#I would never be good enough
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I love languages but they can be so isolating too sometimes
#need to vent a bit I just received a bank letter from the last country I lived in#and it kinda hit me how even when learning that language for 6 years I wasn't good enough to speak it fluently#I would never be good enough#and every time I had to start by saying “sorry my language might not be good”#and I think in the end it kind of broke something in me#in past +10 years I lived in multiple countries and I put a lot of effort to speak the language as fast as I could#and I loved learning them and I'm glad I had a chance to live in those places#but damn was it lonely too#one of the things about being from a small insignificant country is that you're always the one who needs to adapt and change#sometimes people would be patient with me and speak slowly or offer to speak in english and I would be so grateful for that#most of the times it was just me sitting in a group at school/at work/at a friend gathering trying to catch the native language#and feeling extremely left out#it did push me to learn the language much quicker tho#and I've been feeling guilty too because those were amazing oportunities and other people have it worse#but maybe two things can be true at the same time#anyway I wrote back a reply to the bank after doublechecking 15 times the grammar I think it should be okay
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dungeon meshi is my favorite road-trip comedy film
#dungeon meshi#my art#laios thorden#senshi#marcille#chilchuck#chilchack#izatsumi#laois#laius thorden#sorry guys I don’t know which spelling is correct here#chilchucks car is a beat up beige Honda civic#laois never got a license because even though he’s actually a good driver he just never cared enough to do it#plus he wants to travel in some wacky way. like on a five person tandem bicycle or some shit#marcille never got a license because just fucking look at her#plus she gets motion sick in cars. she just would#senshi walks everywhere and has no need for cars#izatsumi just learned what a car was two days ago and she’s pissed that chilchuck doesn’t have a lambo#chilchuck doesn’t have time for any of this. he has to get his daughter to soccer practice at 5
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The quiet tragedy of shadow of the erdtree is playing through the DLC, encountering cross after cross along your journey and slowly coming to the haunting realisation that Miquella, the person you’ve been tailing throughout the entirety of the DLC, the creator of the Haligtree and protector of its denizens, the most fearsome and kind demigod of them all… Is long dead.
He’s not at the divine gates seeking godhood. Not really. The person known as Miquella is buried at the base of each and every cross in the land. Survived only by a few select ailing entities. St. Trina, slowly wilting at the bottom of the world, The Scadutree avatar who inherited his greatrune, and Miquella the Kind at the very peak of Enir-Ilim.
He not only abandoned his flesh, but went so far as to fracture his very soul. His doubts, his fear, his love. All abandoned in an attempt to fashion a perfect god. To right the wrongs of his mother and people and finally bring the world peace.
His flesh, his power, his birthright, his fate, his fear, his doubts, his love… after leaving all that behind, how much of what’s left is actually Miquella?
Miquella may have hurt many people in his quest for godhood, but he himself was never spared from that very same pain. He may have stripped Radahn and Mohg of their dignity and sense of self to fashion into the perfect consort, but he was just as willing to do the same to himself to fashion into the perfect god.
#elden ring#elden ring lore#miquella#shadow of the erdtree#marika#radahn#mohg#just kinda rambling today#the amount of times I muttered “oh miquella... you idiot.” throughout the dlc is crazy#he really did have the best intentions#he just wanted to make things better#to make the world a gentler place#but sacrificing himself like that was never the way to do it#He didn't have to atone for Marika's sins#and he didn't have to become a 'perfect god' and bring forth an age devoid of suffering#he just had to do better.#he just had to be kind#but the poor thing never realised how much value he would have had as a ruler#he never realised he was good enough just as himself.#The people of the lands between didn't need Miquella the God.#they just needed Miquella the Kind.
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2.12 Chimney Begins - 2.09 Hen Begins - 2.16 Bobby Begins Again - 7.04 Buck, Bothered and Bewildered
Tommy's family arc
#911#911edit#911 abc#911 show#911 spoilers#911 season 7#tommy kinard#evan buckley#evan 'buck' buckley#kinley#bucktommy#kinkley#tevan#pick a ship name you guys and thanks for picking tevan the most correct name#anyway analysis time!#looking back with Modern Knowledge tm about why tommy acts the way he does in the past... babygirl you were so closeted I'm so proud#babygirl was back there getting into narnia#he was so resistant to letting go of the pseudo-family he'd found at the 118 in chimney begins#even tho it was a good old boys club that he knew he really didn't fit into he was making himself fit because at least it was something#but then he let chimney in and then hen came around and he saw a very queer person being openly queer and not giving a fuck what they think#and I think his behavior in that episode was trying to support hen as much as he could without outing himself#because like. how do you give up years of relative safety with people who do care about you they just won't like you anymore if you're *you#then he meets buck in s7 which is like 10-20 years later timeline is fake and he's like oh. this is what unconditional family is#and he's like oh. maybe I can come back. maybe I can be part of this again somehow. maybe we've both grown enough#or at the very least he'll be close to something he never believed would really happen for him#rant over tevan my beloved tim minear pillow cold both sides god bless#my edits
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Happy Birthday to Fallen London; My favourite British people beefing it with bats simulator.
