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am-i-the-asshole-official · 1 year ago

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Aita for 'Breaking up' with a friend?

This is going to be a loooong post so buckle up. I have been friends with this person, who I will refer to as Bread, since 2017. They were pretty much my only close friend beside my sister(Who i will call Gamer, she is important later on) but also i always found them kinda annoying, but I never said anything because i would have to see them in school everyday and it would be too awkward. So right before my school shutdown for Covid, like on the last day, I (basically) said "I don't want to be friends with you anymore." I however continued to be their friend because they acted as if nothing had happened and honestly it took me a lot of courage to say the first thing to their face anyways. This is the end to the first chapter in our story.

So skip a few months in which we have no school. When online school starts we did it on google hangouts, and i found a way to reconnect with my school friends, i.e Bread and two other people who will become VERY important to the story. These two people who i befriend i will call Sprite and Pepsi. Sprite and Pepsi are currently two of my best friends, however Bread has had a long running history of issues with Pepsi. Mainly they set these aside for the good of the friend group. I introduce the three of them to one of my outer school friend, who is slightly older than us and therefore i will call Mentor(who actually has a tumblr so if you see this, by now you know this is me so keep scrolling.) The six of us become very good friends(for those who need a reminder, that's me, Gamer(my sister), Bread, Pepsi, Sprite, and Mentor. Cue 2021, the friend group now all uses discord and I have been invited into a side group chat, titled something along the lines of 'plans to remove Bread from the friend group.' Now, during this time skip i have mentioned a few incidents have occurred. 1) Gamer and I have gotten in heated arguments with Bread over silly things, them being really rude about Sprite's art, them not liking a documentary I recommended, several incidents where they 'introduced' us to their online friends who was just them on an alt account. Anyway, back to the group chat. I am filled in on even MORE discourse between Sprite, Pepsi, and Bread. I don't really remember any of it know and the gc has been long since deleted. We talk shit about them behind their back while also pretending to be their friend(this is partly the asshole part because we did this A LOT.) During this time Sprite is our double agent, being the person Bread always rants and vents too, despite Sprite discouraging it. During this time somthing very childish happens that i am honestly embarrased to type, so i will skip it, occurs, acting as the catalyst for all of us breaking our friendship with Bread in favor of Pepsi. During this event many hurtful words were said, mainly aimed at Bread(to their face this time.) Our break in friendship, however, does not last long, as right after we(Me and gamer) are added to a groupchat where Sprite tells us that they were a double double agent and was on NO ONE's side during this entire thing and also kind of telling Bread what was going on. They explain that this friendship stuff is dumb, and we all become friends once more (including Bread and Pepsi.) Things continue as normal. This is the end of chapter two

School reopens. I am in a class with Bread and no other friends. Each day my resentment for Bread grows. (Also a quick context for our school, Bread, Pepsi, and Sprite all use the same bus. Me and Gamer do not. Mentor does not go to our school. Many events transpired on the school bus that i am not fully aware of.) At this point I fucking DESPISE Bread. Its lots of small incidents, that i never addressed with them. Them being too touchy, invading my private space, not understanding that WHEN I PUT MY HEAD DOWN THAT MEANS I AM TRYING TO SLEEP SO FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DONT POKE ME. At this point all of my friends and I use insta, as me and gamer have just gotten it, instead of Discord. My friends never used discord much, so now, I start talking to my friends more. Pepsi and Sprite start filling me in on more and more of Breads misdeeds. It is revealed to me how pushy Bread is, how they ignore peoples boundary's, etc, and how practically everyone in our grade fucking hates them. This is news to me. I start cutting Bread out more and more. The shit talking behind their back returns, but this time with a vengeance. This time more people are involved. This time, the friend group is larger. This time, the exclusion Bread faces is on a larger scale. It is 2023 now. I barely talk to Bread. Their friendship with Pepsi is entirely down, they had a big friendship over haul that i have not gotten into, but we're still friends, only in name, for Mentor. Anyway, I use Pepsi as a human shield. Bread will avoid us if we are near Pepsi, and wont come to a group event if Pepsi is there. Life is great, because i no longer have to deal with Bread and their bullshit.

Now i come to the final part. The actual breaking up. Bread has confronted me a few months prior about how i avoid them. I weave my way around the topic of saying I hate them because i am very non confrontational. But now, I have confidence. I just finished hanging out with my friends. Its the middle of the holidays so i can send them a message via discord and not have to think of consequences. So i do. I tell them that I don't like them. I don't exactly outline the problems, but I do tell them this has been a long tome coming. Now, comes the reasons why i could be an asshole.

One, I have been 'soft blocking' Bread for a long time before this and i should have done it ages ago. Two, They have literally no other friends now. They are entering a new school year completely friendless, and i cant completely say its their own fault. Three, Most of what I have heard about their wrong doing is passed down from mouth to mouth, so details may have been twisted and I should just confront them about it instead. Four. As their only friend, it was kinda my job to help them, isn't it? but i didnt . I just abandoned them as soon as i got fed up. Five, even when i was genuinely their friend, i was a really shitty friend, refusing to take their side in any conflict that arised. Six, Bread acts like a genuinely nice person that i don't mind hanging out with in person, its just certain things, and the way they act with others and online that pushed me to this point.

So thats it, thats my story. A few helpful things to keep in mind: This is only an abridged version of events. I will be answering any questions i can on a throwaway account to clear up any confusion, and also add more detail on what exactly Bread has done wrong. Also we are all under 18 in this story and currently, so please keep this in mind. I don't think i did anything wrong but also i am surrounded in an echo chamber of people that hate them so i need an outside view to really understand how bad of a person Bread is. Sorry for any spelling mistakes, and I hope this was, at least, entertaining to you.

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haruu-luv · 10 months ago

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vent post this is all not directed to anyone on tumblr

fuck you fuck you for everything you didnt do and therefore you did. fuck you for turning my suffering into something that benefits you. fuck you for not taking me seriously. fuck you for only giving a shit when what i had to say hurt you. fuck you for making me learn things by myself that you were supposed to teach me. fuck you for making everything about me about you. i look in the mirror and i hold myself back because i feel like im becoming a carbon copy of you and i dont want to be. fuck you for making me exactly like you. fuck you for telling me i wasnt trying to communicate fuck you for only caring when i showed you failing grades. fuck you for only respecting my boundary when your friends picked up on it. fuck you for making me have an anxiety attack every time someone raises their voice. fuck you for making me like this fuck you for telling your friends things that i told you i wanted to be between us. fuck you for guilt tripping me into thinking i was wrong. fuck you for not letting me have an opinion. why did you only care then i started s/h. why did you only care when i stopped talking to you about things. why did you only care when i started to be silent. why did you only care when my 100%'s turned to 0%'s why did you only fucking care when i gave up. i tried telling you for 12 fucking years and now you care you care and it hurts. you tell me you care and i feel bad for everything ive done. i feel bad for being in your way. now you tell me you love me and mean it. now you respect my boundaries. now you keep things to yourself. but why did it take me almost k1lling myself for you to finally make up your mind. everyone i tel is always telling me its messed up. how you gave up on me because my sister was ill. i was a CHILD. i didnt need to be figuring out how to cook. i didnt need to try and decipher my grandma's polish because you threw me on her when you couldnt deal with me and she could only speak polish. she was more of a mom to me then you ever fucking will be. i miss her so much. she died when i was about to give up and just stop doing anything. i pretended i didnt care. i pushed her away. she was trying her fucking best and i feel so bad for it.. i couldnt tell her i was sorry and that i loved her because of the language difference. it was her who showed me my favorite food. it was her who dug up her old dvds of lazytown so i had something to watch on her old tv. it was her who let me sleep in her bed. why couldnt you love me like that when i needed it. i fucking miss my babcia.

#tw vent #silly goofy mood #angry vent #mom issues

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ananicoleta · 1 year ago

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I am supposed to be doing my homework rn but I can't concentrate. I have pent up feelings inside me and I feel like they are eating me up on the insite. I need to vent. Having nowhere else to turn to I decided tumblr.

