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Idk if I have the worst memory ever or anything but; To anyone who has the tgcf e-books, did they get changed slightly or something?? Because I'm re-reading and I SWEAR there are things I don't remember from my last read
#I literally feel insane because like#some titles are different#like for instance#He Xuan is called “Ship sinking black water” but I remember it as “Black water sinking ships”#or hua cheng being described is different w/ stuff I just. dont remember#GRANTED#my memory isnt the best#and my last read was a bit ago#BUT Ive read these books over 7 times and I just. dont recall some stuff#I dont think it's the revised version because Lang Ying is still there (and I heard he isnt in the revised ver)#BUT IDK??#I could just be wrong#someone let me know pls 🙏#Tgcf#heaven official's blessing#cupcake rambles
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sin eater
#sorry its been a minute!!! the horrors. you understand.#anyways yall ready for another gloom tag essay because here we go!!!#im constantly thinking about the ramifications of uzi literally eating cyn and her now being apart of her.#specifically how it impacts uzi mentally. like dgmw i LOVE the silly cyntail shenanigans in fanart (ive also contributed to this) however#when i really think about it in relation to uzi's arc i go crazy insane#uzi is a character who is grasping for control after a lifetime of not having it.#she has no control over how her peers treat her. she has no control over khan neglecting her for reasons that arent her fault.#she quite literally has no control over the solver taking her over and making her do monstrous things against her will#which solidifies her feelings of being a freak monster who everyone was right to outcast and mistreat.#because im Unwell i interpret her calling herself god as a way to convince herself of having control- and to lock away feelings of impurity#if anyone is in control- if anyone is loved and cherished despite any and all wrong doings- its a god.#and that all comes to a head when she eats the heart of cyn thereby destroying the AS- a literal manifestation of a corrupted god- for good#finally taking back control from the entity that had been terrorizing and traumatizing both her and her loved ones. but did she really?#cyn is apart of her now. powerless sure- but that doesnt take away the horrors she wrought previously#and even so- has uzi ever stopped being just a host? do you think shes terrified of cyn regaining power out of the blue?#do you think uzi ever stops feeling like a monster?#“sin eating” was a thing that happened where someone would consume ritual foods to take on the sins of a recently deceased person#thus absolving said deceased person of any sins and putting them onto the sin eater. being a sin eater ensured eternal damnation.#and i just think about that a lot. when applying that (symbolically ofc(somewhat literally. she very much is a cyn eater)) to what uzi did.#“gloom you're reading way too much into this” THE LITTLE GOTH ROBOT. MAKES ME INSANE IN THE HEAD. OK!!!!!#gloom.art#murder drones#murder drones fanart#murder drones uzi#uzi murder drones#uzi doorman#uzi md#md uzi#uzi fanart
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I don’t know how to say this exactly but like… fandom and show are kinda weird about Mel and Ekko and it is very much rooted in racism
#like do guys do know that ‘yay this character is perfect in every single way and the only ones with braincells<3’ is not#the progressive statement you think it is#a step up from the insane misogynoir during s1 era but still not great#it’s how nobody really focuses on mel or ekko’s characters on their own and water them down to being ‘perfect#never did anything wrong ever’. which they are but like… how to say this…#i feel arcane didn’t allow them to be fully fleshed characters#i saw this in st with lucas where he’s watered down to lumax#and gets some mvp scenes but that’s not a compensation for actually giving them proper attention and fully fleshing them out#i might be the minority but mel is a step up from ekko since she had more of an arc but again they barely fleshed it out before making her#op enough to defeat leblanc (was it leblanc?) in her own domain#like that is literally insulting to mel it’s a cop out and just reducing her to a cool moment#in compensation for not giving enough attention to her black rose arc#it wasn’t cathartic because there was no build up to those moments#arcane critical#arcane criticism#ekko#mel medarda#ekko arcane
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How it feels to not like timebomb after s2
#I'M NOT A HATER I SWEAR I ACTUALLY REALLY LIKE IT ON PAPER#i do however think that it came literally out of nowhere and was hella rushed and kinda ridiculous#like. if the argument is that original ekko fell in love with jinx it doesn't make sense because they were enemies for most of their lives#if the argument is that current ekko fell in love with au powder and now projects these feelings on jinx it's kinda uh. messed up#because she's a whole different person. entirely. it doesn't matter if both these version started out as a 9-year old powder. they had#extremely different lives and experiences and thinking that “there's still this kind of powder in jinx deep down” is straight-up awful#OR even if he didn't project his feelings for powder on jinx why would he love her in the current universe? last time they met she blew them#up and now she wants to commit suicide. there's literally no reason for him to have any kind of feelings except the slight friendly#affection that's left from all those years ago. and yet the show and most importantly the fandom treats them like a couple??? i don't get it#also it's kinda insane that s2 turned jinx and ekko into flat shipping material#again. obviously i have nothing against the shippers and do not condemn it in any way. i'm just expressing my thoughts on the matter#also what pisses me off the most. is how in ep9 jinx in fully painted with ekko's symbols here and there. has the bandage (?) on her chest#like vi. has a hood that looks like a drawing that isha made. and yet there's no fishbones or any reference to silco at all#i mean. i get it s2 hates him but i can't help it#they gave her all these relationships and pretended that they're significant to her and yet they didn't have any proper development#to really earn it#arcane critical#arcane season 2#anti timebomb#jinx arcane#ekko arcane
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has anyone ever seen a more pathetic man than colin staring at penelope's mouth? trick question, you haven't!!!