#fallen london#ambition: nemesis#mr.cups#Happy belated birthday to me: I finished my Nemesis ambition. I get to make a fun comic about it. THAT WAS THE DEAL!!!#...Is what I would have said had I not spent *four* days trying to draw a cool dramatic comic. This is all I have to show for it.#I also missed posting this on the Flondon anniversary so I'm double Smad and frustippointed at myself.#This is niche content but I know there are flondoners following me who will understand.#I had to make a second account because all my friends who I played with *also* picked Nemesis and dropped the game at various gates.#I failed every possible check at Knifegate. I was on the verge of madness. And yet I still love this game.#Little known secret about me: over 70% of the blogs I follow on tumblr are flondon rp blogs.#The cool art and character lore brings me a lot of joy!#With that said; what the hell is the coincidence that right as I finish Nemesis -#The flondon community starts a Nemesis Race.#Guys. it’s not worth it. It is a revenge quest about losing everything you have to see your task through.#All to culminate in the discovering that you are beefing it with a fanfiction writing bat.#That said; I do feel like this story was very satisfying for my melancholic doctor.#I knew I would get the choice between sparing or killing my nemesis (the bat) and I had a long time to think it through.#Someone who wants to save lives and (does as much as possible to do make things better for others) choosing against mercy?#Someone who never permitted themselves to let the city truly become a home because they were not a person - they were a tool for grief.#Alright..Yeah the ending was really good.#I will be back with a part two. Clearly I'm tenacious enough to commit to what I started.#If I am not excommunicated on sight by the flondon community I will be back with comics for the other ambitions.
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Just noticed something I thought was very interesting:
Victim depicts the Cursor as being giant in comparison to himself
When in reality this just wasn't true.
Victim's fear and trauma has caused him to re-imagine the Cursor into a much bigger monster than it ever was, something huge and horrible and capable of crushing him like a bug. A scale and strength fitting of how terrifying Victim considers it to be.
As opposed to the little thing barely bigger than his own head.
Except, those drawings look a little familiar...
This is literally Victim's worst nightmares made real.
Something tells me things aren't going to go very well, if the Cursor does end up being summoned into Rocket Corp...
#Maybe it's a good thing Victim never went far enough back in Chosen's memory to see Dark just getting absolutely bodied by Alan#Fam prolly would've started to have a panic attack right there in the Box#I think Victim would be confused if he saw the real Cursor again#After so long of building it up into such a giant beast#“Why is it so small? ...was it always that small...? No no it couldn't have been.....it always...seemed so much larger...”#I wonder how Chosen sees the Cursor...#Also Sidenote: I love when Dark first sees the Cursor in showdown: bro looks SO CONFUSED#Like “How the fuck is THAT here?!”#And then he gets his first taste of Alan's abuse two seconds later bc Alan does NOT hesitate lmao#Dark in between getting slammed onto the cliff: “Oh I fucked upppp”#animator vs animation#ava#alan becker#ava11#ava victim
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do any other artists feel like. yeah you're a 'good artist' because you draw things that look nice, but like. TECHNICALLY? you're really not great
i really hate that i can recognise that yes, my art is good, but is it VARIED? is it dynamic?? is my anatomy good? is it full of texture and colour theory? do i know how to do This? can i do That? no, not really. and that's quite painful actually
#ramble#yes this is the artist's perspective bs and yes this is anxiety because it's 1am#and yes i'm forever learning and growing but also#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.#drawing my little guys is fun but i am not good enough for the industry right now and that fucking sucks#i really feel like if i walked into a studio with my portfolio right now they would laugh at me#one of those days where i wish i'd done a more useful degree y'know#i'm going back through the phase where i don't know what i'm going to be anymore and it's scary#some days i really want to give it up and never draw again and do something worthwhile because i Know my life would be easier#and i hate that something i love so much makes me feel so hopeless#signs that i should go to bed ^^^^#i will resume my pity party tomorrow
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hello denizens of tumblr i come with humble offerings
they wish to romance you
#HIHIHIIIIHIIII ITS BEEN A WHILE!!!!#IVE STARTED COLLEGE!!!!#AND IM SO BUSY BUT IM HAVING SO MUCH FUN#BIOLOGY IS SO FUN TOO!!!#I love love love science and biology#what was I saying??#oh yeah HELLOO!!!!#IM STILL ALIVE AND KICKING#crying about statistical inferences but still alive#im going to be busy for a long time but i promise i still care y’all#and if i left any one of you on read i am sorry#im going to respond to all of you in just a minute i prommy life has just been insane so far#insanely good and bad ways#ive learned about people i thought i knew and about subjects i never thought i would understand#okay okay okay enough treating my blog like my diary#thats what my sketchbook is for!! xD#fnaf#fnaf fanart#dca#dca fandom#the dca#the daycare attendant#fnaf sb#security breach#sun fnaf#moon fnaf#sundrop#moondrop#love ya’ll make sure to take care of yourselves#chicken doodles
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the leverage team would have had a games night… once. everyone cheated so much and in such increasingly extreme ways that all mentions of monopoly are banned in their headquarters (this makes talking about marks who monopolize the market very confusing)
