#I made this to stop feeling sad
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Bust…
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MAYBE I’LL TAKE IT ALL
I don’t need to only post WH content this month so have some Aventio/Ratiorine because I miss them dearly
#i’m hyperfixating#fanart#my art#aventurine honkai star rail#honkai star rail#honkai fanart#hsr#aventio#hsr aventurine#aventurine fanart#ratiorine#raturine#they are gay your honor#he isn’t attacking Ratio#i promise#DUDE I really miss Aven#star rail aventurine#dr ratio x aventurine#aventurine come home damnit#i love them so much#i miss him so fucking bad#I made this to stop feeling sad
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Just outside the [ANGEL]'s line of sight,
two puppets recognize each other.
#my art#deltarune#kris#spamton#im not sure how in character this is but it made me sad when i thought of it so now you all have to feel it too#im so sorry you two i wish i could save you#but when i look away you stop existing so the only mercy i can grant you is a gentle hand on the crossbar
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Suspirium - Thom York
#this is my very favorite song and i think ive been wanting to make this for abt a year#when i was at my most compulsivly unwell i would be focusing so hard and sleeping so little that i would feel physically sick#like the world was tilting around me and i would think: all is well as long as i keep spinning#bc i would stop moving and suddenly id be in pieces on the floor. but now i think my favorite lines are: when i arrive will u come and find#me? or in a croud be one of them? bc its such a profoundly lonely idea. i dont believe in a life after death. i think when ur gone ur gone#your brain stops and the thing that made you you is gone forever. but if i imagined an afterlife image getting off a train onto a crowded#platform and searching for my mom through all the chaos. when i arrive will u come and find me? would our connect extend past a lifetime?#or would u be in a crowed one of them? would i stand alone in a sea of people waiting for someone who was never coming?#its a very upsetting thought#im glad i waited to make this bc i feel the song more deeply after the death of my mom. it feels more sad and more ethereal.#there r like 2 different versions of the lyrics bc thom york is so fucking hard to understand#so i use the version i like better#original art
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no way you dropped the biggest river lore in the tags and moved on like it was nothing 😭 can i ask if this is still your intentions with him? bc it sounds like you changed your mind halfway 🤔
im ngl though i really enjoy how ren and river are similar and different to each other, but does that mean river would hurt his angel but leave our friends alone the same way ren would never hurt his angel but would unalive all of our friends? since they're suppose to be each other opposites. i really hope this makes sense 😬 my final question is what is ren doing on thursday? i want to go on a cute pier date again 🩷🌸
@secretkoa asked: and can i hear more about what unsent memory is suppose to be about or is that off limits? idk if i asked this in my previous question so ignore me if i did! thank yuo and remember to drink lots of water 🐸🌱
⌞♥⌝ For those who haven't seen the original post, I want to quickly clarify once more that while River was originally my OC, he's since been picked up and revamped by my friend Jesse/@unsentmemory!!
However, now that Jesse has stepped away from the yandere community, River's fate (and da fate of Unsent Memories) has kinda been put on the sidelines for the foreseeable future.
‼️ Massive Unsent Memories and River spoilers under the cut ‼️ CW for: mentions of gore, torture, mutilation, self-harm, etc.
With all of that being said, yes, Jesse's original intention for River was for him to be your standard "serial killer-turned-yandere once he accidentally catches feelings for his latest victim (Bunny)". The only main difference is that I originally planned for River to be a generic murderer first, whereas Jesse had him become a yandere right off the bat.
You also asked to know more about Unsent Memories, and I think giving a general synopsis(?) would be fine?? ^^ But basically... After getting involved in a car accident, Bunny wakes up with amnesia and gets tricked into thinking that this random guy — whom they've never met before — is their loving, supportive boyfriend named River. In turn, he convinces Bunny that staying in their shared home would be more beneficial than staying in the hospital as it might rekindle some old memories, he'd be able to take care of them, and it would be easier for them to recover at their own pace. But surprise!! River is actually a frequent patron at the Murderer Motel™ and now has trapped Bunny in his Torture Basement®!!! <3 He also maaaay or may not've been the one who hit them with Ren's car as well... ^^ Oopsie daisy hehe
And yeah!! Similar to what you've said, River was also supposed to share (somewhat of) a narrative foil with Ren!! I personally wanted them both to have similar, complimenting vibes with each other — all while having completely different/separate motives and incentives when it comes to the object of their affection. I'm glad to see it was conveyed well enough; even after Jesse's additions to River's characterisation :3 I know I already shared some examples in the previous tags, but I can share a few more:
Where Ren puts Angel's feelings and opinions above his own, River purposefully ignores Bunny's and does everything for his own personal benefit. Essentially, "I'm doing this for you" vs "I'm doing this for me".
