#I just have a lot of feelings about rupaul’s drag race and right now All of them are wanting Jan to know how fucking talented

[mousemarner]

Third day in a row of me crying over Jan Sport btw

Second day in a row of me fully crying real tears over Jan thee Sport the queen of my heart

[shiftingwithjaidyn]

🎞️ ⋮ writer/fame dr

★┊ BASICS .ᐟ

timeline:

this dr takes place around late august of 2022 due to the fact i intend to be part of one of the films i work on right from its beginning

locations:

los angeles, california (main)

vancouver, canada

new york, new york

san antonio, texas

london, england

notes:

i scripted out a lot of things that occur in this reality (due to the fact i scripted the timeline of everything somewhat similar)

some movies in my filmography are book adaptations that do not exist in this reality however exist in mine and most tv-shows in my filmography are cancelled shows in this reality so i decided to make them continued in my dr (just incase of some confusion hehe)

★┊ ABOUT ME .ᐟ

name: lilian maricel villaécija

nicknames: lily, lia, celia, mary/mari

gender & pronouns: demigirl || she/they

birthday: august 11th, 1980

height: 5’6”/167 cm

zodiac sign: leo

mbti: enfp

nationality & ethnicity: american || filipino-chinese

occupations:

screenwriter

script supervisor

production designer

director of photography

make-up artist

storyboard artist

aesthetic:

★┊ CAREER .ᐟ

movies:

center stage (2000)

in the mood for love (2000)

uptown girls (2003)

eternal sunshine of a spotless mind (2004)

pride & prejudice (2005)

the devil wears prada (2006)

black swan (2010)

if i stay (2014)

la la land (2016)

lady bird (2017)

the glass castle (2017)

to the bone (2017)

the greatest showman (2017)

oceans 8 (2018)

crazy rich asians (2018)

always be my maybe (2019)

little women (2019)

all the bright places (2020)

pieces of a woman (2020)

last night in soho (2021)

everything everywhere all at once (2022)

one last stop (2023) [film adaptation of the book by casey mcquinston]

tv shows:

grey's anatomy (s2-s13) || 2005-2016)

rupaul's drag race (s5-s14 || 2013-2022)

rupaul's drag race: all stars (s2-s5 || 2016-2020)

anne with an e (s1- || 2017-present/ongoing)

the marvelous mrs. maisel (s1-s5 || 2017-2023)

pose (s1-s3 || 2018-2021)

instinct (s1-s3) (2018-2023)

the umbrella academy (s1-s4 || 2019-2024)

the haunting of bly manor (s1 || 2020)

bridgerton (s1- || 2020-present/ongoing)

yellowjackets (s2- || 2023-present/ongoing)

★┊ RELATIONSHIPS .ᐟ

╰┈➤ FRIENDS

(i have a lot of friends due to the fact i've been in the industry for quite a while now, but these are just my closest)

trixie mattel

shea couleé

katya zamolodchikova

kate walsh

emmy raver-lampman

sandra oh

nicola coughlan

gemma chan

simone kessell

a huge special mention as well to @ixzotica a.k.a. aaliyah sinclair in my dr!! the one and only best friend, neighbor, sister, and platonic soulmate of mine in every single universe <3

╰┈➤ PET

name: mari-pusa (Mariposa)

nicknames: mari, choco butternut,

gender & pronouns: female || she/her

birthday: january 15

zodiac sign: capricorn

mbti: istj

breed: tortoiseshell

╰┈➤ S/O

gonna keep him a redacted for now as i am not yet comfortable sharing much about my dr but i just wanted to let u guys know he's an actor, he's a libra, and that he exists HSHJSHDSHKJHL

★┊ EXTRAS .ᐟ

links:

patter banner || gradient divider || star divider || heart divider

note:

feel free to ask me about this dr or any shifting related thing in general!! i'd really appreciate it! : ]

[freshsturns]

Chris smuttttttt

just what i needed.

- chris sturniolo x reader

a/n: ugh i’m so bad at writing i’m sorry this is horrible 😐 also such a random song but yk who cares..

warnings: smut, little swearing, pet names (baby), fingering.

summary: chris is having anxiety about work and you’re comforting him, something happens and so onnn… 😜

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me and chris are eating pizza we ordered about 20 mins ago at the dining table, until we hear a buzz come from chris’s phone. he picks up his phone seeing a text message from matt, the message reading “nick didn’t like the video we recorded yesterday he wants to re film it” chris sighs as he put his phone down taking a bite of his pepperoni pizza.

