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libr-0-cubicularist · 10 months ago

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A thing I made based on the wonderful fic Corruption Loves Company by @hey-adora (clicheusername5678 on Ao3) ft. Biblically Accurate Vio

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lunarharp · 8 months ago

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shirahama-sensei reminded me she has a thing for the teacher from pokemon s/v so i randomly went off on an au where qifrey is the professor. etc

#witch hat tag #orufrey #the first image is qifrey dressed as that guy. i'm glad she has an inexplicable attachment to some dorky pokemon man like i do #someone was like 'wouldn't it make more sense for deanreldea to be the champion' .... well no. not in my world .#it maps onto magic skill. champions aren't like the Rulers of the land they're just the most skilled at this thing #oru as a burnt out champion who's gently encouraging a kid like coco to reach him one day means a lot to me. i like pokemon narratives #agott went shiny hunting for the same thing coco had but cooler - just to impress her. she really is a pokemon rival type girl #pushing myself to the limit to prove my worth to you - to get to the summit first so i'm waiting for you..#and then realising it wasn't just to be strong - i realised i started wanting to see your smile. i wanted you to have fun.#i think coco would defeat agott at the end of victory road and then defeat oru & i'll probably draw one last thing abt that at least..#the image is very cinematic..the dialogue and music in my mind..I WANT TO FACE ORU!!!!!!!!!!#the super cool insanely powerful awesome champion is the spouse of my professor and he gave me advice at the beginning...no way....#btw the elite four would be the sages which is perfect (and maybe easthies as the first guy?) evil Team Brimhats #coustas as their renegade gladion-type figure. the gym leaders would be like sun/moon and s/v combined #travelling around facing the best students from different classes - so jujy and eunie etc.#i've barely thought about 'teams' or anything bc i care amore about the narrative side of things always lol #but idk. tetia with a swirlix - eunie would be ghost type boy - riche with small things but also a ceruledge or a steelix something massiv #and brushbug would have a final form which is really long like an eastern dragon- fluffy and with wings like a fairy. It's beautiful to me #well anyway *tries to move on to the rest of life now the brief obsession has passed*#obviously oru would be fire-type tho and qifrey would be water-type and they set off together and traded their starters etc.....it goes on

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spywhitney · 5 months ago

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Claire: Full on throws herself at Carmy unapologetically and from her perspective, has a perfect relationship with him. / Overhears him say one negative thing about the relationship and has made no attempt to come back into his life.

Sydney: Gives her all to the actual Carmy and the restaurant and has continued to do so, and only walked when he disrespected her a bit more than usual. / Came back after he gifted her a place in a fucked restaurant. / Sydney still deals with the same bs and has a panic attack over leaving Carmy and the restaurant/what she'll choose/the way Carmy has treated her etc etc etc because she cares so much.

#the bear #sydney adamu #claire the bear #carmen berzatto #sydcarmy #the bear fx #honestly good for clairebear #very proud of her #jk jk I don't care because she's barely her own person lol #in s2 I did find it interesting she walked at the first mean thing Carmy said that was not only after talking down on himself but wasn't #really about her #I need Sydney to be honest to herself and Carmy about her feelings s4 #I don't want a plot where she doesn't take the job but holds resentment towards Carmy #if there was a ripe time for her to quit it was s1 ep7 and I thought that in s2 tbh #like she needs to ask herself if she's okay with not getting what she wants and needs atp #is caring about carmy worth that to her #*throws up hands in surrender*#sydney x carmy

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amourtoken · 2 months ago

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So yeah here's the highlights from last night:

Got so beat up during kublai Khan I had to be physically pulled out of the pit and carried to the side to lay down because I couldn't breathe and security wasn't managing an awful crowd surge

Got punched in the face during Lorna

Sanguisugabogg fans are fucking violent as hell

Whitechapel was p much the only band I could comfortably stand and watch in the pit because the crowd was mellowed out and not as violent.

