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#☆゚ user ↳ theyluvkarolina ◝#I'm actually so distraught#logan sargeant#williams racing#williams f1#formula one#f1
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in case anyone is wondering how i'm doing, i stressed myself so much by crying and worrying over a guy that I ruptured an ovarian cyst
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god i love skk sm i wish gay ppl were real :(
#LOTUS DRAWING ACTUAL POSES AND NOT JUST BUSTS??? WOAH#i swear i actually know anatomy and stuff i just never draw it bc it's too much effort#going to bed <<<<< staying up until two thirty to draw your otp#ALSO.. for those of you who know i'm rewatching bsd w my friend whose never seen it before.. we finally got to ep9#and she IMMEDIATELY clocked in on skk's toxic exes energy😭😭#also she calls chuuya childe bc hes a ginger and his first reaction to seeing dazai was “fight me >:)”#she was like “omgg..hes part of the evil organization🤭 and has beef w the protag (he wants to fuck them😏) *giggles* wait. TARTAGLIA😨😨‼️”#I WAS TRYING SO HARD NOT TO SCREAM.. I COULDNT LET HER KNOW HOW DISTRAUGHT I WAS HEARING THAT FOR THE TENTH TIME#anyway we finished s1 and chuuya's her fav character so far let's see if she can learn his actual name and stop calling him childe😭😭#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#bsd#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#chuuya nakahara#nakahara chuuya#soukoku#skk#lotus draws
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The Dark King and his lieutenant 👑⚔️
I read the Dark Rise books and they're taking over my entire brain - so I had to draw Sarcean and Anharion
#Dark Heir's ending had me so distraught#I was SOBBING actually#and this is how I cope#I'll explode if the next book doesn't come out soon TT#I was originally gonna draw Will and James but how was I supposed to pass up on drawing the LONG HAIR#also the collar hehehe#i'm laughing like that wasn't the most traumatizing thing ever#Dark Rise#Dark Heir#sarcean#anharion#will kempen#james st clair#boraboop
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I...freaking...LOVE this moment.
It's not many words and yet it says SO much about Sniper's character.
Sniper's biological Dad is, let's be honest, a total piece of shit. His Mom ain't much better, but that's beside the point.
He was going to abandon his wife and child to save himself when he thought the world was coming to an end. One of the first things he does when he finally reunites with Sniper is ask him for money. He later steals the mercs submarine and all their weapons, leaving them, and his son, for dead.
In general, he's a selfish jerk who doesn't listen to anyone and only cares about his own welfare.
Sniper still wanted to save him.
Because at this point in the story, his adoptive parents are dead and his bio Mom just launched herself into space and will (most likely) meet the same fate.
I don't believe this is a case of it simply "being the right thing to do". I think just the fact that they are related is so important to Sniper that he's willing to risk his life to save someone who doesn't really deserve saving. Sniper's Dad, however awful he might be, is the ONLY family he has left.
And maybe he's clinging onto the hope that after all this, maybe there's still a chance they can have a somewhat normal father-son relationship; especially considering that his relationship with his adoptive Dad was rocky at times.
But then of course, that all goes out the window immediately after, and what does Sniper get in return for this act of selflessness?
Well...you know.
#tf2#sniper tf2#tf2 comics#blood in the water#character analysis#I could go on#but I'm gonna stop it there#so many thoughts about snipes#I'm actually really glad I wasn't reading this when it first came out#because I would have been fucking DISTRAUGHT#having to wait an entire year to see if Sniper survived or not
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ashley in c2e87
#critical role#ygifs#cr2#ashleyin#she’s sooo!!!!!!!!😳😵💫🥰😭#no but ashley literally being so distraught at ANOTHER 2 failed death saves beau roll💀yasha Just got back she Can't lose beau#she said ''this is actually not the way that I talk ... just kidding'' yasha comedy queen!!!!!!!!!#a 6ft aasimar barbarian says I'm not gonna hurt anybody why do you need my greatswords??..
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Meneldir slips away. He is gone.
so. I finally remade this old thing in all the heart-wrenching detail it deserves. I'm sorry, in my defense- I actually don't have a defense.
#so uh. hm. well this is the thing I said you guys were gonna be mad at me about last night :)#I WAS HAVING FEELINGS OK#I WAS HAVING A LOT OF FEELINGS SO YOU ALL GET TO SUFFER WITH ME#the first version of this drawing was bad enough but then I was like 'what if I fully colored it?'#'and actually drew Tossdir's face so you could see all the Pain?'#and well. this is what happened. I'm not sorry I'm emotionally distraught and I need to inflict that on others#tw blood#character death#lotro#before the spoilers#lotro spoilers#lotro oc#Tossdir#Meneldir#I honestly feel like I owe Tossdir an apology after this
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"Hey girl, what are you doing tonight? I'm thinking about the hit musical "Falsettos" and crying on my hands and knees."
