#I’m weak for these kinds of things
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#yes I’m thinking about that one ask meme I sent Brit with those two just absolutely dying#not being able to breathe their sides hurting#the fact that Feng Xin is the type to just laugh at the dumbest things to and it’s what gets xie Lian to laugh#like literally and once they stop they can’t look at each other it’s just gonna start and they are gonna die all over again#I’m weak for these kinds of things#ooc. // 𝐛𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐝𝐢𝐚 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐬
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Thinking about zosan where they butt heads during the day, shoes to blades, scalding words, scathing glares. while none of it holds any real weight, they still play up this grand facade of hating each other, swearing by the stars they can’t stand to be in the same room.
but when night falls, those same stars pay witness to how zoro lingers in the galley as sanji cleans up after dinner, dozing off to the gentle clinks of washed plates. they see how sanji climbs up to the crow’s nest long after everyone has fallen asleep, with blankets and a bottle of zoro’s favorite sake in tow.
they see how zoro ambles into the men’s quarters after night watch and clambers into his hammock, bumping not-so-subtly into sanji’s. they see how sanji gently rouses at the movement, and when zoro’s settled, his breathing even, he slides out of his own bed and climbs in with him. he nudges him over, zoro huffing with childish and weightless petulance as he shifts to give sanji the space to curl into his side. they stay like that for however long the darkness of night lasts, sanji’s head on zoro’s chest and zoro’s arm around him, tucked close into each other, warm under the blankets and briefly, blissfully impervious.
and when the sun rises, chasing away the stars and their secrets, they part and do it all over again.
#zosan#one piece#suyothinks#my favorite thing to see in fics forever and ever is sleeping together but literally#something about it is so. vulnerable. warm. soft#you cannot tell me the wings of the pirate king do not know each other like they know their own hands#you cannot tell me they haven’t acquainted themselves with each other’s weaknesses#their insecurities#their fears#there is a unity that is demanded of them as the pirate king’s wings#and that kind of understanding is achieved through spending obscene amounts of time at each other’s side#whether that be sparring or curling into each other under the covers#if it wasn’t obvious i’m so so so unwell for zosan i love them so much aurgh
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If Dream was given the BIGGEST. LARGEST. benefit of a doubt of all time, then the truth is:
He isn’t careful with his words or actions.
He CANNOT fathom the consequences of his carelessness.
He can’t be bothered to consider the responsibility of his position before making decisions that inadvertently hurt other people because his fanbase is large, has negative actors, and speak on his behalf. DESPITE whatever he actually intended.
This leads to speculation from those outside of his fan base on his intention, insight to his unconscious motives and exposes his ignorance.
He is impulsive (in his words), prideful, and entitled. It prevents him from understanding the above points.
He is somewhat narrowminded and shortsighted when having to deal with said consequences.
It alludes him why certain topics need to be treated with the seriousness and severity it deserves.
It immensely upsets him that he cannot control his image to the wider public.
For some reason he cannot see that context doesn’t matter as much as the impact does. He focuses SO MUCH on explaining WHY something happened instead of acknowledging YES, it happened. He downplays those consequences in order to emphasize his “rationality”.
Perhaps creators should be taught how to handle an audience before being thrusted into having a sphere of influence.
As Tubbo said, being sexist/racist/etc is technically subjective. I do believe Dream isn’t purposefully racist, sexist, homophobic etc. That is my BOD for him. That’s what he believes for himself also. This is NOT, HOWEVER, how his words and actions come off. It can be interpreted as sexist, racist, transphobic, sinophobic etc to the wider audience. Not to mention the manipulative tactics and weaponized incompetence. He doesn’t realize this, which is why he’s so confused and trying so hard to control the perception of himself.
