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I usually stay up late (right now is 3 am and I still have things to do) programming and doing stuff.
I thought about this fic idea and you popped into my mind.
How about we mostly work in IT for SHIELD/the avengers so we mostly stay with computers or we are in workshops. The thing is we are with yelena and in general we get along with everyone. Lately yelena has noticed that we are more tired than usual, because us being a workaholic person canāt just stop working. One night yelena finds us sleeping on our computer while we were programming/hacking, she tries to gets us to sleep and we try to deny it. Next day yelena has some words with nick fury.
This is probably bad written but right now my brain is not braining sorry
Workaholic
Pairing:Ā Yelena Belova x GN! Reader
Summary:Ā Youāre a workaholic that doesnāt realise how drained you can get.Ā
Fluff & Tiny Angst
Warnings:Ā None, if there is any, please let me know.Ā | 1.7K
Translations:Ā Detka (baby)
AC:Ā Thank you for sending this! I know it has taken me FOREVER & I do apologise for that. I hope you enjoy this! x
She watched in silence every morning when you would drag yourself out of bed to the kitchen for breakfast before leaving for work and she would watch again when you would finally come home late at night, hair slightly a mess before youād take a shower and crash almost instantly the minute you sat down on the bed. She didnāt know what was going on at work, but she knew it was draining any energy you had left.Ā
Anytime she would meet you for lunch or when she would see you for the short period of time before and after work, you were just tired. Conversations were flat and short; you began to work later than usual which led to you going to work earlier than normal.
At first, Yelena just assumed it was something really important that Nick Fury, your boss, needed you to get done but when she found you one night, asleep at your desk, it raised more concern and worry for you.
Yelena sighed lightly to herself as she leant against the doorframe of your office, her brows frowning with concern at the sight of you slumped over your desk, the blue light from the monitors didnāt seem to wake you, your fingers still lightly pressed on the last letters you had pressed before resting your head. Lines of coding ran across the multiple screen system surrounding you, these were things she knew she would never truly understand how they worked.Ā
āDetkaā she said softly, attempting to wake you. You stirred slightly, giving her a light groan but no real signs of opening your tired eyes. āLet me take you home so you can get some real sleepā you heard her Russian accent ever so softly speak. Unintentionally, you groaned once more, this time your eyes flickering open, the brightness of your screen making them sting.Ā
āI..Iām fineā you mumbled, sitting up straight, trying to rub the sleep from your eyes.
āDetka, you canāt keep doing this. What is so important to Fury that has you falling asleep at your desk?ā Yelena asked, her brows frowned with worry.Ā
āI just need like 5 more minutes, I promiseā you replied in your groggy state.
āMore like another 5 hoursā Your girlfriend muttered before she reached for your computer mouse before you could even string together where things were. āIām not letting you make yourself sick for whatever this isā Yelena added, her voice low but firm, āyou need sleep. No more hacking for tonightā she said as you watched the little arrow on your screen close down your opened tabs.Ā
āYelena!ā You spat, āI canāt! I have too much do to and you just shut it down?!ā You added, annoyed by your girlfriends actions as you looked up at her. Yelena shook her head, āif you write another line of coding, youāre going to become the damn coding!āĀ
āYou donāt get it, I need to get this done!ā You frowned.Ā
āAnd you get do it tomorrowā Your girlfriend said, crossing her arms over her chest. Your eyes dropped slightly, there was no fighting her one this, not even you felt your eyes grow heavy once more.Ā
āFineā you sighed, tiredly, ājust let me close everything down properly before we go homeā you added.Ā
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The next morning, you woke up in a panic. The sun light creeping in through the crack of the curtains, you reached for your phone to find out your alarm had been switched off. You sighed before throwing your head back down on the pillow before covering your face with both of your hands.Ā
Yelena was giving her daggers a sharpen when you asked her why she had turned your alarm off.Ā
āBecause, detka, you needed a real sleepā she said, not batting and eye at you.Ā
āYelena, you made me late for work! I donāt even know what to tell Nick when I get thereā you argued.Ā
āI already told him youād be running late todayā Your loving girlfriend replied, looking up at you, āIām worried about youā she added. One look into her green eyes and you were reminded of the worried look she had on her face late last night when she found you at your desk, asleep.Ā
āYouāre working yourself too hard, you come home and have a re-heated meal then shower and go to bed for a few short hours. Natasha and Wanda both said that you donāt even leave the compound for lunch, not even to get some fresh air. You are consistently at that desk working until early hours of the morningā Yelena said in a soft but firm tone.Ā
āBaby, itās my jobā you said, leaning against the doorframe.Ā
āYes, it is but your job isnāt 16 hours a dayāĀ
Your eyes dropped to your feet, āI know, I justā¦.i just want to make sure Iām doing the best I can for Fury. All the coding and hacking I do, itās not easy. Itās time consuming and I need ot be on top of my game all the timeā you explained in hopes it would help Yelena understand.Ā
āYouāre not going to be on top of your game if youāre falling asleep at your desk and barely function outside of work. Detka, I hate to say it, but youāre a workaholicā Yelena replied. You cocked a brow at the blonde, āI am notā you said, making Yelena chuckle.Ā
āYou are detka, a hard, smart working workaholicā she teased, causing you to playful roll your eyes. āThink whatever you want Lena, Iām going to go get ready for workā
āIām taking you todayā Yelena said just before you pushed yourself off the doorframe, āand Iām picking you up at 5pmā she added.Ā
āLena, you can trust me to come home at the end of my shift todayāĀ
āI know, but Nat is dragging me in to help her with some training thing so why not carpool?ā She replied with a rather proud grin on her lips. You playfully shook your head at her before making your way to the bathroom to get ready for work.Ā
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You and Yelena walked into the compound, hand in hand before Yelena placed a soft kiss on your cheek and wished you a good day as you both parted ways, she waited until you were inside the elevator before she turned on her heels and headed towards Nickās office.Ā
Nick, busy as usual was sitting at his desk with a stack of paperwork beside him. His focus so deep on the document in front of him he didnāt even hear the knock on his door.Ā
āFuryā Yelena said lightly, her accent coming in thick.Ā
Nick looked up before leaning back in his chair, āBelovaā he acknowledged with a raised eyebrow.Ā
āI need to talk to you, itās importantā Yelena began, āitās about Y/nā she added. Fury nodded, ācome on, take a seatā he replied. Yelena closed the large wooden door behind her before she took a head on the typical office style chair. āWhat can I help you with?ā The head of S.H.I.E.L.D asked.Ā
āTheyāre pushing themselves too hard for whatever it is you have them working on. This is shield, right? Not some tech startup company. They need a breakā Yelena said firmly.Ā
āRightā Nick nodded, āand you think that Iāve been keeping them prisoner to their desk?ā He added as he stood up from behind his desk and wandered over to Yelena, taking a the empty chair next to her, āY/n is one of my hardest working IT employees, they are dedicated to their job, I admire it, I will all my IT employees would put in half the effort Y/n does. This job isnāt easy, there isnāt a real shift time start or end. We may need them at 4am if a mission goes south and they know thatā he explains.Ā
āBut they are here early every day, and they leave later than anybody else. You canāt tell me that every mission over the last month has gone to shitā Yelena argued.