“what’s wrong baby?” i ask with a concerned look plastered on my face. he looks up from his plate giving me a pleading look. “i have to go film another video” he mumbles putting his pizza down and picking at his thumbs. i take my hand and place it on top of his interlocking our fingers as i ask “right now?”

“probably. let me check” chris takes his free hand and picks up the phone typing into matts chat. not long after he receives a message back “yes chris right now, hurry up and get to the garage”

“fuck sake..” i heard chris say under his breath standing up from the table and putting his shoes on. “it’s okay chris, go film il wait in your room for you” i say standing up after him placing my hand on his cheek and giving him a soft kiss and leaving the kitchen.

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as i watch rupauls drag race trying to get to where nick is, chris walks into his room hand on his chest and he shuts the door behind him and leans against it. i sit up from the bed pausing the tv “how was filming?” i smile. chris says nothing as he starts to pace around the room. “chris?” i say again thinking he didn’t hear me. “baby- i cant-” he begins being cut of by his breathing, “i cant- breathe-” he begins to panic.

chris has never had a panic attack before, i have them all the time. i know how to help after matt showed me how to calm them in elementary school, matt has them a lot too. “right chris i want you to listen to me,” i say calmly. i walk over to him taking his hand from his chest and walking him over to the edge of the bed “sit down for me.”

he sits at the edge of the bed looking up at me as he tries to catch his breath. i place his shaking hand on my chest “can you feel me breathe?” i ask him. “yes- baby- what’s happening” he says through breaths.

“just breath baby, feel how i breathe and copy,” i crouch down to look him in the eyes. he takes his hands and place them on my waist as he copy’s my breathing, inhaling and exhaling, inhaling and exhaling until his breathing slowly becomes more stable.

i sit down on his lap straddling him as he moves his hands under my shirt. “you okay?” i ask placing my hand on the back of his neck playing with his curls. he nods his head, “what was that, how did you know how to help?” he questions. “ a panic attack baby, i get them a lot. matt actually helped me when i had my first one” i say giving him a small smile and i move closer to his face brushing my lips against his.

chris hitches under me as he moves his hand further up my shirt and meets my boobs where he plays with my nipples. i re adjust myself on his lap making myself grind against him causing him to take a deep breath.

he takes his lips to mine and kisses me softly, his hands beginning to roam my body moving from my boobs to my waist to my thighs where he stops and squeezes. he deepens the kiss and slips his tongue into my mouth.

i moan into the kiss as i become eager for more, i grind my hips against his crotch making him groan at my actions. he pulls away from the kiss “so beautiful baby” he speaks hoarsely. he takes his hand off my thigh and unbuttons my jeans pulling them down and off my body, to which he throws them on the floor. taking his free hand he moves my thong to the side and he rubs his finger against my folds.

soft moans leave my mouth as he continues to rub me teasingly. “more” i whine. he nods at me slipping two fingers into me and begins pumping fast. my eyes roll to the back of my head as i put my head in the crook of his neck sucking on his skin.

as he pumps and curls his fingers inside of me all i can do is moan his name and grind his fingers while he watches me. “fuck” he mumbles as he hears my pretty sounds. curling his fingers and hitting the spot i loved most i begin to feel a knot in my stomach.

my walls tightened around his fingers as the knot gets more intense picking up his speed he continues to pump his fingers in and out. he takes his free hand and places it over my clit and begins rubbing in circles making my toes curl and head fall back.

after a while i release all over this fingers and his thighs moaning his name out load leaving a huge mess for us to clean up.

“that’s a good girl” chris says slowing down his pace as he kisses my forehead.

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requested by: @mattybswife sorry it took me a while to write this 😣

[ghostmemesource]

👻୧‿︵‿︵ rupaul's drag race sentence starters

these are quotes taken from seasons 11-15 of rupaul's drag race. send in one of the prompts below for my muse’s response. please change pronouns where you see fit. remember to specify muse if you're sending it to a multi muse.

