#IF SHES DEAD I WILL BE IN SO MUCH PAIN
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Just some JuanaFlippa fanart cause she's the best egg and she's totally alive and badass because she's so incredibly powerful mhm
#WAAAAAAHHH#IF SHES DEAD I WILL BE IN SO MUCH PAIN#I LOVE HER SHE CANT GO DUDE#PRAYING ON A MIRACLE#I SPENT AN HOUR DRAWING THIS BEFORE THE NEWS CAME OUY#slimecicle#el mariana#qsmp#qsmp fanart#juanaflippa
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The Girl Who Died // Hell Bent
#dwedit#doctor who#usertennant#userveronika#userteri#twelfth doctor#clara oswald#doctor x clara#twelveclara#*#I'M SICK OF LOSING PEOPLE. LOOK AT YOU WITH YOUR EYES AND YOUR NEVER GIVING UP AND YOUR ANGER AND YOUR KINDNESS.#ONE DAY THE MEMORY OF THAT WILL HURT SO MUCH THAT I WON'T BE ABLE TO BREATHE AND I'LL DO WHAT I ALWAYS DO.#I'LL GET IN MY BOX AND I'LL RUN AND I'LL RUN IN CASE ALL THE PAIN EVER CATCHES UP. AND EVERY PLACE I GO IT WILL BE THERE.#anyway idk if this makes sense outside of my head but the journey between like#she might meet someone she can't bear to lose -> gives her a second repair kit so she can make someone else immortal too ->#he can't bear to lose clara -> he brings her back from the dead which makes her functionally immortal ->#look how far i went for fear of losing you#ok actually i need to make a full parallel set. someone remind me to do that
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hearts roy, roman's daughter, cousin of tom and shiv's son hibs, a tiny woman with adult braces, overplucked eyebrows, masochistic body piercings, her single father's veins, her lonely father's eyes, her rootless father's mouth - pictured IF she had survived past her infancy, which in this hypothetical universe she did not.
hearts, from shiv's perspective, in the "canon universe" of this fic with the mencken presidency having further destroyed america, in which hearts does not live:
#art#succession#fanart#succession oc#roman roy#shiv roy#hearts#hibernian#logan roy#fanfic#succession fanfic#it was always the plan for there to be hibs and hearts#hibs just has to live with the fact that hearts is dead#GRAAAHHHH. HEARTS#i love her as much as i love hibs so its fun to venture into the even more hypothetical territory where shes still around#why adult braces? pain of course. and aesthetics#shes an odd bird shes a clubber she pretends shes not rich she wears $1700 dollar canada goose jackets#and a lead with a diamond embedded in her neck#the nation
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imagining a world in which Simon agreed to go with Edwin and try to escape hell, imagining Simon developing an immediate and very inadvisable crush on the cute guy that just threw a grenade at a demon and Edwin's reaction to that, imagining the reaction of Charles Overprotective Rowland when he finds out that the guy Edwin insists on dragging along with them is one of the guys that sacrificed him to a demon in the first place, imagining the Night Nurse's face when three dead boys pop back through the door instead of two
#dead boy detectives#charles rowland#edwin payne#This is very much not what I would have wanted to see in the show because that episode was perfect to me#But I do think it would have been funny#And hey if you wanted to go the angst route and follow sandman comic lore of 'people stay in hell because they believe they should be there#Then you could have Edwin who has come to terms with who he is and Simon who is starting to forgive himself thanks to Edwin#Getting out of Hell just fine while they're being chased#And Charles 'im scared I'll end up like my dad' Rowland. Charles 'i could never be good enough' Rowland. Charles 'rage issues' Rowland#Who doesn't think he deserves to get out. Even if the thought is deep down and buried#Edwin's reaction to that would be. Woof. Yikes. Delicious#Don't get me wrong Charles would absolutely not stay in hell because I love him too much for that#And so does Death and you absolutely cannot change my mind about that there's no way she doesn't know about the boys#So yeah he'd get out fairly quickly#But just. The potential. The pain. Chef's kiss
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ghost stares at the ceiling, chest heaving in a harsh pant; sweat ice on his clammy flesh and soaked into the sheet he restlessly kicks away.
ears still ringing, his fingertips blindly drift down to trail along his vivisection scar. he half-expects blood to smear in their wake. his own line of solomon, who ordered him split in twain; half of him given to a grieving mother and half left with the grieving to be.
