#I just made this painful for myself

[arcanegifs]

ARCANE: LEAGUE OF LEGENDS (2021-2024) ↳ “Is there anything so undoing as a daughter?”

[iron-sparrow]

no more lies no more lies no more lies no more lies no more lies no more lies

[melioristicbeast]

My Name is Derek Hale page 05 - in which Stiles muses on the unfairness of Bathroom Dude's presumably Bunyip-free life and I get overly excited over the flannel shirt finally making an appearance.

This one took a while to finish so next page will most likely be up on the 31st (sticking to updates on saturdays)!

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Original story on Ao3 by @isthatbloodonhisshirt

[anjelia3]

"Buffy? What's going on? Where are we? I- I don't remember."

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

“hold on to your heart” // do me a favour live at forest hills stadium new york 08/09/23 ♡

[gomzdrawfr]

Things I've said (out loud and in my head) when I'm wearing dem fuckass contact lenses:

GET IT IN!!!! WHY WON'T YOU GO IN?! STOP SLIPPING OUT!!! MTF STOP BENDING!!! GO IN!!!

oh my god why do you keep sticking to my finger

oh oh it's IN *blinks* *it slips out* FUCKKKKKKK

*eyes tearing up and my eyelid hurts* look at you, pathetic

*angry deep breath and then calm*

*watch another video tutorial, from youtube then xhs back to youtube* what do you mean you can show all your whites my eyes aren't 20% your size

*another deep breath* okay it's literally a piece of jelly thing it's not spikes it's not even going to explode why are you panicking? why are you running? JUST DO IT. PUT IT IN. LET IT IN.

think about Price and Ghost kissing think about Price and Ghost kissing think about Price and Ghost kissing think about Price and Ghost kissing think about Price and Ghost kissing think about Price and Ghost kissing think about Price and Ghost kissing—*slips in* OH MY GOD IT WORKED

*stares at the mirror in amazement while smiling like an idiot*

*immediately dread at the second eye* oh my god here we fucking go again why oh my days

*realize I can't pull the other eyelid up as much as the first eye* oh my fucking- is this really it-

*deep breath again* *stares dead ahead in the mirror* imagine Price beside me right now he's going to be extremely disappointed if I can't even do something as simple as putting a flimsy piece of lens into my eyes

*slips in* LETS GO woah this is weir-AAAAAAAAAAAAA it burns IT BURNS WHY DOES IT BURN SHOULD I TAKE IT OUT *rapid blinking* no wait hold on woah the mirror is clear wait i can read the barcode of my toothpaste WOAH

*stares at the mirror for god knows how long* are my eyes bigger?

*goes out while wearing them* everything is clear *blinks* okay everything is not clear *blinks* okay it's clear again why does this feel like im going 1080p to 720p with a shitty wifi?

I can feel them. Don't think about it don't think about it don't think about it don't think about it don't think about it

The very ends of both my eyes are blurry, should I be concerned

I feel very naked (never realized how much I rely on my glasses to cover areas around my eyes)

*does the push glasses up thing forgetting I'm not wearing my glasses* I'm a clown

*stares at reflection* oh shit- that is me? oh woah that is me

Is it obvious I'm wearing them? why is everyone staring at me- did it moved? did the lens move and now I look like an idiot? (proceeds to overthink and be self-conscious, the lens did not move at all)

*reads up more info about contact lenses and realize I didn't soak them in some liquid for 4 hours before wearing them* *starts thinking about the eye doctor again*

I am fine. This is fine. Look at me I look okay I look normal. I'm totally normal.

*looks at something far* woah I can read that! (could do the same thing with my specs but for some reason is fascinated)

friend: "do you feel dryness or itchiness yet?" me: yet? you mean it's gonna happen??? (it has not happen)

*reads up more about contact lenses stuff and getting confused at the amount of liquids brand out there*

*goes home and stare at the mirror again*

Overall 6/10 experience, I would try to wear them again (for now)

Things I've said (out loud and in my head) when I'm trying to take out dem fuckass contact lenses:

oh my god I can't take it out

*watch another 4-8 tutorial videos again*

what do you mean I need to touch it and pinch it out. What- WHAT I NEED TO PINCH IT??? I'M NOT TOUCHING MY EYE LIKE THAT-

what do you mean you can blink it out.

*tries to blink it out and it didnt work and feel like my eyeballs are about to fall out*

*felt like crying but force myself not to because Idk if you should do that when you're wearing lenses*

*tries another 3-4 times and failing*

*sits down on the toilet tile and think about which eye doctor I need to contact and which hospital I can go by train, reciting the emergency number a few times*

*opens socmed to distract myself*

no no fuck you you're overthinking again calm da fak down it's A PIECE. OF. JELLY THINGY.

get up. do the thing. do it scared.

*silently screaming as my index finger slowly reaches for my eyes* I CANT DO THIS

BUT I'M GONNA *touches eye* OH MY DAYS I HATE IT *force myself to slowly slide the contact lens even if it feels extremely uncomfortable*

*starts singing the national anthem FOR SOME REASON* TANAH TUMPAHNYA DARAHHHH KUUUU *finally slide it to the sclera and blinks it out*

*panting like I've ran a thousand miles staring at the folded lens* fuck yoUUUUUUUU *puts it away and looks at the mirror*

oh my god my eye is red, is that normal? should I be concerned? *checks eye*

*stares at the mirror dreading the second eye*

*repeat cycle above with just as much anxiety and stress*

*singing the national anthem did not work this time* *starts thinking about which eye doctor to see again*

*deep breath* listen. if you can take off this last piece. we can...w-we can have pudding, okay? (we don't have pudding, also there's no we it's only me)

*slowly reach for my eyes* *silently screaming*

*realize it doesn't feel as uncomfortable with the other eyes* oh *slowly sliding it to the side then blinks it out*

*it immediately falls to the ground* YEAH you stay down

*looks at mirror* okay this eye isn't red

ah fuck everything's 360p again where's my specs?

