#I’m so mentally ill man
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When I made this i was rly supposed to be doing stuff and man am I a procrastinator because instead of doing what I was needing to do I made this- woooo
#help me#I’m so mentally ill man#and tired#I haven’t had proper sleep since forever#kingdom hearts#kh isa#saïx#isa#kh#isa my beloved#is this angst??#idk#I just saw a pic and Pinterest and went#“SAIX’’#and started drawing#I won’t count it as angst unless someone tells me otherwise#most proud of this tho :)#also if someone has read this far#cookie#🍪#:)#be blessed with lovely dreams#mine
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“Take my right eye.”
“Excuse me?”
“Since I’ve already staked it once.”
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“If you lose one of your eyes, won't your combat ability deteriorate? Why would you take such a loss because of me?"
"If I had to choose, I'd choose you, Han Yoojin-gun."
#ARE YOU PICKING UP WHAT I’M PUTTING DOWN WITH THE EYE METAPHORS#(im mentally ill)#also yall. please ignore the fact that this trend is like six months old.#and also??? was like exclusively a trend on tiktok rather than here but the tiktok tsctir fandom is ABYSMAL#so i’m chucking this baby into the void#first (roughly.) rendered piece ever as i figure out how to function digitally which i hope explains the drastic art style change#which may only seem drastic to me idk (can you tell i’m nervous posting this lol)#anyways uh something something OLD MAN YAOI !!#except neither of them are old#so i guess it’d just be…man yaoi#tsctir#the s classes that i raised#han yoojin#sung hyunjae#sctir#s classes that i raised#my s class hunters#jinjae#vaguely liverleaf because of crossover reasons#my art#CW BLOOD#JUST REALIZED I FORGOT TO TAG THAT I SINCERELY APOLOGIZE
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sun hasn’t even risen yet and I’m feeling so emotional about how Dan is living proof that growth takes time but is so worth it and sometimes you don’t work through the hard stuff until you’re well into adulthood bc just getting by took enough energy and you simply didnt have the tools yet and we now know that things got so dark for him and im sure the darkness will come again bc that’s how these things go but now he’s smiling with his crows feet and laugh lines and silly clothes bc now he can love his body enough to put it in silly outfits before going out into the world and he’s goofy and playful and in love and idk guys life can be so defeating and it sure was for him at times but here he is this gleaming imperfect beautiful example of work and growth and acceptance and self love
#love you Dan I’m sorry that I’m such a sap about Dan#but idk man it’s 15 yrs and he was just a boy and then he was just a scared mess#trying to keep everything under control#and now he doesn’t have to bc he’s safe in himself#and Liam’s dead and maybe that tangentially has something to do with how I’m feeling#bc man I’ve lost so many people to mental illness#and I know it’s so complicated and to use that broad stroke categorization to describe something so personal is simply wrong#but it’s also not all that complicated we just need to feel safe and worthy and loved and need to have enough space in our psyche for hope#enough space to imagine a tomorrow. and when you don’t have that it’s so hard to just keep on trudging through the mess. but it is worth it#and the fog clears#dan and phil#dan howell#me yapping
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I skip all Hiccstrid scenes in Rtte because buffstrid is not canon💔
#am i mentally ill?#maybe#but do I also possess the power to redraw Hiccstrid scenes with buffstrid#yes#I do#hiccup#Astrid#hiccup x astrid#biblically accurate hiccstrid#hiccstrid#buffstrid#httyd#Rtte#shit post#I wish I was joking#I’ve fried my brain to the point where I just cannot watch them#and if I’m being honest a lot of the Hiccstrid scenes are kind of hard to watch anyway😭#don’t get me wrong I absolutely love the ship#however#they make me kringe#yes kringe with a k#because the normal ‘cringe’ word is used too often and too negatively just to insult people having fun#So I’m using kringe and hoping it doesn’t already mean something extremely offensive#okay I googled it it’s fine#I am now dubbing ‘kringe’ to be a friendlier version of ‘cringe’ and only to be used in a situation where you are expressing your opinion -#-and not directly insulting someone else just because they’re a little different#what the fuck was I originally on about#oh yeah I kind of find canon Hiccstrid kringe#hot take mayhaps?#idk my opinion man🤗
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hi.