just for both his broken halves to be rejected.
what did it make him that his mother grieved him more than she loved him? that she begged to be relieved of him more adamantly than she begged to receive him? why did his worth spill out with his drawn blood? why was his pain lesser than hers?
his hand flexes, digging into the raised scar like it’ll part beneath his fingertips to plunge into his mangled insides. no one knows the cruelty of reforming the halved; his name, his being, not nearly as important as his body when he was stripped from himself. no one knows the pain of healing and understanding losing pieces of yourself means losing your value along with them.
how many more pieces did he have to lose before he was halved once more? before his very presence incurred grief so strong it was better to be rid of him than cradle his bloodied remains?
did the infant fight himself? did he age always at odds with himself; his halves never truly whole? he hopes he wasn’t, that he was spared the loss of self; the fear that one may be welcomed over the other.
who will he lose when the inevitable comes? when he’s ripped apart again? simon? or ghost? is it better to be cursed with choice just like his mother or live with an aftermath chosen for him? does it matter if in the end, he convinces himself there was nothing of him left to lose?
his head lolls to the side and the wild buck of his chest slows. he watches johnny beside him, his face lax with the rare peace of sleep; his cheek squished against the pillow, his lips pursed as long breaths escape him.
johnny. soap. never torn asunder but two all the same.
he carefully reaches out and ghosts his fingers along the jagged scar on his chin. even in sleep, he presses into his bloodied touch. he’s never fled his half-flesh, never shies away from his gore as it spills unbidden from his cleaved torso. he holds on where his mother let him go; cups his stomach to hold his insides in place and never minds the blood that drips through his fingers.
simon will never let him become his own solomon and cannibalise himself. he will never let him question which half of him has more value; which pieces he can afford to lose before he’s cast aside.
ghost’s soap. simon’s johnny. his.
whole, in any incarnation.
#yall know the story of king solomon?#and the two mothers who claim a baby is theirs so he orders the baby cut in half so they can each have half of him?#well guess what woke me up out of a dead sleep and demanded to be written?#anyway roba showing simon clips of his mum on the news begging for the safe return of her boy#for the government to do something; /anything/ please she just wants her son back#just for ghost to dig himself out of simon's coffin and she can't bear to look at the man he's become#he's cold and afraid and hesitant and angry and in pain and so different from her little boy that it's just too difficult for her#he's a living breathing reminder that her simon didn't come back from the desert#and ghost has to live with the knowledge that his mum couldn't love him through anything#that maybe if he got himself out sooner if he was stronger or smarter or a better soldier... if he hadn't let simon die...#maybe he wouldn't have changed so much that she wouldn't look him in the eye and see a stranger#if you know anything about me by now you know i love the separation of the self and the person they become around others or bc of trauma#whether thats hizashi and present mic or simon and ghost its one of my absolute favourite tropes#and simon knowing hes become someone else and going home expecting to still be loved anyway?#just for this new version of himself to be rejected?#thats the moment he fractures into ghost#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#john soap mactavish#soap cod#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghoap#ghost call of duty#cod mw2#cod mwii#save post
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JK Rowling <<<<< MsKingBean89
#mskingbean89#all the young dudes#atyd fanfic#atyd fandom#atyd#Honestly i love hp books and I'm part of hp fandom but this fanfic made my life better#like atyd it's a magnificent piece of art#She's not even the author of hp but gave a better characterization of marauders than the real author#I love atyd Remus really much#As well as atyd Sirius and grant my beloved#I'm glad she didn't include scenes of order of the Phoenix because it would be too painful to read#It would be so good but poor Remus he already suffers lots in the book#remus lupin#remus x sirius#sirius black#sirius orion black#james potter#atyd marauders#atyd remus#atyd sirius#ao3 fanfic#fanfic#fanfiction#ao3#marauders era#dead gay wizards from the 70s#hp marauders#marauders
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elves sleep with open eyes, right?
