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After a brutal fight, you scream at Sevika, accusing her of caring more about Silco than she ever did about you, and she agrees and calls you a distraction.
when you leave she regrets it but she’s to late
my god i love that. thanks for the prompt!
the cut that always bleeds
content warning(s): wives fighting 😔
"i don't love you anymore, a pretty line that i adore five words that i've heard before 'cause you keep me on a rope and tied a noose around my throat you're gone, then back at my door"
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It had finally happened.
You’re sure of it, and it makes you go cold all over.
Your head is heavy from lack of sleep, but you can’t even stand the thought of lying down. Your heart’s pounding something awful in your chest, as if you’re waiting for the knock that would come any second, bringing the brutal news that you had lost your wife for good.
Sevika had promised you there was no external business tonight. She had promised that she would come directly home after the Chem-baron assembly, she had given her solemn word.
So either she was really dead, or—
The door swings open, hard, so that a thin rain of plaster and dust showers onto the floor. You see Sevika’s tall figure in the doorway.
You stand up.
“Shit,” Sevika mutters. “You spooked me. Why aren’t you asleep?”
Your voice is dangerously low. “Where have you been?”
Sighing heavily, Sevika takes off her cloak and throws it carelessly over the chair. “Silco needed me to take care of some loons trying to steal supplies near the harbor.” Without meeting your eye, she goes to the icebox and takes out a bottle of beer. “Then there was a misunderstanding with some fool merchant about a shipment for Topside—”
“Do you have any idea how worried I’ve been?”
Sevika looks at you over the bottle. “What?”
“What,” you echo. “Very nice. What. Because you can run around all day, all night at Silco’s beck and call without a care in the world, and I can just sit here worrying myself sick, right?”
“Baby, don’t start. I’m not in the mood.”
“Don’t baby me.” You slam your fist against the table, causing the empty glasses to jump.
Sevika just looks at you. Her cool silence makes you angrier than any insult could have done.
“I must mean nothing to you, don’t I?” You yell. “Is it too much to fucking ask that you send a message in advance, telling me you’ll be late?”
Sevika tips the bottle back, draining the whole thing in one sip. Then she calmly set it down on the table.
“You think I like sitting up here alone until the fucking morning, not knowing whether you’re alive or dead? If I matter less to you than a fuckin’ object, what are you keeping me around for? You might as well save us both the trouble and stop off at Babette’s every night after work.”
“You’re right, maybe I should.”
A deathlike silence falls.
You stare at her, shaking slightly, as her words sink through the air between you like stones in deep water.
Sevika must have seen the way your face changed, the shock in your eyes, and she must have realized the weight of what she just said, because she tries to backtrack. But the damage is done.
“This isn’t a relationship,” you say quietly. “The relationship you’re in, the one you’re fucking devoted to, is with that man in the office above the Last Drop. Just say so.”
“Don’t be ridiculous.”
“Fuck you!” You scream.
Sevika stands quickly, her eyes stony with anger. “What did you expect, then?” she says harshly. “Tell me. What’d you expect—honeymooning around the riverside, flying off to Noxus, for Janna’s sake? We’re at the brink of war.”
“Is that what you think? What am I, your fucking toy bride?”
“You’re not a toy,” she snaps. “You’re a distraction.”
A moment passes before you repeat, “a distraction.”
She glares at you. “Silco was right,” she says. “This whole thing—you—it was all just holding me back.”
The slap rings through the empty room.
Sevika stands unmoving, like she’s carved from stone. You watch her, eyes burning, palm stinging, waiting for a reaction, waiting for her to hit you back, yell at you, curse you out—anything. Anything to show that she felt something.
But she doesn’t say a word.
You shake your head, slowly. “You’re a jackass.”
Still no answer.
You turn on your heel and storm into the bedroom you shared with Sevika. You rip your few spare pieces of clothing off the hooks on the walls and roll them violently into a bundle, then stride back into the front room and yank open the door. Sevika is still standing in the same place, staring at the floor as if holding a silent argument with the floorboards.
Before you leave, you turn and say, “Sevika.”
She looks at you.
“You’re the worst thing that ever happened to me.”
The door slams behind you.
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Sevika listens to the dust settle. She stands in the dark room, feeling strange and vaguely angry. Suddenly she lets out a yell and grabs the empty beer bottle and hurls it against the wall. It shatters upon impact, the shards dancing across the floor.
Sevika stands, unsteady on her feet, swaying slightly. She grabs the back of a chair, ready to break it as well, then changes her mind and goes to take out another bottle of liquor.
Soon the world is comfortably fuzzy and nothing was ever real, your voice fades pleasantly into the back of her head like the thin buzz of electricity...
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Sevika wakes up among glass shards and splintered wood. Her head throbs like it’s ready to split open. She sits up with a groan, blinking in the daylight seeping through the small window. What time was it? Why was she sleeping on the floor? Why hadn’t you woken her up?
There had been this strange, funny dream she had…this dream where you were real mad at her…she should tell you.
Then she sees the open door of the bedroom, and the empty bed beyond it. Then she remembers—the fight, your anger, the sharp sting of your hand against her cheek. “No,” she mumbles to herself. She gets to her feet clumsily, staggering. “No.”
Stupidly she goes into the bedroom, as if you might be hiding somewhere in the corner or beneath the bed. She sees the empty hooks on the wall. She walks back out and opens the front door, looking up and down the apartment hall. She calls out your name in a hoarse voice.
But you’re not there.
#i have been awake for 48 hrs im about to pass out#apologies if this is a bit incoherent lol#sevika x reader#sevika#sevika arcane#sevika angst#sevika x you#sevika x female reader#song: the cut that always bleeds by conan gray
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Who Knew the Impact of Four Words?
Paring: Gojo x Long Term Girlfriend! Reader
Summary: After a few long years, he finally decides to ask the question
Warnings: Maybe the smallest bit suggestive?,
Author's Note: Hey guys so this is my first fanfic that I'll be writing upon my return. I'm really excited about this one I think it's very cute and fluffy, maybe a little comedic. I hope you guys enjoy it if people even read fanfiction anymore lol. Feel free to leave any feedback!