RuPaul's Drag Race Season 15 Quotes ❝ Bad bitchery is as bad bitchery does. ❞

❝ Ain't no rest for this bitchface. ❞

❝ All that's left for to win is the crown. ❞

❝ Shady, hairy, and a thief. ❞

❝ I'm happy for you because I feel like you're finally entering your bitch era. ❞

❝ It's the grunting for me. ❞

❝ Oh, you gonna show your disco stick? ❞

❝ Feel how you feel, baby. Let it out! ❞

❝ This is gonna be fun! Should I sabotage somebody? Should I?! ❞

❝ I said what I said! ❞

❝ It's a new day of me being crazy. ❞

❝ I live for the couple's therapy right now. ❞

❝ Rest in peace to my hairline. ❞

RuPaul's Drag Race Season 14 Quotes ❝ You not gonna slap me, are you? ❞

❝ The last time someone handed me a key, it had white powder on the end of it. ❞

❝ It's chocolate. ❞

❝ I gave you a call, and guess who didn't fucking answer? You! ❞

❝ I need a diaper. ❞

❝ It's okay to be wrong sometimes. ❞

❝ I think I've established that compromise is for losers. ❞

❝ This is like the most hellish ASMR you've heard of. ❞

❝ She enjoys long walks on the freeway and coffee enemas. ❞

❝ I need to fucking retire, is what I need to do. ❞

❝ Emote! Through your face, not your ass. ❞

❝ Any hole is a goal. ❞

❝ Can you bend those legs behind your head? ❞

RuPaul's Drag Race Season 13 Quotes ❝ Well, you’re gonna discover I can rap! ❞

❝ As much as I love these bitches, athletes don’t go to the Olympics to make friendship bracelets. I’m ready to take these bitches down. Love them so much. ❞

❝ If you glue your lips, doesn’t it look like I’m a Jenner now? ❞

❝ When you put beautiful men in front of me, everything goes out the window. ❞

❝ A few weeks ago, I was “winner, winner, chicken dinner!” and now I am Lunchables. ❞

❝ When I look at you, I think of tap water! ❞

❝ If I ain’t gonna win a crown, I’mma win a man! ❞

❝ Ah-choo! She's sickening! ❞

RuPaul's Drag Race Season 12 Quotes ❝ That’s the thing on the TikTok that the kids do. ❞

❝ Do you have a condom I can borrow? I know you’re always safe. ❞

❝ You’re the prettiest girl on the planet … of the apes. ❞

❝ The truth is, when people are super vulnerable, we fall in love with them. That’s the hard point is being willing to be honest. ❞

❝ Thank you! Burn in hell! Go fuck yourself! ❞

❝ Here they come. Just act natural, act natural. ❞

❝ How do you feel about glitter? ❞

❝ I love glitter! ❞

❝ Look over there! ❞

❝ I fall for it every time. ❞

❝ You look like a Barbie out of the box. ❞

❝ I hope you can hear all that air I exclaimed from my body. ❞

❝ Well, that was a long flight. ❞

❝ Are you ready to live a little, sin a lot? ❞

RuPaul's Drag Race Season 11 Quotes ❝ When you feel your own oats so hard you forget there are other oats there. ❞

❝ Spooky Dooky. ❞

❝ I WAS READY! ❞

❝ Meh. ❞

❝ I'm currently oozing. ❞

❝ Twerking is a blessing baby. ❞

❝ You got to pick a struggle. You can't struggle at everything, bitch! ❞

❝ You 80s-looking porn star. ❞

❝ An ugly girl can never come for a pretty girl. ❞

❝ Hoe, you must go. ❞

❝ Bitch, I'm back! ❞

[personinthepalace]

I saw a community production of Legally Blonde the Musical over the weekend! Will share my rambling thoughts below the cut:

so I judge lbtm productions by THE DOOR(TM) bc door discourse so let’s talk about that first:

so I've been analyzing the show’s sizzle reel a bit too much haha, but from the staging I figured that there wouldn't be a door during the ballad. I said this to my friend but then she pointed out that the program literally says elle's door so I got excited

however I was right and there was no door :(

so what happened instead was that they wheeled out elle's desk and bed and luggage for her room. (oh and before that they turned on little lights that made it looked like a starry night while elle was singing the first part - very pretty). emmett comes "into" elle's room with the two champagne glasses, they sing, she cries, elle then takes her suitcase and exits through the main stage doors (these doors are the same ones used for harvard, callahan's office, courtroom, paulette's salon etc - it’s the doors seen in the video above)

so we have emmett in elle's room and elle out of her room

emmett sings *what about love* and THEN elle comes out of one of the side doors (like closet doors) and starts singing. so I guess she is still outside?? very hard to tell

but there are some steps so elle is singing from the top step, emmett on the bottom

and by the end of the song, elle has come down the steps and elle and emmett sing the ending back to back (but not touching each other)

also I would like to note that emmett tries to touch elle (to stop her from walking away) but elle flinches which I thought was a good touch

so yeah tldr: no physical door (but elle did walk out some doors), emmett is singing from inside elle's room(?), but at least he didn't confess his love to her face so yay?

