#I’m thinking about them so hard
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“Don’t hurt yourself for me”
#this is the only coherent thought in my head right now#I’m sobbing so hard guys you don’t even KNOW#fable smp#icarus morningstar#I’m thinking about them so hard#I don’t even know what to say even
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reads 1 angstshipping fic: *dies*
#they kill me#they’re so stupid#I hate them#endearing#I love them so much it hurts me sometimes#I need them to like#what if they held hands#oh lord#prepare for angstshipping art spam#it’s gonna be like 2 posts but whatever#I’m thinking about them so hard#I c#I can’t do this#ramble
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OH MY GODDD YOU GUYS FEM SEBEPEL *dies explodes car crash noises horn honking tires screeching POW POW POW BAM BAM PPEOOOWWWW PEEWOOOOO. VPEOOWWWWWWWW wheels bouncing KABOOOOOM sirens ringing EXPLOSION*
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friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me
#It’s just so different#even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol#in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps#if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it#esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends#no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr#u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS#meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life#this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation#like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !!#& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers#who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them#and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends#it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me#I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc#like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this#so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works#p
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i know they underutilized the frankenstein aspect in the movie but it really does feel like the creature was perfectly created for lisa regardless. from what we saw, he spent his whole life lonely; dead parents, isolating social life, failed romantic prospects, the whole shebang, but he never gets to do anything about it because he dies, suddenly and unstoppably. until he’s suddenly alive again and the whole world is different but there’s this girl who tended to his grave when nobody else would have given him that respect, who’s experiencing the same things he did who actually has the chance to get back at the people who didn’t care for her, one tiny bit of familiarity to him… of course he’s going to kill for her just to see her happy.
#i’m just rambling atp but i really love them man#hits esp hard if you’re annoying like me and factor in trans!creature#theres something so intriguing about devotion to the point of destruction#burning the whole world down for a place in each others arms#lisa frankenstein#b.txt#i’m gonna explore this more in my current wip i think#once i get the scene rip refs i need
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Was it destiny?…. 🧶
I’ve been won over by the idea that Pigsy took care of MK alone in the beginning and Tang came in to help later- despite the fact that they hadn’t seen each other for a while for… reasons : )
#lmk freenoodles#lmk noodle family#lmk tang#lmk pigsy#lmk young freenoodles#lmk fanart#red string of fate#soulmates#destiny#lmk#lego monkie kid#I’m fine I’m so normal#so hard not to think about them constantly#my art#gaaaaaah
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yes, i am posting about this again because yes, i am thinking about this again.
i understand that most people likely wanted for charles to immediately be in love with edwin back and for him to know it immediately, but i sincerely appreciate that he didn’t.
but i also appreciate that he didn’t immediately write it off either.
payneland is, for most people, absolutely endgame and i totally understand that (because it is for me as well) but charles has never had to look at edwin in a romantic light before. he’s never thought about it and he’s never been forced to think about it.
edwin can only begin to understand his attraction to charles because of the cat king forcing him to face his sexual attraction to men, which is something that he had been repressing for a long time before then.
charles has always known he’s liked girls and that has always been the easiest answer so i can’t imagine he ever thought about men in a romantic sense before his death and i don’t think he ever would’ve thought to see edwin in that light after his death.
to us, it was very clear off the bat that edwin was a raging homosexual. but i’d argue that it was for the characters of the show as well.
crystal immediately clocks edwin’s behaviour and frustration toward her as jealousy. she very quickly calls them a married couple and tells charles that edwin’s jealous. charles had called him jealous before that, but he thought that edwin was just jealous that there was a new person in charles’ life which is not inaccurate, but it goes far deeper than that, and i don’t think that either charles or edwin understand that in this moment. i’m fairly certain crystal does though. she has a much more modern understanding of human sexuality and i truly think she knows how edwin feels about charles off the bat.
niko very quickly caught on the fact that Edwin had something romantic going on with with monty and even the cat king (which i don’t think the other two picked up on, only that he makes edwin flustered and nervous). this is also just another reason that she’s such an amazing friend, especially to edwin, because she doesn’t even bat an eye at this despite the fact that Edwin is likely terrified right now. not only does he make an offhanded statement about how monty is a boy and he’s a boy, but he was also murdered for being a boy who was deemed too feminine, and that was because he was clocked as queer in his life.
