#I would have zero chills about this
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I call Babe "Barbie," and if I had any creative skills, I would have already made 18 posts comparing Pit Babe scenes to Charli XCX's "Speed Drive" video.
EIGHT. TEEN. POSTS.
Ah-ah, Barbie, you're so fine, you're so fine you blow my mind Jump into the driver's seat and put it into speed drive
Hot, ridin' through the streets, on a different frequency Know you know just what I mean, we're runnin' through the red lights
My lack of skills is the only reason I'm having any chill about this.
#pit babe#pit babe the series#speed drive#charli xcx's 'speed drive'#I would have zero chills about this
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How do you sleep at night? No one to hide behind Betrayed every alibi you had You had every chance to make amends instead you got drunk on bitterness And you still claim that you're innocent, it's sad
#daniel ricciardo#dr3#christian horner#for the blacklists#I recognize that christian horner in a gifset is NOT the kind of content people in ricnation are looking for rn#debated posting this but fuck it#me 🤝🏼 daniel: two bitches that love a depressing song lyric#it's about breaking free from a toxic relationship and the importance of prioritizing one's own needs#and that it can take a long time to recognize the dynamics at play in those relationships#and removing yourself from that situation can be just as hard and that just kind of epitomizes daniel with christian for me#in the return to rbr I think daniel trusted that CH would at the very least be straight forward and upfront with him#even if the end result wasn't what daniel wanted or hoped for#daniel could handle not getting the rbr seat#but something he couldn't handle was the truth that the one person he believed he could trust was gaslighting him and using him#and daniel had a light bulb moment - the point where you realize that sometimes the best thing you can do for yourself is to walk away#and so he got out#also this is obviously my interpretation of a relationship that I have zero insider info on and maybe they are chill now#as always…thinking too deeply about people I don’t know in the tags#also i recognize that this song is actually about a tiktok hype house but whatever rbr are that immature so it fits#this is my first go with this type of editing in PS so if you have any tips on style and execution i'm all ears#Apparently i also owe CH an apology bc i was so sure he didn't shake daniel's hand pre-race in singapore but he actually did and i missed i#during the breakdown i was having anyway fuck him still
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alhaitham: it’s five in the morning what do you want from me
cyno: your signature on this paper
cyno: also a date but i don’t think that’s relevant right now
alhaitham: cyno please it is FIVE in the MORNING
#haino#cytham#cyhaino#alhaitham#cyno#haino incorrect quotes#genshin impact#genshin incorrect quotes#cyno pls have mercy on him#firmly believe cyno has absolutely zero sense or care for timing#like man would just blurt out confessions whenever#alhaitham thinks it’s charming until they start dating and he is absolutely OVERLOADED with affection#would take like six months before he starts getting used to cyno expressing how much he loves him ALL the time#alhaitham is blunt but he’s so SHORT with what he says too and he habitually hides details that might come in handy later#so i think cyno’s combined bluntness and honesty and urge to care for people would really throw him off#like woah hang on chill wtf what about alhaithams perfect plans to actually say i love you on day 68 of dating??#meanwhile cyno is calling alhaitham beloved in broad daylight from day ONE#alhaitham stuck reconfiguring his perfectly planned relationship timeline for hours smh
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what's your redraw tag for?
back in high school and college, i would pretty regularly redraw memes, text posts, and scenes from other media to warm up. so i started that tag to easily have something to look through when i wanted to draw—though now i usually have specific characters in mind
for example:
#zero escape#999#not pjo#my art#answered#anonymous#anon#Thanks from the Argo!#I wanted to have an example for you and I drew this the other day#I decided this was an easier barrier to entry than the trans dio one#also vlr is fake because clover would never be so chill about some of that. someone let her kill.