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now from the beginning:

there was a lot of the barbie movie soundtrack playing during the preshow haha

so they definitely updated the show to the present day - there was a selfie circle light thing, everyone had iphones and ipads but I feel like they updated it in a very organic way. didn't feel forced or fake which sadly I feel like happens in a few updated versions (say regents park). also the ways they updated certain moments was quite clever - will get into it later

so the beginning has the girls doing the tiktok dance in front of the light circle for elle and then there was no candle lighting instead they said something along the lines of "find your light"

the store manager is a guy

okay clever modern day update! elle gives her phone to one of the restaurant customers so that they could film the "proposal". but then after seeing that warner didn't propose yet, she took her phone back

at "does look like the face of harvard law", the admissions guy is addressing the audience! there was a pause so we all shouted yeah! and he looked at us like we lost our minds haha

the admissions guy saying *ethnic movement* was followed by a pause and a big gasp from the audience for some reason

there was no marching band just cheer leaders and there were two guys in skirts

oh one of the guys has a character called kiki later (the gay guy in paulette's salon) and he is basically the best background character - he had the best outfits and omigod walking around in heels and later wore the cutest boots. yeah best background character

emmett is now a class of 2019. also he hasn't slept since 2016 (it should have been more haha)

aaron tries to shake enid's hand when she introduces herself but then she gets very enid and then he just backs away haha

bruiser watches rupaul drag race. oh yeah they had actual dogs on stage! very small very cute

elle pulls out a hydroflask and an E statue thing to put on her desk

emmett didn't sing along during blood in the water which I really like

paulette has a playlist instead of a cd. vivienne came into the salon and paid kiki for a gift bag of sorts

elle has a hello kitty toy and emmett threatened to throw it in the trash haha

no more redbull they drink celsius now. also I love that they drink from the same can

another clever update! elle texts warner during chip on your shoulder. so things like *and grandma bootsie!* is sent as like a second text. (we can hear the text sound). and the christmas message is a voice memo

oh yeah and when elle introduces emmett to paulette, she takes him by the hand and walks him towards paulette which I thought was cute

omigod so during the part where elle and paulette try to communicate behind emmett's back - paulette holds the shampoo bottle like it's a dick and we all lost it hahaha

after elle gives callahan her resume, she walks towards emmett and circle around him and they're both silenting squealing and then elle walks off stage squealing haha

they did not have a handshake during chip on my shoulder. nor did emmett do any silly dance

so much better - callahan sends out the results by email so everyone is looking at their phone

also I didn't catch if warner gave his phone to someone to film or someone was just filming on their own phone but someone was filming warner's proposal to vivienne

emmett was on stage for most of so much better and when he left with the rest of the people he gave elle two thumbs up

brooke now has an app, callahan does not speak twitter or tiktok

brooke was doing the long jumprope at one point - I forget what it's called like two people are holding the rope and brooke is jumping

emmett: we are here to whip up your legal defense *does some awkward dancing* it was very funny haha

okay so emmett was wearing his bag during this whole time and during take it like a man, he gives it to elle and then she wears it for the rest of the number (I just love that addition haha)

also this emmett wears glasses and it took me a while to notice/realize but after his makeover, he no longer wears glasses for the rest of the show

this kyle had a lot of kyle swagger haha. he walks through the audience, he freaking adjusts his belt, holds the package like *that* obviously, bends over a lot - a lot of kyle haha

and then when he comes back for his stylist, and elle is like do it - elle and paulette look at each other, nod, and then jump and did a chest bump - I was totally not expecting that and everyone was laughing at that haha

during the bend and snap scene, elle says that it works on straight and bi men

the news reporter reporting the trial is now replace with the delta nus watching the news coverage on a phone (and the reporter is a voice over) - I thought it was a nice addition!

