#I’m just really picky and it takes a lot of energy to make food some days so I’ve never been good at eating enough

[sunnibits]

love comes in the form of my family effortlessly making food accommodations for me btw. if you even care.

[revelboo]

You are honestly my fav transformer writer because i ALWAYS read all of your fics!! Not to mention, how fast you are at writing and eachs?? Thats crazy and awesome!! 😭

(Wonder if you ever take some break whenever you write a fic. Dont push yourself too hard tho!!)

Thank you! I’m actually taking a break from serious writing to do these because I got a bit burnt out. And I missed writing silly TF drama

Stop Talking Pt 3

Skywarp x Reader

• “You can’t really be that stupid,” you say and his optics narrow. “Do I look like a goat to you?” Gesturing angrily at the food he’d provided, before crossing your arms across your chest and scowling up at him. Like he’s the one being difficult. “That’s an azalea bush. I can’t eat that.” It’s a plant. Humans can eat plants, so he’s not sure what your problem is. But the angrier you get, the more it strings him tight. Tempting him to double down to see how angry you get. Because there’s something scandalously enticing about your temper that goes straight through him.

• And he’s just frowning down at you, slowly crossing his own arms to mimic you in challenge. “I’m sorry. I didn’t know you needed a special diet,” he growls, leaning into your space. Like not wanting to eat a bush is being picky. Because he really is that stupid apparently. Shaking your head, you stalk off. “Where are you going?” He snarls, a hand landing on the desk to make you flinch. Turning to glare up at him as he looms over you.

• “Oh, I’m sorry. Lord Skywarp, may I please be excused?” Frag, why does your insolent sneer make his spark heat? Make him ache and want wholly inappropriate things? Like bending you over and fragging you until you can’t move, let alone muster the energy to be snarky. What is wrong with him? “Sorry I hurt your delicate ego.”

• That look on his face right then. Furious and promising retribution, it shouldn’t be as much fun as it is to provoke him. To goad him just to see how far you can push him. “Maybe you should make it up to me, then,” he growls. Rolling your eyes, you tense as he hooks a servo around your middle and drags you back to him. And the way he’s looking at you now, it’s not angry. It’s predatory and completely different, leaving you oddly breathless with anticipation. That look is dangerous.

• “Oh, yeah?” You challenge and his wings flare slightly. A low growl escaping him. There’s a lot more of you on display than Star’s human. Wearing just those skimpy coverings when he’d taken you. But now he’s wondering what’s under those. “Not happening, buddy,” you say, tone sweet and mocking. And he grins. Because you have no idea how persistent he can be when he wants something and right now? He knows exactly what he wants.

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[cruel-as-sin]

get to know your mutuals

thank you so much @flowersforbucky for tagging me!

what’s the origin of your blog title? it’s two of my favorite taylor swift songs put together! cruel summer (my all time favorite song ever) + guilty as sin? (one of my favs from ttpd) = cruel-as-sin aka cas!

favorite fandoms? i only write for x-men right now but some of my other fandoms include star wars, marvel, critical role, six of crows/shadow and bone, genshin impact (don’t look at me), once upon a time, anything hugh jackman is in, and taylor swift!

favorite color? blue! specifically a darker blue but im not picky

favorite game? on the basis of it being top tier i have to say minecraft, but also- jedi fallen order and jedi survivor, starfield, skyrim, genshin impact, and a way out

song stuck in your head? disease by lady gaga

weirdest habit/trait? i talk too much. get me going and i will not stop. i talk to myself all the time too

hobbies? writing of course, reading when i find the energy (which is not often), video games!! dnd (as a player and a dm), tv and movies, music, editing, and i’ve been trying to get into some more artsy stuff lately as well

if you work, what’s your profession? i’m a full time college student majoring in creative writing- but on breaks, i work as an office assistant at a university

if you could have any job, what would it be? a fantasy author! (shocking i know)

something you’re good at? supporting others- i try really hard to be there for the people i care about. buying them treats to make them feel better, seeking out videos that i think will make them smile, being a shoulder to cry on, taking care of tasks for them, etc

something you’re bad at? anything requiring physical strength/exertion. you’ve got the wrong guy

something you love? the beauty of life. making someone smile, laughter, babies/newborn animals, watching different species connect with one another, nature, gently falling snow… i could go on

something you could talk about for hours? anything, and i mean anything. i am a serial yapper and everyone who knows me is a victim of this. please ask about my life i will never shut up about anything

something you hate? oh god so many things. i mean the obvious in todays society but more specific to me, people who are insincere. if you’re a hater just say that, don’t be fucking fake about it, don’t act like someone you’re not. pisses me off fr. oh and also loud people. i’m talking like no respect for others, banging on doors for shits and giggles, yelling and screaming while throwing parties, blasting music… all that stuff. that loud ass car won’t make your dick any bigger

something you collect? mementos! ticket stubs, receipts, little drawings, notes my friends and i passed back and forth during class, cards, letters, etc :)

what’s your love language? big fan of all of them but quality time is my number one

favorite movie/show? logan is my fav x-men movie but x1 is my comfort film for sure, tv show would probably be the mandalorian

favorite food? pasta is my go to, but i go CRAZY for some chicken and rice

favorite animal? cats :3

are you musical? yes! i’ve played guitar and ukulele for a few years now, and i also sing!

what were you like as a child? autistic. and no i am not exaggerating.. i spent a lot of time playing by myself as opposed to with others, had very few friends, and got bullied for seemingly no reason bc i was the weird kid 😭

favorite subject in school? english (no surprises here)

least favorite subject in school? math. no question

what’s your best character trait? loyalty. i am ride or die for the people i care about and i will go to WAR to defend them

worst character trait? i’m a chronic procrastinator… like, it’s BAD y’all. i’ve vowed to never have planned release dates for my chapters/fics for this exact reason

if you could time travel, who would you like to meet? david bowie! absolute icon

no pressure tags: @logansbaby @dilfverines @wlwloverwrites @thinkinonsense and anyone else who wants to join in!

[justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms]

Hey, you can call me Brook! I was wondering if I could get a match up for a couple fandoms?

I’d like Haikyuu, My Hero, Demon Slayer, Genshin Impact, Honkai Star Rail, and Obey me!

If these are too many, feel free to just pick a few out of them! I would really like one of them to be haikyuu though.

Pronouns: She/Her

Sexuality: Pan/Demi

Zodiac: Aquarius

MBTI: INTP

Appearance: 5’9”, chubby thighs and belly, hazel eyes, shoulder length brown hair (with blonde streaks), glasses

Personality: I’m pretty quiet. I am however very sarcastic and even witty. I keep to myself normally. I tend to stay out of people's business, and people stay out of mine (i prefer to observe). I’m a true neutral on just about everything. I like things to be calm most times, but a bit of chaos is definitely needed. I get bored quickly and need something happening around me constantly, just simple things like a show or music in the background. I don’t listen to most people, i like to do things my own way. i’m very stubborn. i’m very cold to people i don’t really know or like, once i open up though you discover my sense of humour and my general clinginess to the people i actually like (which is very few people).

Likes: Volleyball, badminton, sketching, anime, video games, the color purple, heated blankets, sweet foods and salty foods (never together), cats, the smell of vanilla, cold weather, the nighttime, napping in the day, when you go to bed for the night, music, candles, mangas, baking, the stars, space, snow days, science classes

Dislikes: Spicy foods, being told what to do, super hot weather, being woken up, homework, having to actually do things, cooking

Extras: Resting Bitch Face. looks like they could kill you, is a cinnamon roll. my love languages are quality time and words of affection. im a picky eater. i love to complain.

If you aren't taking matchups right now, thats fine! Just ignore this!

Hi Brook! Thank you for your request! Sorry it took so long. This is more than I usually do but I don't have a limit to how many matchups you can request so you're all good! I hope you like your matchups!

In Haikyuu, I match you with...

Nishinoya loves your quietly sarcastic personality. You make a good balance of loud and quiet but people know not to do anything that gets the two of you to gang up on them. You’re both equally sassy.

He appreciates that you’re there for him. He doesn’t really talk about important things a lot but when he feels the need, he’s glad you’re there for him, even if you're not a good listner.

Please play volleyball with him! He would love getting to share his biggest passion with the person he cares about.

Also loves sharing naps with you. I see Nishinoya as someone who has short naps through the day when he gets a quiet moment. It’s how he gets his seemingly unending energy. And he always sleeps best when you’re with him.

Star gazing dates! He doesn’t know much about the stars but he’s willing to learn. He knows a few good spots around town that have a nice view of the sky.

In My Hero Academia, I match you with...

Oh, the quiet, sarcastic duo you and Shinsou would be. No one stands a chance against you two.

Nap buddies! Some of Shinsou’s favourite moments are when the two of you are laying together, both on the verge of sleep and he gets to look over at your relaxed face. He feels honoured that you’re so comfortable around him.

I see his love language as quality time as well so you can be sure you’ll spend a lot of time together. Sometimes that time comes in the form of talking or doing things together. Other times, it’s just enjoying the silence together.

Please take him to a cat cafe. You’ll both have the time of your lives and become regulars there. The staff know your orders off by heart at this point.

I think Shinsou would be surprisingly good at cooking so he doesn't mind taking on that role in your relationship. He knows you don’t like things too spicy and will tailor any dishes to your tastes.

In Demon Slayer, I match you with...

Another quiet one. Giyu is so glad you’re in his life. He already has to deal with the other Hashira and the kids. He doesn’t need another loud person.

Enjoys spending quality time with you. He doesn’t get a lot of free time with his work but when he does get a day off, he wants to spend it with you.

Giyu does find your stubborn streak annoying at times. He’s got to know that telling you what to do doesn’t work so instead, he’ll suggest things when he thinks he needs to. Otherwise, he lets you do what you want. You’re capable of being responsible for yourself and he recognises that.

As strange as this is going to sound, he likes that you like the same smells. I see Giyu as someone who likes gentle scents like vanilla so he wouldn’t mind getting some incense sticks to place around the house.

Please bake things for him, especially if he’s going away on a mission for a while. He’d smile to see your cooking wrapped up in his bag for him to enjoy.

In Genshin Impact, I match you with...

Another nap buddy! Layla’s sleeping habits only get worse when encouraged by your napping.

Appreciates that you stay out of people's business. She’s not a super nosey person herself so she’s glad you’re the same in that regard.

Layla enjoys watching your sketch things, she finds it relaxing watching the drawing unfold before her eyes.

If you ever draw her or give her one of your drawings, she’s going to pin it up on her wall so she can see it every day. It gives her motivation. You worked hard to make that, she can work hard as well.