what if thranduil's wife died with her eyes open
how he was to explain to legolas that no, your mother will not wake up, she is not sleeping
(she will never laugh with you again, she will never love you again, she will never play with you and hug you with those warm arms, you will never see her smile again, only the still one in some paintings (if any were left and were not destroyed by your grief-drunk father) but it will be wrong because she is dead and the paint is just paint, you will never sit with her in the gardens and talk for hours, she will never braid your hair, you will never hear her or feel her smell of home, you will never have a mom because she died abd she is not asleep)
she will not come back, you cannot bring her back, no matter how much you ask
you don't have a mother anymore
#legolas#thranduil#legolas and thranduil#thranduil's wife#the hobbit#lotr#she is dead asleep#sleeping soundly#i love all of them so much it makes me sick with the possibilities of pain and angst
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what i wish people would also explore more when it comes to Percy is the other side of his feelings about his mom about family and his childhood but this fandom is too afraid to paint Sally even in the slightest bad light (even if it's not bad just acknowledging her flaws because she's a human being and not perfect) that no one will touch on that subject. like yes Sally is the best mom but she also isn't and that's the thing! She isn't perfect! but she tried her best but her best still got Percy hurt and it isn't her fault at all but that's the tragedy of it. i want Percy's feelings about this explored. how he grew up with a loving mom but an abusive step father. how his step father would humiliate him and call him stupid but then his mom soothed him and told him he's not the things Gabe calls him. how Gabe would hurt him and Sally would be there to make him happy and loved but at the same time she stayed with him. i want Percy's feelings explored about how he knows his mother loves him but her absence still hurt him. she would work so much to have money to raise him she did that for him but at the same time it meant Percy was left alone or with Gabe. Sally gave up so much for him, she sent him away to protect him but at the same time he was sent away from his mom. she's the only parent he has because his father is absent and Gabe is not actually a parental figure at all but she's also often absent in his life too and that must have left him with such mixed feelings because it's not all black and white! Sally's love protected him but also hurt him. Percy loves his mom so so so much but there's also this deep-seated bitterness and hurt and anger he never let himself feel and then the guilt for having those feelings because his mom loves him he knows that and she gave up so much for him and she married a monster that abused her to protect him, he knows that but it doesn't make it hurt any less. the mess his emotions are because he knows his mom suffered for him and did it from her love for him but he still desperately wishes she never married that monster that he wouldn't have to have the childhood he had with him that he wouldn't have to live with the trauma he was left with. this all is exactly what makes their relationship so fascinating and also heartbreaking.
or the idea of Percy having weird mixed feelings after Estelle is born because that's his little sister and he loves her with his whole heart and would do anything for her and wants only the best for her but there's also this little jealous monster deep down that wonders why she gets to have a loving mom and a loving dad and a happy normal life but he never got that. why does she deserve it but not him? why couldn't he have that too? doesn't he deserve that too? he was just a child too so why why why??? and then the guilt of feeling that way too it makes me want to scream. emotions are fucking messy and they can be really ugly and they can make you hate yourself and there's no way Percy's feelings aren't a mess when it comes to this and i want to see it explored so badly!
and with Sally too! her feelings about Percy because she did so much and tried her best but sometimes unfortunately your best isn't good enough and it still got her beloved son hurt and she hates it and feels so guilty but she just has to live with that but she can't help to wish it was different. that their lives would be different. better. normal. she can't help but to wish she didn't have to do the things she's done, didn't have to suffer so much just to protect her child. can't help to wish she didn't have to worry so much, didn't have to be so scared about Percy, didn't have to be terrified that one day he won't come back home to her, that she won't be able to hold her son anymore because he will be gone, she just wishes he didn't have to suffer so much, she just wishes and wishes and wishes
and i just wish people weren't so afraid to explore this because it's so heartwrenching and yes if you want something do it yourself but unfortunately i cannot write nor am i able to handle this topic in a way it deserves so i am left only with rambling about it on here thank you
#i am not trying to victim blame or anything i love Sally and she did her best and didn't deserve any of the crap life gave her#but there's just something so tragic about the fact that she married a vile man and suffered abuse to protect her son#just for her decision to hurt him anyways just in a different way but the only other option would probably be Percy ending up dead#so she can't really truly regret it but she just wishes those weren't their only options#that she didn't have to do this just so that her child could stay alive#thinking about it makes me go feral#they had no choice but to suffer there was no way for their lives to be without this much hurt and trauma and it's terrible#and they didn't deserve it but there was so much love too#but the horrible thing is that that love just wasn't enough to save them from all that pain and i need to be sedated bye#percy jackson#sally jackson#pjo#hoo#percy and sally#percy jackon and the olympians#whatever you do don't think about a six years old lonely Percy sitting in a corner waiting for his mom to come back home from work#and he knows she loves him but he misses her so much when she spends so much time in work and that hurts#don't think about a ten years old Percy being sent away to a boarding school and he knows his mom loves him#but what if she's sending him away because he's just too much? or not enough? and what if she doesn't want him anymore?#and he knows that's not true but what if?#i'm thinking it#okay i think that's enough
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Geralt: From now on, we will be using code names. You can address me as Eagle One. Yennefer, code name: “Been There, Done That.” Fringilla is “Currently Doing That.” Regis is “It Happened Once in a Dream”; Dandelion, code name: “If I Had To Pick a Dude.” Milva is... Eagle Two.
