#I love the mentally fuckery

[moonchild--mischief--managed]

Boy next world episode 8

I love the implication that every Cir has his Phukan but specifically that every Cir makes sure that they find and fall in love with their Phukan.

Its almost like the first Cir told his Phu "I will always find you and I will always love you" and he took that shit very personally and very seriously. And they all witness the last Phu with his Cir. The love Phu has for Cir transcends the multiverse....................actually parallel universes because multiverse doesn't necessarily mean they'll all look alike but parallel universes would mean same people multiple outcomes and choices. And somehow this relationship repeats itself in multiple worlds.

I'm glad we got an explanation for how Cir saw what he saw and how we got here and I'm especially glad that I can say I guessed it to a certain extent. I live for shows with plots that confuse and challenge me (BOC I'm looking at your fine and problematic ass with 4 Minutes and DFF)

But the highlight of this episode believe it or not, is everyone's absolute disgust with the fiancée. Cir didn't want her breathing the same air as him and I think he's a lot bolder and more daring than our Cir because he didn't seem to give a flying fuck half the time (yes I know he's still as traumatised and has learnt to mask heavily). And Phu's mother hen that doesn't play about him, I can't remember her name, is a blessing in the open. That woman is ready to square up with anyone and their mother when Phu is involved and honestly, he needed that support this episode.

Also, I think they (Cirs) have an unconscious level of love and care for Phu because at the hospital, even when he was being rude to Phu because he didn't know him, he was not raising his voice. He was just speaking, maybe not as softly as our Cir would (which is what made me realise he came back at the end, his voice is the absolute fucking softest when talking to Phuand also his eye but I digress) but he was gentle still, as compared to when he told his "fiancée" to kick rocks.

[strobbylemonade]

101 - a dummy's guide to loving and becoming human again

[milolovesbmc]

Sometimes I'm having a good day and then I remember Corey Gpi canonically walks around his house barefoot no socks no nothing like an evil fucking villain

[libraryfag]

as above (susie and mettaton being my favourite undertale/deltarune characters)

so below (Gideon and Augustine being some of my favourite locked tomb characters)

[zhoudadudugongjin]

[skitskatdacat63]

2023 Australian Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso(ft. Max Verstappen & Lewis Hamilton)(my personal post-race highlights)

[arolesbianism]

The quixote worms are encompassing me once more

[twistedappletree]

Thinking about Jin Ling becoming a sect leader at 15 and crying because no??? he’s a baby. He IS baby. he’s a baby boy and he needs to be a kid pls someone stop this right now LET HIM BE A KID

[floorpancakes]

me vs the powerful urge to constantly make every tweet i see about the looooosers

[yrooxrksvigirzmtovwzwwb]

@salviao and @grc-digital-archives

I will use these and you'll have no idea what I mean until you see this so if you are seeing this now you know I guess

Fun phrases you can use to the detriment of everyone around you:

"This vexes me." Use this in response to anything negative said about you. The more you use it, the better. "That haircut isn't working, man." "This vexes me." "...What?"

"I'd press L2 at the precise time, parrying the [X]." Use this in response to any hypothetical. "What would you do if your best friend flirted with you?" "I'd press L2 at the precise time, parrying his flirt." "W- What the fuck are you talking about?"

"This is so sad, can we get 50 likes?" Use this in response to any complaints. Much funnier if you use it in realspace. "Me and my girl had a fight. No idea how I'm gonna make it up to her." "This is so sad, can we get 50 likes?" "What the fuck is wrong with you?"

"It's because of the Ritual." Use this in response to any question regarding the cause of something. Never explain what "the Ritual" is. If anyone asks, say "Don't worry about it!" And smile. "Ugh, why can't anyone here be good at their jobs!?" "It's because of the Ritual." "...What's the Ritual?" "Don't worry about it! =)"

"That's what they want you to think!" Use this in response to anyone stating any facts. "I just landed a new gig." "That's what they want you to think!" "What? Who's 'they'?" "..." "What the fuck?"

PS: Don't do this to anyone who isn't, like, a close friend you're comfortable fucking with. You will get ousted if you do.

[chronicillnesscaneffoffplease]

I hate how sleep and fatigue seem like they should correlate and yet they don’t.

I’ve been sleeping more recently (averaging about 90min more than usual) and you might think “oh, that means you’re less fatigued right?” Which would be a false assumption. Because just because I’m sleeping longer doesn’t mean I’m not waking up more during the night (from pain, or nausea, or palpitations or bladder urgency… or all of them at once), or getting more of the good stuff (rem and deep sleep) according to my Fitbit. Today I woke early and haven’t been able to get back to sleep at all. And yet I’m still so fatigued. And like yes I’ve I been diagnosed with mild positional sleep apnoea (which I’m managing) and a slight sleep latency but I was told unequivocally by the sleep doc that the severity and patterning of my fatigue was not explained by these findings. The only night I’ve slept through in the last fortnight or so is the night I took my strong pain meds for intractable TMJ pain. Which makes me think that pain is an element. But probably not the whole picture.

I try to figure out if it’s physical stuff, I try to balance probabilities if it’s depression (it’s been a rough couple of months when I think about it), is something else going wrong with me? Or is this just my normal, a result of all my various conditions.