#i know most of you didn’t even realize i was gone#but man…#my mental health was like in a state of 📉📉📉 in the past 30 days like we love being mentally ill and fucking insane <3#it was mostly bc i panicked and started obsessing over possible water damage in my flat kind of out of nowhere#like it started when my landlord came to check my bathroom bc my downstairs neighbours had water stains on their ceiling back in july#which had been caused by their shower curtain apparently but i was already spiraling when my landlord told me so i was sure it was my fault#i was assuming it was bc of me bc i had sometimes been spilling some of my bathwater and i was like WHAT IF IT HAS GONE THROUGH THE FLOOR?#and it didn't help that it has been hot af and very humid in my apartment LIKE WELL OVER 25 DEGREES AND 60% HUMIDITY#anyways i couldn’t shake this not matter what i tried and my fucking insane brain made me think i was going to get arrested for like#flooding the whole building or for causing some sort of mold infestation#i had SO MANY panic attacks; i wasn't able to sleep; i wasn't able to eat; i was on edge and panicky basically 24/7 so fun fun fun :D#and i kept waking up in the middle of the night and HAD to go check my walls or the space below my kitchen#it was compulsory like i couldn't not get up and go check and tbh i would've thrown out all of my furniture if i could've to check for mold#(and shhhh i know how fucking insane this sounds but having a mentally ill brain that's anxious all the time does suck ass sometimes 🥲)#(the worst thing about it tho was that i was SO AWARE of how insane about this i was being and yet i couldn't stop losing my mind over it)#(also i was so ready to move tf outta here bc i couldn't handle being triggered 24/7 which is why my mom let me stay with her last week )#i was so out of it that i couldn't even let myself do the things i usually enjoy... like at all#like watching my shows or spending any ungodly amount of time on tumblr... or replying to messages i got from people who i love#ig this goes to show HOW bad this actually was for me mentally bc usually tumblr and my shows are like my safe place#anyways we finally had a leak detection dude come over today and we had him check the water levels in my walls#and he said everything is fine and he specifically told me i should stop worrying about any water damage BC THERE IS NO WATER DAMAGE#he also said that the weather has just been insanely humid this year so it's not surprising that the humidity levels are higher than usual#i’m still a bit scared about some possible mold but ig this is good enough for now#i am aware how ridiculous this must sound for anyone who's reading this now but couldn't let it go not even with meds so let me live pls :(#TLDR I WAS GOING THROUGH IT BUT I AM BACK I THINK AND I AM MOST LIKELY GOING TO START BOTHERING YOU WITH MY GIFS AGAIN <3#AND I JUST REALIZED I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ANY OF THE HEART KILLERS STUFF YET ASIDE FROM ONE OR TWO PICS LIKE :(#OH AND I NEED TO START WATCHING SUMMER NIGHT ;_;#sabrina talks#@AIRENYAH GIRL I AM SO SORRY I WILL PROBABLY REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES LATER TODAY OR TOMORROW MORNING ;_;<3
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“Lmao why are you fictionkin are you insane. Imagine thinking you’re a character irl what’s wrong with you” have you considered I can do whatever I want
#lemon man talks#Have you considered I didn’t choose to be fictionkin also#Not my fault! Hope that helps#And also there’s nothing wrong with it + it’s harmless + not your problem + I’m mentally ill + shut up#People try not to shame others for their identity impossible challenge#This is why I have so much trouble accepting myself and feel embarrassed about being things I don’t have control over#I would be crucified if my irl friends knew I’m fictionkin#I would be bullied to death dude#They accuse each other of being therian as a bullying thing like. Um I’m not therian but I don’t think that’s funny#Just a thought! Don’t shame people for their identity#All of those things you’re calling cringe and shaming are harmless and you’re being an asshole
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So in my long analysis post I briefly touched upon this cloaked figure that we see, and how we don’t know who they are.
Well, I was wondering about who this was, and I realize that none of the (current) villain’s outfits match this figure
Long story short: I am a little bit of a dumb dumb and did not realise we did actually see this outfit: the temple guards.
(Others have pointed this out, I’m just a little silly and slow, sorry y’all. I think the fact that the Temple guard minifig doesn’t look much like the canon thing threw me off a little?)
This probably isn’t anything new for most people because it wasn’t a hard thing to figure out, so this is moreso for me, but I’m still curious about the color palette of this character.
Up above I did a bunch of color splotches of Lloyd’s outfit in that night setting and how it would look in normal light. White becomes a sort of grey-blue, and the green becomes darker too. However, Lloyd’s skin is still clearly yellow. What ISN’T yellow is the outfit of the other person, which should be assumed if we were to think they are just a normal Temple Guard in the middle of the night. No, if this outfit was in daylight, it would very likely be some sort of purple. Not to mention that the dots, while green in daylight, appear to become red.