With her cryo powers, you won’t have to worry about hot weather. If it’s getting too warm, she’ll just drop the temperature around you for some respite.

In Honkai Star Rail, I match you with...

March is without a doubt the most outgoing person in this list. She’s the one to draw you out of your shell and bring out the best in you.

Really good with words of affection and quality time. She just somehow always knows what to say and will always make time for you.

If there’s something in your meal you don’t like, March is more than happy to eat it instead. She’s not picky about her food so she’ll eat pretty much anything you don’t want to.

There are definitely going to be stargazing dates with March. The Astral Express is one of the best places to see the stars but she likes looking at the sky on each new planet with you as well.

Definitely not someone to tell you what to do. March usually does her own thing as well, so even if she did want to tell you to do something, she’d feel like a hypocrite doing it.

In Obey Me, I match you with...

The ultimate nap buddy. You thought Shinsou and Layla were the perfect companions for a nap? Nope, Belphie takes that title.

You’re going to bond mainly over napping and your shared love of going to bed. But you have other similarities as well.

People know not to get on either of your bad sides. You’re very observant and they know what a power couple you are when you gang up on a shared enemy.

Dates in the observatory, looking at the stars. Belphie spends a lot of time there so he knows a bit about the sky. He’ll also keep track of meteor showers so he can take you to a lookout to watch them together.

He’s not great with words of affection but he’s good with quality time. Even if you’re both asleep, Belphie feels your presence and the warmth of being with someone he cares about.

[unhingedkinfessions]

Day #1 of sending daily kinfessions to @unhingedkinfessions as if they were my diary until they get tired of me

Date: Tuesday, February 6th, 2024

Theme of today's kinfession: Am i Matt Murdock?

Dear diary @unhingedkinfessions

I've been thinking that i might be Matt Murdock, having strong kin feels and some stuff that might be memories, i've also been watching Daredevil (of course), but honestly I still don't understand how the process of kinsidering has to be? I usually just go ahead and go crazy and just kinfirm straight ahead the characters i slightly feel like they fit, sometimes I'll do some pendulum questions but, do i have to do something else? I honestly don't know, i want to be serious with this one kin, i don't know why. I've also been thinking of re-kinsidering all of my fictotypes, doing some more thinking and doing it "properly". I've had past kins that were strong, some of them have changed over time, some i found other words to describe them, i also want to make a lot of soul searching (i don't even know how that's done but whatever, i'll find out). Anyways, that's all for today i think, have a nice day mods and wish me luck because my kinlist is lowkey long.

Sincerely: daily anon

Questions of the day for the mods (so they don't get tired of me for now)

Do you guys like mac&cheese? How much cheese could you add to the mac&cheese?

How much ranch is the correct ranch for a veggie salad?

hi daily anon. love the energy from this ask. idk kinsidering is extremely personal sometimes u just Know and sometimes it just has to cook in the oven for a while yk? it happens. also i love mac&cheese. havent made it in a while but honestly i love putting Way too much cheese on stuff so. A Lot. also i hate vegetables i wouldnt know abt salads -mod joker

hey daily anon. youve already failed cause this is a few days old at this point with no follow up. i make mac basically daily at this point theres more cheese in my body than blood. the correct question is how much cheese *can* you possibly fit in there. a fucking looney tunes amount. a downright roger rabbit amount. just keep it consistent and season well. none of that kraft shit. also veggie salad is something i havent had but probably the amount youd put on a normal salad yeah -mod dave

hi daily anon :) i love maccy chease. usually i just have like prepackaged or box made kind unless i'm getting it from somewhere but on the occasion i make it myself, ideally it's as much cheese as possible. and as many kinds. also baked maccy cheese is the best. put breadcrumbs and bacon and even more cheese on that bitch and pop it in the oven? soo good. also i dont eat ranch or any kind of salad dressing so none. -mod bender

this ask rules ok? and yea i get wanting to like . reconsider. i did that sorta recently, it takes a little thinking and reflecting but in the end it did feel nice to have a list of like, yeah, i Know that’s me and i didn’t force the vibes or say it halfheartedly etc this time. also you want so much cheese but you have to pick well . can’t 100% mozzarella it or something, you need a blend for good flavor and meltability. also i dont like ranch so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ —mod pikmin

hi anon, this ask is so cool. the others already covered it but i personally think that there’s no “proper” way to kin and it varies person to person :3 just do whatever feels right to you! sometimes you just know right away you kin and other times it takes the stars aligning in one really specific way to unlock the kin. as for the questions: i’m unfortunately a super picky eater so there’s not a lot of variety in foods i can handle </3 i don’t like salads generally and unless the mac is made in one really specific way chances are i won’t like it. - mod akechi

hey anon you left your grilled cheese on the stove it's burnt to hell and back please for the love of god come back and get it. anyways that's so real and it can definitely feel weird "losing connection" to certain kins or even realizing some weren't really true kin but it's ok. keep on cheesin. - mod navi

[dinitaputri]

on people and competition

It was Ramadan last month, a time where people used to get together, a time for connecting, reconnecting, and celebration. And all of that involves people, lots of people.

I didn’t attend any of the Ramadan event this year, not even one. Last year I think I attended one or two. Aside from the conflicting schedule, i also didn’t make time for it, and perhaps I just don’t feel like it.

Since December 2022, I had two/three reunion invitations to which I didn’t attend as well. Same reason, conflicting schedule, but also because perhaps I just don’t try that hard to make the schedule work.

These past few months I’ve been spending a lot of time in my apartment. I don’t meet a lot of people, I don’t ask people to meet as much. I can even stay inside my apartment for four days straight - not even stepping out an inch from my apartment door.

Is it bad? I don’t know.

I feel like it’s the thing that I wanted to do now. Maybe I am in need of a downtime, or maybe I’m just lazy to making conversations. 

Am I depressed? I don’t know, and I am not finding it out. Cos I’m still OK. It’s not that I don’t want to meet people or talk to them. It’s just my energy is very limited right now and I need to be careful in emanating it and giving it away; so I’ve been very picky in meeting people.

There are people who needs my energy - whether I wanted to give it or not - like, you know, family. And family takes a lot of freakin’ energy. Mentally and physically. So I conserved myself for that rather than scrambling it away to random events and people.

Things at work have also been draining since early this year. There are changes in the people, and I need some time to navigate and immersed in the vibes and dynamic of the people. It wasn’t easy. There were times where I don’t feel like showing my face at all in calls, or when I have to force myself to smile in meetings - even one with the people that I’ve been calling work-family. It’s strange. But I’m trying to hold on. Keep my head down and just do the work.

The past week I was in a series of meetings with colleagues, wonderful colleagues and friends from work. It was nice, they are a super nice bunch, and I feel like I don’t have to pretend that I am someone else. They understand my jokes, my sarcasm, they’re smart, the conversation that I had with each and one of them are all interesting and fruitful. And I had tons of warm hugs too.

However, since I’ve been conserving myself for a while, giving a lot of my energy constantly in the past week have been exhausting. Mid-week, I was so tired physically that I found it so hard for me to eat (and fyi, the food that they served is really really good). I couldn’t even find the energy to chew, to enjoy the food. I ate just to survive. And that’s when I know that this is bad.. this is bad, man.

I think, part of it is because there was this mix of high adrenaline and joy - of meeting people, of connecting, which we don’t often get the chance to - but also it is hard to absorb and navigate the different energies around the room! Especially when you have those who takes up a lot of space. Do you know what I mean? Those who always wanted to be seen and take presence as a competition, and oftentimes not in a nice way. These are the ones that exhaust me. And as the days gone by, I can see the subtle competition, the competitive people trying to make the most of the time - by taking up spaces.

I also think that maybe it’s because I always have trouble with understanding competition. What is ‘winning’? What is ‘the best’? What is ‘better than other people’? To me, these words feel like a competition - and my life is so far away from it. I am not here to compete, I am here to survive. Like animals. 

People competes, every time. Who has the best hair? Who has the best grade? Who has the best title? Who is greater? What is better? Who is smarter?

That’s hard. Why would I want to do that?

The only person that I compete with is myself. And that is for me to feel content. If I feel good enough, I won’t chase for another thing, even if I could. I would just settle. It’s enough for me, why would I need more? I am so used to settle for what’s enough and sufficient, take the space that I need, and leave the rest for others. You know, like animals.

I was a perfectionist myself, until l realised a few years ago that the search for perfection is actually the attempt to turn a blind eye to my vulnerabilities. So I changed myself. Cos if I want everything to be perfect all the time, and if I have to be perfect every single time, how tiring it would be? And I experienced it for many years, searching for perfection. It leads to nowhere but misery and anxiety.

I am still on the quest of embracing people. I appreciate that people are there to teach us a thing or two, to accompany us, to give us love and care, to connect. People are actually lovely. Well, some people..

But when they started to compete and take up spaces, I couldn’t understand it. I instantly recluse myself. I instinctively let them take up the space. I will just steer to the corner and, if I am lucky, build my own space. 

People even compete in making friends. How crazy the world is. I made friends for pure connection, I wouldn’t force anything that wouldn’t work and have differing vibes. I don’t make friends to compete?? And if making friends is a competition, I would definitely lose cos I don’t have much that is really close to my heart. But I treat them all with pure love and connections.

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A few days ago, my friend was composing a speech and is given the previous speech as an example. People say the previous example speech was great, and my friend instantly said “pfft. I can also do great” or something like that. In that moment, I laughed, but it hits me how people are so competitive.

The norm that we have today is: if people are great, I also have to be great. 

No, I disagree. I don’t have to be great. I have to be content.

If I was asked to do something, and somebody says “the previous work on this is great” I will just nod and say “oh yeah? Awesome!” and I will do the work in my own way, using my own approach, and deliver it. That’s it. 

Am I not ambitious? Maybe. But what’s wrong with it? I don’t know where will my ambitions take me. And history taught us how dangerous ambition is if you can’t manage it properly.

I have been trying to take things lightly, glide myself through this life. Cos my goal is to survive. But with all the competitions, it forces me to always be on the get-go. Be better than A! Do more than B! Be happier than X! 

No. This isn’t the way for me. There’s no end to it. 

Who are these people competing with other than their ego? They climb and climb and climb, take spaces here and there, for what? Maybe they have the answer that I don’t know.. Maybe.

I was visiting the park yesterday and as I love animals so much, it really warms my heart. I don’t want to go home. I wanted to be with the animals. The pure souls that only take what they need and left the rest for others who need it more. Even lions would left the remaining of their food for hyenas and vultures if they had enough.

How are we people so greedy and competitive? Can you let me know?