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"You busy tonight? ;)"
The words lit up on my phone from a familiar contact: satoru <3.
"Depends who's asking:
Sorcerer 'I have a mission for you' Gojo, or my boyfriend Gojo?"
I respond as I laugh to myself. We both worked at Jujutsu High together as teachers. It doesn't take long for my phone to light up with a response.
"Ur bf ;)))"
"Then yes"
"Be there at 8 wear something nice pretty girl"
I smile to myself. I was planning on a quiet night tonight, one where I just fill out some paperwork and grade some tests while I watch some movie I've seen a thousand times. I wasn't expecting to see him tonight as he was on some important mission that only he can do. He must've finished early I think to myself. Of course he did he's Satoru Gojo. I sigh and get up from the couch which I was sitting on and look at the clock.
7:01
Less than an hour to get ready. I walk over to my room closet and search for something nice to wear. Whatever that means. I search through my closet in search of something high enough for his expectations and after much debate I settle on a long flowy skirt decorated with small flowers and a dark colored blouse. I move to the mirror taking in my appearance.
"Good enough"
I think as I move to the mirror and sit down as I start working on my hair and makeup. I decide on touching up my makeup that I wore to work today and adding a few minor details. I'm just finishing putting my long curly hair up into a half-up half-down look when I hear a familiar knock pattern at the door. I open it, already knowing who it is. He looks me up and down and kisses me softly on the cheek, moving his lips to my ear and whispering softly.
"You look so beautiful, princess"
I smile and he drags me away. I ask him where we're going but he only responds with vague, open-ended answers as he smiles foolishly as he always does. I shake my head and smile softly as he leads me to wherever it is he intends on taking me.
"Satoru tell me where you're taking me, you know how much I hate surprises"
"And you know how much I love surprising you"
He laughs to himself as he responds. He seems overly joyful for someone who just got back from a mission. We keep walking and eventually I give up asking him and just resort to following him wherever it is we're going. He leads me to a building in the middle of the city and takes me up the elevator.
"Cover your eyes" he whispers to me playfully. I can tell he's really excited although I'm not sure why. I decide to give in to him and cover my eyes sarcastically.
"Not like that" he whines and adjusts my hands so they're better shielding my eyes. I laugh.
"But Satoru I can't see at all"
"Don't worry I'll guide you"
The elevator doors open and he pulls my arm forward. I follow him slowly and hesitantly, not wanting to trip and embarrass myself. He leads me forward and then stands behind me, pressing against my back. His arms rest on my hips and trail up my sides until he reaches my shoulders. He presses his hands on my shoulders and pushes my arms away from my eyes. I open my eyes looking around.
"Surpriseeeee" Gojo whispers in my ear softly. I can hear the smile in his voice.
We're on the rooftop of a building. The view is beautiful: the lively night life of Tokyo surrounds and encompasses us. There's a small round table in the middle of the open patio with a fancy white table cloth and softly dimming lights surrounding us.
"Satoru...." I trail off in awe.
"Like it?" I smile and nod my head. I wrap my arms around his neck and say softly.
"What's the occasion?"
"Does there need to be an occasion?" he asks cheekily.
He leads me to the table and pulls out the chair for me to sit down and then takes the seat opposite of my own and we begin to talk. I haven't seen him for a couple of days due to his mission, so we have a few things to catch up on. We discuss his students and my own along with new curriculum and updates on the students' mission and training statuses. I notice him growing more nervous which is very out of character for him.
"You don't have to worry you know, Megumi is progressing more than satisfactory. He'll be fine." I grab his hand reassuringly, completely unaware of what's about to happen this evening. His eyes soften as he looks at me and he chuckles.
"It's not that Y/N"
I look at him confused wondering what it could be that has him so nervous. I stare at him trying to figure him out but he just stays silent and smiles at me softly as he stares into my eyes. Hmm. Something's off I can feel it, I just can't seem to put my finger on it. He sighs and snaps me out of my thoughts, reaching into his pocket slowly.
"Y/N...." he trails off. My mind jumps to a million conclusions, and I finish his sentence before he has the chance to.
"You want to stop seeing each other?"
His eyes widen in shock, and he stutters a little.
"W-what? No why would you- No of course not... that's not-"
"Then what is it"
He pauses and pulls a small box out of his pocket and places it in my hand. I look down and stare at the box not fully grasping the situation at hand.
"It's actually quite the opposite" He pulls off his blindfold revealing his beautiful baby blue eyes.
"What are you proposing to me or something?" I ask sarcastically obviously not thinking that he is and that this is going in a completely different direction. He pauses for a moment, his eyes boring into my soul and then gets up. I look up at him as he stands over me sitting down in my chair. He's acting very strange, and I don't quite get why.
"What?" I ask him as I look up at him confused. He sighs.
"For someone so smart, I didn't think I'd have to spell it out so hard..." he slowly lowers down to one knee. My heart skips a beat and everyone that follows resonates loudly in my head.
"Y/N... I've known you for most of my life and I know it took me a while to admit it, but I love you, and I will for the rest of my life. You're the most amazing woman I know. You're a talented sorcerer, a great teacher, kindhearted, extraordinarily beautiful, and so funny. I'm the luckiest man in the world to say that you're mine. I want to be with you for the rest of my life, Y/N. You're the only one who can keep up with my banter and give the higher-ups as much as a run for their money. I couldn't imagine my life without you in it and I want to give you everything you deserve. I want to wake up next to you every single morning and spend every passing day with you so...
Marry me?"
My breath is caught in my throat. I stare at him, not being able to say anything. I don't even know what to say, my brain still can't process what's going on... that he's proposing... that he wants to marry me.... he wants to marry me? It's so hard for me to believe so I just stare.
"Baby? Please say something"
I'm probably freaking him out right now but I still can't think of what to say to him. Yes, say yes. I try but no words come out. I nod slowly and then frantically.