Milva: Oh, thank the gods.
#edit i changed it from triss and yennefer to yennefer and fringilla for more book accuracy#it pained me to do so but i imagine him speaking to the breakfast table in beauclair here#yennefer isnt present so she cant hear him say this and also his heart broke when he said it#i just wanted to make this post so i could say that for regis and geralt it happens in dreams. anyways#incorrect witcher quotes#also this is unrealistic because geralt would not remember or hang out with triss#much less mention their thing in front of yennefer#this is a difficult post to make when like a third of the most important characters are children or young adults#i could have said shani or coral but shani was once and coral is dead#i like how regis is named before dandelion and yet dandelion is ‘if i had to pick a dude’ like regis does not count as a dude#nonbinary flag fades in behind me from thin air 🥲#gerlion#geregis#not tagging as the others because multishipping is less common there#the witcher books
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It’s so embarrassing and heartbreaking being in so much pain over losing someone while knowing they don’t give a fuck if you live or die. Your favorite person becoming a stranger is a special kind of hell.
#I fucking hate having bpd#while I’m at it I don’t understand the fuckin audacity some people have to say they love you and do horrible things to you#I feel so stupid#I feel so stupid for believing all the lies#but I was so in love and put him on such a pedestal that I just allowed it all.#thinking about someone constantly and grieving over them and knowing they’re perfectly fine and to them you don’t exist#I’m still in such a state of grief and I don’t understand why time hasn’t healed#it honestly feels like it’s gotten worse w time#I just torture myself but I can’t help it my brain wants me dead#it’s so painful I feel so fucking stupid#being abandoned with no closure by someone who’s your entire world#for someone they were unfaithful to you with multiple times (I don’t even know how many and dony want to know) immediately#like that was the plan all along#he took our cat hundreds of miles away and I don’t even know if he still has her or if she’s still alive and I miss her every day#I never loved someone like that and it feels like the heartbreak is actually physically killing me#i spent 1/5 of my entire life with him#I was my prettiest and had the best body at the time and I wasted it on someone who didn’t appreciate me#not wasted. it wasn’t wasted. we had some incredible times together#I’ll never be that beautiful again#and now idk what do so bc i can’t decide which is worse: being alone and isolating or loving deeply and ending up horribly hurt all over#it’s all just so upsetting.#and I feel so stupid for allowing it all#he knows more about me than anyone and he made me feel like he loved me so much sometimes and then did horrid things and it’s so fucked up#nobody read this I’m so embarrassed and horribly broken#it traumatized me so much there was so much abuse and pain idk if I’ll ever recover#I deserved it but it still hurts my heart#I was so mentally ill and sick I know it had to have been miserable to be around me#there are so many things only he understands and knows about me and I need to talk about them I j wanna b able to b there 4 each other#but that girl is so beyond insecure and controlling so. if I want to talk to who fuckin gets me I’m just fucked#why lead someone on like that for years knowing you’re going to abandon them the second it’s convenient
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Hey queenie wears a corset right? What does she look like without it? Obviously not asking how she looks NAKED but like you get it
Ok so!!
Queenie does wear one, yes. And how she looks without it-
Here!
#i believe in chubby women supremacy#also shes dead so she doesnt feel really any pain with her corset or if its too tight etc#ahit#ahit au#a hat in time#a statche in time#swap au#ahit swap au#queen vanessa#ahit swap vanessa#swap vanessa#ahit the queen#a hat in time au#swap#au#sorry for not posting much content about a stache in time btw!!#anyways thanks for asking!
