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8 for the ask game?
8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in
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#all of them#honestly if youve followed me for like a year you've probably seen a trend of me starting projects and then immediately losing interest#I try so hard tho#one day i'll find a mental process that's rewarding#adhd sucks when it comes to doling out the dopamine for finished projects#I do feel bad about the Skeleton War blog I abandoned#cause I KNEW I wasn't gonna be able to keep it up but I still fuckin started it anyway because I knew people would like it#and it WAS fun!#but also at the time i had a full time job with a 40 minute commute#by the time I got home it felt like another job orz#ANYWAY#if ya'll have stuck around regardless of me dropping my projects over and over#thank you from the bottom of my heart#I hope one day I can provide something finished#askgame#asks#G muses
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See writing Aerika is fun because is speech is very different from my own and I need to have the thesaurus tab open in the background.
Writing Rexander is fun because I’ll be completely honest he’s 1 iota short of a self insert. A lot of his choices are my knee jerk reaction to the story.
Writing either Gale or Astarion— especially in their pov— gives me extreme anxiety and writing paralysis bc I don’t wanna misrepresent the character and have them act or sound ooc
#bg3#sketch rambles#writting#aerika dyrr#Rexander#gale dekarios#astarion#I try so hard tho#why it’s so hard lol
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it's silly, but...
"sorry, we aren't eating spicy food right now." soonyoung says it over the phone to mingyu who, from what you heard because the call is on speaker, is trying to pawn off leftovers to soonyoung. not you, because your wisdom teeth just came out, and it'll aggravate it now. you look up from your phone, your heart warm at the notion.
we. we aren't doing this. we are in this together. you think you might cry. soonyoung's already explaining it to him: you can't have it, so he won't eat it, either: not directly in front of you while you're missing it this much already. you think this means he might indulge himself if he goes out without you, but you don't mind that. hell, you really hope he does if that's what he wants.
mingyu laughs after a moment, after soonyoung has apologized a few too many times. "no, it's fine," he says. "i'll ask vernon. are they craving anything that i can make?"
soonyoung looks at you when he thinks you're not looking or listening. "um... i think anything soft is good. they're miserable right now. i think i'll have to let anything hot cool down first, but... i think they'd appreciate it."
mingyu lets out a hum of affirmation. "i'll pull something together and drop by."
you fight back a smile as you listen to soonyoung thank him more than a few times before saying he'll talk to him again later. he comes over, bottle of pills in hand, and sets them down on the coffee table so that he can move your legs and sit underneath them. he drops them back into your lap, still holding on.
"is it bothering you?" he gestures toward his jaw. "i can get you something to eat so you can take your medicine..."
"i love you."
he blinks a few times. "... huh?"
"you don't have to cut out the stuff you enjoy for me." you reach out, pinching his cheek a little. "i don't mind. i'm an adult."
he pouts a little. "i'm not cutting them out completely," he says, one hand squeezing your ankle a little. "just when i'm with you. it'd be mean to sit in front of you and eat anything i know you want." he's sheepish now, eyes drifting away from you. "i like sharing with you. so... whenever we eat together," he meets your gaze again, "i'll eat only things i know you hate. okay?"
despite the tiny way your jaw aches now, you lean in, pressing a quick peck against the corner of his lips. it's clumsy, but still just as sweet, and it sends him into giggles nonetheless as he leans in to pepper your face with kisses as gently as he can.
"we're in this together," he says when he pulls back. he extends his pinky, beaming at you more when it makes you smile. "okay? we're a team."
you just giggle through the pain and lock your pinky around his own, taking the chance to steal one more kiss from him.
#nonranghaes.thoughts#seventeen x reader#nonranghaes.svt#svt x reader#seventeen imagine#svt imagine#seventeen x you#svt x you#hoshi x reader#hoshi x you#hoshi x y/n#kwon soonyoung x reader#kwon soonyoung x you#seventeen fluff#hoshi fluff#soonyoung fluff#kwon soonyoung fluff#svt fluff#AAAUUGUHGHG I MISS SPICY FOOD!!!! I MISS FOOD IN GENERAL !!!!!#PUDDING AND YOGURT AND JELLO IS NICE BUT I MISS MORE FLAVOR!!!!!#im gonna very gently try my best with some soup today.... im gonna let it cool down a lot first tho#its egg drop soup so nothing hard to eat no chewing just sippy#i wish it could be wonton egg drop soup :(
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Can I interest you in............ Jarmulkes or perhaps........ Jippahs???