Crowd surfer poured an entire cocktail onto me and my friend rather than finishing it or handing it to someone before getting up

#It was really rough and I lowkey feel like it wasn't worth going #I'm sad #I got to see will up close though but was suffering lol

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estcaligo · 1 year ago

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#i spent 3 days without electricity internet and mobile signal due to the attack #which isn't that bad comparing to those blackouts last year #but still #had panic attacks againg bc wasn't sure how long it would last #i could only go online for like 15 minutes at a location far from home #I'm so tired #i can't event die wtf #i really envy those who have hope #because I have none left #neither any reason to go on #they say if you have something worth living you can live through anything #must be nice #who even cares though #it's not important enough now isn't it lol

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suddencolds · 4 months ago

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#not a vent just a journal entry (feel free to scroll past; there is no snz here and this is also not that interesting)#realizing now that i never thought of myself as #someone whose absence would register to others in any other way than just neutral/detached recognition?#phrasing this really badly and i am truly going to delete this later bc it is embarrassing LOL #i think when i was young and posting all this fic into questionable places (the f*rum) i was like #(@ an unfinished work of mine) no way anyone could be bothered by these cliffhangers 👍 they can just imagine the ending #even though i would frequently be bothered by other people's cliffhangers. that exact same principle just wouldn't apply to me in my head #and when i did not respond to people i was like.. i'm sure i wasn't really an important part of their lives so they won't mind it #if i stepped away?#i never really entertained the concept of people missing me or looking forward to my responses 😭 i never thought of myself as someone worth #missing... so when i disappeared it was always with little to no sense of guilt. i think even now i struggle with #seeing myself as someone that inhabits like a tangible enough space in other people's lives that my absence would be felt #(and i don't mean that in a morbid way. and i do recognize that it's quite hypocritical)#on the flipside of things i frequently miss people and look forward to their responses. and sometimes i wonder like #do they all know? do they all know that i miss them because they somehow understand this aspect of human nature better than i do?#or are they in the dark like i am? are these things assumed or are they only known when they are said... 😭#i am a little bit of a coward so i am not saying anything (also because can you even say this kind of thing to someone??#i would probably die of embarrassment) but #how strange it is to have someone suddenly inhabit a space in your life that is substantial enough that #when they're gone you feel that space open up and you miss them #the few times in my life people have conveyed that sentiment to me i remember feeling puzzled that my presence could have that kind of #weight to them. i think my problem is that i purposefully do not read between the lines if the conclusion is something favorable towards me #because i don't want to bank on something good that might or might not be true 😭 anyways this is way too long already. if you read this #then good morning or goodnight

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angorwhosebabyisthis · 1 month ago

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honestly it's been really healing being back to actively contributing things and writing out thoughts on tumblr the last week or so, because while twitter tends to be easier for me to write out Thoughts on without getting overwhelmed, the environment in the twitter fandom circles i'm interested in is not only infested with antis but cliqueish in a way that is caustic to the fucking soul if you try to express a thought that's more than three sentences long--a hundred times over if you're autistic in slightly the wrong way--and it's incredibly reassuring to come back to an environment where the very kindest and most inclusive people toward you are not clearly thinking the r-slur the entire time they interact with you lmao