#please know i mean pathetic affectionatly#i didn't feel like making these into gifs because it will not be able to capture how fucking DERANGED he is#mind you this is from first kiss to last kiss#and in most of them pen is looking AT him and he's looking at her mouth in SHOCK NEED DESIRE WANT YEARNING#to the people who say he didn't grovel or was tortured enough BITCH HE'S LITERALLY LOOKING LIKE A CRAZED MAN#god i'm going insane#colin bridgerton#penelope featherington#bridgerton#colin x penelope#polin#bridgerton spoilers#ʚ laurs art ɞ#tw long post
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I really wish Gaara's arc had been a little more involved because I truly don't think the sheer horror of it all is delved into enough. In the end it's sort of like he just. Snaps out of it. But then you start thinking about it and you're like. Oh. This kid literally could not sleep for years. Oh this kid was being tormented by Ichibi 24/7. Oh this kid had everyone trying to assassinate him when he was tiny. Oh this kid trusted one single person and they tried to kill him too and then died in front of him. Oh this kid was told everyone including his family hated him and that he was a monster and should die. Oh ok. Like sure murder was not the answer but also considering the circumstances he should've been even more out of it than he was
#all the way back in 2017 when i read it the first time i was like. you're telling me this kid literally could not sleep.#i feel like even ignoring EVERYTHING ELSE. that is insane#and then you add like 5 more layers of torture#but honestly i feel like because of the way it's treated by canon. as with anything else. the reality is not addressed#when like. holy shit#type: meta#sorta#fandom: naruto#naruto#naruto shippuden#naruto shippuuden#naruto series#naruto manga#sabaku no gaara#gaara#gaara of the desert#gaara of the sand#gaara naruto#rasa naruto
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i don’t mean ‘we had money’ or ‘we struggled.’ did you know (roughly, within ~$10k or local equivalent) how much your parents made?
