#I just want to scream into the void god dammit

[ecogirl2759]

Sorry, this is so random, but I have to say it

The amount of people I've spoken to over the years is insane. Every time I met someone, I tried bringing up Ranma 1/2 in some way because it's amazing and I love that show, but no one knew what it was. I got... maybe like 4ish people outside of my immediate family who vaguely knew of it.

The sheer number of people that I know that are finally getting into the show because of the remake is actually incredible to me. All of a sudden, all the cool kids on the block are talking about Ranma and Akane and making little AUs and stuff and I'm just. so happy.

I'm just really glad I can talk about my favorite guys with my favorite guys! People will finally understand what I'm referencing when I scream "Whadya do that for?!" People know the characters I'm talking about and we can share our mutual love for P-Chan. I can go INSANE about the comedy and the plot and rant about things that are so insignificant because it's about something we all like now.

I'm just really happy, you know?

Thanks to everyone giving the show a chance. You make me feel a little less lost in this crazy world <3

(And if you have the chance to see the original, I would HIGHLY recommend it. The Kuno Dream Sequence was CRAZY and I wish they didn't have to cut most of it lmao)

[autumnday19]

Seriously considering creating a program out of spite 

[imtoolazytoo]

So I finished Malevolent episode 12! And I got thoughts!

Spoilers under the little photo cause I… still can’t figure out how to make read more/keep reading links on tumblr mobile :,)

(Heheh I doodled them last night)

Jaune… John… God dammit

I had a feeling John might be The King In Yellow, but I didn’t wanna believe it! But he has humanity now. And… He doesn’t want to kill Arthur. He care him. I don’t care if it’s not canon I say homosexual activities are at play.

Arthur is really doing the Jonathan Sims speedrun any percent. (TMA S1 spoilers here!) I don’t know what’s worse: Being buried into by thousands of tiny worms or having a giant larvae (???) cling onto your stomach and suck the blood out of it! Either way: EEEEWWW

HE CARE HIM

The sounds of Arthur’s happiness and lil chuckles are giving me life

Happiness is stored in the Orthor

The implication that The King can’t fully take over Arthur’s mind not just because of John’s humanity, but because of the memory that Arthur has of his daughter… do not talk to me for 3 to 5 business days

WHAT HAPPENED TO HER, MAN?!?

Love how not listening to John about the lamp immediately screwed Arthur over. Listen to your husband more often, Arthur. Kiss his hand maybe why don’t you do that huh I’d say that’s a good apology oh my god I love them

My screams at Arthur have gone from screams of pure frustration to screams of pure frustration AND concern! Character growth!!! Good for you Arthur!

Oh yeah Kellin’s here. Hi Kellin :D

Fuck I hope I can finish writing this before I get to the bus stop

The dreamlands! WHOOHOO! But also! Oh no!

I didn’t think we’d get answers for what bound John and Arthur in the first season, but I’m not complaining!

…I’m sorry to give some of you older fans a heart attack… But in terms of homestuck classpecting I think John would be a Prince of Void. I’m so sorry.

JOHN. CARE. HIM!

So. That’s most of my thoughts. I LOOOOOVED THIS PODCAST!!! I never thought I’d be able to find anything that recreated what TMA meant to me, and while I still think that… DAMN, THIS IS CLOSE!!! And it’s its own little experience to seperate the two and make this so amazing and RAH RAH RAH I LOVE THIS I LOVE YOU MALEVOLENT HARLAN GUTHRIE I APPLAUD YOU!!!

But I do have one big thought in my head. I’m assuming the goal of season 2 will be to kill or just defeat The King In Yellow in order to keep Arthur’s body safe and escape the Dreamlands. But here’s the thing. If John is a part of The King’s soul… wouldn’t killing The King kill John as well? What if we get given the choice of killing The King or sparing him to save John, and Arthur chooses mercy? Because as much as he wants his body back, he doesn’t want to lose John??? I WOULD SCREAM!

And I swear to The King himself if I get reblogs like ��You sweet Summer child” “No one tell her” “Oh you poor soul” like I did on my Faroe post I will throw kitchen appliances out of windows

That’s not a metaphor I just think breaking wooden spoons would do the least financial damage to me

[halfling-myth-lady]

Alix Kubdel?

Here you go!!!

If you want more about this au, feel free to just send in the name of a character and I’ll give you a ficlet/oneshot about or in the pov of that character.

Warning:the story is told in Achronological order. The order of THIS chapter would be around early to mid season three.

Alix didn’t expect to spend her Sunday fighting her brother.

But alas, Hawkmoth seemed to have the power of picking the worst time for everything, so of course her brother got pissy at some guy calling out his piss poor knowledge of Egyptian culture.

“Thoth, give me time!”her brother yelled.

“He’s a scribe you idiot not Chronos!”she screamed”and he’s not a baboon either!…or at least not most of the time.”

Jalil turned to her, taking his attencion off the poor guy who just corrected him about Nefertiti“You all know nothing of the gods!”

“Well clearly “nothing” is more than you, dimwit!”Alix started to run at this point. it’d be better that Jalil target her over anyone else. Hell, she was fast. maybe she could buy Nath or Marc some time to get over here so they could deal with him.

She scrambled for her phone, hastily dialing Marc.

“Hey! Anciel! Get over here!” She yelled into the speaker.

“What is it K-oh shit”they hung up, leaving alix to outrun her brother.

At least she knew her way around.

For about ten minutes, she ran laps around the museum, up until she reached one of the statue exhibits. Which was a dead end. Dammit.

Hey at least Nath or Marc could probably bust her out of those time bubbles, didn’t ladybug do that-…wait, was that statue hollow?

