#I've never hear it explained like this
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Considering conservatives are going to try to go after material rights that means we have to fight for them.
Liberal feminism says, when they go low, we go high. When the man rapes us, we educate them on consent. When the man abuses us, we educate them on power dynamics and the cycle of abuse. When the man impregnates us accidentally, but wants the kid anyway, we educate him on abortion. When the man doesn’t remember the kids’ allergies, we educate him on the mental load. When the man keeps doing those things, we educate him on emotional labour. Educate educate educate. All these terms are new, and we are emboldened by them, thinking that because they’re new, maybe once we educate the man, this time round he will finally understand. We accept that as the oppressor class, he is allowed to be ignorant whilst we are not. But that’s not a problem; we are enthusiastic, hopeful. We lead by example, we believe our kindness will be inspiring and will spread out of us, changing the world.
Instead it all gets consumed by the void in our homes.
#I've never hear it explained like this#I like it#so many things we discuss about gender roles is very theoretical and not material that it seems so abstract and unhelpful#this I can get behind
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"Stillborn? No, no, still born." -- DPXDC AU
Based off a comment I saw where Bruce knew about Talia's pregnancy in the earlier comivs, and was ecstatic to be a father. So much so that Talia feared he'd give up being Batman for it, so when she gave birth she put the baby (Damian) on a doorstep and (seemingly) told Bruce that the baby was stillborn.
Instead of Damian, that baby was Danny! Meet Daniel Brown, the 14 year old foster kid whose been living with the Fenton family for the last two years. He's about two years older than Damian.
His last name, "Brown", was a generic surname given to him because the note he came with didn't have one on it. It just had the name "Danyal" on it, but albeit 'Daniel' was the one that had been put into the system for, I'll be totally frank here, racism reasons.
(I looked it up to make sure, and it's generally not permissible for foster parents to change the names of their foster kids even if it's a permanent residency, and for that reason Danny doesn't have the last name "Fenton".)
Danny's got ✨~issues!~✨ He's been through a handful of homes growing up, most of them terrible for a variety of reasons. Which has, as a result, left lasting scars. He's generally a very sweet kid, just very distrustful and jumpy. He's got the signs of a kid suffering from PTSD, and a handful of other issues including attachment and insomnia. His inferiority complex could rival Damian's, and that's going to make for an interesting mutual hatred for when they finally meet.
(something I'll get into later)
He still has the blanket he was found in. It's made of a very high quality material and is a beautiful emerald green with little golden thread accents, it's high quality as a result has Danny clinging onto a desperate hope that his bio family might be out there, and the only reason they gave him up was because of some outside factor. It's been taken a few times in old foster homes, and he's flipped out each time.
While he still calls Jack and Maddie by their names, he likes them well enough. The bar isn't that high though, and while they're some of the better foster parents he's had, "better" doesn't equal "safest". Their laboratory malpractice. Basically, C- Fenton Parents. They're negligent by virtue of being engrossed in their work, but they do care equally about Jazz and Danny. So he doesn't hold it against them that much.
He kinda prefers it that way, their loud affection is overwhelming and Danny doesn't know what to do with their attention, even if he craves it. It's a bit of a complicated situation.
They took in Danny because they genuinely wanted another child, but didn't want a big age gap between them and Jazz. It was actually Jack's idea to foster, and they discussed it with Jazz beforehand. She was all for the idea. Thus, a handful of weeks later, a ton of paperwork, and inspection later, and Daniel Brown entered their household with a trash bag in one hand and eyes like shards of stained glass.
His relationship with Jazz is kinda strained, but that's by virtue of her constant psychoanalyzing and helicoptering. Like with the parents, Danny's overwhelmed by the attention and also just, straight up doesn't like the fact that she's telling him that there's something wrong with him. He knows that, thank you. He pushes her away when she does this.