#i’m at a conference and the speaker mentioned sharing her finances with her kids and the reaction of the audience was VISIBLY SHOCKED#which is wild to me lmao i’ve known dollar amounts of how much my parents have made since i was like. 8.#which i recognize sounds insane on paper but it really helped me to be smarter with money throughout my teenage years yanno#and it didn’t feel like because i said so when my parents were like you can’t do that. because i understood our money situation FULLY.#idk. i literally never even thought about this not being something i told my kids. is this normal.#text#my post#mobi
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the fish that keeps appearing all over my recommended only that he's out of jail and happy
#✁ | freshly decorated | ✃#roblox#sebastian pressure#sebastian solace#roblox pressure#pressure#pressure sebastian#the way I just copy and pasted these tags because I really don't know what tags he would use#he makes me so mad I literally downloaded roblox because I was curious of him#AND I GOT THE WOMP WOMP LINE?????? I WAS SO LIKE. never speak to me again#also I've been only drawing him for a week it's driving me insane get him OUT#it's so bad getting muses because then suddenly you can ONLY draw the muse I hate this stupid fish#(loving)#also random but#I like to think that if he did manage to escape the blacksite#the idea where like#he can only live in like more rural areas (probably living with someone to help him um#get food#domestic life kinda thing#but like I just think like being cozy. drinking something hot. being next to the fireplace to be warm#warmth being something that he lost a long time ago and it feeling so nice that he can feel it with someone he loves#or cares idk#i need to shut up I WILL LITERALLY JUST SUDDENLY WRITE A FANFIC IN THE TAGS IF I CONTINUE ANY LONGER T_T
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y'know what let's do it. have Jack Drake accused of murdering Janet for a different flavor of drama and whump
he was in a coma and then wheelchair-bound for weeks/months after the incident you say? he was FAKING, it was all arranged, a ploy to appear helpless and sympathetic, how else could he have woken up and recovered so smoothly from the same poison that killed his wife
new evidence is produced of a suspicious payment trail from before the hijacking, leading from Jack's DI funds to accounts that appear connected to the Haitian cult/cartel responsible for the Drakes' kidnapping and Janet's tragic demise
the widow of the Drakes' personal secretary, Jeremy Whatzizlastname, and other employees all come forward and wag their tongues about the alarming frequency and escalation of the fights between the deceased and her aggressive, belligerent husband in the lead-up to that final fateful trip - how they were openly arguing about divorce
mysteriously, this relentless mud-slinging media blitz only begins after Drake Industries starts to go downhill and CEO Phil Marin comes under investigation for embezzlement/insider trading...
since it's post-NML the scandal blows up even further. the press hounds young Tim Drake, the iconic NML Kid known to all as the face of re-opening Gotham after the quake. muckrakers gleefully tear apart the recent image of a desperate, loving father who was broadcast on national television putting all his resources and influence toward bringing his lost son home
...actually. doesn't Drake Industries going broke happen right in the middle of Bruce Wayne: Murderer? (checks notes) aha, Robin #100 so lmfao yes, it does.
GOOD EXCELLENT PERFECT, Tim's father figures can both be accused of murder simultaneously 😈 and then the Bats have to divide their efforts and resources between exonerating Robin's dad and attempting to clear the civilian name of an infuriatingly uncooperative Batman…
#post tag#Tim Drake#Jack Drake#dcu#I couldn't remember Phil Marin's name or the exact issue of his one (1) appearance#so I went to AO3 and scrolled through scintilly's 'now the little red lighthouse knew that it was needed' to find it lol ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#but ok would Bruce break from his self-isolating spiral at all to try and help exonerate Tim's dad#especially since he obsessively investigated the Drake hijacking while trying to rescue them to begin with#I feel like....no lol#of course he'd work on it don't get me wrong - more than the 0% effort he put into clearing Bruce Wayne's name certainly#I don't think he's capable of not trying to save his children's parents#but given how hard he was shutting everyone out at the time and how being doubted or questioned just made him turtle harder#I can see him stubbornly investigating solo and communicating jack squat to anyone else#maybe on some level he'd want to wrap Jack's case up with a bow and drop his proven innocence in Tim's lap with a tinge of pettiness/hurt#like “see?? you thought me maybe capable of murder but I did this for you. I'd do it for anyone facing injustice but I did this *for you*.”#and this would drive literally everyone insane because yes good thank u Bruce now PUT THAT SAME EFFORT INTO CLEARING YOURSELF >8E
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WRECKED OVER THE STUPID MAN'S EYELASHES HOW ARE YOU DOING LEANDER BBYS
