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goldkirk · 1 month

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hey this isn’t aimed at anyone in particular but I’m saying it for the record here: if I tell you no, please stop messaging me about fundraisers and mutual aid.

I get enough messages that it’s impossible for me to keep up without devoting at least half an hour each day, when I’m not even on tumblr that long most days. Me having a boundary about this isn’t a moral failing, it’s a lifeboat for me on my own blog.

In my personal life I’m already advocating and donating literally as much as I can spare. This is not me not caring, it’s just me not willing to interact with that on the one place I go online to not interact with irl news and world events for the most part.

I cannot be upset all the time. I cannot be upset everywhere. I cannot use all my emotional and mental energy fielding my own upset from ongoing events. My options are to hold boundaries about this or stop coming online at all.

I’m all for sharing information and signal boosting to reasonable extents, but the scale of it this year is so large and so enduring that it is literally not possible to for me to participate on every account I have. I’ve previously shared links to Gaza eSIM donations and a major hub of verified Go Fund Mes here and elsewhere online. We, the online humans, know how to look those things up ourselves by now. There are many, many people choosing to do advocacy work, and right now, I can’t be one of them.

If you’re extremely upset when I tell you I can’t share/donate right now about a Gaza family or personal fundraiser you ask me to share here, just unfollow and block me. That’s what those buttons are for. Protect your own emotions and energy and get me off your feed instead of staying upset and continuing to engage with online people or content that upsets you.

Please don’t send repeated angry messages based on manufactured purity politics and moral outrage into my messages and inbox when I exercise the right to run my own blog.

#and on that note #I also think some people need to sit down and ask themselves #if their old end times anxieties and fears and preparations and word spreading #haven’t filtered straight into a new non religious end of society and end of modern world order anxiety that they’re pushing on other peopl #even if it is the end times #you cannot change that by beating your own anxieties into other people’s heads #people can care MORE when they are GIVEN ROOM TO BREATHE #first rule of sustainable activism is you can’t do it constantly and you can’t push it on people constantly #you have to pace it and you have have have have HAVE to play long games #short term activism burns you out and if it leads to full despair from burnout it can get you killed via depression #it’s not a joke #there’s a reason your elders have books and community lore about healthy activism even in times of crisis #they lived it. they learned from it. learn from them.#spend your time doing things that can make real impacts.#do little things online but unless you’re an actual information hub you shouldn’t be posting constantly about it #people won’t even want to follow you anymore eventually because that’s not why they followed you #and then you have no audience for your important message anyway.#I know this. I learned it myself on other accounts.#please. stop. harassing me.#how is harassing me going to make me MORE willing to change my mind and post? just because you demanded it?#I am an autonomous person #this is my ONE curated space on the website #you have a multitude of tags and other users #don’t waste energy on a person who already told you no. let’s call that activism rule number two #spend your energy where it’s not likely to be wasted #you’re needed for a long haul #act like it 😭#and stop spamming me 😭#hey little star whatcha gonna queue?

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joker-daughter · 1 month

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That's the worst thing for me I think : even the hypothetical / in development projects sound like mistakes to me 😭 like it's THAT bad

I need to rant a little

I liked spider-man as a fun blockbuster movie when I was younger but I think the production and writers are not handling the character well. He portrayed him at the best of his abilities and overall, people liked what he did. From a creative pov, it's not stimulating. NEXT

Uncharted was fun to show off his movie star status but it's just so.. bland. Ruben has no vision as a director, CGI looks ass (no fault to the workers but just the state of CGI for Sony movies these days). Can't stand Mark. Dialogues are boring and the treasure hunter genre is so outdated. NEXT

I read some pages of the Winner here and there and it doesn't sound interesting, it's giving CW drama. The comparison to Challengers will be endless. NEXT

I think we moved past the need for Biopics. But that's my personal taste. NEXT

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#I don’t know if I ever mentioned this but I’m a huge Spider-Man fan btw 😭#so you all should know what it means when I say that he shouldn’t waste his time anymore #and I LOVE his version #literally defended that character with my life back in the day (and would still do it if I had the nerves for it)#but yeah it’s a complicated rs I have with that franchise rn #And I also liked Uncharted for what it was #and I always said that I don’t actually mind these projects but #If these are the only ones I’m getting from him?#yeah that’s where you lose me #anon ask

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pepprs · 11 months

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im home and already swallowed by despair. can you believe i was in CHICAGO a few hours ago. and now im here. lol