āNo, but, like I said they are dedicated to their job. Look, Iāll have a look at the clock ins and outs. If Y/n is doing too much unneeded overtime, I will have a word to them but if they arenāt, Iām not going to get in the way of somebody who has a drive to workāĀ
Yelena sighed lightly, āhave you even seen them lately? They are exhausted, last night when they didnāt come home, I came here and found them asleep! At their desk! Iām not asking you to check their clock ins and outs, I am asking you to give them the break they deserve and needā Yelena said firmly, not backing down. āYou can go a few days without them here. A few days is worth it then not having them at allā she added.Ā
Fury remained silent for a moment, contemplating Yelenaās request. He knew Yelena was right; losing a little of something is better than not having it at all. āOkayā he said, finally breaking the silence, āI will speak to them on their lunch breakā he added.Ā
āThank youā Yelena said, giving him a polite nod.Ā
āYouāre just like your sister, stubbornā Nick muttered with a cocked brow.Ā
āI am when I need to beā Yelena teasingly grinned.Ā
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When 5pm came, you didnāt want to keep Yelena waiting, you shut down your computer and made sure your desk was tidy for tomorrow morning before you wandered the main hall of the compound. You smiled softly when you locked eyes on her leaning against her blue pick-up truck talking to Natasha, Bucky and Sam.Ā
āWhatās the gossip today guys?ā You asked with a light chuckle.Ā
Natasha was the first to turn and smile at you, āhold on a moment, are you unwell?ā She asked, jokingly.Ā
āHa, Ha, very funnyā you replied, playfully rolling your eyes as you stood next to Yelena, leaning your head on her shoulder. āSomebody couldnāt help themselves and spoke to Fury todayā you added.Ā
āOhhh! Yelena went to the big dogs!ā Sam laughed.Ā
āShe did and honestly, thank youā you said, looking up at Yelena.Ā
āYouāre welcomeā she smiled softly.
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unpopular opinion but i really miss those days when it was all about the music in taylor swift fandom
#time for a little rant because i feel like i need to get it off my chest rn#i feel so disconnected from this fandom lately#mostly because literally everything is about travis these days#like don't get me wrong i'm really happy that she's happy but#i just don't feel the need to talk about her relationship 24/7 like some of the swifties#and honestly it's all just too much#everything is about taylor and i'm not even excited anymore when i see new pictures of her#because it's just too much???#i truly love her with all my heart and i always will but even i am tired and i've been a swiftie for literally half of my life#why do people have to discuss every single detail about her love life#and who cares if she's going to be at the game again#let her live maybe#i'm sorry but it's just so annoying lately#this fandom is being too fucking loud and i'm tired and it's not even fun anymore#remember when the eras tour started? amazing times#we were talking about it all the time and discussing every single detail of the tour and the songs and all#now it's all about her new relationship guys it's not... like... WHY.#it makes me so sad because it used to be different#ugh#i might get hate for that but i don't care i just really needed to say that#taylor swift#ts#talking shit for the hell of it*
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reddit is easy pickings I know I know I know but I was genuinely shocked to see how easy it was to immediately find something that made me uncomfortable/slightly more peeved at the state of it all
the post--a fair and common sentiment for lesbians to experience. men are dumbasses and say shit like this all the time. frustrating for sure:
so, if you were someone who has any sense of respect or basic decency on respecting lesbians (+women in general tbh) when they speak, and you were perhaps a trans woman who might not really understand the truly frustrating experience of your sexuality being belittled and disrespected like this, wouldn't you simply let this one post go and not leave a comment as it is not something you have meaningfully experienced and thus don't need to add commentary?
well:
anyway good reminder that I should frankly never use reddit ever again sigh
bonus good comment that is weirdly more applicable than maybe the user intended:
anyway that's all from me thanks for indulging my public pettiness once more o7
#apologies for the low effort posting lately school + work is kicking my ass#mostly work my major is easy lmao that's what art school gets you#work is very silly I spent 72 almost consecutive hours doing the job of my superior who sort of ghosted the entire team#which meant extended time with the editor-in-chief (my boss) (polyamorous transfemme) and wow amabs are truly not very emotionally sensitiv#I am getting their out of pocket overtime pay though so uhhh I suppose it's a win in some regards#anyway enough about me (I say on the blog I made to talk about me)#trying to decide how much I can publicly let myself vent about my life without being too revealing lmao#let's just say I work with people I can generously describe as self-identified queer people on twitter who are too into yaoi and fandom#it's a great place to be super lonely and essentially crypto gender critical lol haha I think I need real friends#...okay I do have friends but there's a whole load of strange bullshit happening there#possibly involving what is basically a het love triangle that I just get to witness for the next three years I guess???#dropping foreshadowed breadcrumbs for possible future blogposts in the tags for a pretty standard gc post lol sorry if I trojan horsed you#radical feminism#gender critical#myo is rambling.#gender ideology
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Me realizing I'm using my "hobby" as a coping mechanism, and that it's really ruining my perception of things: Darn :(
#ventish#sorry for venting#late night thoughts go HARDāļø#non tf2 post#this is not about writing btw!!#i am still very much trying to do that and i am very sorry for not being better with it you all are truly wonderful human beings for puttin#up with me and my bullshit i have so many promised fics and i swear i am tryinf#i love you guys actually so thank you again all 316 of you#kissing/hugging/respecting boundaries all of you <3
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Unfortunately relatable. I grew up in the church and have a lot of Christian trauma from that. I show up for special occasions for my parentsā¦ sometimes. But itās uncomfortable from the moment I step through the door. Bigoted pastor, the self-righteousness disguising the prejudice, the political comments from the altar. Shots at young people left right and center as if the hell on earth wasnāt caused by the same older generation 90% of the congregation belongs to..
I miss being young in the choir and the youth groups and not struggling with it. Itās wild to look back at the younger version of me who was unshakeable in his faith and honestly just saddening.
