#I just want this feeling to go away im so tired of being this gross Thing people have to deal with I want to feel better so I can be aroun
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can i say (as a bi woman) that it genuinely bothers me that like... so many ppl are like 'its not biphobic for a bisexual to have casual sex' when i don't think anyone has ever said THAT is the issue? i don't care what bisexuals do in real life. if they wanna have safe and consensual casual sex, go right ahead, idc! it's not for me but as long as i'm also being respected in my decision, idc what other people do. it just baffles me because buck in season one was talking about how he was a sex addict and how he didn't want to ruin things with abby by rushing into sex too fast because he genuinely liked her and that was like... kind of a huge part of his character? is that he DIDN'T really like the casual sex so much but actually wanted a real relationship? so why is oliver begging to have buck sleep around again when his character like... wanted more than just sex??? i don't mind character regression but it just feels like bad writing to retread that plot again.
also idc what other people say about thinking OS wasn't biphobic in his remarks. the guy dropped the ball hardcore. he could have easily said "i think buck can continue to casually explore his sexuality with other men and women now, he's still bisexual even if he's single" and it wouldn't have felt so... idk. fetishize-y to me. i'm just tired of bisexuality in fiction always being linked to promiscuity. real bisexuals can do whatever they want. but bisexuals in fiction are held to a different standard for a reason. what else should i expect from a ryan murphy show tho considering brittany on glee never called herself bisexual (bi-lingual, bi-corn) and she was portrayed the 'stupid slutty cheerleader' stereotype. i was just hoping for something different ig :(
it just makes me mad because... they didn't have to break up buck and tommy Like That. tommy could have easily had to move away and he and buck could have broken things off mutually as a result. idk sorry for ranting a bit in ur asks im just so miffed over this and over people speaking over bisexuals expressing their thoughts and concerns toward the biphobia that's going on rn :(
Sorry it took me so long to answer you, but please rant away! Honestly I agree with everything you've said. And unfortunately this really does prove that yeah, this is a Ryan Murphy show and it's par for the fucking course. I was gleek and that always bothered me too that Britney would never say it (and most of her characterization in general was just awful)
I wish Oliver had said something different, I wish he hadn't worded it that way. And again, people can have their opinions but it just feels so gross given how the show decided to do this.
They could've had bucktommy break up in any other way for any other reason. They brought up the Abby plot, they could've used that as the hurdle. They could have had them talk about wanting different things in a relationship. Literally anything that wasn't Tommy basically telling Buck it's over because he's not enough of a stereotype. Because bisexuals don't know what they want. Clearly.
It's very infuriating and I'm so sorry that yet another piece of media treated bisexual people like fucking shit.
And it's really fucking infuriating that people who aren't bisexual are defending Oliver over his comment. Again, have your different opinions but don't speak over people that are bi and already have to deal with biphobia in our shitty society
This show went about it all in an awful way, and I'm really sad that we were all tricked into believing they'd handle it better
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#sad pou hours#jk thats like every hour of my life#dont read im just being stupid and miserable snd dumb#so like normal. Online diary in place of therapy#i just need to get it out so i can stop feeling this way!#okay? ok.#im trying NOT to feel shelved away and unloved but its really really hard and its getting really REALLY much harder#* is basically my only saving grace. Hes the only person lately who seems to show care and interest unprompted#and it does wonders for my self esteem#its. Really nice to be able to hear I Love You fully and unobjectively from someone just bc they want me to hear it#bc i dont get things like that v often. im So touch and affection starved it makes me throw up#and ik its gross and just. Way too clingy#ugh. I just would rather not hear the words at all than have to costantly see ‘ily/lov u/etc’ from my friends n stuff cuz it just feels so#Superficial. which is a Dumb ass reaction I Know but. ugh. whatever.#im just tired. of being completely isolated and then being shelved by people on top of that. its hard. but ik im not the most personable or#enjoyable person so ig i cant blame other ppl#i constantly feel like a whimpering dog at the pound.#its hard watching everyone around me be loved and spend time with each other while im stuck on the outside.#like damn all my irl ‘friends’ constantly go out and have fun with each other snd the only time they think of me is when lizzie pity-invites#me lol. the message has NOT been clearer! i can try all i want and ill still be last place <3#i think im gonna go back to ripping myself open i dont have anything else
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#I feel so so bad and I don't know why#like I can physically feel the sadness in my chest and it hurts and I dont understand#bc this happens right before my period but that has come and gone but I still feel like this#I feel so hopeless and worthless#I tried taking some cbd oil so I could sleep but I cant stop crying so I inhaled a little and now everything burns#im probs gonna get pneumonia or smthn#is this a ptsd thing?????? it feels like maybe but ive been doing so much better til now#and I haven't . self harmed in a long time but I feel the urge and I dont THINK im gonna bc even though something is telling me I would fee#better I KNOW I would just feel guilty about that too#I feel just. so alone#and I know. im isolating myself but I cant physically make myself reach out#im jsut stuck#hoping just writing this down will make me feel a little better#I just want this feeling to go away im so tired of being this gross Thing people have to deal with I want to feel better so I can be aroun#people and not drag them down
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under the influence
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warnings: 18+ only, smut, blowjob, dubcon, blackmail, mentions of forced sex, throwing up, drunk!reader
your head pounds as you stumble towards whatever light source is in front of you. your vision is glazed over, only amplified from how tired you are.
“y/n?” a voice calls out.
you open your mouth to respond but your feet trip over a crack on the sidewalk and you fall forward, barely catching yourself with your hands.
“ah, shit.” rafe groans, rushing over to check on you. he turns you over so your back is now against the pavement. “what happened to you?” “was at a party.” you manage to get out before turning your head and throwing up. rafe gathers your hair for you as you vomit onto the sidewalk. “got really drunk.” you say when you finish, spitting to get the taste out of your mouth.
“yeah, i can tell.” rafe scoffs. “want me to take you home?” “no-” you shake your head, looking up at rafe with tears in your eyes. “my parents would kill me if they found out.” your mind reels, tears suddenly falling which quickly turns into sobs.
“hey, hey, shh.” rafe tries to comfort you, his hand coming to rub over your shoulder. “shit, shut up. you can stay at tanneyhill.” “really?” you squeal, mood instantly turning around, a smile replacing your frown.
“yeah just… just get up, come on.” rafe helps you stand up, annoyed that you're ruining his plans for the night, but not wanting to leave you out here to fend for yourself.
you know rafe mostly through your families, both being prominent members in the outer banks. you've grown up around each other, and while you’ve been kind of flirty in the past, in never progressed into anything.
rafe loops an arm around your waist, helping you walk towards his house. rafe had planned to walk to a party, probably the same one you're leaving from, before he came across you.
“are your parents home?” you ask, knowing that you'll have to sneak past them, as they will definitely tell your parents if they saw how obviously wasted you are.
“no. it's just me at home. ward, rose and wheezie are gone for the weekend and sarah is who knows where.” rafe rolls his eyes at even having to mention his sister.
“probably john bs.” you comment, before throwing out a snide remark. “dirty pogue.”
it makes rafe smile, remembering that you harbor the same feelings towards the other side of the island that he does.
rafe leads you inside his house before having to basically drag you up the stairs. he leads you into a guest room before letting you flop down onto the couch.
“you know i had plans for tonight, and now i gotta stay here and make sure you don't die of alcohol poisoning.” rafe says, wanting to make sure you know how much of a pain in his ass you are being.
“im sorry.” you pout, and it stirs something in rafe, seeing you laying splayed out on the bed, sorrowful look on your face and big doe eyes looking up at him.
“you know, you could do something to make it up to me.” rafe offers.
“like-like what?” you ask, blinking up at rafe.
“suck me off.” rafe says, watching you process and then react to what he just said.
“but-but! we are friends rafe you don't want me to do that!”
“i wouldn't ask if i didn't want it.” rafe shrugs. “besides, i was definitely going to hookup with a girl tonight, so im settling with just a blowjob, unless you want me to fuck you too?”
“no, no.” you shake your head quickly. you think about leaving, about walking out of tanneyhill, but you're not sure your legs can carry you that far. “ill suck you off.”
“good girl.” rafe says, rubbing over his crotch as you reposition yourself, flipping to your stomach and moving yourself to the edge of the bed.
“you're gross for this, rafe.” you say, even as you swat his hand away and rub over his length through the layers of fabric.
“we can always stop and i can take you back to your parents. tell them what a naughty girl you've been, getting drunk then rubbing at my dick.”
“no, no.” you shake your head. “im gonna do it just give me a sec.” you unbutton rafes pants slowly before tugging the zipper down, trying to force your mind to sober up as he tugs his pants down, taking the underwear down at the same time, revealing his half hard cock.
“oh my god, you’re so big.” the words slip out of your mouth before you can help it, making rafe chuckle.
you cautiously reach for his cock, wrapping your hand around the base and slowly beginning to stroke up and down, waiting for him to fully harden before you even attempt to put it in your mouth.
“come on, y/n.” rafe encourages you, stepping closer and pressing his thighs into the edge of the bed. you open your mouth and cautiously take a lick over the head of his cock, eyes sliding shut when you realize how good he tastes on your tongue.
you quickly take more of him, mouth swallowing his cock as you bob your head. rafe moans, tangling his fingers in your hair as you work on his cock, all apprehension gone the second you actually felt him.
