#I might delete it later

[puffin-smoke]

redactedtober 14!! had almost no idea what to do for this one so. uh. this may be crap-

Gavin; Gentle

Gavin wasn't made to harm people.

He knew his purpose from the moment he first coalesced, as though it was etched into his very beginning. Lust, passion and desire.

He was never supposed to hurt people.

He was supposed to pull people into indulging in parts of themselves they always pushed away, to eat away at the stress building up inside of people, to make each day a little easier by giving people something nice to look at.

So he tried.

And for a while he did that. But he never knew what else he was supposed to do. To lose himself in expectations and a thousand eyes, to slowly inch towards a line he swore he would never cross. He only ever changed the way he acted, carried himself, how he saw the world. Rife with opportunity and beds to fall into. He figured that was different, not nearly as important as his refusal to change his form.

So he changed. And changed. Until change was all he knew, until his sense of who he was became fluid and forever warping and intangible. A ghost.

But then he met someone who wanted more. Who made him solid.

He'd only ever been in a few fights before. Once or twice outside a bar, once inside. Unempowered and empowered alike. It had always felt so odd to him, so alien. Throwing punches, dodging blows, hurling magic and tinkering with the memories of his attackers once he was done. It always felt so clunky. His movements brash and clumsy, as though piloted by some external force. He prided himself on his grace, but in those moments he had all the poise of a newborn doe.

But when he was defending his Freelancer and Caelum, when he was trading blasts of raw magic with a daemon far more powerful than he, when all of the odds were stacked against him, it felt different. The power coursing through his body felt like his own, like an extension of himself. His body practically moved of its own accord, each movement innate, instinctual.

In that moment, he was more than an incubus.

He was Gavin. He was supposed to hold his Deviant and never let them go, he was supposed to make cakes with too many eggs and wear tacky couples costumes, he was supposed to ruffle Caelum's hair and astound at how much energy there was in such a small daemon.

Gavin was a gentle soul.

And he was willing to fight for the right to use it.

[mercutio-miu]

Swear I’d live through all of your nightmares if it meant that I could sleep okay

[newlifeprojects]

szabadszombat, es van meg negyed oram, mert a pszicho (nem meglepo modon) kesik fel orat, szoval megprobalom osszerakni, amit mar egy ideje meg akarok fogalmazni. azt, hogy a budos eletben az elmult negyvenharom evben nem voltam meeg ekkora, ilyen nehez es ilyen kiterjedesu, otvenketto es nagyonmaximum otvenot kozott mozogtam, es bar kicsi hasam mindig volt, de lefele nezve nem logott bele sosem a kepbe, ahogy a csipocsontom viszont mindig latszott, a farktocsontommal egyutt (ez utobbi jogazaskor pl mindig kurvara zavart is, mert haton fekve a labemelos gyakorlatoknal mindig nyomta a padlo). kulonosebb gondom sosem volt a testemmel, orultem, hogy legalabb ezen nem kell olyan nagyon szoronganom, bar insecure voltam es nem szivesen mutogattam akkor sem. talan leginkabb az zavart, hogy ebben a kicsi (xs-s) testben nem foglalok tul sok helyet a vilagban, es meg kevesbe tudok ervenyesulni, mint a 'nagyok'. jah, egesz alt.iskola es kozepiskolaban is mindig az utolso haromban voltam a tornasorban, szoval nem a szazhetven centis nyugralabu, pokkaru lany, hanem a szazhatvanot centis kislanyformaju csaj.