While Ren would never dream about harming Angel in any capacity, he's perfectly happy to kidnap, extort, torture, and kill everyone else... In contrast to River, who's accustomed to torturing and brutalising others for his own twisted enjoyment and sees it as a way to show his interest in Bunny.
Kinda silly how Ren claims to be a freelance programmer (but is actually a hacker) and how River claims to work at a music shop (it's a coverup for his second torture chamber lmaoooo).
[CW: implications of SH] Ren is willing to go as far as mentally and physically hurting himself if Angel asks him to, whereas River is willing to physically mutilate Bunny if it means keeping them by his side. [end CW]
With that being said, you can assume that Ren is easily swayed by Angel's words, opinions, and emotions, whereas River can easily sway and manipulate Bunny due to his own feelings and emotions.
This is something I've actually mentioned before, but Ren always prefers things to be tidy, so he often cleans himself up after disposing of his victims. Compared to River, who casually wears the bloodstains with pride and blames it on getting a bit rough with someone else during a boxing match.
It's no secret that Ren is willing to change every aspect of himself to earn Angel's love, and River is willing to change his serial killer ways to return Bunny's love. Da power of friendship and repressed childhood memories gksdgjh T_T /silly
Ren pretends to be a Normal Guy© with tons of empathy to spare, whereas River pretends to be a Regular Person℗ with the heart of a himbo.
I could go on but you get da point lol
So, yeah!! This is essentially the vibes we had planned for River (and Unsent Memories) before Jesse stepped down /pos ^^ I feel like talking vaguely about UM is fine since River only has a small cameo in 14DWY — and I'm sure that if Jesse ever returns from war (/silly), they'll give River muuuuch more justice than I possibly can :3c
#Hopefully me yapping in this post will suffice for all the yammering I did in the other posts' tags lmaooooo#Ren: is that guy bothering you? I'll kill him >:(#River: someone is bothering you? more than me? what the fuck#Anyways!! Lords and gentlewomen..... I give you......#River ''you made me catch feelings as a child and I don't do feelings so I'm gonna hit you with a car'' Acosta 👏👏👏 /silly#There are direct parallels between 2017!Ren and River too if you squint#Also would this be 2024!River now?? Since UM is kinda homeless rn? /silly gshjgjs I just made myself sad T_T#Also; yeag... I agree that I could've worded my original tags better because it DOES seem like we changed our minds hjdgjsk#However my original intention [within da tags] was to talk about what River's characterisation would've been BEFORE Jesse stepped down#i.e. me yapping about what you could've expected from Unsent Memories since the game's fate is kinda.... ambiguous now ^^; /nm#But again; I don't want to force Jesse to come back to da yan community and write for a game they no longer have an interest in#It's not the end of the world if 14DWY doesn't get its sequel; and it's not like I'm going to stop working on its prequel either /gen#me: guys there's another yandere in 14DWY!!!#everyone else: omg it's Leon!!!#me: ......yeah... definitely... 😼#.......I yearn to :evilhehe:#💌 — answered.#💖 — 14 days with queue.#💖 — about ren.#🌊 — about river.#secretkoa#Very brief mentions of:#cw torture#cw self harm#cw gore
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He misses his dad.. 🥺
#I saw another fanart that made me cry so hard I threw up so I felt like I needed to hurt people too#I also haven't stopped thinking about how sad Tomura probably was when Kurogiri got captured#that was his REAL dad 😤#I would've loved to get more time with the league showing everyone's feelings and reactions with the losses and grief#like they kinda zoomed past everyone's reactions to losing Compress and Kurogiri#I hate what Horikoshi did to the villains I'll curse him until my last breath#anyways#I had to play a round of smash with my Fiance to get that screenshot for the tv lol#we debated for a while on who they'd pick for characters#I feel confident in our picks tho#Tomura would tell Kurogiri to pick that version of Kirby bc it looks like him 🥺#kurogiri would not be good at video games#but he would definitely try#Yeah I cried at least 6 times drawing this fyi#anyways sorry for rambling I'm just back on my bullshit#enjoy the food#my art#bnha#mha#my hero academia#shigaraki tomura#tenko shimura#shiggy#bnha shigaraki#mha shigaraki#kurogiri#league of villains
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seven years ago, they used to be friends. almost.