What do I think this means? …I’m not quite sure, but I kind of doubt this is just a normal Temple Guard gone bad. I think it’s much more likely that this is one of the bad guys trying to sneak into the Temple City (I’m pretty sure one of the leaked descriptions said something about a thief? I’m not sure.). As said, I’m assuming this clip is from the Feast episode, which would make sense: someone trying to steal something while everyone else is distracted at a big dinner is quite literally Basic Heist 101 (go read Six of Crows y’all). The fact that, whoever this is, put enough effort in to either make themselves Temple Guard armor, or steal some and I guess recolor it, means they were putting quite a lot of thought into this. Whoever they are, they’re being smart about their plan, and were almost 100% not expecting to fight with Lloyd.
#idk i just can’t think of it being someone from ras’ team??#in all honesty? i keep thinking jay.#the way the figure fights feels a little too effective against lloyd to me#and he would definitely not be expecting to have a fight against someone who’s trained as a ninja#(even if jay has amnesia i still like to think he knows how to fight)#((i’m sadly not mentally ill enough to go cross reference this with a jay fist-to-fist fight scene sorry y’all))#and those temple guards seem to mostly be trained with blaster things#the feast episode is ep 13. that would seem like a good time to introduce a new character#who can still be mysterious throughout the rest of the season while also getting revealed at some point.#i need to go to sleep i am so unwell about this shit man#ninjago#lego ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#dragons rising#ninjago dr#ninjago dr s2#ninjago spoilers#ninjago teaser#lloyd ninjago#ninjago lloyd#cablysis
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I can’t tell what’s funnier dennis being queer this whole time or glenn acting dennis Like That under the full assumption he seems straight
#that’s a fruity little man#he’s just so queer#beyond the meta and subtext like even just. his mannerisms#plus the venn diagram of queers and mentally ill ppl is a circle so atp if someone had a mental illness i’m dwayne johnson eyebrowing them#brought to you by a mentally ill queer who totally does not let their personal perspective skew their perception of the world#dennis reynolds#iasip#macdennis#charden#it’s always sunny#it’s always sunny in philadelphia
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Can I come over and do yard work while you sip a lemonade and gaze at me longingly
#art#digital art#my art#illustration#fallout new vegas#fallout#fallout yes man#fnv oc#fnv fanart#yes man fnv#fnv courier#oc x canon#I’m so fucking Ill MENTALLY#I sincerely apologize for so much zephman content recently.#I don’t even like these guys (lie)#text is from a silly meme :p#kelp
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a pocket Isaac. Just, a pocket Isaac. He could stump on flies and small insects and shoot down flys and mosquitos.
I wish I could complete hardcore mode on dead space 2 but good god I barely managed to finish it on normal. Perhaps one day I’ll get the foam finger. One day…
There’s like five people that love Isaac the same way I do I want to hear Your opinions on him. Why is he your favorite?
#dead space#dead space 2#isaac clarke#pocket version of the man I’m obsessed with.#i’m obsessed with him#i need him so bad#Can you tell I’m mentally ill?#tell me about your day#or him
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Okay I’m seeing a lot of “Stolas shouldn’t have sprung everything onto Blitzø all at once and he should’ve given Blitzø time to process” but 1. This talk was soooo long overdue that it’s better that Stolas was as clear as possible and got everything off of his chest because their communication has been pretty awful thus far and 2. Blitzø was kinda the one who started heavily insulting Stolas while following him down the hallway? I don’t blame Stolas for teleporting Blitzø out, they both were very hurt in the conversation and anything further said probably wasn’t going to help the situation at all. I just hate how the fandom has to make one or the other into the bad person in the relationship like???
#// it’s like these people don’t know relationships can be very messy#// especially between two people dealing with a lot of mental instability#// which is a whole other rant#// where people bring up how Blitzø is mentally unwell whilst forgetting that Stolas isn’t that much better#// mans has clinical depression and is an abuse survivor#// like can we not compare people’s illnesses and experiences pls#// hell they aren’t even real but I feel like people do this with real people too and it makes me so mad#// btw I keep forgetting this whole interaction happened while Stolas was off his happy pills#// I’m literally in pain#helluva boss spoilers#full moon spoilers#stolitz#spoilers#shut up marv#antis dni
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GHOVIE SPOILERS BELOW CUT
hey. Hey guys .
Ghost . Hey guys i recreated that one scene pretty much but its frater imperator and I’m actually truly not that good at art (I love frater . Help mee.)