#leverage#nate wouldn’t cheat but he’d be by far the most annoying still. like he’d conduct a whole Scheme to win and give a little monologue wheneve#he made a good move and everyone would want to kill him#parker woukd obvs be stealing money & cards and she’d move their pieces and swap their stuff#but also she’d try to use her turn to rob the bank#sophie would use neurolinguistic programming and dominate the board w properties#which somehow parker would literally never land on and that’s incredibly suspicious but none of them really know how she could possibly be#manipulating that fact? it’s logically impossible bc they’re watching her roll the die and move the piece and sophie knows which properties#she owns so it makes no sense. but parker is parker and she simply will not be caught (even by sophie’s properties)#hardison has studied monopoly theory (yes there are math theories on how to play monopoly) and /tries/ to abide by them but again. sophie i#manipulating him and parker is stealing from him (and sometimes oddly enough *for* him. new money ends up in his bank somehow) so it’s hard#so eventually he resorts to cheating like Everyone Fucking Else and does pretty well bc he rlly does know what sets he wants etc.#eliot is genuinely playing normally. no cheating no math stuff no schemes.#but he’s just sitting there fuming the entire time bc they’re all very obviously messing with the game and he Knew this was gonna happen bu#goddamn hardison & parker especially know how to get on his nerves (often purposely)#he calms down by making some snacks and. resorting to also cheating lol.#leverageposting
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im sorry but i choose to believe that tim drake is the most insufferable "my man, my man, my man" girl about bear. he does not shut up about him. steph is cooking smth in the kitchen? oh my man can do that. bear cooks really well. dick triaging some poor victim on an emergency site? oh my man is really good at that. mhmm, bear is on his way to becoming a paramedic. damian building something? oh my man is really good with power tools. have you ever seen him build ikea? it takes him less than an hour. for our anniversary, he built me a coffee table. mhmm isn't he amazing? yeah my man did that. yeah my man, mhmm that's my ma-
#and on and on and on#like it never fucking stops#jason gets a tattoo? tim manifests in the tattoo parlor to talk about his man's tattoos#'yeah they're sooo gorgeous! he has a grasshopper over his heart cause that's what he calls me! yeah that's like his little nickname for me#'and there's two cardinals in flight on his forearms! isn't that sooo cute!!! he says he's keeping me with him!!!'#and like everyone thought is was cute at first bc like first gay relationship!!! let tim gush about his boyfriend!!!#but then it like quickly and i mean quickly became annoying#like dick puts on his police uniform and tim immediately is like 'have you seen my man in his paramedic uniform? dont his biceps#look so good in it? and he's providing service for those in need without being a pig! isn't my man so great!'#and dick just has to sit there with his eye twitching bc the last time he tried to defend his police job the whole family laughed so hard#they almost cried.#also i hope you know that all of tim's lines are said in a valley girl accent. with the tone of a woman who is so fucking annoying about#her man. like he's the kinda guy at sunday brunch 2 mimosas deep trying to one up bart on like who has the better bf#spoiler alert bart wins only for the sole fact that he's not annoying about kon the way tim is about bear#meanwhile the rest of the group is creating enough of a ruckus that they're like 2 seconds away from getting kicked out of dennys#and while i would like to say that bear knows about this i just think that he has such hearteyes for tim that it completely flies over his#head. like he sees tim and he turns into a fucking idiot. he's putting in the saline line wrong he's doing chest compressions on a guy#who is perfectly fine. he's letting the steak burn on the stove#so theyre like both fucking useless together. and i think that's love.#bernard dowd#tim drake#timbern#timber
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bird friend,,
shoutout to the echo garden for kicking my sorry ass back into transformers
#my art#the echo garden#now it doesn’t *technically* have soundwave in it but#soundrod#i vaguely remember seeing this fic when it was in its infancy and honestly I’m glad I just got to reading it now when it’s done#bc ongoing fics never hold my attention for long idk I’m just not patient enough HHH#but damn it was soo fukcing good like I ate that mf up in like 3 days time#laserbeak#transformers prime#mtmte#transformers mtmte#rodimus#rodimus prime#lost light#maccadam#also I didn’t know how laserbeak would hook on to roddy bc on one hand it’s upside down on soundwave but rodimus doesn’t have the dock sooo
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As a new BSD fan and Kunichuu stan, I've learned that we don't actually have many canon interactions between them, so I really like the idea that Chuuya respected the HELL out of Kunikida when he jumped out of that helicopter to literally blow up the enemy, sacrificing himself to save his peers
And whenever they next meet, Chuuya is gonna make sure to let Kunikida know how much of a badass he is, and from there each time the PM and the ADA have to join forces (cuz at this point they're more coworkers than anything else), Chuuya gains an interest in Kunikida and actively tries to work together with him whenever he can
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#chuuya nakahara#kunikida doppo#kunichuu#Thank you for coming to my Ted talk#Asagiri doesn't pair them bc he knows that they would never stop gushing on each other#and that would leave Dazai without a good enough partner and we can't have that (I mean now we have Sigma but still)#fanart#digital art
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I think John Dory should have 7 (evil) exes and you have to defeat all of them in order to date him.