Other than that though? When Jazz isn't smothering him and is acting like an actual sibling and not a third parent, they're pretty close, and Danny really likes her. They've hung out a few times on their own volition, and Jazz showed him how to take better care of his long hair.
His school situation,, pretty similar to canon with the bullying, albeit with a few more instances of him blowing a fuse and lashing out against his attackers. He's a rather angry kid, but it's quiet. It builds up, piles on top of itself, until eventually, like a volcano, it erupts and burns everyone within radius.
Danny's got a fire core, not an ice core. Phantom's hair is made of white magma; thick and heavy, setting itself on fire when his anger runs hot. When he gets angry, his skin begins to char and split open to reveal pulsating lava underneath, and he crackles and pops like a raging forest fire.
I haven't decided yet on how he meets the batfam -- i've got two ideas but they're both in opposition to each other, and drastically alter how the rest of the plot goes. But I do know that him and Damian hate each other in the beginning. And it has nothing to do with inheritance or "being the blood son" -- although their blood relation absolutely plays the major role in their disdain for each other.
Simply put, they're jealous of each other for the same thing: thinking that the other was wanted.
Damian hates Danny because, unlike Damian, Bruce knew about Danny since conception and wanted him from the moment he heard about him. He had a whole nursery set up, and still does. He never took it down -- just locked the door. Damian was thrust upon Bruce without warning, and he feels like he forced himself into the family. And while on some level Damian knows and understands that Bruce wants him and loves him as much as his other children, that doubt and feeling of inferiority still remains. He looks at Danny and sees him with what Damian always feels he needs reaffirmed.
Meanwhile, Danny hates Damian because he looks at him and sees him with everything Danny's ever wanted. He hates him because Damian grew up knowing both of their parents, with one of them for most of his life, and then moved over to the other. There was never a moment where Damian was (seemingly) left to doubt his place within the family. Damian was raised with the very same woman who left Danny on a doorstep, with no clue to his identity beyond a little green blanket and a note with only a first name. Damian was wanted everywhere, and Danny was wanted nowhere. Damian is Danny's replacement in his eyes.
(It's the little revelation that Damian grew up with their mother that elevates Danny from being quietly envious of Damian to downright despising him. What did Damian do, that Danny didn't? He could live with Damian living with Bruce -- Bruce didn't know Danny was even alive. But him living with their mom? Are you fucking kidding him?)
Damian never outright attacks Danny physically, but it's not like he hides that he didn't like Danny. Meanwhile, Danny, in all his repressive anger, quietly despised him from a distance until finally one wrong snide side-comment has him blowing up and it becomes a screaming match. They're both just enough similar to each other that when they look at each other they really just see a mirror.
They'll work it out together, eventually. But it'll be ugly and cruel and explosive, and they'll start mending the bridge to become brothers in more than just blood relation in the end.
But yeah, stillborn Danny has... a lot going for him.
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc crossover#danyal al ghul au#danyal al ghul#dpxdc prompt#additions. opinions and brainstorming are encouraged!! i'd love to hear what other people's thoughts on this are and brainstorm with them.#the brainstorming is the best part.#stillborn? no still born au#poc danny fenton#stillborn au#long haired danny fenton#danny isn't surprised by the fact that the fentons were greenlit for foster parenting considering some of the foster parents HE'S had#those two ideas differed in who found out about who first. Whether it be Bruce or Danny. bruce finding out about danny first results in#Bruce seeking him out first and being able to explain his side of the story first without misunderstandings. this is the Happy Version#Danny finding out about Bruce first results in him getting an official DNA test done and intentionally seeking him out to introduce himself#except when he finds out about damian's existence his shit self worth results in him jumping to the conclusion that his bio family never#wanted him in the first place. that they weren't looking for him and instead just up and replaced him. This is the Fucking SAD Version#and includes a conversation where Danny looks Batman dead in the eyes and tells him that he was 'daddy dearest's fucking reject'#danny completely unaware that batman = bruce wayne btw. for the extra angst. bruce has to stand there and take it. rip#this poor boy needs antidepressants. therapy. and rehab. probably. i've thought about him having an old addiction that he was recovering#from prior to the fentons. but its not confirmed yet. if i go through with it its either gonna be nicotine or like painkillers. i need to#wait and think about it when i'm not on the angst train. i have a tendency to go overboard when i am. its the endorphin high#Danny calls Damian his 'fucking replacement' and Damian tackles him.#starry makes another angsty au
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Have you ever noticed that Kliff wears heels? When he gets punched you can see them
Yes, I have~
Specifically, I believe that they're winklepickers, a type of shoe that was popular among rock and roll fans in (I think) the 60s to 80s.