“fuck, if this is how good you are drunk, i can’t imagine you sober.” rafe groans. he never really thought about you in a sexual way before, always just a background character in his life that he’d joke around and flirt with, but it was never serious until now.
“yeah?” you smirk as you pull off, taking a deep breath, your hand immediately beginning to stroke him to make up for it.
“we’ll see if you even remember this.” rafe laughs, tugging on your hair, forcing you to retake him in your mouth. you choke slightly before regaining composure, sucking his cock deep into your mouth, managing to go all the way down and pressing your nose into his skin. you credit the alcohol flowing through your veins as the reason for your gag reflex not playing up, along with the confidence you have managed to muster up.
“are you sure i can’t fuck you?” rafe asks.
you shake your head no while still swallowing around his cock. you know you’ll wake up and regret this, but the regret is a million times better than the punishment you would face from your parents.
“maybe in the morning.” rafe grunts, hands tightening on your hair as he begins to snap his hips forward, keeping your mouth in place, not caring that drool is dripping down your chin and that your hands are fisted on the comforter, gripping it so tightly that you can feel your nails digging in to your palm through the fabric.
“so good, baby. keep sucking.” rafe commands, knowing he isn’t going to last much longer.
rafe lets out a groan and you feel him swell inside of your mouth before releasing, cumming straight down your throat, his hands keeping you pushed down on his dick, even when you try to pull away and take a breath.
rafe makes sure you stay on him for his entire high, throat constricting around his dick until he pushes your head away, cock flopping out.
you cough, wiping at your mouth. “i can’t believe you made me do that.”
“aye, chill out, y/n. you were certainly acting like you enjoyed it.” rafe laughs, tapping your cheek as you recoil. rafe tucks his cock back into his pants, redoing the button.
“yeah, whatever.” you roll onto your back, moving so your head is back over the pillow. your eyes close,
“scooch over.” rafe commands, making you furrow your brow and look at him.
“what for?”
“i like this side of the bed.” he explains.
“you’re not sleeping in the same bed as me, fuck off.” you wave your hand.
“nah, you’re too drunk. gotta make sure you don’t puke all over the sheets.” rafe explains, hand coming to your hip, pushing so you have no choice but to roll to the other side of the bed.
“too drunk to sleep alone but not too drunk for me to suck your dick.” you roll your eyes. “make it make sense.” “hey.” rafe glares at you. “don’t make me wake you up with my cock inside you. shut it.”
he reaches over and shuts off the light, casting the room into darkness. you let out a sigh to show your disapproval of the situation but don’t say anything more as the silence stretches out a few minutes. “rafe?”
“what?”
“can you hold me?”
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alone together ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 . . . keychain
── taking comfort in the thought that you are together in aloneness through late night talks, heartfelt confessions, and a genuine connection. with your shared experience of recent heartbreaks, you wonder if getting together would be all worth it. in which you find solace in each other's company, that you are alone together.
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꩜ notes .ᐟ this shit TOOK SO LONG. fuck. its like a mix of little imagines into one sooo that means word count is a whooping 5.5k.. enjoy the crumbs! p.s i rawdogged this so like not proofread. im tired i want to move forward !! lmfao
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wonbin and the rest were already at coex. they were by the entrance of the mall, waiting for your arrival. wonbin fishes his phone out of his pocket and clicks on your contact before clicking on your location that you've shared with him to check where you were at. his eyes follow the little icon that's moving closer to where they were at, ensuring your safety and estimating the time of your arrival in his head which could be at any moment now
seunghan, who was watching wonbin couldn't help but feel a smirk creeping up his face. he watches the way wonbin was looking intently at his phone like he was monitoring something or someone being you
"what are you doing, wonbin hyung?" seunghan chirps, trying to take a peek at his phone by wrapping his arm around wonbin's shoulders, scaring the shit out of him in the process.
wonbin jolts and exclaims a loud "fuck!"
"don't do that! you fucking scared me!" wonbin scolds seunghan, raising his hand up at him but the boy was too busy laughing to even notice
"yes hit him for me. he deserves it" you clap your hands together, making your presence known to the group
all seven heads perk up at the sound of your voice
there was a few second of silence before seunghan runs up to you and gives you a hug
"y/n! you made it!" seunghan exclaims, crushing you into a hug. you playfully swat his arms away, muttering a quick "gross" before laughing
"obviously i made it. you basically forced me to go" you grumble, finally wrapping an arm around seunghan
anton and sohee both share a look at the implication of what you just said. they're too afraid to look up because they can feel wonbin's cold stare boring holes at the sides of their heads
"hey y/n" sungchan smiles
"sup" eunseok tips his chin up
"hi y/n!" shotaro wave
you shyly wave both of your hands at the three boys in front of you, greeting them one by one
"hey guys.. thanks for inviting me to hang out with you" you smile awkwardly. you're not too sure how to approach them knowing you and wonbin are probably the current topic of their group chat
eunseok suddenly snorts, throwing his thumb back at the two boys who were hiding
"it's all because of these two idiots behind us" he laughs, glancing behind him to see if sohee and anton were hiding themselves but the sight eunseok sees was wonbin seemingly scolding the two
"say sorry to her. got it?" wonbin eyes down sohee and anton who were both avoiding his cold gaze. anton was about to open his mouth to protest but wonbin holds a finger up and anton instantly clamps his mouth shut before taking a deep breath and nodding his head. sohee who was watching the whole thing smacks anton's back and mutters, "this is all your fault"
"oy wonbin what are you doing?" shotaro stifles in his laughter at the sight before him. wonbin then turns around to look at shotaro but instead, he sees you
the moment you make eye contact with wonbin his initial cold look on his face instantly disappears. he smiles and waves at you, acknowledging your presence
good. you arrived safely, wonbin thinks to himself
sohee and anton both elbow each other again, witnessing the sudden shift of wonbin's demeanour. wasn't he just glaring at them a second ago?
wonbin suddenly grabs both sohee and anton, pulling them up from the bench and drags them to where you were at
you suddenly feel some presence behind you. slowly, you turn around to see anton and sohee who were both looking down on the floor with wonbin right beside them
"hi?" you murmured, feeling a little awkward at the close proximity. the two boys don't say anything which just made everything more awkward. if you were to look at it from an outsider's point of view, it looked like they were gangsters ganging up on you
"what? cat got your tongues?" wonbin taunts, raising an eyebrow before grabbing both of anton and sohee's shoulders as he takes a good look at the two of them before smiling sweetly at you
"see y/n, my friends here have something to say" wonbin smiles, his hands reaching over to ruffle anton and sohee's hairs before pushing their heads down to a bowing position in front of you
"we're sorry for taking a picture of you with wonbin hyung!" the two boys apologized
the boys beside you all bursts out laughing. they even whip out their own phones and start recording anton and sohee. you feel the blood rush to your cheeks at their apologies. your hands shakily pat their heads, trying to make them look up from the ground
"oh my god! you didn't have to apologize for that!" you exclaimed, looking around if any bystanders were watching. thankfully there weren't many around the mall at the moment
"please get up. it's fine really" you plead at the two bowing boys. you then glare a little at wonbin who kept his hands on their heads as he basically forces them to keep bowing in front of you. wonbin pokes his tongue out at your reaction, still having fun at the situation that was clearly under his control
"keep them still, wonbin! i'm taking a picture for keeps" eunseok hollers, his camera shutters going off as he takes a hundred pictures of anton and sohee
"serves their nosy asses right!" shotaro laughs
"is seunghan next?" sungchan comments
"hey!" seunghan reacts, elbowing sungchan
wonbin couldn't help but laugh at their reactions although he stops laughing almost immediately when he notices the frown on your face. with a big sigh, he pulls anton and sohee back and lets them go
anton and sohee look at each other before they turn to you
"we're really sorry. we just thought it was funny to tease wonbin hyung" anton murmurs the last part but wonbin heard it. wonbin clicks his tongue in annoyance and flicks anton's exposed nape
"not so funny now, is it?" wonbin hisses before letting them go. you smile apologetically at the two boys who were still looking at you in shame
"it's okay you guys. at least to me, i don't know about wonbin here" you gesture towards wonbin who just shrugs and walks over next to you
wonbin looks around and notes that everyone was now present. it's time to get this day over with
"since everyone is here, shall we head to the arcade?" wonbin proposes, throwing his arms behind his head as he eyes everyone around him
you all nod your heads and start walking to wherever the mall's arcade was located. wonbin sighs in relief at the cooperation. at first he thought that everyone would start complaining that they all took time out of their day just to play at an arcade
time to get this day over with
. . . ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁
on the way to the arcade inside the mall, you've been chitchatting with seunghan and shotaro. they were both asking you questions about how you and wonbin got close over time
"hold on, so you met him by chance at the convenience store way before seunghan introduced the two of you?" shotaro asks, registering all the new information about you
you nod your head, "yeah. i was buying drinks and i saw him liquor in the aisle. i even posted him on my close friends not knowing he was seunghan's friend" you recall, internally cringing about what happened next after that moment
"she drunk called me after" wonbin invites himself to the conversation, snickering at the memory
seunghan bursts out laughing when it clicks. "oh my god! i remember that!"