"Is that a yes?" I ask her. God I'm so nervous. Why are you so nervous? You'd be nervous too if you were asking a woman like her to marry you and she's not saying anything. I hear her voice ring out every so quietly, sounding like my own personal angel.
"Yes, I'll marry you Satoru" I see a smile, that beautiful smile, across her face and I can't help but smile in return. She's so beautiful. Before I can even finish admiring her for all that she is she envelopes me in a sudden hug, almost knocking me backwards onto the floor. The ring almost falls out of my hand, and I grab it frantically before laughing. She said yes. My arms find their place on her waist and I hold her tightly nuzzling my head into the familiar crook of her neck.
"Then I'm the happiest man in the world" I tell her as I kiss her neck softly. I feel tears soaking into my suit jacket and I pull away from her looking her in the eyes.
"Don't cry. You're supposed to be happy, not crying."
"I don't know why I'm crying." I laugh dryly as I tell him. His fingers meet my cheek, and he wipes away my tears softly, always gently.
"I always thought you were beautiful, even when you cry."
"You're too sweet Satoru." I lean in towards him pressing my lips against his softly. He kisses me softly and runs his hands into my hair, deepening the kiss. He kisses me passionately, lovingly, in only a way that he knows how. I could never explain it but it's like our lips were meant to be pressed together. I pull away from this kiss, pressing my lips onto his forehead.
"I love you Satoru"
"I love you more baby."
He grabs my hand softly and slips the ring onto my finger. It's beautiful, a large diamond embedded into a beautifully adorned ring.
"How do you feel about being Mrs. Gojo now?"
"As if I'd be taking your family name instead of my own."
He raises his eyebrow at me and then chuckles and picks me up bridal style.
"Come on let me get you home. I don't want to wait any longer to spend the rest of night with my new wife."
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Hey guys I hope you enjoyed it, let me know what you thought or if you have any feedback :)
#gojo#gojo x reader#oneshot#gojo oneshot#jjk x reader#fanfic#fanfiction#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen x you#jjk fluff#gojo fluff#satoru gojo x reader#satoru x reader#jjk#jujustu kaisen#jujutsu gojo#proposal#x reader proposal#gojo proposal#he proposes#gojo x reader proposal
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Ren: Blake Belladonna. Long time, no see.
Blake: Excuse me, I can't seem to remember your name, Mr...?
Ren: Locke. Hemmingway Locke. We used to work for the same company, before they... went under.
Blake: Oh, right. It's too bad what happened. But all good things must come to an end, don't they? Oh, excuse me again. This is my associate, Adam Taurus.
Ren: Mr. Taurus.
Adam: What brings you to Menagerie, Locke? Are you one of Sienna's clients?
Ren: Client? No. I'm more of a service provider.
Blake: I see. Well, it was nice to see you again, Hemmingway. Now, if you'll excuse us, Adam and I need to... mingle.
Ren: Of course.
Adam: See you around. (Looks to Blake) Fan of yours?
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Ren: Hello again, Ms. Belladonna. Mr. Taurus.
Adam: You're polite, if nothing else.
Blake: But sadly Mr. Locke is always out of time.
Adam: And what exactly do you do, Locke? Let me guess... banker?
Ren: Corporate liquidator.
Adam: (Chuckles) The guy nobody likes.
Ren: Only because they don't get to know me.
Blake: We should be going.
Adam: Will we see you again, Locke?
Ren: Maybe. I like to... lose myself in the crowd.
Adam: We might join you later then. Maybe have something to drink, too?
Ren: The night is young, Mr. Taurus.
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Ren: Ms. Belladonna. Mr. Taurus. We meet again.
Adam: So we do. You know, something weird I noticed when I tried checking your social media account. You automatically have your friend request blocked?
Ren: In my line of work, privacy is power.
Adam: Well, you certainly do take the most generic tourist photos, as well. The Argus Bay, Beacon Tower, and even the Menagerie Fish Market, but you never seem to be in any of them. Are you, perhaps... camera shy, Locke?
Blake: To be honest, I try to keep out of photos myself.
Adam: Uh-huh... Tell me, Locke, would you mind if we walk and talk? Alone? I have something I need to ask on the QT.
Blake: Adam, I think you have the wrong idea-
Ren: Oh, no, please. Lead the way.
Adam: Hmph... No offense, Blake, but your friend is getting... stalkery. (Walks away w/ Ren)
Adam: So... "Corporate liquidator," huh? That must be exciting.
Ren: There's nothing quite like it.
Adam: I'm sure. Take out the old so something new can take its place. I have something similar in mind, to be honest. Tell me, do you have a business card, or are those out of style now?
Ren: I don't like to advertise. It's better to rely on just word-of-mouth.
Adam: Oh? Only as good as the latest job, right? (Walks to secluded area) That must be stressful.
Ren: I like to stay on my toes.
Adam: Mhm... And what was your biggest job? The... biggest fish you... "liquidated"?
Ren: It's always the next one, Mr. Taurus. Always the next one.
Adam: Hm... Just up ahead.
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Adam: Alright. Enough bullshit. Who the hell are you really?
Ren: I told you already. Hemmingway Locke, corporate liquidator.
Adam: Right. Liquidator. You think I'm a fucking idiot? Your cute little plays on words might trick everyone, but not me. There's so such person as Hemmingway Locke; I'm White Fang, and I know a half-assed sock-puppet identity when I hear it.
Ren: ...Then who am I?
Adam: You're Blake's little assassin pet. But what I don't know is why you're here or why she's covering for you, but that's not important. You are my golden ticket to becoming the High Leader.
Adam: So, are you going to admit it?
Ren: ...If I am who you say I am, then may I ask if you really think THIS was the best course of action for you to take?
Adam: (Gestures to goons) It's ten-to-one.
Ren: I can see that. Can you see your mistake?
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Act 2, electric boogaloo, bc I love this
Kree: Oh shoot!
Kree: Excuse my vulgarity.
Heta: I’ll let it slide.
Vul: What was that?
Heta: My shirt fell.
Vul: It sounded a lot heavier than that.
Rose: They were in it.