#I think I need to stop writing/reading fanfiction actually#I'm so distraught I feel physically sick#someone sedate me#sobbing with vigor rn#anyways#falsettos musical
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thavnair adventures
#ffxiv#ff14#estinien wyrmblood#thancred waters#urianger augurelt#tataru taru#eris naydra#endwalker spoilers#endwalker has been absolutely incredible so far i'm actually speechless o|-<#THE ESTINIEN MOMENTS.. i am being so well fed#unfortunately i have reached a point in msq where i am no longer laughing. in fact i am extremely distraught#[weakly] lets gooOOo#edit: i forgot to tag estinien. my mind
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Finished the Penacony story and my heart fr stopped at THIS MOMENT
THAT??? That’s love.
And then she LITERALLY died for us.
#stellefly#honkai star rail#hsr#penacony spoilers#penacony#ofc she didn't JUST die for us#also she didn't... actually die...#but the romance of her being the one to save us from the dream is MUAH MUAH#stelle's like “my knight in shining armor 🥰”#firefly she's so amazing she deserves her own post and I'm giving it to her btw#SHE IS SUCH A COMPELLING CHARACTER OUTSIDE OF HER RELATIONSHIP WITH THE TRAILBLAZER AND I'M TIRED OF PPL PRETENDING SHE ISN'T#I knew about the princess carry but them flying through the air with fireworks I didn't know that was real OMOAAMFLMSD#THEY'RE SOULMATES#stelfly#steltaru#fireblazer#sparkle ships them so hard. also acheron.#PENACONY FINALE WAS SO FIRE????????#I LOVE Acheron taking on the role of Charon like OMG her story is so sad and she's genuinely so sweet I WILL DIEEEEEE#AND THE OAK SIBLINGS????? I'M DISTRAUGHT#I MISS MISHA SO BAD. HIM LEAVING CLOCKIE WAAAAAAAA. I'M SO MISERABLE HE CAN'T VISIT THE EXPRESS ANYMORE I AM DAMAGED#my son he don't even exist!!#chriterary classics
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Because I constantly get hate for WDYW Chapter 49,
(I get it, it's polarizing) allow me to like,,, explain why I went with the plot point? I don't really owe anyone an explanation, and literally fuck any of my haters, they're ants, but I think my readers/people who actually like my writing would like to know the lore behind my choices.
So, context, in chapter 49, Frisk is drugged into obedience by Muffet and Muffet, being the money hungry cunt that she is, sells Frisk's body on the black market. It's a really uncomfortable concept, and when it happened it caused a lot of readers to drop the fic or rant at me in the comments, talk shit about my fic in private forums behind my back, or even imply a bunch of horrible things about me as a person lmao.
So why did I decide to go with this plot?
Well, for one, it all stems from two books: The Hunger Games, Mockingjay by Suzanne Collins and the Empress by S.J Kincaid.
In both of these books, there is a pivotal character who is drugged, manipulated and used for political gain by a dastardly authority figure. In The Empress, this plot point was ESPECIALLY devastating, because it completely changed and corrupted the character into a horrific shell of their old self to where they were actively antagonistic and irredeemable!
This plot device has intrigued and fascinated me ever since. Drugging a protagonist to make them wholly dependent on their abuser/villain, manipulating them, having them at rock bottom is, in my opinion, one of the worst things that can happen to a character... And seeing how the character can overcome it is the greatest triumph!
Ever since reading these books, this plot device has buzzed in the back of my mind and there is a part of me that always tries to recreate it, but I can never come close to perfecting it.
Either I always miss on the addiction part of the manipulation, or I can never commit truly to character corruption. Either way, the closest I've ever gotten to scratching this itch has been in WDYW part 3, but even then, I barely came close to getting it right.
My second reason for choosing the route; In WDYW, Frisk's whole arc is about having control over her own agency/autonomy/fate. What happens to her in Part 3 is the culmination of everything she's ran away from, fought against, and her greatest nightmare come to life. It was the lowest point I could bring her character, and make her face her past demons in a horrifically evil way. But my plan had obviously been that despite all of the torture she survives, that she not only survives but fucking WINS!
That was the whole point, but when I wrote it I was like,,, 17/18 😅, so there was definitely things I wasn't as graceful about.
With that said, would I change anything? Yes. If I could change anything I wrote about part 3, I would do a couple things:
1. Take out that obedience spell Muffet puts on Frisk. The reason I made that was because it was like a catch all spell to keep Frisk in Muffets clutches? But it was pretty OP and seemed like a hand wavey excuse to brush aside plot holes. I should've just simplified the spell to where she was simply tethered to Muffet's soul so Sans couldn't kill Muffet, or teleport Frisk away.