“I have you here…now you will have no choice but be a sacrifice for my Nefertiti!” Oh shit.

“…isn’t sacrifice an Aztec thing-?”

She was interrupted by the sound of running and a scream.

“Alix, Run!” a particular void eyed rooster yelled as they smashed a vase on the Akuma’s head.

“Look at that!”she remarked.

“Book it!”Rooster bold said as they turned around, lifting an old statue and grabbing it as if to use like some kind of bat.

“Be careful with that!”Alix hid behind a few other statues, making sure she wouldn’t waste too much time running from and to the fight scene“Fluff, Clockwise”

She was engulfed in a blue light as she switched quickly changed to her superhero outfit. As soon as the transformation was finished she started running back.

“Bunnix is on the scene!”she yelled out as soon as she was in view”and ready to kick ass!”

“Good,now please help me!”Roo yelled out, nearly dodging a time bubble.

“On it, Roo!”she said,hitting her brother right in the head.

“Ooh!nice shot!”they remarked as they once again hit him with the statue.

The pharaoh didn’t seem to find this too amusing, however, As he broke out of the two’s reach and started booking it to the exit.

“Damn you!I’m gonna go search for Ladybug!”he yelled.

“Yeah go get your ass kicked somewhere else!”Alix yelled back.

He flipped her off, that ba-oh look a bus dropped on him. She saw that from the wreckage arose a certain last member of their team.

“Hi there!”Nath -or Caprikid- said.

“Cap!”Marc smiled.

“Roo!”Caprikid grinned.

“And me!”Bunnix added.

“Horus, give me flight!”the dipshit said, completely disregarding that Horus is a kingship god.

“Genesis!”

…Oh look. another bus. That ought to shut him up for a few more seconds.

“Hey Roo, Genesis!”Caprikid yelled, handing Rooster bold a Crobar before Alix’s brother emerged once again from the bus, immediately getting his face trampled as Caprikid made his way towards the other two heroes.

“You…”Jalil said”you little…ANUBIS, WAKE MY MUMMIES!”

“ITS OSIRIS YOU DUMBASS!”

A giant beam came out as the Akuma sent the two busses flying, nearly hitting Alix.

“Rude”

He turned around, turning random civilians into mummies.

“Double rude, Jackass!”

“Looks like we’ll need to get up on his level.”Caprikid remarked.

“Hey!”Roo screeched, making the pharaoh turn around before promptly getting hit by a flying crowbar, causing the pendant to shatter on impact, releasing the Akuma.

“…or just some plot armor, I guess”

She walked over to him, poking the now normal Jalil in the chest”I think you broke one of his ribs”

“Cool. Didn’t think I could do that”

She glanced over to the Akuma,which was escaping the scene of the crime.

“Oh, no you don’t!”Nath yelled, making his way to the butterfly before snatching it mid air”we’re waiting here till Chat Noir comes in.”

He jumped down, glancing at the unconscious Jalil.

“Should we get the paramedics?”

“Yeah…”

“Probably”

[oldladyhabits]

Okay okay I am tweaking so fucking hard right now I'm only on episode 4 right there 10 episodes in total so far and oh my God I I have bawled my eyeballs out their is character right his name is Scott Summers he has a wife right and her name is Jean Gray and I love Jean Gray but that's besides the point it turns out she's a fuking clone and at this point I should mention her and Scott have a child this guy kidnap their child and basically use him and gave him this like disease that there's no cure for and there's this other guy Bishop the time traveler so they give their baby to Bishop in hope theire is a cure in the future and they're like I promised I would give you the best life and if that means I'm not in it I can live with THAT HIT ME TO MY FUCKING CORE I want to just say this baby has not been in their life for more than like a day to 3 weeks and Scott didn't even say goodbye to his child because he was like I don't want to abandon my child because I know how it hurts it hurts to be abandoned I can't do that to my child so he doesn't say goodbye and this is really cute monologue between Jean and her baby so f*** you Magneto I hate you I hate you so f****** much you don't words cannot describe how much I hate this man context really quickly there's a thing called Xavier school for gifted youngsters and it's basically a friend for the X-Men so they don't basically get arrested and he dies right he gets killed in like some kind of Antietam whatever I don't know in Scott's just like I am going to be the leader of the X-Men and this guy just comes up and like no f*** you I was in the will you weren't and I know I know I know what he does with Rogue and it makes me want to shoot my self not joking context again Rogue is another person in the X-Men and her power is that what she touches people she basically zaps all their energy and kills them she can't touch people but for some reason with Magneto that's like Nolan void and she's dating Gambit which is another character he's like my favorite character and like she has like and they like I don't know but they touch each other right and you're probably saying oh that doesn't seem so bad but she's dating dammit and they dance together not her and Gambit her and Magneto or something like that I haven't got to that episode but I'm just thinking about it from gambits point of view like Gambit is a simp he is so down bad for rogue it is pathetic awesome it's like implied her and Magneto had like a relationship which is weird because it's pretty obvious Magneto is really gay for Xavier and there's a scene in the second episode where Rogue in Magneto or talking and he goes to take off her glove and I just like I I literally screamed at my TV I HATE YOU SO SO SOS SOSOSOSOS MUCH like thinking about it from gambits point of view like he was okay with not touching Rogue because he understands but like hurt he probably felt with his little girlfriend he's so down bad for basically touching tips with this guy that's basically a war criminal so Xavier why the f*** would you appoint a little fucking war criminal to be the head of the X-Men like he hates humans it's obvious he almost kills a bunch of people in the second episode I need to calm down this is a show it's not that serious also GAMBIT DIES IN THE SHOW I swear I'm not mentally prepared for that

