If Claude had forced Diana to abort the baby how would that have changed their relationship? Would Diana forgive this gross violation of her body because he did it to save her life? Would her love still burn as bright as ever after they reconciled or would her feelings cool down?
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Is there anyone who has an opposite problem of waking up late? I wake up early against my will. I don't know if it's the homesteader dna syncing me up with nature, but if the sun is up, I am up. It doesn't matter if it's 5am, I am awake if the sun exists above the horizon. Doesn't matter if I went to sleep at midnight or 2am, I will be up at 5 and unable to sleep for a second more. I have to go to sleep at 9pm if I want decent sleeping hours.
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having perhaps a full anxiety attack over that email i dont know why i responded i cant work a job i cant do any of it i am so weak i can barely get down the stairs i am so ugly i am so bad at talking i am so Scared. i am just filled w dread i want to hide i want it gone i Cant Breathe
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Depressive spiral oncoming. Can’t stand without my vision going out. Relapsed and it’s infected. Loosing time. I have lost momentum and I don’t know how to get back into motion.
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I woke from a dream at 2 am (which had nothing to do with rivers or eels but very much to do with my mother) and this poem(?) sprung - practically fully formed - into my head. For once I listened to the voice that urged me to pick up my phone and write it down. This is what came out, no refining or second-guessing. It's no masterpiece but oddly enough it's one of the most coherent and complete poems I've ever written.
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For the first time since before Thanksgiving last year I just. Do not want to exist. I don't know if it's a coincidence that I went off the antidepressant I was taking for migraines, if it's just because I never sleep and have hit a record state of misery or what but boy I haven't missed this.
What I'd give to just. Hibernate for a few months
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im so tired of being in pain and discomfort and hardly being able to move and everything blurring together because it's a monumental task to do anything and it's hard to think 👍
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I wish I had written the christmas fic I intended to write. I wish I had the heart to write anything resembling a positive merry christmas message, but that's just not me. I've been battling depression for years and although this year I feel a little better, everything gets worse when its christmas. Anyway, I really wish that all the people who follow me have a nice christmas night together with the people they love. And if anyone is feeling depressed like I am, know that you are not alone.
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