1 / 2 / ?
#diurna draws#vox#alastor#staticradio#radiostatic#radiosilence#onewaybroadcast#hazbin hotel vox#hazbin hotel alastor#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel fanart#gosh i love doing more complex shading to make fake screencaps it's so satisfying.#sorry for using my personal vox design this is purely self indulgent. hey maybe vox only starts wearing bowties after this#anyways part two is going to be uploaded in a bit my doves <3#vox made his way through the trapdoor that's why he's initially on his knees#...not any other reason...#he's so danger unaware to alastor going haywire#thing is i feel that during their friendship vox was long used to alastor hurting other people in front of him that it just...#doesn't occur to him that alastor would've ever hurt him in that way.#shame#because it never occured to alastor that vox would cross that line and ruin their friendship.#alastor is somehow desperately angry and desperately sad#and angrier still that vox gets to make him feel that way.#suddenly#alastor feels a pearl of absolute hatred form inside of him#he's never felt so strongly about something in his entire afterlife#if only my shitty little aces could communicate and stop being insane for one second. sigh.
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The parallels that hurt so much
They both jinxed the most important event in their lives trying to help...
They both lost their closest friends to this....
And both were abandoned and hurt in the worst way possible by the sibling they've looked up to....
They had good intentions, they were so young......
And they're the monsters others have created.
#arcane#arcane spoilers#arcane s2 spoilers#arcane s2#arcane meta#arcane analysis#as abba sang: the history book on the shelf. it's always repeating itself#these scenes made me think so much about silco and vander. and the parallels between them and jinx and vi#young silco looked so sweet and healthy. he looked so innocent... where did the years go#him and jinx are just people stuck in a cycle of poorly made decisions. internalizing the trauma. doing the worst crimes imaginable.& repea#and I'm not trying to absolve them of guilt. they're pretty terrible people and are responsible for their own actions.. but I can't stop-#-feeling bad for them#also. just how old were they when revolution started? silco said to dekart that he learned a lesson about power when he was his age-#-and tapped his bad eye while talking. how old was dekart? was silco a teenager/barely an adult (18-21 or 21-25) when his life fell apart?#it's sad as hell... arcane stop breaking my heart....#silco#arcane silco#jinx#arcane jinx#jinx arcane#silco arcane#young silco#arcane vander#arcane vi#<- no negativity to these two btw
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haiii sorry it’s been a while!! places down a pubby boy moodboard for you..
#sory i’ve been a lil sad :(#i stopped agedreaming for a bit out of embarassment#which i know is dumb#but i’ve been feelin better and trying to dream more :3#mine#agere#agere board#agere moodboards#safe agere#puppyre#sfw puppyre#sfw age regressor#sfw puppy regression#this moodboard was mostly made surrounding stuff that i feel#represents me when i’m smal#my boards
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I drew this with my finger. I used to do this everyday on my phone. girl HOW my wrist hurts so much 😭
#nevermoor#morrigan crow#cadence blackburn#jupiter north#hawthorne swift#silverborn prediction#i’m so so excited to see cadence involved in the murder mystery#either she’s SO DOWN or she doesn’t want to get involved in morrigan’s crime (looking at the book stealing scene…)#what if we learn about the safe guard pact because cadence’s gets activated. that would be fucked up#mog would feel so guilty#hold on I just made myself sad agh#um anyway#someone stop me from making more doodle pages the IDs are so intense lol
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making myself sad thinking about this
being the first moment in their conversation that really caught eddie's attention, and then him spending the rest of the season fixated on how he ran away after she died
#stranger things#eddie munson#hellcheer#edissy#i kind of hate thinking about eddie's arc because i don't like the way it's written so maybe thats why i never made the connection before 💀#but these two just make me so sad yall#he feels like he failed her#not just because he couldnt stop her death but because he abandoned her after she asked him to stay#....and now that i'm thinking about it like that i dislike the conclusion of his arc even more#i will not go into detail because thats not what this post is about
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about to start season 2 of gravity falls and hey are we done with Mabel Has To So Much As Tolerate A Guy Who Wants To Date her That She’s Not Fucking Interested In plots
#throwing gideon like a wet paper towel at the wall. grow up HDHSHSHSHDHSJSJ#i feel like I have to say this all the time but it’s good for characters to suck. for them and us#so this again isn’t really a Criticism of the show just a Oh This Makes Me Sad thing. yknow#but oh my god stop trying to force mabel to marry you. the gnomes and gideon#if you’re afab youve Likely had to deal w boys not fucking taking no for an answer. or you Cant tell them Firmly no bc of societal pressure#it made me feel Bad. i was sick i was ill. don’t remind me of real life you’re a cartoon /JOKEY#i didn’t realize gideon And The Gnomes were still hung up on her until the dreamscapers two parter. get over yourselves ‼️ she said no#also in a similar vein bc I know everyone talks abt how Immediately sick of it they were w dippers crush on wendy and. Yeah#though funny enough it didn’t Show itself until a few episodes after wendy’s appearance i feel#i feel like i remember it being The episode she was introduced#words from the monarch#gravity falls
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smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.