na mindez egy evvel ezelott megvaltozott. felpattant ram az istentudja honnan (tudom jol honnan, az esti zabalasok, a vegre komolyan vett ehsegerzet, meg az, hogy van ize es ertelme az eteleknek vegre) ot kilo, koszonhetoen a gyogyszernek, meg gondolom a hormonoknak, meg annak, hogy a szorongas a kilencvenotos szintrol leesett kb huszra tizenotre? ami a legerdekesebb, hogy tisztaban vagyok vele, hogy mennyivel 'szarabbul' nezek ki, mint otvenket kilosan, valoban vekonyan, de megis, soha a budos eletben nem voltam meeg elegedettebb a testtel, amiben leteznem kell. nem is elegedettseg, csak leszarom hogyan nez ki, mert kiszolgal, dolgozik, kepes sokmindenre, sokszor meglepoen tobbre is, mint amit elvarnek tole, es azt is tudom, hogy ha dolgoznek rajta, egeszen kurvajot is ki tudnek hozni belole az adottsagok figyelembe vetelevel.

de most ez is jo – nem hordok szuk (na ja, most mar mondjuk az is szuk, ami eddig nem volt az...) es rovid felsoket, a testhezallo ruhakban meg mindig is feszengtem, ugyhogy nem lesz ebbol se problema.

szoval lassuk a medvet:

aztan fiukak itt a lehetoseg, lehet TARGYIASITANI a testem! :D

[dovewingkinnie]

… very much regretting my last post because i don’t like getting serious on here

don’t mind me as i try to flood it away by answering several asks

[yudol-skorbi]

Finally caught portfolio day while its still going and i dont want to post anything bc i feel like everything i draw is just shit and no one honestly should see it and i should delete all my art accounts forever and reconsider being any kind of artist at all

[giraffesvoice-whalesear]

Ten people I'd like to know better...

Thank you for tagging me @waaneco💐

I haven't been able to keep up with your posts. I'm a little tired, but I'm not sick and I'm alive! To let you know, I'll answer these questions.

Last Song: 晴る / ヨルシカ

Favorite Color: Yellow and Black

Last Movie: I haven't seen a movie in years…

Last Book: Frieren:Beyond Journey's End, Mr Campion's Case Book by Margery Allingham

Sweet, Spicy or Savory: Spicy. Eating home-cooked curry rice makes me feel glad to be alive.

Last Thing I Googled: Travelers Rest Wiki

Current Obsession: About how to enjoy a highball every night.

Looking Forward To: Anime "Chi. -About the Earth's Movement-"

I tag... : @alerionjkeee @berta-simensoka @dashainfernich @lilypixels @lunelfy @rethdis-love @simkareki @spicedlatte4 @tigo @tzuhu ...The most important thing is that you're well.

If not here, I hope you're well somewhere <3

[hockeynoses]

it's gonna be like -7 F tonight which is so fucking insanely cold. thank god I have electricity and central heat etc etc. but still, omfg.

[foxstens]

aftg playlist

by popular demand (aka beloved mutual @liaisun) i feel compelled to share this

i have no idea how to link to spotify or w/e sorryz

The Strumbellas - Spirits (medicated andrew vibes)

PVRIS - Mirrors (andrew vibes)

You Me At Six - Room To Breathe (more andrew. maybe sober!andrew?)

Amber Run - I Found (this is the andreil song to me)

Twenty One Pilots - Stressed out (played a lot on the radio when i first read the books)

Twenty One Pilots - Heathens (i don't have to explain this)

Nathan Wagner - Burning Castles (the only kevin song thanks to nora)

Troye Sivan - Touch (no explanation for these they just remind me of andreil)

Troye Sivan - Fun

Troye Sivan - Fools

Troye Sivan - Bite

Blackbear - Who You Are (i don't actually associate this with aftg but i love this song)

[jekacatrina]

So, someone commented in one of my fics asking if they could do an audio version for YT and monetize it and it made me so fucking mad i couldn’t focus the rest of the day at work

[f1-disaster-bi]

It'll be a year today in a few hours since Granda passed.

Just like this time last year, I'm sitting up and thinking. Thinking about all the time we had. Looking at pictures. Crying and laughing and just feeling so much.

I wish we had had more time. I wish he and my aunt had had more time. I'm glad they aren't in pain, but I can't say I wouldn't do anything for one last hug or a kiss on the cheek or to hear his voice.