the cat king is immediately able to say and do certain things that get edwin feeling hot and bothered because he’s physically attracted to him and he didn’t doubt his ability to do so once.
when esther turns monty into a human, she doesn’t think for a moment that he will have any trouble seducing edwin.
even simon in their 1916 all boys boarding school where homosexuality was quite literally a crime could tell that edwin was queer.
i think charles always kind of knew that edwin likes men, but it’s very much something that is in the back of his head that he knows vaguely. he knows to be jealous of monty and the cat king and not to be jealous of niko, but he doesn’t understand what that really means for edwin. no one has said it out loud, but it doesn’t make any difference to him when he does tell him because of course he is. that was always just kind of a fact about him, but not an important one. not to charles.
regardless, everyone knows him to be queer, and he knew himself to be different, but i think he did always know that he was attracted to men. it was repressed, of course, and im sure there was a lot of self hatred and internalized homophobia there, but i think he sort of always knew.
charles, on the other hand, just went with the label that was most natural, the one that didn’t have any negative connotations to it, and that most people assumed was the norm. it worked for him because he was able to masquerade as that demographic. he’s never had to think twice about his sexuality because all he needs to know is that he’s attracted to women and that’s fine. i think that if he was able to live a full life, he may never have even thought about it and would’ve settled down with a woman, never realizing that he was also attracted to men.
we all know how jealous he was about monty and the cat king, but i don’t think he even began to consider the possibility that this was a romantic sense of jealousy and not just his protectiveness for his friend and for his friendship.
it truly speaks magnitudes to his character that after edwin confesses to him, he stops. he stops and he thinks. he’s an impulsive character and we know that from the beginning. but he stops here.
he has never considered men to be an aspect of his sexual orientation, but he refuses to sit here and give edwin an immediate yes or no. it would be so easy for him to say “i love you and you’re my best friend, but im straight and i don’t like you in that way,” but he doesn’t do that. he says that he can’t say he’s in love with him back, but that there is no one other than him on this plane of existence or on any plane of existence that he would ever go in the hell for and that they have forever to figure out what that means.
he says i love you, and i can’t sit here and say that i mean that romantically right now, but you mean more to me than anybody ever has and ever will.
charles rowland takes this scared young boy’s face in his hands, and he says “we can figure this out together.”
he’s not rejecting him here. he’s saying i don’t know if i love you like that, but i love you in every other way and i need some time to think about it, but i might love you in that way too.
and even if i don’t, nothing will ever change how much i love you.
i can’t handle how much they mean to me.
#dead boy detectives#dbda#charles rowland#edwin payne#payneland#dbda meta#i’ve been thinking too much#save dead boy detectives#renew dead boy detectives#revive dead boy detectives#dead boy detective agency#this is the importance of good queer media#please watch this show what the fuck#save dbda#we will save this show#can’t stop thinking about them#thoughtful charles my absolute beloved#thought too hard about edwin payne again#love them so much#i’m sobbing#they adore each other#even if that isn’t romantic#erebus psychoanalyzes things nightly!#i love psychoanalyzing everything <3
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I ain’t playing when I say ALL Johnlock
#I’m so serious about them bro#HECK#I’ll cry if I think too hard man#my art#sherlock holmes#john watson#johnlock#sherlock#bbc sherlock#mlp#my little pony
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saw someone on here describe reading as a passive activity. and like no judgement on this person but I think we have fundamentally different relationships to reading
#like I would disagree that reading is passive on a baseline level for a lot of people too#although I have hobbies I would qualify as fairly passive in the sense that I’m not expending deep attention to doing them#like my joy of those hobbies is derived primarily through the fact that I don’t have to think hard about them and just go with the flow#and so like if that is your relationship to reading that makes sense to me#BUT. I would strongly disagree with universalising the idea that reading is passive
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I hsve an idea. Could u draw rose and ianto as besties
absOLUTELY I CAN
they’re chatting shit (lovingly) about their tall, long-coat-wearing, time-travelling, death-cheating, alien boyfriends who have spikey hair
#Jack is nursing 10s broken nose off screen from where Ianto decked him imo Ianto would not let 10s nonsense with Jack slide#jk Ianto would not punch him he would just make him instant coffee instead of The Ianto Special and then stew silently#doctor who#torchwood#torchwood fanart#rose tyler#dwmmm.ask#ianto jones#SORRY I DISAPPEARED FOR AGES EVERYONE IM BACK HELLO !!!!!!#apologies to all the people who have sent asks that are sitting in my inbox im getting to them soon!!!#also I’m working on a big cool colab which I’m v excited about >:)#this is meant to have the vibes of the school reunion scene with sarah jane and rose laughing at 10!!#Ianto would be besties with all of 10s companions actually#him and martha are already besties & him and donna would get on so well snarky secretary duo#him and rose would not only bond over stories about the 9/jack/rose tardis team but also over being estate kids !!!#him rose and martha hanging out being the only under 25s 🚶♂️#s1 Ianto is the type to still get IDed for redbull#maybe that’s why he really wears the suit so people stop thinking he’s a 16 year old#anyway I digress thank u for the ask I hope this appeases you I love this vision and also hate drawing roses hair it’s SO hard#killer side part#but I loved drawing this bc I love ianto and rose friendship#ps theye matching colours on purpose bc they’re bffs#also like ianto in the audios constantly makes friends with random side characters you can’t convince me this man isn’t extroverted at heart
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me: i should start watching something new!