#jrwi show#jrwi fanart#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#made this within a short span of wahtever bc i gotta go up to the mountains for my stupid gay job tonight n im trying#nnot to frrRREAAAK THE FUCK OUUTTTTTTi dont wanna work but. get that bread we fuckin shall i guess#ONWARDS TO THE FISH TORMENT!! sometimes flowers feel pain when you trim them before their blossoming. atleast i imagine so#i used to draw gillion with loooong hair tied into a big ol braid. and then it was confirmed that he had short hair when he was little.#AT FIRST I WAS SAD. but then i realized the duality of. when they were little. gill had short hair. edyn had long hair.#AND NOW THEYRE OLDER. and gillion has long hair. and edyn has short hair#both mirroring eachother. looking up to eachother. subconsciously or not. they most certainly care. and most certainly miss eachother.#GILLION ALWAYS LOVED HOW LONG HAIR LOOKs. atleast i imagine so. he hasnt cut it since he left the undersea. sure he wanted to go back home#but even at the very start. he knew he was free in some way now. free to grow out his hair. an adventure would await him before he returns.#he knew it would be a while. so he cant let this go. he cant let this sought-after hair-length get cut away from him again#not yet. not yet. i like to think he loved music too. I SAW SOMETHING INTERESTING A BIT AGO#i see alot of ppl commenting on my baby gill comics like;'i wouldFIGHT this teacher i wanna KILL EM i want them DESTROYED#all very good and nice sentiments! i LOVE the energy here! and it would be nice. to have that catharsis#but the story of young tidestrider is not a story of catharsis. it is a story of agony and being so so small and so special and also so dum#and sucking so bad. and just being a kid and doing the things that a little kid does and so many tired tired people reacting badly to it#youre supposed to be the hero that will save us. our world hangs in the balance and you are the one who tips the scales.#YOU are supposed to SAVE US!! you NEED to SAVE US! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SQUIRMING IN YOUR STUPID CHAIR!!#you'd think that young tidestrider ought to prevail. and be tucked someplace all safe and sound.#elders gone missing and rotting in a jail. their cultists nowhere around. but theres no happy endings. not here not now.#this tale is all sorrows n woes. you may dream that justice n peace win the day. but thats not how this story goes#BIG ideas for this lil baby gillion series. if anything i make ever gets disproven im killing myself in a well as to poison a water supply
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I think Luke liking posts like that tells us all we need to know.
Saying stuff like: “He squandered his one chance at being a lead” and “He should hustle more otherwise he’s done” isn’t kind. It doesn’t help, other than make things worse.
I know that haters won’t care but kindness doesn’t cost a thing. And it should be given freely, no matter what your opinion is on someone else’s career.
#it just made me feel sad so#I feel like I know what he’s going through#I understand it on some level and so I like him even more#luke newton#just hope that both lukolas and haters fuck right off#stop placing expectations regarding his career on his head to bash him with#he’ll do what he wants and when he wants to#perhaps I’ll delete this later btw
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I do want to say that I feel a but relieved that it was not suicide per say(as it looks like till now) , most likely a drug overdose case gone wrong here. With this, atleast I feel Liam was not actively trying to end things for himself in a way.. it is accidental but all more tragic that it could be prevented if people used their brains!
learning that made me feel better too... but then also worse... but then better again... like it's all just fucking terrible. In the end it does make me feel better that he wasn't suffering that acutely in that way in that moment, that was really so horrific to imagine and live with, and of course for the people in his actual life who survive him the guilt would have been unbearable. I do feel better ever since I, also, reached that conclusion from reading about what happened. But also... he didn't want to die, he wanted to stay around and keep doing things and trying. And he's gone. And that's just so tragic and fucking useless. I let spotify Get me earlier with their 'remember Liam' playlist and listening to him say "I want to get better" and "I want to be a better man" in song after song.... it's crushing. I wanted that for him too, for him to have that chance. There are so many ways things could have been better for him, but now all of those possibilities are just... dead. It's just garbage, I hate death and people dying and I'm really honestly just fucking sick of it.