:0

[shivasdarknight]

so yeah, i havent watched either dawntrail trailer 🤷

idk im finding it kinda hard to get excited about it at the constant reminders that they fridged one of their best and relevant characters back in azys lla, the clumsy handling of the void, the rancidly misogynistic shit in pandae, the solely white examples for the new lighting engine, the telling lack of info regarding femhroths that just screams disinterest because women, how absolutely terrible this could go because No i Do Not want road to el dorado references because idc if you guys are endeared to it that shit was racist

like on a more serious note, how am i supposed to get excited about an expansion where our summer vacation is getting mixed in with a different nation's political affairs when we're mostly fantasy europeans (excluding the variable of the wol but even then most are white eorzeans) and tural is fantasy mesoamerica. how am i supposed to be excited about this touristy angle when tourism is a major facet of colonization, especially when it regards the cultures that this region is based in. so framing you getting mixed up in yet another rite of succession from a culture you - in all likelihood - are not affiliated with as a summer vacation is just. it's deeply uncomfortable and it's hard to feel excited about this - especially with their history, continued bullshit, and refusal to remove egregious stuff like the "new world" set or the far northern attire.

idk. i wanna be wrong, but it's hard to be excited when the continuation of stuff they're Saying they'll address is right in front of us. the au ra showcased were pasty with blond hair and im p sure blue eyes and it was raen, not xaela - are they really that allergic to anything darker than a light tan? locations gorgeous, but I still see gifs everywhere of meteor fighting that mamool'ja leader - what happened to portraying them as people and not as monsters to take down? i only know that mamool ja's station because i know who the mamool ja are and the significance of large, two-headed ones. to most, that looks like a run of the mill dungeon boss since there Is a mamool ja boss, and the framing is similar to any number of inhuman adversaries shown in previous trailers. but if they're doing better about cultural sensitivity, then why did they make a member of their indigenous stand-in group be the big enemy for meteor to showcase Viper combat against? i really hope that - contextually - it's not something bad, but out of context it really just looks like taking down a big reptile monster which isnt great when that's your indigenous stand-in that's been portrayed like SHIT since ARR and hasn't had the same redeeming grace as the majority tribes - because where the amalj'aa are characterized by military strength and the noble savage trope, the mamool ja are portrayed as spineless mercenaries and sexual creeps. if we're in the mamool ja reframing expac, why does the trailer showcase that.

god dammit. i want to be wrong!!! i want to be overreacting because this would suck if true but their history doesnt give much confidence that they'll do better, and their current actions - the tourism angle, the lack of info with femhroths, the lighting engine - arent much to be confident about either!!

i wanna be wrong so fucking badly but i dont trust this team as far as i can throw them.

[makerofmadness]

WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON

Hi uh I just need a post to scream into about the final boss fight of Earthbound while I'm playing it so excuse me while I do this (under the cut because of spoilers of course) because somehow even knowing what I did know about Giygas wasn't enough to prepare me mentally for this:

WHY THE FUDGE DOES HE HAVE NESS'S FACE?????

WHY DOES HE HAVE NESS'S ROCKIN' MOVE TOO??????????? THAT'S NESS'S SIGNATURE WHERE THE HELL DID YOU GET IT FROM WHAT THE FUDGE KIND OF CONNECTION IS THIS IMPLYING??????????????????

Pokey. Buddy. Why are you "discharging stinky gases." Are you farting.

THOUGH SERIOUSLY WHAT THE F-

THE HP SUCKER WON'T WORK :((((((

so I think Giygas is invincible or something so I'm just gonna beat the shzt out of Pokey.

I wanna consult my walkthrough but I'm also scared of spoilers :(

Ok I just went carefully and the strategy really is just "beat the shzt out of Pokey" so. Sorry kid.

why did you put a giant Ness sticker on Giygas though Pokester like tell me please. What was the point of the giant Ness face on the orb.

"DEVIL'S MACHINE????"

oh god here it comes

aaaaaand ok yeah I know what Giygas looks like already but. Jesus that's still a creepy design and. Is that breathing noises??-

"His own mind was destroyed by his incredible power. What an all-mighty idiot!" Pokey throwing shade huh-

HE'S GOING TO EAT US??????

OH GOD HELL WHAT

HE KILLED PAULA LIKE IMMEDIATELY????????? Good thing I saved those Lifenoodles.

"Poo could not turn into Giygas" that's probably a good thing actually

WHY IS HE CALLING FOR NESS

OH MY GOD. GIYGAS'S NEXT ATTACK SPECIFICALLY AVOIDED JEFF FOR SOME REASON. ON THE TURN I TELL JEFF TO SPY ON HIM-

Susceptible to Brainshock the one attack I basically never use. Nuts but Poo is at 69 PP it'd be really funny to keep him like that all fight-

welp what the heck time to try.

this turn he didn't even attack. He just calls for Ness again. What do you want????

ok I try to attack him and it actually does Damage but Paula starts crying and now Jeff and Poo are paralyzed what the fudge.

Finally, the perfect moment... *used Monkey Love* *it fails*

PSI Rockin' Omega fails the first time I use it ever. Frick.

GIYGAS DODGES. HOW????? HE'S LITERALLY THE ENTIRE SCREEN??????

Ok I know I'm being all silly but humor is genuinely just my go-to coping mechanism this is like. Genuinely horrifying.

STOP CALLING FOR NESS WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM HIM?????

well, guess it's time to go with actually doing the thing I remember hearing you're supposed to do in this fight: A hope and a prayer.

...except I have to revive Paula first 'cus she died again.