My mentor once said that if things doesn’t seem to make any more sense to you, maybe you should go back studying.

Maybe I’ll do that.

[teyums]

since in the last post you told us about your hometown and yourself. take this one as a chance to tell us about your interests! your likes and dislikes, opinions, and just whatever you feel like.

say what's on your mind! ;)

-☘️

i love how when i’m asked basic questions about myself i completely forget who i am, this took some time 💀 also clover anon ily!

(putting a read more for those who don’t want to scroll)

likes!

- I’m obsessed with jewelry. When i say obsessed i mean obsesseddd. Both my arms are always dressed with lots of beaded bracelets. There are 12 on each arm currently. And i got them from a market here in West Africa! some from last time I visited and others from this current visit as I bought a bunch more recently. they’re all natural stone beads. I never take them off, i sleep in them, shower in them they’re basically my second skin. i have three waist beads on my waist. I wear a pearl anklet on each leg and I usually have one certain necklace i keep on for months at a time before I switch it out with another. If i’m going to play volleyball or something, i’ll remove my bracelets so I won’t break them. But I put them back on right after bc i feel naked 💀

- I love piercings! I’m very expressive through jewelry on my body. I believe I have 13 last I counted. Four on one ear, three on the other. My first lobes are gold guages, but I like to mix silver and gold jewelry. My belly button, two nostrils, a septum, my ashley (middle of the lip), my smiley, and I used to have my tongue pierced but i swallowed it LMFAOO

- i’m such a foodie i don’t think i’ve had a food i don’t like and i’m not picky at all i love trying new things. but spaghetti takes the cake for my fav (simple i know) i also really like sushi!

- i love rain, don’t like getting wet though lol

- SQUISHMALLOWSSS

- favorite colors are pale green or forest green, soft purples, and burnt oranges!

- i love animals. my favorites are my two kitties, but i also have a dog and a bearded dragon who i also love

- I LOVEEE lemonade. Literally cannot last more than two days without lemonade in my house. That and water is all I drink lol, i’m not a big soda person.

- I love to write, have been doing it since I was in middle school. As cringy as it sounds it is like an escape lol. Just give me wifi (for dictionary and thesaurus) and my notes app and you won’t hear from me for a while.

dislikes!

- i hate ignorant people like anyone should. that includes any of the “phobes” and “ists” (that are bad). transphobes, homophobes, racists, fascists, ableists. you name it i hate it lol

- loud noises. i do not do well with loud noises at allll. makes me very anxious and for some reason angry?? this also applies directly for heat. even right now, i’m in my grandma’s room because it’s quiet and cool lol

- men ❤️. although i have been cursed with being attracted to them. so maybe i should say men who AREN’T fictional

interests

- to start with the obvious one, i have been obsessed with avatar since 2009! yes me, as a 6 year old, sitting there with my eyes covered by my parents’ hands when that scene of jake and neytiri came on screen. (we have the extended movie on blu-ray). that did not stop me from looking up exactly what happened on youtube and going down the rabbit hole that still has not ended. 😭 I’ve watched the first hundreds of times with my dad, so when we found out the 2nd was coming out we actually almost shit ourselves

- often confused with avatar, one of my favorite series is avatar the last airbender. after long debate with my sisters we have decided i would be an earthbender like toph (queen!!! also the name of one of my cats <3)

- i’m very spiritual. i like to meditate, sage and incense my room multiple times a week. I’m very cautious about who i allow around me because i do believe energy is easily transferred. I’m a great judge of character and can often tell if a person is good spirited or not.

- i’m a very opinionated person. anytime something is up for debate best BELIEVE i will be there to shout my opinion from the high tops. some people hate that about me, some love it, but hey i am who i am!

- was a monster high fanatic until like 14 i can’t even lie to y’all but anybody who liked monster high is a bad bitch now sooo

- late last year i picked up crocheting, really fun once you get the hang of things! i was over the moon when i made my first tote bag you couldn’t tell me anything 😭

[vacate-et-scire]

Hihi!! This is for the matchup!! Please do a Romantic one!!

(Stop I've literally been stressing for like days and asking my friends how to ask on tumblr 😭😭 literally my first time asking)

Sign: Gemini! MBTI: INTP-T

Personality: I’m awkward and pretty tame around people I don’t know, but make friends pretty easily. To close friends, I’m another person and mess around a LOT MORE. Filter? Never heard of her. If someone I’m close to hates another person, WE’RE PULLING UP TO HATE THEM TOGETHER!! I will listen to all the tea, and I hope the person I’m matched with listens to my rants. Most of my energy comes in bursts (if that makes sense 😭😭😭)  I LOVE MUSIC!! Hobbies: I sing and play the Cello. Did I mention I had over 2k minutes on spotify last week 😭😭😭  I also LOVE horror books. Though, I don’t have time to read them because of school, I’m obsessed. Horror webtoons are so 😍😍😍 Also a Genshin and Honkai player. I’m pretty casual, but I’ve played genshin since like Jan 2021. I play Badminton as well, and I’d consider myself pretty good at it. Did I mention I love horror games! Addicted to phasmophobia. (I close the door on my friends and let them die. Bullying ghosts too.)

Things I’d want in a guy: I LOVE SMART GUYS OMFGGG. Study dates!!! I need him to be the one to keep on topic though because I’m a bit of a yapper 😔😔😔. I get when people are busy, and a few messages a day is completely fine!! Honestly, I’d want my own free time, and don’t want them to be really clingy. Also, they better act like a normal person when they need to be! (Bro I DONT need a Shidou assaulting my friends and my siblings.) I hopefully he can keep secrets and remember codenames for the people we hate 😭. 

Dislikes: Dry texters are my OPPS (not really lololol.) I just really want people who I’m talking to to engage back. I’m a picky eater, and don’t really like tomatoes, pumpkins, etc etc. Kinda sensitive, to be honest. I’ll get friendly banter, but when the other person is straight up insulting me, I’ll honestly drop them. (ITS HAPPENED I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SET BOUNDARIES AAAAAAAA.)

Love languages: My love language is a mix of quality time, gift giving, and acts of service!! I love doing keychain exchanges with my friends if we all happen to go on break, and I honestly love giving and receiving food! (On valentines day I’ll probably only give/receive chocolate. I’d probably lose or give away the other stuff 😭😭. I’m not sure if this counts as a love language- but sometimes when some friends and I hang out, I gotta make sure they get home safe. If they don’t respond I WILL CALL THE POLICE. Gotta make sure all the homies got home safe! Only I can kidnap them!

I’m sorry its a bunch 😭 Take your time, no rush!!! I know how overwhelming it is to be an author. Make sure you drink water and not to neglect your health for these requests!!

Your Blue Lock Matchup: Nagi Seishiro

Nagi's that type of guy who's lowkey but still has this magnetic charm about him, and honestly, that's exactly what you need in a partner. You’re all about energy bursts, spontaneous convos, and getting totally caught up in things (like how you're gonna spend the whole evening ranting about something that’s on your mind). Nagi, despite being the chill, somewhat laid-back guy, is fully on board with that. He’d listen to your rants without hesitation. Whether you’re talking about the latest horror book you read or diving deep into some random Genshin theory, he’d just vibe with you. Sure, he might not be the loudest voice in the room, but his quiet attentiveness and soft responses? Chef's kiss.

You two have a lot in common when it comes to passions, and that makes Nagi an ideal match for you. You’re a music lover, you play cello, and your Spotify minutes are, let's be honest, a flex. Nagi’s not someone who’s going to demand your full attention all the time, but he’s definitely the type to engage in deep, meaningful convos about music, maybe share tracks you’ve never heard of, and just get lost in that creative flow. It’s the kind of connection that doesn't need to be forced or overcomplicated—Nagi’s chill vibe works perfectly with your bursts of energy.

When it comes to study dates and staying on topic, Nagi’s pretty reliable. Sure, he might not be super talkative at first, but when you’ve got a goal in mind (whether it’s getting through schoolwork or unlocking some Genshin character), he’s laser-focused. And while you might be a bit of a yapper (no judgment, we’ve all been there), Nagi’s got the patience to reel you back in when it’s time to buckle down and get things done. He’d love the dynamic of you talking nonstop while he listens and gets his own work done—plus, his subtle confidence and intelligence would make him such a great study partner. He’s one of those people who’s naturally good at things, and that’s honestly one of the most attractive traits to you.

Nagi’s also down for the more laid-back things, like chilling after a badminton match or spending time together without pressure. He’s not clingy, which aligns with your love for your own free time, but when it’s time to show up for you, he’ll be there, no questions asked. And he would totally be on board with keeping a secret or two, especially when it comes to hating on those codenamed individuals. You’d both keep each other’s backs, no matter how random or ridiculous it gets.

But let’s talk about that love language of yours. Nagi’s not one to overcomplicate things, so he’s right in line with your love for quality time, gift-giving, and acts of service. He’d definitely appreciate the little things, like the keychain exchanges, but also find ways to show he cares in his own subtle ways. You’d find him slipping you a snack or a surprise while you’re mid-rant, and that’s his way of saying, “I’ve got you.” And don’t worry, he’s so not the type to be a dry texter—expect the same kind of relaxed but engaged communication, especially when he’s checking in on you after your study sessions or even when you're texting each other your latest gaming or anime obsessions.

And about the whole “getting homies home safe” thing? Nagi’s low-key protective, and he’d respect that you want to make sure your friends are good. He’s the kind of guy who might silently follow your lead, whether that’s making sure the people you care about are okay or just watching out for you in his own way. He wouldn’t step in too much, but he’s definitely the type to make sure everything’s in order, even if it’s just with a small, quiet gesture.

You two have a bond that’s built on mutual respect, understanding, and a lot of quiet moments where words aren’t needed. Nagi’s got a lot of layers, just like you, and the two of you would have such an effortlessly smooth, supportive connection that makes everything feel right.

[pixelplanetig]

☄️ v, rutek!!

🌓 v of course

✨ matt, tanya

🌗 arin

☄️ (short POV about their average day)- V:

Ok, I’m gonna be so fr right now, but I don’t have the energy to write in character for this atm, so I’ll just describe their typical days and their feelings on the events!

