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Heeey... Hi... How's it been going, hahah... Me? Oh, yeah, I've been fine, just uh. Functionally dead and uh. Not having a g r e a t time-
Why?? Well. Let's make this as short as possible.
My October was completely full of school assignments and I was drowning
During fall break, my mom's cousin came over to our house and knocked a 48 inch hole in my bedroom wall in search of a water leak that didn't exist. It's a long story-
I discovered a professor that my brother was close to passed away. It hit me kinda hard and I haven't been feeling great
My car started having lots of issues. Shuddering, check engine light turning on, the whole works. Got it repaired, cost $1000
I'm stressed about the holiday season coming up 'cus I haven't shopped for anyone at all and I have to entertain family members that I might rather n o t (This is all without mentioning finals coming up)
So. U h. Yeah. Haven't been having the best time. B u t. It's fine, it's great. I'm actually getting therapy soon. :D And not occupational therapy, or physical therapy, since I GOT TO DO THOSE TOO-
N a h. It's the "getting a phone call at 9 in the freaking morning to confirm an appointment for behavioral health." W h o o p e e.
A h e m. Sorry. Anyway. I'm good. I'm fine. Have a picture of the Beast that I should have freaking done for chapter 38, but was too lazy and didn't get around to it. So, how have you guys been doing. Participated in Inktobertale and having a good time, I hope-
#undertale au#perseverance!au#reference sheet#Don't look at me like that#Yes; this may be my subtle way at announcing that I uploaded the next chapter#Because I am physically unable to make a post just solely announcing that#Fun fact; I drew this ref sheet when I could barely focus on anything after my covid shots#My emotions are an erratic pendulum alright; you don't understand#One moment; I'm great. Cracking jokes; being the maddest lad you've ever seen#The next I'm freaking dissociating; staring at my ceiling for 40 minutes straight#I also have not been sleeping much. If at all#But what else is new#Insomnia be like-#If I sound unenthusiastic about therapy it's because I am#I'm f i n e#The last therapist I had was basically just telling me “to pray about it” or actively ignored my invisible disabilities#Acted like I was just not trying hard enough or something#So to say I'm suspicious would be a fair assumption
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Learning that fans hated Applejack and called her "boring" is crazyyy to me because I genuinely, unironically believe AJ's the most complex character in the main six.
Backstory-wise, she was born into a family of famers/blue collar workers who helped found the town she lives in. She grew up a habitual liar until she had the bad habit traumatized outta her. She lost both her parents and was orphaned at a young age, having to step up as her baby sister's mother figure. She's the only person in the main gang who's experienced this level of loss and grief (A Royal Problem reveals that AJ dreams about memories of being held by her parents as a baby). She moved to Manhattan to live with her wealthy family members, only to realize she'll never fit in or be accepted, even amongst her own family. The earlier seasons imply she and her family had money problems too (In The Ticket Master, AJ wants to go to the gala to earn money to buy new farm equipment and afford hip surgery for her grandma).
Personality-wise, she's a total people-pleaser/steamroller (with an occasional savior complex) who places her self worth on her independence and usefulness for other people, causing her to become a complete workaholic. In Applebuck Season, AJ stops taking care of herself because of her obsessive responsibilities for others and becomes completely dysfunctional. In Apple Family Reunion, AJ has a tearful breakdown because in she thinks she dishonored her family and tarnished her reputation as a potential leader –– an expectation and anxiety that's directly tied to her deceased parents, as shown in the episode's ending scene. In The Last Roundup, AJ abandons her family and friends out of shame because believes she failed them by not earning 1st place in a rodeo competition. She completely spirals emotionally when she isn't able to fulfill her duties toward others. Her need to be the best manifests in intense pride and competitiveness when others challenge her. And when her pride's broken, she cowers and physically hides herself.
Moreover, it's strongly implied that AJ has a deep-seated anger. The comics explore her ranting outbursts more. EQG also obviously has AJ yelling at and insulting Rarity in a jealous fit just to hurt her feelings (with a line that I could write a whole dissection on). And I'm certain I read in a post somewhere that in a Gameloft event, AJ's negative traits are listed as anger.
Subtextually, a lot of these flaws and anxieties can be (retroactively) linked to her parents' death, forcing her to grow up too quickly to become the adult/caregiver of the family (especially after her big brother becomes semiverbal). Notice how throughout the series, she's constantly acting as the "mom friend" of the group (despite everything, she manages to be the most emotionally mature of the bunch). Notice how AJ'll switch to a quieter, calmer tone when her friends are panicking and use soothing prompts and questions to talk them through their emotions/problems; something she'd definitely pick up while raising a child. Same with her stoicism and reluctance at crying or releasing emotions (something Pinkie explicitly points out). She also had a childhood relationship with Rara (which, if you were to give a queer reading, could easy be interpreted as her first 'aha' crush), who eventually left her life. (Interestingly enough, AJ also has an angry outburst with Rara for the same exact reasons as with EQG Rarity; jealous, upset that someone else is using and changing her). It's not hard to imagine an AJ with separation anxiety stemming from her mother and childhood friend/crush leaving. I'm also not above reading into AJ's relationship with her little sister (Y'all ever think about how AB never got to know her parents, even though she shares her father's colors and her mother's curly hair?).