2. Frisk's "obedience" to Muffet should've been entirely addiction based, which would make the plot point of Frisk using determination to burn out her addiction in Part 4, and then eventually Determination becomes the addiction instead, (because overcoming addiction is really fucking hard actually and a constant struggle) a lot stronger.
3. I would probably be much more careful with my word choice in chapter 49. Some of it comes off as sexualization. Not my intention, but it was because I was writing in the creepy photographer's pov and he was objectifying her. In my head I was like, "surely people can read between the lines right???" (They can't. Only a select few fanfic readers have media literacy apparently)
So, TLDR, No chapter 49 was not some author's barely disguised fetish (that's honestly a really gross way to think about my writing and about me as a person) it was my genuine worst nightmare as a woman, and one of my favorite plot devices from two of my favorite books 😭 Please lay off me about chapter 49, and Part 3.
Last but not least... Some art is meant to disturb the comfortable and comfort the disturbed.
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#I got a mean comment and it's been bothering me in a way no other mean comment has#I'm just sick about hearing people's reactive opinions about my choices in my story I wrote for fun that people get to read for free#it was a perfectly valid route for the story to go it just made you uncomfortable#that's not bad storytelling#You just didn't take my tags seriously#wdyw#frans#underfell sans#underfell frans#underfell frisk#mob talks#mob rambles#what do you want#fanfic#underfell#undertale#frisk x sans#and like honestly I've been having a really bad month#I had to go to the ER#I've been in so much fucking physical pain#that this comment I recieved really bothered me and struck an already distraught nerve#also I was fucking 17 when I wrote wdyw#and when I published my first book#what has any of my haters actually accomplished besides scrolling tik tok pissing their pants and complaining?
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Gerry without the institute is so starkly different than the gerry we know that I genuinely didn't Recognize his voice. He sounds so unbelievably carefree. Without the magnus institute he's just a kid living with his grandmother in a London flat pursuing his passion for painting. Like he's just a fucking happy guy he's just a KID, the institute ruined his life in our tl. He never got to be that kid. And now he is. GOODBYE!!!!!!!!
#I'm so fucking normal and I have a lot of thoughts and will be saying a lot more but i#I'm actually so distraught about this#He sounded so joyful and happy to be alive and kind#Like it's just so different than the gerry we know#His trauma really ruined him#Fuck man.#FUCCCKKKK#a world without Mary keay = gerry is happy and USING HIS CHOSEN NAME BY THE FUCKING WAY#CAN WE TALK ABOUT THAT? I WILL BE TALKING ABOUT THAT.#they're putting me down#t#mine#tmagp#tmagp spoilers#gerry keay#Gerard keay#tmagp 8
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Once again inspired by @nicoise's adorable drawings; here's Blaine in his puppet master era
Can you believe that the hardest part was actually Kurt puppet???
Under the cut the second part of the drawing that I wanted to show but am a little ashamed of; I am very sorry if it offends you 😔
#i'm not sure about the second one#“not sure” stands for “it really sucks”#but eh#i guess that's just me#if i do two things the first one always comes out better than the second one#ok come on it's just a quick sketch#actually quick or not i just could do better#but i don't think i'm mentally doing well lately???#drawing distracts me from my thoughts#but if the drawing is ugly how can i not think??? lol help#anyway here's a distraught blaine + kurt puppet#sue in heels is so weird?#lol said the one with a puppet in the shape of his fiancé#blaine anderson#blaine anderson fanart#glee#gleeposting#puppet master#season five#pen sketch#pen drawing#pencil sketch#pencil drawing#ink drawing#these are like... so tiny...#my eyes where hurtinggg 🥲
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my horse died in skyrim and I genuinely started crying. Many tears were shed I hadn't saved recently so there was nothing I could do. Martini you will be missed you were the best.
#Martini was my second horse but she was number 1 in my heart#I got her from Riften#Anytime we'd run into any enemies. She'd run in IMMEDIEATLY and fight. She was actually the best I loved her so much#It was just me#I'm genuinely distraught over the death of this skyrim horse if you can't tell#I was trying to take a shortcut throough a mountain range... I couldn't see the cliff :'''(#skyrim#tesblr#ducksmaddenedquacks
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NOT GROGU FACING THE PRAETORIAN GUARDS ALONE NOT DIN YELLING NO FAVLONI I’M IN YOUR WALLS
#the mandalorian#the mandalorian spoilers#grogu#din djarin#she speaks on mando s3#WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK#i'm so distraught#actually worse than all the predictions of din being tortured and dying
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me when i can clear ode to the destruction faster with lance than my main
#monster hunter world#i'm so distraught#lance is really strong actually#in fact lance mains scare me
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