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Currently reading a book about Queen Jane (don't worry I already know this Does Not End Well) and this may be the one time when Mary Tudor's stubbornly sticking to her guns until everyone around her Sees Reason actually works. Though not quite, I suppose, since it didn't take long for her to get the throne. But! Someone else made a decision that affected her life and she went "Get fucked" and insisted she was still queen of England* and won! Sadly I remember it being mostly downhill for her from here but still! She won a thing!
Jane's problem partly seems to be that the public phone-in vote for "Who Should Be Queen?" is running the one everyone's long been assuming would be queen against an unknown who was only added to the poll so there'd be some Drama created by the idea that the favourite might not win. Otherwise Mary's fans might not bother to pay £1 to vote for her, and then where would we be? (Answer: poorer, and in a reality where there were phones in the 16th century.)
John Dudley has a lot of sons, I bet Henry 8th hated him. At least one of them dies in this story, and it's weird that the highlight here is the occasional glimpse of the son you know from books about Elizabeth 1st, who also hasn't done much in this tale but ooh it's another Celeb Cameo when she pops up to claim to be too ill to travel!
Actually I was surprised by how late Dudley & Co left the "capture the two people ahead of Jane in the line of succession" part of their plot, but I suppose they didn't know when Edward was going to die and if you move too soon everyone's just going to ask "Why have you put the princesses in the Tower? Are you doing a sequel to Richard 3rd?" which would be Awkward AF at the very least. Especially if Edward then somehow didn't even die. But anyway they did leave it a bit late and were left in an "oh shit, the other queen can move across the board in any direction" panic.
It's quite shite for Jane, really. She didn't want to be queen anyway, she just wanted to read books :(
(*she's also claiming to be queen of France and Ireland, as was traditional, but those are... "less fact-based" we might say.)
#history fandom#books and reading#i feel like jane could have ended up quite despotic about religion as she had zero chill on that but it didn't happen so whatever.#they should do another (regnant) queen jane just so we can argue about how to number her#but that would have to be about 3 generations away and i'd prefer if we'd just ditched the monarchy & aristocracy entirely by then#the tudors (the dynasty not the tv show)
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I'll tell you what, waking up and checking the discord and my dash now I'm in the Discworld fandom is way better than when I was waking up and checking twitter in the morning.
#no comparison really#but sometimes i think back to the times before i deleted the twitter app#the bad thing about the ofmd fandom was that everyone i knew was on twitter and that place is Not Chill#i like it here#i feel cosy#i've seen posts discussing the potential for copaganda in the city watch series and they have actually been pretty reasonable discussions!#on twitter there would be witch hunts and cancel posts and zero nuance#and actually i wouldnt see any of the discourse but i would see lots of people complaining that discourse was happening and having opinions#i have bills to pay#and art to make#i don't have the spare time or energy for that#anyway Tumblr discworld fandom you're a delight and i love you ❤️#magpie.txt
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something something a fanfic in which Ian is best friends with Yevgeny and then he timetravel and falls in love with his best friend's father.
I like to think that in this version he was raised by Clayton cause Monica obviously couldn't, and canonlike she wasn't in the picture much. He then lives with his father, stepmother and siblings but doesn't quite fit with them. Yev was raised by Svetlana and never knew his father cause he left when Yev was a baby.
When Ian travels back he is saved by Mandy. He says he's a Gallagher and she's like "I know the Gallaghers but I never saw you!". He's introduced to his "cousins" who immediately take he in like a brother? Who he is cause of Monica.
Then because of Mandy he gets to know Mickey and younger Svetlana and baby Yev and it is extremely fucked but... my dick's in your dad mouth, sorry Yev!
Gallavich: they start as friends cause Ian quickly hits off with Mandy, and soon Ian gets to understand the difficult situation that led to Yevgeny's conception and why Mickey probably left them when Yev was still a baby. Then, feelings come along and Mickey's deep in the closet but Ian's nothing if open-minded so with time it works out. Ian doesn't lose interest even though Mickey has a wife and baby, he isn't scared off easily, and Yev Svet and Mandy all like him so that's a turn on. Ian likes older guys so the fact that Mickey's an old soul in a hot young body who listens to dad music and is grumpy is what attracts Ian.
