#I might be full on lesbian

[that-artistic-cryptid]

I’ve been thinking..every crush I’ve had on a guy has been when I was in elementary school, plus I could do this thing where I just made myself stop liking them. And I thought I was just unique like that. But I straight up made myself fall in love with them. I gave myself reasons to get a crush. First I thought for some reason that I should only be with someone my height. There were 2 guys the same height as me. I forced myself to love them. Then others. I’d give myself a narrative, kinda like a script that I should follow. All other men I’ve ever liked were either fictional or I would just crush on them for a whole summer, and the day we were supposed to see each other again I wouldn’t be in love anymore. Also that specific person I’m referencing was one of the first friends I’d made that were actual friends. So I do think the feeling was just friendship. I’ve only really liked fictional men. I don’t think I would like them romantically in real life

I saw a post about things op found attractive about men and like…I don’t know if it’s an asexual thing, I don’t THINK so because those things were mostly non-sexual. I might just be a lesbian, idk. Like I couldn’t imagine just stopping being in love with my gf, just because. I don’t think I could

[7roaches]

i think all he knows how to make is bowl of cereals & even that he burns sometimes

[panicsimss]

Old friend

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[skrunksthatwunk]

sorry just watched all of lacey's games (thru rabbit hole at time of writing) and i wanna talk about laceys diner can we talk about lacey's diner? we're talking about it now

tl;dr lacey's games is about the presentation and consumption of girls.

cw suicide, csa, incest, cannibalism. if you've seen the series, you know. i only speak of them vaguely here though

in lacey's diner her livelihood depends on how well people like her food, how it looks, how it tastes, how quickly she gets it to them on time. if any of these things falter, they reject her and reinforce her desperation (trauma around failure and acceptance + threat of extreme poverty via the restaurant closing).

eating her food is accepting her, choosing to be with her in some way. lacey gets eaten in the prior episode so her stalker can be with her forever, out of an obsession with her (/her body) that leads him to destroy her to better possess and consume her (like her uncle). she can't be late serving them herself, because that's not good presentation—her inability to get food out on time is a reflection of her flaws, and a cause to reject her. she must be available for others, punctual. she can't put the wrong ingredients in—elements of herself, her life—she must exclude them entirely from the part they eat, the part she gives away. she keeps the part that is filled with the disgusting, ugly, painful things in her life, about her.

and when she gets fed up and feeds those raw, authentic parts of herself to them (out of spite, tired of trying her best to no avail, to give them a taste of their own medicine), she is punished, not allowed to serve anyone again bc it's too gross and dangerous. she is punished for lashing out, for not keeping it all bottled up, and in her helplessness, resigns herself to death.

as seen in rabbit hole, jay was too boyish to be consumed happily by the audience (the mothers in the emails), so she was killed off and effectively haunts lacey. if she is not presentable enough, she too will be destroyed and discarded. if she is too presentable, she will be consumed too completely. she has no control, no say (as we know from lacey's wardrobe), no agency outside of pretending she's in a sparkly dreamy world. and jay—who said she would rather die than wear makeup—is forced by lacey to wear makeup in death. she's fixing her by making her conform to the same gender standards she's strangled by, saying that if she was less boyish she wouldn't have died. again, femininity and conformity (and thus being pleasant to others, presenting oneself to be admired and consumed) is safe to lacey, something she must perform to survive. yet, of course, lacey is hurt immensely for her being a girl, for her being a woman, and for her trauma resulting from those events.

all her talk of being ugly when she's grieving, of almost crying in front of him (her uncle iirc), of needing to be pretty even for the people who abuse and hurt her... and how she wished the world was ugly and grotesque when jay died because that was how it felt, but it was just sunny and oblivious. she was the one standing out for being upset, and the world was pretending and consumable and she couldn't anymore. she had to scrape herself together though because what else is there? when her job and stability and life is at stake, how can she afford to be traumatized? to not pretend, even when she's alone? augh. ough. look i just like lacey. i want her to be ok

i don't know that lacey herself is supposed to have a linear, consistent story. i kind of think she's an avatar for like,, girlhood suffering and trauma, and the traumatized people who come from that (hence her dying in multiple ways and coming back). perhaps as rocio's way of warning or comforting girls who went through similar things to her, or to vent her own issues because the thought of making something that's such a farce, such a forced, gussied up version of what it's like to be a girl, bothers her. the audience comes to the website to consume lacey at her best, at her most presentable, and are instead met with the harsh reality of cockroaches and used condoms. and yet, the audience of lacey games the video series consumes her too, only they are seeking out her trauma, trying to invade her mind and pick it apart. we're all consuming what we want, whatever we find appetizing, of lacey. and for rocio, you get the sense that she is also a tool, a way for rocio to express her inner distress. in that, lacey is put through all this unfortunate shit by rocio to make her more presentable and consumable to her. we are all using lacey, we all see her and eat her and destroy her. and she comes back to us and her cage because the pain's comforting in its familiarity.