#cw death details#and yeah.... yet another person dead of drug use and stigma#I can't stop thinking about how#I spent so many hours and hours over years talking to people about the things we wanted for Liam#the ways his life could be better#the things we'd like to see happen and we'd want to see him focus on instead of what he was#that we thought would bring him more happiness and allow him to ...be okay#and for what where did all that care and love go what good did it do#so many people so many hours of care and hope sent into the world.... and it doesn't feel like it did any good#so much love wasted I wish we could have made him feel strong#strong enough to be the better man he knew he wanted to be#on a lighter note. did yall know/ remember that liam uses the lyric 'I only got two eyes'😂#like its a liam song so obviously it's in a sad and worrisome context but still lmao
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#tried rlly hard to shade this like skin blender idk but gave up and just half toned it#my shading is shit and I can’t draw astarion for shit#man i hate realism#why do i keep trying to do it#anyways i hate the way this came out but i feel bad for not posting today#my art#art#digital art#sketch#astarion#astarion bg3#bg3 astarion#bg3#baldur’s gate 3#bg3 fanart#bg3 art#baldur’s gate iii#concept art#i should stop comparing my art to other’s bcs everytime i try to change my artstyle and force myself to draw in a new style i fail and die#the way i pick up art styles is just fun experimentation and somehow never made by studying other people’s artstyle#im not ready for my holiday to end but at the same time i feel like most of my bad thoughts are generated by too much free time#so mayhaps losing my free will for like 12 hours a weekday will fix my sads so uhhh#idk man#nobody reads these tags so i can say whatever i want#if you’re reading this uhhh#sorry you had to read me vent in an shitty astarion doodle post
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The "this number is.." is a reference to idksterling.. theres nothing nsfw on here its all just innocent kissies and cuddles i promise 🙏
Ughhhh I'm waaayyy too autistic and depressed rn to say anythingg... ive got choir district on Saturday and its really stressing me out so im bringing my X plush for an extra friend to support me... autism who?
Also a stupid vent under the more lolol its funny if you need a laugh i guess
Someone on Pinterest saw my gore art and was like.. "dni" I GAVE A TRIGGER WARNING WHY DID YOU GO TO THE COMMENTS- and then on the htwins discord server i posted some adorable 4x art i got eight 🔥 reactions BUT SOME KID PUT A ROLLING EYES EMOJI- BROOOOOOOO THEY WERE JUST GIVING EACH OTHER A FLOWER WHY U HATTING 😭😭😭☹️😨❤️😭⁉️❤️☹️❤️🔥🤭🗣️❤️✌️🩸🙏❤️🗣️❤️❤️🤭 I SWEAR OSC KIDS ARE SO MEAN FR ☹️
#bfdi#battle for bfdi#tpot#object shows#WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#im sad#osc#bfdi fanart#twogaty#i freaking love twogaty sm#couchbuddies#heheheheheh Two doesnt know how love feels teheh#they probably figured out what love is aaafter tpot 4#tehehe i cant believe some people hate this ship#yeah i get that host x contestant is weird BUT WORK WITH IT!!!#i made a whole au based off the idea of these two dating#Two riggs the entire show just for Gaty#why? to make her immortal#CMON ITS SO FIRE#I LOVE CONFLICT STOP GIVING ME awww me love you GIVE ME CONFLICT#ughghgggg i needed to rant sorry yall#bfb#battle for bfb#object show community#osc community#also just imagine everyone looking at Two different when the news comes out that Gaty was eliminated a long time ago#im still working on the au and i plan for comics but it hasnt all connect yet lol#its called Tunnel Vision bc the character we follow the most is Four and his motivation to ruin Twos career#he changed everything about himself but Two is still loved more#he tried to reveal the fabricated votes but no one believed him
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