I was texting my sister today about it and she said
āI 100% think ALL of us have a ton of religious trauma and everyone else in the family just doesnāt realize it cause theyāre still drinking the kool-aid.ā
I ran out of tag room and didnāt want to delete any š seriously not lying I could write a book about all my thoughts and experiences
#I relate to all of this so much#and itās so sad how many people truly have religious trauma#I still find myself lucky and privileged cause I know there are stories MUCH worse than mine#itās really hard cause my parents still think Iām a Christian#honestly at this point I have no clue what i am#even if I end up still being a Christian that doesnāt help or heal all of the years of church trauma#but the hard part is still acting the part for my parents#growing up I always tried to fit into the good Christian girl mold#cause I know thatās what my parents wanted and I didnāt want to disappoint them#but once I started smoking weed and they found out? it went all downhill from there#their perfect angel fell from heaven#and I feel like ever since I havenāt been really their daughterā¦. Iāve just been living on the outside looking in to everything#it hurts looking back at all the years I spent brainwashed into believing that was the ONLY faith#it genuinely makes me sick to my stomach thinking about the fact that I went to a pro life rally#the thing I was talking to my sister about was how mental health was never talked about in the church#when I started dealing with it and went to my parents or the pastors or any adult really and told them what I was dealing with#wanna know what the first thing they would ALWAYS say? well have you prayed about it? the way they treated mental illness was that it was#YOUR fault cause God is punishing you for somethingā¦. that you need to pray or go to church so then God will eventually take it away#and the thing is I donāt necessarily blame my parents (which kinda sucks cause I want to blame someone)#but honestly itās just the environment they grew up in tooā¦ like Iām 99% sure my dad has dealt with depression his entire life#but wonāt get diagnosed or anything cause they always believe faith has something to do with it#which makes me incredibly sad cause I just think about how much my dad has suffered and how he didnāt need to#^^ I was typing this out when I was late to my family gathering hahaha but then I think my sister called or something so I had to stop#sorry this post is all over the place - I swear I could write a book about religious trauma#yesterday went ok surprisingly but today? TODAY is going to be so much worse#sure Iāll make a post about it later but I guessssss I should go to bed now? itās 2am and I have to get up at 5:45 ššššš#and I have a fuuuuull day of fun Christian festivities while Iām dealing with all of this bottled up and unresolved crap from my past#please donāt get me wrong I love my parents and like I said I donāt blame them - they did their best#it just really sucks wondering what my life would have been like if I didnāt grow up in the church or in a super religious family#I wonder if when I told my parents I was depressed if they would have instantly brought me in to get help
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iām not like other girls, my āRestā stats are a heart rate of 110bpm and a HRV of 14 fucking milliseconds. :)
#Sevenās Public Diary#vent#vent post#cw vent#cw vent post#cw health#cw heart#iām so stressed :) i am soooo fucking stressed and my body is Suffering because of it#i want to just lay here and stare at the ceiling but. maybe a little venting will help#sighhhh wish [N]MbD Sun were here to obsessively fret over me#he can be mean about it idc. at least iād have someone acknowledging how bad things are for me#sometimes i wonder when the last time was that my body Wasnāt in fight or flight to some degree#have i Ever actually relaxed#hhhhhhh c-ptsd is a bitch#anyways thereās so much to vent about but iām. doing my best to be vague. i need to be more vague about things#a lot of stuff i canāt vent about anyways. itās too personal#so instead iām gonna complain abt how i havenāt been able to play Genshin or Star Rail for nearly a month now#and about how slowly my back is recovering. itās like every time i re-injure/have a flare up. it heals.. worse. slower and lesser#i dunno how itās ever gonna get better. truly better. maybe iāll live with this forever#if being fat is the problem which is definitely partly is. then yeah iām fucked#all of my problems just make each other worse and i donāt know where the way out of it all is#every time i think iāve found it iām wrong and i just make it all worse#anyways as soon as i figure out how to strengthen my core without breaking my back. itās over for u bitches#āu bitchesā being uh. all of the shit that needs doing that i cannot physically fucking do right now#i miss being able to sit down. and iām Regretting de-converting my standing desk back to sitting bc now. i cannot use my PC#which means i canāt fucking do a some of my work or play my silly little gacha games and iām mad abt it#iām mad abt a lot more serious things too but again. canāt talk abt it so iām gonna focus on trivial shit instead#anyways. sorry as always to everyone i havenāt spoken with lately. and in general. iām so drained from the Everything that i just. canāt.#it shouldnāt be this hard for me to stay in touch w ppl but. it is. guess iāll add that onto my list of things to be stressed about#iām so tired of everything man. and i hate being so negative and mean when im stressed & in pain. makes me feel like im becoming my father
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anyone else ever get in those silly goofy moods where u just hate urself sooo much that u instantly feel physically almost violently ill just thinking abt urself and also even tho u worked a 12hr shift w no breaks or water running off of the 2 cups of coffee u had for breakfast 20 hours ago, the thought of eating instantly sends bouts of nausea coursing thru ur soul while churning in ur stomach bc ur brain hates u so much that its convinced ur body that u donāt deserve sustenance or anything else thatās life sustaining or promotes ur physical well being because u subconsciously convinced urself that ur such a shit excuse for a human being that u neither deserve nor have any right to anything regarding maslowās hierarchy of needs bc u r such an awful thing u deserve to be neglected n treated like the nonliving object ur own brain sees ur living body as or am i just mentally ill lol
#laying in bed everytime i think abt myself i feel literally nauseated n like itās so weird#this feeling comes in waves intermittently just even .01 sec of āhm iām hungryā FFFFFNOPE HRRGRHFFF VOMITTY#i want to curl up in a ball and die forever i donāt care about me i donāt want to take care of me anymore iām not even good at it#whyyyyyyyy did i stop taking my meddsssssss i guarantee yāall this is why iām being such a crybaby on the dash lmaoooo#i have a headache iām def dehydrated from crying n sniveling n barely drinking any water today while sweating like a mf at work#imma go to bed š if i donāt wake up i will be soooo pleasantly surprised yāall have no idea FINGERS CROSSEDš¤#real talk tho can someone tell me why my body is literally reacting this way for like no real reason#like am i truly that disgusted with myself i make myself nauseous just thinking abt me#ok yeah the answer is yes lol BUT LIKE WHY THATS SUCH A DRAMATIC BODILY RESPONSE TO MY BRAINS DUMBASS THOUGHTS???#ik the body and mind have a super powerful link n the brain influences the body like crazy but like#why this why does my brain literally want me to berate and degrade myself and isolate me and make me cry alone n starve me thatās so mean#iām not starving btw iām literally always eating just these past 2 days iāve been such a fuckup my body wonāt let me do anything#i had a chocolate poptart for dinner last night (thurs) n threw myself to bed#i hope i donāt end up hurting myself that would be so lame#i literally donāt have time for that like i am Not doing wound care duty off the clock for my damn self lol#also donāt want to take care of myself so i wouldnāt bandage myself up properly sooo yeah iām not gonna do anything actually#cleaning ur wounds r super important ok yall ur literally playing god if u donāt do good aftercare snfjfbdj#i canāt believe iām in this nasty ugly depressive episode i hate this so much i donāt have time for this i hate this cycle#i hate being bipolar 2 n my moods n meds have been so fkcdd up lately that i donāt even have the rlly fun hypomanic episodes anymore#iāve just been constantly having mixed episodes im unbearable to be around im so sorry for everyone thatās ever spoken to me im insufferable#ok thatās enough im done being dramatic lmao#im gonna give myself a bolus PRN dose of clonnie then iām going tf to bed#ramblings#shut up cianna
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i thinkg i, scare people sometimes
#if i've ever been like ''ohh it's too late for me'' to you and you were like. trying to keep me from hurting myself. i truly apologize#i am. admittedly. a VERY unstable person and i think i've hurt and sxared ppl a lot when i say these things and stuff#so um. yeah#im workong on it though š trying to control my urges/thoughts ab offing myself bc they TAKE OVER and i cant think straight for that moment#this isnt me trying to excuse how i act ab them btw. and it never will be#its just me explaining how it affects me. and i think i dont think ab how it effects other ppl around me#so tldr im super sorry if i've ever made you panic about my well being when i've said i was going to finally off myself#tw sui ideation#tw suicide mention#tw sui implied
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just had paramedics called on me for the first time todayy
#'just' means like 9 hours ago ive been resting btw also im fine i was just scared#i was 90% sure it was a panic attack! but Both my parents having tons of heart problems was making me really dread that other 10%#that i wasnt so sure about#but i am fine it was a confirmed panic attack and nothing is wrong#i had some kind of mental revelation that ive been slowfully and painfully untangling ever since#but its going to be the literal turning point in my ENTIRE life. i am not the same person who woke up this morning#sorry everyone im late for updating you all about my newest medical history update today#no but seriously im bringing this up now because the next few days migjt be rough! for me#im going to try and keep it off the internet as much as possible but just in case i somehow end up doing it anyway i guess#hashtag rosies first honest to god panic attack <3#im fine. and i will continue being fine. i will simply need an appropriately approximated mandatory adjustment period#yeah so ummm the thing i am astounded by the most right now is#i dont think i have EVER been SO truly angry in my whole. i have never felt the need to describe myself as 'furious' until today#boy they werent kidding that post traumatic stress disorder can COMPLEX#sorry just trying to be a little bit silly its called i get a little bit silly i just need a little controlled boost dose of normalcy here#im fine.