#i know i know. and i need to let the anguish motivate me to get out of here. but it feels like i dreamed it all #purrs #chicago #i had a rough time getting out of the hotel and through the airport to my gate and also im bad at math so i fucked up the calculation about #when my flight lands bc of the time zone change and i gave my parents the time in central time not eastern time so my dad was waiting for m #for like a half hour and texting me and i wasn’t answering bc i was still in the air and he was pissed at me and snarky in my texts with hi #and i was sitting there on the plane and could just feel his words ripping into me and the horrors rushing back in and i still haven’t #recovered from it honestly. it wasn’t that big of a deal he just said something that i misunderstood as him saying he was giving up waiting #for me and going home bc id already wasted his time and even though that was not what he actually said it just kinda burrowed into me that #my parents were mad at me and were probably also mad at me for not communicating with them AT ALL the entire time i was in chicago. and it #just was eating me alive. im home now and we haven’t talked about it but they did say things disapproving of the fact that i did a lot of #stuff by myself which i probably shouldn’t have told them. idk. it’s not even that bad i just am torn apart by their rejection of me and #utter inability to just like be happy for me without criticizing some part of it or restraining me. plus the house is just as much of a #biohazard as it was when i left and all the broken things are still broken and it’s like. a lot. i miss the hotel LOL #i think im just sleep deprived and not in my head right today but i do not want to be here. sinking in quicksand unable to breathe. but i #have to be the one to get me out of it and i should have learned how in chicago but i didn’t it was just a break and now im stuck again #delete later #kind of terrible that instead of being so proud and happy about what i did my immediate reaction is to be miserable that im home now lol

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bandzboy · 3 months

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when everything on the internet starts to annoy me i just do this to myself

#like some things are very insignificant #but some people are just annoying and dumb like i am sorry #i shouldn’t be wasting my time but i am tired TIRED #of being bombarded with stupidity lately you guys don’t understand 😭😭😭😭#i am being the bigger person here #tris.txt

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evansbby · 11 months

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#Zionists in my inbox again 🥱#I have been arguing against your tired points and brainwashed views for YEARS okay I’m not new to this #according to yall the whole world is lying except y’all #at this point believe what you want to believe it’s not my job to educate you #I look at your messages and I want to laugh bc of how the Israeli propaganda machine has brainwashed you #and then I delete them lol #when y’all refuse to look at cold hard facts and history then I’m sorry but I cannot help you #unfollow me and block me bc I don’t want you here #and you shouldn’t waste your time typing up essays to send me bc they get deleted in 0.02 seconds

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newfeeling77 · 1 year

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if u constantly think about time passing thru the lens of how much ur losing rather than what ur gaining THATS how you lose

#ive been trying to not be regretful of how much time ive spent being mentally unwell #and missing certain things from my life because of it. or other circumstances #like i don’t believe in time wasted. except maybe time spent unhappy is a bit of a waste to me #but i shouldn’t be upset that im not 18 anymore because i felt better and smarter and etc then #bc i know no matter how i FEEL now its just reality that im better off and smarter n more resilient than before #and i shouldnt be regretful that i allowed myself to grow up. or whatever #but i still MISS what i had :(

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rrxindrops · 1 year

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#i’ve been in bed aaaaaaaaall day #much needed #but at the same time i feel like I should have done something productive #i only had one day off from work today so I needed to just relax #but I also feel like I’ve wasted my time #but it was needed #I shouldn’t feel bad #but I do #I have no exams left and can finally rest on my days off from work #but the amount of stress I had during every exam period has drilled into me so deeply that it feels wrong to relax.#It feels like I always have something to fix or catch up on. I feel like I'm wasting my time but I’m not.#rrxr

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sapphicslut777 · 6 months

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song of the day:

bc um i’ve been on a mico kick.. and also this song. just gets it.

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eatyourdamnpears · 1 year

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“elevated ANA levels are usually markers for an autoimmune health condition!”

well, not when the rheumatologist you see is completely invalidating about it and your rheumatology blood panel comes back negative for anything!

#I can accept that maybe I don’t have a disorder like lupus or ra that they were testing for but like #the fact that out the gate he was just like ‘‘yeah some people just have naturally elevated ANA levels it’s usually nothing’’#like SIR????#I’m sitting in your office because I’ve had elevated ANA levels for over a year now and I cannot function in society due to my health issues #it probably IS something #I don’t know I wanna see if I can see another rheumatologist about it but what would even be the point?#no one wants to see me anyways because of my chronic Lyme diagnosis it took FOREVER for this guy to just see me #it’s at a point where when my doctor needs to refer me to places she leaves that off whatever she sends to them because otherwise #they won’t see me #like the only reason I haven’t seen a neurologist yet is because the ones I get referred to all refuse to see me #they can’t outright SAY that #but I remember my mom constantly checking to see about the referral and the receptionist basically said it in a way so it wouldn’t be #like grounds to sue for discrimination or whatever #even my mom tells me in appointments like this that I shouldn’t bring the Lyme up unless absolutely necessary #and every time it does come up the vibe instantly changes #like I don’t get it??? why do doctors hate me???#anyways yeah and I don’t know if it’d be a waste of time to see another rheumatologist because of the results I’ve already gotten #but I also can’t find them anywhere in the MyHealth app when I swear to god I had access to them before so??#I don’t know. I’m sorry I’m complaining. I just remember the time my doctor first brought it up to me and how excited I was #to finally have a lead on what could be happening inside my body and how to treat it #and then I get crushed when I realize that it doesn’t mean shit to anyone #I’m just having a hard night tonight #and no one wants to see Ethel Cain with me either and I’m just sad about that #and my depression is all fucky lately #everything is so big and loud and overwhelming and I’m so tired of it #vent tw