The day we lost my aunt it took me hours to get to my home town and when I did, it was to everyone tell me he had been asking for me because I was alone when I got the call and he was worried. He was so worried about all of us, making us promise he wouldn't lose anyone else and three weeks later we lost him.

He knew he didn't have time. He made sure we would be okay.

I miss him every day. I am grateful every single day that I can say that my Granda was the best father figure I could have ever asked for.

He taught me how to whistle and how to play conkers. He snuck me Milkyway Magic Stars and made me tea every day after school. He let me practice piano even when he wanted to watch a western or his racing. He came to two of my graduations, and only missed the third because of covid. He told his friends in the swimming pool about me and my achievements and asked them to look out for me when I started going swimming alone the summer I was turning thirteen.

He was endlessly proud of me even when I didn't deserve it.

Grief sucks, but I know he's out there somewhere sharing a cup of tea with my godmother and they're keeping each other company. He simply didn't want her to be alone. He knew the rest of us would be okay.

I miss you fiercely Granda. I always will.

Codladh go maith, a sheanathair. Go dtí go gcasfar le chéile sinn arís. ❤️

[fenickfox6113]

Fun fact, my truest of persona’s is a puppet similar to the Sesame Street puppets :] ⊹ ‧ ₊˚

[rotlix64]

Hello and welcome to my Blog! My name is Rotlix and i'm an artist that draws for fun, here are some fact about me! :

I go by any pronouns but most of the time i use she/her or they/them. I'm aroace and a lesbian

My main lenguage is Spanish, but i also know a lot of english and some very very very basic portuguese

I have a tons of OCs and since this thing of posting my drawings is just a hobby, i'm not that active. Still i hope you like my art! I'm also a yapper, so expect a 3 bibles long post along with my drawings when i post.

I have two favorite things ever; cute things, and scary things! And that tends to be what i usually post.

Usually my art is more cutesy then anything but there could be instences where i post something that goes away from that; such as drugs, horror and maybe gore from time to time. It will always have trigger warnings if so, so please keep that in mind

RULES OF THE BLOG:

- This is a safe space for LGBTQ+ people, neurodivergent people, theirians, etc! So i will NOT tolelate any harassment or hate to this groups on this post. Do This and you will be blocked

- be kind to others; don't spread hatred to others becouse of a drawing, ship, or simple preference they have as long it's not problematic. Every ship os welcomed in here as long as it's not traying to romanticize problematic things, such as incest or pedophilia.

- If i post a fan art of your oc, and i sayed or drawed something you don't like on it, plese tell me in the comments so i can edit it or delete it! There will be no problem with it!

And that would be all! I hope you have a nice day and have fun! :]

[ravendruid]

Is it wrong of me to demand a slight increase in payment from clients to accommodate the inflation and increase in taxes when they're making trillions of dollars every year and I'm actually getting a loss of profit from working with them at all?

[kingarmorking]

coming to the realization that im somewhere on the aromantic spectrum is simultaneously the most gratifying and the Most frustrating and exhausting thing in the whole fucking world

dont get me wrong im happy ive finally realized it but... its Hard to explain to someone that you care for and wish the best for but you dont want the same things that they do and you really dont want to lose them in your life

[nthecaptin]

this is probably above my pay grade but regarding neil gaiman it's so starkly clear how much class-based absue is entwined in this horrid situation. his victims were financially dependent on him, unable to even admit to themselves that what was happening was abuse because they had, in some cases, literally nowhere else to go. amanda palmer, self-proclaimed feminist, was complicit in a truly fucked mistreatment of a woman because she wanted to keep the babysitter that she didn't have to pay. gaiman was quoted literally saying that he's very wealthy to one of his victims. even the little mention of gaiman making decisions in his and palmer's marriage bc he's the one with the money is just. so telling when you know what to look for. they both took advantage of their social and financial priviledge over their victims and used it to abuse, manipulate, put down, and in the end try to silence them.

(terfs DO NOT touch this)

[superyoshisisland64]

I realized my last post will probably put me on that list 🙃, but I'm sorry I needed to get that off of my chest.