The future is forever altered. Ian now actually has a family of Gallagher's he actually likes and fits. Ian came along so Mickey never left the picture and now Yev was raised with his father around. Which changed the way Yev grew up to be, so he's not the version Ian knew, but that's alright cause then Ian gets to meet him again. And yes, they end up being best friends all the same, after all, Yevgeny watch the type of cartoons and listens to the kind of music and plays the same videogames Ian grew up with so they're very close.
#How do time travelers solve the documentation issue? I'm not sure. there would have to be research in order to write this fic.#but if there was someone who would know how to help Ian it would be Svetlana. hello Russian illegal immigrant?#also. shes the first to find out hes not from there cause Ian knew older Svet but hes only now getting to know younger Svet and he#has absolutely no chill so she figures him out rather quickly and than he proves her right by revealing things she never told anyone before#eventually people have to know hes a time traveler but I like to think every time it happens is in a shitty situation totally non planed#and then theres doubt and he has to try and prove but! effect butterfly things wont happen as they happened before#like he will try and say “this actor will die this year” or “bitcoins are a thing” or “we'll face a pandemic" and... nope. never happens.#and then hes right about the most stupid useless but detailed thing like the whole plot of a movie thats not released yet or like. vaping.#stop im so funny. it will become a family joke thing like Franny and Liam will constantly listen their family say Ian's a time traveler and#and is it true is it a joke why everybodys so serious about it theyre totally messing with us#mickey gives a total of zero fucks i bet. now he gets why ian is the way he is like super optimistic and anxious and super open minded but#like. it changes zero things for him. good for u ian i guess. i would still love u if u were an alien or from another dimension of whatever#ian gallagher#mickey milkovich#yevgeny milkovich#svetlana yevgenivna#mandy milkovich#gallavich#ian x mickey#shameless#shameless us#og.#fic idea#honestly “fic idea” is like my best tag
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what was mance’s actual plan in a scenario where he can take castle black and let all the free folk through the wall (i.e. if jon died before warning them). let them disperse into the gift and just. fend for themselves i guess? would his kingship have ended there? was there ever a plan more complex than “dont get turned into ice zombies” or was he just riffing the whole time. was he imagining some kind of treaty? maybe his plans relied on there still being a reasonable stark in winterfell lol. but it’s not like he can negotiate with the boltons or stannis… and the wildlings are so fractured they would IMMEDIATELY split off. like what would he have DONE if he won? was he doomed from the start??? someone please spitball with me
#ive been trying to crowdsource ideas about this for insane fanficky reasons but it’s like#cause the wildlings are not like. centralized he cant just keep them at castle black forever there are 100000 of them#he also would have. zero information about current northern politics#at castle black he’s in an ok position esp if he also takes the shadow tower but he still has stannis + some dregs at eastwatch#he could.. maybe.. take empty winterfell before the boltons ever got there but would it even help? there wouldnt be any food there#and the bolton coalition might even actually be bolstered if they had a common enemy lol#however: no one would go to hardhome. So at least theres that#i guess it would devolve into a chaotic mass migration scenario but mance is like. Clever and wily i cant imagine he didnt have a PLAN!!!#the smart move would be to take moat cailin before roose can come up but. To accomplish what exactly#i mean if everyone chilled repopulating the gift would anyone even care. you’re gonna massacre a hundred thousand civilian wildlings?#But stannis is the issue there he would not allow that he would want to reinstate the watch. hmmmm
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Hrmm... Revising my game and I feel like there's still sooo much writing left to do, for something that probably won't even amount to much, so.. I do want to narrow my focus more (especially given my health problems seeming to get worse/less energy the past few years), but I'm not sure how would be best to...