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#rant cw#š.txt#sorry lol but it's 5am and i should be sleeping bc i've been sleepy since 7pm but i keep THINKING#there's this emptiness in my chest and it's not exactly sadness but i feel like i'm longing for something that's just unobtainable yk.#it's kinda weird#i feel lonely but also whenever anyone tries to get closer to me i build these walls#bc after everything i've been through this year i truly feel like i shouldn't get too comfortable with ANYONE#which sucks obviously#i've also dreamed a lot about my younger sister (whom i'm not on speaking terms with rn lol) lately#and it's been bothering me bc i miss having a sister lol#i also dreamed about That One Dudeā¢ the other day and it always leaves me feeling weird for a few days whenever it happens#which is funny bc technically i am over him but i feel like there's always gonna be that feeling of#''oh that was a good friendship that we ruined by being two pieces of shit''#it's hard to explain bc like .#i'm mostly ok with it but it's this thing that's gonna stay at the back of my mind for the rest of my life apparently#and there's also the fact that we're rlly low on money rn and it's been stressing me out#and all the resentment i've been feeling lately#i keep digging up things from when i was a kid/teen š it's hell#idk there's just a lot going on in my head rn#i wish i could go back to being 17 posting ugly oversaturated 1d gifs on tumblr.com#not that i was much better then š ur girl has had so many breakdowns since she was very young#anyway. enough oversharing for today
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#wishtalks#vent post time ^_^ yay ^_^#feeling very neglected atm#nothing feels like it's going right anymore#school has been tough im literally failing exams#barely have any times for hobbies anymore because i've gotten so busy#depression has been hitting really bad stopping me from being nearly as productive as I should be at a daily basis#I can't shake off the feeling of being burned out from that alone#it doesn't help that i've been struggling to connect to ANYONE at all lately#classmates are nice people but the connection I feel with them is so superficial.#Feels like i'm only ever around because I'm just there by default#I feel like people only really fuck with me here because it directly benefits them#I feel so wrong#I feel like the way I am right now I can never truly connect with people#the few friends I had back home are all growing more distant#they themselves are busy and this new timezone schedule just makes me completely unavailable#I feel like things haven't gotten better for the past 8 months and instead is either remaining stagnant or getting worse#and I can't do anything about it except for idly sit by and watch it deteriorate in front of me#but in a way I don't fault anyone. I would have wanted others to live their lives without me.#It's funny that thought I was deserving of anything different#the only way I can cope is by just accepting that i'm wrong and this is how just how it's supposed to be for people like me#I'm just tired. Nothing I do ever feels right. I feel like the world is telling me I don't deserve anything and I kind of agree#I'm so used to the feeling of neglect it sometimes feels like i'm actively pushing any help or support away. but nothing else feels right#I feel like i've exhausted every person willing to help me out. I feel like nothing helps anymore and im just slowing others down#if you know me personally and you're reading this. i'm sorry I failed you#I'll be okay I just need time to pass
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you know what, iāve had enough of being sad. iām pretty fucking great and if the people i love and care about canāt appreciate that then thatās their loss tbh
#iāve been so fucking sad lately bc it hit me that literally nobody ever checks in on me and itās making me feel so shitty#like iām always trying to make the effort with people and always the one reaching out and asking to hang out or go places or do stuff#and iām always there for people when they need it or when theyāre having a hard time and i always try to be so supportive of people#and i never get any of that back#nobody ever bothers with me#literally the only person that actively reaches out and seems to want to talk to me is my sister#my own mother doesnāt even bother with me#and iām fucking tired of it and i deserve better and people need to realise how good i actually am#anyway sorry for the rant iāve just hit a wall and it made me realise my own worth lmao#my mental health has been awful for about two months now and iāve truly just become so tired of being alive bc iām so alone#and now iām in the angry stage where iām likeā¦ actually no fuck you all iām pretty fucking great and this is going to be your loss#anyway lmao sorry iām just having a moment of growth āØ#going to push myself to focus on me more now bc i deserve it#my friends and family might not care about me v much but i care about me and i need to start acting like it for myself
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My level of exhaustion on this Sunday evening does not bode well for the upcoming week
#ramblings#once again sorry Iāve been so MIA Iāve been really fucking busy#also Iām going to say it!!! single ppl have to do so much more work than ppl in relationships!!!! and Iām tired of being silent about it!!!#I think itās just been really hitting lately because holy fuck Iāve been having to do so much lately#and if I had another person around it legit might ease the load a little bit#like Iām not even fucking lonely Iām just exhausted guys#anyways holy shit I have been running around all weekend and apparently my body is tired of it#can someone wash my towels I am practically out of clean towels for my showers#slightly related: Iām still kind of in grumpy mode thinking about how my paid holidays went from 11 days to 7#I truly did not register how much that fucking sucks
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ā Thing Enhypen do at night/ when they are sleeping.
ā¢ ģķģ“ķ ąØą§ f ! rć»fluff established relationship ć»kisses, petnames (^-^) pls reblog if you like it and requests are welcome.