my friend said that a fun update that they should have done was paulette and kyle taking an uber instead of an ambulance to the hospital haha

when elle tests the bend and snap on nikkos, there is a guard standing next to him and the guard’s eyes bulges out (he reacts haha) every time elle does it (and nikkos doesn’t) and it was very funny

I didn't notice it but my friend pointed out that elle doesn't sing during gay or european. I figured that it was so she can rest for a song. my friend said that it's bc elle already knows that she's right and doesn't need to reason it out like everyone else. I guess both can be true haha

I completely forgot to look out for carlos during the song but there was no need bc he wasn't sitting with the cast - he busted in through the stage doors haha

my friend said it would have been funny if carlos was sitting in the audience and honestly now I want that to happen in a production now hahaha

also carlos and nikkos are both dressed in black

callahan actually pushes elle against the wall (side of the stage) when he kisses her - it is like a full on make out but then she pushes him off her and then slaps him

warner walks and sees them kissing and then immediately walks out. vivienne stays long enough to see the slap

okay talked about the ballad already haha

when emmett says *and I don’t have to hit on interns professor*, elle’s dad rises a bit but elle’s mom pulls him down and they talk - really like that detail. gotta love parents concerned for their daughter

oh instead of it being just like apprentice, the delta nus call brooke a girlboss

the scene of the crime now comes with pink caution tape - very funny seeing them pulling it across the front of the stage haha

the court stenographer is a guy! The way he sang back *omigod we rock!* was very funny haha

during find my way, callahan comes out and glares at emmett when it’s said that his wife hired emmett to handle their messy divorce

paulette gives her cards to audience members in the front row!

elle is in a pink graduation gown

elle gets the ring from paulette and then proposes to emmett. he spins her around

curtain call: they all stood in one line and sang while doing different poses

overall it was great!! better than we expected haha - my friend and I have our nitpicks haha but we had a great time :) (main letdown was no door haha) also yay for filipino elle :)

also! some random thoughts that we had from watching this production:

- how did warner get the internship? like he didn't work as hard as the other people (we're assuming). we now figure that it might be that warner's dad called in a favor

- callahan's wife getting a divorce - that means that elle and emmett must have told her? And they must have reported him to the school so did harvard fire him? does he still have his law firm? my friend thinks that he is a slimy enough lawyer - that he got to keep both positions. I like to think that he got fired

- patrick page would make a great callahan

[winderlylandchime]

Hello! I was asked nicely (yes, he did make me say nicely so that youd know) to send you a message. He wants you to know that he forced (mhm you read that right) his best friends to read your Tattoo fic and the fireflies fic. And they all liked it but obviously didn’t get as overly invested as my brother. But he told me that they both really enjoyed how you wrote the older versions of Britin. They felt like even tho they had no prior knowledge (except what my brother has told them so basically unreliable) that the fic reads really well on its own and they felt like they understood the characters without knowing almost anything.

He has a lot of thoughts about the drag queens you picked. He read the list and went ‘not who i expected but damn now I’m even more curious how this is gonna go’ and he also sent me a text out of nowhere that said ‘YOOO TRIXIE POSTED A YOUTUBE VIDEO WITH BTS SECRETS FROM RUPAUL!! Tell my homie if she needs any research info about it!’

He also saw while he was showing his friends the messages and everything from you and your friends and myself (even I didn’t know this so now i feel shitty) that your sweet Emmett is having some issues and he asked me to send you some love from him and Brian. And I’m also sending you love. Brian the cat was with me for just a few months and I already feel like Rosa after she got that dog Arlo, so I can’t imagine what you guys are going through, I hope you and your partner are okay

Hello dear sweet anon!

Thank you for these kind words about my fics. It means a lot as a writer that they work even for someone who hasn’t seen the series. That’s such a lovely compliment. Thank you for passing it on.

I saw Trixie’s video come up as recommended! I’ll watch it for sure. Please tell your brother that I recommend the book Legendary Children (Fitzgerald & Marquez) for more inside scoop. I am waiting to read And Don’t Fuck It Up (Fernandez) because there is a 20 week hold at my library! (I also loved And The Category Is… [Tucker] which is more about the ball scene) If he wants to nerd out about drag race.