you rolled your eyes as you continue walking, blocking the sound of seunghan and wonbin's laughter
"wait that's kinda cute.." shotaro muses, "it's giving red string of fate" he giggles
you make a face but shotaro doesn't see it. why did he have to put it that way? now that you think about it, it kinda was giving red string of fate
you first saw him at the liquor aisle, turns out he was seunghan's friend. you meet him again by chance at the same convenience store, this time you two had a deep conversation without getting each other's names, he finds out that you are seunghan's friend too and one thing comes after another and now you're here
the world is so small
suddenly a hand grabs your shoulder breaking your train of thought. you turn around to look at who grabbed your shoulder and it was wonbin
"we're here" he says, gesturing towards the bright colorful led lights of the arcade
"oh" you squeaked. totally unaware that you've all arrived. seunghan then wraps an arm around your shoulders, pulling you close to him
"too deep into thought?" he jokes, ruffling your hair
"fuck off hong!" you cursed, pushing his arm off of you as you hurry inside the arcade, away from his impending teasing
all the guys share a look of amusement before following you inside
it didn't take long for everyone to decide that you all would just be sharing one game card. it was for the better and you guys could pay bigger credits for the price of one
wonbin, being the head planner, was unanimously decided to be the one to hold the game card. not that he minded though. now you all were just wandering around the arcade trying to look for games that could break the ice (especially for anton and sohee)
"this place is huge.." you murmured, looking around in bewilderment. it's been a long time since you came at an arcade
"i feel like i could get lost here" sungchan chuckles
eunseok then suddenly spots a boxing machine not just far ahead and he immediately suggests that you all should play that first
"there's a boxing machine right there. we should play and see who's the strongest one of us all" eunseok proposes, doing a cool pose to show off his muscles. only to be immediately laughed at by the group
wonbin then glances at you. in case you had something else in mind. he was about to speak up on your behalf but you beat him to it
"sounds fun! let's go!" you chirp, eyes suddenly filled with excitement at the first game
eunseok holds his hand out for you to hi-five. "you're officially the coolest one in this group" he comments, "you shall be named as... crimson nova"
you laugh, giving him a hi-five. "thank you for the name. i will honor it and do my best to be the brightest red star" you play along, even bowing slightly to show your commitment
eunseok bursts out laughing at the way you just seamlessly played along with his antics despite not really knowing each other just yet
"i like this one!" he exclaims, pointing down towards you
"she's taken! she's my best friend first!" seunghan complains, grabbing your arm and yanking you next to him
"let's see about that!" eunseok takes it as a challenge
wonbin couldn't help but smile a little. you and his friends have barely started hanging out today but yet, it looks like you'll fit quite in with his friend group
you all finally get to the boxing machine and wonbin swipes the game card for it to come to life
"who's going up first?" wonbin asks, after swiping the game card at the card slot
"ladies first?" sungchan suggests catching you off guard
"me?" you point to yourself, looking around to see all eyes on you making you flustered. "... okay" you murmured, going up to the boxing machine
"you can do it!" shotaro encourages you
"just think of the ball as seunghan's face" eunseok advices, making seunghan scoff beside you
"i will!" you laugh, shaking your hand as you prepare to punch the red ball of the machine. you suck in a deep breath when the machine lowers the red ball for you to punch. you count up to three in your head before you punch the ball with all your might. the machine bursts into colorful lights as it dings to calculate your score. a whooping 911 is shown on the scoreboard surprising everyone, including yourself
"what the fuck!" sohee reacts, jumping around you, who's in shock? in awe? you're not too sure yourself
eunseok, shotaro and sungchan all burst out laughing while seunghan shudders at the sight of your score. you had all that innate strength in you all along?
"seunghan hynug, looks like you're dead meat!" anton cackles, unable to hide his entertainment
in amidst of all the chaos and goofing around, you and wonbin make eye contact. wonbin throws his thumbs up, silently congratulating you on your score. you wave your hand off as you smile. it wasn't that serious anyway
"i'll go next!" sungchan volunteers making everyone hyped, awaiting if sungchan could beat your score. wonbin wordlessly swipes the game card again to the card slot and in an instant, the machine comes back to life
the machine dings after sungchan punches the red ball. the machine plays some tunes before calculating his strength. 904 is displayed on the scoreboard. everyone gasps at this. sungchan was not able to beat your score
the guys are in chaos again. dangling over sungchan at the fact that a girl had more immense strength than him who's an avid gym rat. sungchan just laughs and ushers the next person to go next who was eunseok.
again, eunseok flexes his muscles, trying to be hot shit before he punches the machine. everyone bursts out laughing seeing his score which got calculated at 319. all his flexing down the drain but he doesn't let his score bother him. he even says that he just did that to make everyone laugh (sure he did..)
shotaro goes next after eunseok followed by seunghan, sohee, anton and finally wonbin. you all cheer for wonbin, as he was the main planner of the day
wonbin cracks his knuckles before he uses all his might to punch the red ball of the boxing machine. the ball bounces back at the impact with a loud "bang!" and per usual, the machine comes to life as it calculates the strength. wonbin suddenly hisses when he pulls back his arm. his knuckles got scratched from the impact of his punch against the material of the ball
your eyes widened at the sight. you watch as wonbin cradles his knuckles, continuously hissing at his scratch.
"shit" wonbin hisses, looking at his knuckles. you then all gather around wonbin, trying to make sure he was okay
"that's gotta hurt, dude" shotaro comments, inspecting wonbin's hand
you suddenly remembered that you had a little emergency kit inside your bag
"hold on, i think i have a band aid" you say, fishing out the small pouch inside your bag and grabbed a hello kitty bandaid that you had in there in case for any accidents. you just never know when you'll need a bandaid
you motioned wonbin to hold his hand out while you delicately placed the said hello kitty bandaid onto his wounded knuckle. the rest of the guys share questionable looks the way wonbin wordlessly followed suit with your command
"there" you say softly, patting his know bandaged knuckle. you find it so funny that the bandaid you had on you was pink and hello kitty. a drastic contrast to the dark outfit wonbin had on
"does wittle wonbin want a booboo kiss with that?" seunghan teases wonbin, making the guys laugh
you glare at seunghan before wonbin elbows him on the stomach
"shut it hong" you grumbled
seunghan lets out a dramatic groan, clutching his stomach where wonbin just elbowed him. "jeez. take a joke!" he whines
"so, what game next?" you ask everyone, changing the topic
eunseok looks around, his eyes landing on the basketball hoops just up ahead
"who's down for some basketball? he proposes, determined to bounce back from that not so embarrassing moment of having the lowest score in the group
everyone nods their heads. muttering to themselves that they're pumped for the next game as you all walk towards to where the basketball machines were at
"try to beat me in my own game, y/n!" eunseok jokingly challenges you after you won the whole punching game by a landslide. you let out a chuckle as you tell him that it was game on
you and wonbin trail behind the group. you take a glance at his bandaged knuckle that you treated when wonbin catches your gaze and laughs softly
"thanks for the bandaid" he says quietly
"of course. any time" you smile
"i'll take it easy this time. i won't show off anymore" he jokes, leaning a little closer to you. you playfully roll your eyes, "and why would you show off?" you raise an eyebrow at his statement, a small smirk tugging on your lips
before wonbin could answer, shotaro calls out both of your names, yelling at the two of you to hurry up so you all could start playing the next game
onto the next game
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the guys have decided that you all would be divided into two groups through a fair game of rock paper scissors. you were grouped with sungchan, eunseok and anton while the other team consisted of wonbin, shotaro, seunghan and sohee
"one thing for sure is that we won't lose" seunghan pokes his tongue out as he taunts your team
eunseok scoffs, "excuse you. we have y/n with us. if she won the first game, then she'll definitely win this one too" he counters, feeling proud and confident that you were on their team
you let out a loud laugh at their competitive spirit. who knew wonbin's friends would be so funny to be around with
wonbin wastes no time swiping the game card on both basketball machines, bringing them to life and to start your little friendly competition
you all take turns in taking the ball and shooting it onto the hoop. trying to one up the other team. you couldn't help but burst out laughing at the way eunseok was taking this match so seriously
he was shooting like there was no tomorrow. the way he started acting like a coach out of no where was just the cherry on top
"c'mon guys! we're straying behind a little! sungchan! work on your form this is serious!" eunseok shouts, startling sungchan causing him to shoot the ball directly at the outline of the hoop, making it bounce back and hit eunseok on the head
anton was no help in this game. he was just recording everything. the way eunseok was so unfazed despite being hit on the head just made anton double over laughing, clutching his stomach from laughing so much
while you were laughing, you were also locked the fuck in. you were trying your best to help your team. you peered over to the machine next to yours and saw that the other team was just a point ahead. with the competitiveness kicking in, you attempt to sabotage the other team by smacking your hand against their ball right when they were about to shoot
seunghan gasps at your actions when his ball flies off. you menacingly laugh before shooting your shots like normal
"no fair! that's cheating!" seunghan complains but eunseok shushes him
"very good, crimson nova!" eunseok praises you, even patting your head before returning back to yell at sungchan for having terrible aim
while you were too busy looking at eunseok and sungchan, you didn't notice wonbin's hand. right when you were about to shoot your ball, his hand makes contact with your ball and swats it away. you snap your head towards the perpetrator to see wonbin laughing
"two can play this game" he taunts, wagging his index finger in front of your face
both machines ding that the time was almost over and now every shot is now equivalent to three points. that only made the group work harder than ever before so that meant you had one more chance to sabotage the other team to secure your own team's win
while sungchan, eunseok (and anton who was just filming everything) was doing all the work, you quietly moved closer towards the other team before you push them off their concentration with your hips, sabotaging them completely
"hey! watch her!" shotaro yells, watching the way you were leaning and using all your weight to push wonbin so he loses his balance