(Sorry some of the letters are big, I canāt change it) :(
ā¢ ššš šššššššš (ģ“ķ¬ģ¹)
-Pouts
The man pouts! Yes he does, especially when sleeping. Itās honestly the cutest thing ever. Of course he denies it, and that makes it even more cute in a way. āI donāt pout!ā He whines into your ear after he is begging for a kiss and you tell him that you will only give him a kiss if he admits that he pouts in his sleep. He hugs you and cuddles you while whining. He whines again at you. āKiss me!!!! >:(ā He ācriesā into you ear to which you just give in. You canāt help but give him a little peck on his pouty lips when he is snuggled against you.
-Switching spots
Do you know what I mean here? probably not. But like once you are asleep, you will turn to the other side, which Heeseung doesnāt like because he likes you facing him to hug you against his chest. Or sometimes he likes back hugging you. So when you turn around, he IS gonna scoop you up and put you on his side of the bed, and he will switch to being on your side of the bed, so that he can hug you in his desired position.
(Rest of the members under the cut)
ā¢ šššš ššš (ė°ģ¢
ģ±)
-Stealing blankets
Itās tiring and it annoys you, but you kinda live for it when he steals your blanket. He doesnāt even seem to notice himself. Itās just a habit he picked up. If he steals yours, you steal his! And that goes on and on. But you donāt complainā¦only a little. āStop stealing my blanket at night.ā You say. āMan, but yours is always warmer.ā He pouts. āGet over it. You can just hug me if it is.ā You scoff. āI wouldā¦IF I COULD CONTROL MYSELF WHEN I AM SLEEPING.ā He argues back pulling you by the waist. āFine. It doesnāt bother me more than that. But only because I love you so much.ā You give up.
-Strokes your hair
When he notices that you have fallen asleep, he will just stroke your hair as a reflex almost š
And sometimes you will stir awake, to which he apologises faster than light itself. But honestly you only woke up because it felt nice to have your hair stroked.
ā¢ ššš šššš (ģ¬ģ¬ģ¤)
-Talks
Who wouldāve thought, jakey jakey talks in his sleep. He mumbles and talks, rambling about his day, about you š„ŗ You voice recorded him saying that you were his princess. And it may have boosted his boyfriend ego. āDid I say that?ā He laughs at it. āClearly yeah.ā You giggle back, he connects your foreheads. āDo you know what that means?ā He hovers over you in the bed. āNoā you giggle again. āThat I am obsessed with you.ā He smiles.
-Does tasks
Broski think you go to bed too early, even if he is the first of all members to go to sleep. So he will just cuddle up with you until you fall asleep, and thenā¦ get ready for bed. Doing tasks, all sort of tasks. And you would wake up slightly, still half in dream land. āitās just an illusionā he would say when he notices that he woke you up. Because he doesnāt want to make you feel bad for making him cuddle with you until you fall asleep, even if he loves doing it.
ā¢ šššš šššššššš (ė°ģ±ķ)
-Lightly snoring
Idols donāt snoreā¦ Bullshit! At least this man does. Itās cute when he makes small noises and groans at night. And he knows that he does it. And only just nervously laugh when the topic is brought up. His members tease him with it too. āI know I snore, but letās just act like I donāt!!!ā He says in an embarrassed tone. āBut itās cute.ā You giggle. āNoā¦ā he pouts. But you will truly never stop teasing him about it.
-Swings leg around you
He sleeps late, looking at his phone. And out of nowhere he will probably swing a leg or two around you. Like they are heavy man! But you donāt mind it when he then pulls you closer with his legs :D Cute man indeed
ā¢ ššš ššššš (ź¹ģ ģ°)
-expressions
Believe me when I say. I think he dreams a lot. And his face shows it all, happy, sulky, mad, frustrated, scared. And as soon as you notice he is having a nightmare and breath is uneven, you will wake him up. And he will squirm before noticing itās just his sweet girlfriend who is before his eyes. āYou scared the shit outta me. But thank for waking me up.ā He would say. And he would ask you to hug him for the rest of the night.
-Go to sleep early and wake up in the middle of the night
The title says it all. He would go early think it would be good for his beauty sleep. But he would then wake up in the middle of the night not being able to sleep at all. And would literally not give a shit about YOUR beauty sleep, and he would wake you up to gossip together until you both fall into slumbers again.
ā¢ šššš ššššššš (ģģ ģ)
-Get cold and crawl under the blankets
Itās so cute to watch the little kitten crawl all the way under the blankets at night. Like he would roll himself into a little ball under the warmth of his blanket and then snuggle up to you. āBllrr, itās so colllddddddd.ā He shivers. āDo you need an extra blanket.ā You laugh sitting up beside him. āIf you are the blanket, then yes.ā He teases.
-Dry lips
Donāt ask me how he would literally, feel in his sleep, that his lips are chapped. But he would a million times in a night. And of course he would make sure to gloss up your lips too. So that his pretty girl is also satisfied with her lips in the morning.
ā¢ ššššššššš šššš (č„æęå)
-Moves a lot
He would absolutely destroy you, crush you with his six feet long body. He would roll in his sleep without noticing it and before he knows it you are about to fall of the bed. āNikiiiiii, you are so heavyyy.ā You whine under him. And shit he would wake up and be so embarrassed by it. āSorryyy.ā He would laugh. Definitely forgiven š
-Get up and get snacks
He would do something like this. He would wake up hangry. So he would check out the fridge then the pantry and then whatever else there is, before deciding to just toast a piece of bread. And then you would pop up and you would end up sitting in comfortable silence eating bread together.
#heeseung#enha fluff#fluff#x reader#enhypen#oneshot#heeseung x reader#crack#niki x reader#niki fluff#enhypen x reader#enhypen imagines#enhypen drabbles#drabble#drabbles#jay fluff#enhypen jay#engene#enhypen fluffs#enhypen jake#sim jake#jake enhypen#jake sim#sim jaeyun#jake fluff#jay enhypen#park jongseong#sunghoon#park sunghoon#enhypen sunghoon
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"so...", you say, playing with whatever is in front of you.
"so", minghao repeats on the other side of the line, his voice sounding so soft.
"is it time to say bye?"
"it doesn't have to be if you don't want to", he sincerely says.
minghao has been on the phone with you for over 2 hours now. he told you everything about how the soundcheck went, how his members accepted to record this tiktok with him for his birthday, then the show, then the weverse live...
it's clearly too late where he's at. he clearly needs to rest, recharge his energy before going on with the tour. still, he doesn't even think of hanging up - and he hopes you don't too.
"you sure? you must be tired."
"that i am", he confesses. "but i don't mind talking to you. actually i think i only talked about myself, i'm sorry. please tell me how your day went."
"nothing much", and you mean it. "just work, domestic chores, an asshole cutting the line at the grocery store."
"hope i run into him when i get back."
that makes you laugh, as always.
"i hope too."
it's quiet for a bit. minghao likes to listen to you breathing, it soothes him. and as he starts to hum some unknown melody, you realize his mere presence - even though not physically - soothes you too.