AJ's stubbornness is a symptom of growing up too quickly as well. Who else to play with your baby sister when your brother goes nonverbal (not to discount Big Mac's role in raising AB)? Who else to wake up in the middle of the night to care for your crying baby sister when your grandma needs her rest? When you need to be 100% all the time for your family, you tend to become hard-stuck with a sense of moral superiority. You know what's best because you have to be your best because if you're aren't your best, then everything'll inevitably fall apart and it'll be your fault. And if you don't know what's best –– if you've been wrong the whole time –– that means you haven't been your best, which means you've failed the people who rely on you, which means you can't fulfill your role in the family/society, which makes you worthless . We've seen time and time again how this compulsive need to be right for the sake of others becomes self-destructive (Apple Family Reunion, Sound of Silence, all competitions against RD). We've seen in The Last Roundup how, when no longer at her best, AJ would rather remove herself from her community than confront them because she no longer feels of use to them.
But I guess it is kinda weird that AJ has "masculine" traits and isn't interested in men at all. It's totally justified that an aggressively straight, misogynistic male fandom would characterize her as a "boring background character." /s
At the time of writing this, it's 4:46AM.
#mlp#yeah i wrote this last night during insomnia.#yeah i know an embarrassing amount of crap about this kids show#but whatever it's my hyperfixation i'll store as much useless information as i want!!!#i'm gay and neurodivergent i have an excuse#in case you needed more proof that aj's my favorite character#personal#delete later#unless you like this analysis stuff#i get why they didn't reveal aj's parent's death until way later and why they didn't do much with it but i wish they did#cuz narratively there could've been so much material with aj's grief. like. i feel like we gloss over the fact that she lost her#mother and father as a teenager#i tried keeping my personal hcs out of this to keep it unbiased#but i'll put some in the tags#involving rarijack –– i think aj can be (but not always) very self-conscious about her relationship with rarity#anxieties that she's not the right fit or that rarity will move away and leave her some day or that another woman will take her attention#(like in rollercoaster of friendship?? nudge nudge??). basic seperation anxiety stuff#long post#regarding applebloom whenever i think about her and her parents i think about that scene in steven universe where steven looks up at#a portrait of his mother and openly wonders what kind of sack lunches she would've made for him. that episode still fucks me up
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shout out to my folks with insomnia & depression & delayed sleep phase disorder & sleep apnea & disabilities & other sleep disorders diagnosed, undiagnosed, and just my plain old night owls & night shift workers!! we r so fucking cool & exist every day in a society not made for us at all. and NONE of us are lazy bums or bad people for staying up late & sleeping in till noon or two or whatever whenever you get up!! no matter what anyone says!! you’re incredible and i love you!!!
#being the positivity i need in the world#would i like to get up earlier and love my life? yes. but i can’t fuckin do that can i#i recognize the irony of posting this at 11:30 however i’m at work and fuckin tired#text#positivity#insomnia#depression#delayed sleep phase disorder#sleep apnea#also shout out to nightmare nation i hope we get good rest soon!!!!!
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Ao3 is up and running. Going back to get my fix
#it’s 5 o’clock somewhere#actually no it’s 1 am#ao3#poolverine#chenford#tarlos#buddie#billford#destiel#rejoice#yes op has issues we should not dwell on like for instance insomnia#get back to reading kudoing commenting folks
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Triple Identity Crisis
Danny had a problem. If it was a big one, he couldn't tell yet but he was partially sure Clockwork was at fault for this. Or at least he wanted to blame his ghostly godparent who most likely just wanted to cause some chaos for entertainment with the pretext of helping Danny. Which was a very likely reason for why Danny had a problem right now.
As it was the former Fenton now Fenton-Wayne boy was pacing his room in the Manor trying to think what is next step should be, because as it was his 'new' family –Did new still apply if he was living with them for a little more than a year now? – knew him under three different Identities now. And to top it all off they were not aware that the three identities were all pretty much connected as one.
For one. His family, knew him as Danny, the space obsessed kid, who became a meta because of his ectobiology science obsessed parents and his teenager recklessness. A kid that was actually a genius if you gave him enough time for school and could make you anything out of a ancients be damed toaster. That was the Danny they mainly knew. The Kid they took in, let in on the family business and then chose, to the happiness of Alfred and dismay of some of his 'new' siblings, normal life over vigilante life.