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tariah23 · 8 months

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I knew there was gonna be someone jumping on that CR post and going on about how “I’ve done the math and have concluded that $100 isn’t even that bad for an annual service fee-“

#the fact is #even if it’s annual that is still a lot of money to waste on a streaming platform #you have to take into account that you are not going to even be using the service all that much anyway as well #like unless you’re one of those people who can find the time to binge anime multiple times a week for a whole year and don’t mind then #whatver (even though you could just as easily pirate the shit. anime is one of the most accessible media forms in the world)#I accidentally got $40 bucks taken out of my account for pixiv because I forgot to cancel my free trial on time #and I needed that $40 man #the thought of spending $100’s of bucks on something that you could easily find on Google for free within seconds is #ridiculous to me personally #rambling #you can’t ‘well actually’ this kind of shit #outside of purchasing physical DVDs and so on #I remember the time when piracy was pretty much one of the only ways to watch anime back in the day #it’s just…. we’ve gotten to a point where there are people who don’t think it’s that big of a deal and that is what’s so upsetting to me #you shouldn’t be okay with any of this #these companies are getting over on people who don’t know any better or care enough

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capetowncapers · 9 months

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I know I’m far from the first to say how fucking shameful it is that so many academics are silent or complicit regarding the g.enocide in Gaza but it’s maddening how many scholars will devote lifetimes of study to oppression and marginalization and claim intersectionality matters to them and blah blah blah only to swallow propaganda or stay silent.

And as dumb as it might sounds I have this gross feeling of dread choosing my thesis committee because of how unexpectedly divided academic spaces are lately. I have a director but idk man there’s way too fucking many z*ion.*sts in academic spaces.

#maybe I shouldn’t say ‘unexpectedly’ bc so often when push comes to shove you realize a lot of people just see these things as theoretical #it is downright fucking dystopian #it just turns my stomach hearing some people’s thoughts on the attacks in Gaza #cape town rambles #as always I don’t think I’d have to say it but we don’t waste time entertaining bad faith arguments here. you’ll just get blocked.

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brooklynisher · 9 months

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I’m gonna explode

#spg #steam powered giraffe #ravcosmo #I feel like I shouldn’t be tagging this #it is 3 am #I just finished a drawing I spent way too much time on #and I’m not even sure if I like it #but I’m not letting those 14 hours go to waste #im gonna post it soon even if it sucks #help me #my stuff

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fingertipsmp3 · 2 years

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Anyone else having an absolutely unhinged week or is that just me

#i have gone from having a reliable and secure professional job with a pension plan and benefits to completely unemployed in 4 days #(by choice. i got in an argument with my boss about responsibilities and i was like ‘look this is stressing me out to an insane level #and i don’t think i can do this. i don’t think i’m right for this. i’m going to resign’ and now i’m looking for retail jobs)#and on some level i regret it. like there’s so many things i never got chance to do and maybe i should’ve given it longer?#but my boss wasn’t budging and didn’t try to convince me to stay and i was just like.. fuck this #and literally every time i’ve seen my best friend this week (which has been several times because we’ve both just been like ‘do you want to #go for a walk so we can scream in the countryside?’ and the other person has been like ‘omg yes’) she’s had a fresh tragedy to tell me about #her niece had a miscarriage; her sister-in-law (niece’s mom) is booking herself into a hospice and both family dogs are sick #one is wearing a cone and might have to lose her eye; the other is probably dying #it’s just way too much #and i accidentally insulted her daughter’s dad and the little girl shouted ‘MY DADDY!’ indignantly #and i was like.. oh god. why did i never think about the fact that of Course she can understand me #and yeah her dad is a waste of space but she does usually see him at least once or twice a week and she adores him #it is not up to any of us to poison her against him. we shouldn’t be doing that. this situation is fraught enough #like it is bad enough that he wants to take my friend to court to get unsupervised visits….. if she cheerfully says ‘auntie ellen said daddy #is a bastard’ anywhere in his vicinity this shit is about to go pearshaped #i just am so tired. i want to abscond. i wish i’d stayed in america #i think next steps are like.. recharge. do some autumn cleaning (sort out clothes & donate old stuff i don’t wear to charity).#apply to retail jobs until i get something that isn’t awful and then just sit in it until i come up with a phd idea and can abscond #but in the meantime if you need me i’ll be watching daytime tv in my blankie #personal