At some point I think I need to accept that my fatigue is chronic, that I do experience some sort of PEM, and I probably need to pursue me/cfs with my GP again. She was the one who brought it up with me last year, but it fell to the wayside a bit with the hEDS and bladder/bowel stuff that took over last year. But even though I feel like I’ve too much energy to have me/cfs, I do experience the malaise and flu-like symptoms when I overdo it. And overdoing it can look different from week to week. I don’t know.

[thingswhatareawesome]

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[respectthepetty]

Takara - I don't want to be possessive. I don't want to hold onto him too tight. I don't want to be crazy about him. I don't want to hurt him.

Taishin, every time he looks up to Takara with those big brown eyes - You know I'm only living and breathing to please you, right?

Baby boy, just be possessive. That's all he wants! Taishin would be thrilled if you laid claim to him like that.

[magicallyunwell]

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[kapsloc7]

FINALLY POSTING THIS!!1! This was a huge project for me (literally, it is 3 feet tall!) based on Will Wood's 'The Normal Album' and my personal relationship with it. I threw a ton of references and symbolism in here, it was a ton of fun to create :)

Rambling about details under the cut.

Also: If you enjoy this, I have prints (and other things?) available here!

ALRIGHT BUCKLE UP BECAUSE I HAVE LOTS TO SAY

This painting is acrylic on a 24"x36" canvas, created as part of my portfolio focusing on human experiences and mental health. I wanted to make a painting about music because it's a very important thing to me, and was ultimately inspired by the song Memento Mori, The Most Important Thing. In the end I decided to base it off The Normal Album in its entirety.

The most obvious reference is the outfit, of course. I took all my own reference photos so it isn't an exact match, but is of course in spirit Will's outfit from the album cover. The only symbolism in this is the expression of masculinity in the suit, and a slight bit of femininity in the painted nails. Nothing too deep about it, I just wanted to throw in some gender fuckery because of my trans-ness.

The keyboard itself isn't a reference (I mean it's just my keyboard) nor are the books behind it (Just there for composition) but I put some stickers on the keyboard to throw in some extra references and symbolism. First, the "Give Me That Old Time Religion," both a Self-Ish reference and inspired by the sticker on Will's keyboard. Second, the pride flag being covered by an upside down American flag. This was something more personal I threw in for fun, about my distaste for the US and the oppression of queer people here. Also, I threw in the window from the album cover (but empty)

In the background, there are silly references to specific songs, (white picket fences, barbed wire and trenches, and the 222 for 2econd 2ight 2eer) and some more personal references as well (pill bottle ties into themes of the album as well as my own mental heath issues.) The potted plant has a bunch of symbolism thrown at it, and was inspired by lines in well better the alternative and Outliars and Hyppocrates, kinda a bit about feeling restricted by pressures from yourself or others causing you to uhhh. not be okay. and the pot design is based on the keys of Will Wood's keyboard as well as kinda an Everything Is a Lot reference.

Hand stuff: Bracelets are bracelets I made, mostly just for fun to provide more visual interest. Both kandi bracelets are inspired by Will Wood of course, the visible letters reading 'Memento Mori'. The grey bracelet doesn't have the letters visible, but it reads 'not afraid to die' The rings I wore were also personal fun. The white ring on the middle finger is a bit of queer code representing Aromanticism, and an engagement ring on my ring finger. Just representing the struggles I've had with sexuality and relationships and such.

Finally the chains, wallet chain was thrown in to represent financial pressure, and the one over the piano is the actually important one, representing how shitty it feels to turn creativity into a career, and feeling forced to create. There's more thrown in here probably but I'm tired and basically wrote an essay already so UH. GOODNIGHT IF YOU READ THIS FAR I LOVE YOU WAAAAA!!!! PLEASE LET ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS I LOVE TALKING TO PEOPLE

[beans-in-a-toaster]

The whole G13/Usha thing is really making a home in my brain atm. How much of Usha is being destroyed by being two minds in one body? G13 is pushing her down and drowning her out now, so what's gonna happen when they get out, how much of her will be left? Will Usha be a shell of a person, still mentally absent like she is now becoming in G13? That's like a worst-case scenario but imagine. If that happens, I am going to cry. A lot. Usha is so adorable as a character and Rehka can do something devastating if she wants to. I almost expect her to, given her bit being so combative with Brennan. Oh, you want a fun no-consequences, action story? How about I erase the mind of the sweet grandma I gave everyone and scar every player at the table?

The dynamics in general between the action heroes and Lake Elsinore crew sharing bodies is so fun and I'm happy to see how they'e being explored and are different between each player. Vic and Wendell are teamed up and act as one sometimes. Jennifer is subtly helping Russell, but never overtaking him. Jack and Paula are so funny but equally helping each other especially in terms of the divorce. Dang is letting down Greg and is left alone and unsatisfied. Liv and Kingskin are still developing in my mind, but I love how Liv is kinda become comfortable being this hulking fridge of a man, a mob boss who holds hands with his lackey because Doug Meat is awesome and my everything.

I don't know how to end this, but NSBU has been so fun to watch each week and I really hope that we see some real character fuckery as the season begins coming to a close.