sohee, who hated losing decided to attempt to take matters into his own hands and sabotaged your team as well but it was no use. his team was already distracted by your sabotage and the fact that eunseok was singlehandedly taking the win for the team
as the timer ticks down to zero, eunseok undeniably takes the final and winning shot. ensuring your team's victory by a landslide. the two machines buzzes as it was game over. you couldn't help but erupt in cheers and hi-five everyone in your team
"our mvp! crimson nova!" eunseok declares, raising your arm as he shows you off to everyone. seunghan raises his arms in absolute defeat
"no fair! you guys cheated!" points a finger at your team
"can't hear sore losers bro" sungchan says in triumph, pumping his chest making everyone laugh
"i got it all in video" anton chirps, shoving his phone around everyone's faces to get their reactions
"you didn't even do shit for your team!" sohee smacks anton's phone away from his face
wonbin only rolls his eyes at your taunts, "next time i'll keep an eye out for those sneaky moves of yours" he grumbles
"i'd like to see you try" you laugh, poking your tongue out at wonbin who then laughs
"alright everyone! next game!" shotaro clasps his hands together, ushering everyone to find the next game you were to play
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after playing some more games, everyone decided that you all should take a break and eat some snacks
there was a designated snack area inside the arcade so you all headed there to get your stomachs filled. everyone ordered under one bill and that bill shall be split within the group. in the end everyone ordered almost a bit of everything
now you all were seated, talking amongst yourselves while waiting for your orders. you sit in between wonbin and seunghan with sohee and anton in front of you
"y/n i'm curious, how did you meet seunghan hyung?" anton asks, leaning closer on the table
"hm.." you hummed, tapping a finger on your chin as you pretend to think about it deeply, knowing that it would offend seunghan that you forgot how you two met
"it was during orientation week when we were freshmen. right hanie?" you ask seunghan, nudging him. the latter responds by swatting your arm away
"is it beat seunghan day why do y'all keep hitting me today!" seunghan whines, pouting at the fact that this was the nth time today you've resorted into elbowing him
"everyday is beat seunghan day if you try" you jest, making sohee and anton laugh again
before seunghan could protest, your food has arrived courtesy to shotaro and sungchan for getting the orders from the counter. you all gasp at the array of food before passing down everyone's orders one by one
when you were passing down the food, you accidentally brushed hands against wonbin's. you looked up at him in an instant and what does he do? he subtly winks at you before passing down some of the food anton ordered to him
weird.. what was that about
"thank you for the meal!" you all chorus before diving in. it's been exhausing playing games back to back and this is all what you needed at the moment to replenish everyone's energy
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after having a meal inside the arcade, you all decided it would be best to just roam around to let the meal digest. now you all were just aimlessly roaming around the spacious arcade
your eyes then see the row of claw machine games. your eyes instantly lit up and nudged wonbin that you want to head over there. he then announces to the group that if they were up for some claw machine games to which everyone responded with a loud "hell yeah!" and thus the group disperses to play their own things
there were a lot of different claw machines that offered a variety of prizes. there were plushies, keychains and even some food related prizes. there was just too many to choose from
starting off small, you opted to try the claw machine that had keychains as its prizes. you tap wonbin on his shoulder, telling him to hand you the game card so you could start playing but he shakes his head no and said that he wanted to watch you play. you initially wanted to tell him no but he grabs your hand and drags you to the claw machines anyway
wonbin swipes the card on the first claw machine, you nervously gulped and started maneuvering the stick to get the prizes below which was a bunch of four leaf clover keychains. since the machine only lasted for a minute, you just hoped for the best and tapped on the pink button to make the claw descend and grab the prize
unfortunately for you, you didn't win anything on your first try. with wonbin being the witness, he bursts into laughter at your failed attempt. you let out a grumble as you try to walk away in shame from the claw machine but wonbin stops you
"let me try" wonbin says gently, pulling you back to his side so you could watch him play this time around
not like you had any other choice anyway so you huffed and reluctantly stood beside him, watching him swipe the card again to bring the machine back to life once more
wonbin bites his lip as he locks in to get a keychain. you watch him in amusement at the way he was totally concentrating and determined to win a prize. in the end he actually does get a keychain. wonbin grins and grabs the keychain from the machine before showing it off to you
"here you go" wonbin hands you the four leaf clover keychain that he won
your eyes widened and you shake your hands no but wonbin waves you off and insists that you take it
"so that you'll have lady luck at your side at all times" he jokes, grabbing a hold of your purse and attaching the keychain onto the zipper. when it jingles, wonbin couldn't help but smile
"there. i placed it on your bag so i'm not taking no for an answer"
before you could react further, someone coughs behind the two of you. you both turn around to see that it was seunghan with a big sly smirk on his face
you meet his eyes and instantly his eyebrows are raised like he was giving you a certain look that basically screams that "we'll talk about this later" before walking away, leaving you and wonbin alone again
when seunghan leaves, there's an awkward pause between the two of you. you look down on your bag to see the keychain but somehow you find yourself looking at the way wonbin's hand still lingered on your bag's zipper. he was just staring at the keychain he just won you with a smile on his face
"thanks.. i guess" you say shyly, looking away
wonbin lets go of the keychain and tucks his hands in the pockets of his jeans. he shrugs, feeling shy all of a sudden too
"you're gonna be stuck with that" he jokes again, nudging your shoulder, his gaze soft as he watches the way your cheeks start to have a slight pink hue to them
"whatever" you playfully roll your eyes and push him away slightly, laughing a little. "c'mon let's regroup with the guys" you say, glancing back at wonbin who was looking right back at you. wonbin nods and leads you back to where his friends were at
even though he couldn't see your face but you couldn't help but smile when you hear the keychain dangle with every step you take. you definitely won't be forgetting about this any time soon (and him too)
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the day finally comes to a close after spending the entire afternoon inside the arcade hanging out with wonbin and seunghan's friends. now everyone was at the entrance of the mall, about to part ways
"i had so much fun you guys! thank you for inviting me to hang out" you smile, waving at the seven boys
"no, thank YOU for hanging out with us. you're so cool i wish seunghan introduced you sooner to us" sungchan counters, his words genuine. he spoke for everyone in the group. they really did have fun hanging out with you today
"he wants to gatekeep me away from the world, i don't know" you shrug. everyone laughs at your joke especially when seunghan yells a "hey! that's not true"
after a while, everyone was slowly bidding their goodbyes. anton and sohee were the first ones to part ways, followed by eunseok and sungchan who said he still had something to attend to after. now you were left with seunghan, wonbin and shotaro
"do you want me to drop you home? it's getting late" seunghan asks you as you all wait at a bus stop. you shake your head no, knowing that seunghan lives on the opposite side of your place. it would take him two bus rides to get home on his own and you don't want to burden him
"she can come with shotaro and i. we live close to each other" wonbin says, looking between you and seunghan. shotaro hums, adding that seunghan doesn't have to worry since they were also with you
suddenly shotaro gets a phone call. he excuses himself to answer his phone
when shotaro was out of earshot, seunghan narrows his eyes. there's a mischievous glint evident in his eyes. he looks at you and wonbin menacingly. like he was trying to connect the dots
"she better come home in one piece, park!" seunghan playfully threatens wonbin. wonbin's eyes widened at his sly implication. wonbin tries to laugh it off but it comes off as awkward
"shut up seunghan, stop making it weird. we told you, we're just friends" you roll your eyes, clicking your tongue in annoyance. why can't he get the hint that you and wonbin were just friends
seunghan hums, "fine. whatever you two say~" he says in a sing song voice
"shit bro, i have to head back to campus. my partner in our paper says that she needs some help. she says it's urgent" shotaro comes back to the conversation
you never wanted to smack seunghan again with the shit eating grin that was plastered on his face. i'll never hear the end of this. you think to yourself
shotaro leaves shortly after. telling wonbin to be safe on the way home before bidding you and seunghan goodbye. now it was only you, wonbin and seunghan left at the bus station
"i'll take this my cue to leave. i still have to ride the train station" seunghan says, raising his hand. he was enjoying this and it was so obvious, "you two better be safe on the way home!" he chirps, getting on the bus leaving you and wonbin alone
you watch as seunghan takes a seat by the window so he can still see you and wonbin before the bus drives away. he makes kissy faces and makes a heart sign with his hands before the bus starts to make its way out of the bus lane. before seunghan was out of your sight, you don't forget to flip him off, making him laugh before he completely disappears as the bus drives away
"so, what now?" you hear wonbin ask beside you, "wanna take a taxi or the bus?"
you plop down on the bench, stretching your legs after an exhausting day playing games all afternoon
"neither. whichever takes me home first" you say, yawning making wonbin laugh
"someone's tired" he muses, sitting down next to you
"who wouldn't be after today?" you raise an eyebrow, grabbing your phone out of your purse to look at all the photos you took today
wonbin looks up at the night sky, "well, i had fun today" he says. he then steals a glance at you, who was now leaning onto the pole. you must be exhausted from playing around with his friends all day. wonbin smiles to himself, he didn't expect this hangout to be such a success. you managed to seamlessly get along with his friends without much effort. he honestly thought this day would turn out to be a disaster
"let's go home bin" you murmur. the longer you stay, the more sleepy you get. you still have a lot to do when you get home
wonbin pushes himself off the bench and extends his hand for you to take
"let's go home" he smiles softly
what a day has it been
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quackity being a dad headcanons because there has been too many baby tiktoks that give me baby fever
i think if you were both hispanic or both speak spanish fluently, he would want his kid to speak it too as their first langauge. If not and you dont speak spanish or arent hispanic and speak a different langauge , he would teach them english because its a common ground between the both of you, but he’d teach his kid spanish later when they are more like 5 or 6, teaching them common things to say.