also me:
#AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN#never too many rewatches#ugh season one dynamic is just so sexy#i love them all but#season one hits soooo hard#will’s faith and trust in hannibal#HIM THINKING HANNIBALS BEING HIS PADDLE WHILST HANNIBAL IS#in denial about his big fat crush and continues to set will up for framing#season one where hannibal holds all the cards vs season two where will betrays him#yeah idk what i’m saying anymore#hannibal nbc#will graham#hannibal lecter#hannigram
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… can I yell about my Icarus Morningstar headcannons yet or do I have to wait to project them into a fic
#/silly#i’m thinking about them so hard#fable smp#fsmp#fsmpblr#fablesmp#fablesmpblr#icarus morningstar#i have so many thoughts#i’m so normal
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i saw this tweet and found it interesting for two reasons. one is that some people base how good cartoon network would be to toh by how it treated su, and despite the fact that su’s treatment by the network was considered poor at the time, now its thought to be exceptionally good in comparison to modern shows.
two is how exactly su got impacted by a limited budget. a common criticism is how characters like connie, peridot, and lapis are left out of missions. but balancing a lot of characters is not only hard but also costly (extra animation, extra voices—it’s been revealed that the show is limited to a set number of characters per episode otherwise they’re over budget). animation mistakes are not uncommon since retakes cost extra. the entire reason the original show got cut short was due to loss of funding!
#i don’t know if pay rates differ per networks#but a.ivi and s.urrashu have said that they needed to work outside of su in order to make sufficient funds#it only makes me wonder what other ways su suffered from a lower budget#that we as the audience never got to see#in the vein of the too-little characters complaint#another part of that is that low-stakes episodes should’ve been abt the main cast instead of the townies#like last one out of beach city and too short to ride vs restaurant wars and kiki’s pizza delivery service#i definitely see that especially since that isn’t budget related#nor would it seem to be network related (even if cn had an ‘episodic episodes’ quota it could still be abt the gems#(another side note: /would/ cn even have a requirement that the show make episodes that can be watched standalone?#this is a question for the people who were around when su was airing#what episodes often got rerun?#was it the townie eps or the lore eps?#for example i heard that su once did a ‘peridot event’ where they just reran peridot episodes#which had eps that skip around in the show#did they even care about airing the story so that it made sense anyways?#id get it if the low stakes townie episodes were the ones getting rerun))#but i have such a boring view on that which is i think it’s simply because the creators like townie eps#like in interviews r.ebecca s.ugar has said she’s the type to be really invested in background characters#answers in interviews have been crafted in ways to hide what’s really going on though tbf#prime example of this is rebecca and ian saying the wedding being interrupted was meant to follow the common trope#when later in the art book they said that it was bc cn rejected the ep bc it ‘wasn’t interesting enough’#both could simultaneously be true! it’s a psychology thing though where people make up nice-sounding explanations behind what they create#in retrospect because they want it to be thought out in such a nice way they believe in it#the bigger problem is that not matter how many episodes there are of them#it can be hard for ppl to be invested in the townies the same way they are invested in the main cast#i’m sure that a million writers have made surefire advice on how to get an audience to care about characters#but off the top of my head i think it’s because 1. most don’t have strong motivations to get truly invested in#(exception is ronaldo but people find him too annoying to care about him)#okay i had more points and explanations but i hit the tag limit and idk if anyone is actually reading this so bye
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Chilchuck analysis speedrun: As a hardworking half-foot who grew up poor and discriminated against and had his gullibility taken advantage of multiple times in his early adventuring days, Chilchuck thinks optimism is a dangerous flaw. He’s stressed and strict all the time because his job is noticing details like traps that could get everyone killed before anyone knows it, he takes the lives of everyone to be on his shoulders, and with the way he speaks about it that probably partly reflects how he felt about taking it upon himself to provide for his family too. His life’s always been pretty centered around work and has become even moreso now that his wife left and everyone is independent, and due to past events he’s very iffy with bonding with coworkers. He thinks feelings and job are a disaster mix. Like with his wife or with parties hiring him as sacrifice, being open or having good faith is vulnerability which can get you hurt, so he processes and shows all his stress as anger instead of worry. Doing strict dieting probably isn’t helping the irritability what with hunger, and on top of being a hunger suppressant alcohol might be the main stress reliever he has.
