#I opened tumblr and talked to myself

[clownboybebop]

if you’re ever in the position to choose between giving up and accepting defeat, and actually trying to fight the ancient unkillable god that is about to peel apart reality like a string cheese, remember this: scientifically speaking, you might as well give it a shot!

1.there were trees at the beginning of the world! there were trees so long ago that they predate bacteria that causes wood to decay. when a tree fell, it would lie there in stasis and there wasn’t any way of breaking down wood xylem on a molecular level in that way.

2. it seems obvious to say, but wood eating bacteria are literally incapable of comprehending what they’re breaking down. It’s just not information conciously available to a microorganism. they don’t know what they’re deconstructing, where it came from, bacteria have no way to even fathom the existence of a tree as a concept.

3. Regardless of the facts above, the world we live in today is a world where wood inevitably decomposes

it is worth fighting the unkillable god no matter how pointless it seems. it is worth taking the risk even though youre trying to accomplish something impossible. the reality in which you live was also once reality in which trees didn’t rot. You live in a reality that allows for existence before the possibility of destruction. you live in a reality where uncomprehending microbes break down matter that is so far beyond the scope of their comprehension that it feels comical to specify something so obvious. you live in a reality that occasionally allows unshakeable physical truths to be altered with no warning.

It is worth fighting the unkillable god because trees are so old they predate the source of their destruction, and it still did not spare them. It is worth fighting the unkillable god because bacteria rots unthinkingly, because there is room in our cosmos for destruction without comprehension on the part of the destroyer. It is worth fighting the unkillable god because now and then reality retracts the promise of immortality without fanfare, and when that happens there is no mercy for the ancient. the unmaking is not softer for the desecrators ignorance. for all things, existence is endless until the exact point where it ends.

so you might as well try to kill the unkillable god. it doesn’t seem likely, but at the beginning of the world, trees didn’t rot. so you never know! you never know

[inkly-heart]

please don’t be sad little sprout, you are loved 🌱 🖤

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[quetzaly-ameyali]

HI GUYS! This is my first time opening comisions for real, but I really wanted to give it a try!

If any of u have any question, please contact me ^^

I'm gonna tag fandoms I'm into, sorry for that

[huellitaa]

listening to love potions, doing makeup, gossiping and eating sweets with my girls at 4am on halloween

[silkjade]

i haven’t been here much recently, and i’m sorry i’ve only been negative on the off chance i’ve been online, but let me just say one last piece before the end of this month, so that maybe the next might be better….

[yi3248]

sometimes self care is drawing your own custom card holder cover

[platonic-qpr-selfshipping]

me struggling with something: well, at least Claude would kind of relate-

[lyriumrain]

For anyone not aware, I somehow managed to get a cornea abrasion last Friday (idk how, it was just immediately in pain the moment i woke up 🤷‍♂️). It felt mostly better yesterday, but my vision was still a bit fuzzy so I went to the optometrist and they shined a bunch of lights in my eyes, put dye in my eye TWICE and then said... yeah you have a cornea abrasion lmao.

They said it's still healing (hence the fuzzy vision). Which is great. but also I think them shining all that shit in my eyes undid some of the healing cause it felt worse as soon as I got home 😑 I'm back to sitting in a dark room all day cause my eye is light sensitive again 🥲

[floral-hex]

woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

[lavellane]

do i make ashara more devoted to mythal post trespasser or do i alienate her from the evanuris entirely. is she immune to propaganda by virtue of how badly solas damaged her ability to believe in anything or is she especially vulnerable to it now bc she still WANTS to believe in anything. is she sporting subtle mythal details in her costume design or is she not

[azeterna]

context, tldr i've socially isolating myself for 10+ years out of massive fear of rejection and i'm trying to break out of it through simblr of all places.

there's a part i didn't mention that's even worse, it limits what i can do with my life and it makes no fucking sense for anyone to even think like that.

my fear of showing any thoughts or personality or interests got to the point where there didn't even have to be any people around to judge me. i'd be ashamed of myself, for doing things by myself, because if people knew they might be judgemental about it.

i never sought out new interests even if i could do them without anyone else knowing, hell i couldn't even bring myself to read about them. i'd see people talking about what games and movies they like and be too scared to watch or play them myself. i never even tried new music unless it came up in my playlists and i could convince myself i didn't do anything to find it.

if i got bored of what i like i'd get bored of life.. even here i often finish my cc after i've lost interest in it bc there's nothing else to do.

there were maybe 5 people i was "friends" with online who could convince me to try something new.. even then it was only if they told me i'd like it (and one of the games they got me to try was the sims, so yay?)

so yeah, the thing i'm hiding isn't that i'm some wild freak with crazy ideas, it's that i'm completely fucking empty.

and it makes me feel like i'll never fit in here, or anywhere. every time people talk about their life outside simblr, every reference they make, every fandom that i see my moots going wild over goes straight over my head.

even if i got over the fear of doing things (and no, i haven't yet, no matter how much i know it's irrational), the amount of experiences i've missed out on feels like it's insurmountable and trying to catch up would be hopeless.

like really what do i even do from here?

[skitskatdacat63]

Boy King Seb :D

[tr0ubl3d-tr4n53nd3r]

I opened up about my body image issues and people called me a horrible person, told me I'm invalidating people with eds and that I'm body shaming people? God what the fuck? Ive got no fucking support system in real life and the Internet just hates me I guess.

[thats-a-mood-gabriella]

I'm not going to main tag this because it's more personal than anything, but wow did this show come into my life at a time when I really needed it.

I came very close to losing my mom earlier this year. She was in the ICU for almost 60 days, most of which were spent in a coma. At one point, her doctor told us to start thinking about whether or not she'd want to be kept on life support, and I had to tell him that she's repeatedly told me that she doesn't. I listened to "You Will Be Okay" so many times that it has to be my most played song ever.

I tend not to post about Tilla as much as others do, and I want you to know that it's not because I'm ignoring that part of the show or don't think it's worth talking about. I don't talk about it because it hit me so close to home during the worst period of my life and it's almost... too important to me to speak about publicly, if that makes sense?

This show has been my escape this year but it's also been a tool I'm using to process my visceral realization of my mother's mortality.

[calamitydaze]

long tag ramble below u have been warned

[broh3m3]

https://twitter.com/GameIdentityV/status/1676742756910129152 The anniversary piece is out! I keep typing and deleting things I want to say (it’s been 3 hours 🧍‍♀️), but from the bottom of my heart thank you so much for the love and support throughout the years, especially in drawing for IDV. I don’t think this would have been possible without it.