Friend, this message came in just as I was saying goodbye to my beloved Emmett. My spouse and I had to make the call that he was declining and no longer enjoying life. He had been diagnosed with diabetes last year in March and he did very well on insulin but in the last week stopped eating enough to be able to administer it. He was 16+ and the best little guy in the world. He loved my make up and when I would brush his face with my blush brush. He would curl up with his head in my bra cup. He also loved hummus. (Was he a basic white girl?) He and Kinney were best buds until Kinney passed and then he and Olivia were inseparable. I miss him so so much but I also know it was his time. Please ask your brother to give Brian a little extra love in memory of Emmett Honeycutt Theymomlastname-Shemomlastname

(Emmett as a baby)

[alec-1016]

hey i watched and finished 911 lone star this week, so imma bring uo something that is very old(s1 or 2) but that impacted me A LOT

And that is the first(second? one of the first) tarlos fight, about Carlos telling his parents TK was his friend. I understand and feel for TK, especially after being fresh from a traumatic break up from a relationship in which he was clearly more invested than his partner(fuck u alex).

But I feel so much for Carlos. I am brazilian, like Rafael, and I feel like i live in the Reyes household, when Carlos was young. I am Carlos at 17, coming out, being hugged, being loved, and then having that part of himself be pushed under the rug. I will never come out to my extended family. I may take a while to transition medically, or never transition, not because I live with especially close-minded people, but because I live with humans that are sometimes afraid of what they don't know.

When Carlos said "I don't wanna rub their noses in it" I felt that, because I can't even talk to my mom about Lone Star without telling her that what drew me to it was the queer rep, esp the trans rep. Lat time I talked to my mom about a show like this, it was Star Trek Discovery, and she said "Wow, are there only gay people in these things you watch?". Needless to say, I tend to refrain from mentioning characters that arent cishet now.

I will have to cut contact with most of my family when I come out, if I wanna get married, get my name changed, etc.

When TK said "I thought they were nice people" and Carlos said "They ARE nice people. But they are not perfect" I felt that because I love my mom. She supported me though all of my crazy dreams, and my depressive episodes, my autism diagnosis. But she doesn't see her son when she looks at me, and she can't say my name. I have complicated feelings about my father, because he is a cheater w anger issues, but he calls me his son. He sends me articles on trans rights here in my town. He wants to see me become whatever I want. But he also left.

What I wanna say is, I never realized I needed latino rep in my media until I got it, especially queer latino rep. I am white passing, though both my grandmothers are/were black, so I always thought I was ok with seeing characters that were brunettes, like Hermione, or Belle. But seeing Encanto, and now Lone Star I actually saw my family there, with the mess and the thousands of tios and tias and primos, and the catholic guilt and the good food.

What I'm saying is Rafa said "The fact that we [Ronen and Rafa/ TK and Carlos] can just walk into your living room without your asking? Yeah, that brings me joy" bc ls is not a queer show.It's a show about first responders, and some of them happen to be queer. It's not next to RuPaul's drag race on the straming catalogue, but next to action shows. And it reminds me that people think that is "shoving it in theur faces". Because they feel queer rep, and queer PEOPLE should come with a warning, because they ferl they have the right to simply ignore out existence. Sometimes ut feels like simply existing is "shoving it in their faces" and I'm tired.

I am very privileged in my country, being the child of university professors, even though both of them grew up very poor. I am middle class, with fairly open parents and a queer sister, and for that I am grateful, and I realize that my situation is better than a lot of people's. I am not denying that. But it feels nice to see a story that looks like mine, not just a face. A story in US media, that I grew up watching and worshipping, far more than the relatively conservative media from Brazil(especially the novelas, jesus christ, someone save us from globo, recodrd and band and sbt), with a boy that reminds me so much of myself. With a trans male character for fuck's sake, that has to deal with the mess of dating as a trans person, of navigating your family and your transition. These people showed me that I am not alone.

Also Rafael is from my town and ever since I foumd that out I have been giggling internally, you guys have no clue 😅😅

Oh well, another rant no one asked for but I delivered anyways. I am very depressed, very disphoric and very hyperfixated on 911 ls, so...sorry, not sorry?

[roxy206]

RuPaul’s Drag Race video

Sasha: And all these protests about protesting the drag story time

Mistress: Yeah

Sasha: Cuz at Mary’s what it’s like all ages, kids come & everything?