in short, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. 👍

[babymagi]

Celebrating the end of summer with some summer-vibe Kougyoku :3

Saw this outfit and immediately thought of my girl, and I HAD to make it lesbian colors because it's Kougyoku and she's the most lesbian lesbian to ever lesbian

[alliseaisfandom]

Unsure if I want Agatha to slowly and yearningly fall in love with Rio over the course of centuries or if I want her to immediately jump the really hot clearly supernatural lady who pops up to praise her after she accidentally kills her witch firing squad, becomes unimaginably powerful and leaves what is essentially an altar to death all at once

[frankiebirds]

genuinely struggling to read emily's expression here as anything other than jealousy

[jopzer]

girljamie to go with girlroy ... i'm of two minds when it comes to s3 girljamie , i am both in favor of big chop AND she leaves it long but lightens it still... idk. bangs be upon her either way ig

(more of richmond's women's team can be found here <3)

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

A Dark and Drowning Tide

gothic fantasy romance

a folklorist is chosen as the co-leader of an expedition to find a fabled magical spring for the king, along with 6 nobles

when her mentor, the other leader, is found dead on their boat in the middle of the night, she has to figure out who did it; while continuing the mission through the wilderness and navigating the potential political fallout

and the only one she can probably trust is her academic rival, a naturalist, who she hates

dark folktales & creatures

Jewish lesbian MC

arc from netgalley! out sep 17

putting both covers here because they’re both so beautiful!! (artists: Audrey Benjaminsen, & Erica Williams)

[napping-sapphic]

Alright that’s IT prepare yourselves because i am seducing all of you right NOW because i know for a fact that none of you will be able to resist all my new pajama looks i am looking HOT i am looking cute i am SLEEPY AS HELL

[avensartt]

Mmm... Lesbians

[jupitercl0uds-art]

i had a vision

[lamplighterr]

got into murder drones. fell in love with doll and cyn. had fun!

[cossettsworld]

no one else drinking an 8 shot espresso? ... just me?

[goldenamaranthe-blog]

Happy Village Trail

After the battle of Vacuo and pushing Salem's forces back, everyone is taking a much needed rest to recover before going back to Vale to (hopefully) end the war. Blake is helping Kali in the kitchen making breakfast when she realizes that the knives are all dull.

Blake: (sharpening knives) Mom, how did you let these get so dull?

Kali: I'm sorry, dear. In case you haven't noticed, things have been pretty hectic here.

Blake: You could just let me use Gambol Shroud to-

Kali: You are not using your weapon, that you use to disembowel Grimm, on any of the food I am preparing for breakfast.

Blake: (rolls eyes and finishes sharpening the first knife) Fine, here. This one should be fine. (flips knife to Kali)

Yang: (pops out of nowhere and catches knife with a smirk) Never would have thought I'd be the one saying this, but no knife throwing in the house.

Blake: Good morning, Sleepy Head. Sleep well? (notices Yang's only wearing a sports bra and jeans, the elastic of her boxers is poking out from the waistband) Pants were an afterthought, huh?

Yang: (blushes) What do you mean?

Blake: Those are Sun's jeans.

Yang: Huh... I thought these felt different. How did a pair of Sun's pants get in our house?

Blake: He lost them during the after battle party, remember? (stares appreciatively) Not going to lie, you fill them out better than he does.

Yang: (puffs her chest proudly) Of course I do! Have you seen these legs and ass?

Blake: And everything in between~ (squints when she notices tufts of dark blonde hair trailing from Yang's bellybutton into her jeans) Yang... have you always had that?

Yang: (checking the knife's sharpness by shaving her arm hairs) Had what? Arm hair?

Blake: No- well...now that you mention it, yes. But I was talking about the village trail.

Yang: (looks down and scratches the back of her head with an awkward chuckle) You mean my happy trail? Yeah, I've, uh, I've got my dad's body hair genes. Ever since I got more control over my semblance in the Ever After, I've noticed that I haven't been burning off all my extra body hair. I take it you're not a fan?

Blake: (eyes dilating as she drags a nail through the soft wisps of hair) Oh...the exact opposite...

Kali: If you're going to act like horny teenagers, can you not do it where I'm making breakfast? We eat at that table.

Yang: (under her breath) That's not what Willow and Ghira were saying the other night.

Kali: (throws dull knife passed Yang's shoulder and lodges it in the wall) What was that, dear?

Yang: Nothing, Ma'am!

[4ga1n5t-4ll-4uth0r1ty]

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