#it’s a pitiful man’s attempt#it’s kind of sad#but when everything crashes and burns maybe he will finally look at himself to see where it went wrong#one can only hope#ugh I’m really impressed with tubbo man#I would’ve started standing on my chair#i would have made implications of him having a thick skull#last thing: if THIS IS HOW TALKS WITH HIM NORMALLY GO IN PRIVATE#then OF COURSE no one is going to WANT to talk#and if they did#they’re going to either give up trying to reason with him (which he’ll take as a win)#or see no reason to put effort into arguing with him (which he’ll take as a weak argument)#not to mention the risk of it ever going public one day with his massive audience#sigh#sighhh#I cannot believe it’s all unintentional tbh#he cannot be like this fr like. you can’t be this out of touch man#dream situation
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see I need ghost clothes to have properties more or less like regular clothes because wearing someone else’s jacket or shirt is one of the most important expressions of affection in existence and yes basically what I’m saying is i wanna see charles give edwin his jacket for one reason or another and see edwin get all flustered and giddy about it
#the staple of all my high school romances (all like. two or three of them)#but on a more domestic level too….i love the trope of one partner wearing the other’s ill-fitting t-shirt around the house because#it’s comfy and they like feeling embraced in a way by the perosn they love#grahhhhhh I’m weak and cliche i know i know#but yeah the jacket thing…….im imagining like. something happens that leaves edwin hurt and exhausted on the ground and charles rushes over#to check if he’s okay and to help him up. and in doing so he drapes his signature jacket over edwin’s shoulders#and yeah ghosts can’t get cold. but edwin doesn’t say that out loud because he’s too busy being all 💕😳💕. similarly he forgets about being#hurt and can only think about how charles’ jacket feels on him and how everyone can see this mark of affection on him and. and.#yeah#i remember one of my favorite things about (stealing) wearing my ex crushes and boyfriend’s jackets was feeling like. everyone can see#that I’m his. and he likes me. and that we’re Something. I’m Special to him#which is so teenager of me but I’m gonna be honest i doubt anything’s changed and I’m almost 24#I just haven’t felt like that in a long time. man i miss that feeling#but yeah edwin. being as jealous as he is and as up front about people knowing that charles comes first and they’re ‘Best Friends’ and all#i imagine he’d be the type to be a bit (not negatively) possessive and to love that little assertion of. yes. look. I’m his favorite.#we have something special. he loves me. specifically.#same reason i think he’d ACT annoyed at getting hickeys he can’t totally hide but really would kind of love the feeling of being marked#like that. it’s Evidence. he likes everyone knowing charles is his and vice versa.#I think i broke myself#rambling#payneland#dead boy detectives
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Forgiveness is so badass. It’s SO EASY to be angry at someone after a betrayal but when a character is soft and understanding instead it’s so much more impressive. Anger is innate, it takes strength to be kind.
#I’m not good at writing#ranting#I read the tempest and it was gut wrenching#craziest shit that has ever happened to me#I love gentle and kind and soft people#forgiveness is beautiful#you do not deserve to live your life in rage#I REALLY don’t like when ppl make kindness a weakness in media#kindness and naivety are some of the most beautiful things about people#kindness is strong#naïveté is strong
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is episode 8 the domitian arc ? more on this and EVEN MORE narratives i’ve been ignoring that the show said “actually,,,” about in 5
#hermes staying domitian’s hand… hermes’ face a flash of discomfort when he was torturing tenax… hmm. character growth.#WHAT WAS THAT HERMES. WHAT WAS THAT LOOK. NO GIRL GET BACK HERE I CANNOT ALSO DO THIS NARRATIVE OF YOU NO LONGER ABLE TO PULL HIM BACK FROM#THE BRINK OF HIS CRUELTY WATCHING HIM CHANGE AND SEEKING OUT SOMEONE ELSE IN HIS NEED AND FEAR AND ANGST. NO BABY GIRLLLL#I DON’T WANT TO WRITE A HERMES POINT OF VIEWWWW OF THE SIX YEARS HE SPENT WATCHING DOMITIAN BLOOMMMM INTO HIS POWER AND CORRUPTTTT because.#correct me if i’m wrong but in that very first scene that was a young hermes in the white right he watched domitian give his speech and saw#his father to truly see him the whole time as hermes has seen his brilliance.#NO I ALSO SAW THAT GUARD’S HEAD FOLLOW HERMES oh i hate it here. you know what i also hate? i need domitian to be successful for tenax#but also i do kinda like titus… NOOOOOO NO KILLING TITUS DOMITIAN I JUST SAID I LIKED HIM!!!! DOMITIAN!!!