#jumblr#meme#personal thoughts tag#i'm trying so hard to understand the appeal of this i'm sorry but.#denim?????????#DENIM kippot?????#DENIM??#can somebody who wears these explain to me like i'm four#i promise this is all in good fun tho
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yes he will….
#i sketched this out like….2 years ago….im trying so hard to get thru my art backlog nd stop making random halfassed shit#evn tho i gave up @ th end here still lol#iasip#always sunny#charlie kelly#dee reynolds#dennis reynolds#chardee#charden#chardennis#long lost siblings#fanart#mine#1k
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he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.
except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?
at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.
except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.
about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.
he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.
#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag#writeblr#it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal#fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho)#healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy#im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage....#1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind#and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes#2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception''#3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.''#idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh#im sure there are people who have this experience normally#but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists#when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band''#edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful#once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large#but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry.#but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes#but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally.#i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes#people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism#but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet .#i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY#and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound.#but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in#i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too.#here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change#was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort)#choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL
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their new designs are literally perfect
#legends of avantris#uprooted#my art#trying so hard to get better at drawing anthro characters#and also shading i need to get better at shading#grumley's new fit is so cute tho he is not just a grey blob anymore and i don't need to draw armor again god bless#love that stupid pug
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2024 art summary! it sure has been a year
#ever makes art#i bsky tweeted a bit but it feels weird talking there still so ill do my usual rambling into tags here :)c#i burned out super bad in the middle of this year for months where it felt like i couldnt draw anything good no matter how hard i tried#and the harder i tried the worst it felt - to the degree that i legitimately thought i wasnt going to be able to draw anything again#which sounds SO dramatic i know i know. but feelings arent always rational!!! and so many others things were going wrong at the same time#so it was strange putting together this year's art summary and realizing Huh. i did still have paintings to put in every space#that fear/anxiety spiral seems even sillier and more meaningless now that i have distance and proof of how irrational it was...#...but in reflection i'd like to think of it as proof that even when you feel at your worse it's worth it to keep trying...!!#after the Black Hole of Nothing i've been working every day on never ending doujin and xv anthology and orv sketchzine and merch#i can't say that i feel my artistic skills have like. improved or anything... but the passion i feel for the stories i read and#the stories i want to tell is still there!! and the happiness from getting to put form to those feelings large or small is worth it too#anyway......... lotta words to say tho i haven't posted much anymore and socmed is imploding and the world is dark#thank you very much for staying with me another year. i am - as ever - always grateful
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INTRODUCING...
HOTGUY AND CUTEGUY!!!
my kofi :)
#hotguy#cuteguy#gtwscar#gtws#grian#desert duo#scarian#fanart#comic#mcyt#hermitcaft#only kinda tho#guys i've been agonizing over this tiny two page comic for far too long and it's still real rough looking#i have their first meeting and *redacted* sketched and ready to ink but my god#comics are so hard#i don't do a lot of inking so it sucks a little but i love that art style too much#i need a tag for this so if anyone has suggestions feel free to let me know#i will try to post a few pages every few weeks but idk#this will be a series and it will have plot but only a little#nhyhu.art
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coughs