V typically wakes up around 0700 hours, after which she pops over to Rutek’s room to make sure they actually get out of bed. However, she does tend to pull all-nighters often, so sometimes she’ll be trying to wrap things up in her lab before she heads up to check on Rutek. She’ll typically have a quick shower, and maybe a cup of tea before heading out to go to the Andromeda’s bridge! Before she heads to the bridge, she stops and picks up Rutek (at least if they are still in their own room, she does, but both of them tend to hang out in each other’s rooms so sometimes she won’t have to go next-door to pick them up!) Although she could very well save time by teleporting to the bridge, she always opts to take the turbolift with Rutek since they like spending time together and having a chat! Sometimes they’re joined by other members of the crew also heading up to the bridge. At 0800 hours, the senior staff hold their daily staff meeting to just brief each other on their latest news and updates in regards to each of their respective jobs and tasks! V usually gives a small update on the various projects that the science teams are working on. She also eats a small breakfast at the staff meeting, as Krish’na typically cooks food to bring to their morning meetings. She’s not a picky eater, so she doesn’t really mind what they have to eat, as long as it fits her dietary requirements! After the meeting is let out, she will typically make her rounds of the ship, checking in with all of the individual science departments and discussing what they are working on and how it’s going! She likes having these little check-ins so she can make sure everything is going smoothly. If nobody requires her attention or assistance, she’ll then head down to her lab/office and do whatever work she has to get done (usually filling out lab reports and paperwork and shit.) Many people tell her that they find that stuff boring, and while she knows it’s not the most thrilling thing in the world, she loves to do it! She loves her job, even the parts that aren’t actively running experiments or going on away missions. It’s what she’s wanted to do since she was a very little kid. Speaking of away missions, if the crew gets sent on one, she is usually required to go, since she is the Andromeda’s second officer, and second officers are usually required to be present on away missions. She typically likes going on away missions, but if she has to stop her work to go on one, she can get a little annoyed. If she ever has to be on the bridge during the day, like using the bridge science stations for instance, she will try and have a little chat with Rutek! They don’t get to actively spend a lot of time with each other while they are on duty because while V works all over the ship, Rutek has to stay on the bridge since they’re the helmsman. These chats are usually only telepathic, but they will talk about just about anything! (Even gossip! Vulcan spice tea is not the only type of tea that they like, lol.) If any of her friends notice that V has been holed up in her lab all day, one of them, (usually Diaz,) will come harass her to go take a break or eat something. This usually doesn’t work, but sometimes it does! When she gets off-duty and she isn’t pulling an all-nighter and fueling her workaholic tendencies, she usually teleports herself back to her quarters! She typically opts to just stay in her quarters for a while, but if she’s in the mood (or it’s been previously scheduled,) she’ll engage in some form of recreation! Her favorite thing to do is go swimming in the pool, since she loves to swim, but she does also have some prescheduled events with her friends that she does! She attends a book club with Marianne and Arin, she spars with Diaz in the holodeck, and every week, the entire senior staff meets for game night on one night! She sometimes finds herself looking for excuses to back out of game night, as sometimes the social interaction can get quite overwhelming.

However, her friends are really chill and if they notice her getting overstimulated or overwhelmed, will make sure to give her space and let her fuck off to go recharge or something! In the evenings, she likes to spend time with Rutek. They don’t even have to be doing anything in particular together, they just like to hang out in the same room. Sometimes they’ll grab dinner together or sometimes they’ll just vibe. V will also use the evening time to go out on the whole of the ship and stargaze! that’s one of her favorite things to do, since her father used to take her out in space all the time when she was a little kid, but she stopped being able to do that after he died, but now that she works in space she can go out there again! She’ll eventually start getting ready for bed, at which point she’ll meditate as is customary for Vulcans. She likes to do this alone. Even if she plans on sleeping over in somebody else’s quarters, she’ll go to her own to meditate first. When she meditates, she burns the same incense that her mother used to use! She doesn’t even particularly like the scent itself, but it reminds her of her mom and her home, since her mother always smelled like it! Then she’ll finally get in the bed! Sometimes she chooses to watch her old holo-videos of her parents and her as a child before she goes to sleep, sometimes she just goes right to sleep.

Overall, this isn’t a strict routine of what happens every day, since you can never be sure how a day is going to go when you work on a starship like the Andromeda! This is just one idea of how a typical day for her can go.

☄️ (short POV about their average day)- Rutek:

Some glimpses at Rutek’s day can be seen in the description of V’s, but since they’re not together all day, I’ll yap about their day too! As previously stated, Rutek is typically woken up in the morning by V! They’ll Drag themselves out of bed and start getting ready, and if they have time, they’ll have a look over of all of their plants to make sure there aren’t any glaring issues that need to be taken care of when they come back to their quarters later. They typically take a little bit longer than V to get ready, since they have to do things the normal way instead of teleporting everywhere and using Q abilities to get things done, but they appreciate the fact that she always wakes up for them! Then the pair head to the bridge together! After attending the daily senior staff meeting, they relieve the night shift helmsman of duty and take their post at the helm of the ship! Their duties are not anywhere as riveting as V’s, but they do you get the benefit of getting to hang out on the bridge all day so they get to spend their time chatting with all the other bridge officers! They like their job a lot! They aren’t quite as passionate about it as V is about hers, but they still find it quite enjoyable! Sometimes, they will have to pay visits to other parts of the ships to check on things that might affect the ship’s flight at all. For the most part, their job is a rather mundane one, but their favorite days are whenever the ship needs some fancy flying done! If the ship is ever in need of a quick getaway or in a situation where they have to dodge things, Rutek is an EXCELLENT pilot! They also enjoy the days when a shuttlecraft is needed for an away mission, as that means they get to go on a mission and leave the ship, which they don’t often get to do! They know they couldn’t handle all of that excitement on the regular themselves, but it is nice to get a change in scenery every once in a while! They will typically have a break sometime in the afternoon, during which they like to head down to check out whatever V is up to! They hang out with each other for a bit, which usually consists of V working on some thing in her lab while Rutek loiters around in the background (and scopes out any glassware they can repurpose for their plants because they love to steal V’s stuff,) but then eventually they have to dip and go back on duty. When they get off for the evening, it’s time to take care of their plants! They have a very meticulous routine on taking care of all of their plants, making sure that each one is thriving! They find this time extremely relaxing. They also will sometimes pop back up to the bridge to take care of the plants in Elroy’s ready room since he doesn’t bother to do that himself. After they finished tending to their plants, Rutek will journal! They have kept a journal ever since they were young! They put just about anything in their journal. Some days they use it like a diary, other days they use it to log any interesting plant facts, and sometimes they even do a little creative writing. They even draw in it! They wouldn’t consider themselves an artist, but they will make the occasional observational sketch if they’re in the mood! They will then make themselves some dinner before either hanging out with V or heading out to see what the others are doing! They enjoy spending time with their friends, but they are also pretty spontaneous and don’t plan ahead, so they will just kind of show up at peoples doors and be like hey wanna hang out? A lot of times, people do want to hang out, as Rutek is very endeared to everybody, but sometimes everyone will be busy so they just go and chill in the ship’s arboretum, which is their favorite spot on board.

Whenever it gets time for them to start heading to bed, they will typically hop in the shower for a little bit before they get out and do their nightly meditation! They have a little rocky water fountain that they run while they meditate as they like the sound of the running water. It’s not quite the same as the sound of the ocean waves they have back home on Vulcan, but they like the little trickle that the fountain makes too! After that, they might opt to do a little bit more journaling before bed, or they might just go right to sleep!

🌓 (what her funeral would be like)- V:

She’s thought about it a lot, especially after actually dying once. V wants to be buried next to her parents back on Vulcan when she dies. Her tombstone would be the same type as her parents have, a black stone slab, engraved with her name in gold Vulcan lettering. She would want to be buried in a photon torpedo casing, even if she didn’t die on duty. She just thinks she would really like that. Although typically when an officer dies in space and a photon torpedo casing is used as a coffin for them, they sometimes actually get shot into space, but V wouldn’t like that, since as previously mentioned, she wants more than anything to be buried next to her parents. She also hopes that Rutek will be buried next to her eventually. She doesn’t want anybody to get emotional over her death. The idea of that happening kind of embarrasses her. (She doesn’t want to be perceived.) She knows it would happen anyway if she ended up dying before the other crew members, because that’s just a sacrifice you have to make when you make friends with such emotional beings as humans. Oh well. At least she’ll have her parents to complain to about it. (Although don’t tell her that. She’s not sure if her seeing her parents after she died was real or not.)

✨ (What makes their heart race)- Matt:

Matt loves a good thrill! The excitement of fighting to defend his ship. The suspense of who will win a good game of chess or how the superheroes he reads about will end up saving the day. He lives for stuff like that!

✨ (What makes their heart race)- Tanya:

Companionship makes Tanya’s heart race! She didn’t have many friends her own age growing up, so now she thrives on being part of a friend group! She loves it when people come to her for help or advice, as it makes her feel appreciated.

🌗 (How much they care about their appearance)- Arin:

Arin definitely doesn’t obsess over his appearance, but he does like to keep himself well groomed and relatively put together! Although his hairstyle is pretty simple, just a bun with an undercut and shaved sides, he always makes time to brush and style his hair in the mornings, and has regular haircuts! As for the clothes he wears, he doesn’t have to worry about that for the most part since he is normally in uniform, but he dresses pretty well when wearing civilian clothes! His favorite types of outfits are short sleeved floral patterned button up shirts worn over a plain T-shirt and some skinny jeans. He will accessorize with little bits of jewelry here and there if he really feels like it, but he doesn’t care that much. The one thing he does really care about is that weather permitting, he always tries to dress in a way where people can see his tattoo! His tat is very important to him since he got it to match with his twin sister Olivia before he left earth for his first Starfleet assignment. He got a half-sleeve of ocean waves on his right forearm to represent Olivia, who works as a marine biologist on earth, and Olivia got a half sleeve of galaxy and planets on her left forearm to represent Arin working in space! Even the specific arms that their respective tattoos are on represent each other, as the pair have mirrored moles, with Arin having a mole on his right cheek (hence Olivia getting a tattoo on her right arm,) and Olivia having a mole on her left cheek (hence Arin getting his tattoo on his left arm.)

[lore-grandma]

Alright adding more to the character I’m creating and probably won’t do any legitimate writing with, why? Because the notes app doesn’t give criticism.

Here’s the link if you want context

For convenience I’ll refer to the host as nymph and the parasite as Jerry. I’m going to describe some visuals because while I would like to see how the community takes this character, I do have my own ideas of how the character looks and acts. I think nymph has some pretty long bangs, like to the point where it’s covering her eyes. I like to think that when Jerry is in control her bangs are only covering the eye that’s not there. And when nymph has her time to be in control her eyes are just covered.

