#I'm sorry for pushing you away

[xashtray]

I'm sorry that i can't communicate all of my feelings, they feel so strage to me. I'm sorry that I'm distant and pushing you away when you just want to help me and be here for me. but i don't want you to be here when I'm drowning in this darkness, i don't want you to see me vulnerable, i don't want you to see how dark everything could get. but also asking for help is never my thing, i prefer to do it all on my own. i can do it all on my own, so don't worry. and i never forget you, i don't hate you, i just sometimes hate myself so much that i don't think i deserve a friend, or a hand. you deserve better, always. maybe not me as a friend, I'm bad. I'm the worst. so, it's okay if you want to go and leave me. i won't blame you. i can't blame you. because i would leave me too if i could tho.

[noosesurroundsme]

I fuck everything up. I'm alone. I don't have anyone. I pushed everyone away. Even in the year and a half or whatever amount of time is been, I'm still just a shell. I'm really sorry for being a disappointment, I'm sorry for being annoying, I'm sorry for hiding away. I'm so sorry.

[angelpuns]

Deep deep fear that one day all my friends are gonna decide they just don't wanna talk to me anymore for whatever reason and unfortunately, I won't get the memo and will keep trying and that'll just make them hate me more :(

[tswwwit]

i have a counter argument to the 'only one person can boop bill' thing, mabel. she's the type of person to slap stickers on people, she would definitely be the type to also boop others occasionally and bill would be no exception. she probably doesn't do it to annoy bill like dipper would, but maybe as a form of a friendly gesture, kind of like those people who will lightly punch friends in the arm when they hang out.

You know what? Good point. Mabel would get away with more than most, as a fun-loving lady! Bill understands those impulses, and being a touchy person! He indulges in similar ones himself.

Though when Bill's not in the mood to be playful and gets booped anyway? The 'sister-in-law' status grants her considerable grace.

[butwhatifidothis]

It really is strange how Edelstans simultaneously dig hard into people that don't agree with their specific interpretation of 3H to the point of being happy they manage to drive those people away... and be so upset and baffled that people become generally disinterested/actively hostile towards 3H content.

If folks get repeatedly driven out of a fandom, and that group of people repeatedly calls anyone who disagrees with their specific interpretation of 3H stupid/illiterate/"acting in bad faith"/sexist/racist/homophobic/etc., and it is repeatedly done by a group of people who insist that 3H's fandom problem is a "both sides" thing, with all of this being dragged into spaces that have nothing to do with 3H, well... obviously people are then going to start to dislike interacting with either 3H in general or its fandom in particular?

Edelstans are the ones spreading the idea that 3H's fandom in totality is shit. They keep trying to make their hands look cleaner than they are by claiming that everyone else's hands are just dirty as/even dirtier than theirs. Of course people who are unaware of everything are going to then assume that everyone's hands are dirty, thus making people not exactly want to shake hands with anyone.

Like, really now. What did they think was going to happen when they directly go after fanartists/fanfic writers who create/say things that go against the Approved Edelstan Status Quo, to the point that a non-zero amount of these creators just up and leave social media entirely? Or after they nitpick every single Disapproved Post and then lie about the post's OP? Or after it becomes a consistent pattern that people who even remotely disagree with Edelstans' opinions are always, without fail, buried with insulting and harassing anons? Or after they're shown time and time again to defend their worst actors with "well their/our victims deserved it because they said a 3H opinion we didn't agree with"? Or when they say that everyone does this shit in 3H's fandom except for them (which is either not believed because it's demonstrably untrue or is actually believed and now those people think the overwhelming majority of 3H's fandom is filled with shit)? Or when they drag 3H discourse into literally actually everything no matter how unrelated?

That with less fandom creators within the fandom space they'd get more content? That harassing and insulting people and accusing them of being this-and-that bigot is going to magically "correct" their minds into seeing The One Truth about 3H? That people are going to just look over all the shit they did just because they allocate the blame of their action on all of 3H's fandom? That people would like 3H more if they constantly remind people of the inarguable worst thing to come from 3H? That this would help 3H's general perception?