Ok so like. When my normal attacks did only 1HP at the start of the fight I thought that meant something but now I think it just means that Poo's offense really doesn't hold up against Giygas without his weapon but I didn't get his weapon 'Cus its drop is chance-based so. Yeah.

healing is becoming a pain why did I give everything to Paula

POKEY?????

DEAR GOD WHAT AM I LOOKING AT NOW

ok I prayed because I heard you needed to do that at some point and Pokey's dialogue here seemed to hint to that but. The dialogue. There's actually dialogue.

THE MR SATURNS????????

ok so the power of all those Mr Saturns praying at once managed to break this guy's defenses I guess and now the screen is trippy and wrong in a NEW way. Yippee-

WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU FEEL GOOD

THE RUNAWAY FIVE?????

GIYGAS WHAT DO YOU MEAN "FRIENDS?????"

oh hey it's Paula's dad.

I feel like this is what would happen if Void from Kirby had been an RPG fight instead of the usual Kirby style. Kirbbound AU when /j

why did I have to give Paula all the frickin' Brain Food Lunches now I need her to keep praying so I can't use them...

NESS LIFEUP OMEGA QUICKLY PAULA CAN'T DIE ON US SHE'S TOO IMPORTANT DAMMIT

Jeff get 'em (Jeff about to unleash a bazooka on an eldritch horror)

IS THAT TONY??????????? MAN I FORGOT ABOUT THAT KID WHERE'S HE BEEN THIS WHOLE TIME-

"A young woman in Dalaam woke from a dream in which Prince Poo died" so basically she dreamt about his Mu Training seriously what the fxck was that about-

GIYGAS WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO NESS LIKE YOU KNOW HIM OR SOMETHING

FRANK?????????

Ness is going to need. So much therapy after this. I mean all these kids will but especially Ness like Giygas keeps saying weird shzt to him directly.

Jeff keep firing the bazooka

NESS'S MOM

THAT DID OVER A THOUSAND DAMAGE-

WHAT THE FU-

HOW MUCH TRIPPIER IS THIS FIGHT GONNA GET???????

this whole time Jeff has been taking like. Laughably low damage from Giygas's attacks I'll admit. Idk why maybe I just equipped him with something good for this fight and didn't realize but he just took like 9 damage here or something.

though seriously WHAT THE FXCK

"Paula's call was absorbed by the darkness" THE FXCK???????

.

.

I...

I kept praying...?

Aaaaaand Pokey comes in to hint at a sequel I guess. Which. I heard he does actually appear in Mother 3 so I guess that's right-

ok I know my tone shift makes it seem like I'm taking this casually but this is really just me typing while my face is still stuck in the same expression from the shock. Hold on a second I need to process what just happened.

[comrade-bucket]

good omens s2e2 thoughts

I want to scream about every episode of good omens as I watch it slowly, I wish I had a community around it but I don’t wanna poke around tumblr or anywhere for fear of spoilers and I like to savor shit (“you go too fast for me binge watchers!!”).

So hear ol void buddy take my screaming!!

Idk if I’ve ever made so many noises at a screen! I have a lot invested into this world to the point where everything is imbued with Benefit Of The Doubt Goodness, like it’s my child. I guess that’s what being a fan is like but also being a fan can mean being extremely disappointed so there’s that

I’m not disappointed I’m screaming! Okay episode 2. I love the buddy holly song and the gasp I made when Gabriel sings it. I loooove the little gay dorky conductor motion Aziraphale makes before singing it to people, I am obsessed with it, I’m chewing the walls.

Job!!!! I just read a fanfic that partially takes place during the book of Job, I haven’t dived HARD into the world of GO fanfic but I’ve read enough that take place in biblical times that make me go “huh wow the bible is this real thing full of very old and pervasive myths, oooo there were real people wandering the desert back in the day,” sense-of-awe type vibes. And then the show is doing that!!!!

I love a show that wrestles with this very big question that feels like it is playing out for me on some ancestral level, as a person (like many of us) descended from people who believed in God: “HOW THE FUCK COULD YOU EXIST AND BE SO CRUEL, HOW COULD I BELIEVE, FUCK YOU GOD FUCK YOU!!” lol maybe that’s not entirely a question. Hard not to giggle at it a little but it’s also like a pretty big thing to wrestle with?? (I’ll die on this hill but see: thor love and thunder - dumb little box office stories that actually are wrestling with that if you choose to go there)

Bible fanfic!!! It makes something in me itch in a good, I think, way

What else. Brain all over. There’s Jim ordering the books by the first letter of the first word, which is like the damn Spotify playlists that spelled out those words. GOD DAMMIT!!! Brain tickles!!! What does it meeaaaannn?? Should I start looking for acrostics everywhere, like in that weird headline about the ducks held by that rando in the pub who is going to be important prob?? What does it mean when you open your life to the unhingedness and magic of little synchronicities like that, of things vibrating with hidden meaning???

The angels not recognizing Gabriel is sooo good - me expecting a more typical “ha ha he tries to hide Gabriel, shenanigans ensue” - nope, he just answers the door, the angels don’t know him, Aziraphale (like us) is like “….okay what the fuck???” [unless it’s the miracle that’s hiding him, that’s possible]

There is something with identity and who are you if your appearance changes but you stay the same (the goats, Job’s children); who are you if your appearance stays the same but you are fundamentally different inside and/or nobody recognizes you and/or you have to pretend to be someone else (Gabriel/Jim, Job’s kids when they come back) (and then there’s Maggie and Nina actually being entirely new characters with the same face!) (and! on the opposite side, Beelzebub having a new face and the story is like “eh, new face, same guy”) - what is identity, what is a self??

