#I might delete it later

[puffin-smoke]

redactedtober 14!! had almost no idea what to do for this one so. uh. this may be crap-

Gavin; Gentle

Gavin wasn't made to harm people.

He knew his purpose from the moment he first coalesced, as though it was etched into his very beginning. Lust, passion and desire.

He was never supposed to hurt people.

He was supposed to pull people into indulging in parts of themselves they always pushed away, to eat away at the stress building up inside of people, to make each day a little easier by giving people something nice to look at.

So he tried.

And for a while he did that. But he never knew what else he was supposed to do. To lose himself in expectations and a thousand eyes, to slowly inch towards a line he swore he would never cross. He only ever changed the way he acted, carried himself, how he saw the world. Rife with opportunity and beds to fall into. He figured that was different, not nearly as important as his refusal to change his form.

So he changed. And changed. Until change was all he knew, until his sense of who he was became fluid and forever warping and intangible. A ghost.

But then he met someone who wanted more. Who made him solid.

He'd only ever been in a few fights before. Once or twice outside a bar, once inside. Unempowered and empowered alike. It had always felt so odd to him, so alien. Throwing punches, dodging blows, hurling magic and tinkering with the memories of his attackers once he was done. It always felt so clunky. His movements brash and clumsy, as though piloted by some external force. He prided himself on his grace, but in those moments he had all the poise of a newborn doe.

But when he was defending his Freelancer and Caelum, when he was trading blasts of raw magic with a daemon far more powerful than he, when all of the odds were stacked against him, it felt different. The power coursing through his body felt like his own, like an extension of himself. His body practically moved of its own accord, each movement innate, instinctual.

In that moment, he was more than an incubus.

He was Gavin. He was supposed to hold his Deviant and never let them go, he was supposed to make cakes with too many eggs and wear tacky couples costumes, he was supposed to ruffle Caelum's hair and astound at how much energy there was in such a small daemon.

Gavin was a gentle soul.

And he was willing to fight for the right to use it.

[mercutio-miu]

Swear I’d live through all of your nightmares if it meant that I could sleep okay

[dovewingkinnie]

… very much regretting my last post because i don’t like getting serious on here

don’t mind me as i try to flood it away by answering several asks

[jekacatrina]

So, someone commented in one of my fics asking if they could do an audio version for YT and monetize it and it made me so fucking mad i couldn’t focus the rest of the day at work

[f1-disaster-bi]

It'll be a year today in a few hours since Granda passed.

Just like this time last year, I'm sitting up and thinking. Thinking about all the time we had. Looking at pictures. Crying and laughing and just feeling so much.

I wish we had had more time. I wish he and my aunt had had more time. I'm glad they aren't in pain, but I can't say I wouldn't do anything for one last hug or a kiss on the cheek or to hear his voice.

The day we lost my aunt it took me hours to get to my home town and when I did, it was to everyone tell me he had been asking for me because I was alone when I got the call and he was worried. He was so worried about all of us, making us promise he wouldn't lose anyone else and three weeks later we lost him.

He knew he didn't have time. He made sure we would be okay.

I miss him every day. I am grateful every single day that I can say that my Granda was the best father figure I could have ever asked for.

He taught me how to whistle and how to play conkers. He snuck me Milkyway Magic Stars and made me tea every day after school. He let me practice piano even when he wanted to watch a western or his racing. He came to two of my graduations, and only missed the third because of covid. He told his friends in the swimming pool about me and my achievements and asked them to look out for me when I started going swimming alone the summer I was turning thirteen.

He was endlessly proud of me even when I didn't deserve it.

Grief sucks, but I know he's out there somewhere sharing a cup of tea with my godmother and they're keeping each other company. He simply didn't want her to be alone. He knew the rest of us would be okay.

I miss you fiercely Granda. I always will.

Codladh go maith, a sheanathair. Go dtí go gcasfar le chéile sinn arís. ❤️

[lailosh]

[[Venting]]:

Something I hate about myself lately is how much I've changed ever since I started university. Like... I used to be very energetic! For example, I used feel inspired/motivated to draw all the time and actually comment on posts and share my thoughts as well as interact with my mutuals almost every single day! And it was fun! I was genuinely very happy within the little community that I was a part of.

But now...idk, I just feel burned out and overwhelmed with anything and everything all of the time.