Fuckin' no, of course that's just going to make everyone fuck off from 3H. And would you look at that, a shit ton of people have fucked off from 3H since everything has been swept under a "well it'sth a bolth thides ithue tho what can ya do?" rug. And it's been swept under that rug by pretty much the only people who are pulling this shit, who then get shocked - utterly gobsmacked! - that that made them look bad too. That crying "both sides!" included themselves too and not just the people they've been harassing. That saying that the entire fandom is bad everywhere made the entire fandom look bad everywhere.

If Edelstans are really so upset that no one talks about 3H positively anymore, then maybe they should stop being the reason no one likes 3H anymore. Just a thought

[feline-evil]

Dick or no dick confirmation Pickles was always going to be trans to me anyways; if he's swingin' somethin that's phallo babes, if he's not then his t-dick fat. What's not to get.

[thissmycomingofage]

Btw, not sorry for loving you : only redeeming quality is that it's not as disgusting as love in paradise. Otherwise it really feels like Jorge was just forced to put Calypso in the musical because it's an inevitable part of the Odyssey and didn't think twice about what he was writing. He sanitized Circe to remain family friendly then wrote this disgusting duology of songs. And we're left with nothing at the end of it because Calypso was just there and then gone. I mean no, not nothing, sorry I forgot that we have the luck to hear Odysseus claim that he loves his goddamn abuser. Yes that was essential to add. If at least at least he had cut this part then we could just be let to see what a monster Calypso is and then (try to) move on. But no she had to be forgiven. That is disgusting. No other word ever

[the-haunted-office]

@unbreakable-ribbons - Continued from here!)

Upon seeing the stranger back off in a hurry, Doom's eyes quickly un-narrow and her expression changes into one of mirth instead. She begins laughing and slapping at the knee of her pinstriped suit pants, as if this is one of the funniest things she's ever been a part of.

"Ehehehehehe! You people are just getting easier to scare these days, ehehehe!" she cackles, still bent over, and now she's rubbing at her eyes because they've started to water. Eventually she does straighten, though, a grin still firmly attached to her face. "Well, Manos, I'm Doomsday, and you know I've never liked that particular saying. 'If I were yours'. Implying ownership of a person. I wouldn't belong to you, nor you to me. I'd rather see it as a partnership - collective ownership over a united front. I dislike the idea of possessiveness. But I'm sure you didn't mean it that way, did you?"

[ettadunham]

sometimes i remember the hunger games and how nobody actually paid attention to what was in those books

[romanticatheartt]

I'm waiting for the day when all these people who praise Nesta for being mean and hurt other people's feeling and call it a ✨bad bitch✨ behaviour

To cry about how Nesta is out of the character for not actively being a "bitch" to her family for no reason :)

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

Omg...... Like Mother, Like Daughter is doomed Yuri (half yuri? One sided yuri?). TT0TT Sol doesn't feel the same way I'm pretty sure (sadly), but Som is DEF down bad. TT0TT And Som's not exactly the most mentally stable jakfjdksalfj (I think she has a bit of a "Sol's my pet" vibe going on as well. Som means well but she is NOT healthy either jfakslfj oh this is just going to be a fucking wreck I'm ready let's GO!)

(spoilers under cut, also under cut cause length and pictures)

Like she saw the boy Sol is hanging out with and was just ">:("

*sobbing* She is SO DONE when she finds out they are dating TT0TT

*sobs* ahhhh! klasjfdk OhmyGOAD SHE is tREMBLING as Sol tells her how she got with the guy TT0TT

She is literally SULLEN that Sol and guy have been dating FOR A MONTH! she looks os SICK TT0TT

My poor girl is literally doing the Arthur fist clench with her fist TT0TT

Som! Som! Girlie! I don't think this is just a friendship for you anymore.