Mistress: Yeah. I have like at my home bar we have it all the time. It is family friendly & of course we have restrictions in place where like they can’t come to the Saturday night shows where it gets a little rowdier. I think they just have crazy like thoughts on what drag is. I don’t know. It — it’s very scary at times

Sasha: The state of the world that we live in, it’s so wild that now they want to outlaw drag & they now feel entitled to hurt you. It’s such a hard place to be, because you really want to be yourself & you really wanna celebrate who you are, but sometimes you have to be forced to be like quiet for pure safety

Loosey: I’ve done a couple & I will say the thing that you have to deal with is that there’s always a lot of community backlash. The whole thing is, “We don’t want our kids exposed to this because drag queens are gonna be like a bad influence on them.” But then you have people protesting at drag queen story hours & being extremely violent, but someone dressed as a princess telling a story about a mermaid is offensive to them

People in the LGBT+ community are constantly being targeted with hate to divert from bigger issues. What they want everyone to focus on is, “There’s drag queens reading to our kids.”

Anetra: It kind of feels like we’re getting somewhere, but at the same time it’s like, we still shouldn’t be having like problems about drag queens reading a story to kids

Luxx: Exactorini

I think that queer people just going out into the world and showing resilience and just saying, “We can’t be fucked with the way y’all think we can,” it’s like that’s going to be the driving force for change. Not me in my politician era

Sasha: The conservatives always think that we’re trying to push our agenda on them when they’re the ones pushing their agendas on us

Anetra: Definitely

Sasha: They’re like, “Oh you’re grooming our children to be gay” when that’s your technique!

Loosey: Like it’s so, so hypocritical. How many times have you seen someone ask a toddler, “Do you have a girlfriend?”

Mistress: Okay

Luxx: Or it’s like they’ll have their kids wearing “Ladies’ Man” tshirts

Salina: I remember my mom gave me a wallet when I was like twelve and in it had pictures of Hillary Duff & she was like, “Isn’t she so pretty? That’s your girlfriend, right?” And I’m like, right. Girl, no. Where’s Zac Efron, okay? Boots

Anetra: People don’t realize what they’re doing to their own children by doing that. They’re like putting them in a box already

[lovemesomesurveys]

Has anyone ever made fun of your taste in music? Yeah, but they were just being playful. What’s your favorite season of the year? Fall and winter.

Do you have pop-tarts in your house right now? Nope.

Is anyone’s birthday coming up? My dad's is later this month.

Does someone owe you over twenty dollars? No, I wish. ha.

Do you remember who you liked in grade eight? Yeah, my best guy friend at the time, Kyle.

When was the last time you burned any part of your body? I don't recall.

Have you ever overflown a bathtub? No.

Are you dressing up for Halloween this year? No, I stopped doing that years ago.

Have you ever called somebody dollface? Yeah, but I said it jokingly. I actually had a time when I was younger that I said that a lot for some reason. I even had a sign in name for something with dollface in it lol.

If I gave you ten dollars, what would you spend it on? I've been cravinggg wings.

Have you ever thrown food at a stranger in a movie theater? Uh, no? Piece of shit.

What are you most excited about right now? I'm flying to go to my older bro's graduation in May. He lives on the opposite coast.

Does / did either of your parents serve in the military? No.

Are you somewhat of a perfectionist? No.

Do you like sour candy? Nope.

Where would you like to go on your honeymoon? I hve no idea. I can't even imagine getting married.

Do you have Verizon? I do.

What do you do to stay awake when you’re tired? Just try to fight it if I have to. I get so sleepy though.

Are all nighters something you have grown used to? Not anymore. I did that for so many years where my sleep schedule was completely fucked up but ever since my hospital stay a couple years ago I started getting on a better sleep schedule thanks to getting the right sleep med.

Do you usually wear sunglasses when you’re driving? I don't drive or wear sunglasses ever.

Do you wear your shoes around the house? No.

Is there ever a time that you enjoy cold showers? I always like hot showers.

What clothes are you most comfortable in? Oversized shirts and leggings.

Is there anybody you’re not ashamed to tell anything to? I shre the most on here.

What has changed most about you in the past year? Health took a bad turn again for a bit.

Are you good at painting nails? No, I suck. Luckily for me I have a cousin who got her certificate to do nails and does mine all cute for me.

Smoothies or slushies? Slushies.

Are you good at filling silence in awkward situations? I'm the worst.

Ignoring nutrition, could you live off veggies for the rest of your life? Oh, noooo.