Choose your fighter 💥💪
#i probably wont make 7 ... probably#three is already enough to draw for#and tbf i dont think jd and cory ever dated??#w/e!!!!!!#that means jd is ramona#then who is scott? we need a scott#and a wallace but hes straight? no ... i would never do that to a wallace parallel#anna kendrick is already there so thats easy#trolls#trolls 3#trolls band together#brozone#trolls oc#trolls ocs#jd trolls#john dory#uhh#maybe it would be like a sing off rather than a fight#so whoever the scott parallel is would be a really really good singer#u know whats funny? jd isnt even my favorite brother#he might not even be second#but i like making little exs for him so what ever : )
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911 really is such a good reminder of the particularly kind of joy that is weekly, seasons-long shows with many episodes per season. every character gets a moment to shine even in a truncated season. the satisfaction of seeing characters grapple with stuff that happened YEARS ago. having multi-episode arcs and one-off arcs that are equally enjoyable. beach episodes (metaphorical). I know we're all saying this all the time but why can't more tv be like this
#911#911 spoilers#lauren feels things#do I hate waiting week to week for this show?#of COURSE#but it's so fun to run to youtube after an episode and watch the promo for next week#(why don't weekly streaming shows do promos btw? we should bring those back)#this week's 911 really was such a SHINING example of this#in one episode we got:#HUGE bobby exploration#bathena content#major hen exploration#AND henren content#eddie breakthrough#buddie content#callbacks to seasons 1 and 2 in MANY ways#tommy content!! that confrontation with his old shitty captain did so much in such a short time#we didn't get enough chimney or madney for my taste#but that's only because I can LITERALLY never get enough of them#and chimney had a hUGE episode 2 episodes ago so that's okay#and!!!!!! this is after a whole week spent JUST on bobby!#that was so compelling!!!#and in a 10 episode season still feels like we're getting to everything#the callback to dosed#the return of bobby's suicidal ideation#I mean jesus CHRIST#I'm so glad he and athena talked about the book#also I would loooooove love love another bobby chimeny convo about this at some point#bc that scene in s1 when bobby tells chimney about his plans to kill himself#is one of my favorite scenes it's SO good
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idk what people pleaser needs to hear this, but everyone at work liking you is the nightmare scenario. there is no light at the end of the tunnel doing that where everyone loves you forever. if you had to crush any parts of yourself to be likable you will forever have to keep the pressure on and you will never get to relax. you have to say no and you have to say I disagree and you have to say actually I didn't like that or I thought it was unfair and most of all you have to stop automatically agreeing before you even have a chance to think about if you do agree. it will feel very painful but it's the difference between stepping on a sharp rock and living with a small splinter in your foot for 20 years. also your coworkers liking the version of you that never complains and always agrees with them is not liking you it is actually them liking themselves which you are reflecting back to them. there is no such thing as everyone liking you. remember this or suffer the consequences
#good idea generator#this post is actually for me. idk what any of you all have going on at work#this is for me to look at next week before i go in on friday morning#relatedly a coworker of mine recently called me a people pleaser which. for some reason. was jarring#i would have previously neverrr called myself a people pleaser#what i would do instead is just list out a bunch of people pleasing traits as personality traits#and i had simply never made that connection. so when she said that i was like. oh damn. uh oh#anyway im trying to have a personality at work now. not too much! i believe in the worksona#but enough so that i do not wither away and/or compromise my actual beliefs so ppl like me more
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thinking about gillions talk with caspian about his home. thinking about how shocked gillion was when he find out caspian never wanted to go back. thinking about how gillion never planned on staying.
#jrwi riptide#jrwi#gillion tidestrider#jrwi gillion#i can’t stop thinking about this fish man#he never planned on staying cause he never thought he could#he got kicked out of his home and thought it would always be like that#everyone would eventually find out he’s not good enough
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