And then identity is a theme for Aziraphale too right!! At the end of ep. 2 he’s like “what am I???”, it’s a whole existential crisis, (you feel for him so hard, because these actors are so fucking good??). He’s like I can’t possibly be an angel because I did these non-angelic, demonic things… and Crowley is like “🤷 you can still be an angel, more or less”…….. if you appear to be an angel then nobody has to know…… and what, really, is the difference

(“if it walks like a duck and it quacks like a duck”... and Crowley’s thing with ducks!)

Holy shit and that flows into undertones of things being a metaphor for being closeted?? Would love to untangle it more but that scene where Aziraphale eats the meat - 1) was SOOOOO fanficky (in the best way!!), I mean I’m puking, (Book of Job fanfic! Just an intimate encounter in the space between scenes); 2) was very easily some kind of stand in for, you know, temptations of the flesh, gay sex type thing. (I mean… did he have to eat the meat like that… did Crowley have to watch him like that... I mean… come on. Amazing.) (incidentally I think Michael sheen is playing Aziraphale even gayer this season mannerisms-wise and I just love it a lot!!) - so anyway, Aziraphale and Crowley’s whole thing being “we love each other, we know we love each other, but NO ONE CAN KNOW how much we love each other”… even to the point of hiding it from ourselves, lying to ourselves (cough Aziraphale)… that theme just feels so present!

Being closeted… you have this experience that is so pleasurable and full of love and can’t possibly be wrong (eating meat, befriending a demon)... and yet the highest powers are telling you it’s wrong, god says it’s wrong, that’s your entire identity, so who are you?? You just have to pretend… oh man it’s so sad pals!!!

I’m obsessed with this identity thing. I wonder if it’ll be important to the plot. Back to episode 1, Az & Jim: “I know someone who looks like you” “that’s probably me then! I think that’s one of the ways you can tell” - ha ha funny joke cute line, except wait, it is thematically resonating throughout everything, oops!!

ALSO getting caught in the rain and taking refuge under an awning and falling in love = it raining outside the garden of eden and Crowley shelters under Aziraphale’s wing…. GOD FUCKING DAMN IT

Okay those are some of my long chaotic thoughts, thanks for listening void!!!

[eternalstretchofmuses]

Be warned! The text below might not be what you want to see.

Do you ever think you would be better off never talking to anyome?? I wonder how I would've turned out if I just shut up forever Would I be doing better?? I wouldn't be worried about things that happened months ago would I? Would I? It wouldn't have happened if It just didn't talk to anyone god dammit I didn't even mean for it to go like that!!! I didn't know how it all came off!!! I didn't fucking know what do you want me to do y'know that's just how I act! I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry! You might even be reading this and I'm still so sorry even though I don't think I did anything wrong it's just my anxiet yprobably but what the hell why why why why why I need to shut up I really do I'm a stupid fox who can't behave like a normal damn person in a 1 on 1 situation really I am

I'm fine now. I just needed to scream into a void. Thank you, Void. You're so polite!

[xxnoeraxx]

These Violent Ends

'You're a bastard for disappearing on me for so long, you know' Kaleth types out the text, his gaze hard and enraged on his phone. It's been an age since Relioth texted him anything. Usually he spams a million times per day, which annoys Kaleth to no end, but Gods dammit, not being spammed a million times per day annoys him more.

He glares harder at their chat history as he hovers his thumb over the send button. The last text Relioth sent him that Kaleth had ignored at the time because he'd been preoccupied before this silence had been a short and simple one.

'I'll do anything, please'

He remembers what he'd thought when he'd read that text at the time. He'd thought there's nothing Relioth could do to make up for his lies. He'd never forgive him no matter what.

And yet.

Relioth being Relioth, the annoying, stupid, insane bastard that he is, found the one thing that would make up for his wrongs. And then did it.

Kaleth will never forgive him that either. He's not even sure what he's angrier about anymore, the fact Relioth redeemed himself or the way he did that.

He grits his teeth as a frenzy of rage overcomes him and he sends his text in a rush, heart lurching momentarily at how pathetic it may make him look, before he rolls his eyes at himself and casts that away.

It doesn't matter. It's not like Relioth will read it anyways.

Kaleth pauses as that thought fires through his mind like lightning, searing him just as much. His eyes sting. Relioth won't read these texts. He could write anything at all and it wouldn't matter. It wouldn't change the situation with the foppish bastard.

He blinks away the unwanted tears, strangles his aching heart into shutting up and decides to turn the tables and be the one spamming for once.

Scream into the void, as it were.

If only the fucking void would scream back—

'I'm so angry at you. I hate you. I want to yell at your stupid lying face so much still. It's awful. I don't want to be stuck feeling like this, but I am. And it's your fault. Everything is your fault'

'Who told you you get to act heroic? How dare you even try that after being a murderous bastard for millennia? How dare you succeed at it?'

'And don't get me started on how stupid I got to feel for defending you in front of everyone who knew better than me that you were hiding things! Thanks for that, that was really what I needed amidst all the other crises I had to deal with'

'I thought I was supposed to stand up for my friend back then. But you were an awful friend too, you know! All you ever did is invite me out for drinks and sip your stupid fruity cocktails with those dumb cutesy umbrellas and crack the worst, most unbearably amusing jokes I never laughed at out of principle. Awful, you're awful on all fronts'

He types and types and types, unable to stop spilling all his bitterness into the chat history, spamming the texts one after the other. He hopes Relioth's phone melts from the overload, wherever it is right now.