#save me white boy#save me rat man#save meeee#ghovie#i’m so mentally ill#rite here right now spoilers#ghost bc#rite here rite now#ghovie spoilers#ghost band#ghost bc fanart#ghost band fanart#the band ghost#copia emeritus#copia ghost#copia#frater imperator
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Cellbit who places flowers by his sons empty bed and wonders why he works for the federation if he can’t use it to his advantage, if all he does is end up alone. Who could barely handle when him and Roier were fighting, who was so grateful when Foolish would stick around to build for him when he was making himself public enemy to gain favor with the feds. Who pleads with Forever, who is so very clearly out of his mind, begging him not to leave him alone, not like this, not now of all times.
Cellbit who is keeping himself as calm and as balanced as he can, because he knows what it’s like to lose yourself, and he knows how isolating it can be. Who’s there for every one of the islanders even if it’s spreading him far too thin, backpack bursting with notes and photos and evidence with all the problems he’s relied on to help solve. Who’s building the Order to make sure that no matter where their allegiances lay, no one on the island will have to deal with the federation on their own. So they’ll have a place they can come together and rely on each other.
Cellbit who just doesn’t want to end up alone. Not again. Not anymore.
#today and yesterday is a combo that has knocked me the fuck out man#placing that flower at Richas bedside song of healing in the bg as he’s like why must i always end up alone where is my son#his voice cracking as he begs and pleads with forever to get through to him desperate because he can’t just leave him alone. not now of#all times. not with the stakes so high#who likes when people stay around him while he’s building. who seeks out interactions. who purposefully seeks#to create community between them#also the egg bears worth mentioning too like. finding that room and an egg who was abandoned and died alone#always remembering it. fuck man#I’m just. I’m so fucking upset dude#sorry guys I’m mentally ill abt him and etoiles and I won’t shut up about them <3#mcyt#qsmp#Cellbit#q!cellbit#z speaks
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Back on my pre-war Nick and Jen brainrot
#doctorsiren#fallout#fallout 4#fallout 4 headcanons#nick valentine#jennifer lands#prewar nick valentine#i forgot what tag I use for him rip#I watched See How They Run last night and Constable Stalker was SO MUCH like how I envision Jenny#and so now I’m leaning towards Jen being an investigative reporter for the Bugle#kind of like Mary Jane in the Spider-Man PS4 game#I’m so mentally ill about them#fallout 4 fanart#art#digital art#my art#fanart#procreate
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When the girls say to treat yourself, they mean treat yourself.
#To whoever said to buy things that you fictional others or comforter characters wear or own: I am wishing nothing but the best things#I hope both sides of your pillow are cold#I hope every stray animal you meet comes up to ask you for love and affection#I hope you have eternal and endless happiness#Because GOD I needed this#Like you have no idea how rewarding it is and how good it feels#My holiday present#From me to me#I’m obsessed with him something serious#Like I am not okay#I BOUGHT CAULT EDITION MW3#DOES IT LOOK LIKE I’M OKAY?#I BOUGHT THE YOUTOOZ TOO#I’m so mentally ill for this man it’s actually unreal#He’s perfect in every way#John price x reader#captain price x reader#captain john price x reader#price x reader#John price#captain price#Captain John price#price
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it’s like. i love being trans. and also if there was a loving god he wouldn’t do this to me
#usually my mental illness is emotional Nothingness. when i take wellbutrin i can feel again!#and when the wellbutrin loses efficacy i keep the feeling but lose the good ones so i just unlock Regular Depression. which fucking Sucks#and a couple weeks ago i ran out of t gel and it is a controlled substance so they wouldn’t give me my refill until the full 60 days were up#which meant i had to be off t for like a week. and i was so so hopeful that it wouldn’t do anything to me.#but it restarted my cycle so i’m bleeding rn. and it is so fucking awful#it Hurts and it feels Humiliating and Wrong#cramps and stomach issues And dysphoria and bleeding. nothing more evil to do to me right now#and it’s worse cause i was done with that. i literally GOT RID OF IT. I PUT THE WORK IN. I WAS FREE.#but i couldn’t have my medicine and now i no longer control my own body. horrifying. so horrifying#wore a kind of ill fitting binder today too and it kickstarted Other dysphoria on the drive home so. messed up rn.#i just want to be able to live my life man. i want to have a body that looks and functions like me#and can feel things and do things#and doesn’t subject me to hurt in multiple multiple ways. that would be really cool.#genuinely it does not fucking matter if god loves me. cause if this is what i go through when he loves me#then i don’t want his fucking love.#i hope god kills himself actually#i want to wake up and just be able to put a shirt on and leave the house. can you imagine a fucking world#gonna try nd sleep for like five minutes and then go to dinner with my mom. i can be okay. i can be stronger than my struggles#i just need to be really fucking angry with god.#great time to be reading paradise lost#valentine notes
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