WARNING: This is very LONG. I don't know what I'm even saying, I'm just ranting nonesensically at this point. If you don't want to read about the identity crisis of an overwhelemed teenage girl then feel free to ignore.

It all began a few days ago, Monday I think, when I went out with my two best friends (girls). One of them had just broken up with her bf (she wasn't too sad about it) and we were chatting about boys. Both of them had dated before, had flirted and kissed guys and even more. I have never done those things (although I sometimes wish I had someone) so I whistfully said 'When's gonna be my turn to have a bf?' This statement started a whole conversation.

They told me that I can't just wish for a bf, that things don't just happen and that I need to stop daydreaming all day and take action. At first, I didn't know what they meant. Then they started telling me that I am basically too childlike, seem too innocent and don't even try to attract guys. They told me that when I have conversations with them I don't even try to flirt or look at them with doe eyes (I suck at this), I just talk to them nicely, as if they are just my coworkers or classmates. This shocked me because I have never even thought about it that way.

I simply thought that if I am nice and if I have great ideas people will be attracted to me and like me. I bond with people over deep conversations, shared interests, ideas, concepts and things like these. But apparently this whole approach is wrong. Apparently, people during a conversation don't focus on the information, but on the person and on the body langauge. Small talk (which I don't really like tbh and I kinda suck at it) is appaerntly like that: NOT the information matters, BUT the person, the way they talk, how they move. This blew my mind.

They went on to say that I focus more on the information than the person (therefore I focus on the wrong things) and that gives boys the impression that I am not available or intersested. "You need to find the woman in you" they said. "We don't want you to change yourself, you are great the way you are, but you need to better yourself and evolve. You are not a child anymore".

Moreover, not only that I do this with boys but with everyone (well, duh, because I thought that this is how you are supposed to interact). They said I talk to everyone like they're a coworker or a classmate (I don't view people like that, I didn't know it looked that way) and that I always seem more interested in the information I recieve, not in bonding with the person (even though that is the way I bond).

The thing is, I also tend to zone out during conversations when they don't particulary interest me. I love to daydream (I do it for hours, while pacing back and forth, flapping my hands repeatedly and listening to music) and when the conversation gets boring, I start paying less attention to what is being said and mkre attention to my thoughts. Even with conversations that interest me, sometimes, I have to resist daydreaming (although it tends to happen less if I am very involved). They told me that that is wrong and "no wonder no one's interested in you since you don't look interested in them". Apparently, people do and should pay attention even when it gets boring?? I didn't know that! Why did no one tell me! (of course if I am one-on-one I do keep the conversation going to prevent it from becoming awkward, but if I'm in a group setting then I don't make a lot of effort. apparently that's wrong.)

The overall message was that I need to stop daydreaming so much, be more confident, improve my social skills, try to pay better attention to my surroundings and to the people around me and practice my flirting skills on boys (even if I have no idea how to do that or where to start). And the thing is, they, along with the majority of the girls around me, seem to be doing these things so effortlessly, they have a natural feminine charm, a way with people and I just don't know how to act, what to say, how to say it. It's incredibly weird. I tried to follow their advice ever since then, but it's not really working. I can't really pay attention to my surroundings, to people, all the time. It's overwhelming and exhausting. I still wind up daydreaming. Now I'm afraid that I'll never succeed and I'll remain single forever, that no one will be attracted to me or like me that way. I just don't know how to put myself out there.

This conversation also made me realize how differently I percieve the world and human interractions compared to my friends. I've always seen people as people. Boys, girls, it didn't matter to me. Apparently, that's not how it works. "I treat boys as if they are just normal people." I said. "Well, that's the thing," they said, "you mustn't treat them like people. You must treat them like boys." While I understand the logic behind it and what they are trying to say, it simply never occured to me to do that or think like that. Or that, if I don't act that way, then boys won't like me and percieve me as just a friend, a nice person, no attraction there, sir.

Tbh I've always felt a bit different. Different than them, than my classmates, than the world. Ever since I was young I was the weird one, the one kids picked on, the odd one out. Everything I did was just not right, the way I was and acted was wrong and I needed to change. Thankfully, I've adapted and now I don't do certain things in public (e.g flapping my hands) like I used to. I've understood that certain things are not socially acceptable, I've gotten better at human interractions (when I was in primary school and a bit of middle school, I was a disaster) and my social skills have improved. But I still feel like I'm almost always two steps behind everyone else, like there is something I just don't get. I don't know what it is and it frustrates me.

I thought that I might be neurodivergent, maybe autistic, but after a lot of research, I feel like I'm in between. I don't meet all of the criteria in order to be diagnosed with autism. I can interrpret facial expressions, figures of speech, hand gestures, most social cues, read between the lines, comfort people, get sarcasm and jokes (most of the time) and I can feel and show empathy (I'd say that I'm actually too empathetic). I DO have certain problems with certain stimuli but never to the point where it's actually hinderring. The only symptoms that I seem to have are stimming (hand flaping, pacing back and forth, ricking etc.), a niche interest (I've been interested in cartoons my whole life to the point that I read and know a lot about them and I only want to talk about them and I feel very connected to them and invest almost all my time and energy in them), perhaps executive dysfunction and a few problems here and there with some social norms and cues. I do have a fiery temper and I am very emotionally sensitive and I do have a lot of breakdowns, but I don't know if they can be classified as autistic meltdowns....

Idk where I'm going with this man... I guess I just feel very lost, like I'm neither neurodivergent nor neurotypical, like I'm stuck in between, like no matter what I do I'll never belong in any place, nor in the autistic community, nor with the NTs. Like no one will ever get me (I know I might seem self-centered but this is how I feel). I don't want to self-diagnoze (hello, imposter syndrome), but at the same time the thought of opening up to my friends and family, even to my therapist, leaves me petrified. I'm not scared of being judged. If I were neurodivergent I'm sure everyone I love would accept me. I'm actually afraid of being dismissed ("stop it, Ana. you're fine."). It would hurt just as much as exclusion.

Like I said, Idk where I'm going with this. It's just me veinting so I can get this off my chest and concentrate on my homework afterwards. Probably tomorrow I'll be back to rebliogging cartoons, completely ignoring this rant.🙃

#autism #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #rant #vent

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redroyalblues · 1 year ago

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listened to my rwrb playlist tonight so i’m just gonna… spitball some thoughts into the tumblr sphere in case anyone like. enjoys the lyric tie-ins and such. but this is mostly my venting about random songs i like and think about firstprince to, so:

all-american bitch just straight up is about alex. “just like a goddamn kennedy i swear” “i don’t get angry when i’m pissed, i’m the eternal optimist” are just like what i imagine his entire thought process is behind being someone who has to be on all the time and their best self or else the entire country goes to shit. and “all the time :) i’m grateful all the fucking time :) i’m sexy and i’m kind :) i’m pretty when i cry :)” is just straight up an acd people pleaser mantra

alex claremont-diaz the kinda bitch to be obsessed with cool for the summer for a long ass time and then realize exactly why like five years later

THE VERY FIRST NIGHT BY TSWIFT… OKAY. “i remember the night in the hotel, i was riding in the car when we both fell, i’m the one on the phone as you whisper, “do you know how much i miss you?” what more can i say honestly

on that note. PAPER RINGS!! this is such a henry’s sappy ass song it’s not even funny. “went home and tried to stalk you on the internet, now i’ve read all of the books beside your bed” is just a reminiscent thought that he has had before idk. “i hate accidents except when we went from friends to this” exactly EXACTLY

i feel like henry had a tumblr phase as a teen where he went incognito and was very passionate about the arctic monkeys and other 2010s tumblr interests therefore in my head he listens to i wanna be yours and thinks of our beloved first son

but his fav is david bowie so i know he listens to young americans and “young american, young american, i want the young american” gets stuck out of context and on repeat in his head

nonsense by sabrina carpenter 🤭🤭 i’ve talked about my thoughts on this being a song alex would have loved in rwrb-2020 before but it bears repeating. “think i only want one number in my phone, i might change your contact to don’t leave me alone / you said you like my eyes and you like to make ‘em roll / treat me like a queen, now you’ve got me feeling thrown” long lyric but alex would twirl his hair kick his feet giggle over it being exactly the way he feels and i love that for him

first verse of strawberry blond by mitski. that is all

another taylor song but PARIS. this was like a formative firstprince song for me. if you haven’t listened to it please do and then come back and scream about it with me. “privacy sign on the door, and on my page, and on the whole world / romance is not dead if you keep it just yours” and “i want to transport you to somewhere the culture’s clever / confess my truth in swooping, sloping cursive letters / let the only flashing lights be the tower at midnight” OK?????

physical by dua lipa is another just really random song i feel like i just Know alex enjoys

finally, go your own way by fleetwood mac. alex listened to that shit on repeat for the entire flight to london after henry left the lake house and i will fight for that opinion “if i could, baby i’d give you my world / how can i, when you won’t take it from me?”