I only know what they're called because of Animal Crossing, but I did think that was a neat detail ^o^!
#thanks for the ask!#nsr#no straight roads#kliff#i've said this before but i do belive that kliff is very fashion conscious he's just not actually fashionable#i've never made a post about his shoes specifically#but when the original nostraightreferences was around#i did mention this 'fun fact' in the tags of their kliff post#if you can track down that post i'm sure you'll find what I said is pretty similar to this#i actually have a scrapped comic script about this too#mayday asks why kliff wears 'elf shoes'#then he explains them#but when mayday hears what they're called she says something like#'and that somehow isn't a shoe for gnomes?'
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I'm so happy that at least in motogp i can breathe without seeing russians because they are always lased in f1 history, they still try to push that fucking shwartzman there too and into indy, they are in wec. THEY ARE EVERYWHERE
And I can't even express my fury because I'm not gonna be called racist/nazi/xenophobic but when people do same thing to Israeli it's ok. I can't be angry at nation that killed my granddad my uncle and probably many more in my family tree. I can't be anything other than thankful for support even if it's never fucking enough because my timeline looks like necrolog.
All i see when I'm online is either other Ukrainians trying to crowdfund ammunition for our soldiers without much success because everyone and our economy is exhausted or news about how new forces join russians to kill us. It's their only goal.
And you can't just fucking cherry pick those russians you like to say that they aren't guilty. They need to embrace consequences of what their politicians are doing. You can't be innocent and russian at the same time, one of very few truly good russians died recently fighting on the side of Ukraine. Our outlook on life becoming so individualistic we don't realise that power is hold by masses, that if they wanted for war to stop those "simple russians" could just stop going to war. Their system is extremely corrupt, it's easy to escape being drafted. Only times they protest is when they get denied another app. There millions of them and somehow just dozens of those caught by police for protest. They just don't fucking care and you continue to defend them online
#I can't be angry at systematic genoside of Ukrainians that have been going for mych longer than I've been alive#I can't say wrong word or i get fucking torn apart by people with no empathy and too much internet presence#i need to patiently explain every single person in their dm's why russians are bad and why you shouldn't support them. i need to say it over#and over and over in hopes that someone gonna hear me and not just block#i need to be understanding of people not giving shit about what's going on here#and my god. sometimes i wish to just be striken by a missile so it all can stop#but it won't. it's just that other would need to fight then. and it's other that fight already because so many of people i looked up to#are already killed and long since buried. and it hurts every day. it never stops and alk i can do is go online and try to hide#only to be found by fucking russians in those “safe spaces” again#it never fucking ends#disclaimer that “you” in this post doesn't target anyone specific. there a lot of people online like that#MotoGP#f1#formula one#indycar#idk maybe someone gonna see this and understand something. but probably not#but I'm still hurting and i need to let it out at least once because I'm not sure if i ever let myself voice this
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i also think it's kinda cool how tyler makes me want to learn stuff
#y'all think i just sit here and reblog pictures of him but no#i started playing uke again after such a long break only because of HIM#i used to be so scared of barre chords that i never even tried to learn them i was just avoiding all the songs with barre chords#then i learned tear in my heart and i stopped being so scared#i figured out all the chords to saturday just from this one video which i thought would be damn hard but it wasn't#he makes it all look so easy#i don't know#he inspires me pretty much every day#i always think to myself: if he can do it i can do it too#i love him so much i can't even explain it#it may sound stupid to you but yes this man is the reason i want to get better at things even if it's gonna take years#one step at a time#i also want to try to learn new stuff#like i painted my jacket and i was never an artist but i had so much fun i am going to make more stuff in the future#i also wanna try to write again (i used to write a lot when i was a teenager) idk idk#tyler joseph the man that you are#i don't think i've ever felt this way about any artist really#i was mostly just consuming the content but now i actually wanna do stuff and idk#if that makes sense#but yeah#but sincerely can you hear me?*
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Contracted COVID and I've been binging all of 'Tales from the Closet' on DROPOUT and wondering why there isn't more than 1 season?