"Hey, honey, are you okay?" Mel's soft voice snaps Kaleth from his frenzy, and he whips his head up to look at his husband, blinking in confusion at the question when he registers it.

"What?" he dumbly asks, his phone gripped in his hand so tightly his knuckles have turned white.

Mel sits on the couch next to him in their living room, his brow furrowed with concern, "You're crying," he says, watching Kaleth closely.

Kaleth bristles at that, face twisting into a grimace. When did that happen? He didn't realize.

"I'm fine, love," he nods to Mel and tries for a smile, lifting his hand to wipe his wet face, heart stuttering with pain all over again despite his best efforts.

Mel shakes his head gently, shuffling closer to him and putting an arm out to hug Kaleth to himself, "It's okay if you're sad about it, you know," he mumbles.

Kaleth curls into the hug, closes his eyes, "I'm not sad about anything though. I don't know what you're talking about," he nods firmly against Mel's shoulder, his voice barely stable enough not to give him away.

Mel sighs in response, and squeezes him tighter into his arms, silent for a moment before piping up again, "I—was about to head out to the cemetery. Will you come with me this year? It might do you some good."

Kaleth presses his eyes closed more firmly, shakes his head resolutely, "No, love, sorry. There's just nothing for me there," he insists, as he does every year Mel asks this.

Mel hesitates for a moment, struggling with himself, but then seems to give in and nods, "Okay honey. I'm just saying," he rubs Kaleth's back with a hand, his voice gentle, "I'm always here for you if you want to talk," he nods, repeating the same reassurances as always.

Kaleth lifts his head and smiles at him, "I know you are, love. You always are," he leans in and kisses him briefly, full of love for him just as much as he is full of rage for Relioth, "I'm okay though," he shakes his head, casting away the thoughts, "I love you," he lets go of Mel then, letting him get up.

Mel nods slowly, "I love you too, honey. I'll—be back soon. It's just—it's the anniversary, I feel like I should visit at least today, if no other time," he chews on his lip nervously, as if he ever needs to explain himself to Kaleth.

"Okay," Kaleth just nods, waving him on, "you don't need to justify anything, love."

Mel smiles, "Yeah, course, sorry," he stands up again, "See ya in a bit, yeah? I hope you're really okay," he mutters, his voice sadly knowing all the same.

Of course he can sense the bond ringing.

Kaleth simply ignores that, however, "Of course I am. See you soon," he waves to Mel, watches him leave their house.

When the door clicks shut behind him, Kaleth turns back to his phone still in his hand, and sighs, suddenly so exhausted and aching all over. Stupid heartbreak.

He types another two texts, sends them, and then deletes Relioth's number from his phone and throws it aside, exchanging staring at it for staring at the wall blankly.

'You wanna know what you're most awful at though? Staying fucking alive apparently, despite doing it for thousands of years. Fuck you. Come back'

'Please, Rel'

------

Fin

[mrtire45]

My tumbler is just from a chapter of my life that pm Seymour (prob spelt that wrong sorry pm) where I didn't know what I was doing. Who I was(still don't know) or what I want to do. And I was *trigger warning* but I like pizza, I like making pizza, and I like seeing people enjoy my pizza and by God dammit. I'm going to make more of it for people.

Now I return to scream into the void and enjoy *the owl house* fandom comics. Thank you all for coming to my therapy. My horrible therapy.

[am-i-sans]

dnd adventures 47

we ended last time being voided? we spawn on a floor? undyne punches the floor. cam stares bug-eyed at the void. undyne pulls out her glowing sword and THE KIDS ARE GONE! undynes baby tries to escape!

she grabs the baby trying to calm it down. cam starts shushing the baby lol. empty grey void as far as we can see. dans cast light on a ring so we can see more. tennis fucking bites undyne lol. tori is just freaking out and calling for the kids.

dess calls this strange (no shit lol) tori just starts walking so we start following her. tori has 0 spellslots lol. dans prays to mossgod and hopes for an answer. he cant sense them at all. "uh guys i cant sense god at all." oh no.

we see...navi the fairy? what? "hi! welcome to eeby deeby!" oh fuck. dess asks if they lay the eggs lol. it has no eyes but we feel it winks lol. tori tries to focus on getting out and the orb says that wont work. inferno threatens to set it on fire if it doesnt shut up, it laughs at him.

it says it doesnt have a name cause god forgot to give it a name (then looks at the camera!) cam nods, pats them, and names them Cyan. it seems pleased? undyne asks if they have seen the kids. "nope their not here!" "they werent sent here with us? "SENT here? thats how you think it works?" dess says they get recalled here when their owners arent available jfc dess

it flies around everyones heads going 'hey, listen! you need to find the eggs!' dans comments his eggs in the bag but they wont work anymore? it winks again wtf. need eggs to get out i guess.

undyne asks how we got here and it says no one knows. 'are you FROM here?' it stops for a second and says it doesnt remember, then says we need to find the egg! cam asks if it wants to follow while we look for eggs. it was already going too!

cyan says it cant tell us where the eggs are and implies theres no 'direction'. dess says cyan is like her with 0 explanation and starts walking! time to follow dess. we see vague shadowy things in the distance. buildings, people, screaming?

undyne hears screaming and runs ahead dammit. those arent people screams so she comes back. group hand holding! tennis starts biting cam lol. cam backs away from tori when she motions for the baby lol.

tori listens for things but nothing substantial. cyan keeps saying hey listen. cam pats them on the head lol. tori heads toward the noise so we follow her lol NO SEPERATING! we encounter 3 people and one of them is a woman with a very blurry arm and their fighting shadowy things?

