#IM NOt made for conservation
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[yodels in frustration]
#fucking got put on blast in front of a bunch of important people#like a year ago#because i DARED to suggest that we have a plant rescue plan#because that would be GIVING UP and KIDS THESE DAYS HAVE NO BACKBONES#because i was A PRIME EXAMPLE OF WHY CONSERVATION IS FAILING#............AND NOW#we have to dig through waste piles of gravel left by the bulldozers#and try to save anything#bulldozed plants that hopefully are still alive#because WE DIDNT HAVE A FUCKING PLAN AND WE DID ASLDFJALKJFJDSLFJLADJLFAL#IM NOt made for conservation#im so angry#specifically at stephen fucking packard#fuck you old man
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Tim I noticed a lot of indigenous patches on your jacket, are you Native?
Idk what my dad was 'cause I never knew him, but yeah my mom is (or... Was.. I guess..) Muscogee, the tribe native to the part of Alabama I'm in.
If I remember correctly she came to Alabama from Oklahoma (where a lot of Natives were displaced to in the 1800s) to "get back to her roots."
But yknow, I was separated from her in childhood (which tbh is upsettingly common for Native families) and I was raised in a very white very Catholic asylum so I'm not as connected to the culture as I'd like to be.
-Tim
#OOC: Olea speaking#this is kind of a self-indulgent headcanon but HEAR ME OUT it adds a lot to Tim's character specifically#we're talking about a character who was separated from his mom in childhood and locked up in a psych ward#suffers from chronic physical and mental illness made significantly worse by the institution that was supposed to be helping him#forced to regulate his emotions more than other people have to so he isnt misinterpreted as a threat#struggles with addiction#had to work twice as hard as anyone else in his friend group just to be given the same opportunities#a much more common experience inside BIPOC communities#and he clearly has ties to the land (especially the park) nobody else has#you know how in season 2 Alex starts yapping to Jay about how the park is cursed?#maybe he was right#maybe that *thing* has been here for hundreds of years#and nobody was ever able to settle the land so eventually the Department of Conservation turned it into a state park#and Tim isnt some random âpatient zeroâ#but he has ancestral ties to the land and was more receptive/at risk to Operator Sickness (but was also more resistant to it long term)#JUST SAYIN đ#im half Katu and I desire my comfort character to be a halfie with me we need more non-white rep in mh#ask.txt#marble hornets#mh#tim wright#afterlife au#slenderverse#Native!Tim
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I love Steph's origin as told in the Secret Origins 80 page giant- I just overall think it strengthens her character by giving her a lot of pathos and adding to her heroism (which isn't something writers were focused on in her actual intro in detective comics #647 since she was just meant to act as a plot device back then) BUT there is one tiny detail in it i will begrudge, and that is the portrayal of her having a minor love at first sight moment for tim
Secret origins 80 page giant, ID in alt
(or well, technically this was their second meeting in that story (the brick was the first) so...love at second sight?)
Mostly because Stephanie showed no interest in her introduction and only showed romantic feelings towards Tim AFTER this moment here:
Robin (1993) #4, ID in alt
Straight up the progression here goes:
The adventure in 'tec where they first meet -> Tim investigating the same crime scene as Steph -> she beats him up not knowing it's him at first, apologizes but says he shouldn't have scared her -> he remembers her/the moniker she goes by -> they talk about plot for a few pages -> Stephanie starts flirting
Robin (1993) #4, ID in alt
Which...is so fascinating to me and says so much about Stephanie. She highlights the fact that Tim "remembered" her. Like. Steph. Girl. This is our bar? It's sweet but kind of speaks to how much Stephanie is ignored at home/how little and sporadically she's shown interacting with her peers (and rarely ever the same kids twice). Her idea of peak romance is just...being on someone's mind even when you're not there.