#rwrb #red white & royal blue #red white and royal blue #rwrb movie #firstprince #alex claremont diaz #henry fox mountchristen windsor #as previous me said of alex:#bc i know that bitch was listening to the lover album all of rwrb 2020 #to my new followers today i give you this random ass post tomorrow who knows #there may be more on another day but y’all are safe for now

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icedlattelover222 · 1 year ago

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TW: ed talk/venting, criticism on pr0ana, information on the negative side of ed pages on tumblr:

In order for you to understand my post I’d advise you to read the picture above.

Again, I’m putting a tw above so if these topics make you uncomfortable I’d advise to please keep on scrolling bc I never want to trigger anyone on here.

Thing is, I’m sure there’s young people that follows my blog and therefore I believe it’s really important for me to post this so you will know that you’re not alone and there is a possibility to recover and heal from eating disorders/mental health issues etc.

The picture is taken from a video on YouTube about a lovely and admirable girl on social media. She’s an incredible artist and she’s immensely talented. She’s also really open on her platforms when it comes to mental health and her own struggles. Especially when it comes to eating disorders.

In the video as you can see she talks about tumblr and going on pr0ana accounts which in return would cause harm to her and trigger her ed. I never want you guys to do the same and read the pages on here that encourages you to eat less and work out more. Or believe pages that tell you you’re disgusting and don’t deserve to be looked at in a positive light when it comes to what you look like. Nobody deserves to feel that way, everyone on here dealing with mental health issues and especially ed’s deserves everything and more.

It’s going to sound incredibly cheesy but truth be told all of you guys reading this deserve to be happy. You deserve to be content with your body and what you look like, because literally everyone is so freaking beautiful. Trust me, you’re okay just the way you are regardless of the number on the scale or the size of your clothes.

The reason I’m posting this is to warn you guys ab the pr0ana accounts on here. And no I’m not going to ask you guys to report them on here or bash them with hate, nobody deserves that. I’m well aware that the pages/blogs on here are their safe space and often the only place where they can vent and talk to people online that gets it and is going through similar issues.

All I’m asking is to be gentle with yourself. It takes time to heal and it takes a ton of courage to agree with yourself that you want to recover. And it’s not easy to stop yourself from relapsing, I’m going through it as well and as much as I want to ask you all to love yourself and treat yourself with kindness. I know it’s not an easy step and it’s not right for me to pressure you guys to recover or stop completely from looking at blogs that urges you to develop a worse relationship with food.

All I want to to let you guys know you’re not alone in this. I am 100% here for you if you need someone to talk to loves. Post whatever you want on tumblr and vent as much as you want and need to, as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone in the process of doing so. Again, if anyone posts harmful stuff on tumblr, reach out to them and ask them if they’re okay. Or message that person and let them know their content, blogs are really triggering and can cause people a lot of harm. Reporting is often the worst thing to do cause it may hurt that person immensely when their safe space is taken away from them. You can also just simply unfollow them or block them if you don’t want to keep on seeing their posts.

Love you all so much, please take care of yourselves and PLEASE don’t forget to use your skincare routine and drink water people <333

#tw ed rant #tw ed in the tags #eating disoder recovery

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thequietsrestricted-discussion · 2 months ago

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New Intro Time

Welcome, Darlings, to The Quiet's Restricted-Discussion Room, where, despite the name, you can discuss anything and everything. I am Quiet, and I'll be the host of this lovely little game. Because it is a game, isn't it?

Reality-questioning thoughts aside, welcome to my blog. I don't plan to do much here except repost fandom content and discuss drama in a safe space. Fandom content, memes, and other miscellaneous posts, reblogs, etc., will be tagged appropriately in case you are only here for the tea. Anything regarding myself will be tagged with #Be Quiet✩°🎧 and anything pertaining to online drama will be tagged with #Quiet Speaks.

Now that all of that is out of the way, let's get to the general information about myself, and then we can get on to the rules regarding drama posts I make.

As said before, my name is Quiet. My pronouns are They/It, I'm demiromantic, cupiosexual, and I have a wonderful girlfriend. I also have a lot going on in my life at all times, so this blog may also contain rants and vents (all of which will be tagged with #Not-So-Quiet and will refrain from discussing identifying details), but they will be sparse. I also do not often willfully engage in discourse very often, however this was originally intended to be a commentary blog, so if I see discourse or drama (that I actually have authority to engage with), I will give my commentary. However, any comments and thoughts given should be taken with a grain of salt. I'm all of 20 years old, guys, I am not a genius, and I am certainly not perfect, as no one is.

Not much else to say about me, so here's the rules for interaction on my drama and discourse posts. First and foremost, everyone is human. Everyone makes mistakes, and therefore everyone should be given grace. It is okay to call people out, but it is not okay to harass, belittle, insult, or otherwise cause harm or strain to them.

Which brings us to rule number two; do not harass anyone mentioned in any of my posts. All people mentioned, as stated before, are human, and thus deserve the bare minimum amount of respect at the very least. This includes refraining from harassing them. Especially when it comes to threats. I will not allow any posts I make, which are meant to be informative, to be used to cause people harm.

Number three, Do not take my word as law. As said before, I am not perfect, I am not a genius, and I have flaws and faults as well. I aim to discuss these topics with as much connection to the real world, consequences, and genuine concerns and thoughts as I can. However, my word is not law, and I am also aware many will not share my sentiments or agree with my views.

This is fine, but it leads into our next rule; my dms are open to information ONLY. Harassment is a one-warning system for me, and my dms will be shut off if need be. If you have questions or concerns, do not bring them to my dms, but to my ask box. If I think the question should be handled in dms, I will answer the question publicly telling you as much, and will wait for you to reach out there.

Number five, if you know me, no you don't. I do have other tumblr accounts that I use for more personal things, but I will not link them, and I will not tell you what they are. My general rule, seeing as this account is meant to be disconnected from my personal blogs, is that even if you know me and I personally sent you this blog, you will act like you do not know me. You will call me Quiet, and you will treat me like a stranger, or you won't interact at all. Because this blog is meant to be disconnected, that also means that any and all identifiable information will be changed, censored, or redacted/expunged from anything I post here. Keep in mind that any names used, including my own, are false with the exception of public figures or names of those involved in online drama and discourse, and any correlation to real-world events, incidents, people, times, etc. is accidental, and fictional.

I think that's all I really need to say. I hope you enjoy your stay here, traveler. And welcome, once again, to The Quiet.

#intro #rules #commentary #drama #quiet #the quiet #pinned post #pinned intro #pinned info

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onlytibki · 1 year ago

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Sintered solstice is 12/21 not 12/20 but a good theory

Since my post has been aging a bit, I now only get this response just about every week, despite the multiple clarifications I've made in the replies and reblogs.

But, to be fair, I haven't addressed this in ask/answer form so here we go! :D

If we want to get pedantic about it, Winter Solstice is an astronomical event that happens at a specific time--the Earth is constantly swinging between longer daytime v. longer nighttime and back, so the exact moment where day/night are the same amount of time is a solstice.