Then they knew Phantom. A dead ghost hero that was helping the Justice League and Young Justice to help them deal with the aftermath of the huge fallout caused by the GIW, Guys in White or rather Ghost Investigation Ward. And while Danny didn't know he had apparently worked with nearly his entire family and that time he knew it now. Which was awkward because he had pretty much pestered one of his elder brothers about his condition until Red Hood, aka Jason, let Phantom help him. Ancient, things might get awkward if that secret is lifted. He had done a lot of things Batman, Nightwing, Red Hood, Red Robin, Orphan and Robin had scowled him for. Thankfully they only thought of him as a dead teen hero and didn't know what a Halfa was. So they didn't make the connection, and he had yet to meet Signal, aka Duke as Phantom.
Now came the third identity, which totally did not happen by his choice. After all officially he hadn't accepted the throne yet and would only get it once he was dead dead not half dead. To bad ancient texts don't care about formalities. So when trouble hit the fan really hard the Justice League Dark had the bright Idea of getting some other worldly help. Which in other words was summoning the Ghost King. Oh boy, was it fun to learn that way that Danny could get summoned against his will. Clockwork did not give him that warning when he told him about the future of his afterlife. But best of all? Oh he doesn't get summoned as Phantom which would have made things maybe a bit easier, oh no. Life wasn't easy. He got someone's in some as a super weird black-green mass of a formless eltrich body with sharp teeth, claws and glowing green eyes with no pupils or irises. Hell Danny even scared himself when he saw his own reflection in a window and he didn't have a single idea how to change his form.
Let it be known that Danny acted then on purpose like he didn't know a single person in that room he had been summoned in right out of his bed and that he wasn't staring at his adoptive father like he needed help who interpreted his stare as the ghost king sizing him up. And Danny knows this because Dick had a good laugh about that at the dinner table with the rest of his siblings.
Now a smart person would probably come clean to his family and explain to them the three identities they knew him under and how they are connected.
To bad Danny wasn't 'smart' when it came to things like that. No in his panic and newfound awkwardness of the situation of what he had done on separate occasions with his identity as Phantom AND Ghost King, he decided to keep acting like he didn't knew them personally like the truely does. Really how hard could that be? Besides he liked the way his family treated him now. He didn't want to get treated differently because he was half dead, or a Ghost King. He liked that his family was treating him as plain old Danny who had an obsession with space and was their quirkily little brother with powers.
So that gave him even more incentive to keep the act up. Even if it was hard at times, especially if he got summoned out of nowhere. It would be easier if he could get a hang of the duplication power. He even had played with the thought of getting one of his ghost rogues to help but his family was perceptive. Maybe not perceptive enough to realise that all three identities were one and the same person but they would notice if Danny acted just slightly different or if Phantom was more of then usually. But somehow he still managed to keep it up.
But it was the hard way that he learned, Danny was bad at doing the 'talking' and realized that maybe Jazz was right and he was going to slip up one day causing huge misunderstandings like right now.
He stared down at Batman and Nightwing in his Ghost King form. Red Hood had his guns pulled on him, Wonder Woman and Superman looked like they where going to try to pull back Batman any second now while Nightwing, maybe at first was going to try to calm down the bat but Danny was pretty sure the eldest bat kid was now fiercely glaring at him too. He was also pretty sure the only reason he didn't see Red Robin or Robin threaten him too was because their super friends were somehow holding them back. For their own or his safety he doesn't know at the moment.
Because apparently the Bats did not fear fighting otherworldly beings to protect one of their own.
"What did you just say about Danny Fentons death?!" Batman grunted out and Danny just knew his adoptive father was glaring at him. Ancients Danny cursed his brain to mouth filter right now. As he had the collective hero scene before him staring at his Ghost King form. Would this be a good or bad moment to come completely clean or maybe he should find some kind of philosophical bullshit of 'All things death belong to him'....
#danny fenton#danny phantom#dp x dc#dpxdc#dcxdp#crossover#bruce wayne#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#batpham#Danny was adopted by the Waynes#Why and when I didn't bother to specify#let your imagination choose#Ghost King Danny#Officially once he kicked the bucket#Ancient texts don't care#Ghost king is ghost king official or not#The bat family doens't know Danny's three identities are all the same person#after all a dead hero can't be their living little brother#or the ancient being known as the ghost king#Danny in his initial panic kept the act up#now he his scared of the grounding that awaits him#he has done a lot of reckless things as Phantom his family will have his head for#q#queue#cause i wrote that late at night in a bout of insomnia....#no beta we die like danny#unedited
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Shoutout to everybody who looked at Researcher!Siffrin's cloak and thought it would be like a clown car. Full of more books than you can poke a stick at, and comedically heavy for anybody who isn't a very determined researcher who is obsessed with Forgotten Knowledge
#my art#in stars and time#ISAT Role!Swap AU#I drew most of these sketches while I had insomnia until 8am#so uh. I'm surprised how well most of these sketches turned out#considering I was tilting my head like an owl with a broken neck when my eyes started getting all swirly and blurry XD
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I still haven't watched the FNAF VR2. But I still have my hyperfix on these lovely sillys.