loves your kid to death. like so so so so much. If he’s working or doing school (im not sure if he finished yet), he would carrying the kid in his lap. Or he loves hearing his baby giggle when he does something funny. and seeing the babys smile melts his heart
when the baby cries, it would break his heart. I think like if the baby cries over the night, he really tries his best to take care of it- but he gets so wind up in his work- so you usually take care of that. but he feels guilty when he sees you so tired but then he sees your smile when you finally make the baby fall back asleep. and his worries go away
i dont think he would mind changing the baby 😭 he thinks its gross but its not like he’s never gonna do it. he knows its normal so he gets it done and then goes on with his day.
if the kid got an attitude with him, he would be the type to leave them with a warning. like taking away their toys or a spanking. and if the baby stops having an attitdude, then nothing happens. but if they do it again, then something will happen. I dont think he woukd have too much of a problem with punishng your kid???i mean he knows when is too much but he also knows when a child needs discipline.
although everyone wants to be the most perfect loving parent, we all habe our flaws. I think quackity tries to be ther all the time for the kid but gets so winded up in work that he often doesnt habe enough time for the baby. But he tries to make sure he’s there for good and bad times. he hates the fact he cant be there the whole way but he also wants the best life for his child,so he works as hard to make sure his kid gets everything they need and want. I also think he puts some presure on his kids. like for grades and school. I remember him talking about how he tried and how he would try to get the best grades so i think by habit he woukd put the same pressure on his kids. but if you talked to him about, he would cool it down a bit.
takes pictures of EVERYTHING. your kids first time going to mexico? picture. your kids first time going to school? picture. your kids first time going to the beach? PICTURE. he tries to take as much oictures because its just little reminders of the progress of his child he is so proud of.
his first impression of the baby, he felt like crying. he heard the baby cry, his heart was racing out of joy and nervous. but when he saw the baby kaying down after it calmed down. he realized that was HIS. he was gonna raise this baby, and he couldn’t feel prouder.
defiedntly a nickname dad. like calling the baby ‘my precious’ ‘my little guy/girl’ ‘bubs’ ‘mija/mijo’ or a nickname of their name
an extra headcanons: he loves your baby fat and stretch marks !!! he thinks they look so sexy and beautiful and he’s head over heels when he sees you wear fitted shirts and your baby fat is more shown and he just stares in awh 🥺 !! he thinks its beautiful because thats where his children came from. AND ALSO HE PLAYS ‘never grow up’ BY TAYLOR SWIFT FOR YOUR BABY ���️❤️❤️
#quackity x reader#alex quackity x reader#quackity#elquackity#alex quackity#quackity fanfic#el quackity
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cod dudes with a nurse y/n but make it lowkey realistic: bc lets be real, after a 12 hr shift you do NOT want to hang out with friends, party, or socialize. ur feet hurt from walking and standing all day, your ears are tired from hearing the IV pumps beep all day, and the smell of C.diff makes u want to vomit. nurse y/n just wants to sit down or lay on the couch and be non-verbal... Gaz, price, and rudy are the sweetest. they pick that up real quick after mistakenly asking "hows ur shift" and y/n trauma dumped them for 5 hrs straight. they don't immediately ask for hugs and kisses bc they know u overwhelmed. they just pour u a cup of wine and sit next to you until YOU talk to them first. you lowkey gossip with them on ur day off or randomly be like "omg look at that dude over there next to the parking spot its giving edema". and then theres soap and ghost. Soap is clingy, yall really think hes gonna survive 12hrs of not seeing you? this man was waiting by the door at 7:15 pm. on the dot. wants to hug and kiss you and tell you about his day. but ur just so. fucking. tired. you tried to be as responsive but it always ended up with a tired "mhm". He legit got upset a few times but he'd be a good sport about it tho. eventually he caught on a couple of weeks in and now he just comes and hugs you from behind, kisses ur face, and cuddles you silently (AFTER you throw away ur dirty scrubs and shower. that C.diff smell is yucky yucky). Tells you he appreciates your care and effort for the patients every day :). Ghost.... omgg he said something lowkey offensive to you right after u got home from the worst shift of ur week. and he didnt even know WHAT he said/did, hes kinda bad a picking up ur cues. nurse y/n just turned around slowly, gave him the NASTIEST side eye, and stared at him for a good 2.5 min. This man immediately retreated from ur couch to wherever he was b4 like a hermit going back to its shell lmao. 2 hrs later you find a small written note and ur fave gurl dinner on the dining table.
Alejandro..... this man is SO PROUD of his s/o being a nurse. hes showing you off every chance he gets!!! He takes Nursing week SERIOUSLY. give you massages, spas, gifts, ect. but he doesnt get how tired and overwhelmed you are. you have to physically tell him to stop asking or letting his family asking medical question. "No ale. I will NOT look at auntie's mole on her stomach. when im off the clock im OFF THE CLOCK :("
Valeria threatens to beat up the management for you lol. she hates how you get treated by them sometimes. you didnt get the recognition you deserve. Def bosses her cartel men around to buy you gifts and such. one time she organized a whole day to spoil and pamper you. she gave you her own version of Daisy Award 🥺💞 Konig observes and internally analyzes ur every move. he panics tho. like "OMG she home but she already has a bottle of wine its different from the one she had yesterday.. omg omg she didnt even say hello that means her shifts was extra shitty today.... why is she sipping on the wine for so long and the last sip is longer than all previous sips........" He eventually learned you just need silent company. you were laying on the bed feeling burned out when he came over with some soup, kissed ur hand, and wrapped you in a blanket burrito :).
ah, realistic nurse!y/n. this is a breath of fresh air for me.
they're all trying their best. and honestly, what better pair? they also have an overstimulating, kinda gross (blood and bodily fluids), exhausting career !!
it's a match made in heaven !! (aside from the whole... miscommunication and barely seeing each other thing. but what's a good ship without some gut-wrenching angst?)
#nurse!y/n#nurse!reader#mw2#call of duty#task force 141#141 headcanons#141#tf 141#141 task force#tf 141 x reader#141 x reader#141 hcs#cod hcs#cod headcanons#mw2 hcs#mw2 headcanons#los vaqueros#rachel speaks#not writing
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The Quarry:
It's just. Okay. The potential queer relationship was honestly one of the best parts about this game. Like there's so much build up for it, like all these great and sweet scenes, and then it all gets nullified at the very end and the whole thing feels gross. Is that queerbaiting? Maybe? Like why bother in the first place tho. What were the writers thinking? "Hey let's establish a queer love triangle where one of the characters has a really sweet moment of vulnerability only to wipe everything away cause a white girl entered the chat and she's known the male lead for like two hours"
Like WHY.
Kind of a downgrade for Ryan's and Laura's characters tbh.
On the other hand, that throws the conversation that Kaitlyn and Dylan have on the way to the scrapyard into a different perspective.
Gotta say...I'm a little bit soured on The Quarry now. Just because of one dialogue option lol.
I'm not sure if I want to hold on to all the established relationship stuff in the first 7 chapters and pretend that conversation never happened or accept that the pairing isn't going to happen? I think I'm bitter because I thought I was being handed a nice queer relationship but instead it's something that isn't well defined and "up to interpretation" and it makes me tired. Im not naive enough to think that every single interaction or flirtation needs to lead to something down the road and that this is a horror game but still. Stop being cowards, give us a gay relationship where they walk off into the sunrise together.
#love how i was like I'm not going down that road with the maybe neither line#and now im there and back again like fuckin Bilbo Baggins#the quarry#radioheads#ryan erzahler#dylan lenivy
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AITA for snapping at my brother for taking his iPad to the bathroom? (I don’t think this is unsanitary despite the subject matter but idk)
Sorry for the long post !
Context: There are three bathrooms in our house. One downstairs, one upstairs and one ensuit in our parents room that neither of us use. He is mid to early teens and autistic, I am late teens and (as much as I know) neurotypical. I don’t know if this impacts anything, but i also don’t know much about autism. I don’t *think* it does but mum keeps letting him get away with this because of his diagnosis so it feels important to include.
Everytime he uses the upstairs toilet he brings his iPad with him and his headphones. He sits in there and watches YouTube and it takes him half an hour every time.
I only use the upstairs toilet because the downstairs one grosses me out to the extreme for reasons I don’t want to get into, (I honestly think it’s becoming phobic, I won’t walk past it if the door is open or even breathe if I’m near it,) but this issue is isolated to me and everyone else is fine with it. He is fine with using both. He also knows I only use the upstairs toilet.
He says he gets bored so he has to have his iPad when he goes. Yes, every single time, he gets bored and needs his iPad with him. I find this ridiculous, and ironic. Now instead of taking maybe five minutes he takes half an hour. I ask him again and again and again not to take his iPad in because it’s insensitive to if I might want to use the bathroom, but he doesn’t change.