If we want to get pedantic about it, Winter Solstice 2023 occurs on Friday, Dec. 22, at 3:27am UTC (or Thursday, Dec. 21, 7:27pm PST, or whatever timezone applies for you from there).

From here we can ask two questions:

Q1. Could the Riordanverse gods have set up their yearly meeting to only occur at the very second of solstice?

A1. Absolutely. They're gods. Also, this is a fictional universe. Having a wholeass meeting within one second or even one instant is absolutely plausible within this context.

Q1.1 Is it kinda unnecessary to live in the time-frame of instants when the gods by definition have literal eternities?

A1.1 YES.

So we can assume that this probably does not happen. Meaning the solstice meeting extends beyond just the moment of solstice into, we can assume, a wider meeting/party/festival. This leads to the second question:

Q2. Is pedantry and specificity to the minute necessary here?

A2. Not really!

Keep in mind, the original ancient Greeks--along with probably all ancient cultures who watched the stars--DID KNOW when solstice occurred in terms of the movement of astronomical bodies from our POV, even if they didn't quite land on the correct reasons why it happens. Ancient astronomers would've been able to get the timing down to hours or minutes (or whatever time unit they used) BUT.

BUT.

The everyday person wasn't necessarily an astronomer. Instead, you had everyday people preparing for and celebrating solstice for days or weeks. We're spoiled in the Information Age with our roughly standardized calendars and clocks, only truly effected by the forces of gravity and maybe one day a Carrington Event (may it never come to pass); time in ancient cultures was measured in divisions of sunlight, moon phases, the height of the sun, and smudged by weather and other human observation errors and the unhurried pace of human activity. Time was mostly rough, sometimes exact.

There was a difference between astronomical time and cultural time. There very much still is, honestly.

So if we can consider a Winter Solstice festival/meeting/etc. to be something that isn't necessarily limited to a single moment, we can consider it to be more of a "time of year" cultural event.

Therefore. (Recognizing but setting aside the ridiculousness of what I'm about to say.)

The plus/minus of 1-2 days between the release of the PJO series from the actual astronomical Winter Solstice is relatively negligible.

Also. It's a goddamn tumblr post about a TV show. I love being unnecessarily pedantic and have certainly been guilty of it myself but Christ on a bike my lovelies please live and let live.

(Thank you for the ask and giving me a chance to vent, lovely anon!)

#percy jackson #pjo #winter solstice #pjo live action

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triforce-of-mischief · 2 years ago

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Tumblr 101

This is an important read for anybody who is new to Tumblr and/or only likes instead of reblogs.

These icons are at the bottom right corner of every post you see.

On the left is the comment option, the speech bubble. Comments are a quick way to make your thoughts known on a post without reblogging it. Comments are good for chatting with someone after they answer your ask as an alternative to spamming their ask box. Commenting + liking is NOT an alternative to reblogging.

In the middle is the reblog option, the two arrows. This is the most important thing to know about using Tumblr. Reblogging is how Tumblr functions. When you reblog something (art, fic, meme, whatever), you display it on your own blog while keeping the connection to the original poster/creator. This is how creators get their works seen! If you like something, reblog it! I cannot stress this enough!

Reblogging is not to be confused with reposting. You will see artists say to not repost their art. This means that you are not allowed to copy-paste somebody else's art and make it into your own post. This is stealing, and it hurts artists. Reposting erases all connections to the real artist and makes it seem like you made it even though you didn't. If your repost gets reblogged by people who don't know better, all of the attention will go to you instead of the actual artist. Most people get very hostile when they discover somebody reposting art, so it's a good thing that I'm teaching you now!

While we're on the topic of supporting artists, let's take a minute to talk about commissions. Art is hard work, and therefore, art is usually not free. Most artists and writers have a Ko-fi or similar way of accepting tips and donations from people who like their work and want to support them. If you want something drawn/written for you, be respectful! Find somebody who has open commissions and ask them how much it will cost to buy their time and talent. Many artists and writers also open drawing/writing requests or prompts, which are free. However, free to request does not mean free to use. If you want to save and use somebody's art, you have to pay them for it unless they say otherwise.

Finally, on the right is the like option, the heart. Likes are the most misused feature on Tumblr. Here's a little secret: likes are useless here. Liking a post is not an alternative to reblogging. Tumblr has no algorithm, so the only thing that will support your favorite artists is you reblogging their work! Likes are little extras that you give along with a reblog, or drop on somebody's post to tell them that you see it. For example, I only use likes on my friends' text posts, such as answered asks or vents, or on something that I reblog as a reminder to myself that I've seen it before (and as extra love for the creator). When I admire some art or writing, I give them a like and a reblog.

An extra warning for people who have never reblogged anything but have hundreds of likes: you will likely be blocked on sight by a lot of people. Having so many likes but no reblogs means that you look like a bot and that you are actually messing up the system. Nobody will think that you're cringe for reblogging what you like! Now is the time to start interacting for real! Be free, have fun, and reblog to your heart's content!

How about the ask box? This can go by many names as customized by the user. This is a place for people to start a conversation, ask a question, or play an ask game. If somebody answers your ask and you want to keep talking, the polite thing to do is either comment or reblog it. Spamming somebody's inbox with individual sentences instead of keeping it in one post is time consuming and widely considered to be annoying.

Last but not least, your follower count. Here's another secret of Tumblr: nobody cares about your follower count! Nobody can see it except for you and it won't make you or your posts any more visible because there's no algorithm. If you want interaction, find some friends and cool artists and reblog their stuff. Very few accounts are considered to be "Tumblr famous" and frankly, you don't want that kind of attention here.

Please let me know if you have any questions! How you interact with this post is your first test so I can see that you are listening and learning! 💜

#tumblr stuff #tumblr 101

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celestial-heartbeat · 3 years ago

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hey love, what to do when you're in a spiral? i'm struggle with this :(

how to get out of a spiral!

hi sweetie! this is a very common struggle that we all go through from time to time. that being said, here are my personal step by step guide to getting out of a spiral.

1. stop everything + relax

the main cause of a spiral is usually a result of seeing something unfavorable in the 3d and becoming overwhelmed. you feel like it's difficult to change the circumstance. therefore you force yourself to go 2x harder trying to "fix" the 3d, (personally, i tend to affirm even more, repress emotions, over-consume info), which ultimately makes you feel worse. so, i would recommend that you take a break from ALL things manifesting-related for a few days to a week. delete tumblr, instagram, unsubscribe from loa youtube channels, whatever. in this time period, i suggest that you do meditation and journal out your feelings. let yourself feel any emotions and vent out whatever's bothering you. don't keep it all bottled up. do some deep breathing and take some time for yourself!

2. work on your self-concept ONLY

after you feel like you've taken enough time "off" from manifesting consciously, now you can start easing back in. i recommend choosing 1-3 self-concept affirmations to repeat throughout your day whenever you feel like it, or when you're in SATS. i'd suggest working on your self-concept for another few days to a few weeks, (and forever honestly, cause self concept is all you really need).

here are some neutral affirmations, and a list of really good general self-concept affirmations.

3. be still and know...and don't seek validation from the 3d

this isn't really a "step" but just a good mindset to implement. you guys, when you're truly in the state of KNOWING, whether it be knowing you'll get your desires or knowing you already have your desires, you will be much less likely to spiral. why? well, as i stated in the first point, we spiral primarily bc we experienced something unfavorable in the 3d. but when we're in the state of knowing, we KNOW that the 3d is temporary and that our desires ARE COMING!! it's inevitable, therefore there's no reason to spiral over something that won't even last.

“let the facts remain. they’ll dissolve. they’ll all dissolve because you’re going to remain faithful and occupy the state.” - neville goddard (check out this ask by @thisdreamplace, where i found this quote :3)

i love this quote bc it talks about acknowledging the 3d, but not letting it affect you. it will DISSOLVE!! there's no need to stress over a temporary circumstance. KNOW that you already have your desires in your 4d (aka imagination), which means that the 3d as no choice but to reflect it.

