browse the thread tho and there’s a few things I’d like to comment about:

- as far as I can tell, she isn’t lying about having heterochromia (as in she doesn’t photoshop it) but is likely lying about how she got it (she claims she got hit with a rocket in the eye, most likely she was just born with it)

- There is a lot of really great screenshots of her discussing her academic status in that, which back up my theory of her dropping out sophomore year. I only had a hunch + weak proof so it’s nice knowing I was correct. It’s really sad to see old posts from 2015-2017 where she is so excited to be in uni and pursuing her passions. She really became the worst version of herself. You can see little pieces of honesty poke through her lying. I might make a separate post on this later. I find this super depressing and it almost makes me feel bad for her.

Anyways TLDR — I don’t fuck with lolcow, some of u bitches are just as cringe as she is, BUT there is some interesting new information. I will still be documenting her scamming but likely won’t check that thread again. I trust the overlap in people who follow me / check my blog for kaij updates will keep me posted if something interesting is uncovered. If not then whatever. I kinda just treat her like my personal soap opera at this point.