Please bring it back @samreich if that is at all within your power
#hearing a variety of people tell their stories has helped a lot with my fear of the 'unknown'#mostly hearing asexual people explain their stories and being able to finally give my experience words#internet people make you feel like you need to fit into a cookiecutter to be included and I've never jived with 'my people' because of that#but TFTC is such a life affirming show that the world is lesser for losing#dropout#tales from the closet#asexual
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Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka is basically exactly how I feel as someone with chronic pain but no diagnosis
#random thoughts#I usually feel so overlooked and isolated even from other people with similar issues#Because everyone I hear about knows what's wrong at least - but I don't#“I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself.”#I woke up in pain one day and every day since then I've been isolated from everyone I haven't had my education or anything#My life just stopped and I worry I'm never gonna be able to start it again#It feels there's no place for me in any group but then this story comes and perfectly captures basically everything I'm feeling#Anyways sometimes just feeling like you're seeing yourself in something is really comforting and I needed to get this out there#chronic pain
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brain sad. play loud music with headphones. music make auditory nerves active. activation causes endorphin release. brain happy.
#the only downside is hearing loss#but i've only just started using headphones so i think i got a good 10 years before it starts getting real bad#i was feeling so anxious#but suddenly i am okay#never been okayer#you may be wondering what music i was blasting#white girl pop obviously#i may be brown but i am a white girl pop enjoyer and you can't tell me olivia rodrigo does not eat#all american bitch just heals something in me#also maybe it's a stimulation thing#like i was feeling a lot because i was conversing with someone but overriding that with even more sound helped?#idk i need someone to explain the science if there's any
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#I get tired of people trying to explain what lens I should view the world through; what way I could think that would make everything better#forgive me but I don't care; I do what I do and I do what I can and you don't see the work I do under the hood#I don't want advice on self validation or whatever; I want... I want someone to hold a mirror up so I can actually see myself#by which I mean I want input on how I'm doing; if it's good enough; if it's worth anything; if anything I make is good#everyone things I'm nice; everyone has always thought I'm nice#but given nice leaves me profoundly isolated I don't think I care#not to mention in my opinion what nice in this instance means is that I'm capable of listening#it's mostly that I have manners rather than some quality about me#I'm well behaved and polite and can listen; and that's perceived as nice or even sweet#and it's not like I'm offended by people seeing me that way; but maybe you can get why... I can't do anything with that information#but if I'm doing enough... if I provide any value to the world... I might have heard that less times in my life than years I've lived#that's where I'm totally blind#people don't tend to offer any input; and also people don't tend to let me know what they're thinking#and I in fact am not a mind reader; I can often accurately infer things; but no of that means a thing till it's confirmed#and... well... hopefully no one reads the stupid shit I say and especially not the tags so this is safe and hidden#but truthfully people just like to hear that stuff they're doing is wanted and matters#and I do not#I don't know... gotta go do more cleaning cause I need to#and I have no idea if... I've got a reason for fighting so hard to clean; but I get very little input so... I expect... well...#and thankfully I don't think they read my tags so I can say this#but I really expect they won't take me up on my offer to come out here and get away from their parents; so there will be no pay off#not that I blame them in the slightest... it's just the only possible pay off for this cleaning would be helping someone I like out#and a scrap of company#but then again... in many ways anyone coming out to live with me is the worst thing they could probably do#sorry... I have a rather bleak outlook on many things surrounding myself purely cause of what I infer from the past#there is never pay off; only more shit I need to get done#I will never be loved; I will never be wanted; I will always just kinda be an afterthought that's occasionally worth venting to#no one will ever be particularly interested in anything I'm interested while I'll chase their interests or at least try to#certainly let them talk about them when they want#...though I take that over my normal total isolation... better to at least be permitted to follow in someone's shadow than have nothing