"i might not always say this", you begin. "but i love you. very, very much. i hope you're always happy, my myungho."
"ya...", he chuckles. "using the korean name now too?"
you laugh too.
"it suits you."
"you suit me", minghao sighs happily. "i love you too. thank you for being with me."
"i promise i'll be, for as long as you'll have me."
"great. forever it is, then."
a/n: happy birthday, minghao. i truly hope you're always happy and i wish for your life to be even greater than it already is. thanks for welcoming me into this diamond life, i could never regret becoming a carat when i did because of your talent, your beauty, and when it brought me so much joy. i love you, the8. ā¤ļøšø
#minghao x reader#minghao x you#minghao imagines#minghao headcanons#minghao drabbles#xu minghao x reader#xu minghao x you#xu minghao imagines#xu minghao headcanons#xu minghao drabbles#the8 imagines#the8 x reader#the8 x you#the8 drabbles#the8 headcanons#seventeen imagines#seventeen reactions#seventeen drabbles#seventeen x reader#seventeen x you#svt drabbles#svt headcanons#svt imagines#svt reactions#svt x reader#svt x you#seventeen#svt#xu minghao#the8
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āā stress relief. ( sjy ) š§
ą¹ Jake hasnāt gotten as much attention from you lately, so I guess he has to bother you in order to receive it..
pair: clingy bf!jake ć
busy gf!reader | warnings: smut, pwp, fluff, very silly and unserious banter, teasing, begging, fingering, oral (f. rec), spit kink (?), marking, unprotected s.x, creampie | words: 4.0k
welp- this was a lot longer than i intended it to be lol, srry not sorry. also why am i always making jake such a needy bf ? LOL, idek.. i just love a man thatās down bad for me what else can i rlly say shdhshsd
ā¦ . ćāŗ ć . ā¦ . ćāŗ ć . ā¦
exam season never stroke you as easy, thatās why you took more time than you had into studying. you spent most of your days sitting infront of your laptop and itās handy dandy partnerā your notebook. on the side of that you were juggling your boyfriendās needs, alongside your motherās constant smothering over the phone about how she wants to see you this week. you constantly tell her that you donāt have the time and if you had the time youād rather go over there than anything. you loved your mother dearly, but you wanted big things for your future, especially when you imagine a family one day with your lover.
āmom, weāve been over this a million times, i love you and all but iāve told you. i donāt have the time to go and see you right now..ā you hated having to put your studies first before anything, but that was the only way in order to become successful. you couldnāt afford to slack off and just take time for yourself to do whatever you wanted, you had to remain focused.
your mom didnāt seem too happy with that answer, she really wanted to see you and you could hear it in her voice. it broke your heart the way she sounded. āi understand that, but i really miss you staying over sweetheart.. maybe we can plan something this week ?ā she truly hoped that youād say yes but you couldnāt just drop everything and go home for the weekend, unfortunately things were far more complicated than that.
you were beyond stressed out, and along with her constant nagging it only pushed you over the edge, you were well over aggravated. itās like she only thinks for herself sometimes..
ādoesnāt sound like you understand, i donāt have time and i canāt come see you ! youāre being really selfish right now.ā youāve tried reasoning with her but it just never worked, usually youād give in and comply with her demands but you had to put yourself first this time. āiām sorry but not today or tomorrow, not even this week, i love you mom.ā
āi love you too.. i guess iāll talk to you later then ?..ā
āmhm, bye mom.ā
and with that, you quickly hung up. you felt bad with how you raised your voice at her, but sometimes she doesnāt think. you could tell she had gotten upset just by the tone of her voice and that by itself made you feel like shit.
weight on your shoulder: multiplied.
not long after, jake had came home, heād seen you working your ass off and understood how this upcoming exam was important to you. although, he also got to shake hands with this disasteress stress. for one, he constantly has to force you off your work to go to bed. he hated seeing you risk your own health for the sake of success. jake knew youād pass with flying colors, he believed in you, he always had. you were few of the top students in your class. of course you had it. while he also studied for exams, heād rather not risk his mental health for a test he could easily just take again. and he always told you that, but youāre too stubborn to ever listen.
ābabe, iām home !ā he shifted to the living area, where you just so happened to be at the time. ānew station?ā he giggled, joking about how you finally moved from the dining area.
āyeah, i guess..ā you yawned while busily typing away at your HP. jake checked the time once hearing you yawn.
ābaby, get up. bed time, now.ā he clasped his hands together a second before walking towards you and your silly little laptop. you donāt say anything back, only continuing what you were doing, as if he wasnāt even important enough to acknowledge.
āuh.. are my words delayed ? did i stutter? save whatever youāre doing, right now and get your little ass into bed.ā he cocked a brow at you, waiting for you to comply, hands taped to his waist.
ājakeee, just a little more.. ām almost done ! i promise. itās just a little bit left !ā you plea at him, hands speeding up itās pace, dancing along the keys moving to the save button after typing another sentence. your face looked drowsy. you looked tired. and you knew it.
āgreat then just a little bit for you to do tomorrow ! room, now.ā his one arm and his other grasp you, taking you under your arms and up on your feet. ābu-ā
āgo.ā he cut you off, nodding his head in the direction of your shared bedroom. you finally caved, maybe you did need rest. and thatās just what you did, but not before talking to the sweetness that lay beside you.
ą¹ ą¹ ą¹
āso, how was your day..ā you ask the half sleeping boy whoās face was deeply snuggled in between your breasts. he couldnāt sleep unless he was holding you, the warmth of your body against his gave him the much needed comfort he desired.
āmm.. good, i just wish you were more involved in it..ā you felt the vibration of his voice through your skin making you giggle, yet, you were upset with how itās now just dawned on you that you chose studying over the man whoād give you the whole world if he could.
it seems youāve been acting awfully selfish lately, barely returning any of his calls or responding to his texts hours later. he feels like heās constantly giving one hundred percent in this relationship while you barely gave half of that. jake knows you love him, you wouldnāt be coming home every night if you didnāt, but he misses that stage where you couldnāt keep your hands off each other.
āiām sorry, i didnāt know how caught up in exams i were, i havenāt been giving you much attention, have i ? ..ā
āyou holding me is all i need.. i cherish the time i get when you arenāt studying..ā he mumbles, hands tracing shapes along the slope of your waist.
āthank you for giving me time and understanding.. i love you baby..ā you kissed his head tenderly. receiving a hum in reply you knew he was tired, so you yourself dripped into slumber.
ą¹ ą¹ ą¹
your alarm rang forcing you out of bed and before doing so you switched your alarms off. you looked over at your resting partner. he was so peaceful when he slept he looked just like a baby, and you wanted nothing more than to baby him ;(
*okay.. i wanna hurry and finish this.* you pulled the blanket off your arm before dangling your feet off the cushion of the bed.
āwhatāre you doing ? where are you going ?ā he instantly wakes up when he feels the weight of bed lighten, hands capturing the hem of your sweatshirt to forcefully halt your movement.