#asks #law of assumption #neville goddard #manifest #self concept

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the-bjd-community-confess · 2 years ago

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Hello, the “Oldie Chinese Diaspora Anon ™” is back. Disclaimer first: I understand that, in good faith, what other folks have said is based on their experiences. The same goes for what I have to say as well. Depending on our experiences, our views will differ, and your mileage may vary.

To the lovely Anon who thinks the Chinese doll community is “nicer” and more “constructive”, let me introduce you to the Weibo Tieba known as “BJD Tucao Bar” (“tucao” means something like “venting” or “cussing”) http://c.tieba.baidu.com/f?ie=utf-8&kw=bjd%E5%90%90%E6%A7%BD&fr=search The rules for this bar are written right up top: “It’s for fights only. Not open to Recast owners.“ You see, depending on how involved in the Chinese doll community you are, there are a lot of nooks and crannies of places where doll collectors hang out. If you lay them all out, it’s not so very different from the English-speaking doll community. But the pulse (?) of the doll community, the places were folks go to gather information about bad dealers/collectors, complain about bad transactions, complain about recasts and recast owners, etc… well, you have this confession Tumblr in English. And you have the Tucao Bar in Chinese. That’s where the drama lives.

I mean no disrespect – because this is my own personal experience as well – the Chinese social media has its own set of internally-consistent argot to keep out the “outsiders” as well as the State Censors. I have recently shared a complaint from this bar to a friend in Taiwan (who only speaks Mandarin Chinese) and she still has difficulty understanding it. However, the argot is mostly used in safe spaces, therefore if someone is only looking at entry-level comments posted under curated photo-sharing services (like Insta comments in English, for example), you’re not going to be able to see the “other side” of the Chinese doll community.Call me an old fogey with thick skin – but I actually enjoy the conversation that takes place in this bar in the Chinese doll community. I learn a lot from them – much more so than from curated photo-sharing services (RED is the new one right now).

I have seen both pro- and anti- artist folks starting flame wars; shouting down each other with words that I wouldn’t repeat to my mother. I’ve seen women complaining about how “Creepy” the men in the doll community are. I have seen rumours about faceup artists smashing recast heads sent their way (in fact, the Chinese are the only folks I know who are rumoured to do this for real). I’ve learned where recasters got their dolls in China, as well as the (so far unsubstantiated) rumour that recasts are cheap because they use recycled plastics – some may have even come from illegally harvested medical waste. You name it, they’ve got it, and in spades. (One of the latest entries in this bar is a victim spreading the word on a scammer who impersonated a famous faceup artist on social media so this person can take their money and the doll heads. Now that’s something I haven’t heard of here yet! Post here: http://c.tieba.baidu.com/p/7974698494 )

I do have to say, a few topics almost never shows up. We see them all them time in English-speaking doll communities, but they do not show up in Chinese ones. Mind, it’s not because the Chinese are “nicer” in anyway – it’s because these are “non-issues”. The Holocaust is a “non-topic” – don’t get me wrong, these folks are not Holocaust deniers, but the government and the platform will censor the living daylights out of anyone referring to State-sanctioned actions (sorry, Anon who mentioned D. Shoe’s comments re: Solar Marine doll. The “truth” is a lot more complicated than folks let on). The Chinese would love to tell you how they have their own Holocaust (The R_ape of Nanking) which is OK to talk about, but you will not find any Chinese mention of the Tiananmen Square massacre. LGBTQ+ topics are “non-issues” because it’s illegal to depict in media; simple as that. Opportunistic paedophilia is rampant and children as young as 9 can be sold by starving parents to paying elites – accusing someone of being a pedo means it’s probably true but it’s you that’s going to get into trouble.

Oh, and yaoi/BL? It’s considered a form of feminism, a way to buck the “family-first”, “have kids”, “grow up and get married” traditions through fiction and fantasy. Most consumers do not know much about real-life homosexuals; in fact, most of them know very little about sex in general. The characters are never overtly sexual (because that would make them illegal), so there’s a lot of half-baked erotica but no sex. This means Chinese BL is pretty much pure fantasy, no real LGBTQ+ humans were involved in the conception or production of this media output. Therefore hot-button social issues that take up a lot of confessions here on this blog (and elsewhere, of course) are actually pretty non-existent in China. It’s easy to create the illusion that the Chinese doll community is “nicer” and “more fun.” But the reality is the “we’re all nice here” illusion is just that – an illusion; a carefully-curated Truman’s World that’s used more to placate the Chinese population and to peddle to everyone else as a sign of China’s “Soft power”. Just look at how they went out to censor movies to pass the Chinese censors: https://www.vice.com/en/article/88gbyz/is-china-involved-in-hollywood And perhaps you can tell me if you would rather live in a world where Tyler Durden blew up the buildings at the end of the Fight Club or that he ended up with 20 years in an insane asylum.

~Anonymous

#BJD #ABJD #BJD Confessions #Community Counterfeits #BJD Groups #Hobbyist Region

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chuckbass-love · 3 years ago

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hii! I have a request for prompt 71 with Andy or ransom ☺️

Hey lovely, thank you so much for waiting this long for me to post this and i really hope you enjoy reading it just as much as i enjoyed writing it.

Prompt #71: "I'm gonna fuck you in front of the mirror, i want you to see how pretty you look when you're spreading your legs for me"

Disclaimer: My work is not to be translated or to be posted anywhere else other than MY Tumblr, Wattpad and Ao3 without my permission. However, reblogs are welcome.

Pairing: Andy Barber x Fem!Reader

Warning: Swearing, unprotected sex, rough sex, ass spanking, vagina spanking, oral (f receiving), orgasm denial, daddy kink, breeding kink and angst.

Word Count: 3,486

GIF NOT MINE!!! Credit to @sergeantbuckybarnes go check them out💜

In The Mirror

Standing in the middle of the master bedroom, you start to fold the freshly washed clothes before putting them away neatly in the closet. You start off by putting shirts away, Andy’s and then yours before moving on to jeans. Sometimes you wonder how he even has the room for his own clothes since you take up the majority of the space. But you just put that down to shopping trips he's so insistent on treating you to.

As you’re just finishing up, you hear the front door open before it slams shut so hard that the anger fuelling the slam of it can be felt even upstairs where you are.

Looks like Andy is finally home...

You decide to finish up with what you’re currently doing, taking your time before approaching your husband with caution. It was probably another run in with Neil, something you’ve grown accustom to dealing with ever since you met him. Doesn’t mean you don’t run out of ways to handle it occasionally though, your best option is to just allow him to vent before you distract him. Usually distracting him requires an old movie and takeout but other times it requires rough and needy sex.

“Andy” you call out as you pad down the stairs and into the kitchen, only to find him practically chugging a beer way to quickly. It must be bad if he couldn’t even wait until dinner to drink alcohol.

“You know sometimes i think why do i even bother going to work. I mean, Lynn sure seems to enjoy screwing me over for that fucking prick Neil and i’ve had just about enough of it”

Okay, now he’s really angry. You have no idea what to do or even what to say to him, you’re rendered speechless by his cursing and boiling temper.

“I was just about to make dinner, uh, lasagne perhaps. Or maybe we could order takeout again and rent that movie you were telling me about. It’s up to y-“

“Did you not listen to a goddam word i said? I don’t give a shit about dinner, do whatever. I’m going to take a shower” his decibels rise, his tone scolding as he storms past you and up the stairs taking two at a time until he reaches the top. You hear his heavy footsteps stomping to the bedroom and then suddenly it all turns quiet until the shower water starts to run.

Rather than leaving him to cool off, you decide to head up to check on him.

In a way, he was right. You practically ignored his annoyed state and changed the subject, in fact you couldn’t have changed it fast enough. But that’s only because you didn’t know what to say. When he gets like that, there’s not a lot you can say.

“Andy, i’m sorry” you squeak, stepping into the master bedroom to find him stood with his back to you as he removes his dress shirt and tie. His back muscles tense as he stands still for a second before turning around and tossing his clothes to the floor before starting on his belt.

“Andy” you mumble, desperate for him to acknowledge you.