#oh. ohhhh no. OH NOOOO okay listen we can redeem this. we can have the whole turning point of the narrative be domitian’s mercy of hermes#the ultimate staying of his hand. proving he’s not entirely gone that hermes & his love still means something. do i think this will happen#no absolutely not. before he can kill his brother domitian has to kill the only other living person he loves perhaps more than titus if he#could ever realize it. (a brief interlude to yell LET’S GO LESBIANS LET’S GO HI IRIS) domitian… please spare him… OH WAIT HELLO THE BLOOD!!#ALSO a brief interlude to say i knew it was coming but ELIA’S SPEECH ABOUT LOVING INCITATUS??? I WAS ON THIS INCITATUS SHIT WITH THE LITTLE#NOD THEY HAD WHERE SCORPUS CALLED HIM TO BEAT XENON OH MY GOD I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS!!! elia’s going to crush him. incitatus won’t listen.#scorpus is going to die twice once when they call elia’s name instead of his and then the second time when the scorpion bites him again#(he kills himself and tenax finds him. sorry to give everyone absolutely maximum damage here but uh. that’s how i can see it going down)#or alternatively worse: after killing titus who at times he loves and hates in equal measure (if y’all don’t think I have some UNHINGED#brothers quotes. we’ll keep mum here about why but suffice to say it is. relevant to other fandoms. and thus i have a Collection) the last#thing domitian has to do is kill hermes. and this one is both out of betrayal but also love because I think somewhere in here titus’ queen#berenice plays a role because domitian’s hatred of the jews probably comes to play a role and I think titus would show up and protect her#like Domitian engineers some kind of a situation where in theory titus could escape alive or beat him but he can’t do that & save berenice#and so of course he saved berenice. or she dies in his arms and he goes mad with grief and any way you put it berenice is the trap & titus#happily crawls into the lion’s mouth to save her for love of her etc and domitian sees him die for it. he gives titus every chance to come#back to him to work with him to be what he wants him to be and he always chooses himself he chooses love and domitian can’t understand even#when it makes him weak. and then he sees hermes dirty and emaciated and still terribly terribly beautiful and feels such a pang of longing#and love that he decides he has to die because he (domitian) cannot be weak. he cannot have any of it. also giving domitian worse paranoia#than he already has because if you kill your brother the one person who should always love you—support you—who can build me a new brother—#you’ve gotta generate some MAJOR issues. namely trust issues. and if he kills hermes they’ll be even worse. so like ideally To Me domitian#wouldn’t kill him but i do very much see the symbolism of cutting off his last earthly tie & desire to ascend to the divine imperial throne#those about to die
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making the guy who didn’t want to be first talon into first talon is certainly a choice. i think caterina believes he will rise to the occasion but i’m inclined to believe it may be magpie pulling the strings for the foreseeable future (bad for everyone involved) (fun for magpie)
#i’m still struggling so hard with her character specifically bc i am straddling the Two Disparate Canons for the crows#is lucanis in constant mortal danger because everyone is always scheming to kill him and his house is too weak to protect him?#or was what happened to caterina’s children a thing of the past?#will magpie spend the rest of her life watching and waiting for someone to kill lucanis in an attempt to take the dellamorte’s spot as first#talon? or will things be kind of normal?#where does neve fit in here because i cannot imagine her moving to fucking Antiva but i wonder if constantly being out of the country would#be. not Great for lucanis’s title. LMAO#crows do Not change houses but i bet magpie could convince viago to give up a few de rivas to bolster the dellamorte ranks#(not her though. she will always be a de riva. LMAO)#idk man whatever. i’ll figure it out#漫言#oc. magpie#datv spoilers
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This is a miquella supporting blog, miquella haters don’t interact (I’m kidding idc who or what you like or dislike)
#i’m not saying he did nothing wrong but i positive he would of gone back for malenia he didn’t abandon her#he was kidnapped and defiled in a heretical blood ritual till he DIED#yeah the thing with calied was unfortunately caused by him#but it was never anticipated that malenia would bloom#radahn was resistant likely because he’s a golden order fan boy of Radagon so ofc he tried to break his vow#I think people things miquella is more powerful then he truly was#all his strengths were in his charms and kindness so if you have no other weapon then what do you use in a world that’s hostile and violent?#his weakness is his naivety#and he’s likely been treated like a child longer then we realized just because of his curse#we see miquella without his love and that’s what we face in battle and even then he doesn’t actually attack us#radahn does#i can’t speak for radahn#i’ve never been very interested in him#but i do know that the charm doesn’t seem to force LOVE#mohg did that on his own as a bid to become elden lord and as a way he did just not in the sense he wanted#the charm almost seems to quell negative emotions instead and create comradery#hence why the bewitching branch makes enemies fight for you#i can almost guarantee with the rune broken malenia still will have the fight be the same after the final dlc fight#she was never charmed#i need to stop i’m very frustrated by people calling him pure evil or slurs#elden ring#sote spoilers#elden ring spoilers#shadow of the erdtree spoilers