āiām just going to finish up my studying,ā you remind him from yesterday, cupping his face as you turn around to face him.
āgoodmorning, jakey.ā you cheesed.
a strong pair of strong arms wraps around your figure, āgummorning, princess.ā he half yawns, looking up at you with those precious, endearing eyes of his.
ācāmon, letās go play in toothpaste.ā you tap his arms signaling him to let go.
āare you saying my breath smells bad ?ā he chuckled, finally setting you free.
āi mean, if the shoe fits !ā you playfully joked, getting up immediately after he unarms you.
ācāmon babyyy.ā you try one more attempt to get him out of bed, hearing him act all whiney since he didnāt want to. heād much rather still be under the sheets and laid up with you, but you were on a mission today.
finally, you two ended up in the bathroom. mornings were always chaotic, so much going on as you took turns brushing your teeth. while he brushed his, you were brushing your hair and doing your skincare routine. you were getting ready to take a shower so you gathered all of your needed things, only waiting to brush your teeth. when you finally got a hold of the sink you got your tooth brush and sat on the counter, kicking your legs. you were sometimes childish, but so what ? nobody wants to age anyway.
āstop being weird, little girl..ā you were laughing almost choking with the minty taste of toothpaste in your mouth, you quickly spat it out. āand you pee loud ! itās like gun fire !ā
he chuckles at your comparison, āi know a few things i do loud.ā he mumbled before walking over to your figure that sat tall on the sink as you rinsed your toothbrush, caging you in.
once your toothbrush was away your arms immediately swung around his neck, youād missed holding him all day everyday, which is why you contemplated on cutting your studying short for today.
āyouāre so cute..ā jake couldnāt help but be all over you, heās waited far too long just to have you like this again; peppering kisses all over your face and jawline, trailing them all the way down to your collarbone. your body tingles in excitement, wanting nothing but to have your boyfriendās hands roam your whole body. but youād soon snap back to realityā the sad, underwhelming reality of what youāre actually supposed to be doing.
ājake.. we canāt.. i have to finish, remember ?ā you felt like a broken record at this point but it seems as though it goes in one ear and straight out the other. he hasnāt touched you in so long, he doesnāt even know how heās survived without it. he has his needs too, and his hand wasnāt going to cut it anymore. he desperately needed you more than anything right now.
āiāll be quick ! i swear, pleaseeee.ā he tries his hardest to plead with you, eyes practically begging you for an ounce of sympathy. ājust want you so badā¦ā
usually you wouldnāt give in so easily, but the way he looked at you made you wanna fold in a heartbeat. was studying really more important than getting some dick ? yeah probably. but how could you say no to that face ? itās been weeks since you got some and the urges were only getting stronger. you had no willpower left, so you finally surrendered to him.
he now has you in the palm of his hands, exactly how he wanted. heād constantly be thinking of you, and all those times where heās had to pleasure himself in order to get some form of satisfaction has now paid off; he could simply act out all of his horny thoughts on you now. and since heās already got you where he wants, he wasnāt letting you go anywhere like you usually do. jake plays with the hem of your sweatshirt before lifting it up over your head, practically dying to kiss every inch of your body. he doesnāt know how he got so lucky to have someone as pretty and smart as you, but heād never take it for grantedā holding you within his grasp, carrying you back to your shared bedroom and gently placing you down onto the bed.
āmy pretty baby.. ā jake couldnāt keep his eyes or hands off you for a second, drinking in the sight of you underneath him, it made him wanna tear you to shreds.
though he couldnāt do that just yet, he wanted to take his time with you. show you how much he truly appreciates and loves you. he definitely lied earlier when he said heād be quick, thereās no way heād be able to rush this. not when heās had all this built up sexual tension thatās been eating at him since the last time you two fucked. the neediness of his actions were more than telling of his intentions, you knew he wanted you just as badly as you wanted himā if not more. plus, how could you refuse that puppy dog look heās given you ?? he made you go crazy just from his facial expressions alone.
his hands slowly traveled up to caress your breasts, the pads of his fingers swiping over itās hardened bud, rubbing in slow, lazy circles. he loves the way your body reacts to his touch, how youād arch your back just from the feel of him. your low moans and whimpers were enough to make him go even more feral than he already is, feeling his cock twitch just from the way youād sound. he craved you more than anything right now. you bit your lip when his mouth wraps around the base of your nipple, his hand working itās way down to cup your clothed core, getting a feel of how much of a dripping mess you were for him.
āmmh.. so wet for me already babygirl,ā he giggles when noticing the dampness of your panties. you seriously couldnāt believe youāve fucked yourself over his touch just for exams. you often found yourself subconsciously humping your pillow to the thought of him, wishing that his face was buried between your legs instead of it. your body grew so sensitive over time, it was like you forgot how good he made you feel..
āneed you so bad baby.. let me relieve all the stress and tension out of you..ā his voice was low, full of lust and desire for only you. he kept teasing you with his fingers, enjoying every minute of you writhing and squirming under his body. heās missed this dearly, and he was going to take full advantage of this. your mind drew itself blank, unable to think of anything but your beautiful boyfriend on top of you. you judd your hips up against his hand, building a steady rhythm to match his, the friction driving you absolutely insane.
āoh..fuck-ā you let out a gasp when his thumb āaccidentallyā brushes over your clit, his hands shift to tug the fabric of your panties down as fast as he possibly couldā but that didnāt stop him from continuing his little torturous teasing spree.
his head rested perfectly between your plush thighs, staring down at your pretty, glistening folds, tracing his finger everywhere expect where you needed him most. āmm.. jake, quit teasinā..ā you whined out of frustration, which only made him giggle even more, until he finally complies with your demand.
āyouāre right, my hardworking girl deserves a reward. doesnāt she ?ā he looks up at you with a devious smirk plastered on his lips, all while sinking two digits into your small entranceā making you cry out from the sudden fill heās added.
āspread your legs wider for me baby.ā you didnāt even hesitate upon hearing that command, legs shooting open immediately. keeping your thighs open with your hands so jake could get a better look at your sopping cunt.
āfeels good, huh ? you missed having my fingers inside you ?ā he continuously thrusts in and out, gradually increasing his speed as youāre on the verge of falling apart. he absolutely loved seeing you like this, itās what he lives for. he felt so accomplished knowing that only he can make you feel this way; no one else could ever have the same effect on you that he does.
jake knew you were far too weak to speak, your moans echoing the walls of the room was pure music to his ears. with just a curl of his fingers, your walls cinch around them greedily, watching as theyād disappear into your tight hole. your whole body trembles, as you cupped your breasts to knead them gently.