His grey hairs are so earned
#Chilchuck tims#dungeon meshi#analysis#HAPPY CHILCHUCK DAY#You know what yeah understandable have a good day#Alcohol be a ticket straight to chilling out town I suppose#Spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#Thinking on if I should split my family masterpost into diff posts for max reach hmm#I’m def editing in the second page into that post that “I’ve got three people to think of here” sounds sooo much like that’s#how he’d think about it in a family setting as well. He works so hard for them 🥺#I could have put 100 pics on this post to justify everything I mentioned but this is a speedrun for a reason. I’m planning so many#compilations rn i need a break from rereading lol#He’s just here to do his work!! He just wanna do his work!!!#I’m always rotating him in my brain like rotisserie chicken :( Hopefully this doesn’t sound disjointed or insane to average readers#He’s always on his guard so he has a short fuse and his type of humor & liking for snarky remarks doesn’t help#Also bc he knows nothing lasts he has a very work hard play hard mentality where ‘dying doing something you love. Like drinking’#is nice in his opinion#This post makes it all sound so dry. Chilchuck is so messy thinking about him is thrilling I swear. This is concise but at what cost…#OH ALSO he has weird self-hate issues where he really values his skills but devalues himself on a personal level.#‘I am a coward. I only care about myself. I cheated on my wife (lying for no reason)’ etc etc#Can’t disappoint people and make them leave you if they already have no expectations and esteem of you 😏💡#Laws are important to him bc he knows how bad punishment is if you break them and how they’re the key to getting better rights
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The guide fweheuhuieheueuhehehhehehiheh
#isat#in stars and time#in stars and time spoilers#isat bonnie#in recipes and repetition#randomized isatswap au#They aren’t canon in IRAR as far as I’m sure but i’ve seen them tagged with it so just in case…#headcanon is that when they are big brain thinking really hard their four chest dots spin like a loading screen#Like I imagine them and bonnie having a serious talk about allat jazz with wishcraft and the king and why they’re stuck and blehblehbleh#And then bonnie just points at their chest in the middle of the conversation and is like “why is your tummy rotating” -_-#Also i just love their design a lot like the dots are from the shirt and the flaring wrist from where the bracelet used to be…#And also tail. Tail = peak loop design instantly#And also also the tail looks like somethin between a red giant and a black hole whICH IS ALSO WHAT THE HEAD LOOKS LIKE RAHHHHHH#i dont wanna yap on but i love this design so much its so bonnie and it just makes sense everywhere#yehheheh#my art
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transgender detector going haywire rn…
#the fact that this was in the down low (THEE gay episode) too#this is either transmasc chase getting pissed about being misgendered#or transfemme chase reacting in indignation to being outed#take your pick#this bad boy can fit soo much gender in them#house md#robert chase#gregory house#hatecrimes md#greg house#like I’m trying so hard not to see chase as anything but an annoying cishet man#but the sheer level of queer implications they throw at him makes it insanely difficult#remy thirteen hadley#the more I think about it the more canon it feels#because he doesn’t even have long hair anymore. he’s not so twinkishly pretty as to be mistaken for a girl at this age. so what was this!!!#he has STUBBLE#+ somebody mentioned in the rbs that this is also trans!remy proof and. omg ur so right#enby thirteen rights#or whatever other headcanons y’all have for ‘em!!#prodigal siblings#prodigal twins
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