undyne of course rushes in to help. cam gives tori the baby and runs in. the baby starts struggling even harder wtf. tori casts animal friendship since it counts as an animal xD it calms down and stops biting but it makes faces at her like 'let me go!' 'nope.'

beating up the creatures~ the missing arm lady is a firbolg milf lol. her name is dolly dazzle? dess says thats a pornstar name lol. cross is the human and zaz the goblin. they have their own fairy thing lol its pink. dans says to name it rose and cam says thats lovely.

fuck eeby deeby lol. dess says we couldve been here a hundred years we have no idea. undyne asks about their arm and dans says its rude to ask lol. dolly says it got bitten off but itll grow back? eeby deeby properties? its not painful what? dess says shes probably into it lol.

tori is on babysitting duty. undyne asks if they've seen the kids, nope. dans asks if they know how to track down the eggs, also no. team up time! rock paper scissors for the eggs if we cant find enough?

dess tries to find some eggs and just finds darkness lol. is cyan supposed to make the eggs? cyan says god is dead. great. which one? oh well lead the way cam.

undyne tries to use divine sense. nada. she then uses lay on hands on herself. nope! she freaks out lol. the other guys are laughing at her lol. cross says you cant die here so calm down. cam backs away as cross kills zaz. dolly sighs and says they have to wait for him to reform.

cam holds cyan and just stares. tori heals undyne and tells her to calm tf down and keep her head. dess comments tori is good at calming the baby with magic like all her other kids wtf.

dess calls the new guys disposable npc's xD she wanders off. she comes back and asks if they've seen another firbolg that looks like tori, aka sunnie. nope. dans has had enough and says none of this matters we just need to find the eggs. dess asks cyan if the eggs are like the eeby deeby eggs or not. 'halflings lay eggs?' XD

dans asks what the difference between our eggs and the eeby deeby ones. nope. need different ones. wtf. what if their always conscious when we get here but we forget normally? dess comments that yeah but now were being watched and doesnt elaborate. cyan cant answer that either lol.

undyne checks on tennis. why is it so anxious? she thinks its teething. dans wonders if tennis can find the eggs and it makes a sound at him. it sounds sad! dans goes '1 squeak for yes 2 squeaks for no.' lol. it can find the eggs and it knows where we are right now. dess asks cyan about the temmie baby. silent.

dans asks tennis if it can lead us to the eggs. dess says this could be a grown temmie for all we know. dans and dess see this fucking thing staring at us

it disappears when we make eyecontact with it wtf. dollys coming with us! undyne comments the other 2 guys might get instantly rekilled after respawning. yep shes still freaking out lol. she picks cam up and has them on lookout.

congrats undyne you found horrors. vague shape of a person. their transparent and just sitting on the ground? 'im never getting out of this place' oh no. 'im not getting out ive been here too long.' oh no.

time means nothing. where did their fairy go? cyans just staring at this dude. undyne tries to lift him but it goes straight through. cam sits next to him. 'please remember me.' and then he puffs into nothing, turns into a fairy, and leaves?!

dess manages to catch it! dans suggests naming it lime since its green. dess asks if it has its memories. its light blinks out for a second and tries to get away. dans goes and helps dess hold onto it. even dolly goes wtf. dans asks tennis if they knew that was gonna happen xD

cam is hugging cyan tightly. lime is just saying to be let go cause dess is fucking shaking it. cam suggests putting it in the bag of holding. dess says they can see why 'hes' interested in cam wtf?

undyne pries dess's hands off lime darn. cyan pipes up and says it has information and just repeats we have to find the eggs. dess asks if it has free will and just flickers wtf.

dans keeps asking tennis questions. yep its still a baby. undynes mad we keep bugging the baby xD then she calls it dumb. and it wont be dumb when it grows up.. 'is that true tennis, that we know more than you?' it tries to bite dans nose but tori is still holding it xD dans gives them a baby chewing toy.

dess tries to sense if the temmie know where the eggs are. yep the baby knows! it can probably sniff out its kind. dans suggests making a leash? let the baby loose! shes mad but allows it.

tori kneels down and sets down tennis. he runs off, follow them! its not very fast tho xD dolly is just as confused xD we ask dolly if they get hungry here. she stops and doesnt think so? she hasnt anyway. dess comments shes gone longer with no food. dans just looks at her so sad. undyne says she didnt eat for 2 weeks once to push herself?

dans comments he went a month without eating once cause he was a slave and fought back lol. this group sucks xD tennis sniffs around us a bunch and then keeps going. undyne says its fine if they dont wanna be a paladin they can be a wizard. dans says he knows a guy that can teach them if they want. undyne says they could be a druid too. just talking to the baby xD talking about what they can be when they grow up.

dess says dans sounds like her mom and tells tennis they were supposed to be a lot of things too. tennis bonks its head on dess and then keeps going. undynes glad to be a mom lol.

we keep walking and the void around us starts shifting and the floor is sticky and a mist rolls in?! undyne picks up the baby. cam clings to dess. dans stands back to back in tori's blind spot. the fog rolls in and the groups seperate. team dess and cam and inferno, and everyone else.

team undyne! dolly just starts walking. welp where are they. grounds not sticky anymore. maybe the others got out? undyne starts shouting for them. dolly comes back they found a door?! shes already going back toward the door.

gonna check out the door to see if its a trap cause everything is suspicious. undyne just fucking opens the door. we see a stone room with 2 full grown temmies, maybe? 2 more doors behind them? ohno. a sign says 1 speaks lies one speaks truth. dammit. dolly walks in of course. going in!

the temmies just stare at tennis. their names are hamilton and alexander. fucking theatre kids. undyne asks the left one if her name is undyne. it says no, thats the one that lies xD asking the right one which door is the correct door. it points behind itself.

undyne asks where the eggs are. it says no. there goes dolly! its a hallway!