#touchstarved game#touchstarved leander#ts leander#IM HAVING A FIT NGL#like i genuinely don't understand how the fuck this man makes me feel SO fucking MUCH its INSANE#im quite literally shaking because hes SO HANDSOME#his nose ........ his lips.......#im perishing#touchstarved#leander#he has way too much power over me
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Idk if I have the worst memory ever or anything but; To anyone who has the tgcf e-books, did they get changed slightly or something?? Because I'm re-reading and I SWEAR there are things I don't remember from my last read
#I literally feel insane because like#some titles are different#like for instance#He Xuan is called “Ship sinking black water” but I remember it as “Black water sinking ships”#or hua cheng being described is different w/ stuff I just. dont remember#GRANTED#my memory isnt the best#and my last read was a bit ago#BUT Ive read these books over 7 times and I just. dont recall some stuff#I dont think it's the revised version because Lang Ying is still there (and I heard he isnt in the revised ver)#BUT IDK??#I could just be wrong#someone let me know pls 🙏#Tgcf#heaven official's blessing#cupcake rambles
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Have we ever talked about the fact that BJ likely assumed that Hawkeye would leave first. As in Hawk was drafted earlier and would assumedly get his points first and be discharged… What does it change if BJ was assuming for the whole of their time together that Hawk was going to leave first
#wonder if that’s a reason among others it was so difficult to say goodbye#spent 2 years convinced that if anyone was going home before the end it’d be by all rights hawk#so he’d have time to you know. do his BJ things. throw a party do a gesture#instead 2 years of certainty that he’d be staying behind and seeing Hawk off got upended#and the first goodbye is all wrong because he goes and hawk stays#feels meaningful to me that when he does the proper goodbye he stays and hawk goes#in that he’s literally still on the ground as hawk flies away#the way he’d assumed and likely planned for the separation#and goodbye in stone on the ground — i wonder if he’d planned that before#if you know he’d known forever that hawk would leave first. it mightve been not just planned but The Plan#his Original Hawk Goodbye Plan. or something#can anyone hear me. am i insane.#beejhawk#hunnihawk#mash
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shout out object shows with canon queer ships. I'm talking on screen kiss or even just verbal confirmation. all things considered it's a bit strange you don't really see them that much when you think about how gay everyone here is. I love you ii but c2bc did what you didn't and I think that's actually really nice.
#girl makes claims when there's 1 more ep for ii and many more for c2bc. police arrest her.#inanimate insanity#ii#osc#silver's mental breakdown#c2bc#c2bc spoilers#do we do that here or what#fireball c2bc#pound c2bc#i always misread his tag as pound cake. i am but a fool#also is firepound mildly fanbrush coded ir am i kind of losing it. it's someone and pb. because fireball is very pb coded. inspired? somethi#ng. also c2bc totally takes influences from ii and we all noticed that right. it's not a bad thing. ii is my favorite show. but like. “im nb#.“ ik there was like no other way to say it but that's exactly what pb says in s3. ”he wants to make a boys club!“ ”im nb.“ ”i mean... a no#girls club!!!!“ i think i lile c2bc but im bot 100% sure? i saw someone comment that all the chars are likeable but like. speaker isn't!! st#op bullying my girl corky!! she's literally not that bad! don't get me started on beerkeg. i dont feel bad that he was manipped bcus like. d#ude she said no. leave ger alone#!!#i dont feel bad for him at all snd even cheered when princess hat (?) started using him even though it was not the greatest move and not sup#er healthy. s2's cast is still mych better though. justice for portal though!!!!!!! gone too soon. i kinda shipped. princess hat (?) and tap#e measure in s1 btw i never told anyone that but I did think it. service bell is like a taco i like mych less. and shout out firepound and m#mirror book. pretty crazy how gay objects can just live in my head and i let them do that. anyways sorry for writing a whole nother post in#the tags i just haven't shared my thoughts yet and wanted to lol.#i like it i think#firepound#<- oh hey look gay people
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so did you guys know theres this character called tristan vik disventure camp and