I currently have 5 characters as the Main ones with full planned questlines and such, with each character having 6 quests you can do for them. But I haven't really started the writing for the 5th main character. So then I was thinking, if I were going to write 6 full quests worth of content anyway... is it better to allocate that time on just doing a Complete 6 Quests for ONE single character, OR would it be better to do something like.. choose THREE side characters and do 2 quests for each of them? So that people have a wider variety to interact with and sort of sample around (of course with the idea that, once the first version of the game is released, IF people actually care about it enough to make it worth the effort, I would then add additional content to complete those 3 characters stories as well)
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SO... If you were playing an interactive fiction sort of game centered around talking to & doing quests for a cast of characters (like there's no larger plot, more it's just about interacting with people, every character kind of has a self contained story, the focus is just learning about them and the world and exploring the area) --- Which would you rather have?
(and of course it would be stated up front which characters have only partial questlines, so people don't expect them to have full quests like the others and then get disappointed, or etc. etc.)
Basically, is it better to just focus in specifically on having one fully complete questline? Or for there to be a few stories that are not complete yet, but have more initial options available?
#I guess I just feel weird about investing too much into characters if possibly nobody will like them. so the idea of being able to sample#around a wider variety opens up the option of like 'hey even if neither of these 4 are your favorite - you have 3 other options soon too!'#or whatever. BUT I also am very anti-the trend of releasing half finished games or shit like that where people preorder and then#the game sucks on actual release and isn't fully playable or good until 5 updates later#HOWEVER.. those are giant companies with hundreds of employees and millions in funding. I feel like it's different for someone#if they're just like ''hey I am getting zero money for this and doing it entirely on my own in my free time and before I do like 50+ hours#of work on top of the 100+ hours of work that I already did - I would like maybe to at least see some proof#people are interested in this - so I'm releasing the game with like a small amount of the originally intended content removed#that I still have planned out and hope to add later and the game is still entirely done and completely functional#except for just a few quests I might add later.. sorry'' etc. etc. ??? like I think that's different. but maybe some people dont see#it that way and would still be like 'grrr.. how dare there be unfinished options..>:V" idk#And the nature of the quests is such that it's not weird to have it be partial like.. again.there's no major plot. it's not like the quests#are leading up to some dramatic thing and having them half done would make it feel like a cliffhanger. It's meant to be very casual just#chilling and doing little tasks and such. And last thing to clarify I guess - by 'side character' I don't mean taking some unimportant bac#ground character and forcing them to have quests. I mean like.. originally the game had 8 full characters and I thought that was#too much so I cut it down to 5. So I still had everything planned for all the side characters too. Id' just be like.. re-giving them#quests and focuses that were already planned from the beginning but that I got rid of.. former main characters banished to the side lol..#ANYWAY... hrmm... hard to decide... It's just so niche I think. I feel more and more like I should just get it to a 'proof#of concept' state and get it out there to interest check rather than invest in it soooo much for nothing. Because I really do not have the#tastes other people do or interact with games or have interest in things in the same way. A lot of the stuff that I love (slow. character#focused things with basicaly no action or plot where its' just about getting to explore a world and learn about#people in a casual low stakes setting but ALSO not romance) I think people find very boring so... lol...#This year as I try to pick the project back up again after abandoning it for like 3 years I keep looking at stuff and going.. ough...#yeah... cut this maybe.. I should cut that too.. I should make them a side character.. remove this.. blah blah..#Though I did ADD a journal and inventory system and other things that like People Expect Games To Have so.. maybe#that will count for something.. hey..you can collect items.. it's not just 'talking to elves for 600 hours simulator'.. are you#entertained yet? lol.... When I was making my other tiny game for that pet website and I gave it to the play testers and someone was like#''it should have achievements so I feel I'm working towards something concrete'' I was literally so blindsided like..??... people WANT that#in games..? is the goal not simply to wander aimlessly &fixate on world/character lore& make your own silly pointless personal goals? I did#do them though because it IS fun to make up little achievement names and such but.. i fear i am out of touch so bad lol..