#whosebaby talks #took an incident of just open petty cruelty the other day for me to finally go #you know what all of this is doing a huge number on my self-esteem and scrupulosity and social anxiety and mental health overall #sometimes it pays to hold out and give the benefit of the doubt #when your knee-jerk reaction is to think something Must Be a Sign of Shitty Intent; bc often it will turn out that wasn't the case at all #but unfortunately sometimes it turns out people are in fact just being shitty in exactly the way you thought they were #and at the *very* best you are incompatible in such a way that if they don't have bad intentions you're just never going to be able to tell #or well. not even necessarily bad *intentions*; just shitty behavior that's harmful to you regardless of whether they mean well #sometimes you just gotta accept that even if neither of you *is* being shitty it's not worth your peace of mind to never be able to confirm #and it's better to just save both of you the stress and not try to pursue that.#it fuckin sucks when it's people you think are cool and really want to get to know; it's a hard lesson to learn; but it's the way sometimes #......and then sometimes the confirmation you finally get is that yeah okay this is some bullshit #and not in a way that can likely be communicated past; no matter how much effort you make to be kind; clear; and mature #and being publicly humiliated for carefully trying to yes-and some clarification on meta of mine #which was being used in ways i was deeply uncomfortable with; and had had no warning would take the turn that it did #and which was contributing to the original post gaining traction in the first place #all targeted in ways pretty much tailor-made to hurt someone with specific issues they had seen me talk about + acknowledged #was just. yeah i think i'm done here lmao #i am Not someone who takes down meta once posted #so the fact that it was bad enough to make me delete an entire thread really says something lol #anyway. lots of other context there; and i appreciate that in some ways the person was genuinely trying to be kind; but i'm. yeah.#that shit Hurted Extremely; and made me realize that while i'm not the *most* well-socialized or articulate or approachable #there is just something in the water over there and no amount of The Problem Not Being Me would have mattered #and the nice asks/replies/comments i've gotten both recently and during hibernation make me feel warm inside; thank y'all <3 #the salt files #bullying cw #ableism cw

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petr1kov · 1 year ago

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i understand there still is many shallow and bad faith criticisms directed at the early disney princesses because pointing out how they don't measure up as well to today's standards became easy clickbaity talking point, a sentiment that is being repurpused by disney in order to promote their more recent movies as being 'not like the other ones' because their princesses are girlbosses now when they're not outright attempting to correct the original movie in their shitty remakes. everyone rightfully is sick of it by this point, and that's definitely happening to the upcoming snow white remake too right now, but. seeing some of the reactions to it, i do think that we have circled back to overcorrecting when it comes to this this resulting in equally baffling takes about these characters being common right now.

i mean yeah, rachel zegler saying that her snow white dreams of being a leader instead of being with the prince because she's a girlboss now is not good, but that doesn't mean that the original movie version of her wasn't this bizarre idealized vision of what a perfect woman should be and act like. we can argue that she was a young abused girl all we like, defend and analyze her portrayal through these lenses, but at the end of the day, snow white is just not a real person. and she was quite explicitly written to represent something - the ideal woman - and that something does have a lot to say about the culture that created her, which traits were valued in women at the time (youth, purity, passivity, motherly nature, the very white skin that's in her name), and it doesn't look great. as much as we like to make fun of modern disney, it's still ridiculous to ignore something as obvious as that about their older films, i think

#doesn't mean btw there isn't anything of worth an abuse victim might take out of these stories #these are the situations they are portraying and to someone who who feels helpless and trapped they might be very comforting. still #ppl saying 'she wasn't waiting for a prince to save her' she was though. literally the first song she sings is about that lol #cinderella is actually more in line with that because the prince really was an afterthought to her #AND she had more of a backbone and even complained about about her exhausting routine #still even her does fall under a similar category because she does also represent an ideal woman #both are rewarded by the story in the end mostly for their beauty and good behavior

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kyouka-supremacy · 5 months ago

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Failed a social interaction 0 injured 1 killed (me)