Imma start off with nymph’s personality before Jerry. I see her as a little oblivious, like not the dumbest bitch ever. She knows basic things and how to survive. I think being a stripper has made her far more aware of innuendoes than what the oblivious description would suggest. A smidge naive would be the best to describe her biggest personality trait. I hesitate to say a coward but doesn’t have the ability to actually do the murdering herself. I think nymph’s knowledge lies primarily in emotional intelligence. I think as time goes on with being a host to Jerry, she definitely goes crazy do the point of accepting her fate as a host. Jerry suppresses her a lot so I can imagine that internal battle has a lot of sleepless nights for the both of them. I think both Jerry and nymph are both blunt, of course has different approaches to telling it as it is.

Jerry is very cruel. He’s very quiet but you definitely feel that superiority complex radiating off of him. Jerry definitely leans into that femme fatal personality that you would’ve expected nymph to have. Both Jerry and nymph make sex jokes, but Jerry is more aggressive with it. Jerry is very violent with his victims, literally tearing them apart. He’s a very picky parasite. I think Jerry stays up for a very long time, the only time Jerry sleeps is if it was a very exhausting day and nymph was really fighting hard that month.

Speaking of the fight for control, I suppose it’s time to mention the rare times nymph gains control. It’s very rare actually, Jerry has been doing the parasite thing for a LONG time so of course his stamina is insane but even a likely supernatural parasite has its limits. Human souls aren’t very strong and break easily, especially when you have a parasite slowly eating it. So when Jerry sleeps nymph is also likely tuckered out. But occasionally she has some energy left but the control over her body lasts about an hour at most.

Since it’s bound to happen slenderman does take them in, slenderman does encounter to Jerry first. Now why does slendy bring in a parasite that could attack the others and him? Well why does he bring in murders everyday? I think slendy sees the creeps as guard dogs. The relationship feels how media shows a rich man’s relationship with his guard dogs. He doesn’t care for them really, but does keep them because they protect him. And the best part of this dog is that it feeds itself and gets rid of the corpses. That forest can only be dug into so much. Now why does the crazy parasite go to live in a mansion with other people? Well Jerry can’t work a job (yes I’m having that moment where nymph wakes up at the stage surrounded by bodies as Jerry’s attempt to work) and Jerry can only eat so many of the landlords and cops before there’s a shoot out and he gets killed. So free home and free opportunity to get food that isn’t his host? Perfect.

Now what about nymph gaining control and the creeps being around, causing her to freak out? I hear you, I think nymph does freak out but so do the other creeps, so they knock her out. And when Jerry comes to, all of the creeps are staring at them waiting for an explanation but Jerry doesn’t explain what happened because he was sleeping and doesn’t know what he did. Eventually nymph and the creeps get used to each other but since most of the interaction nymph has with a being is Jerry, she keeps to herself so she doesn’t anger them and gets herself killed. When she wants to give input she’ll write it down or something. I’m not exaggerating when I say she rarely gets control like the creeps aren’t able to build a connection with her, and Jerry is definitely giving her trust issues. Anyone that can live with that THING can’t be trusted anymore than the parasite itself.

Before I head out imma give a reason why nymph calls the parasite Jerry, the last host was wearing a name tag with the name Jerry, and names don’t matter to the parasite so this display of disrespect will go unnoticed.

[kavikaslana]

Ayato because a lot of people like him apparently. I get the appeal tbh

I got him literally at the most 30 minutes after his release at I think like 23 or 24 pity. I meant to pull on Venti’s banner bc I had a guaranteed 5 star. I still got him though, might not get childe now :( I had to use the pulls I saved for childe on venti instead

Random ass headcanons because I wanna get into writing again while I have energy

Sfw <3

Feel like he has his own, less expensive version of his jacket for you. It doesn’t have sleeves nearly as long as his though, I’m sorry

110% has a safe and when you look in it, it’s a piece of paper that explains how he pulls boba from behind his sleeve

Chess with him like in that one scene with him and Thoma, except he lets you beat him

^ he will crush you in chess if you start bragging a little too much about beating him

Kinda mean. Probably comes up behind you and nudges you just a little too hard to kinda knock you forward

The food he fucks up is still edible but he won’t eat it, therefore I think he’s picky. Just made something savory instead of sweet I think in his voiceline, or maybe it was the other way around

Leaves his sword straight up just sitting on your bed, probably because he forgot to grab it before he got up

On that note, it’s probably under his pillow or the bed every night bc yknow, easy access if something happens

He snores fucking louder than a jet engine, I’m sorry sweetie

Thoma’s somehow always in your room more than you. Probably to clean up the shit ayato takes in there and then leaves there

Has definitely taken some of his work into your room and finished it in bed, and then just forgot it the second he needed it

^ hence why Thoma’s practically always in there, even if he’s not cleaning

Sometimes he has Thoma pick up stuff for you when he’s busy and claims that he did everything to get it for you

He’d probably let you brush his hair while he’s working either really late or really early

Yknow how when you’re trying to do something without making much sound and you go a lot slower? My guy spends 30 minutes trying to get out of bed just to not wake you up

Thoma ends up knocking on the door and waking you up anyway while he’s halfway out of the covers

There is ONE clean spot on his desk and that’s where he lets you sit when he’s busy

Kinda likes when you just sit there with him

Maybe get a book and read a little bit of it to him. He’s paying attention… as much as he can at least

Still likes just hearing your voice. You could be gushing over some random cat you saw earlier and he would not know what you’re saying but still takes comfort in it

Probably puts his hand on you randomly. One day it might be on your shoulder, the next it could be on your thigh. Don’t point out the last one though, he does it subconsciously and will turn the same color as Thoma’s vision

Has fallen asleep during his lunch breaks because you let him rest his head on your shoulder

If you’re in bed when he’s not busy, depending on where you’re facing, he might kinda pounce on you

If you’re napping… he still would. If it’s after noon and you’re sleeping at all, it’s fair game for him to wake you up

Has memorized your favorite boba (if you like it)

Most likely had a drawer in his desk that’s solely just snacks for both you and him. And Ayaka if she manages to find them

Thoma gets none bc he can make his own food

He had someone clear out a room in the estate for you and now it’s your own little area. Not like you don’t have your bedroom-

If you draw, he insists you try and draw him and Ayaka at least once. Thoma too if you want to, but he thinks it’d be cute to have a family picture drawn by you

Jokes about you dueling with him and Ayaka a lot

Forehead kisses when he’s stressed!!! And not for him, for you, cause nothing calms him down quite like seeing you smile… except boba, but that’s besides the point

Probably squishes your cheeks when you stare at him for a little too long

Cooks with you but gets the seasoning mixed up. He sucks at measuring things too

Likes when you go with him to see another commissioner, though you have to wait outside. He just likes the walk with you tbh and he doesn’t really have much free time so that’s the closest thing he can get usually

You cannot tell me he doesn’t wear makeup of some kind, whether it’s eyeliner or… idk I suck with makeup. Anyway, he’d let you try your hand at doing his makeup, or he’d do some of yours, whatever you want <3

You can do the math. Don’t ask why I have so many pages, I wanted razor and didn’t get him until 40 pity and venti at 160

[fumifooms]

L’s sugar addiction & self-medication : character analysis

I have some thoughts on L and his relationship to sugar that I haven’t seen from others yet surprisingly, so I’m making this post that hopefully won’t get too long definitely became long af. I’m very open to counter-arguments or people adding on to this.

Some context: I 100% see L as autistic and there’s honestly no debate to be had, even though I don’t think it was done intentionally. (I respect others having different perspectives, I just think it’s objectively the most fitting label/explanation and I’ll act like it’s a given through this analysis). I’m autistic myself, “high-functioning” meaning I mask decently enough, diagnosed at 18 and started taking concerta for attention this month at 19, I’m also INTP if that matters and yeah uh as a kid I identified a lot with L and Near and wow surprise surprise I got a bit unhealthily reliant on sugar for a while there, so here I go. 

Other context headcanons: L has autism, but is undiagnosed, which I believe mostly because Wammy’s House seems to be outside of the government and society’s eye and it didn’t seem concerned with diagnosis or mental health, the time at which Death Note was written in, and just general vibes idk. Even if he was diagnosed, he strikes me as the kind of autistic who wouldn’t care about the label and wouldn’t give much thought to it -mostly because he gives 0 shit about masking tbh and he’s highly fact oriented-, thinking he works well as he is and that medication would change him and the rupture to his habits sound unpleasant, even if down the line it’d be very helpful and it actually doesn’t change you as a person chill. Yeahh, I have an aversion to drugs of any kind, outside stuff affecting my brain chemistry just gives me a big nope, that’s including alcohol, coffee and painkillers, so I can relate even if it’s something I have to get over, and he seems the type of not wanting to be under any effect. Anyways point is: he doesn’t take meds and isn’t super aware of his condition, despite being knowledgeable in his habits and needs in many regards in canon, on the spot I’m thinking about his sitting pose = brain power stat for example. 

So why the sugar? The canon explanation is something along the lines of it giving him the energy he needs because he sleeps so little. Yeah fair, that does make sense, and also fits in with what I’ll be talking about:

My explanation: L self-medicates with sugar, which lead to sugar addiction. And I’m being 100% unironic. Those words are thrown around jokingly a lot but sugar addiction is a real issue that doesn’t get addressed much. Confirmation that L’s relationship with sugar is an addiction might even have been like, explicitely stated in canon at some point? But I haven’t seen that around and my memory really isn’t that good. So yeah there’s probably L’s picky food taste because of autism sensory issues in there as well, him just liking the taste and all and wanting same food, but this level of always eating it is more than just a preference. I’m sorry fellow autistic guy that only ate potatoes for all his life and got massive problems, but at least potatoes don’t influence your brain chemistry. Even if it started as a preference and continues to be such, if he’s addicted or not with how much of it he consumes is out of his hands. And where my earlier rambling comes in is: I think he’s unaware that it’s an addiction, I think he doesn’t think much of it, he overestimates his agency and control over his diet, even if he does recognize his dependency on it to a degree. L eats sweets pretty much constantly in canon, so that part won’t be argued about, I’m more interested in the why and how of it.

Let’s refine what sugar addiction is a bit, have this article. (It implied at one point that sugar can’t be truly/gravely addicting but it shows facts comprehensively so I’ll let it slide) Sugar addiction pretty much demands that you eat sugar constantly to get the effects (energy, stimulation that makes your head feel clearer) you seek, when the addiction is in full swing. Sounds self-explanatory yet?  Is sugar addiction real? Further reading: healthline.com article, theguardian article, someone’s journey. It’s a complex and debated issue, and sugar is still something important to have in certain quantity in our bodies, I don’t claim to be a biochemist or expert on the topic. 