Rose: You know the sound a fork makes in the garbage disposal? That's the sound that my brain makes all the time.
Vul: What did you two do?
Kira:
Rose:
Vul: You’re not in trouble, I just need to know if I have to lie to the police again or not.
Kree: Happy Throwback Thursday! Here’s a throwback to when Heta ate an entire tube of lipstick.
Heta, whining: But why would it be cherry-flavored if you can’t eat it?!
Heta: So, what are we doing?
Rose: Wasting our lives.
Heta: I meant for lunch...
Rose: Why do you keep a diary?!
Heta: To keep secrets from my computer.
Rose: *clicks pen*
Vul: *clicks pen in response*
Kira: Stop that.
Rose: Stop what?
Kira: You’re talking about me in Morse code!
Rose: Yes, that’s what we doing. In our very limited time, we took a class on a very outdated, very unnecessary form of communication just so we could talk about you in front of you. Congrats, you figured us out!
*later*
Vul, to Heta: That’s actually exactly what we were doing.
Rose: Are you busy?
Heta: Yes.
Rose: Cool, listen to this.
Rose: Could you guys at least try to see this from my perspective?
Kree: *crouches down*
Heta: *kneels down*
Vul: *sits on the floor*
Rose:
Rose: I hate all of you.
Rose: Vul.. I'm gonna cry!
Vul: Please don't.
Rose, crying: Request denied.
Kira: When did you become a hero?
Vul: Um… the moment I saved you from getting killed.
Kira: You’re the last person on earth I wanted to rescue me.
Vul: Well… sucks to be you, don’t it.
Vul: Coca Cola is a health potion, Pepsi is a mana potion.
Heta: What’s grape soda?
Vul: It’s fucking purple baby!!!
Kira: It’s Pride Month, you know what that means!
Rose: I get to eat as many Skittles as I want? Kira: What? No! What has Vul been telling you?
Vul, walking in, pouring Skittles into their mouth: Taste the rainbow, bitch.
Heta: WHOEVER CAUSED THIS MESS IS GOING TO-
Kira: It was me...
Heta: ...Is going to be forgiven because everyone deserves a second chance.
Rose: What, I can’t be in a bad mood? It’s like people think, “Oh, Rose is such a nice person, Rose is so happy-go-lucky! Rose can’t be in a bad mood!” Well, you know what? Rose CAN be in a bad mood. And right now, Rose IS be in a bad mood.
Kira to Rose: Turn that frown upside-down!
*a little while later*
Kira: What are you doing?
Rose, trying to do a handstand: You told me to “turn that frown upside-down” but it’s not working.
Heta: Would you rather kill Vul, or—
Kira: Yes, kill them.
Heta: I didn’t say the other thing—
Kira: I don’t need to hear it.
Vul: …I’m feeling a little unsafe.
Kira: Vul, I screwed up, big time.
Vul: Kira, given your daily life experiences, you’re gonna have to be more specific.
Rose: What are you guys playing?
Heta: Go Fish.
Rose: That’s a nice, safe game.
Rose: But don’t you need cards?
Heta: Where do you keep the spear gun?
Heta, getting dressed for a formal event: Hey, do you think I can hang myself with this tie?
Kira: Oh-ho-ho, no! You are NOT getting out of this the easy way!
*Kree is considering cancelling plans, and Rose and Heta are advising them on what to do*
Rose: Just don't go.
Heta: Say you’re ill! Rose:
Pretend to break your leg.
Heta: Really break your leg!
Rose: What are you writing?
Heta: The government wants to know what kind of weapons we have in the house. I'm letting them know it's private information.
Kree, looking over Heta's shoulder: This just says 'fuck around and find out' in calligraphy.
⚜ INCORRECT QUOTES ⚜
Bringing back an old tag game!!!
Rule: use this generator to create “incorrect quotes” for your wip
(I feel legally obligated to post something actually about Faerie's Dawn today and I want to meme these idiots lmao)
Cloud: Tell me a little about yourself. Nova: I'd rather not, I really like this group.
Nova: I hate when people ask me, 'What did you do today?' Buddy, listen, I woke up at noon and then it was five pm, okay? I don't KNOW!
Nova: I will be using so much pink you’ll be seeing green by the end from sensory deprivation.
Sky: You're violent. Nova: Yeah but I'm also short and that's adorable.
Nova: Wanna get out of here and grab a bite to eat? Sky: I don’t usually eat with losers. Nova: Neither do I but I asked you, didn’t I?
Nova: Branch, you’re in charge! Sky: Branch, can we start a fire?
[while waiting outside the principal’s office] Nova: What are you in for? Cloud: Oh, they just want to know if it’s cool if I miss my classes tomorrow to run sound and lights for a presentation in the auditorium. What about you? Nova: I stabbed a kid with a screwdriver. Cloud: Cloud: Cloud: We live very different lives. Nova: Yes, we do.
Branch: Be careful about succumbing to these sorts of destructive... urges. Addiction can be a powerful thing. Nova: So am I. Bow down before your new supreme overlord, bitches.
Nova: When I get Doordash I order 20 Cheeseburgers at a time and heat them up throughout the week so that I don’t have to pay the delivery fee multiple times. Branch: I hope you understand how food poisoning works. Nova: I hope food poisoning understands how I work. I've never met a burger I couldn’t eat.
Nova: Branch's amazing at concentrating. Once he starts reading, the only way he’ll notice you is if you take his book away. Not even if you hit him or shake him! Sky: That was him ignoring you.
Sky, at Nova's funeral: I need a moment with them. Everyone else at the funeral: Of course. [leaves] Sky, leaning over Nova's coffin: Okay, listen here you little shit. I know you’re not dead. Nova, sitting up in the coffin: Yeah, no shit.
Sky: I hope you have an explanation for this. Cloud: We have three, actually! Nova: Pick your favorite.
Cloud: I bet you’re wondering why I gathered you here today. It’s because we need to have a discussion about how some people in this room aren’t getting along with other people in this room. Sky: Why did you say that so vaguely? Nova and I are literally the only people you called in here.