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#just texted my ex that i parted on bad terms with. and who fucked my best friend. that i don't want to speak to her anymore#after she sent me a few messages#explained why i don't want to hear from her. was very polite#POLITE ABOUT THE FACT THAT SHE FUCKED MY BEST FRIEND#(don't worry my best friend didn't get off easily from this either)#but I've received no less than five messages from her since i sent mine#i think that's a pretty weird reaction to being told that i don't want to hear from her#literally two days before my birthday i got to learn that my best friend and my ex were fucking#didn't speak to my best friend for two weeks and i considered never speaking to him again#even considered not going back to the camp we both work at#i was in a very bad place for awhile#i feel like she has no right to text me what are definitely five angry messages#especially considering why we broke up#fuck her. i don't have the energy to be angry though#just tired and want her out of my life#I'm gonna go check the messages and maybe I'll talk about them here#not angry messages actually. she asked me to mail back the pillow i took (with her permission) and the promise ring she gave me#or at least not get rid of them because they mean a lot to her#i always told her if we broke up she wouldn't get her pillow back#but I'll send her the fucking ring. fuck get for promising we'd stay together and then abandoning me with no warning#I'm having a bad night folks. might cut and dye my hair about it
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Me: *goes to get checked for ADHD*
The therapist, 20 minutes in: ... Have you looked... Into autism?
*Session continues*
The therapist, at the end: ... Yeah I'm... Going to talk with some colleagues who specialize in autism... Hope you don't mind...
#it's so funny#like literally 20 minutes after and me explaining my symptoms they were like:#'yeah I've been watching them since the beginning and autism seems to fit the bill better'#like.... a therapist that never meet me clocked my weird little ass in 20 minutes amazing#they still did the ADHD test and nop i don't have it. I'm completely the opposite of someone with it as they said#like i was like. YES yes i have looked into autism (has done so much research and quizzes) and i was here more to get that answer than#the adhd diagnosis#so!!!! i might get a diagnosis and I'm fucking thrilled!!!#if it isn't the tism i also don't care!!! at least i can finally put a name to why the brain works as it does!!!!#manyrambles#too many thoughts#sorry for the more personal posts#tumblr is my journal for the more harmless stuff <3#personal stuff yee haw#<- you can block that tag if you don't want to hear my personal stuff
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Wow dropping almost all of my classes except for one really was the best thing I could've done right now huh
Wish I could've dropped all of them tho. Or better yet just not have started college at all
#ramblings#neg#i have never felt this unmotivated to do anything in my life. nor this emotionally unstable#have a stupid midterm coming up and if its anything like the quizzes i've had to take at least 60% is gonna be shit we never go over#bc this stupid class is online and the teacher doesn't assign work or notes for shit that will actually be in the tests#either that or it's all explained in the most dumbfuck overly complicated way#the class is supposed to be abt math stuff that should apply irl but i can assure you like 90% of it is useless to me#the only thing i've actually been learning from this stupid class is how to make pretty looking excell sheets#god i just want to be done with this shit already#with how much i'm struggling with this one class i know for fucking sure i would not have been able to handle being a full time student#the only reason i'm still taking this stupid class is bc i can't drop it without paying for it#paying for school is already fucking stupid as it is but paying to stop going is even worse#hope when this class is done i never have to hear anyone even suggest i go to college ever again#or else i swear to god i will actually just punch them in the face#fuck off
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What does he think of his name? Did kids find it cool or weird? Would he be fine changing his surname if he seriously were to marry in the future? Hypothetical scenario.