“What?” he snaps, slipping out of all clothes until he’s in nothing but his birthday suit, his impressive size dangling between his legs.

“I’m sor-“

“I heard you”

You gently step closer to him, examining his face for any tell tale signs of discomfort before you rest your hand on his right forearm, “please, just talk to me. What happened today?”

“Like you care, all you seemed to give a shit about was dinner, so how about you go focus on that like a good little house wife and leave me to deal with the tough shit... does that sound like a deal?”

“That’s not fair, Andy. I didn’t know what to say to you, that’s all. You’ve had that many run ins with Neil lately that i lose sight of how to help you. But i’m here now, just talk to me. Tell me what i can do to make it better”

Silence.

His hand pulls from your touch, but before you can even understand what’s going on you’re back is already touching his toned tatted chest. His arms rest on your shoulders, keeping you pressed against him.

“Well, there is one thing...” he starts, moving your hair to the other side of your neck, freeing up some skin for him to feast on. His mouth nears closer, his hot breath fanning you torturously as his nose nudges at you. That’s when you feel his hands fiddle with the hem of your shirt teasingly, slowly lifting it up your torso with ease. You lift your arms in the air, allowing him to remove it before he discards it behind him without a care.

“Such a beautiful body, honey. Be a shame to waste it fretting away about dinner in that kitchen” you gulp in response, feeling his lips barely grazing the nape of your neck, the action causes a shiver to dance down your spine as his beard scratches you.

“Andy” your voice is nothing but a breathless whimper as you turn to face him, his hands instantly rest on your waist at the band of your booty shorts. Of course when he tugs at them, you know what he’s after now and you also know that no matter what you do or say, he’ll take it regardless.

He drops down to his knees, surrendering to your body and dragging your shorts down your legs as he sinks to the floor. You step out of them for him, even going as far as to kick them to one side before he pushes you back to the wall.

The palm of his hand gives your calf a soft squeeze as the other lifts your leg up to drape over his shoulder, your aching sex on show for his lustful orbs to focus on. The insatiable hunger is starting to drown out his mind, body and soul, he’s incapable of thinking of anything else but you, craving anything else but you.

He’s starving, desperate to taste you.

A couple more minutes pass with him peppering kisses along your ankle at first before moving up to your calf and then your thigh. You try to push him away due to the sensitivity there but he only forces you off him, he’s so much stronger than you could ever be and you know now that you’ve lost.

He presses another chaste kiss to your bundle of nerves before pausing and feeling your body react to his touch. Your shaking body begs to be worshipped and devoured whilst he begs to drink and breathe you in like you’re his only lifeline.

“Smell so good” he coos, poking his tongue out to give your clit a kitten lick as his nose nudges at your mound, the action causes you to roll your eyes to the back of your head. Whatever you did to deserve this agonising torture, you will make sure to never do it again. This is teasing at its peak.

“Please, Andy. I need you”

“Oh you’ll have me, alright” his response is quick yet snappy as he dives into you. His mouth latches onto your sex aggressively, sucking, slurping and biting. His beard scratching your inner thighs and it's sure to leave a burn there.

The tip of his tongue points all the more as he winds it around your clit rapidly and even with one hand gripping your hips roughly whilst the other strokes your leg up and down before settling on your ass, you still feel unsteady as if the smallest wave of pleasure could knock you to the floor.

His mouth right where you want him comes and goes as he takes breaks in between to come up for air, but right when you feel yourself getting lost in the feeling, it comes to a complete halt.

You glance down at him, eyelids heavy, chest rising and falling, only to find him rising to his feet.

“What the hell, Andy?” you ask, your entire body heating up.

“You sound angry” he cocks his head to the side as he grazes his hand across your hardened nipple.

“I am”

“Now, that’s exactly how i felt when i came home. Yet instead of comforting me like a good little wife should do, you made me feel worse. So therefore, you don’t deserve to cum”

What the hell is wrong with him tonight?

He shoots you a wink before padding into the bathroom, the shower water still running and steaming up all of the mirrors in your eye-line until he closes the door, locking it to prevent you from entering and leaving you standing there perplexed at his actions.

He did all of that on purpose. He built you up to the edge of ecstasy before leaving you to come crashing down all alone, all in the name of proving a point.

You reach for your robe off the hook on the bedroom door before storming out, brimming with frustration as you make a start on the dinner. Lasagne will do for tonight.

You prep it as fast as you can whilst the oven preheats to the correct temperature before putting it in and setting the timer. Now you can relax.

As soon as you throw yourself down onto the couch and flick the tv on, you hear the bathroom door open. You’re almost certain that he expected you to wait for him like a lost puppy dog but you refuse to play into his petty games of revenge. All because you didn’t comfort him. It was silly and unnecessary.

So for now, you’ll indulge in some reality television whilst you wait for dinner to cook and if there’s one thing that’s for certain, it’s that you are most definitely not putting out for him tonight. No matter what he says or how much he sweet talks you. It’s not good enough for him to treat you like that.

Whatever Neil did or said, that’s a work problem.

Andy can’t believe his eyes when he comes back into the bedroom only to find it empty. He wraps his white towel around his waist, covering up his modesty before heading out into the hallway and down the stairs. As he reaches the bottom of them, he spots you watching tv in the lounge, giggling away at whatever The Kardashian family are doing now, but whatever it is, he doesn’t care.

Instead of leaving you be, he stomps over “what do you think you’re doing?” he inquires, voice bellowing more than he intended “i’m waiting for the lasagne to cook, it’s in the oven. Enjoy your shower, honey?” you probe sarcastically, a rhetorical question. However your sarcasm infuriates him further as he picks you up with ease.

“Andy, put me down. NOW” you shout, kicking your legs and slapping his upper back as he drapes you over like you weigh nothing.

“Dinner is in the oven” you remind him, desperate to avoid burning it. But that’s when he puts you down before walking over to the kitchen and turning the oven off.

Your eyes widen as he approaches you once again, picking you up and carrying you up the stairs, taking them two at a time as he always does.

“Andy” you groan until he places you back onto your own two feet, his hands practically rip your robe off to expose your naked body before he does the same to the towel covering his manhood up.

“I’ll tell you what’s about to happen, honey and you’re going to listen” he informs you, stepping closer and moving you to stand in front of the mirror. You correct your abysmal posture as you look back at him in the mirror. A sinister glint in his eyes becomes crystal clear as a wicked grin graces his handsome face. His beard full, his hair still wet from the shower as droplets of water drip down his chest.

“I’m gonna fuck you in front of the mirror, i want you to see how pretty you look when you’re spreading your legs for me” the pure filth has you holding your breath in shock before exhaling dramatically.

He’s always been kinky but sometimes he still manages to leave you shocked. Although it’s times like these that you love him the most, the whines and whimpers he draws from you so effortlessly, the way he causes your body to tremble raggedly and most of all the way your entire world stops turning as he brings you to that cliff edge, pushing you off of it with his two large menacing hands.

He kicks your legs apart further before pulling your arms to the back of you. He hooks his arm inside of them to prevent you from moving away from him whilst his other hand massages your puffy petal like folds before circling your dripping entrance.

Once his tip is resting directly at the tight hole, he proceeds to move forward, the skin around your entrance catching onto him as your walls welcome him inside.

“Oh, fuckkk” he draws out the word, groaning and gasping for air as he drives home, the feeling overwhelming you to the limit.

How can one man have such a firm and tight grip on you like this?

How did you end up here, unable to utter out a single word as his pace picks up before he’s fucking into you so violently, snapping his hips with no signs of slowing down.

“Keep your eyes on yourself, honey, do as i say” he warns, and the moment you look up at him, you see the darkness and it causes you to look away, focusing back on yourself just like he instructed you to do.

The feeling of his cock dragging along your walls so fast is enough to cause the knot in your stomach to tighten painfully. The pleasure is almost too intense to bare, too much for your fragile body to handle. Yet you continue to take it, allowing him to fuck away his anger, channeling it into this moment.