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obsessed w the tags on ur last reblog
Omgg, thank you haha, it was a quality post so I just had to appreciate it in full force 😂❤️
Can‘t believe someone would actually enjoy my yapping :,D
#guys help is it time for a rebranding?? am I just gonna post about f1 now??#I still can’t believe this has all started because bestie and I were watching Ted Lasso (because I’ve been obsessed with that show for a#while now too) and I paused the episode to talk about how I really like the way Jamie interacts with kids (I’m sorry people being good with#and nice to kids is one of my weaknesses I work with kids now and have been invested in treating kids well forever)#so me saying that apparently reminded her of max and she showed me a video of him with p and yeah it was very effective in making me like#him and then we left the episode on pause and she told me a lot about f1 and max specifically cause I was interested now lmao (funny thing#is that she also got roped into it by our other friends I swear it’s speeding lmao#she also compared him to Jamie from Ted lasso (if you know you know) and showed me some heart wrenching Taylor swift edits (i haven’t#emotionally recovered yet) and yeah that’s how I started consuming way too much f1 content on YouTube and got into this whole mess lmao#oh yeah our friends also made me and another friend make a Tier list for all the drivers based on vibes alone (cause I only knew a bit about#max at that time and the other one knew nothing really) which was very funny too#especially looking back at it (we did some of them so dirty lmao 😂)#I’ve also come to the conclusion that tumblr is still one of the least annoying platforms to engage with other people (still)#YouTube is full of hate comments about drivers and stuff it’s so annoying actually#not to mention Twitter but I don’t go there and probably never will 😂#I personally don’t enjoy fics and scenarios and shipping of real people cause it makes me a bit uncomfy (not judging people who do#you do you as long as it doesn’t negatively affect anyone#but yeah I’d much rather just scroll by those here than have to look away from all the mindless hate and which driver is better discussions#everywhere else like I’m not one to engage with stuff like that but it does upset me to some#degree so yeah tumblr making memes and being rather positive about their drivers (most of what I’ve seen here of course there are gonna be#annoying people everywhere) is much more tolerable and a lot more enjoyable for me#whoops this post got away from me again oh dear#I’ve had the idea for a meme stuck in my head for days now: Max verstappen but make it if you don’t love me at my *swearing on team radio#giving spicy replies and attitude to the media maxplaining and complaining going for risky overtakes* you don’t deserve me at my *precious#interactions with p talking about his cats being a goofball with other drivers and especially danny defending other drivers driving#beautifully in the rain* it’s a package deal you can’t just pick and choose and personally I don’t even get why people complain about some#of the other stuff I appreciate someone who’s passionate and honest and genuinely kind where it matters 🤷🏻♀️#I think I’ve seen someone else say that but the more people complain about and criticize max the more I feel the need to defend him#god forbid women have hobbies for real (can’t believe I’ve yapped so much I can’t put more tags 💀)#also shoutout to Oscar Piastri and Danny Ric (I was so happy Oscar won even tho McLaren where being very silly in a not so funny way)
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Absolutely convinced we are not talking about the same guy here.
#also how weak do you have to be that I can completely unravel any and all good memories you have a game because I simply pointed out#that the character you play is in fact not straight#I can name two other men in rockstar are that are also fan favourites that are not straight#from two of their most famous games franchises no less#ash speaks#not art#I’m not sorry because I needed to point out I won’t tolerate this kind of thing being commented on any of my stuff#I love and cherish every comment I get except shit like this
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I can’t wait for this scene to go down without the menacing glares or dramatic volcano imagery. No one looks evil, no one is yelling.