āfuck, youāre so hot. such a pretty little pussy, all for me.ā he pants softly, taking in the sight of your eyes squeezing shut, how you were so overwhelmed already. he could bust just from this alone.
his head dips down in between your thighs, latching his mouth to your clit. heād switch from harshly sucking to lapping his tongue on the swollen bud, eliciting the prettiest sounds out of you. ātaste so fucking good baby. could eat you out all damn day..ā he praised again, drowning himself in your sweetness.
you donāt know how much more you can possibly take but you firmly pull on his hair for leverage, tightly tugging it not even registering that it could possibly hurt him. but he doesnāt complain, his free hand caresses your thigh gently, flicking his tongue rapidly on your clit and drinking up your wetness, you taste like a dream. you mewl slightly above a whisper, forgetting how to use your own voice. his mouth was making you feel more than amazing, better than anything youāve felt before.
ā ām gonna come !..ā your hand now held onto his hand for support, lacing your fingers to intertwine with his. you grind your hips harder, feeling like youāre about to explode.. your juices squirt onto his fingers and his chin, making a mess all over the sheets beneath you, in utter utopia from the intensity of your orgasm.
āshit..babyā he moaned, licking his lips to savor every taste of you. he lifts his head up, beaming with a rush of excitement to finally have you take his cock. āget up,ā it sounded a lot more demanding than he thought, but he couldnāt wait any longer. he was so horny that he wouldnāt even be surprised if he nuts the minute he enters you, (but thankfully he wonāt because that would simply defeat the whole purpose of everything).
you did as you were told and quickly got up to land yourself on top of him. itās obvious what he wanted you to do, he wants you to ride him while he looks up at your pretty face. itās one of his favorite positions, not only does he get to lay back and let you do all the work but he secretly loves that youāre the one in control.
āmm.. thatās my girl,ā he groans once you hover over his length, gently stroking the base of his shaft. his hands slid up to find purchase on your hips.
his embrace felt all the more than lovingā it was familiar, warm, and protective. skin on skin, body to body; beautifully unraveling as one. your mouth flung open when you slid yourself inside but no audible noise came outā it was but a silent scream. he was sporting a semi-hard on but once fully submerged and accustomed to you tightening around him, your walls could feel his length slowly swell up inside you, it was one of those indescribable feelings that you cherish forever.
ābetter start moving baby, this dicks not gonna ride itself.ā he playfully demands, slightly bucking his hips up to feel some motion, āor do you want me to do all the work instead, hm ?ā that offer was extremely tempting, but itās not like he wasnāt going to do that later on.
ān-no, wanna ride you jakeyā¦ iāll start movingā you stutter, shakily rutting your hips against him, he fills you up so perfectly as if his cock was designed solely for you. placing both palms on his broad shoulders for anchorage whilst raising your hips to now finally properly ride his fully erect.
āfuckā¦ s-so bigā so full..ā you donāt think youāll ever get used to how he stuffs you completely. his low grunts were the most melodic tone to your ears, along with his heavy panting and nails digging into the dips of your hipsā he had your head spinning.
jake was enthralled with the fact only he could have you like this, a pretty little whining mess just for him. his cock throbbing in you intensely made you clench around the thickness, mouth falling back open to reveal a long strand of your saliva, this only brought him more joy as he pulled you in for another kiss, moaning nonstop into his mouth. you picked up a steady rhythm while riding him, moving up and down as you thread your fingers in his soft hair, feverishly making out with him. it all felt too good, he felt unreal, it became almost too much for you.
you gnawed at his lower lip when you pulled slightly away, leaving another string of your spit connected together; he drove you madly insane. his attention went soaring elsewhere now, producing wet kisses along your side profile, to your neck, gently sucking and biting on the skin to admit a reaction. a deliberate shriek leaves your mouth, feeling your muscles tighten as you tremble, he left more faint love bites to your collarbone and visible bite marks to your shoulder. he notices your struggle to stay balanced and shifts his arm, firmly on your waist to keep you in place.
ālove the way you take this dick like a pro babe, youāre fucking amazing.ā he praised you over and over, his words of encouragement helping you build quicker stamina, bouncing on his cock as if you were deprived of it for months (technically speaking you were, but maybe not for that long).
āyou know i love you right princess ?ā he husks, assuring that thisāll always mean something more than just sex to him, you were far from disposable, his love runs deeper than you could ever imagine.
āy-yes jake, i do. i love you t-tooā mmh fuck !ā your head plunges backward when he thrusts his cock back into you to match your movements, bringing one of his veiny hands to come rub your ass, sinking you further into him.
you kept a steady pace as you lower your middle finger to play with your clit as you rode him, the extra stimulation to your nub had your head dropping lower in reverse. you were so excruciatingly wet all you could hear were his hard breaths mixed with your soaking arousal slamming into his cock, only thing running through your mind was getting to milk him empty once you both reach your climax. a moan slips the both of your lips in unison as you scrunched your eyes shut from euphoric sense of pleasure.
āno no, look at me babyā keep āem open.ā he ordered. your eyes flicker open once again, obediently following his rules, giving him the eye contact he so desperately craves.
ālove looking at this pretty face every single fucking day,ā he groans, still holding your hips securely in his grasp, āall of this is mine, mine, mine.ā each time heād say it another deep stroke would slam into your cervix. a final hit to your sweet spot had you trembling under him, crying out his name while screaming at the top of your lungsā you can tell he was getting close too by his chest heaving and sultry grunts and moans laced with an endless loop of your name being said.
your face contorts from your nearing orgasm imploding you, the o-shape formation of your lips taking over, āg-gonna come jakeā¦ can feel it !ā a drawn out sigh leaving your breath as you catch it.
āyeah ? gonna make a mess all over this cock ?ā he felt you clench around him at his every word, your hand reaches down to your bud caressing it slowly ready to reach your high again.
āgo ahead baby, let go for me.ā he grants your undying wish with those words, chasing your high as you finally let go, cream leaking down the sides of his cock.
āfuck, so good.. such a good girl for me.ā he felt himself closer to the edge, āwhere do you want my cum this time babe ?ā he asks impatiently.
āinside, inside me please !ā you practically beg for it, eyes growing heavy, and your breathing becomes irregular. you soon felt your walls being coated with his thick, hot cum, filling you up with every last drop. you instantly collapsed onto his chest, completely drained and worn out by the end. the room remained silent for a few minutes, just enjoying each otherās company, lost in his warm embrace.
āhmm.. what about now ?ā jake broke the quite atmosphere with his random question, leaning closer to peck the side of your face, āhow does my breath smell now ??ā he teased from earlierās incident.
āoh my god, shut up,ā you turned away from him with hot cheeks. āwhat does it smell like huh ?ā he laughed at your embarrassed state.
āgo away !ā you pushed him off of you to go do your little pee pee check. āsmells like your yummy little pussy, donnit baby !ā he watched you hop into the bathroom.
āmy pee too loud ! canāt hear you !!ā you shut the bathroom door with a tiny giggle.
you could still hear jake hysterically laughing in the background.
2 am smut hits differentt >:33 had to post a cute lil fluffy fic for my jakey pooh cs heās so cutieful hehehe <3
also, hii lee ik ur reading this loll ilyyy .+(Ā“^Ļ^`)+ .
@leeechin ā”ļø
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