LKFJDASKLFJKLAJFKL WAIT

"Anyone can see at first glance that he's good for nothing. But how does she not see that?"

OHHHHH MY GOD SHE'S LIEK 'HE SMELLY. HE STANK. HE POOR. HE BROKE. HE TOO NORMAL FOR HER." GURL! GET OFF THE FLOOOOOR!

"To be honest, I wish they'd break up" NO YOU DON'T SAY???? nEVER WOULD'VE GUESS!

Oh I was just here for the matricide but I've been blessed with more angst! Let's goooooo!!!!!!!!!

[syncrovoid-presents]

Hazbin Hotel thoughts (with a splash of vague theories) (Alastor edition)

Something that is super fascinating about how Alastor's character has been left highly up to interpretation is that, before these next episodes at least, it's not entirely clear what his motives are.

We know he is a skilled manipulator, a master of wording things in his favour to get the deals he wants. We know he's a serial killer that puts the laughter in slaughter, yet still has a variation of a moral code. We know he has ties, likely to lilith (though personally I really hope it ends up that he made a deal before he died for power, which now haunts him in hell).

We know that he partly protects the hotel because it's where he has a new radio broadcaster, but his protection of it could be protection for him, for what demon would mess with a friend (father figure?) of the princess of hell? Even Lucifer can't actually hurt him without hurting Charlie, regardless of how authentic Alastor is towards her.

Is his song purely to manipulate Charlie into feeling safer around him? Is he slowly wearing down her defenses so she may accidentally (or even purposefully) make a deal with him? It's clear from the dialogue and interactions that he's not incorporating himself much into the group, and we still don't know what's up with his radio broadcasting system being up once more.

There's so many ways it can be interpreted, but it's fun to have a character that is both mysterious but also bound to a set of morals he doesn't care to explain. He is the master of his own life, and (likely) sees others as lesser because they're weaker/manipulatable/"stupid". Yet his morals are just present enough that he could find it dishonorable to destroy demons that have, perhaps in his eyes, given up power for a chance at redemption.

There's also other questions around his character too, my biggest one being whether he has 1 power source or two? Many times we see his power/magic manifest as red hues (symbols specifically), similar to how he wears all red. Other times it is green, which may or may not be tied to his "neon" colours. Is it because red and green are complimentary but conflicting? Is it to show that one power is fully his and the other is not? Does the neon represent a lack of truthfulness or him acting outside of his true wishes? Because the only time we've really seen it is when he is saying (somewhat) nice things in very specific situations.

Does Alastor know Vaggie is/was an angel? He didn't like her in the pilot, and its unclear whether their strained dynamic is because Vaggie wants to protect Charlie and it is one sided, or if Alastor knows and is waiting for the perfect moment to use that against her, perhaps for a deal?

Also his only songs so far have been him just taking over someone else's song. How petty and silly of him. Can't wait to see what he has planned next!

Who knows! Either way Hazbin Hotel is a very fun show and I'm so excited for the next episodes!!

[depraved-gf]

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[megaclubdiolis]

柄本 佑 || 「光る君へ」 (2024) · 第四十二回 「川辺の誓い」 ​​​

[kuromi-hoemie]

last rb stressed me out lowkey akakska i had an ex like that and it became a self fulfilling prophecy kinda thing..

[sepiasys]

So 🪴 and ☕️ are at odds and I'm definitely not mediating it if/when necessary

☕️ has smth we'd wanted to ask roommate for a while now, like nearly since we got here pretty much, and 🪴 has been trying to justify not doing it (and I mean clearly they'd won previous times when this happens since we hadn't asked it yet).

I'm on ☕️'s side for sure this time though because... yeah no we simply can't always assume like 🪴 has been. I get that what his purpose seems to be is to, like, give us (an unreasonable amount of) confidence in decisions and actions and stuff, like to not feel guilt or shame over it. But also she literally cannot keep getting away with this /t/lh