#I’m just venting but I’m still hurt over this

[angelwings-crossbowstrings]

It Took the Death of Hope to Let You Go

Pairing: Past Daryl Dixon x Fem!Reader

Setting: 6 Year Gap

Warnings: Mentions of supposed character death. Angst. No happy ending.

Summary: Daryl thinks of you and what he left behind.

A/N: Nothing but vent writing. I’m sorry.

gif by @jaaryl

He knew you wouldn’t understand the moment he walked away from that burning bridge. He hadn’t come to find you, had left without a word and disappeared into the forest. He could lie and say he never considered your feelings, but the truth was that you were the only person on his mind when he left.

It was the guilt that drove him to make the decision. He had fought with Rick before the bridge. Maybe if they hadn’t ended up in that hole, wasting precious time when a herd was moving in, maybe—just maybe—he wouldn’t have been searching for his brother’s body at that very moment.

He always wondered what you were doing, how you were doing. You hadn’t come to find him, hadn’t sent word through Carol during her visits. She wouldn’t speak of you.

“Come home and ask her, Daryl.”

It was always the same answer. Now, the guilt of leaving you behind far outweighed the guilt that dragged him away to begin with. He had lost you to a stupid, selfish quest and he knew that. If he went home now, what would he find? How would you react?

No, he couldn’t bear it; not the hurt in your eyes or the anger in your voice. So in the forest he would stay, following his map and continuing his search. It was all he could do to avoid the visions of you, brokenhearted and waiting to either accept him or turn him away.

If you still cared, he’d likely never know.

Maybe you would move on. Maybe you already had. He hoped that for you, even prayed for it; prayed to a god he didn’t believe in that someone could mend the heart he had shattered. You deserved it. You deserved all the good in the world, the best.

And the best wasn’t him.

He wasn’t worthy of you.

After all, he had favored guilt over love.

He had sold you out to save himself.

[callmenaex3]

After the last, well, one and only nigga I let in did me dirty I can’t help but to be cautious around men. When I say this man intentionally tried to impregnate me the entire relationship after I repeatedly told him I never want children. Only for him to make up an imaginary ass child that never existed in his head that I was “lying about.” My whole immediate family, my ex and friends all fell out w/ me b/c they all swore I was lying. Mind you this is over 3 years ago and I still don’t trust any of the people involved in that whole situation. I think that is also why I don’t like people in my business, because ain’t no way they wanted to watch me take a pregnancy test in front of them to prove I wasn’t lying. Oh and they didn’t stop there 😂 they went onto say I had an abortion, again something I never had, since the tests all came back negative. So I apologize in advance if I come off mean af. I clearly was too nice that people thought they could try me like that. I never got one apology from any of them either. They all act like I didn’t stop talking to everyone for 2+ years and try to randomly talk to me like I forgot… all I ever wanted was an apology

[crybaby-bkg]

would I be stoned if I wrote my first tengen fic and I killed all his wives 😔

[mayday505]

This may be controversial but I Genuinely wish people would stop being all arrogant and patronising Abt organ donation.

Like people talking abt organ donation to me is the equivalent of those virtue signalling posts on tiktok that’s like “if you don’t do this you’re a shit human being and don’t deserve genuine love or care” cuz yeah organ donation is important but so is respecting people’s wishes who don’t feel comfortable doing it. For example if your religion doesn’t allow it. Me personally I’m not opposed to organ donation but I don’t want to sign up (I live in a country where I’m automatically assumed an organ donor unless I opt out anyways) because I have such bad anxiety if I think about it I will have a panic attack. And I struggle rlly bad w intrusive thoughts and one occurring one is Abt having my organs removed so I just hate thinking about it bc it’s genuinely really distressing for me. Like the thought of having my organs taken is just so panic inducing and awful for me to think about because it reminds me of how I’m going to die one day and I’m actually terrified of that so xxxxx and whenever I try to explain this to people when I say I’m not an organ donor (haven’t got a card that u get when u sign up) it’s like “WHY NOT??!?!?!?” “YOULL BE DEAD YOU WONT NEED THEM!!!” “WHY ARE YOU SUCH A SHIT PERSON DO YOU NOT CARE ABOUT OTHERS IN NEED????” Like no. Just let me explain for two secs and stop being an asshole !!! I just think that it’s stupid cuz I think that even if it’s not for religious reasons we should still respect the wishes of the dead. If I say I don’t want to donate I don’t want to and I have a valid reason and that should be respected. I get that organ donation is struggling bc of aging population but you don’t have to make me feel guilty about my genuine fears and anxieties because you want to make yourself look better. Cuz these people don’t care they just wanna make themselves seem better than you most of the time. And they just scream at you and it’s really upsetting.

[sherbetyy]

hey i’m kinda going crazy it’s 5:30 AM i’ve barely slept at all but everytime i try to go to sleep i have this repetitive fever dream that doesn’t make any sense over and over, a 3 second long part of a song that plays every second in my head im not kidding. i can barely swallow and when i do it hurts my throat. everytime i breathe its freezing cold and hurts my throat also. this headache will not go away as well im actually so upset rn and i have no idea why im sharing this on here. probably cause nobody in my house is awake and i need human interaction because nothing feels real

[seilon]

shouldn’t have checked my bank account as expected my mother has taken thousands more dollars from my savings and has almost run me dry more or less. Cool!

[angelstrawbabie420]

felt

[monstrousmaws]

I’m done negative posting abt the reboot and if I hurt anyone’s feelings I’m deeply sorry. I probably shouldn’t have maintagged my frustrations and kept them among Mutuals. I have a deep love and adoration for Fraggle Rock, so seeing things that I liked get changed makes me frustrated and sad. I don’t hate anyone who likes those changes, and I wish I could like them too. I just have a devotion to older versions of shows, Fraggle Rock being one of them. I may have gotten blocked by someone I admire over my constant negativity, and I don’t blame them. (Not naming names and admittedly I don’t know exactly why I got blocked but this is my best guess)

yeah I guess this is just an apology for constantly complaining about something in the main tag where people who liked the thing could see it and feels attacked. I genuinely didn’t mean any harm, but I understand my posts were shitty.

[a-small-writer-in-a-big-world]

I want to for once not feel fucking pain

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Perverse intrusive thoughts manifesting themselves in dreams is the actual worst.

[jocelynships]

Lmao I’m having a night and I’m over it all 🥲

[crybaby-bkg]

my old therapist who hasn’t spoken to me in almost a year (and even months before that I was getting spotty responses from him) keeps hinting around how hurt he is that I found a new therapist and that I need his old documents about me for someone new lmao. how funny is that when you’d be in the grocery store during my calls and ignore my last message asking for an appt and discuss my issues with another family member despite it being confidential 🙃 EAT MY DICK

[toomuchdickfort]

Vent abt smth that gets on my Nerves

[madigoround]

Some days it feels like I am just desperately trying to find reasons to live so I don’t jump off a bridge and it’s hardly even working

Edit: I have spent some very necessary kitten cuddle time and received some very sweet messages from people and I am feeling more sane, definitely recommend nice people and cats lol

[bongkillua]

DEEP BREATH oh it is one of those days

[faggatini]

maybe ther is a problem