[unorthodoxica]

i wish to scream into the void all my thoughts about my blorbos yet I do not have the language. I feel sick, like I have something stuck in my throat waiting to escape but my lips have been sewn shut and I cannot scream. Fuck. I just want to talk about peter parker god fucking dammit.

[floweramongstthecold]

Gawwd you're asking too much for this one. XD I mean I love everything about the game. But let's see the one dungeon that makes me go wild is the Final Days and Alexandria kind of. I went to try Alexandria in duty support because I wanted to see what was going on and man, MAN it's fucking sadder than I thought? Just the lighting and the destruction. The airships. ONE FUCKING EXPLODED! I didn't even know it EXPLODED! I knew it was on fire but then it went BOOM!

Alexandria makes me sad because that place was actually really pretty before the surge. Final Days just hurts my soul cause knowing that we're Azem and then seeing this shit? It makes me go, oh my gawd... that... that was our HOME. Our HOME is being destroyed and we weren't there to help. The people running away, the music, the atmosphere, the visuals just... damn.

Another one is the Endsinger raid. I will never not love the Endsinger raid even though we never fucking get that in rous anymore. I might see if I can do it in duty support or something, I fucking miss that raid. The way the area goes completely dark and you think you fucked up then all of the sudden, the Scions show up praying really hard and make a LIGHT?! They're literally your fucking beacon int he darkness and I... 🙏🏾👌😍 That shit STILL makes me tear the fuck up, I don't care.

And Close in the Distance is my FAVORITE song. I don't fucking care. Some people don't like it, and I don't understand why but I love it SO MUCH! SOOOO SOOOO fucking much that I call it the communitie's Anthem. And the new song from Dawntrail? Smiles? Smiles is so.... gooddd to my ears? Oh and fucking we can't forget In the Balance. I fucking LOVE In The Balance and OH MY GAWD EXPONENTIAL ENTROPY?! Hell yeaah baby, forward and back forever!

I'm STILL kinna mad that whoever wrote Dawntrail made me fall in love with Bakool Ja Ja after I fucking DESPISED him. Not in a "I fucking hate it." way but in a "God dammit they did such a good job, how dare you make me like who I fucking hated?" kinna way. Because they did such a good job? Just.... *melts* uuggghhuhuhuhh! Obviously we're not gonna forgive him for almost fucking killing people but bruh, if you somehow make me like him after I hated him HOW DARE YOU?! XD And it's even more HOW FUCKIN DARE YOU?! Because so many people fucking hated him. I dunno if any people like him now but gawd dammit... just god dammit man. I have no words for that oh and the fact that WUK LAMAT acknowledged how we were feeling too?! LIke... brugh, she hated him and then she liked him. SHE LIKED HIM TOO SUDDENLY AND IT'S JUST SOOO VALIDATIN SOMEHOW?! I can't man, I fucking cant.

OH OH OH OH! Lemme scream about another thing. When Vrtra showed up to help Tuliyollal get rid of Zoraal Ja's ARMY?! I DID NOT EXPECT VRTRA TO FUCKING SHOW UP OUT OF NOWHERE?! Like.... I didn't even recognize him for a minute. I was like THE FUCK DID THAT DRAGON COME FROM?! Then I stared longer and went... now wait a fucking minute... VRTRA?! IT WAS SOOOOOO FUCCCCCKING COOOOOL! Cause like, how far away is Radz-at-han from Tural anyway? How long did it take for him to get there? AND SEEING HIS SISTER?! She's gotten bigger but is still fuckin cute. Just... *sCREMS AND FLAILS AND WIGGLES AND...* AAAHHHHH~! IT WAS SOO FUCKIN AWEESSSOMMEEE!

AND ANOTHER THING! The way they made Alexandria actually just feel like it didn't belong. The atmosphere for that place when you first get there so sooooo fucccking wild? It's just so goooddd! Section 9 drives me fucking crazy to be in though cause it's like you know it doesn't belong and it feels like and it and UUGGGHHHHHUHUHUHUH! *screams into the void and flails into oblivion* IT'S JUST SOOOO COOOOOOLLL! So well done just AAAAAHHHHH~!

Look don't I don't really care about whether or not you think Dawntrail as a whole is good or bad.

That's not interesting.

Instead talk abt what makes you go ABSOLUTELY FERAL from it (or ffxiv in general).

What is it that hits your brain in just the right way to make you fall into a never ending rabbit hole of madness and obsession. A rabbit hole from which you emerge from with endless and absolute knowledge about super niche subjects that may come up in conversations once or twice.

a character? Plot beat? Theme? Job rotations??? A dungeon with absolutely unhinged lore? A random ass sidequest that is somehow relevant still today and lives rent free in your brain???

Go wild w those plz, I need more of those.

[jankwritten]

HEY!

HEY

fucking H E Y

the fact that I am

TWENTY YEARS OLD

AND SOMEHOW THINK THAT IF I DON'T

HEAL THE WORLD

WRITE A BESTSELLING BOOK

BECOME PEAK FIT AND EAT PERFECTLY HEALTHY

AND SO FORTH

BY THE TIME I'M TWENTY FIVE I'LL

LITERALLY FUCKING DIE

IS HEINOUS!!!!! I'M BARELY NOT A TEENAGER!!!!!!

WHO TOLD ME THOSE LIES AND

WHY THE FUCK DID I BELIEVE THEM

*ahem*

[meowthiroth]

…god i wish i had money lying around to get another pair of demonias