Ok but why sugar? Why would he get addicted? Why does L feel like he need it? Well even if it wasn’t a full on addiction, which in his case it is, sugar gives energy, as mentioned, it can somewhat act as a stimulant. Without mentioning that sugar is widely spread and seen as pretty casual, it’s easy to get into eating it way too much and thinking nothing of it, like coffee, especially if you don’t suspect your craving of it is tied in with how your brain works. In autism, if you tend to be understimulated, you can get prescribed stimulant medication that’s intended or generally given to people with ADHD, like me with concerta, it’s really not that uncommon. Have these article tidbits that adress it as self-medication:

(article 1: addcrusher.com “How You Are Self-medicating your ADHD” - Article 2: Medium.com “Why Adults With Undiagnosed ADHD Often Turn To Self-medication”)

Why do you think L needs stimulants in the first place? He has shown to want more stimuli in general, rather than being overstimulated, even if he does like to have a calm controlled environment. I, too, am an autistic person that gets understimulated easily, which mostly leads me to listen to fast paced music as stimming when doing college exams, etc. L seeks the mental stimulation of puzzles and it’s the only thing he shows interest in doing (canon), again because of the stimulating entertainment factor. Because he doesn’t mind situations that put him under pressure, or in contact with a team of people or in public. He doesn’t mask to appear nice or neurotypical, but he does show no discomfort about an overwhelming amount of stimuli in general. Also because he stims in other ways than solving cases: tapping his feet, playing with food, etc. And, last of all, the reason of this essay, because he eats sweets all the time. 

Okay, but sugar as self-medication? Really? Where does your personal experience come into this? Like I’ve mentioned here and there, I get understimulated easily and I only started taking stimultant meds veryyyy recently. That stuff is instinctual; you’ll tap your feet mindlessly if you need more stimulation, if you’re hungry you’ll eat, if you want coffee you’ll get it, if you have a lil sugar craving you’ll seek to quench it, even if you don’t really know why. You do what makes you happy, and if sugar makes you feel good for a while, makes you feel energized or think more clearly then subconsciously you’ll start wanting it more often, hence why you start out not thinking much of it. I wouldn’t describe my case as an addiction, I don’t think I really got withdrawal or super bad or anything, but there definitely were days when i’d constantly be craving and/or eating sweets, always taking breaks from fruitless work to grab another sugary snack every 15 minutes or every hour. Gummies or other candies, cookies, marshmallows, and for a while even literal packets of refined sugar. They were food cravings like any other, feels like “I want some pizza”, but underlaced with need, and a feeling that you’ll feel and function better once you’ve gotten it. But the craving never stops, and you’re never satisfied, you only ever end up taking more and more and more. Yeah, I’d class my experience as an attempt at self-medication, definitely. Often when I'd take a lot and keep surrendering to the craving for more it’d just lead to more intense hyperactivity, manic symptoms and my body going bonkers with sweating and shaking and stuff, but sometimes it’d genuinely help me focus on schoolwork and on concentration. 

Conclusion: It’s a stimulant, so it helps L. It makes him feel like it’s helping him think better and be more awake, so he takes more. It keeps working to some degree even if it’s unhealthy, so he never stops it or tries alternatives. That’s kind of all there is to it, in the end. L puts a great deal of interest in his mental state for productivity purposes, but has never seemed to have any care in his body’s health at all, so I don’t think he’d care to change even if he knew how bad it was anyways.

Tangent:  I also like the thought of Wammy’s House being pretty abusive in that neglectful (and manipulative) way and Watari being such an enabler, all focused on performance rather than healthy behavior and thought processes, which does work for iq results apparently but at what cost. L and Mello especially def have some self-destructive habits. Anyways yeah- I like that angle instead of the whole thing being “haha quirky”, it sounds narratively consistant and compelling for the tone of the Death Note franchise. I’m sure Watari honestly believes he’s doing a good thing and helping L working at his best condition, to some degree, but yeahhh feeding the guy under your care only sweets for years without steering him towards healthier alternatives is bad if we want to do a realistic analysis, especially if you’re the one who raised him/organized the environment in which he grew up. 

Actual conclusion, more in-depth: So what does this all mean for his character, if I’m getting angstier: L is driven into his detective work not because of some grand passion or ambition (canon), but because working on cases is the only thing interesting enough for him (also canon) aka the only thing that gives him enough stimuli to not be understimulated and painfully bored, but for that lifestyle of constantly chasing high stimulation he also needs substances that give him a rush. The whole thing is extremely unhealthy and unsustainable and L will crash and burn out eventually at any given moment. Kind of a tragic character, huh. He died on his thoughest case ever, his interest driving him to take risks and get more invested and stressed than ever.

L’s laser focus on objective productivity while ignoring the fact that he has human physical needs just like everyone else, likely from a feeling of superiority and uniqueness not entirely unfounded, makes him blind to his very real issues. Being an irl L isn’t cool, it’s sad and unhealthy, cringy for everyone else around you. You may think you have metaphysics and the meaning of life or lack thereof pegged, but that won’t do you any good while you’re on the floor in a manic episode or burnout. I’ve been there mate, but seriously, gain perspective and grow some self-care, being purely statistic oriented is stupid. 

Give this man concerta. And a therapist he’ll condescendingly dismiss and talk over, but therapy nonetheless.

[husbandohunter]

Hey, I just found your blog through your adorable A Smaller Predicament headcanons. You’re an amazing writer and I was wondering if you could please do a version of that for Venti?

A Small(er) Predicament [Venti x Reader]

Synopsis: When you have to deal with each other's quirkiness as either him as a child or you as a pocket-sized human being

(Two seperate scenarios of Smol Series 1 and 2)

(A/n): Awww you're too kind anon and Venti is such a good addition to this. He's already babie (just look at the art #protecc)

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Venti as a smol baby

The price for the Anemo Archon taking the form of a 12-year old boy had errupted some unique reprocussions after the potion effect: Rather than a young child with the capacity of walking at best, he reduced to something much much younger...a baby.

This meant that Venti will articulate the exact traits of an average one year old except he's more chaotic given his godly powers. It's because he's yet to learn his powers, if Klee could blow up the entirety of DragonSpine, then Barbatos would spin a tornado enough to flatten the mountains and plains altogether. You pray to god when he happens to sneeze (until you realize he is the god). Time to duck under the table, every item would fly off their tables and snot would be coming down his nose...which you have to wipe now (yuck!)

No matter what form he takes, Venti is still the same troublemaking, free-spirited to a fault and mischevious bard. The type to cry at least three times during sleeping hours and you wake up the next day completely deprived of energy. He's a messy eater as well as a picky eater. Food would constantly be stained around his face to the point you feel uncomfortable looking at him. Oh and if you ever try feeding him meals that he dislikes, Venti will either dodge your spoon or blow it away that it splashes all over your shirt.

Does. not. drink. milk. You fight to shove the bottle into his mouth which ends up with him crying a ear-splitting scream. It's almost embarassing trying to feed him in public. Because what Venti wants is not milk, he wants wine. WINE. You knew because "wine" was his first word. The amount of stress he gives you almost wants to make you cry too. So you often had to bring him to the Cathedral and ask the sisters to help instead. Turns out singing songs helps him calm down alot.

However when there are times where Venti is behaving, he's an absolute cutie. He laughs alot, a bubbly and gurgly giggle where you can almost hear his signature "Ehe" except now its an "Eehee". For some reason, Venti loves to bite. He will take a strand of your hair and put it in his mouth. If you bring him close to your face, he'll lean in and chomp your cheek. You're not sure why but that's just his way of showing affection. Most of the time he may stink as a baby, but after a good shower he smells like the fresh minty wind that had blown through the whispering woods.

Once he turns back to his normal self, Venti acts like nothing much happened. Doesn't even apologize for all the trouble he committed. He just says "That was fun!"

When you turn pocket-sized

Boy oh boy you two are going to have lots of fun together ehe ^_^ But don't worry. Venti has no malicious intent. Just his mischeivious tricks like usual. It's like having his own verison of Paimon! Oh, you can't fly? That can be fixed. He crafts you a mini wind-glider when actually it's a cheap folded paper airplane he made in just ten seconds, sticks you on it using tape before using his powers to generate a wind current. You were screaming for your life.

But it doesn't stop there. With you brand new powers, you guys can now be partners in crime! Big and small. As he distracts the staff at the Dawn Winery, you can sneak into the cart and push the apples down into his bag. Or what about sneaking underneath the door to unlock the cathedrals cell where all of the wine stash is hidden?

"No? *sigh* such a shame. We could have been really great partners. A fantastic duo hehe! But you know, now that I'm looking at how small you are, this kinda reminds me of...nevermind. Where shall we be off to next?"

He lets you slip underneath his beret hat. Despite being the wind god, it never falls off. Whenever you shift and push out from the edges of his hat to take a peek outside, Venti can feel your knees digging into his head. Although the feeling can be a bit nagging sometimes and that he has to get used to, at least he has someone to scratch for him whenever he feels itchy!

Whenever you need help climbing on top of furniture, sometimes you'll feel a gentle boost ghosting in the air. Even when Venti isn't around, he keeps in mind to help you navigate your surroundings whenever you need to. Also considering that he's so short himself, sometimes he'll lift you to the top shelves to get something for him.

When you turn back, he says he's going to miss the times where you're flying around in a tiny form. It brings him a sense of deja-vu. Regardless, Venti makes sure to implement this into his songs and stories, a tale of two figures of different sizes ready for adventure!

[isagisyoichi]

how do u think the boy would be in a party😈😈

NEW RULES!