Overall 0/10 experience I'm not wearing them again (I still have one more set, I will in fact, wear them again)

[enrapture]

[spaceyjessa]

RepComm Rambles : The Beetle

Okay, so I have not been able to stop thinking about the beetle related scenes in either Hard Contact or Order 66 and that means everyone else has to feel my beetle related pain as well.

When I first read the scene of Darman with the Daywings I thought, like Etain, that they were a representation of the clones and particularly Darman's lifespan and future.

"I've never seen colors like it." "They hatch and take flight for a day, and they die by the evening, a brief and glorious…" "…They're amazing." ―RC-1136 and Etain Tur-Mukan

The scenes of him looking at the Daywings are what solidified him in my mind as probably one of the most important characters (to me) ever.

Then as we go through the books and we get to the next scene of him and his brothers racing the Beetles in the box, bored out of their minds in the desert, Darman's observation about them and how they even remind him of the Daywings on Qiilura shows that even he is thinking of them like himself. But then we get to this passage:

"They could fly just fine. Why did they never try to escape from the racetrack? Why did they keep buffeting their stupid little heads against the sides of the ammo crate when they could just look up and fly away?"

and me being hopelessly in love with this fictional book man thought for sure this was foreshadowing for him. It wasn't until I got through the rest of the book that I realized it was Etain.

There were so many chances for her to leave the Order, to stay with Kad, to live as a mother and a woman instead of a soldier and ascetic, but she was too caught up in the race.

Too caught up in the cause of defending the clones as a whole, still so ingrained in the Jedi way that she sacrificed herself for a stranger. I agree with Kina Ha that she really exemplified the best of the Jedi, that she fulfilled their traditions above and beyond many others.

But it doesn't change the fact that she was the Daywing all along.

"They hatch and take flight for a day, and they die by the evening, a brief and glorious…"

[juustozzi]

a dumping ground for some random quick doodles

[mirensiart]

I just wanna say that there's a lot of Hyrule potential for the pain sharing au

cause we could say fairy

but also blood curse angst potential :)

I need to admit that I've never played either zelda 1 nor zelda 2 so I'm at a lost when it comes to hyrule centric stuff 🙈

Like I have no idea if the whole part fairy/fairy transformation thing is canon or not, same thing with the blood curse lol

So I am trusting u all when it comes to this lol 🙈

If I go with the part fairy bit, I do think the potential pain for him could come from how it's said fairies are hurt by iron, and with so many items, weapons and shields going around them all, there sure is a lot of iron surrounding him lol

[cleopatragirlie]

Every single scene that includes fake Blixa and Nick from the 2015 movie Punk Berlin 1982 ♡

[littleguy-pi]

About my beautiful weed smoking girlfriends 🫅🏼🧟‍♂️👨🏻‍🔬

(The words are a little off sync but I tried my best ok don’t be mad)

[cali]

darkraiiiiii

[uncanny-tranny]

I think what might actually help the families of trans loved ones is to actually engage with where the trans person is at - especially if the family isn't quite understanding yet. When I came out, I was completely alone in figuring out my manhood. I had peers and I had exposed myself to so many trans people who explored gender, and while it was amazing, it isn't quite the same at times. I grieve quietly, sometimes, about all the missed opportunities that might have just made it easier for my family to have seen how utterly happy I was. It took them a very long time to actually notice that I was happy, especially once I got on testosterone. I'm lucky that they saw that happiness eventually, and slowly accepted it. My manhood is completely detached from their influence, both to my relief and chagrin. It's sad to me that I learned to shave from a kind online stranger, somebody who didn't even have a father and yet, I do. I have a father. I grieve at the loss of a potential shared experience. I grieve about the pain I went through when I was in that stage of transition, especially because it was raw and vulnerable. I grieve that many trans people today are traversing the path I had to, because it's sometimes lonely (even when you do have other forms of support).

It's hard to know that I will never have gotten my sense of being from my family. In many ways, it has severed a lot of connection with them because there were so many times that I was begging them to see happiness when they were focused on the idea that I was almost in a state of purgatory - flesh which felt warm but held no familiarity to them. I don't harbor ill-will toward them, I hope I don't leave the impression that I despise them. I understand what they felt, even if I can't conceptualize it myself. However, it's a raw wound in my heart, and I don't want to leave anybody else feeling that way, either.

[horridwizardthing]

more royal portraits be upon ye

Nacre Bolide belongs to @freezinglemur btw!!!

[simbleleven]

Nyon Nervous Specter's Current Concern: "Those Guys."

Handcrafting my own lore and making Nyon suffer experience Situations through the sole fact that he is the recently-moved-in Goths neighbor and subsequently has to deal with Alex's pestering, and because it's Alex, the other two are always there too. Suddenly, moving away to college doesn't seem all that intimidating anymore.