❝ I like havin' a unique name. Ain't never met nobody called Nnoitra before. ❞ It WOULD be cool to at some point meet someone with the same name as him. Surely such a person DID exist? If he ever met someone like that, he'd force him to become his best friend. Nnoitra had no idea what his name meant, or why his mother had picked it for him ( he sure wished he'd asked her while she was alive ). He knew that part of the pronounciation of his name meant tiger in Japanese ( n-o-i-t-o-r-a ), but that was about it. He'd always seen his name as a cool one. Masculine.
He didn't like that it was written differently than it was pronounced. It was pronounced: NOITORA, but written "Nnoitra", which was confusing as hell, and people never knew how to write his name. It had taken him a good while to learn how to write his own name. In the end he kinda liked writing it with the double N at the beginning. Made it more special.
❝ It's pretty common 'fer 'da guy 'ta keep his name, yeah? So I'd still keep my last name, Gilga. ❞ Again, the name had a different pronunciation to how it was written ( it was pronounced "Jiruga" ). He'd keep it if he married, because that was the traditional masculine thing to do. Not that he thought he WOULD marry. That shit was so unrealistic that it was not even worth thinking about. What kinda chick would want to be his wife? Who would he WANT to make his wife?
❝ I never got shit 'fer my name. More like 'da other kids thought it was a cool name, I think. At least a lot 'a people have told me it's a cool name. ❞ It was true, he'd gotten compliments on it many times. Which was nice. He'd never been made fun of for having a different sort of name. If the kids he grew up around had though it was weird, they'd never let him know. There had been plenty of reasons for them to think him weird so, his name was not something they'd needed to get hung up on.
#[ OHHHHHH such a good ask an on thank you very much for sending !! ]#[ nnoitra's name is sO pretty ]#[ i love it so much ??? can't explain but it's really beautiful to me ]#[ also i bet people read his name like: n-o-i-t-r-a ]#[ but i always read it like it's pronounced : n-o-i-t-o-r-a ]#[ the amount of times people have written his name in weird ways xDD ]#[ “noritra ” ; “notra” ; “notora” are some of my fav i've seen in replies people have written for me xD ]#[ his name is so !!!!!!! pretty !!!!!! ]#[ i forever dream of him meeting an OC with the same name as him ]#[ like who walks through life NEVER meeting or hearing about someone with the same name as you ]#[ i know like 5 people with the same name as me ]#[ NEED MORE NNOITRAS IN THE WORLD ]#[ ok i'm rambling but thank you very much for sending!! ]#despair for me. ╱ in character.#talking shit. ╱ answers.#burn the city. ╱ main verse.
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okay but the problem is. and the reason i don't actually id as ace. is that i have. ya'know. been sexually attracted to people before. two. to be specific.