SYNOPSIS: blue lock at a party

CHARACTERS INCLUDED: isagi, bachira, nagi, reo, rin, chigiri, naruhaya, niko, nanase, gagamaru, kunigami

WARNINGS: mentions of underage drinking and weed (but no one actually takes anything), swearing, mentions of throwing up and food, again pretend they're all friends and go to the same school because it's more fun to think that way. ooc rin maybe? idk i like pretending he's not as miserable as the manga makes him out to be 🤗 he deserves to have fun i think

A/N: no cause this was soooo fun to write tysm anon, i got through this in a flash cause i loved this suggestion sm :') literally one of the most fun requests i've ever gotten eeee!!!!! also this made me miss my irls bye corona can suck my balls fr

ISAGI YOICHI:

i feel like this would be his first big party aw lol, so he’s kind of nervous LMAO.

gets handed a beer by someone, has his first sip of it ever, and immediately spits it out. mutters “how the hell can anyone drink this?” and “discreetly” pours the rest into a bush.

mainly stays with nagi, chigiri, kunigami, and bachira and they just talk throughout the night

(bachira only sits down and talks after his energy dies down. i'll elaborate on this below the cut).

keeps asking nagi “what song is this?” throughout the night LOL. makes a mental note of what songs to add to his playlists.

slightly nods his head to the music, aw cute. goes a little harder and lip syncs/raps along when he really likes the song, though (i stand by my word when i said he loves “neon guts”)

does accidentally bump into someone, but isagi starts a convo with them after he apologizes, and they hit it off right away 🥰

but, the person left early and isagi, ever the dummy, forgets to ask for their number.

and he's actually so disappointed in himself when he realizes, too 😭

BACHIRA MEGURU:

not drunk or anything at all, but boy, the way he’s acting makes it seem like he is.

the self proclaimed “life of the party.”

can be found “dancing,” though i use that word generously because to classify whatever he’s doing as “dancing,” is a stretch, to every song, even if he doesn’t know the words LOL

really likes when throwbacks come on!!!! he does dance to the lyrics and not the beat sometimes, though 😭

but, bachira looks like he’s having so much fun, it’s so cute, he’s definitely been waiting for this moment his whole life 🥰

if you were dancing with him, bachira would 100% take you by the hand and spin you around

also forces gets isagi to dance with him but isagi’s so awkward 😭

bachira also ends up jumping in the pool sometime later that night. yells “cannonball!” and everything, like, okay michael phelps 😭

he doesn’t have extra clothes so reo has to give him some and they're so fucking big on him LOLLL

texts the groupchat “i was sooo crazy last night😂” in the morning LMAOO, okay babe calm down

KUNIGAMI RENSUKE:

takes it upon himself to make sure none of his friends die LOL

only drinks water and diet coke 👍

his mom calls in the middle of the party to ask how he's doing and bachira and nagi are doing stupid shit like yelling “pass the weed” and fake moaning 😭

isagi and chigiri tell him to tell her they say hi LOL

really likes when the dj puts on 90s/2000's r&b/hiphop songs (i'll die by my hc that kunigami's an oldies fan)

mostly sways side to side to the music, but he did also dance a little, per request of bachira, and ended up talking to a cute person a for little, too 🤗

offers to help clean up in the morning

CHIGIRI HYOUMA:

at least two drunk girls have mistaken him for their friend, and another four have asked to touch his hair.

tried to use one of reo’s many bathrooms, found a couple making out, outwardly said “gross,” and then left to find another one 😭

nods his head and taps his foot to the music, not much of a dancer.

also a people-watcher, and he points out things he sees are happening to his friends.

“guys, i think misa and her boyfriend are breaking up, look.” leave that poor girl alone bro 😭

finds himself laughing a lot that night because damn! his friends are funny, whether they try to be or not.

not really a party person, but chigiri actually had a lot of fun 🥰

NARUHAYA ASAHI:

also on the dancefloor! doesn’t really dance, per say, but he jumps up and down and does the fist pump thing 😭 he has the spirit, let's give him that.

drank a lot of soda, so he’s filled with energy. also pees in at least three of reo's bathrooms.

talks to his friends, but also makes new ones! also i feel like he takes a lot of pictures LOL. he needs the finsta content 😭

plays truth or dare, or something like that. ends up having to do some stupid shit like smack raichi’s ass and run away, but naruhaya did make out with the girl next to him, so fair trade, he thinks.

also ends up in the pool, but he’s playing chicken with gagamaru and some other people. does not win a single round, but he had fun 😇

leaves with like four plates of food and one of reo’s decorative towels for some reason???

GAGAMARU GIN:

goes through a bunch of reo's shit 😭 he's not taking anything, but he's just curious LOL

strikes up very, random conversations with a bunch of people out of nowhere, good for him!

weirdly good at darts, very good aim.

although one round, naruhaya accidentally distracted gagamaru and one of darts ended up in reo's wall 💔

“it's fine, he has the money to fix it,” naruhaya shrugs as he walks away from reo's now punctured, wall. so true bestie!

gagamaru somehow ends up giving some drunk stranger some “life-changing” advice. (whether it's good or not is debatable)

they thank gagamaru for changing their life and he never sees them again

NAGI SEISHIRO:

irritates the fuck out the dj because nagi keeps asking him to play one specific song over and over again.

it was good the first time, don't wear it out for the rest of us bae 😭

doesn't really dance, just nods his head, maybe raps along a little, too

when he talks to the girls that come up to him, nagi says stuff like “yeah, the host and i go way back, we’re best friends.”

“way back,” my ass, but whatever nagi 🤨

knocks out in one of reo’s guest rooms. someone finds him when they’re trying to look for the bathroom and they draw a mustache and a bunch of other stupid shit on him 😭

tries to leave before reo makes him help clean up in the morning. does not work 👍

dumbass also ended up losing his phone (reo bought him a new one so nagi doesn't really care)

RAICHI JINGO:

gasses himself up sooo much when he’s trying to hit on girls.

“yeah, i'm about to go D1 after high school, just wait on it,” yeah, okay raichi 🙄

also tries to show them his highlights, bye. babe, i mean this in the nicest possible way but, i do not care, can we just kiss 🙏

i feel like he’s one of those boys who likes to take his shirt off for no reason, so raichi most definitely ends up shirtless at some point of the night 😭

takes pictures with reo’s fancy cars in his garage to flex 💀 gets annoyed when reo says raichi can’t drive them. raichi doesn't even have his license 😑

plays pool and is actually not that bad. does almost accidentally blind isagi with his cue, though.

IMAMURA YUUDAI:

he's with some girls but, he’s a dummy and he didn’t know his other hoes would be there, so imamura had quite a few drinks spilled on him here and there.

still somehow leaves with like three new girls snaps, four numbers, and a bunch of lipstick stains. not even gonna lie, i respect his game.

actually a really good dancer, and he knows he looks good, too. knows the words to every drake song that comes on, argue with your mom.

lip-syncs the words to you when you dance together and it makes you more flustered than you would think 🙄

the type to pull you close and wraps his arms around your waist or around your neck

actually really fun to talk to. always in the loop with drama and stuff, so he's always got some interesting conversation topics. and he's funny 😭

MIKAGE REO:

obviously, the party’s at his house. what’s the point of having a rich teammate if you can’t exploit them for their possessions?

jokes, but reo did offer to throw it at his mansion house in the first place.

actually really likes throwing parties lmao, so he jumped at the opportunity.

posted on his snap, “party at my place su for address‼️” LOL

natural charm + raised with good manners = reo being an amazing host

but, reo does have a little group of girls following him around the entire night 👎

and it irritates the hell out of whoever reo’s trying to talk to because they’re all up on him, making it hard for reo to pay attention 😑

also doesn’t help that he entertains them and flirts back and dances with a couple of them, too

and looks good when he dances, too UGH!!!! he's the type to run his hands up and down your body while he dances with you 😣

i hate this man 👎 /j

ITOSHI RIN:

practicing. he didn’t come. sike! rin has a social life, too, come on now, y'all 🙄

talked a big game about how he wouldn’t show up then he still came anyways, like rin, what 😭??

super good at cup pong and he knows it. he keeps beating ryusei and if you look closely, rin has something reminiscent of a smirk on his face.

a foot-tapper, not a dancer, which sucks because he’s not even bad at dancing, either 👎

a couple of girls come up to rin to flirt, but rin doesn’t give them the time of day. no response or anything just a little side eye 😭

rin just talks to his friends and that’s it, really.

actually internally glad for the chance to kickback and relax for once, tbh.

but, he refuses to admit he had any semblance of fun. (he did, rin’s just a weenie 😒)

NIKO IKKI:

the team forced him to come 😭

niko’s already a homebody and he doesn’t like loud noises or large social scenes, so he wasn’t too jazzed about going somewhere where the both of those things combine.

also he's picky with music so LOL. does like that one remix to the pursuit of happiness, though

he’s a wall-stander, i hate to break it to y’all. just watched everything from a distance and didn't talk to anyone except for isagi and his friends.

bye, if you don’t get off the damn wall and dance (he'd dance with me i'm different 🥰🤗)

keeps opening and closing his phone so he looks busy but that mf is literally just going through the settings app 😭

called his mom to bring him home an hour and a half in 👎

NANASE NIJIROU:

i hate to admit it, but he’s the annoying first year that documents everything on snap bye

he’s just excited to be there but like, there is no reason for his story to be half an hour long.

i'm not watching all of that! sorry that happened to you or good for you 🤗

probably playing games like spin the bottle or seven minutes in heaven. is very proud of himself for kissing four people in one night #bigmoves 🥳

stays with his group of friends and they're sooo loud and rowdy LMAOO. #firstyearthings

you can literally hear them laughing over the music, but they're having fun, so it's fine (at least of those kids hits people when they laugh too)

also dances, too! has super good energy and a natural sense of rhythm surprisingly 🥰 also a good hypeman!!!!! honestly, he's just really fun to be around tbh

overall, has a lot of fun, as you can tell by his story 😇

[bassclarinety]

I want to psycho analyze the Madrigal’s gifts by the triplets’ line.

Bruno’s is the most obviously worse out of the Triplets. Physically taxing, mentally scarring in some cases, and drives a wedge between him and everyone around him. I think if Bruno had had any cannon children, their gifts would have been similarly bad. -100/10, the future is overrated.

Pepa’s line is interesting to analyze in my opinion.

Pepa has a difficult gift in the first place- she has to bottle up her own emotions to maintain a perfect weather cycle, has to force negative (in most cases) ones to change the cycle, and her bottled up emotions have a chance of exploding in a quite nasty way. I think we can see her gift’s difficulties reflected in her children’s. 2/10, I would be raining all the time, and I would give a big fat middle finger to anyone telling me “you have a cloud!”

Dolores’ is obvious in my opinion- she literally has a heightened sense tuned to what seems to be roughly a mile around the Encanto (give or take), and if she is able to concentrate on a certain set of noises, which in of itself is a difficulty, she’s left with the decision to either share or act on anything she hears. Her gift has slim to no upsides, and I’d go as far as saying that it has no upsides at all. -∞/10, even though my hearing sucks atm.

Camilos’ is a little more subtle, but certainly still prevalent- he/they literally have the ability to shift any part of their body into anyone he has a clear image of- or to even change things about his body he doesn’t like- hello, body dysmorphia?? And I can’t imagine that this ability isn’t taxing- so if he wasn’t constantly eating Tia Julieta’s miracle food, I would bet that his muscles would be sore ALL the time. And having to eat constantly to replace burned energy! -7/10, I already don’t like my face, but I don’t want to have a cure-all for it!