#disventure camp#disventure camp fanart#tristan vik#disventure camp tristan#ghostofsnails#my art#It would be SO tedious to post all of these separately but to be honest ive been dead for so long that i think its just funnier like this#like. yeah. just in case you guys have been wondering what i've been up to.#I have like 2 more i think but i'll give them their own post so i can explain them#ive never hyperfixated on a character like this in my entire life. usually a character hyperfix is super intense and lasts like 2ish weeks.#GUYS ITS BEEN 2+ MONTHS. AND I STILL CANT THINK ABOUT ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR CARTOON GOTH NONBINARY SILLY PERSON#actually fuck you can i write an essay in tags about why i love them. this is tumblr. and whose even gonna read this anyways. fukit we ball#i followed dc kinda casually as a guilty pleasure for a while but i was instantly drawn to tristan when the designs for the s4 cast dropped#i was like You're telling me there's a GOTH who is UPBEAT and isnt designed like a flawless elf TWINK and is NONBINARY? ME FR????#LIKE OHH THE GOTH NB GETS TO LOOK A LITTLE WEIRD. THEY GET TO BE UNCONVENTIONAL. my aesthetic attraction to them goes crazy. vampire style.#i remember when they got revealed people redesigned them to look more generically pretty & it PAINED ME bc it missed the point SO. BADLY.#ik some people find them boring also & even tho i disagree i can see it if u dont rlly care abt alt stuff. but for me the fact theyre so#kind & upbeat & extroverted WHILE being a SUBCULTURAL GOTH is the draw bc while i do get a kick out of the exaggerated depressed goth#stereotype - its not exactly true to life and so seeing a character that looks and acts like me and real goths makes feel so seen and happy#they also capture my desire to have goth friends SO BADLY im projecting on them SO HARD. They are such top tier friend material you guys...#AND THEYRE A FASHION DESIGNER WHICH FEELS SO IN THEME WITH BEING GOTH THAT IT MAKES ME SO JOYOUS AND CRAZY.#its all so funny because im 100x more excited about getting good goth rep than nonbinary rep LMFAOOO but them being nb is SO important too#Not to mention their voice actor is FANTASTIC and elevates them SOOO MUCH. Also the amount the va is obsessed with them fed my obsession -#sooo insanely you guys.... i feed off of other peoples emotional attachments. AND THEIR ACTING FOR TRIS ADDS SO MUCH DEPTH TO THEIR#CHARACTER IF YOU LOOK FOR IT. I COULD LITERALLY WRITE ESSAYS ABOUT TRISTAN YOU GUYS. IM NOT INSANE.#god you guys this is the first time ive ever had a genuine “i feel seen” feeling from a fictional character I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE NOW.#i LOVE NONBINARY PEOPLE EXPRESSING THEMSELVES. I LOVE HOW QUEERNESS AND GOTH CULTURE INTERSECTS AND HOW THATS REPRESENTED IN TRISTAN#THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO ME. AND I KNOW THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE. WHICH JUST MAKES THEM MEAN EVEN MORE TO ME. I LOVE LIFE.#its an endless feedback loop i fear. im trapped in it & loving every second. i will be drawing them until i am in my grave & maybe after.
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"Our paths diverged long ago. It was affection that held us together." Hello? HELLO??????????????
#putting this in a separate post because people need to see how insane this is#i like how viktor specifically calls it affection- not love or friendship or anything- it feels so detached compared to what jayce feels#will write abt this in another another post. maybe. if school allows :(#guys.... guys...... i cannot do this#i was not. ready for that#i need to vomit#he was literally taking care of viktor for who knows how like and they just break up#JAYCE WAS SO EMOTIONAL TOO and viktor was so like... distant#break up arcccccc 🤪#effects of the hexcore me thinks#jayvik#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2#viktor#jayce#jayce talis#arcane writers i am shaking you by the shoulders
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can we bring back procedurals? or at least just proper shows like how TV used to be? 5 to 15 seasons, a generous amount of episodes per season, 45 minutes: the sweet spot between too long and too short, pilot episodes that are wildly different from the rest of the show, filler episodes that overall contribute nothing but are extremely fun because that is what god intended, random musical episode, crossovers, waiting an entire week in anticipation to see what happens next, like, this was the PEAK of television, where did we go wrong
#i would gladly pay for cable and cut streaming for this#better yet make procedurals on streaming#if you can make 5 seasons of a show over the span of literally 10 years on a budget that could take someone to space#you can make low budget procedurals with good plot and new actors because THAT IS WHAT THE MASSES WANT#the ratio of people rewatching older shows to watching the new ones are insane#shows releasing one episode per week is what kept it relevant that long#and shows used to have more je nais se quais yk#shows today feel soulless like cash grabs#not all of them ofc there are amazing shows that i am glad to have seen#but procedurals and proper tv dramas used to and continue to be a genre that never misses if done right#sure i like umbrella academy (season 3 and 4 are erased from my memory) but with the budget for that show#if you'd hired a bunch of new actors and one popular and respected actor that everyone knows#give some new writer a chance#make a procedural#throw in some angst and found family#a bit of subtext even#and released 20 episodes over the span of 20 weeks#tell me who wouldn't have loved it#i miss procedurals man#psych#white collar#the mentalist#house md#monk#law and order#criminal minds#i do know some of them still exist but the point is that this genre deserves so much more#good writers#better producers#the rookie is doing great
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