#Today has been so long 😭😭😭 I've been out the whole day studying and when I came back I spent more than one hour to cook my probably gone–#bad chicken (and rice and spinach) and then I couldn't even eat it because it was my turn to clean the kitchen at the dorm (which is the–#third following day I'm doing) (worth mentioning I'm running on 5 hours of sleep)#And I was goofing around with my friends but while doing so I. made fun of the landlord. And then one friend told me “hey girl he's right–#outside” and like 😭😭😭😭😭😭 I hope I die painfully. I need to be back next year and he already makes my life hard enough and hhhhhhhhhhh #I wasn't even like. Serious. It was just to joke around with my friends I don't have anything against him (except for the things I do)#hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #And now I feel so embarrassed I have no appetite at all + the chicken (which I had to bring home through one hour walk in summer which–#probably wasn't good for it. And then froze one day past the expiration day) (I really need to get better eating habits) I had been–#preparing despite taking one hour to cook it I got the firing wrong and now it's all hard and honestly not very good and like 😭😭😭#Look at what you did to the (frankly already diseased) chicken #I feel so betrayed by everything 😭😭😭 Can life get a little easier #I'm mostly kidding I'm doing okay. I just need to rant because I CAN'T GET OVER THE LANDLORD THING MAN HOW DO I FORGET ABOUT IT.#This kind of things always haunts me for at least three days so 😭😭😭#I'm dead tired but I really wanted to answer asks today so. Probably doing so between today and tomorrow #Rant over sending lots of l love 💞💞#random rambles #In my defense it's not my fault I'm too poor to throw the chicken away 😪😪 I haven't eaten since forever #It's also not my fault I can't afford a new non sticking pan so I have to stick (ah) to the probably toxic one #It is very much my fault for messing up the chicken cooking temperature tho lol

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dearmrsawyer · 7 months ago

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on the loose live my beloved

#just saw niall !!#he was a big charmer as always he's just so very boyfriend #on the loose took me so by surprise i wasn't expecting it to stick around but i love it #i think my favs of the night were black&white and this town #b&w was SO joyful and bright i almost cried lol #this town is sacred #i also... never listened to the show bc life has been a long series of nightmares #and i never felt like i could sit down and absorb something new. after i while i decided i would just. Not #and get my first exposure at the concert #and all the songs i didn't know were soooo good i'm really excited to listen to the album now #and discover what they are all called lol #i think hearing music for the first time live is such a good way to be introduced to new songs so this was nice!#anyway he was v cute you could tell he didn't want to get off the stage :(#he was still wandering around when the post-show music started playing lol #the drive was a bit stressful but he was v worth it <3 #tp

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seenthisepisode · 10 months ago

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i need help to manage my budget... by help i mean 3 million euro sent directly from heaven i guess

#this is not even about The Economy and Housing Crisis this is like. my life and choices lately lol afjsahfjk let's see:#1. christmas gifts - i don't even know how much i spent on them because i had the flu and wasn't really thinking but let's say 1000 pln #2. trip for new years eve to the mountains - 2200 for hotel and then let's say 300-350 for food and stuff #3. bills like the internet and phone is 90; rent is 1100 #4. trip to warsaw 100 hotel 180 food and drinks 200 ?#5. meet and greet with simple plan 800 .... i will never recover sfshdfsj but it was kinda worth it - won't do that again tho #6. groceries since i am back 120 #7. and now i need to travel back home and it's like a cumulation because it was my dad's name day + my mom's birthday and their wedding #anniversary adsfhgsdjhsd so i need gifts again i mean i want to buy them something nice i already spent 180 pln but i will buy something #extra for each of them because i kinda want to because we see each other so rarely #8. public transport ticket for another month is 80 #9. i will have to pay rent again soon and the internet and phone #10. i have a wedding coming and like 37 concerts #to sum up. i am Fucked <3 but writing it out helped a little ;_;#i will eat concrete and drywall by march <3 #personal

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dykeferatu · 1 month ago

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the outsider's perception of clerics vs what it's like to actually play a cleric is pretty funny. i can probably count the number of times i used a healing spell on one hand

#support class? nah son i'm hitting bitches with my hammer and blasting shit with divine light #tbf i was also a grave cleric so healing wasn't worth it unless someone was on death's door lol #and i think when u account for this it really does say something abt me that this was my first clas #s #anyway i miss lysera #buzz buzz

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the-physicality · 1 month ago

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i do think, aside from mercury bias, if bg had been in all season she would have been all wnba, first or at least second. i think people undervalue her because of the rebounding but she is 1000% the worst officiated player in the league, on both sides of the court. so the fact that she's been able to have the performance that she had is incredible, and that she didn't get the acknowledgment really just underscores how much people take what she does for granted.