We have had this same conversation over and over again, like, over twelve or eighteen months, and he keeps promising that he’ll change and then he doesn’t. It makes me upset how content he is to continue even knowing very well how it upsets me.
We had a really big fight about it awhile ago and mum suggested he try not to use the iPad when he thought I wasn’t likely to need to go to the bathroom, because that’s apparently as much as he can bear to do. He said he’ll try to use the downstairs toilet instead and because my dad uses that toilet he’s been getting in trouble with him for the exact same reason.
Sometimes when I knock on the door I’ll ask “do you have your iPad” and he’ll say no but when he comes out he does. He doesn’t have any qualms about lying to me and about breaking the same promise he makes over and over. It’s like he doesn’t care what I think at all and like he doesn’t view my problems as valuable. It’s literally the only thing I ask of him.
AITA: Today, he lied to me again. I knocked on the door and told him to hurry up and he said ok and I asked if he had his iPad in with him and he went strangely quiet and then said I’m coming out. when he came out he didn’t have his iPad so I thanked him because I finally felt he was listening to me, but he was lingering weirdly by the door. I HATE warm toilet seat so I gave it awhile and he went downstairs. He happened to come up while I was about to go in and he looked at me strange and I said “what? Why are you staring at me?” And he said no reason but I pressed it and he said “can I check the bin?”
In the bathroom we have a small bin that just got emptied today. He told me he had taken his iPad in there and had hidden it in the bin. I was peeved he had lied to me again and also that he had no problem with taking my thanks. If I hadn’t caught him trying to get it back he never would have told me.
So I said no and when I was finished I kind of snapped and told him I thought he was becoming a “nasty, selfish person.” It’s the only thing I ask of him and Im so tired of it. I felt especially upset the extent he would lie to me so easily. It seems like nothing gets through to him, and it’s like, I can’t help feeling he is a nasty selfish person!! I probably would have said more and said worse if dad hadn’t caught on to what we were talking about. Upon reflection I feel like I shouldn’t have said those things to him and I was being too harsh.
My brother apologized but I’m so sick of it and even after all this he said he would use the downstairs bathroom. It feels like he’s not making any effort to actually change the behaviour and he’s avoiding confronting it. I’m so tired of all of this.
AITA? I really don’t know what to do, but I feel like I’m being too mean about it.
Tldr: my brother always takes his iPad to the bathroom even though I ask him not to and he takes way too long on the toilet (up to half an hour) each time. This has been going on for months upon months and he’s showing no change even though he keeps apologizing and promising he will. Today, he lied and said he hadn’t and I thanked him because I felt he was finally listening but he had hidden his iPad in the bin. I snapped and said he was a “nasty selfish person” but I think I was being too mean.
What are these acronyms?
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Magnifico Backstory/Angst
so the poll came in and a lot of you guys wanted that Magnifico Angst.
And after procastinating, I got part one done. I'm going to break it up into 2 or 3 parts, since I am still writing it out. But I wanted to show you guys what I got so far.
Im not going to say anything on the context. That is something you have to figure out for yourself. But some things you should know, is that his real name is Magnus. "Magnifico", or the name "The Great Magnifico" is the name given to him by the people. I'm not saying for what, that is something for you guys to figure out for yourself. However, the clues will be laid out for you :3
Plus, it is not gonna be written how it would be in a movie. It is simply going to be written like a book.
Anyways, here you guys go! I hope you guys enjoy it 💕
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Author's notes:
There will be mentions of death and missing body parts in the next following parts. I advise you to please walk away if anything that grosses or disturbs you. This story is taking in the horror aspects, although subtle, will be present within these parts.
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It's your fault. It's your fault. They're all dead. And it's all your fault.
Magnus felt a rush of pain swell from his body as he opened his eyes. He groaned in response, feeling like he was getting eaten alive by a pack of snakes, being burned alive, and drowning in the ocean all at the same time. Sure, he had gotten hurt before, but this was different.
Magnus' ears rang with noise, making him light headed. He tried to touch his face, only to be met with the same feeling he felt when he woke up, so he stopped his pursuit, grunting at the pain.
His vision was all blurry, only making out the details of the tent he was in. Magnus laid there blinking a few times so his vision can clear up. He stared into the tent, recollecting himself.
Magnus tried to think back on how he got here, or what even happened to him, but his memory was blank. Sure, he had literally just woke up, but he couldn't shake this awful feeling in his chest. Something bad happened, and he couldn't remember what it was. Magnus sat up, even though he clearly is not in the correct state to do so, he did it anyway. Just to see if there were any clues to what happened and how he got there. It would at least put his mind at ease...hopefully.
He first decided to examine his condition. He knew his face was banged up, given the pain he felt when he tried to even touch it. He looked at his arm, which normally would have a sleeve pulled over it, was now scorched off, and replaced with burn marks instead. He had bandages wrapped around his stomach, but he knew better not to take it off. Magnus began to wonder if whatever happened to him, was something he was fighting. And whatever it was, he couldn't beat it. It sent a shiver down his spine. No, he had to. Maybe they both got the best of each other...right? Magnus tried to shake the awful feeling he is having by examining the tent, hoping to get better clues.
He noticed a lantern overhanging him, with moths and other insects buzzing around it. It made Magus annoyed by the noise they made. He wanted to eject some magic to blast those insects into the nether regions, but he was just too tired to do so, and he knew he would only worsen his condition. So he didnt. He saw creates of recipes (which he can assume belonged to his wife, Amaya) sat beside him, unorganized and scattered. Magnus knew his wife was more of the organizer in comparison to him, she wasnt the messy type. From the way the scattered materials were on the ground, it was almost like she was in a rush...but why? There was other belongings that he didnt really notice at first, but he later realized it was his books and journals he got when he, Amaya, and a group of travelers were off adevturing, looking for the perfect place to call home (and also doing some monster hunting along side it. How else were they gonna get food on the table?). But they were also amongst the ground of scattered materials. He leaned over and grabbed one of the open books that caught his attention, and looked at the cover: "The untold magic of Stars".
Ah he remembered that book! He found it when a robber tried to steal supplies from his group years ago. He failed of course, and ran off into the fairies coven before Magnus could stop the robber. They dropped that book in the process. Magnus always wondered why the robber needed it or if he even survived the fairies coven (Yes, fairies are not very nice unlike the Pixie Hollows series from disney. They're like the complete opposite of them). The book was very interesting indeed. It was written by someone who had made contact with the stars and was able to explore their powers, with the Star's help. Of course, he didn't know if it was ever true or not. He heard this book was not very popular with other wizards like him. From what he remembered when he read it, stars can move mountains, create things out of thin air, and shape-shift into various creatures! Can be ones that exist, or ones that never did. It was super interesting, but then it started talking about how there is another realm and how the Star came to his world, and well...it lost him at that part. But why was Amaya looking through it? It didn't make sense. She was more of a alchemist. She doesn't really read his books, unless she needs it for an experiment with a new recipe. He picked up a few more open books, and looked at the covers. A lot of them were from astronomers, which was still odd to him. The others were just recipies for healing wounds, which really concerned him.
As he started thinking about the worst possible ways of why Amaya would have these books open, he stopped when he heard voices outside. He looked up to see a moving light through the tent, which he can assume was either a lanturn or a torch. They still continued talking as they passed his tent. He couldn't make out what they were saying, they were speaking in more hushed up voices after all, but he heard one heard that made his heart skip a beat. "Amaya".
His wife's name echoed through his head like a drum, it felt like he was going to pass out. Amaya. This whole time he was just trying to figure out what happened to him, but didnt even consider if his wife was even okay. And given his condition, Magnus assumed the worst. He cursed angrily at himself as he quickly laid down the books, and got up from the ground...before he landed flat on his face. And overflow of pain wept through his stomach, like nothing he ever felt before. He couldn't really describe what it felt like, probably the closest thing to it is when he fought a dragon. But he didn't have time to think about it. His mind was just overwhelmed with worry about Amaya. Magnus need to know that she was okay. Or....if she is even alive. He slowly got off the ground, laying his hand on on of the crates to help him get up. Great. He could barely walk. But it just brought more questions into his head that he didn't have time to think about. He looked around to see if there was anything that would help him walk a bit easier, but he didn't see anything that would help. He sighed in annoyance before he limped out the tent.
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Closing Notes
Yeah thats a lot wasn't it?
This part was pretty short but alas, I think I got what I wanted from what I made.
My main goal was to present this as if it was a mystery. And I know you probably have some questions, but I assure you, those questions are supposed to be there and it is okay to ask them. Not only that, I personally do like describing things when I am up to the task of doing so. The old draft is a lot faster and not clear on what I wanted, so I decided to put more description into it and it helped. When you're telling through a perspective, think about how they might be feeling, thinking, or what their surroundings are. It pulls people in and makes them feel intrigued. There are so many ways to write stories, I'm just the few who does it because I'm either bored or...yeah just bored.
Going back to Magnus here, you guys are probably shocked. Didn't I say his name was Magnifico? Yes I did, but drafts changes and so do thoughts. The name "Magnifico" sounded something people would dub someone when they accomplish something (if you look at it possitively. The most common of these is bullies name calling someone based on how they look or something they did). I decided his full label should be "The Great Magnifico". What makes him so great? Well, from what you read so far, what do you think?
I want people to be thinking about what they read. Sure, you don't have too, but it is fun thinking about something you love doing, and questioning your own characters. My oc, Axe, for example, was a character I really like, but after getting perspectives from how my friends presive him (aside of all the jokes we make of him), it makes me think differently about him, and realize I can do more with his character.