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been thinking a lot about my royai kid ideas lately but i don't think a lot of people will like them because i don't name the kid after maes lol
#and also I focus more on riza's traumatic upbringing rather than only addressing roy being sad about maes#also it's 03royai usually#crystal convos#i have my own personal bias against the idea of their baby being named after maes#in part because i dont think the wound will ever be healed enough for roy to be able to not associate it w the pain of losing his friend#i also cannot explain just how much the idea of naming my own child directly after my dead sister makes me want to die so. pure projection#i think my problem with a lot of royai kid stuff is that riza has an explicitly traumatic childhood in her background and no one explores i#because they're so focused on roy struggling with feeling like he can never measure up to hughes--which is fine but WHAT ABOUT RIZA#One aspect abt Riza's trauma that I explore with my royai kid stuff is the theme of alchemist fathers and their children they abuse/neglect#Riza herself; Nina Tucker; the Elrics... And now she is having an alchemist's child
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Things I achieved today:
Wrote 203 words on "15 Minutes" chapter 11! Yeah, I'm absolutely celebrating those 203 little words because they're 203 words I was beginning to be afraid were never going to show up. 😬🤗
I think I figured out a way where I can go ahead and pre-order the Dead Rising Deluxe Remaster! This is also HUGE because I really, really want this thing but thought I couldn't try it because of my concerns about how Georgette will be able to handle the Denuvo Anti-Cheat. However, I realized I do have a way to test that without paying full price for the game: Dead Rising 4 (which I own already) still has Denuvo on it. So... I'm going to do a full backup for Georgette, pray super duper hard, then install and see if I can play DR4. Don't have to play the whole game or anything, of course, but I figure a couple of hours of play should give me all the info I need. If Georgette handles that okay, then I'd say that's the green light for DRDR! It has soooooo many awesome things in it, friends, and I've been dying on the inside at not being able to play it when it becomes available! (If Georgette returns to dying every 10 seconds, then I'll cry quite hard for a while but at least I'll know.)
Frank stared wistfully into the survivor rooms in the original DR, wishing he had a friend. No, neigh, longing to have a friend! 🐎
Cheryl is apparently doing *jazz hands* back at Frank. I'm not quite sure what that means... 🤔😂😉
Here's what she was seeing, though...
I mean, who WOULDN'T want to be Frank's friend, right?
Right???
Ahem.
Anyway! That was plenty for one day, lol! Hope you're doing well, friends, and having a nice weekend! Love to you all! 🤗💖
#aislynn's exciting weekend so far#dead rising#frank west#writing#ais is writing#*fingers crossed*#georgette#is cool with#denuvo anti-cheat#because that will absolutely make so much of the pain i went through with her a little more worth it#if she can just let me play the#dead rising deluxe remaster#i'm also considering trying for the#7 day survivor#achievement but that's a frickin' 14 hour real time commitment#it's all that's keeping me from 100% the original game though and i just thought it would be cool to get it#we'll see how that goes though#i might try that first before testing out dr4 and denuvo#i dunno#we'll see#ageless aislynn
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Spoiler? for fear the walking dead. if you care about that? Alycia did it again 💀 I’m not sure about anything else that happened since she left but apparently her character finally reunited with her mother
Baby I seen, and she looks fine as fuck
I haven't seen exactly what happens entirely cuz people are being slow posting clips but it's fine cuz I'm,,, pretty sure it's offensively nonsensical plot wise anyway, but whew. Damn Alycia, back at it again. Girl will do community service for all the busted ass shows of her past and I suppose I respect that. Loyalty and all that
#anon#ftwd#ftwd spoiler?#maybe?#i doubt anyone really cares all that much anymore 🥴#sooo.... Alicia has immunity then?#like that's... that has to be the logical conclusion here how else could she have lived?#what happened here I need to understood this fuckery#lovely to see her face tho Alicia deserved so much better#also like#she thought Madison was dead 🤨#if eyeeeee saw my momma after thinking she was gone for years idk if I'd just “.... mom?....” and then ~calm hug~#whatever she looks insanely hot here I'm not gonna question the gifts I will simply say thank you#woke up to take more pain meds and had a rollercoaster of emotions alright then
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*Scene: Loid and Yor talking about someone who is pregnant*
"I wonder what gender the baby will be?" Yor hummed while folding the stack of dresses for Anya. Loid wanted to help but Yor threatened to slit his throat so he opted to stay to the side and read his book. His "doctor" suggested that he take a few days off since his resting heart rate was concerningly high.
(And by doctor he meant Sylvia playing dress up).
"I personally dont care for the gender of a baby." he commented.
"Oh come on. You mean to tell me you weren't silently praying Anya was going to be a boy?"