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Question to a fanfic writer: do you think that, in Marcille’s research ways *And* her love for romance novels… would result in her writing some in-universe fanfics of her own? Like, maybe she hypes herself up on something and get disappointed, or maybe she finds some character decision isn’t as ideal as she thinks it could be? Or it’s as simple as she wants to play around with the characters and see what happens?
I can’t help but imagine a scenario where she’s struggling with some romantic trouble irl and she’s struggling with deciding on what to do, but then the answer slaps itself upside her head when she rediscovers her fanfics and how she LITERALLY made a character or two do the exact romantic decision she needs to do? It would so silly but yet I can’t help but find it so charming. Hell, just the imagery of her writing romance fanfics of her own At All is just… delightful to me hehehe.
you know I've been rotating this in my head since I saw it this morning and. I went through a wild journey of opinions before I realized... Marcille wouldn't think about fanfiction like we think about it. In the modern age, yeah, she'd be a complete tumblrina -- but we're talking about a 17th century-ish fantasy setting.
Writing before the digital age was a physical commitment to investing ink and paper into your thoughts -- and this is even before mass production can make pens and notebooks kind of whatever to buy and use on a regular basis. I'm sure the situation wasn't dire, but I really can't see Marcille, perfect honor student, using her allotted supply of stationery at the academy on super frivolous things.
Fanfiction has been normalized incredibly fast in the past few decades. Think about now normal and popular D&D is nowadays compared to how much people looked down on it 20-30 years ago. Fanfiction was a freakass nerd thing to do until relatively recent history, something that was even considered offensive to the original creators.
Remember, we've already seen Marcille react to adaptations with disgust. She's kind of a hater and an elitist fan. She also considers herself a Reputable Academic. In a setting where a digitized culture hasn't reframed fanfiction as an act of appreciation and creativity, she would absoluuuuuuuutely think that fanfiction was complete loser shit.
If she did write anything about her favourite books... She'd. She'd be one of those assholes who writes huge scathing reviews of Dal Clan translations into Common. She'd be the fantasy equivalent of those Weebs/Japanese elitists on twitter tearing through every single localization choice in anime and JRPGs and being so so annoying about it.
If we're being charitable, we could say she'd be able to appreciate non-faithful translation choices that still do a good job of carrying over the original spirit of what was said. But I think we also have to acknowledge the possibility that, at her worst, she'd really really be like those guys who were malding about the Unicorn Overlord localizations so hard the (correction: Final Fantasy Tactics Creator, not the Unicorn Overlord devs) had to step forward and ratio them. (The silver lining is that she'd never get published in the arts review newspapers/journals that she submits her essays to. those poor editors just have to deal with her being persistent.)
#asks#marcille donato#dungeon meshi#im so sorry anon your idea was very cute and i know i wasn't supposed to take this so seriously but#god. the revelation hit me and i just cried laughing#she's so horrendous. i love her so fucking much.#i really do think the only setting she'd be able to write fanfiction is in modern aus#bc then she can just delete stuff she doesn't like and lose nothing but the time it took to write it#the problem is that she has the kind of perfectionism that stops her from doing things unless she can do them competently the first time#(gifted child syndrome)#but writing fiction is a skill. one that she would have to hone from zero. while not necessarily having natural talent for it.#her reading standards would be so much higher than her writing ability and she'd haaaaate that#... that said#i can see her absentmindedly dabbling in short form poetry in the margins of her journal#i think that's small enough of a scale that she'd accidentally do it a lot without thinking about it too hard#until she was actually half-decent at it one day#like... starting some years into the post-canon. this is crucial. she needs to chill a bit before this could happen
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i’m supposed to be happy down here rn, but I’m not. I feel so homesick. not for my hometown, no. but for Rich and the boys at the shop. Rich especially needs me rn bc he just got outed and lost of all his business contacts so now he has absolutely no money coming in except for his disability payments. he didn’t even call me once during this ordeal. when I asked him why last night, he said that he didn’t wanna bother me bc I’m supposed to be on vacation and chilling and didn’t want me to worry about him. I can’t be mad bc I’d do the same thing honestly.