And sure whenever I felt like this before I didn't let it get to me and I kept telling myself that "it's alright! I'm just a little stressed from uni is all... I'm sure that once I'm done I can draw as much as I like and make all of my little projects come true!"

But now that I did get my degree... I don't feel like doing anything, I'm just.. laying on bed... Sleeping or just passing the time whenever I'm not cooking or cleaning (because now that I don't have to study I am the one who in charge of the house chores) and I just... I feel terrible, I just want to be the me that I was before... I want my love for art to return... I really hate my current situation and I don't know what to do to feel better 😭.

[rotlix64]

Hello and welcome to my Blog! My name is Rotlix and i'm an artist that draws for fun, here are some fact about me! :

I go by any pronouns but most of the time i use she/her or they/them. I'm aroace and a lesbian

My main lenguage is Spanish, but i also know a lot of english and some very very very basic portuguese

I have a tons of OCs and since this thing of posting my drawings is just a hobby, i'm not that active. Still i hope you like my art! I'm also a yapper, so expect a 3 bibles long post along with my drawings when i post.

I have two favorite things ever; cute things, and scary things! And that tends to be what i usually post.

Usually my art is more cutesy then anything but there could be instences where i post something that goes away from that; such as drugs, horror and maybe gore from time to time. It will always have trigger warnings if so, so please keep that in mind

RULES OF THE BLOG:

- This is a safe space for LGBTQ+ people, neurodivergent people, theirians, etc! So i will NOT tolelate any harassment or hate to this groups on this post. Do This and you will be blocked

- be kind to others; don't spread hatred to others becouse of a drawing, ship, or simple preference they have as long it's not problematic. Every ship os welcomed in here as long as it's not traying to romanticize problematic things, such as incest or pedophilia.

- If i post a fan art of your oc, and i sayed or drawed something you don't like on it, plese tell me in the comments so i can edit it or delete it! There will be no problem with it!

And that would be all! I hope you have a nice day and have fun! :]

[songs-in-nature]

Been a long ass time, so here's a munday pic

[ravendruid]

Is it wrong of me to demand a slight increase in payment from clients to accommodate the inflation and increase in taxes when they're making trillions of dollars every year and I'm actually getting a loss of profit from working with them at all?

[kingarmorking]

coming to the realization that im somewhere on the aromantic spectrum is simultaneously the most gratifying and the Most frustrating and exhausting thing in the whole fucking world

dont get me wrong im happy ive finally realized it but... its Hard to explain to someone that you care for and wish the best for but you dont want the same things that they do and you really dont want to lose them in your life

[larytello]

"What are your plans for 2023?"

I replied it was to once again be able to have 3 meals every day. And to be able to pay the monthly bills without having to choose between them or food and without asking for money from my relatives or friends every damn week.

And when I noticed how shitty it sounded, I added I also wanted to find something nice that I still own to do a raffle or whatever to gather money and buy the materials to finish building the armor of my Mega Man Zero cosplay. To try and lighten the mood.

I'm just now realizing how chest-deep shit my current situation is and it's scaring me.

[superyoshisisland64]

I realized my last post will probably put me on that list 🙃, but I'm sorry I needed to get that off of my chest.

[rabbit-hearted-girl]

So there's this guy at my job who I have a secret crush on, and then this new girl told me she thinks he's pretty (I agreed with her) and then today she asked me if he had Instagram. And tell me why in the fuck did I fell jealous?????? I barely even talk to him????? I like this girl, she's super cool and we're basically friends even though we met just a few days ago, she's awesome, but I could feel a veeeery ugly feeling bubbling up inside me when she asked me. I KNOW HER BETTER THAN I KNOW HIM (which isn't a lot honestly, but anyways, I literally can count on my finger the times I talked to him) and I got so ridiculously bothered by this (even though I stalked him myself when I met him)????? Like what the fuck?

[kickbutts-singsongs]

Okay I’m not really a part of this fandom but I’ve been following along cuz it looks kinda cool

So I do wanna say that I noticed smth in the last episode of Hazbin Hotel involving Alastor?

Like it’s canonical that he’s never not smiling right? But I was watching his fight with Adam again and I saw this:

His shadowwwww was FROWNINGGGGG

But then it corrects itself like half a second later!!

It’s a blink-and-you-miss-it moment:

[mindrole]

honestly itd be embarrassing if i drew [data expunged] and the design was wrong. my pride would hurt too much

[crowkip]

slides u some timkon wip scribbs