Perhaps a boy would have gotten along better with Damian. Then again, there are many ways Anya lacks as a potential bait. He made a piss poor choice but it didn't matter in the end. He was stuck with her and all her shortcomings. Her many, many, many, many shortcomings. Hell, she was literally a shortcoming.
"I just wanted a smooth pregnancy and a healthy baby." Stay neutral. Then again, Donovan was a traditional man who probably wanted all boys. If Yor was to go back to Melinda and retell this conversation would his neutrality put off Donovan and doom the whole operation. "But if I were to have a second kid then I would prefer a boy. To keep things balanced."
"I always saw myself as a boy mom. Boys are so much sweeter and cuddlier. Yuri was such a dear growing up."
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"Yor! Yor! Yor!" a tiny boy ran towards his sister a little flower in his hand.
Yor turned and looked at him with a bright smile. "Awe, Yuri is this for me?"
"Yup." he cheered. "When I grow I'm gonna get really rich so I can give you a million flowers every single day."
"Yuri, that's so sweet." Their mother commented.
"Yes son. But you should save the romantics for your wife." his dad added.
"But Yor's my wife?" he furrowed his eyebrows.
"No. I'm your sister. Your wife should be a very special lady you plan on loving for the rest of your life. You'll find her when you get older." Yor corrected.
"But I already have someone like that. You sis." he was so innocent it pained Yor to have to constantly turn him down.
Their dad came over picking up the little boy. "You got the right idea but the wrong target."
"Don't worry he'll grow out of it. I hope..." their mother muttered a bit wearily.
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Loid smiled awkwardly. So he's always been like that. "Haha I remember being that age. I would pick a bunch of flowers for her and try to make a bouquet."
"That is so sweet Loid. You just don't get that kind of treatment from girls."
"Oh I'm sure that's not true."
"Yesterday when we went on a walk, Anya kept trying to give me dead caterpillars even though she knows I'm afraid of bugs."
"That's Anya she's just an asshole. Nothing to do with her gender."
"And Becky?"
"Becky is an angel especially compared to that gremlin."
"You've never seen her with her mom."
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Yor and Anya had been invited over to the Blackbells for a special tea party. Yor was excited to finally spend time with the Madam of the house, Isabel Blackbell. It was refreshing to have a chance to spend time with another girl mom. What she didn't expect was the odd tension between the mother and daughter. It was so weird watching an adult woman argue with a six year old.
"Were you dropped on the head as baby?" Becky spat.
"You were." her mother grumbled.
"Excuse me!" Becky yelled back.
"Miss Becky, inside voices please." Martha pleaded. "We have guest."
"I am so sorry for the noise. Becky is just throwing a tantrum because her dad bought me a bracelet instead of her even though she didn't want a bracelet." Isabel explained.
"It's not about the bracelet it's about the principal!"
"Wrong principle."
"I hate you!" Becky screamed before running off and flopping down on her bed. Isabell sighed and sipped on her fake tea. She sat up and turn. "Get out!"
"Well, Forgers would you like to head out? " she said standing up from the tiny chair.
With that they left to go downstairs. A few minutes later Becky came downstairs still clearly upset but ready to continue playing. She grumble the notion of apology before clinging to her mom the rest of the playdate.
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"You caught them on a bad day."
"It's always like that. Fighting and squabbling. I'm worried Anya and I will get like that." Loid bit his lip. He didn't have the heart to tell her that is exactly what her relationship with Anya was like. It was fascinating how many of the conversations would just end in a screaming match only for them to be cuddled up under the blanket watching some cheesy movie. Anya didn't even like romantic movies but anything to snuggle with her mama.
Any mother-daughter duo knew had a similar combative dynamic. Or any older-younger woman combo. He has seen Handler and Nightfall bicker before suddenly gossiping about him (even though he was right there).
He feared the day Anya got old enough for them to start fighting over meaningful things.
"Your sample size is too small."
"Well maybe if Anya made more female friends."
"Becky is enough work for me. Not to mention I have to deal with your whining." Anya, who had quietly watching her show the entire time, suddenly added.
"Anya your father and I are talking. Stay out." Yor scolded. Anya hissed before turning back around. "Did she just hiss at me? Loid she hissed at me?"
"I'm sure those Desmond boys give Melinda a run for her money." Loid did not want to get in the middle of their war. He had a lifetime with these two, he needed to pick his battles.