Kind of also adds layers to Steph's proclivity towards jealousy later on, a manifestation of her insecurity and loneliness (though don't get it twisted, she's not written this way bc Dixon and co think it's an interesting character flaw, they wrote it bc they think it's an inherent character flaw of (particularly young) women/girls, which is very apparent in how he approaches Ariana's character as well from what I've read)
Also the fact that Steph becomes so smitten for Tim almost immediately after this is (a few issues later she aggressively flirts with him during AN ACTIVE HOSTAGE SITUATION. WHERE SHE'S THE HOSTAGE) again is kind of a mixture of kind of funny and sad. One boy is nice to her once and she's fully ready to wife him. Girl you are deranged (affectionate) (concerned)
#ramblings of a lunatic#dc comics#stephanie brown#tim drake#timsteph#meta#< ??? ig#robin 1993#made this post and forgot to finish. saved it in drafts. saw posts that annoyed me. proceeded to finish it#the subset of fans who think they're doing a righteous feminism by giving steph more flaws than she has in canon...headaches#yes flawed female characters are important representation no i dont think you projecting chuck dixons conservative values onto her-#-is doing her character a great favour. if so you need to commit to the bit and make tim a stone cold nark /j#sorry okay im done vaguing. there's real things going on in the world that matter. the bad take is the mind killer etc etc#anyway the zero to 100 progression of early timsteph is fascinating. on the one hand i know it's mostly a product of its time#both in terms of portrayals of romance (esp teen romance) and partially of women and girls by dixon (not extremely boy obsessed-#-but there's a. dark shadow of the boy crazy trope. a gentle whiff of it in the air. just a little)#but bc this aspect isn't blatantly/egregiously author bias i choose to analyse it#i could also analyse how steph in general is portrayed as liking guys she can't/shouldn't have a little#(her crush on the much older detective in bg2009 and also tim a little bit w/ the secret identity thing)#(but that's a whole other discussion. also that aspect of the romance in bg2009 is. also a little sexistly motivated-#-and also dropped part way through to an extent so like..not exactly ripe for analysis)#ANYWHO i love you Steph <3 you're unwell and yet so adorable and compelling Steph <3
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âď¸âď¸ happy holidays from these two !! they are so so sillay ><
#severus snape#snape#young snape#yonal linx#im so crazy abt them its kinda concerning now#yonal wearing a skirt goes so hard#they made a conservative person have a heart attack in broad daylight once#dinxdraws#sninx
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WAOT WERE U THE ONE TSUKASA COSPLAYER AT MIKUEXPO GIVING OUT MIKU STICKERS TO THE PJSK FANS
THATS ME!!!!! i didn't mean to just give them to pjsk fans help but i severely underestimated how many i should've made and cut out .. so i just ended up giving them to cosplayers or people who said hi to me .... T_T
THERE'S ALSO THIS SUPER CUTE BRACELET SOMEBODY RAN UP TO ME AND GAVE ME AND I TREASURE IT SO I NEED TO ADD IT TO THE POST AND SHOW IT OFF .. WAH!!!! ITS SO CUTE LOOK!!!!!!
#again WAS NOT MY BIRTHDAY. MIKUEXPO TORONTO FELL ON TSUKASAS BIRTHDAY IN JAPAN TIME. SORRY TO EVERYONE WHO SAID HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.#i love your icon cause i saw a garf miku cosplayer at mikuexpo toronto too IT WAS SO AWESOME#i saw snother tsukasa cosplayer in hid school outfit and they had cute star glasses i Need some.#in the future n for cons i think i'll just order stickers to hand out .. cutting them out by hand was so much .....#especially when i did the whole pjsk cast. 10 or so of each of them. my best friend helped and it still took like 2 hours#<- I DID THAT FOR ANIME NORTH I MEAN i think i forgot to post about it here. anyways#i dont plan on tabling at cons or snything cause i just like attending them so much. but#In the future i think i'll just pay to get Nice little prints or stickers made and shipped to me to hand out ...#Sorry they arent actual stickers they're just laminated with tape i did them the night before while crunching for the con the week after.#alliellama#ask#sorry to go on but mikuexpo really was such a good time#when we first got there i was in the merch line w my friends and skmeone came up and said can you do the tsukasa laugh right here right now#but everything we said echo and i was like T_T no im shy ...#and then 2 hours later i heard there was a saki cosplayer there and started running around the venue shouting SAKI. SAKIII. SAKI.#WE FOUND HER IT TOOK ME LIKE 20 MINS which is impressive because there were a lot of people. by god.#it was so fun. we had such a good time i could go on. everyone was so FREAKING NICE. AND GAVE SO MANY FREEBIES. AND COMPLIMENTS.#but i literally only had like ..30 mikus. to hand out. i felt SO BAD. CONSERVING THEM.
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"Democrats lost because they didn't appeal to enough men and made them feel isolated" ah yes, such as compared to the Republicans who constantly go out of their way to be quite vocal about their respect and admiration for women and trying to appeal to them, right?
#im so tired of this narrative#if you shifted right because jokes about choosing the bear made your pee pee feel small youre exactly who we're talking about#isnt it heartbreaking how no matter what everything circles back to male ego and fragility#men literally still control nearly every aspect of society and theyll still go conservative and blame women
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see my brain just doesnât register the idea of anyone having a âone true loveâ which is why the common fandom tropes of making canonical love interests terrible in order to justify why your ship is better always bugs the shit out of me. it feels like the only reason you would do that is if the idea of the characters in your ship having any other sort of romantic relationship that was important to them, even in the past, is a threat to their current one, therefore all their past relationships need to be demonized in order to make them ânot real loveâ so that they remain pure and chaste and ready for the True Love of the endgame ship.