As for Antonio, I don’t honestly know if his gift would have huge upsides like his siblings- but I think it would be like Julieta’s side- subtle, but really serious. Antonio can understand any animal- and they’re probably more compelled to be nice to him (i hope) but that would mean that Antonio probably won’t be doing much socializing outside of his family. Possible social anxiety? He’s got a really good net of people to help him though, so I can’t honestly see much downside to his gift. 10/10, the only good rating, I want to hear gossip from animals about the humans.

And oh, ho, ho! We’ve arrived at Julieta’s side of the family!

At first glance, I think Julieta’s gift looks pretty much without downside- just eat some of her cooking and wow! No more seriously broken bone!

Two things immediately pop out to me- this hinges on Julieta’s cooking, nobody else! I’m obviously not sure how persnickety magic is, but assuming it’s extremely picky, Julieta has to do everything- that means from raw ingredients to fully cooked, and she has to make a LOT. No rest for the weary here!

Second- relying on a magical cure for sickness and injury is concerning to me in two ways. What happens in a situation where (like after Casita falls) Julieta’s cooking isn’t a heal-all? Does she know anything about identifying injuries or treating them? I’d wager very little- given how much time she has to spend preparing her magical food.

And lastly- we saw a pattern here! Julieta has no time (or very little) to do literally anything else other than working with her gift. I’d wager she’d kinda get resentful of having to cook so much- it keeps her from paying attention to people who need her, not her food! Julieta’s gift gets a -2/10 for me, and that’s with me considering that her food could remove nausea.

Isabella Perfecta- on the outside I’d see her gift as pretty damn amazing- grow any flower, make a tree speed run growing, make any garden flourish? Cool!

But I think before Isabella actively changes what she’s growing, I think she could cause more harm than good. Any non-native plant can become an invasive species, if left unchecked. Now I think this is where it gets more complicated- I have a feeling that at least a certain amount of Isabella’s abilities are linked to her emotions, and if she set her mind to it, Isabella could likely remove plants in a wide area, much more effectively than a regular person. So, meh on the oof scale.

However! Her gift is incredibly unique, and we certainly saw that she used it ALL the time, often to try to appease Abuela. Now I’m going to try not to rant about Abuela’s influence on this side of the Madrigals, but the sheer energy Isabella spent on appeasement must’ve meant physical exhaustion. On my scale I’d say 6/10, because I realized that her abilities would help curb deforestation. In terms of taxing, 5/10.

Luisa. Oh, wonderful, beautiful Luisa.

I don’t have a lot to say really, your gift means you’re expected to do all the heavy lifting. You’re taken advantage of to move a building (seriously why did they have her move the church? No enough godly light??) and other things that HAVE NO BUSINESS BEING MOVED! REROUTING A RIVER IS NOT A THING TO BE DONE BY ONE PERSON!

This also means you’re away from the people you want to spend time with- you can pry my thoughts about how much Luisa loves her little sister from my cold dead hands, I’m a last child, I know how older siblings (with 5+ age gap) really want to treat their siblings, and it’s to play/spend time with them at the drop of a hat.

On top of all this? Her entire mental image of herself is being able to serve others in increasingly over complicated ways. She lost her cool at the dinner because she couldn’t do what a GUEST asked her to do. If I was the head of a household and my guest asked my (overpowered and certainly capable) child to move a large object for their own whim, I would kick them out! (Seriously! Mariano is fine, but Señora Guzman is on thin fucking ice!)

In my terms, Luisa’s gift is a 3/10, and that’s because she’s gotta have a heightened balance ability somewhere in there too.

And finally, Mirabel. Oh Mirabel, I literally sobbed every time you felt the gap between you and your family members- as a third child, you are so relatable and it broke my heart!

As a giftless Madrigal, you were seen less than, maybe not intentionally- but the feeling of uselessness was constantly being projected onto you, just because those with gifts wouldn’t allow you to help.

Because of that feeling of uselessness, I think Mirabel overcompensated- tried to do things that would “make my family proud”, show that she’s just as special as the rest of her family, and she shouldn’t be pushed aside just because she has no gift.

However, in a way, I think the lack of a gift saved Mirabel a lot of pain- the pain of never being enough, not if she couldn’t stretch herself to her very limits just to make people happy.

My diagnosis? Mirabel’s lack of a gift is a 8/10, and it’s only an 8 because no gift caused her so much pain.

Long story short, I think that the Madrigal’s family followed a pattern in gift types/burdens, and in the end I would call the gifts the drawback of creating a safe haven. They might be cool, but I would not want a Madrigal’s gift for myself, not even if it meant clear skin.

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Thoughts on Separate Tides and Allergen Representation; an Essay

“No appleblood. I spent the money on gryphon eggs for Luz. There’s not a lot she can digest here, so I make sure I have her favorites around.”

“Because you stuck with me, you lost your magic! You almost got turned to stone, and now you can’t even afford your appleblood because you’re worried about what I need to eat!”

This episode had a very surprising, and very sweet display of allergen representation. I really appreciate Luz’s issues and anxieties in this episode. While it’s presented in a fantasy way, when she explains how upset she is about her food restrictions, it speaks to a real issue affecting people with allergies and digestive problems. As someone with a food allergy growing up, the moments really spoke to me. I have Celiac Disease, which means that my body can’t digest gluten, a protein in wheat. I can eat the stuff physically, and the symptoms aren’t obvious like a peanut allergy. This makes it difficult to detect. The way it manifests is that my stomach can’t digest the protein. It will go through my small intestine, and tear up the lining of the organ that absorbs food, and what remains of the lining has a hard time absorbing other nutrients, causing me to essentially starve. These symptoms don’t appear immediately, taking days, weeks, or even months to register, making it even more difficult to detect. While gluten is something health nuts are obsessed with lately, it is a very real threat to people with my condition. My food can’t share the same plate, can’t share the same space; if they even so much as come into contact I have to scrap the whole meal just for safety’s sake. When I was younger, before I was diagnosed, I didn’t grow an inch for two years because my body had gone into maintaining the bare minimum needed for survival. My bones think they’re younger than they actually are. When I was diagnosed and I recovered, I grew a lot. What spoke to me in this episode was Luz’s discomfort and distress at Eda’s money troubles when it comes to food. It wasn’t a joke, it wasn’t mean, it was really meaningful, it’s a fact of life. It’s much like how Eda’s condition was treated in the first episode she appeared, just a part of life. Gluten free food is expensive, finding places that won’t actively poison me is exhausting, and I’m constantly worried about cross contamination. Even a few crumbs can be a problem. Frequently I will feel like a burden, like I’m being pedantic even though this is vital to my health. I cannot live off food with gluten, I will die. Yet it still feels as if I’m a burden. I’m right there with Luz; hearing people having to talk about our food sensitivities, and having to accommodate us, even if it's in a loving way like Eda said, is upsetting. I’m also going to guess that like me, Luz is also a picky eater even amongst stuff she can eat. On school trips, I always needed special treatment; it tended to be something that I don’t care for even if it was gluten free, or dry sandwiches I brought from home while my peers chowed down on pizza. I remember the looks everyone gave me. I have to explain to every single restaurant I find my condition. Even if they’re understanding, it’s a pain. Luz has been confirmed to be neurodivergent, and I am right there with her as well. It takes an immense amount of mental energy to find restaurants, to find the right menus, find the ones with the right accommodations. Food can’t even be cooked in the same fryer if I want to avoid cross-contamination. It’s terrifying and upsetting to constantly have to go to the front of the line and ask for what feels like conspicuous special treatment. As a neurodivergent person, social anxiety makes this so much worse. I constantly fear the cooks are cursing me under their breath for inconveniencing them, I fear that people behind me are whispering and that any moment a hand will land on my shoulder and demand I get to the back of the line with everyone else. Sometimes I will get food that I simply don’t like, or hasn’t been cooked right. Asking to have it fixed is terrifying, and I fear the people around me even more. Luz may not be super poor on Earth, but she voiced a lot of anxieties and frustration that people like me have. I'm from a well off family that could afford the additional expense of gluten free food, but I can’t imagine what a nightmare it is for real families who can’t afford gluten free food, or who can’t even

afford a diagnosis. To add insult to injury, many people will mock or dismiss us as being liars, pedantic, or just picky. It is a common thing to mock people with gluten free preferences; the Angry Birds movie made fun of it. I hear people complain about how expensive the food is even if they don’t have to eat it. People will offer me bread even after I explain to them what it will do to me. Dennys seems to have adopted a chain-wide proclamation to refuse to accommodate gluten free people. I have not eaten there in three years, because we experienced serious food problems in restaurants in Virginia and Vermont. Virtually every time I entered a Dennys three years ago, I would ask for a plate of plain and simple chicken that normally comes with toast, and I ask them to remove that; somehow, they would always screw up the order by putting glutinous bread right on top and ruining the whole meal. Yes, we are that sensitive to contamination. If it even touches the food the meal is ruined. Once, it was understandable because the waiter had been awake for eighteen hours. The other times were not. I saw the waiters argue with the other staff, I had a manager once come out to explain my own disease to me, even as two pieces of toast just sat there stewing on my chicken. That feeling of being a burden, of hearing people argue about trying to help you, stings very much. Some people will assume that we just don’t like wheat; I’ve heard horror stories of people trying to “prove” someone didn’t have Celiac Disease by secretly putting it in their food. The fact that we don’t go into anaphylactic shock when we consume it makes this a common problem as it leads them to assume it’s not an issue. It being a fad diet has also made my life worse; I have to constantly specify that I am not just gluten free, that I have an actual medical condition. I have to carry cards in my wallet to explain the situation. It feels like the world around me conspires to keep me from being healthy. And it feels like the world hates people like me for it. The best representation I’ve ever gotten for Celiac Disease was a CollegeHumor sketch. Most of the time, allergen representation is a joke, even if it’s informative and not meant to be mean. The Owl House breaks that trend with these two little exchanges. “No appleblood. I spent the money on gryphon eggs for Luz. There’s not a lot she can digest here, so I make sure I have her favorites around.” “Because you stuck with me, you lost your magic! You almost got turned to stone, and now you can’t even afford your appleblood because you’re worried about what I need to eat!” Luz’s snap at Eda about her food sensitivities is something I feel. I don’t often get allergen representation like this, especially any as loving and kind as this. Even to family, who love and support me, I can feel like a burden, as if there’s something wrong with me that is somehow my fault, and not the fault of a genetic disease dating back thousands of years. It’s deeply upsetting and frustrating to experience this. No matter who it comes from, it hurts a lot. I’m glad The Owl House captured this feeling perfectly. It’s good to know I’m not alone here. I’m glad to see representation where facts of my life aren’t seen as a joke.