Sky: I love sarcasm! It’s like punching people in the face, but with words!
Sky: [trying to buy a Father's Day card at Hallmark] Sky: Excuse me, do you have any that just say "You are my dad?" Associate: Well, I- Sky: How about "You banged my mom?" Associate: No... Sky: You know what, I'll just get a blank one. Sky: [writes] You are a father. This is a day. Here is a card.
Cloud: You gave me up, you let me down, you turned around, and deserted me. Sky: But did I make you cry? Cloud: [cries on the spot] Sky: ... shit.
Sky: We wouldn’t last two minutes without Nova. Sky: Sky: Don’t tell them I said that.
Cloud: What language do they speak at the center of the earth? Cloud: Core-ean! Sky: The center of the earth is around 5430 degrees Celsius! Nobody is going to live there, so they don’t need a language! Cloud: Core-ean.
Cloud: You know, it’s fine to admit you were wrong. Sky: [sipping his drink after accidentally adding salt] I just like the way it tastes.
Branch: I never tell people off the bat that I'm gay. I wait. I wait until they say some homophobic shit and then I laugh and am like "you know I'm gay, right?" and watch the look of terror on their face. Sky: Sky: I like you.
Shade: Can you recommend a book that'll make me cry? Sky: General Mathematics 8th Grade Edition.
Shade: We have a problem. Branch: No, YOU have a problem. I have an idiot who keeps making them.
Shade: What the fuck. Shade: ESPN is showing 2003 national jump rope championship. Shade: Who the hell watches jump rope competiti- ooh bouncy!
Shade: A pessimist sees a dark tunnel. Cloud: An optimist sees light at the end of the tunnel! Branch: A realist sees a freight train. Sky: The train driver sees three idiots standing on the tracks.
Achilles: We’ll find another route, it’s not safe for amateur adventurers. Nova: That sounds like a challenge. Achilles: I have to stress, that is not a challenge. Nova: ... Is exactly what you say to dissuade the weak of heart from accepting the challenge. Well, challenge accepted! Achilles: There is no challenge!
Achilles: Okay, how do I look? Be honest. Cloud: There’s no critic more honest than Sky! Sky: Bad.
Achilles: We all have our demons. Achilles, grabbing Shade: This one’s mine.
Eve: Asa, don’t go picking a fight with Ailwyn. Don’t forget, they’re powerful, they could make life difficult for you. Asa: Wow, I wonder what it'd be like to have a difficult life.
Asa: Quitting! It's like trying, but easier!
Asa: If I fall down these stairs, I'm just going to lay down and accept my fate.
Asa: [walks into the kitchen, ignoring everyone] Eve: Hey, Asa, how was your day? Asa: [picks up an onion and bites into it, staring at Nova] Hell. Eve, watching this unfold: (whispers) Who hurt you?
Eve: What's worse than a heartbreak? Shade: Waking up in the morning and your phone wasn't charging. Branch: Waking up in the morning. Asa: Waking up.
Shade: Which one of you was going to tell me that tea tastes different if you put it in hot water?? Cloud: Y-you were putting it in cold water?? Sky: Shade. Answer the question, Shade. Shade: Yeah??? I thought people just put it in hot water to speed up the tea-ification process. didn't realize there was an actual reason. Shade: Plus you think I have the patience to boil water? Cloud: You don't have the patience to microwave water for 3 minutes?? Sky: Why are you putting it in the microwave to boil it? Cloud: Do you think I have the patience to boil water on the stove? Sky: It takes less than a minute. Cloud: Is your stovetop powered by the fucking sun??? Sky: How long does it take you to boil a cup of water on the stove? Cloud: Like seven minutes?? Nova: Just stick the mug on top of the stove on medium heat and it boils in like 2 minutes... less than that if you use a saucepan! Sky: Why are you putting the whole mug on the stove?? On medium heat?? Nova? Your stove is enchanted! Shade: Every single person here is a fucking lunatic. Branch: Do none of you own a fucking kettle?!
[during a group project] Branch: [does 99% of the work] Cloud: [has no idea what’s going on] Nova: [says they’re gonna help but does not] Sky: [disappears at the very beginning and doesn’t show up again until the very end]
Just a silly thing I felt like I had to make lol.
Ik you guys don't know half of these characters lol. But it's fun foreshadowing for later... and still funny 😉
(Idk should I @ the whole Faerie's Dawn list? I'mma just @ my "everything" taglist and anyone I know who's really into FD lol)
@honeybewrites @the-golden-comet @illarian-rambling @ashirisu @urnumber1star
@the-letterbox-archives @48lexr @aalinaaaaaa @thecomfywriter @an-indecisive-nerd
@seastarblue @rae-butter @teamarine777 @caffeinated-starsailor @oliolioxenfreewrites
@corinneglass
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#Ignore me#4 months is quickly coming up... 4 months since Alec died#Every moment of every day I'm at a loss for what to do#And how to behave#Keeping myself busy at work is nice. I have#To be forced to use my brain other ways and do things#But by the end of the day I'm so unbelievably exhausted#I'm just masking as a happy-okay person.#I spend the quiet time at work rotating this new reality#It's exhausting to pretend to be okay#But what else am I supposed to do?#It's not fair to the people around me to constantly be on the brink of crying.#To be sad and quiet and idk. I don't want their pity or sad looks#But sometimes I do just wanna scream#I don't always want to hear about their recent adventures#I want to curl up in a ball because my regrets are eating me from the inside out#I fucked up an important part of my life because I'm a coward and#I was juggling too many trashfires in my life to deal with the messy place#We left our friendship. I thought there was time. There should've been time.#A whole lifetime to figure it out. Make things worse. Make things better.#To be happy#And now he's dead and none of it matters#I'm supposed to live the rest of my life now#I don't know how to do that anymore#Nothing feels right or real#Every atom of my being keeps raging against the truth#He's gone#The sweet boy that would make me laugh... share my love of myth & language...#Carry me bridal style... kiss every inch of my face... kiss the palm of my hand#And then hold it to his chest to fall asleep....