#okay so in hs i thought i was demi which ik is on the ace spectrum#but there were some flaws in that logic. those namely being. i had never actually been attracted to someone before.#in hs okay. you need to hear me out on this. in hs i was doing like. compulsive bisexuality??#i figured out i was queer but didn't know how really so i was randomly picking all sorts of crushes. not just guys like anyone.#which is why fun fact to this day i still don't know how many people i've actually ever had a crush on lmao bc i'd even lie in my diaries#but i know some of them were real but it was just like. a little romantic attraction.#and everyone i had a crush on (real or fake for the most part) i was friends w so demi whatever.#BUT THEN. 2019. the unthinkable happens. dan howell comes out and i realize i'm a dyke.#it didn't actually happen exactly in that order but it's funnier to explain it that way.#anyway. like a week later i met the second hottest person i've ever seen in my life ever.#side note i'd already met the hottest but i have Sieve Brain and i genuinely don't remember how that went at all in the slightest#so the second hottest will have to do as my point of reference forgive me#anyway before i even knew her name. Salivating. insane.#and to this day i've still only been attracted to those two people. not even celebrities.#i don't know what “celebrity crush” means and at this point i'm too afraid to ask.#but i feel like i'm fairly old to have only wanted to. like. fuck two people. that seems like a low number. i don't know how this works.#and it's not demi if i didn't get to know them first right?#ace people explain y'all are smarter than me real#but it literally is still like i don't understand you people and your. sex. why are you like that.#rachel rants
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#so i have two roommates who are a couple#and in the past year they've started fighting a Lot#they might go a week or so without fighting (or at least that i don't hear) but it can be as much as multiple times a day#like nothing physical and most of the time it's not like a full blown fight but it's arguing or being SO fucking snippy#well it's mostly the one going so over the top and jumping straight to snapping/yelling/saying nasty shit#and it just honestly feels like being a kid again listening to my parents#and i'm literally laying in my bed right now with my door shut and both headphones in blasting music to cover up their voice because#it's honestly kind of triggering those memories and making me so anxious and i just can't stand to listen to it anymore#i've moved twice with the one roommate but i can't live with them anymore. i can't handle this#i really valued them as a friend too but i don't think i can continue the friendship after this#i just could never imagine letting a partner talk to me the way they talk to theirs#and not to say that the partner is 100% in the right and never does anything wrong but there's no need to react the way that they do and#blow up like this.. like they can't ever calmly explain things it so quickly goes to almost belittling their partner#blake says shit
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A message from a loved one just rewired my brain I think
#fucking sobbed so much into my pillow#I'm. So loved ;w;#Not just like. Oh haha yeah you're cool :)#But Seen and Heard and. Ough#I've never felt so happy while having a stream of tears down my face this is fucking wild to me#I need to figure out how to word this and communicate it holy shit#I've felt so much guilt over the past. Feels like forever. Every time I've cried#I've never heard it described as beautiful before...#that even. Crying by being happy. It always had a tinge of. Oh I'm being annoying or oh I'm being just. An ass. Look at her crying again#But. Hearing it described as beautiful by the girl whose heard/seen me cry the most? ;w;#How can I not fall in love with her....#I mean I've been in love with her for a while now but#Ough ough ough ough ough#fuck me running I'm. Buh.#How to explain to a girl that her being here safe and sound now has filled me with so much joy#Like. Not only that but just. She's near. I wanna protect her and now I can if I need to. She was so far before but now?#I can really treat her like the princess she is and we can be together more and I can be close#I just wanna be close to her she makes me feel safe too and I get so many feelings and I get so lovey dovey#I wanna look at her and hold her hand and hug her and hold her close hold her by the hips and weep my love into her shoulder#I keep crying and all I can think about is her saying that its beautiful and it IS beautiful I've always known this#but having that told to me is just. That's love and that was just the thing I needed to hear and ;w;#Like. So WHAT if I'm annoying or weird or cry a lot or have quirks#Thats ME I'm gonna love ME and she loves me too. She knows I cry a lot. She knows I get overwhelmed by emotions and just cry#doesn't matter the emotion but it happens with love a lot cause yeah#And she sees that and calls it beautiful and she's so so right for it#I'm in love thats just about the only thing I can really say about all this this girl is. Amazing. And I'm hers~#I love hearing that so so much I'm hers I'm hers I'm hers!!!~#I feel like I'm floating I'm just. so so enamored#Sending this to her tomorrow cause she's sleeping now but I needed to type and work through emotions and stuff and just.#Yeah it really was what I thought at the start of it all I'm just in love and a girl made me weep with happiness and thats. Beautiful ;w;
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