Just two sad little jelly beans having a civil conversation:
#baby king vs baby elf#please please PLEASE don’t do the PJ thing#I need grief-stricken Isildur who does NOT turn corrupted after 5 minutes with the ring#and kind sweet Elrond who does NOT call all men weak#let them cry too#don’t mess this up I’m living for it#isildur#Elrond#lotr rings of power#lotr#trop#rings of power
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#degrassiedit#zoe rivas#grace cardinal#miles hollingsworth#my edit#my edits#my screencaps#degrassi#degrassi the next generation#honestly it still would have been dumb but if Grace had to like a guy it should have been Miles#She was shown uncomfortable with their pda on more than one occasion and back in s13 seemed to be anti-Matlingsworth as well#yes she also was pro zaya but that’s beside the point I’m making here#just that if she had to be secretly into a guy Miles could’ve made more sense than Zig based on those#*based on those weak “hints plus it was kind of implied they knew each other prior to their first scene when grace and maya first met#obviously they weren’t close or anything but still#honestly having Zoe and miles have a hook up out of revenge or whatever still could have caused drama but also I think he understood what#*she was going through and she actually could have opened up to him and then a hook up wouldn’t have been neccesary#(well another hook up cause they did off screen in this movie lol) but like honestly I think miles would have even agreed to be her beard#*and we could have been spared the awkward Winston/Zoe thing(mostly awkward cause of their history cause I get why it happened obviously)#I’m probably making no sense
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no hood he’s not perfect he is very cringe and pathetic hood don’t learn from him hood noooo
#anyway my interpretation of their dynamic is that hood despite his strengths is very aware of his shortcomings when placed next to psychic#when they’re doing similar things even though hood is extremely competent in his own right and he’s aware of this#but he just sees psychic being absolutely fearless and ruthless with his master’s enemies and knowing he can’t be that towards epsilon#or even to many of his other adversaries#because hood is more prone to listening to his conscience while psychic’s conscience is actually based entirely around what his master#would do or approve of#so hood despite knowing his own strengths and weaknesses only sees psychic’s perfections and not his flaws. creating kind of an#unfair comparison in his mind.#idk twig also brought up the possibility of hood being depressed once and i think this fits that as well#i mean he probably has some self esteem issues due to the trauma epsilon put him through#and i think constantly comparing himself to psychic subconsciously would exacerbate that a little bit#that’s just my interpretation tho i’m open to discussion ^^#anyway i swear void appears in this fic too and we get to see his own issues with hood and psychic being adopted son besties /lh#fnf psychic#friday night funkin#fnf mind games#psychic fnf#fnf hood#purple guys dlc#fic snippet#psychic daily
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it’s the way Ryan Gosling plays Ken’s feelings for Barbie for me. because the feelings are unreal and fake in the way of a doll but they’re also intensely real in the way of his actual personality/who he actually is.
#it’s the way he looks at her sometimes when she isn’t looking at him#and it’s just full of intense longing and vulnerability#so it’s that combination that I love SO much#which is over-the-top cartoonish-ness that’s full of PERSONALITY and excess and conviction#and then this core of -well I already said it but INTENSE vulnerability#it’s Michael Scott in love with Holly. It’s Schmidt in love with Cece#and the way Ryan plays it is even more so because he’s a doll and of course in a real way his love for her is not a real thing#BUT IN AN EVEN REALER WAY——#To paraphrase Michael Scott (!!!!!)#it’s the realest thing anyone in Barbieland has ever known (to paraphrase Taylor)!#like he’s the only one trying to do anything real!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#and so for me my Barbie takes are all secondhand#because the story they’re telling has some narrative cracks and weaknesses in it#but also I kind of don’t care because they’re not focusing on the story that is the most interesting to me personally#which is this hilarious icon of a cartoon man who is—somewhere in the depths of his little plastic Ken heart—really in love#and I know it seems like I’m just repeating and twisting what the movie DOES say. that he’s in love but it’s fake and he has to get over it#to be his own person#but that’s only the one layer for me!!!!!!#and it’s a true one. I actually love his existential crisis and the moment where he’s forced to be his own person (doll)#and that’s the best thing Barbie could do for him in that moment#but it only addresses part of the situation —the part of his feelings that are fake. it doesn’t actually see or do anything#with the real love that’s also somehow by the magic of personality there#And it pretends it isn’t. BUT IT IS ALSKKSKSJEJJE#like I’m SORRY but he is just an absolute magnet for her and he’s so deeply responsive to her presence underneath all of the exaggeration#it’s in his eyes it’s in his voice!!!!! like. Sorry I know love when I see it akskksksksksjsj#and yeah that love is very decidedly not in her character and at this stage that made sense for it not to be#because of her journey to humanity etc. but I wanted them to do something with that real love in Ken and they don’t even see it#which is OKAY because tbh I’m mostly just delighted that it’s THERE#but yeah. That’s the most interesting part of the movie to me#how could it not be