#im not crazy right like other people notice that trope ajd get annoyed by it right#its a very weird trope to be so common from my perspective because like. why not just. break up the couple you dont want.#for reasons that arent âi made this person into a charicature of themselves to justify why my blorbo would have never actually loved themâ#you know? its weird. its weird right?#and then of course thereâs the offshoot of this that intersect with fandom misogyny where that demonized person is usually the female love#interest. or sometimes not even that. sometimes she was just standing there a little too close to one of the guys and that made people feel#insecure about their ship so they make her a bitch. gwen cooper. im. im talking about gwen cooper. people do this to gwen cooper and ill#never know peace about that.#anyway. is there a word for like. heteronormativity for monogomous people. because thats what i think this falls under.#because it is a very. like its a very conservatively monogomous idea. i feel like it is not unrelated to christian values of not having sex#before youâre married. that maybe someone in fandom might manage to ditch that particular ruleset to make their blorbos fuck nasty but NOT#the underlying idea of it that you can only ever have One Person you share that love and intimacy with. so you still end up perpetuating the#same toxic beliefs. you know? sorry im rambling it just annoys me
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#columbo#season 8#murder smoke and shadows#the one part of the episode that couldve used the padding. the weird dark metaphysical discussion#i always found it funny sir. you know the conservation of matter and all. ashes to ashes. dust to dust#like taking someone's life. disposing of the body. you can burn em to ash but ya still cant destroy the particles of who they once were#makes ya wonder what consciousness is made of dunnit sir?#well anyway. i betta head home. my wife made ziti and if im late she'll get aul upset
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i wanna write a book like i have all the fucking characters figured out and everything but i always feel. so fucking awkward writing about original characters. so i wanna write it in a weird way but i don't think literally anyone would like it at all ever. like i kinda wanna write it as like a fake dnd game transcript bc that would be fun to write but literally who would even. read it. head in hands
#like im not trying to get like popular or anything i just wanna like. idk. fuck around and find out#i even made like a fake game system bc i don't know dnd that well and i wanna have fun w it#i just dont want it to be like Too long. but if i write it like this it's either gonna be long as fuck or like multiple books#its definitely lowkey bitb/nitw inspired <<voice of a guy who grew up in a small conservative town where there was a cult#whiskey yelling into the void#not to mention i have like a million fics i wanna write and still havent come close 2 finishing -_-
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tme fagdykes when you ask them if they've actually been called faggot irl
#textposts#i think slur reclaiming discourse is an endless round about with no exit. my stance is im not a cop and just do what you want within reason#im personally a trans guy who call himself fag too#i know guys who do the same. i know trans girls who call themselves dykes. its fine!#but i think its funny that the most transmisogynistic guys on this website are the loudest in calling themselves faggots#while acting no less different than the conservative hate mobs who made an example trans women so their kids wont be one of those faggots#like... its stolen valour. its treating faggotization.. a process transfeminine people went through#as like... a thing you visit for fun and can discard when things are inconvenient#im not good at articulating this but i hope yall get the poont
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judas is the most obvious queer allegory in the entirety of human history it genuinely shocks me sometimes how transparent the whole BETRAYING A SON OF MAN WITH A KISS thing is when you think about it for over like 0.03 seconds.
#judas iscariot#like. how did it take religious trauma and experiencing homophobia and distancing myself from the church and being very online in my teens#to realize that this man was gay like john may as well have fucking written ''judas kissed men''#i'm genuinely surprised shitty conservative christians aren't using his case to preach homophobia. im glad of course. but i dont know how#they let that one pass#like i get the whole oh he bettayed jesus that was it surface thing but you don't even have to go below surface to realize something gayer#is going on there like why are y'all KISSING#did none of those old men reading luke before all those jesus paintings that portray it as a kiss on the cheek get made and popularized tha#image ever go ''y'all hold on why is this disciple kissing men''#im not religious just insane.jpg
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#personal#I asked a question about queerness to someone in a similar situation as me#it was just a passing thought/curiosity but now I'm sobbing about it#30 years in a conservative and repressive environment makes it so hard for me to untangle what's real and what's internalized#but being around other queer people this past year made me comfortable enough to reckon with parts of myself#it's a cathartic cry but i still dont know what to make of it. im sad and lost but also grateful i can now think about these things.#im just glad im not alone
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This game used the audio recordings of Anneliese Michel? It has a girlâs slow death under negligence because of her epilepsy and psychosis (using the brain scans to debunk it makes no sense it was the 70s and even doctors, their machines, and their medicine were ill-equipped. The "proof" was her acting strange around religious iconography, having different personalities, and eating bugs and urine. Nothing as supernatural as 'speaking in different tongues' occurred and her parents were deeply catholic so they're inclined to believe it's the devil. If you look at the dates, it coincides with the rise of the satanic panic.)