His arm and hand tightens around your arms, holding you in place as he keeps his sights on you, watching as your mouth hangs open in the perfect O shape. Fuck, you look perfect like this with him bending you to his will, using you for the sole purpose of his pleasure and his pleasure only.

How did he get so lucky to be graced with you’re beauty?

The harder he snaps his hips into you, the more the coil tightens and the all too familiar feeling builds all the more inside of you. An ongoing reminder of your impending orgasm.

“Andy, i-i’m gonna c-cum” you tell him, begging for him to allow you the privilege of releasing, the privilege of creaming all over his rock hard cock.

A dark chuckle erupts from his throat, mocking your pleas for a release before tutting at you, the torment continuing.

“Please” you beg once again, only to be reprimanded with the harsh sting of his hand landing on your ass cheek “keep your eyes on the mirror, honey. You’ll come when i tell you to, quit being a brat”

The need to release is almost unbearable, tears of pleasure welling in your eyes and drowning out your vision before you blink, allowing them to stream down your innocent looking face for him to see. It only spurs him on more as he moves his free hand in from of you, kicking your legs further apart before smacking down on your sex brutally. Your body jerks in response before somewhat relaxing at the feel of him rubbing briskly at your pulsating clit.

“That’s it, honey. Taking that cock so fucking well”

“I need to c-cum, A-Andy” your voice trembles frantically in hopes of him taking pity upon you.

“Shhh, baby. Just let daddy fuck the frustration away, gotta fuck it all away” his words are pure filth but his tone is gentle and needy. He just wants to take his anger out on your body, channel it into something.

You can imagine that with the field of work he’s in that he finds it hard to keep his cool with Neil every day. Which is a shame because they used to be close.

Granted that was back when Neil first started and Andy mentored him, whipped him into shape and taught him everything he knows. And Neil is a better lawyer because of it. However, it also means that he’s just rude, obnoxious and cocky towards Andy, pushing him to the edge and taunting him a little more every day.

“Hold yourself back for daddy, you’ll cum when i give you permission to. Is that clear, honey?”

“Yes” you mumble, barely audible.

“What was that?”

“I mean, yes daddy” you correct, watching his eyes intently, searching for any sign of him letting up his tight hold and hard thrusts.

“Good girl, being so perfect for daddy and taking this fucking like a pro, huh?”

“Yes daddy”

Your eyes glaze over as you struggle to keep yourself in tact, the hold you have on your orgasm is slipping from your control slowly but surely and you know that if he doesn’t give you the go ahead soon then you’ll end up breaking the rules.

Something that will surely earn you a painful punishment.

“God, fuck. I’m gonna cum, you gonna cum with me, honey?” he asks, gasping. You throw your head back onto his chest, arching your back into him further. You nod your head as quickly as you can as you feel your knees turning weak.

“Count down with me”

“10’ you say in unison, his fingers rubbing furiously at your sex.

“9” the sound of your skin slapping together bounces off of the walls.

“8” the feel of his mouth latching onto the sweet spot on your neck, pearly white teeth sinking in to mark you up.

“7” the moans he’s eliciting are now flowing out of your mouth uncontrollably.

“6” deep grunts escape him as he pushes you against the mirror, causing your cheek to push up against it.

“5” the feel of him fucking into you tightens the coil for the final time, the feeling agonising.

“4” you scrunch your eyes closed, seeing stars as you arrive at the cliff edge.

“3” you say in unison as his thrusts turn from fast and rough to slow and hard.

“2” his cock twitches inside of you, your walls flutter around him over and over.

“1”

“That’s it, baby, cream all over that cock for me”

You let go, body shuttering as you stand up onto your tip toes. His grip on your arms lets up, causing you to fall forward, hands resting on the wall either side of the mirror.

“Oh god” he growls, hands splaying across the soft globes of your ass before he fills you with hot ropes of cum, breeding you unofficially.

He remains seated deep inside of you for a minute or two whilst the two of you struggle to regain control of your breathing, both of your hearts beating so fast that it feels as though they are on the cusp of exploding out of your chest.

“How are you feeling now?” you ask as he pulls out, turning to face him.

“Hungry for Chinese takeout and a night filled with fucking that tight cunt”

“Was that not enough?”

“I’ll never get my fill of you” he says, pulling your naked body flush against his “i want you all of the time and besides, that was just to channel my anger into something. The next time will be to make a baby”

“W-what?” your voice shaky as you raise your eyebrows at him.

“You heard me, i’m gonna spend all night breeding you, honey. Gonna make you all nice and round with my child. Gives me a chance to take my mind of that cunt Neil”

You nod your head, humming your agreement before pressing your lips to his.

Sure, you’ve had chats about kids before but this is the first time he’s openly suggested trying and even after his outburst, your love for him remains.

You can’t wait to spend the night tangled up in the crisp white sheets of your bed, filled with his cum.

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rantrambles · 3 years ago

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Ever get so upset you make a Tumblr account to vent?

I haven’t even listened to The Penumbra Podcast yet but it’s on my list because it’s insanely popular and the cosplays I’ve seen are hot as hell (A+ to all the cosplayers I’ve seen you’ve done great work). Now, with the recent news surrounding the podcast, I’ll wait till it’s done if I ever do get into it. I’m Asian and part of the LGBT community but I’m not nonbinary so I can’t say much about the trans represention in the art but I wanted to add my two cents on the matter as a person of color and someone examining the situation from the outside. Also, before I get deeply into it, I’m not the only person of color with opinions on this matter so if people have their own frustrations and criticism with the racism in The Penumbra Podcast and/or the new artist they hired, definitely listen to them too. These are my own personal opinions, and I’m sure other people will disagree and that’s fine. We’re all going to have different views on this so bear that in mind. Also, feel free to correct me or add anything if I’ve missed some information. Here’s a great breakdown of the whole situation for those that don’t know what happened. Finally, I was very hesitant to post this, but I felt it was important because I make a statement at the end on how race should be presented in a podcast format so if you are interested in making a podcast and want to have a diverse range of characters, please skip to the end to read those thoughts.

I’ll start off by saying, I’m not even that upset with the new artist that The Penumbra Podcast hired. I know that statement alone is controversial but I don't personally know them, and I’m not going to judge who they are as a person by a few pieces of art they’ve made. They are the least of the problems that I have here. Since the announcement and the backlash, I’ve been scrolling through the artist’s Instagram account and I can tell why people find the designs offensive, but I’m also comparing the designs to the artist’s other work, and I honestly believe that’s just their style. They’ve exaggerated the features of just about every character they’ve made, regardless of race or gender. From what I’ve seen the sharp angles and overly round curves in the anatomy that make some of the character’s features more jarring are how they prefer to draw. I’m sure they’re capable of drawing more realistic proportions but for the most part they’re art aims to call attention, be bold, and create distinguished features. Not inherently a bad thing on its own.

And yeah I’d understand the issue if this were a scenario where the artist heard how these characters acted in the podcast and thought “hey, obviously this character is a black woman because they are super strong and therefore must have big muscles, no other woman could look like that” or “hey, this character has to be Asian because they act super seductive sometimes better draw them as such.” But from my understanding the race was already decided by previous official artists and a general description of the characters were already generated by the audience, similar to how The Magnus Archives leaned towards drawing scrawny Jon with black, greying hair and dark skin. The new artists couldn’t really change those features even if those features aren’t described in canon because a depiction that strayed too far from popular fandom interpretation would make the character’s unrecognizable to the fanbase.

I think the reason this became such a big issue for most people is because the new Penumbra artist used their exaggerated art style when making these characters and people of color and nonbinary folks already see themselves drawn as these exaggerated caricatures all the time (with those images being used to further discriminate against them). I’m sure the artist didn’t mean for their art to be offensive, but that of course doesn’t change how it was received.

