#I’m losing my mind im losing my mind im losing it

[aimfor-theheart]

can't stop thinking about vi being around you in a mini skirt, how her eyes would be so focused on your thighs, and how the hem of your skirt is hiked up a bit higher, teasing her with the imagination of what's underneath and i'm screaming at the wall—

it’s making me feel crazy….got hit like a bolt of lightning with this idea + ex girlfriend!vi who you’re out with with your mutual group of friends. you all go out to some bar and. she’s feeling TORMENTED by the little skirt like she thinks you are certainly out to punish her. she has to play nice and civil as you drink and dance or play pool….bent over the table to take your shot..,.,

and then she catches a glimpse of the panties you’ve got on underneath and they’re a pair she gave you..,.,,,….

[girl-lostconnection]

YESSS I SO AGREE!! omggggg she’s such a productive queen. and after she finishes her trilogy, mailing a signed copy to her man, duh, she’s already working on her fourth. but this one is a standalone, i think. “the diaries of the soldier’s lover,” she titles this one. and she writes about how simon essentially saved her from losing her mind in year 10 and how she wishes she could be like a little angel on his shoulder, following him always. she names herself his guardian angel and thanks him deeply for the love that he has helped to grow, like a rose blooming with no thorns.

and she mails him a copy of this, too. and i like to think that for her first trilogy (some fantasy story she conjured) she used a pseudonym. but this one has her name written all over it. because she’s just so proud of him!! and she’s signed his copy, with big frilly letters and a heartwarming message.

price is like, “damn, simon, gettin’ a lot of mail lately, aye?” whenever simon comes to get his weekly mail from price’s office, and simon is too choked up to even say anything. did a tear just stain the page? no, surely it’s raining in here. or the ceiling is leaking! surely.

he reads this book like his gospel, and he’s sure that with this one, the book that he inspired, she’s touched the hearts of many wives out there. his wife is a famous author. all things that will be true within due time.

he writes her a letter, a simple diamond ring tapped haphazardly inside the envelope. “does it count if i ask you to marry me through parcel?” he writes, messy scrawl and silly little arrows and correction markings.

she cries, too. and yes, of course it counts, you oaf. she wears that ring everywhere. her husband is a lieutenant, she finds out in his next letter. he is a leader. and a damn good one.

she wears this ring even after price has shown up at her door, metal necklaces dangling from his fingers and his boonie hat long forgotten — his head bowed in shame.

AGHHGGHHH this au is eating at my brain and im not even mad i dont even caaaaare, they’re so precious and broken and they fit together. and im so sorry for the angst it just kinda happened…… 😣

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NO YOU DIDNT. NO ANON HOW COULD YOU, YOU KILLED SIMON OMG.

In all seriousness that’s a damn good idea, anon, you should actually write it out, it’s sweet and it sounds really nice and it’s so so warm.

God, I almost cried on the part with him typing in a ring and asking her hand in marriage, god, of course Reader would marry him, how could she not. God, actually, step aside Reader I’m gonna marry this man. Oh my god.

And Price showing at her doorstep with Simon’s dogtags because it’s not the first soldier he’s buried but damn, if this wasn’t a special one. And I’d imagine your Reader wearing his dogtags until the day she dies, talking about him like he’s still alive.

She’d probably say things along the lines of “Yeah, my husband is really proud of this one, thank you so much” or “Yeah, I’m sorry, I’m not available. I’m married” and people always get a little worried when they find out Simon is no longer alive.

Because she keeps on living and she still talks about him like he’s there. And maybe for her he really is. Maybe that’s the way she keeps herself tethered to reality, joining the support club and writing another book — talking to the spouses of other military personnel through them. Sharing their pain, extending her hand through the pages and kind of saying “hey, I feel it too. I know your pain. You aren’t alone. I’m here”.

And she never judges other spouses for their ways of coping because hey, she gets that. She knows how it feels to choke on tears when the love of your life is lowered into the ground.

She knows how it feels to write to someone who can never answer, she knows how it feels to turn to talk to someone who’s not there anymore, how it feels to forget sometimes that hey, he’s dead.

Someone once wrote that when their spouse died they felt so shocked and overwhelmed that their first subconscious instinct was to call the said spouse and share news with them. Their first instinct was to go for comfort to the person they lost.

That’s how (i think) your Reader would feel in lieu of Simon’s death.

Luckily for the rest of you, who aren’t me and strawberry anon, im not gonna kill Simon. I have fragile heart, I wouldn’t do that to you, guys *pats your backs* death is too finite for me.

And I like to get real creative with suffering (damn that sounded ominous)

[cherrydiner]

characters who seem kind of lame at first but are actually fucking crazy >>>>

[leafatlaw]

Nimona (2023) really said protect trans youth, fuck the police, and question all authority. And it was the best movie of the year

[sstarfruitz]

Tried to draw in a way that’s more fun for me, lmk what you guys think!!

[devilandacat]

ARE YOU SEEING THIS??? I NEED MORE OF THIS SHIT IN MY LIFE.

[jaylaxies]

i need him in ways that are concerning to humanity i fear

[dxmianwaynesstuff]

jayce and viktor.

on love and betrayal.

[ a history of my brief body — billy-ray belcourt | last days of judas iscariot — stephen adly guirgis | @/orpheuslament | last days of judas iscariot — stephen adly guirgis | the looking glass war — john le carré | matthew 26:50 ]

[love2much]

i’m so scared for the new year, i’m so scared for next month, im so scared for next week, im so scared for tomorrow i just want everything to stop for a while

[cupids-fiction]

she henry on my winter till i bacchanal

[lurkinglilyrice]

Humbling moment during dark rise reread #1: (don’t even know if I will continue this, just felt like numbering it)

Katherine: “‘Cousin’?” she whispered, once the shopkeeper had gone. “We don’t look a thing alike!”

Will: “I wasn’t sure I could pass as your brother.”

WHEN I TELL YOU MY MOUTH DROPPED

[prayingfordemise]

FUCK THIS PLACE, FUCK EVERYTHING, FUCK EVERYONE, I HATE EVERYTHING. I JUST WANT TO FUCKING DIE OMG

[crystallizsch]

*screaming*

[blue-boxes-magic-and-tea]

reading lockwood and co (especially the first two books) i’m like wow lockwood so in love lucy so in love that’s crazy

but waTCHING IT???? seeing the way their eyes linger on each others????? seeing the way everyone immediately clocks them????? the way they can’t stop yearning for the other???? seeing his tiny smile that’s just for her???? HOW HE LEANS INTO HER?????? THE AMOUNT OF VALUE AND RESPECT HE HAS FOR HER???????

[festering-bacteria]

Confucius in my regular style + some other doodles

ALSO THE NEW EPISODES BROUGHT ME SO MUCH ANGUISH OH MY GODDD

[girlblogger222yara]

Abusing substances everyday to avoid your thoughts is a vibe