"Don't change the topic." Now he was getting scolded. "But you're wrong. They're both angels."
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When Yor arrived at the cafe she was immediately escorted to the back. In a small private room, Melinda was there with her head down on the table.
"Melinda what's wrong?" she sat up with running makeup and a strong pout before slowly raising up a small paper.
"Damian wrote a letter for me." She sobbed. "He spelled my name wrong and corrected it and wrote a little sorry. He wrote the entire thing in a blue crayon because he and I quote "knew it was my favourite colour" and then he apologized for not using a lighter shade of blue."
Yor covered her mouth, tears brimming in her eyes as well. She looked at the tiny letter, the endless scrawling from the first grader coming together to create such a sweet and adorable letter. She could see the little doodles and designs to help make it look pretty. He even tried to draw hyacinths as they were her favourite as well.
"He lost marks *Sniffle* because he put the first line *chokes* as Mama's room because he thought it was part of my address." she fell over crying again.
"He didn't even specify a dish instead he said he would he love it as long as I made it because he loves everything I make."
The two women sobbed over the letter for an hour.
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Anya had to do the same thing. The assignment was to request your mom to make your favourite dish. Of course she decided to write one begging Fiona to make her that weird fish soup again. She did it in red crayon and tried to add tears for design but obviously the blue crayon in use so she stuck with the red. It looked more like a threat than a heartfelt letter. It didn't that the whole thing was in cyrillic.
She was supposed to fail the assignment (since it was supposed to be for your mom not your father's coworker) but Anya played the dead mother card forcing the lecturer to change the assignment not to exclude her. The teacher was surprised when Yor showed up for the PTA meeting excited to see her daughter's progress. By then the grades were already submitted so it was a lost cause.
As Loid said, it was more than her gender. Anya was just an asshole.
THIS USER DOES NOT SUPPORT GENDERED STEREOTYPES. THIS IS JUST MEANT TO MAKE FUN OF BOYMOMS AND POKE FUN AT GENDER OBSESSED PEOPLE. INSPIRED BY THOSE CRAZY BOYCAT TIKTOKS
#spy x family#sxf#loid forger#twilight#yor forger#headcanon#anya forger#damian desmond#becky blackbell#shit post baby#just to be clear i do not think the gender of your child determines how they will behave#instead gender socialization forces young girls to bottle up a lot of frustration and the only outlet is their mom#but that's advanced feminism#this is just an excuse to write a bunch of cute scenarios of kids being kids#anya is just a professional dipshit#but anya was being cute with yor#the dead caterpillars was to show her that she was also capable of murder#and the reason she wrote the letter for fiona in red crayon was becuase it was for yor originally#but she felt more comfortable writing in cyrillic and she didn't want yor to be sad if she wasn't able to make her the dish she wanted#the dead mom thing was just to piss off her teacher#and yes becky and her fight because that's her daughter and they're both geminis it was doomed from the start#they also always wear matching clothes and go shopping together#i also hc that donovan always wanted daughters and he's so jealous of anyone that has a daughter be he's stuck with two boys#he has one niece and she is the center of his universe heir to the throne like she is his everything#he was so invested in damian's birth bc he thought it was going to be a girl#disappointment from birth#yor was also a pain in her mother's ass#it's a right of passage yeah#and i'm saying this as someone with a mom and mostly female friends the war between mother and daughter is just part of life#fiona's mom hated her so much she gave birth to her in soviet russia
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i miss her everyday
#ring suzune#vocaloid#cancelled vocaloid#cancelled media#long live ring suzune..... gone but not forgotten#listening to 'sweet pain' always makes me feel so sad because she never got released so she's just singing this forever#same with listening to 'jealousy partly clear'. it legit feels like listening to a long dead loved one#sweet pain is what i feel whenever i think about ring (except there is only pain 😭)#AND lui got cancelled alongside her as well.... that's like a double whammy of sad#i wonder why ring suzune was cancelled though. like the songs we have with her voice sound just fine#she just needs a few fixes.... yamaha pls#or maybe it wasn't related to her voice?#i miss her so much you don't understan d#i hope that beta of her voice gets shared someday if it hasn't already....#(also idk why people say ring looks like miku. like yeah she has blue hair and some artists make her look kinda mikuish-#-but tbh ring actually looks much closer to luka than miku)#watch me get fixated on ring suzune for weeks on end and unearth all this stuff and then suddenly stop lmaoo
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