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Forgive me, forgive me. I ask, I beg, I pray, but it never comes.
You know I find it incredibly bewildering to see just how much kalki reflects myself in him like YEAH Duh of course he does, he’s my little guy it’s like his full time job. But at the same time he is a fully functional facet of my being and he is at the mercy of my whimsies, and whatever he discovers in his arduous journey of self realisation is ultimately a reflection of what I discover in the real world. It’s also incredibly funny because ffxiv lore for dark knights is really baked into the idea of (re)discovering yourself amongst the bloodshed and continuing to live and love and thrive despite the world working against us. who would have thought such a raw message could come from an mmorpg side quest about edgy emo boys of all places
also adamantite armour of fending i would lay down my LIFE for u
variant + phone bg version + ID below the cut
tch as if you guys are actually going to use artwork of my little guy as your phone background. i know. how dumb. let a girl dream. i should make an alternate version but it's of Fray and Myste
[START ID: A picture with a red background focusing on the character's bust that is placed to the left of the image's centre. He is coloured with a dark blue overlay, contrasting with the red background. He has brown skin, long black hair that falls over his shoulders, and is wearing blue and gold armour and earrings. He is looking at the viewer, right eye dark brown and the left an glowing unnatural red, with an expression that looks determined and angry and yet bitter and forlorn. In the foreground and on the right side of the piece, a miniature version of the character stands coloured in a light blue overlay and wearing the same blue and gold armour, looking as if he is glowing. He is facing towards the left of the piece, or perhaps at the character bust, his expression unreadable. Above the miniature character's head is the symbol representing the FFXIV dark knight, coloured in gold. END ID.]
#the burst of creativity that shot through me is indescribable. i can only hope this is a sign that i am FINALLY out of art block#but OF COURSE my creativity comes back right when gamsat is around the corner. it's always a fucking exam. i fucking hate myself#maybe this piece is supposed to be vent art at how I CANNOT MANAGE MY SHIT AND I AM JUST. NOT DOING THINGS RIGHT. NOT DOING THINGS RIGHT !!#and i tell myself it's fine but maybe it's NOT fine? i told myself i'd work on it but nothing is getting worked on#nothing productive at all. not even for uni nor for myself. nothing is happening at all. it's just going through the days#waking up. wishing i'd slept more. stare at my laptop for hours. youtube. watch 10mins of lectures. then a nap. then the laptop. then sleep#but i dont and it pisses me off because nothing is working. i'm like if linguini lost his rat and i'm staring at the kitchen catching fire#maybe go to class if it's on for that day. scrambling notes together. pretending i DO have my shit together#i COULD put out the fire. but i'm not. i could and i can but im not. the extinguisher is in my hand. fire's not going out. i'm still here.#maybe. maybe that's why drk resonates with me so much. at the end of the day. maybe i am just a stupid bastard#-who can't get their act together. who actively shoots themselves in the foot and bleeds all over the place trying to make something happen#only this time- this time the perpetrator isn't someone i can point at and demand answers from. it's me hi i'm the problem it's me#and i can- i SHOULD find a way to make this all work. to make this whole Living My Life business work. but the extinguisher's in my hand#wow okay that was really heavy anyway uhhhhh TAGS TAGS TAGS TAGSSSSS#ffxiv#ff14#ffxivwol#ffxiv wol kalki#ffxiv dark knight#artoftheagni#and the fire keeps going#tw eyestrain#cw bright colors#idk the red is really bright and it;s nice for my eyes but idk for anyone else
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What app and what pencil do you use :3?
(I send u big hugs and hav a nice day :D♡)
Hehe. (Hugs back. I like hugs. XD) I believe someone else had a similar question before! I made this art then too to demonstrate how I use, Ibis Paint. The free beginner friendly drawing app! (No I'm not sponsored-) And as for the "pens", I usually go for the default brushes. As in the first basic ones you find on the app! ^v^ I've been promoting this idea for years and I'll never get tired of saying it! While fancier equipment IS nice, skills can ultimately outclass tools any day! =D In fact, sometimes limiting yourself can hone your creativity as it forces you to work with what you have and invent new ways of experimenting with materials that are often overlooked! That's how I learned. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ -Bubbly💙
#spacebubblearts#asks#thanks for the asks!#and sorry it's so late#I was busy with mother's day and my parent's anniversary#but no cap I use to draw strictly with pens and markers#no erasing and soon enough mistakes became part of the art itself easy as anything#improved my drawing speed too#as for digital art#for years I only had my phone and fingers#I remember making animatics on them like a mad man#and I'm not talking animation memes either#I mean full on song animatics XD that could be minutes long#that took a lot of work#man I miss the motivation#thinking of training myself that way again.#ehem anyway I hope this was a satisfying answer#if youre curious my animatics are still up on YT XD#I made a Glitch Techs one on two player game but a lot of them are really old back when I was just starting online#enjoy!#and have a nice day as well! =3#art#doodle#chibi#mascot#art practice#art discussion#art advice#why do I keep writing them on the tags???#ibis paint
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// ... the day of American reckoning.
Bright side is that my 7 day vacation starts tomorrow. Part of it will be spent at Sonic Expo in Dallas, but majority of it will be spent rotting in my hotel room, gorging on take out. I'm hoping to be very productive here during that time.
#(( ima be honest chat. it has not been a good week. i had a full blown meltdown the other night.#and I've not really been responding to messages cuz I've just been in my bubble trying to keep it from popping.#but these days off will be needed. work being consistently busy combined with IRL drama of the very unkind and toxic variety#... i have been very not myself and very drained. it's time for a break. and I'm so happy that break starts tomorrow.#ima go buy my lil shadow the hedgehog goodies and then enjoy my own company in my hotel room.#i hope y'all are well. thank you for being patient and delicate with me. hope to be back to myself soon. ❤️#and for my fellow 'muricans... take some time for yourself today okay? buy yourself a nice pastry.#a pretty beverage. something you've been eyeing. we all deserve it if only to confirm a bit of happiness on this day of uncertainty.#that's all i have to say on the matter. ))#;; oh jeeze what now? ( ooc )#;; tbd
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chat. chat i have a question. i know ive always had guilt when it comes to getting things for myself, but like. would it be stupid to drop like $116 on the special editions of two games ive been wanting for a while (now because one of which is on sale)? i mean, ive been saving my money literally all summer to use for myself like i haven’t bought anything i didn’t need and i KNOW im not gonna blow through all of it in school because i don’t go anywhere & dont do shit and i know it’s my money and i can do what i want with it but. idk. it feels stupid. is it stupid or is my brain stupid??