#sorry some of these are kindof reaches im trying so hard to find funny interactions#i do feel like i struck gold with the second one tho#obey me belphegor#obey me beelzebub#obey me asmodeus#obey me satan#obey me leviathan#obey me mammon#obey me lucifer#wait this one has all of them omg#and also#obey me thirteen#obey me memes#obey me shitpost#obey me nightbringer#obey me shall we date#obey me#the last one especially is ehhh for me i do not think beel would say fuck it we ball#he would not fucking say that
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my cats heart and mind .. hi heart and mind ..why arent they reacting when i say their names
#i draw stuff#chonnys charming chaos compendium#cccc#chonny jash#cj heart#cj mind#Could be jashshipping. if you try hard enough i guess#not supposed to be tho so take it as you will
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my beautiful jester with a disorder
#helluva boss#helluva boss fanart#helluva boss art#hellaverse#hellaverse fanart#fizzarolli#fizzarolli fanart#digital art#digital illustration#oleafia art#character design#WHY IS HE SO HARD TO DRAW#it’s ok tho i love him sm#viv pls don’t forget about him in season 3 🙏💔#vivziepop#sorry my art has just been characters standing around lately i’m trying to draw simpler fanart so i can focus on making ocs#i say as this took me two days and i barely drew or even thought about my ocs
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HENRY DANGER: THE MOVIE (2025) ● dir. joe menendez
#since Casey told me she and Lizzie had requests and then proceeded to send me NOTHING 🙄 i had to take matters into my own hands#(please read that in a joking tone I dont actually care that much alskdjf)#henry danger#henry danger the movie#henry danger the movie spoilers#hd spoilers#hd movie spoilers#henry hart#kid danger#frankini#missy martin#nickelodeon#nick#dangerverse#dangerverseedit#henrydangeredit#made by me#*#truly despise coloring dark scenes like. they always come out awful no matter what i do rip#okay wait#her name last name is martin. and her first name is missy. which sounds close to izzy....#and i literally have a fic where iz travels to different universes and meets her dads as teenagers#and she wants so badly to be a superhero like her dad even tho henry's trying hard to prevent that...............#i've connected the dots.....................#(I haven't seen the movie just let me have this)
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Bruce and Logan explaining to the team how throwing Wolverine at the enemy team is the best and only plan, and they don't need another healer.
#it often goes unsaid#but shout out to Hulk mains#theres nothing that brings us Wolvie mains more joy than seeing a Banner join#we'll have your back always#also love when Hulk summons Wolvie mid-fight like Mjolnir#shoutout to the illustration i made years ago with the Wolverine and Bigby joke#the rivals design made it even worse i tried so hard to make him not look like Bigby#90% of the time spent on this was trying to get Logan to look right#his marvel rivals design is HILARIOUSLY stupid tho his clothes say 20s and his everything else say mid-fifties#gawd i'd let him growl at me anyday tho#lastly ignore the fact hawkeye's armor isn't properly referenced#marvel rivals#marvel rivals fanart#fanart#games#game fanart#marvel fanart#marvel#wolverine#x men wolverine#spiderman#hawkeye#jeff the land shark#captain america#steve rogers#bruce banner#hulk#logan howlett#clint barton#peter parker
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The polycules are falling apart
#Ultimate Impostor#Hajime hinata#Mikan Tsumiki#Ibuki mioda#Ryota mitarai#Nagito Komaeda#Fuyuhiko kuzuryu#Poly ship names are so difficult. Guess not#an art#Barely. I did not have the willpower I thought I did when I started this#Anyway I'm trying so hard to manage something spooky for the spooky month but. Yknow how it is. Sometimes you dont have the spark the energ#plenty of ideas tho!#Hearing aids go on the fritz. Pictures taken have extra shadows or a hand that doesnt belong there#Etc etc ugh I dont even have words lol. I'm tired#Polyremnants
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atla!au designs part 3 !! one of these things is uh. not like the others
first year trio gojo/choso/nanami
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#fanart#jjk fanart#jjk atla!au#geto suguru#yuta okkotsu#mahito#lmhs#atla!au: design#squints at mahito i think i might b trying a bit too hard fr preliminary designs.......#they keep getting progressively more detailed OOPS#atla!au: art#i feel like no one will complain tho so ! anywayyyyy#thank u hisuian zoroark fr ur weird hair n bad posture. stole that 2 put on this freak n gave him some soul orb hair ties#idk if his design adheres very faithfully to anything that can be considered atla canon....but i like it so much ok sue me#i would unironically like mahito more if he looked like this#let him lean more Monster.......pl..pls.......#dont dig too deep into that statement . anyway.#this whole page is full of chars i just Never draw but i dont have a least favourite here ???? all of them look rly good imo??#waterbender garb suits geto's design so well he gave me No trouble#yuuta on th other hand i was Concerned for on account of th aforementioned Orange on a very monochrome char in jjk canon#but i think i made it work? he looks great in th tattoos also??????#maybe th rumors r true and im good at what i do GHFGHGHL#(oh ya after mahito i didnt want to draw Another monster-spirit so i omitted rika but she exists. probably looks similar 2 canon also!)#(sighs ill deal w her later. priorities !!!!)
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