down here, everything seems so foreign to me. like I just stick out like a sore thumb. but nobody here knows me and I can truly be myself without judgement or preconceived notions ppl have about me. well, not really bc it’s dangerous for trans ppl down here. despite my life being shit back home, I miss it. I rlly do. and I’ve nearly drank about five different times and the rally (the big stressor) isn’t until Thursday. i’m terrified that I’ll relapse soon if I stay here, and if I do, mom and sis will scream and scream at me saying that I’ve disappointed grandma and am spitting on her memory by going back to the very thing that she fought so hard to help me beat back.
i’m just. Sad. and I feel empty inside. so very empty.
#also came to the realization down here that i definitely have zero empathy and struggle super bad#with having any sympathy for anyone at all#do I think im a sociopath? well. the jury’s out on that honestly#do i care only about myself? pretty much except for rich#do i manipulate my family just bc i can and bc i wanna#see what would happen? yep#do i catch myself manipulating other people without thinking#yep again. if I do end up being some flavor of sociopathic idk how my family will react#i do have sociopathic tendencies ill admit it#basically i’m scared of myself of bc of this realization#and the urge to sh has been rlly fucking bad down here#I truly cannot relax and just Chill can I
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my other hot take about s11 is that the midseason fics where "Castiel" seduces Dean and everybody except Lucifer has a real bad time are hot, but the world is sorely lacking in versions where Sam walks in on them and Realizes, immediately or eventually, who it is
#i'm sure all four of them would have a super chill and fun and friendly and relaxing day about it. zero atrocities would occur.#yes this is one of the fics i'm not writing. yes i think many people's versions should exist besides the one in my head. the possibilities!#supernatural#spn s11#casifer#dean winchester#sam winchester#castiel#spn!lucifer#dare i tag this#destiel#the concept does kinda hinge on it being something those two might conceivably have done or been interested in already#...dealer's choice on what other pairings might be involved too lol
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V random but I’m in my Brockpetey feels could I listen to your 46 60 playlist!!
of course!! the first playlist i mentioned in the tags is actually not mine—it belongs to ash @notthequiettype and is a soundtrack to their wonderful fic Lake Rules (go read it if you haven’t already!!! highly recommend!!!)
annnd this one is my personal brockpetey vibes playlist
happy listening!!!
#liv in the replies#sadcanucksfan#also!! ash if you want me to unlink/untag please let me know and i will!!!#this one got bumped up because it’s currently relevant (i just posted brockpetey content) the rest of them will be scheduled in the queue 🫡#if i don’t do it now i will lose all links and ability to find things#as for my brockpetey i have zero reasons for any of the songs besides minnesota. it’s all vibes no thoughts.#minnesota to me is the quintessential brock petey song topped only (but really equaled) by charm you (also by samia)#like minnesota i would love to say is a joke but i really heard that song for the first time YEARS ago and went oh my fucking god.#i’m going back to minnesota huh#and then CHARM YOU??? AN ACT OF VIOLENCE AGAINST ME PERSONALLY????#you’re telling me there’s the lyrics ‘kissin you would be like kissin on the USA’ & ‘flying while i’m lying that i hate LA’ & it’s not 406?#(addition that i wasn’t gonna tell you but i have to tell y’all because it’s relevant to Me. samia is so so so so good live.)#(also i haven’t added it to the playlist because it’s sad but kill her freak out has narrative potential as brockpetey. also????#they’re all somehow petey pov to me. sometimes people just get assigned bands in my head for no reason & i think samia is petey’s vibe band.#BESIDES bbno$ which is canon lmao. spiritually petey is a samia song to me i guess idk why either sorry but kill her freak out#is a (seemingly you know how i am) unrequited brock/petey for when brock got his gf. thank u for your time i hate it too just listen to it)#also no statements about my music taste i will cry. if you hate it don’t tell me if you have recs do tell me#although i do have a joke playlist compiled of all the songs brock has been screencapped listening to because. why not. it’s fun and also#has that man ever listened to a single lyric in his life. what the FUCK is up with your chill playlist bud none of those songs are chill.#lovingly. ripping my hair out. the amount of times he listens to fast car like???? girl are you okay.#anyway this is ur reminder i miss stalking people on spotify let me see your music taste cowards.#ALSO#IF I THINK TOO LONG ABOUT PETEY IN MINNESOTA I WILL LOSE MY SHIT SO I AM NOT JUST KNOW THAT I CLICKED THE FIC & SKRTED I CAN’T HAVE EMOTIONS#if i did not have someplace to be at precisely 7:50AM i would be having a full breakdown please believe me.#oh also ALSO bonus points if you figure out what the numbers in the name are :)
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hm.