(extra context in tags ig idk)
#i mean i got paid like $700 last week and i get paid one more time next week before i’m off for school but still :/#like. like is thinking it’s stupid reasonable or should i. ahem. ‘treat myself.’#the two games in mind have a TON of content so i know they’re gonna keep me busy for a LONG time so that’s kinda why i wanna get them;m#so i can have long grundy games to keep me occupied and not really want to get anything else for a long time you get me?#i know $116 won’t be a lot from my $3000 account but like. still. idk. :/#ofc i have to jump through the many hoops of setting up a paypal to use in the nintendo eshop#or i could just. ask my sister to help me unlink & relink her card so it doesn’t charge hers instead (because her card’s linked for NSO)#but aside from that i could have that shit like. tonight.#not like i play games a lot on the days i have work because i get home so late but still y’know?#i think it would be a nice ‘good luck back at school’ gift for myself#because i love skyrim & pokemon i really do but that’s literally all ive been playing for like over a year now i need to spice it up :/#anyway chat should i or should i not?#grace being stupid#text post#personal
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had my personal assessment for work and it went well but i still felt like i could burst into tears at any given moment.
#my manager is like ‘oh you could be a strategist in the next year if you want’ and I’m like ‘i don’t even know what I’m doing tomorrow’#she’s really nice but I feel like I can’t be *chill* around her#she’ll joke around and stuff but I can tell she’s about work and stuff at the end of the day#and figuring out fucking GOALS#stupid fucking goals that is extra work outside of your already heavy workload#I hate the corporate world and the culture#I appreciate the benefits I get through work. that’s the only incentive to stay at this company and in this line of work#I just don’t care!!! I don’t care about how evolved my role!#why can’t i grow and evolve outside of work#how can i find value in myself outside of work#when we’re so conditioned to equate our jobs to our worth#i feel like I need more hobbies and interests outside of work to cultivate that#but work keeps you so busy! there isn’t time!#i don’t have time to get my work done in the way because of all the meetings! so I have to do some work on the weekends!?! bullshit!!!#i have to spend time prepping lunch and dinner so I have more time to work!??#i hate it here!!!#i think about lockdown during Covid which was scary but note having *any* responsibility#being able to wake up and think ‘what do i want to do today’ and i could make bread#or just read. or sit and not feel this impending doom because I’m not being productive#I feel like I had way better work life balance before I changed roles cause I had way less responsibility#but no. I took a new opportunity in the hopes of growing and evolving and now i barely have enough time to do my job during working hours#I’m sorry this is a horrible work rant. I’m grateful for employement but I don’t like it lol
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sixth day at my new school and i didn't sit alone at lunch today 🥳🥳
#woohoo!!#some girls invited me to sit with them so i did and chatted to them and this other guy#some of them are in my classes!! they were all very nice#honestly i was aiming to just try and fit in with the cishet boys and last week when i heard the rumour i was gay i was kinda freaked out#but i've scoped out the situation and it's not unsafe to be out (as bi. not anyone's business i'm trans)#so i realise it's better to just be open and have better chances of finding the right people than living in fear and squashing myself to--#--fit in with the wrong people. bc if i can't be fully myself around someone then why would i want to be good friends with them??#so yar i'll stick with other queer guys and supportive girls. gay guy/straight girl friendships are stereotypical but it's an ecosystem tha#works in a situation like high school tbh#ooo and i guess he was away today but the guy from a couple of my classes who i think is cute is in that group so added bonus#o and actually unrelated but at recess i went to this queer group thing i was invited to by a teacher last week#(recess is first and lunch is sceond)#i wasn't sure if i was going to go (mostly bc of my 'blend in' mindset) but i'm glad i did!! it was pretty nice#mostly just nice to get an idea of 'safe' people and teachers yaknow#'people and teachers' -- those aren't two mutually exclusive categories of being ajdsgjf but ykwim#and if i didn't go then i probably wouldn't have been in the better mindset for being just myself with everyone at lunch#so wahoo yippee :D#now i just needa keep talking to everyone and putting myself out there a bit more and i'll find the right people :)#oscar.exe
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i really do self sabotage when it comes to irl dating 😭💀
#spilling tea like you guys are my irls#first of all i’m chronically single#i dont do dating apps or casual sex (anymore. 2.5 years celibate by choice... which is a whole other story c: )#and second of all anytime anyone shows interest in me i am 🏃♀️💨 running away#even if they’re cool#😭😭😭😭😭#i *am* the problem. THAT i know#there’s this person who i’ve known for a very long time and they've been trying to take me out for a year#(very casually not pushy at all)#first time i said yes but my travelling got in the way. eventually we stopped talking but then we started again some time later#and when they asked to do something again - i got scared so told them i was sick (WHICH I WAS BUT HFJGJGJGJ IDK)#and THIS time he mentioned it again#and i umm didn’t respond until after 6 days#i know i know i’m awful#but here’s the thing#IM TRAVELLING AGAIN#FOR A WHOLE MONTH THIS TIME#so if it even happens it’ll be pushed back once more#but like i said we've known each other for a long time so it's always been brought up in a casual way. nothing that really screams DATE#although i can tell the tone of it is a lil more than friendly#i’m just glad he’s super nice and older than me (so he doesn’t rlly care about late replies and all that. usually when i respond late he#replies right away)#and we both keep ourselves busy with work#AND HE LIKES ANIME TOO LMFAO HE DRESSED UP AS SUKUNA ONCE#so like#i need to do better#💀💀💀💀#commitment is scary DATING IS SCARY#i just don’t want to date until i’ve achieved some personal goals but at the same time i don’t want to limit myself you know#HOWEVER i can’t have high expectations for my partner when i don’t have high expectations for myself
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it would feel so nice to work towards a career that has meaningful impact and makes millions of people happy