All and all, writing is something that is fun to do. Although I'm not the best at writing, I sort of notice that the pacing felt a bit rushed in this one, I'm pretty satisfied with what I wrote :3
Anyways, good day Rosas, Imma be back for you
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#disney wish#art#wish 2023#art tag#artwork#the kingdom of roses and thorns#king magnifico#magnfico#angst#artists on tumblr#writers on tumblr#lore#asha actually scared me I almost through her out the window once
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Intro: No one truly knows what happened that night in Woodsboro, California. All the public knows was that two teenage boys, Billy Loomis and Stu Macher, went crazy. That the boys killed with no motive, that it was a case of crazy and peer pressure. Sidney Prescott, the "girlfriend" of Billy Loomis,Y/n L/n, the girl both boys were deeply obsessed with, and Gale weathers, a news reporter, where 3 of 5 witnesses that were willing to talk and tell their sides of the story to the public while Dewy Riley, the deputy sheriff of woodsboro, and tennager Randy Meeks refused to talk to law enforcements at the time. All the stories told to law enforcement seem to differ from person to person, but...in this tale, we will focus on Y/n, the obsessions, side of the story...
Marked (poly Billy Loomis and Stu macher x reader)
Word count:1001
Chapter 24- I promise
^^^3rd person P.O.V^^^
Half an hour had passed, time seem to fly by now that Y/n was out of the station.
Instead of being at the station, sitting on the barely cushioned seats, with her nails digging into the wood, she was at Randy's house, curled up next to him on his bed.
Randy had his arms around her body, his fingers gently running through her hair as she laid with her head on his chest. Neither of them spoke, the only noise that buzzed around was the TV playing, their own soft breathing and the mummer of Randy's parents talking in the background.
Y/n knew for a fact that Randy's parents were talking about her. She felt slightly bad for being brought here even though she felt overly safe around Randy, she just felt more and more like a burden, but where else could she go?
Her house wasn't a place she even wanted to go back to, she couldn't go to Dewey's house due to him not being there, and she didn't trust anyone else enough to even try to ask them if she could stay, so all she had was Randy.
Y/n looked up at Randy. "Im sorry" she whispered softly as she looked at him. Randy looked down at her, his brows knitted together in confusion. "What? Why? There's no need to be sorry" he said his voice low and soft as he looked into her e/c eyes.
"Yes there is" Y/n said as she sat up. "I'm nothing but a burden at this point. Hell I bet your parents are tired of seeing you run to my side or tired of seeing me come over and I bet your tired of it too I-" before she could continue speaking Randy sat up and gently cupped her cheeks with his hands.
"Hey hey no that's not true." "Yes it is" Her voice was shakey as her eyes filled with tears again. "No it's not I'm nllot tired of being by your side or helping you" Randy said softly.
"But I always need someone around...you shouldn't want to be around me you don't have to lie to me...why would you even want to be....with me?" She said as tears rolled down her face.
Her words broke Randy's heart slightly. "I do wanna be around you Y/n I always do. I don't care about anything else but helping you feel at least a little happy. And why wouldn't I wanna be with you?" He said softly as he wiped away her tears with his thumbs. As Randy spoke he saw Y/n lean into his touch ever so slightly.
"Becuase of what ...h...happened to me" she choked out as she looked away from him. She thought Randy wouldn't want to be with her after what happens...in her mind she was... disgusting...gross....dirty... why would anyone ever want to be with someone after seeing them how she was found, who would want to be with someone who was marked by the people that took her against her will? In her mind..her being loved seemed...impossible..
Randy let out a shakey breath as he looked at her. He felt bad for her, if he could take away her pain he would in a heartbeat just to see her smile again instead of being full of fear.
Randy kept his hands on her face still gently running his thumbs over the tear stained skin of her cheek.
"What happened to you doesn't change how I feel about you..I promise you that. I don't think anything could change my love for you. I don't care about anything but you and how you feel. Hell if I could I'd take away your pain. Your all that matters. Yes something bad happened to you but your still the girl I fell in love with..your still you" his voice was gentle and soft as he spoke he felt his heart ache seeing her so sad and doubting his love for her.
She didn't speak after he did, she just looked up at him. Her breathing was shakey and uneven and her body was trembling ever so slightly.
"I'm in love with you and nothing will ever ever change that" he said as he moved one hand from her face and tucked a strand of her h/l h/c hair behind her ear.
"Can I kiss you?" Randy asked, his voice dropping to a whisper. He watched Y/ns movements closely and saw her nod her head. Randy felt a small smile pull at the corner of his lips as he leaned forward and pressed his lips against hers softly.
Y/n felt herself leaning closer to him, the feeling of his lips on her almost was enough to make her stop doubting the fact that he loved her.
The kiss lasted no longer than 10 seconds but those 10 seconds made Randy's heart flutter in his chest.
When they pulled away from each other Randy ended up planting a kiss on her cheek as he moves his hands down go her shoulders. "I love you so much" he whispered in her ear before moving back slightly and looking at her.
A small smile tugged at her lips. "I love you too" she whispered. A smile erupted onto his face. "Is that a smile I see?" He said playfully, he felt...happy to see her smile, even if it wasn't a full on smile it was enough to make him feel happiness rush through his body.
"Maybe" she whispers as she moved closer to Randy, and laid her head onto his chest.
Randy was still smiling as he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her closer to him to the point she was practically in his lap.
Regardless of what happens Randy knew that he would always love Y/n..
(HI IM WRITING DURING CLASS BUT HOPE YALL LIKE IT :) )
#billy loomis#stu macher#stu macher x reader#randy meeks x reader#billy loomis x reader#scream#billy loomis and stu macher x reader#randy meeks#casey becker#ghostface
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I can’t believe you feel confident enough to put pictures of your face on here let alone your body lol!! I guess good for you for looking the way you do and still putting yourself out there!! If I were you I don’t think I could even have mirrors inside of my house!! 🥴
I guess being a pathetic attention seeking whore and being not remotely attractive can go hand in hand!!
okayyyyyyy. so i woke up to about a dozen of these types of asks and this one is maybe the tamest. i am honestly unsure of who this could be or if there’s more than one anon sending them. i also have no idea what i did to receive these or who i may have interacted with or who you think i may have interacted with that made you decide to send me hateful and hurtful asks.
trust me when i say you do not need to tell me that i am unattractive or that i look gross or fat or that im repulsive or that i am old and embarrassing myself. you don’t. anything you say i have said worse to myself for countless years.
however with everything that has happened in the world this week i really don’t have the bandwidth to deal with receiving these types of interactions. i honestly just don’t have it in me.
my asks will be turned off for now and i will not be responding to any DMs currently. i’m really tired and i’m really drained and maybe any other week I wouldn’t allow this to sit inside of me and be clawing away at me on the inside but i don’t have it in me right now. i am already sad and i am already hurting and i am going to be taking a little break.
i haven’t received negativity on here through the asks since maybe 2013-2015. i also usually never acknowledge when someone is being negative to me and i do not engage which is normally what i would have done but today i don’t have it in me to ignore it.
if you are reading this do not do this to other people it is so weird and rude and i can’t imagine it makes you feel good/better except maybe a total of 2 minutes from that rush where you just hit submit. also just unfollow or block or don’t go looking at my blog or other people who cause the reaction of wanting to send these types of messages. i also know you don’t care and won’t listen but truly me or this blog is not worth anyone’s time let alone worth you doing this type of behavior.
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tmi warning u have been warned tmi
trying not to post about it but i feel like im slowly losing it ive been bleeding since jan 30 and its not stopping i cant get up and walk around for more than a few minutes ive had to cancel my therapy appointment i havent been able to leave the house bec theres just no way to do it theres nothing my parents or i can do until i go to the doctor on thursday and every day i think about going to the emergency room or urgent care because why the fuck is my period lasting almost 4 weeks but i dont want to be turned away or mocked for taking it seriously or just told "lose weight" bec i did look it up and obesity is 1 of the causes of v long periods apparently but im just so freaked out and havent been sleeping regularly its affecting my day to day and i do things on the pc and talk to friends (i love u heath and nina forever and ever) which helps stay sane but im just so. scared and angry and im TIRED of it like this isnt normal its never been nearly this long i just. want to see my doctor and for them to fix it so i never have to do this again. almost an entire month straight of not just bleeding but not being able to leave the house and do stuff bec of it + the extent of it. argh.
still been online just sporadically on tumblr but idk i just. posting about it is gross and tmi but i needed to post about it twice at least yk?
anyway i love u all i hope the coming of march treats u well <3
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Snippet Sunday
tagged by @playinginthunderstorms LAST Sunday & I'm doing it this Sunday so that I can tag her back
This is from a new WIP (all my other WIPs look at me in betrayal) that's a queer English teacher AU (inspired by THISSS obviously) wherein both Eddie and Buck teach in the same English department.
In other words, the queer English teacher (me) is writing the [checks notes] queer English teacher AU. That tracks.
title: the tortured poets department
Premise (because I am terrified people won't get what I'm doing in this snippet): Buck and Eddie's shared students (one of whom is Ravi) ship them in a group chat. There are obviously some OCs here, but the fic is Buddie focused (because duh??).