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fireladybuckley · 1 year

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The next coworker to interrupt me for something stupid or to ask me to find something for them without giving me all the details is going to get a fucking smackdown 😤😤😤

#I am so done with people #one of my coworkers requested a document #with the wrong numbers #and I searched for like half an hour couldn’t find it #I grilled her a little more of what the document was #realized she fucked up #asked her ‘shouldn’t it actually be THIS number (which is very different from the first)’#and she was like ‘oh. yeah.’#so I had to search again #and now she’s trying to be all cute and sunny about iy #like *thank you!!! 🥰☀️🤗’#fuck off #I have wasted so much time today doing shit for other people #ughhhh #work #rant

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bo0zey · 2 years

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being the oldest daughter raised by a narcissistic emotionally abusive father is just…👩‍🍳👌💋

#i don’t know why i always end up crying when i know exactly what to expect from him #the constant belittling then turning around and crying victim on how i ‘hurt’ him bc he can’t accept the fact that he did something wrong #i know i shouldn’t expect anything from him but it’s like this stupid fucking useless part of me during these moments is just #so heartbroken and frustrated because it’s not fair the child in me just wants to have a dad that cares and sees her as a human #nobody fuckjng cares if they hurt me and i don’t care if they hurt me either that’s why i hurt me too #he’s supposed to be my dad he’s my only parent left and he never should’ve been a parent to begin #i can’t believe how easily he turns things on me saying it’s my fault i never come talk to him and it’s like how the fuck #you were barely basically nonexistent the first 5 years of my life then barely there from then on out #how could i ever come to you how could i trust you just because i’m your daughter by blood doesn’t mean you’re not a stranger to me #you’re supposed to be the adult you’re my father you’re supposed to come to me and guide me why are you such a helpless fucking child #i do everything on my own i have nothing to say to you just like you have nothing to say to me #small talk only does so much i don’t want to talk to him i don’t care about our relationship #i’m just literally flabbergasted at the audacity he has to gaslight and manipulate me and ply victim when i’m the one he keeps hurting #it just reinforces the idea that my feelings are invalid my feelings have been invalid to him for the past 23years #i wish i was emotionless and unfeeling i wish he didn’t have the power to affect my emotions so strongly #i’m such a little kid i wish my mom was here i wish someone wanted to protect me and talk to me and at least try to understand me #i can’t wait to be dead i just want this to be over i’m just wasting time taking up someone else’s space #i think the only time i’ll be genuinely happy is when i’m dead #i don’t remember the last time i was actually happy unless i’m distracting myself #i’m constantly maladaptive daydreaming and when i’m not i’m at work trying to be a functioning an adult #but as soon as i’m home i’m back in my dream world where i don’t have to think about me at all #when gerard said When i grow up i want to be nothing at All that man read my my mind #ramblings #vent

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deus-ex-mona · 1 year

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it started as a simple song-inspired fic, how did it end up like this

#aka i finally remembered why i don’t write fics anymore: the musical #man i just had a really weird day. first i woke up from this messed up dream #in which i filled a half-full bottle of perfume with water and then sprayed said concoction into my mouth when i got thirsty #i remember that the perfume-water tasted fragrant though. like the taste spreads through your entire mouth and around your airways #and then i cleaned my room in a ‘my mind says no but my body says yes’ kinda thing. sadge #i wanted to sleep my holiday away mans…. :((((((( what a waste #oh right the song that inspired this fic was one of my favourite songs from my childhood. and it’s 20 years old this year i think…#though. even though it’s 20 years old. there is somehow???? no proper english tl of it??? like???? lol?????#there are only semi-accurate machine tls s o b s the song deserves better fr #the cg animation in the song’s mv did n o t age well though lmao. still love it though~~~~#then again. the only reason why it even inspired this fic is bc i misheard the chorus as ‘aizo aizo’ after looping it one too many times #i hate my life i hate everything how did it come to t h i s #i want my holiday back. i shouldn’t have wasted it cleaning my room of all things. sadge…#it is suiyoubi my dudes #added to my personal cringefic compilation #g od how am i still able to find that tag when i have to type out literally every other compilation tag hello??? tagging system??? you ok???

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