So, Airdorf mixed it into a video game boss battle. Yeah Iâm not fucking with this game anymore what a sick joke.
#faith the unholy trinity#âyou draw the line at this but not Rosemaryâs Baby?â Im not denying its conservative roots but. including the sounds of the disabled for#âSpooky Pointsâ is a line I have to draw. I once thought I was being stalked by a cockroach and other such things.#gary miller#michael davies#amy martin#faith by airdorf#john ward#if anyone makes a joke about the cockroach delusion theyâre getting blocked my mind isnât very nice to me already.#and that roach example is the relatively light delusion.#anyways i already have a complicated with catholic horror which is why ive only allowed myself to watch the exorcist. rosemary's baby#and the omen. i think any other movie would make me too mad because i remember conservative movies never stopped being made#the exorcism of emily rose
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Saw a comment somewhere and if I wasnt so tired my blood would be boiling but we are at a low simmer, so here I am to Bitch
I'm sorry but if your argument for (likely canon) bisexual Kim having a preference for men is her FORMER relationship with Scott I am going to beat you to death with my bat
At LEAST say it's the hopeless pining she does for him currently. Or maybe mention that she's dated 3 guys that we know of! (Which I will counter w her being gay as hell for/with 3 women, which levels out- though that's besides the point-) But if you're going to hinge it entirely on a relationship she had that started and ended in highschool I'm going to break your legs and make you sit through a deep dive of the series with me. All media. Just to reeeeeally draw it out. Painfully.
#idk why that comment made me so mad i literally do not care how nuanced people read Kim's sexuality tbh#but like. surely you can find something else to back that up with. surely. bc im gonna be real with you- even using her hopeless pining is +#+less a point towards Men Generally and more a point towards Scott Fucking Pilgrim- a man with inexplicable rizz apparently#(it's the autism /hj)#he's actually rizzless btw. also this is how you know im tired i dont think ive ever fucking uttered that word before#where was i going? idk i am gone. pine rant over maybe. unless one of you comes and sets me off again cgcjdhdf#(oh gods please dont do that i need to conserve my energy i only have so many coffee candies left and my mom isnt even here yet)#((you can do that if you want i just wont be able to answer til later and it will Gnaw))#ooc#txt#scott pilgrim#kim pine#sp comic#spvtw#spto#scott pilgrim takes off#scott pilgrim vs the world#sckim#bc it's relevant idk. i feel like that tag is bone dry
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I am so beyond ready to quit this job. Wednesday cannot come fast enough.
#to be fair it's bc school starts again in a few weeks#but idk. every day at this office feels like sandpaper on my skin. people always ask me shit i dont understand#and every case is so individual there's no set checklist to follow to troubleshoot#so most of the time I just grind my gears and get stuck#it'd busy more days than not.#and it was advertised to me as data entry only. client interactions was not what i signed up for.#it's all client interaction.#we're short staffed so nobody gets to take the back office and have a break.#when we weren't short staffed i was the new guy and only got 1 day in the back a week while everyone else got 2.#all my coworkers are conservative but talk like they're apolitical.#i thought it'd be fulfilling bc im helping people get benefits#but many are rude or impatient as any other service job. I'm constantly trying to direct people that don't want to listen#or explain the intricacies of something i barely understand.#and i don't want to lead people astray bc you have to start over if you blow a deadline.#but there's just nothing redeeming that i enjoy.#i hate customer service. i hate constantly asking questions. i like seldom few of my coworkers.#i can't be me at work.#and i don't care about the work itself anymore.#this job made me cry every day for weeks last month from sheer stress and overstimulation.#i almost cried myself sick several times.#the only reason I'm not there anymore is bc i dont fucking care anymore.#it took me 2 months to burn out. 2 months!#i was training for half of that!!#idk. everyone decided i was smart and could pick it up quickly so. even though everyone else got 4-6 weeks of shadowing#you can make do with 3 before you start doing stuff solo.#which feels unfair. i wasn't ready for it. and i resent the decision quite a bit.#plus it's been a nightmare for me in terms of external stressors and my generally deteriorating mental health. so.#all in all. i hate it here.#and i can't wait to turn in my notice so i can gtfo in 2 weeks#i am so tired. free me. let me go back to my music please
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Thoughts on the s3 teaser; Extremely cringe but I think that's what they were going for. But I might be huffing copium
#jumpscare twitch emote#lmao#iwtv#insane ramblings#the way he looks like he hates this as much as i do. I feel we might be making fun of certain fans again and im always on board for that#like how it took 4 seasons of the boys for conservatives to realize they were being made fun of
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