#how do i tell my sister that while i appreciate the thought it is in fact not nicer if she takes the couch occasionally and lets me have my#room sometimes. first of all i HATE disruptions like this it's kind of even more distressing 2 be able 2 sleep in#my own room for one night and then i can't again!!! that sucks net zero!!! second of all She Has My Quilt.... trying very hard 2 be normal#and chill about this and not like it's one of the few things i really really really hate other people using & causes me distress etc.#also like i explicitly said 'hey haha don't do this please' & then she did anyway. which she does!!! i forgot about that!!!#also like man i dont fucking want to sleep on someone's used sheets & blankets that's gross. so im arguably less cosy than i would be. gggh#this all seems like.... very minor and stupid im sure however man im like constantly in a state of middling to severe distress over this#shit. because i in fact also hate people going through my shit or being in my room and also having no privacy however#im very good with suppressing and or masking how much i hate it usually!!!!! but dude she fucking hung her laundry & underclothes#to dry or air on top of my fucking books on my shelves. like. ghghhh hate it hate it cant SAY i hate it because of the everything!!!#ok. sorry. minor pressure cooker escape valve complaining over now im gonna go sleep awkwardly on top of the blankets on my own bed with#some throw blankets. leaving my door open for the beafts if she closes it in the morning bc she thinks she knows what i want ill scream.#txt#neg#this is like private kvetching btw ok i love her dearly it's just unbelievably frustrating.
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#why must my brain insist that dating is existentially terrifying.#like literally there are no actual red flags in this relationship but my brain is just like. this is change and vulnerability which os Bad#so obviously you should break up immediately for zero reason#but then when i tell myself umm hello that's stupid and also deeply selfish and hurtful dont do thay#then my brain is like ah. but that is because secretly something is terribly wrong and you obviously want to pursue this relationship#despite what prudence and good judgment™️ would have to say#and then im like no there is no reason why this is not good hello#and my brain is like ah. but are you sure. because you are young and naive and have never dated before which disqualifies you#from having opinions.#and then i pray about it and God is like. child chill out a bit i am leading you. trust me.#and then my brain shuts up but my emotions are like. *nebulous dread*#anyway.#we are having a Growing Experience over here and it is probably good for me but not real fun#(except when yknow i actually spend time with the boy and then im like. why am i dumb.)
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#CSI#CSI CBS#Julie Finlay#Finlay Friday#Mike Robinson#CSI on Fire#CSI: Seattle#my gifs#*9P#*seattle#a fun fact about me is that I have absolutely zero chill#and would like to live inside this episode forever#also me: hey I want to write post-coma Seattle fic#but start the timeline in pre-CSI Seattle#yeah#100k words in and these motherfuckers are only just getting together#i am out of control
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