According to some, the poses and expressions the artists chose did not fully represent the characters entirely and only served to further perpetuate harmful stereotypes, and I’ll have to take their word for it because I still haven’t listened to the podcast so I have no idea how the characters act. But again much of the criticism is based on the one line-up and doing a deeper dive into the artist’s work I managed to find artwork that was much less offensive. Here some art where Vespa is depicted in a non-violent pose and one where Vespa is in a threatening pose but not an overly violent one. Here is Peter drawn in a non-seductive pose. Hopefully, the artist truly does keep the criticisms in mind as they work on the new official art. I’m just not the type of person that wants to get the pitchforks out and cause this particular person to lose a job they seemed really excited about over their old character line-up, especially when that person is also part of a marginalized group.

Again, that’s just my opinion on that particular artist. Those who are offended by their art are still valid in how they feel, and the artist should absolutely take their criticism to heart to better how they represent the characters.

What I’m more upset about is that I think The Penumbra Podcast should never have released official art for their characters in the first place and that’s their mistake that they refuse to own up about. They have made it clear that the story was never meant to portray characters of colors, a fact emphasized by the fact they hired mostly white actors from the start. They only started releasing art of the characters to get a profit. And the thing is they know what they did was wrong. All I had to do was search Penumbra Podcast racism and there is a note on their website saying that they archived some old official art.

“We have discontinued all Penumbra merchandise that uses the original character designs, and in the meantime, any profits on the sales of that merchandise will go to the For The Gworls project. We also realize that the depiction of these characters as POC, while not appropriate for us to use in our marketing and merchandise, has nonetheless become personally meaningful to many POC listeners. For that reason, and because we do not wish to distance ourselves from our mistake, we are keeping these images on our website for archival purposes. Though we do want to make it clear that many of the main/featured voice actors are white and that we did not write the characters to represent any specific POC experience, you are, as always, free to imagine these characters in any way that you like.”

I went to their shop and they still sell posters and pins with the character’s faces on them, but they are donating it to a good cause so hopefully that stays the same. However, I still find it a little uncomfortable that they are still selling character merch and have plans to continue selling character merch. They have no right to dissuade the fans that already found representation in the characters, but they also have no right to profit off the representation that was built, regardless if they made the story.

Let’s compare this to another piece of popular media. I love Avatar the Last Airbender and, I liked the ATLA voice actors just fine but there should have been more people of color doing voice acting behind the screen too. The voice actors for that show were mainly white too, however, the creators knew that they would be making poc characters. That’s what makes the difference. Did they still choose to go with mostly white voice actors? Yes. Could they have done better and pay more people of color? Also yes. But I’m not as furious at them because they did their research on the cultures they were basing the ATLA world off of and intentionally gave us a show where Asians could see characters that looked like them represented on the screen. The Penumbra Podcast did not do any of that. Again, they openly admitted that it was never their intention to make the character’s people of color when they made the podcast so that goes to show no research was made to properly represent specific cultures. The color of the character’s skin in their official designs therefore became more of aesthetic choice rather than representation, and it wasn’t even their aesthetic choice to begin with!

Race isn’t a color you can just throw onto the character because you feel like it. So I want this to be a lesson to anyone that wants to make a podcast: if you want to include poc characters please do some research into the cultures you plan to represent the way you would with any other form of media. Just because the audience can’t see the characters and just because it’s harder to smoothly introduce the character’s appearance doesn’t mean you’re allowed to be lazy on how you present the characters. Do research before you start writing the first episode and take the time to hire poc actors. Hiring poc actors is actually the least that can be done to show representation. Also, since the audience cannot visually see the race of the characters on a podcast and it can’t typically be described the way you would in a book, you’ll have to be creative. It’s not my job to say how, but my suggestions would be, before the fans come up with their own image of the character, you need to establish race in the first few episodes or release character profiles on a website so that the fans know you canonically intended the characters to be of a certain race even if you aren’t able to mention it in the actual podcast. If you are unwilling to do any of these then the best route is to avoid stating race at all and allow the audience to build their own representation into your form of media. However, once this happens, you are not allowed to profit off popular fan interpretations. You lose all rights to create official art or images of the characters. You cannot use “we have a diverse cast of characters” when you market your story. It doesn’t matter whether you created the content or not, you did not create the representation for those minority groups.

It’s one thing for fans to build their own inclusivity into a form of art like a podcast, but it’s another thing for the creators who never worked to make the representation happen to take advantage of the representation that the listeners built for themselves. Thank you for attending my TedTalk.

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inu-yasha · 3 years ago

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please don't reblog it, likes are fine

I come with you a small vent. I do this to cleanse myself of the negative emotions I have, and I keep it for years. I want to share with you my pain in my heart through InuKags. It's not that I want you to make feel sorry for me. It was just yesterday that I was forced to be tolerant again and to stop doing what I was doing, even though it that anon was not a fan. InuKag is the same style of action.

It all happened on Youtube. I fell in love with Kikyou and opened a channel about her. How to put it, I was "official Kikyou" I just wanted to have fun.

A few hours after opening the channel, I got spam from the salty InuKag / Kagome fans "Kikyou sucks and InuKik" I don't remember all the messages, it was so many that it was impossible to remember, and as a child of elementary school I felt very sorry. I didn't know why, I was new to the fandom.

Over time, I found out that Kikyou is the most hated character in the series. It didn't end with DM.

I created Kikyou / InuKik videos after which I got a lot of negative and hurtful comments from Kagome / InuKag fans, demeaning me and my ship.

It was really awful. They especially come to videos pro Kikyou and InuKik and bash Kikyou and InuKik very hard, with a lot of hatred. As a child, I worried about it, because words hurt too.

I wanted to change so much that I tried to like Kagome by creating accounts about her, forcing myself to like her.

Has it had an effect? As you can see no.On the contrary. They made me hate Kagome to core and InuKag.They was told me that Kikyou does not love Inuyasha, that Kagome is the only one and the most appropriate for Inuyasha (What they always say) Kagome is better at manga and other nonsense.

One of her female fans used it on me gaslight. She maniupted me to hate Sango. Effectively, and then she mocked me because I believed her and she then pretended nothing like that had happened, blamed it all on me.

I was a naive kid who didn't know much about such things, but quickly the toxic fans made me realize what kind of people they are.

It was something I couldn't forgive and I will not forgive !!! I will not forgive!!! Then I saw what kind of people and understood what kind of people I was dealing with.

I was more laid back, but not that much later either.

I remember being called "whore" in DM because I was an "official Kikyou" therefore she gave herself permission to offend me and Kikyou. Moreover, one Kagome / InuKag fan said that if I like Kikyou / InuKik then I'm a "fag" I remember it so well that I have not forgotten her username. YES I REMEBER HER USERNAME because it touched me a lot.

So much so that I took a break for several years. because I was already mentally exhausted.

I went back to Tumblr, there I got a question about Kagome or I like her then I was between "Like and don't like" because I had mixed feelings. I didn't want to hate Kagome, but I also knew their fandom would make me hate her more deeply if there is an opportunity to hate her more than core.

Obviously my answer became the start of a drama from KagKik shipper who had an amazing pain ass for my opinion. After her complaining, hating me and trying to manipulate me and tell me how "I'm bad because I hate the kagome and she has enough" I got a lot of anon-hate anons that insulted the kikyou and my ship. Then I got pissed off again, but I also laughed ironically seeing how in 2017 they were still the same.

Here was an own line, but you know? InuKags come and reblog my works and they was rude and hateful in tags and under my posts

I was forced to be tolerant many times. Personally, I've come to the conclusion that I will not interfere or speak. I did. I've been tolerant for many years, many years! Just because I was ignoring this shit doesn't mean it didn't make my blood boil. Tolerance has its limits! My tolerance has just ended.

Kikyou / InuKik fans are people too! PEOPLE who are entitled to an opinion. We have the right to express our opinion

Now I break the silence say what I want and add what the hell I want! This is my blog! My opinion! And I add whatever I want on it. Don't expect any sympathy from me or anything because you won't get it, I was compassionate and silent as much as I could. But it's over now. I've had enough. Kikyou / InUkik fans were as quiet as they could, but we're not gonna be quiet anymore! at least me.

I wrote little about the past, but it is difficult to remember everything after so many years.

#vent #personal

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