Ehh still sketching, sorry...
If I have the strength, later there will be a part with the Sun^^
#fnaf sb#moondrop#sundrop#fnaf security breach#daycare attendent#fnaf daycare attendant#sundrop x y/n#moondrop x y/n#idk i love them#my sketches are mostly platonic...??idc#just comfort for us <3#fnaf dca#moondrop fnaf#moon fnaf#sun fnaf#I really hope you don’t have insomnia like me my dears#the daycare attendant#dca x reader#moondrop x reader#fnaf moon#fnaf sun#have a good day or night
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Manufactured
#my art#robovenom#guilty gear venom#gg#gg venom#gg roboky#robo ky#guilty gear#insomniacs b like not happening#(<- insomnia drawings tag)#procreate
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Am I weird for this? Does anyone else sometimes look at a fictional character and get a very strong urge to sniff them cause they look like they smell really good?
#i always got that with itachi#and while my logic tells me he's a sweaty smelly fella cause he's always on the road and probably haven't showered in a week#the vibes tell me he smells like some people's clean homes#like a mix of clean carpet/floors. laundry powder. and maybe incense#insomnia thoughts#it's 7 am i can't sleep help
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Mount Carlmore
#i drew this while being fucked by flu & insomnia#it took like 10 days to finish and is still my favorite artwork during 2024 so far#the simpsons#simpsons fanart#lenny leonard#carl carlson#lenny and carl#carlenny#my art#drawing
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me and the mutual up in the wee hours of the morning parallel blogging when we both know we should be asleep. always a pleasure to see you in my notes, paul. let's reblog pictures of soup together
#when the insomnia hits and i gotta scroll to stop the Ruminating but i see my friend paul who is also awake at this hour and im like wow..#im like wow... my comrade. my brother in arms.#soupposting
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neo warmup doodles from twitter
#rwby#rwby fanart#neopolitan#neopolitan rwby#my art#art#// its been so hard for me to draw recently not JUST because im sick but im also dealing with a bunch of stupid oomfs leaving me rip#also im like really tired because my insomnia came back#auhghgh ssave meeee
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i've said before that wyll is the companion most likely to let astarion drink his blood and i can't believe it's basically canon when you're playing as astarion
morning after the bite with gale:
with lae'zel:
with shadowheart:
and then wyll:
responding to being bitten in his sleep by flirting with astarion he's such a king
#wyll ravengard#astarion#wyllstarion#lae'zel#shadowheart#gale dekarios#bg3#being like 'btw slept fucking great afterwards' he's so funny#i do also think getting some blood sucked would be a great insomnia cure
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There’s a reason they call him Bucky with the Good Hair ™
Reblogs are loved but please don’t repost!
#cap quartet#Bucky Barnes#Steve Rogers#natasha romanov#Sam Wilson#bucky with the good hair#Brooklyn 99#mink draws#mink post#Products of Insomnia#Zero Effort we die like men.
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Opened twitter for the first time in like six months and this almost made me weep
(Here is the original post, no one posted it here from what I can tell and I needed all y’all to see this)
#dan and phil#phan#I love how some of them are dumb shit they’d absolutely make fun of us for#like iirc I’ll find you in any world phil was from their Fortnite video#also hello American with election related insomnia here I will be posting at odd hours for the foreseeable future
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This damn thing is way out of print and often goes for $200 second-hand for a 100-page artbook, but! To keep you from having to flip through incomplete uploads on hentai sites, and to save you from minuscule and questionably seeded torrents for files you might not know how to open, you should absolutely NOT check out this Google Drive I made of some ridiculously high-quality .png scans of the '98 Trigun artbook. Absolutely don't spread it around to anyone interested and keep it from getting lost ever again.
#Trigun#Trigun 98#Nightow#Yasuhiro Nightow#Because there are some BANGER illustrations by him#This took too much time while my insomnia began creeping up on me lmao#But leave me a tip if you'd like but more than anything I want to preserve this stuff#I'm gonna try and keep this up for as long as I can#But take it and save it and spread it#Enjoy it!!!!!!!#The depression is kicking my ass and I wanted to be and do something productive#So now you all get to benefit lol#Anyway#Someday I want to own it because I love books#But who knows#So I get to hoard the files now
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