#i follow this person cleo abrams on youtube and she's always talking so excitedly about scientists#and their amazing discoveries cool facts and she's so excited and starry eyed and hopeful#she genuinely just wants to educate people and has so much hope that we can make the world a better place#also like idk maybe unrelated but i saw the mv of new romantics and just. wow#say what you will about her but there's no doubt she's made an insane number of people happy SO HAPPY that they're crying#so many tours#idk i want#i wish my life was bigger#i feel so isolated and always just focusing on myself my career my health my enjoyment#what about everything everyone else#i keep trying to be completely okay with being alone i keep telling myself to not need anyone and be 100% independent#find happiness within hobbies interests#but it feels like a losing battle#i don't know i just. miss everyone 😭😭😭😭#but it hurts too much tbh always more sad than happy always more crying than laughing#i miss my bestfriend i don't know what i did wrong but she won't pick up my call she keeps saying she's busy#i don't want to be clingy because she hates that shit i don't want to drive her away but she's my only friend#i miss my fucking mom she doesn't care if i live or die obviously but i miss just having her presence in the house#and even tho my sister is here she's never fully present always on her laptop working#i wouldn't really say i miss my dad but wow it's been so long since mom and dad stayed together at home it was almost#always miserable but sometimes at the lunch table it was nice#i don't know everything and everyone is moving and changing so fast and i can't breathe under it and it's already september#but this entire year felt like a blur it's like everyone who left took a chunk of my heart with them#and i should be happy because im so close to the exam which will get me out of this house finally be financially independent#like i wanted since i was 11 i could finally start my life#but it all feels so. i don't know the whole future seems black like i can't imagine life past november 2025#how do you imagine happiness if you've never been happy?#and all these feelings are making it so hard to study and studying is so fucking important because if i don't ill be stuck here forever#and i don't want to go thru attempts fail and pass again atleast back then i had a reason first heartbreak‚ not getting to go to college#but what now why now i don't even understand i know objectively i do not have it that bad it's literally better even if i compare to my own
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ah shit only just realised its september now.... lets hope the rest of this month isn't like this.....
#just med shit innit. gonna force myself up at my usual work time even tho i have the day off bc I need to be in my routine or ill lose it#i am. very tired and very sad. and thats ok generally im ok ive been keeping myself so busy for weeks and weeks#and im glad im going out n doing shit often n meeting new ppl n trying to focus more on hobbies n get more on the life balance#but whenever i have a moment to stop i still get so sad. ik exactly why theyre all just old aches n wounds i dont want to wallow in them!!#lately its been well under control i only usually have one actual bad day a week and sometimes its not even a whole day#and the rest im.just busy and i dont know if im just avoiding things and its not satisfying being busy bc im still missing out needs#but i cant fulfil them so might as well stay busy and not think about it!!#and its okay its all okay im just so sad right now :-( but im going to sleep soon and then ill be busy tmr so i dont have to think abt it#i wanna ventpost abt it but also i dont rly want to bc findinf the words to talk abt the things distressing me involves thinking abt it#which will just.make me feel worse. and it wont resolve anything bc its all mostly outside of my control anyway just hurts innit#but im trying hard to make my life bigger than it was before even if its still shallow and not quite enough at least it covers more space#yeah yeah we all want to feel genuine connection and wanted and loved but life doesnt often work out like that so.#hands in your pockets player keep it moving. im goiny to brush my teeth and then rly need to go to bed zzzzz#.diaries#hope everyone else had a nice weekend i had a pretty good saturday at least. and played a lot of videogames today so could be worse#very glad i dont have work tomorrow as well thank u past me for booking it off ahh..
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I am generally not an anxious person, because one of the primary ways in which I fail at interacting with human society is by not caring what other people think about me. So for example, I don't worry about failing a social interaction. I might worry about some downstream consequence if there's something specific I want related to the interaction like a promotion at work, but I don't imagine people hating me unless they literally walk up to me and go "I hate you." (This has never happened.) Does this sound great to you, if perhaps you are one of my anxious friends reading this? Well, try reading it again with emphasis on the "not caring" and then think about how many of your relationships are based around caring about people. This isn't something I do willingly, this is a broken link in my brain where I don't reach out and I barely ever think of reaching out and then I promptly go insane when removed from my normal structure because I was dependent on work to provide a bare subsistence amount of social interaction.
This is to say, I am on vacation and I have been reminded why I really hate taking vacation.
#this one is for everyone who reblogged that --👤👤 post#also work keeps me too busy to think about the ways in which I am still fundamentally broken and scarred which is very nice#maybe I will manage a functional relationship some time in the next decade if I keep throwing myself at that#however if I cannot make the connection that is denied to me then you know Maybe Not#I have at least gotten a bit better at this (via throwing myself at it for a decade) (not exaggeration unfortunately)
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It’s okay and normal to get pissed off at your friends. It is normal and okay!
#I can’t be specific on this cus idk who follows me#But idk I just get a bit pissed when one person is exclusively nice to their partner#And has to constantly say things for their partner#And do things for their partner#Because their partner won’t just tell me if I do something wrong it has to be made everyone’s business so that someone else can tell me#I don’t like it when someone gets special treatment Al the time and I just get told to kill myself in a friendly way!!#And everyone can call me a twink too because it’s funny to them I guess#Idk i just#i just don’t like this guy and I keep trying to but I just don’t like him.#Apparently I make him cry all the time because I hurt his feelings but he doesn’t tell me#I hate to break it to you but you have to spell shit out to me#Im angry so I’m going to work out. Also I’m having more fucking hunger pain ugh#Idk if anyone’s reading this far but If you happen to know what it means when you feel hungry but when you eat you feel nauseous and you ha#Vertigo#lmk lmao
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