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My roommate and I had a conversation last night and I keep rotating it in my brain and I Don’t Like It
#blue chatter#they called me a resilient person. and no the fuck I am not. I break down so easily over everything and my body is falling apart on me.#I scream in terror when someone knocks on the door too hard the fuck you mean I’m good at handling adversity#I pointed out that I freak out whenever my grade gets low even a little bit#and they were just sitting there like ‘yeah. and then you pick yourself up again and you do the work.’#and no? not always? oftentimes I give up and don’t try hard enough to fix it and let points go that I could have earned#I barely ever go for extra credit opportunities and I’ve never gone to office hours of my own free will#I can’t even think about talking to a professor about a bad grade without wanting to cry? hello?#but they were insistent that even with those things I am still managing Incredibly Well in class given the circumstances. which made me#uncomfortable. like. I don’t think of myself as resilient At All and I feel a bit like I’m lying or tricking them.#I start shaking like a chihuahua when people are upset and I’m In The Vicinity. even when they’re clearly not upset with me.#I really struggle to advocate for myself ever and even when I do I usually feel guilty and walk it back partway so I don’t cause a fight#and I always get way too emotional for the situation when someone has anything they’re upset with me for. which isn’t fair to them bc I need#to be able to take constructive criticism without taking it as a personal attack on me.#like what the fuck do you mean *resilient*. I can’t even handle seeing a bug flying near my face or getting a B in a class. or being told#that I did something wrong. I’m actually significantly worse at handling adversity than I used to be. high school me was a resilientish kid.#and it’s not like I was ever *good* at handling my emotions. even when it was essential for my safety. I’ve always cried way too easily#even when it actively made the situation I was in Much Worse. even when I knew better.#I would get angry and scared and sad and start shaking and crying and even screaming at my parents when they were mad at me even though#I knew that it would always make my life much worse. and extend an already beleaguered argument.#I brought this up with my therapist and she was like ‘well. anybody would have done that if they were treated like you were’.#which. okay. maybe so. I still feel like I should have been able to handle it and just shut up and move on and not make it worse.#but I am aware that this is probably a cognitive distortion. even so. that definitely doesn’t make me resilient.#I just. I feel gross being called resilient. I’m not. I’m weak and easily scared and unable to handle even small amounts of adversity.#the fuck is my roommate even *seeing*.#the annoying part is that they’re generally an insightful person about other people and I know logically that they’re probably right#which is why I’m not going to complain any more about this to their face bc I should just drop it and not make it a Thing#I talk too much about myself and my problems anyway. not every conversation has to be about my brain worms.#but the discomfort is Distinct and Unpleasant. and now I’m just having to sit with it. and Feel Uncomfortable. and try to accept what was#definitely intended as a compliment. I know it’s draining to talk to someone who doesn’t accept any of the kind things you say about them.
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For the love of all things beyond human comprehension can someone please please just tell me what is wrong with my brain and why I act and think like this and why nobody has ever thought I’m normal except when they’re trying to deny that there’s something wrong
#cyberr speaks#vent#rant#brain#there is something wrong with me#✨psychologically��#and I need help that I will never get#gods I just want to know what it is#I’m so tired of always playing this guessing game#of#‘is my inability to keep my room tidy just laziness or a mental block of some kind’#of ‘why can’t I just stay focused for one second’#of ‘oh hell I just zoned out’#of ‘I’ve been surpressing this thing for so long that I no longer know if it’s a real thing i experience#or if I’m just making it up’#of ‘is this a melt down or I’m really just that weak as to cry all the time’#of ‘why am#getting these thoughts. they’re not me’#of ‘why aren’t I like them. why don’t people like me. why can’t I just act like them. why do they think I’m weird. what’s wrong with me’#what’s wrong with me#always the same question#over and over and over and over#and over#again
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