Ravi: [sent 10:03 to ttpd] so what do we think the story behind Jones getting the axe is [10:04] I’m accepting bets in the form of cash or venmo - no bearbucks, Donato, you still owe me from being right about Dr. Mr. Davis divorcing Dr. Mrs. Davis in favor of that TA.
Lucy: [sent 10:04] ykw ravi the bet clearly stated that dr mr would divorce dr mrs before midterm and that didn’t happen, so i feel like the bearbucks were a good compromise for you changing the parameters last minute
Ravi: [sent 10:04] and i feel like if ur broke u could just say that [10:05] also does anyone else have the tesol soci class with the new prof later? Think his name is Diaz. he sounds like a hottie. [sent 10:05] Besdies askldfiuyghkl;aWER
Sam: [sent 10:06] ravi? [sent 10:06] you good?
Theo: [sent 10:06] Ravi?
Ella: [sent 10:06] shit did ravi get raptured
Callie: [sent 10:07] ella for the last time that’s not an actual thing
Ella: [sent 10:07] i was being funny its called having a sense of humor something you would know nothing about you gross bitch
Callie: [sent 10:08] he’s indian, ella, he wouldnt get raptured anyway
Ella:[sent 10:08] at least i have a sense of humor and im not a racist [sent 10:09] i am so totally getting raptured
Lucy: [sent 10:11] buck got ravi he’s fkn pissed today good luck to whoever has his oe sem later [sent 10:11] usually hes not this much of a tightass abt phones but he saw ravi texting and yelled something about being tired of being taken advantage of and that he can be cool and fun too but he can also be very serious [sent 10:12] ravi jumped like a foot in the air and put his phone away [sent 10:12] srsly havent seen him this be much of an ass since nash told him he had to pick one club to sponsor and let other faculty sponsor the rest
Lena: [sent 10:13] luce r u risking ur life texting us updates [sent 10:13] ur so brave and sexy
Taylor: [sent 10:14] I bet I could get him calmed down before oe sem [sent 10:14] ;)
Ella: [sent 10:14] he has a boyfriend Taylor
Lena: [sent 10:14] hes taken taylor
Lucy: [sent 10:14] he’s mentioned his boyfriend at least 3x this lecture alone, taylor
Callie: [sent 10:14] don’t be homophobic Taylor
Sam: [sent 10:15] guys if my phone buzzes one more time, the other buckley is going to make me leave and she’s covering pharm do you know how hard pharm is
Ella:[sent 10:15] ravi will help u get caught up in pharm, sam, dw!
Theo: [sent 10:17] you can calm me down before OE Sem, Taylor ;)
Lucy: [sent 10:18] theo if u dont quit bein horny on main im going to report you to oaa
Theo [sent 10:18]: oh so it’s fine if Lena flirts with you, but I can’t shoot my shot with Taylor?
Lena: [sent 10:19]: obviously
Callie [sent 10:19]: theo bro GET UP
Sam:[sent 10:27] stop shipping me with ravi
want more?
no pressure tags: @playinginthunderstorms @dracculaura @distractionpie & anyone else who wants to play!
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im back!!!!!
i still want that hero and a sleepy reader that can’t go to sleep!!
HERO WITH A SLEEP READER THAT CAN’T GO TO SLEEP
HELL YEAH!!!!!! hope u enjoy >:)
HERO
HERO is genuinely concerned for you, because it’s almost midnight and you can’t sleep despite being.. sleepy? that’s odd
he did have some days in college where he couldn’t really sleep either, so he understands! but he does want you to get some rest and is willing to make sure you do!
he’s studying to become a doctor, so he asks you a bunch of questions regarding your lack of sleep.
have you tried simply laying and closing your eyes? have you recently had any poor napping habits? have you had any coffee or anything that includes caffeine? do you perhaps have insomnia? his questions are endless!
he’s willing to stay up just so you could fall asleep peacefully, that’s how perfect of a man he is!
the least HERO could do for as of right now was feed you some medicine that helps with sleep
although you at first denied it, HERO insisted that you drank it so that you’ll finally be able to sleep, or at least try to
HERO holds up the spoon which contained a spoonful of the medicine. it was a bit embarrassing for him to feed you the medicine, he didn’t really mind one but.
but.. the medicine looked very gross as most of them do. you refused to drink it, but HERO kept insisting
he was very determined to get you to sleep, but you were very determined to not drink that medicine.
"come on, [READER], staying up too late is seriously bad for your health. the medicine doesn’t taste gross at all, i promise!" HERO said with a hint of worry in his voice, bringing the spoon closer to your mouth. "no— the medicine definitely tastes gross, HERO! it looks gross, so it probably tastes gross." you argued back, as HERO lets out a little sigh of annoyance.
"even if it does, it’ll be one little spoonful of it.. that’s all! i promise the bitter taste will go away after a while." HERO continued being determined for you to take the medicine. it was simple, drink it.. that’s all! but you were still stubborn. so after a moment of thinking, you suddenly got up from your bed and dashed out the room in a hurry. you heard HERO call out your name in a worried and panicked tone.
moments later, you heard other footsteps, signaling that HERO would chasing you. still stubborn, you kept running around the house as HERO chased you. it was like a game of cat and mouse. HERO was slightly lacking in physical fitness unlike his younger brother, so he begged you to stop running as he got even more tired. "[READER], [READER] i—" HERO tried to say a full sentence but was trying to catch his breath. "[READER] please slow down you— you know how much i hate exercise..!"
after a while, you finally felt exhausted enough to slowly stop running. catching your breath, HERO puts a hand on your shoulder, also trying to catch his own brother. "i— i finally..! oh jeez, i’m so exhausted..— i finally caught you though!" HERO said with a charming smile, despite looking absolutely exhausted from all the running he did with you.
as a punishment from being caught, you had to drink the medicine.
it was definitely gross, you weren’t lying at all, but HERO gave you a water bottle to wash it all down and to slightly lose the bitter taste in your tongue
HERO genuinely hopes that you’ll finally be able to sleep, especially since you both ran around the house and you just drank medicine to help you sleep, because he feels like he definitely needs to pass out right then and there
once you show signs that you’re finally exhausted and ready to sleep, HERO is finally satisfied!
he then tucks you in like the sweet gentleman he is and asks you if you want anything before you decide to finally rest
he’ll get it quickly, but if it’s cooking you want, then he’ll have to say no this time. he’s really tired to cook anything in the middle of the night
when you finally fall asleep, HERO sighs in total relief. he was SO not prepared to have an all-nighter with you
he then goes to lay down on his own bed, staring at you for a few seconds. not in a creepy way of course, but checking if you’re really asleep
he then looked back at the ceiling with a weak smile across of face, tucking himself in before closing his eyes
he was definitely satisfied. HERO then whispered a, "good night, [READER].." before finally getting that well deserved rest.
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i feel bad for wanting a different life then i do now because my appartment is stable
i do have a bed to sleep on but i cant help but feel like i never truely had my own space because i never had my own bedroom and i always slept with someone else either next to me or anything, my sister has to take calls and lectures and i have to stay quiet, i want my own desk so badly because only laying on a bed has made me drastically lazy and such, i cant even cry in peace and i have to stop stimming when my sisters friends are over when i dont want to see them
i have a full fridge but its packed TOO much, we have abunch of meat in there that gets forgotten quickly, alot of food that only my parents eat, hell the kitchen itself it so horrid by other families standards, the moment you walk in you already see a overfilled bag of trash and counters that have not been cleaned in months, me and my sister had emptied and cleaned the fridge this easter break and the moment mom and dad got home it got cluttered again, the table we use to just place food is also a mess and we leave fruits and vaggies on it causing them to spoil more quickly
my mom keeps alot of soaps, papers, bags - she doesnt even go shoping, she doesnt want us to use the special soaps she gives away (which is a full closet to clarify) and got mad at my sister when she cleaned the bathroom and used one of those, there isnt enough space to walk, and we use only 6 bags at maximum
i dont know HOW to clean, at most we vacume but thats it, with all the stuff we have laying around its hard and i dont know which spray bottle to use for which products, i dont even know how to use a washing machine or how to mop a floor, theyre both very lazy (and i dont blame them both, theyre really tired all the time and my mom sleeps most of the day) and my mom would freak out if we shower more then 2 people a day because of this really musty dirty plastic bathtub we have that she collects water with so i shower once a week, i know how gross it is i feel bad but its not as bad as my grandmas house which is very moldy and its atleast bareable to invite people in
i never got to dress myself in the morning, my parents always wake me up and brush my hair (my mom always tells me my hair is oily or not brushed well even though everyone else tells me i do a great job) and they just argue about mundane stuff and i just want peace and quiet at 6 am - they always nag me about homework and studying and due to complicated neurodivergent stuff in my head i freeze and i cant seem to find anything i want to do untill its really late and im tried by that time i wish i could just do everything at the same time but i cant, and i cant talk about it to them, but aside from being boring to listen to they care about me unlike alotof other parents who probably wouldnt have bothered despite me not needing alot of support
i wish i had a small house and not an apartment, my stimming usually involves running around and with a small apartment 1) there will be always someone in a room and i dont like anyone else seeing me 2) the neighbors below, by some luck who havent sued us yet, probably dont apprechiate it, btu i have a place to live in
i already have a stable apartment and i shouldnt be complaining at all, i dont know why but i sometimes wonder how it would be like to live in the average family american TV seems to show
maybe my life will turn around once i have my own apartment / house, hopefully by then i will have learnt a thing about cleaning or two
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