Elaborate on a way you have volunteered? i've volunteered at a homeless shelter, a nursing home, an animal shelter, local festivals, car washes with my school club.

Do you use a full length mirror daily? No. I avoid that as much as possible.

Can you walk in heels, or do you feel awkward in them? I cannot.

Any TV shows you sit down weekly to watch? Currently, just Rupaul's Drag Race every Friday. I used to wath a shit ton more shows, I don't know what happened.

Does anybody know about your sex life other than your partners? I don't have a sex life.

Even if you don’t like politics, do you still have opinions on the issues? Of course.

Are you one to sneak food into movie theaters? Not like full meals, but snacks and drink.

Do you ever actually make your bed? Not anymore. It's hard to keep my bed from having a lot of stuff on it too cause I spend majority of my time in bed and want certain things within reach.

Do you make an effort to eat healthy? Not really.

How are things between the person you like / love / are with? No such person currently. It feels like forever since I've felt that, I forget what it feels like.

Where did you sleep last night? In my bed, of course.

The last time you kissed someone, what color of shirt were they wearing? I don't recall.

What kind of booze did you last take shots of? I don't remember. It's been a little over a decade since I've drank.

What’s something you want to purchase next time you’re at the mall? I don't know. I'm broke anyway.

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you that you were sexy? Yes. They had to have been lying through their teeth.

If you could see any musician live, front row, who would you choose? I really wish I could have seen Linkin Park with Chester Bennington of course. Such a talent and voice. So sad.

If you had to choose between a million dollars or to be able to change a regret? The money would really help my family and I but some of my regrets got me where I am with my shitty health now, so changing one would be literally life changing.

Are you taller than your mom? No.

Have you ever been around someone who was high? Several times, including myself. >>>

Do you prefer to take your showers at night or in the morning? Night.

Think back to June. Were you in a relationship? No. I think I'm meant to be single. I'm almost 35 and haven't had a real relationship. Had a couple guys show a lot of interest, or seemed to anyway, but they didn't want to be together. I wasn't good enough.

What’s so special about what you’re wearing? I just like it.

Do you have any ‘naughty’ photos on your phone? No.

What were you doing at 10:00 this morning? I was at my PT appointment.

Why aren’t you texting the last person you kissed? We haven't talked in years.

Do you think anyone has feelings for you? Nopeeee.

What do you miss the most about your past? My childhood.

When is the next time you will kiss someone? Probably never.

Has anyone taken their shirt off in front of you? Yeah.

Plan on getting drunk or high tonight? Just high.

In the past week, have you cried hysterically? No.

Do you think you’ll actually live a happy life with somebody? I can't imagine it.

Are you on birth control? Nope, I don’t need to be.

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? Yeah, my mom.

Last time you were really happy? I have no idea.

Do you tend to fall for players? No.

Why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex? I moved on long ago.

Have you ever asked a boy for advice? Yes?

Are you wrapped in a blanket? No.

Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night? I did.

Have you spoken to your mother today? Father? Yes, we live together and talk all the time.

[bisexualseraphim]

✨About me✨

— I go by Seraph here. Twenties. AuDHD.

— I rant a lot about intersectional feminism and UK politics, which often means broaching sensitive subjects. If you’d like me to tag anything, just ask.

— When I’m not doing that I will sometimes post about media, including but not limited to:

DC Comics

The Last Airbender/The Legend of Korra

RuPaul’s Drag Race

Pokémon

Attack on Titan

Death Note

Breaking Bad/Better Call Saul

Life is Strange

Orphan Black

Orange is the New Black

The Walking Dead (all versions)

Xena Warrior Princess

The Last of Us (all versions)

The Haunting series

The Hannibal Lecter series (all versions)

Ethel Cain, the boygenius boys, and occasionally Lana. Is music fandom a thing still?

Not media really but tattoos, art and anything gothic are other things I am into.

— If you’re up for any of that, feel free to interact! Though I would prefer if under 18s didn’t follow me as I may post NSFW content from time to time, just as a warning :)

— As always, radfems, MRAs and any other bigots can fuck right off.

Okay. I think that covers everything for now. If you’ve made it past me introducing myself like some sort of celebrity, you’re built different and I hope you have a gorgeous day. 💜

[qnewsau]

Courtney Act on RuPaul: 'I was off the Christmas card list'

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Courtney Act on RuPaul: 'I was off the Christmas card list'

Courtney Act has opened up about her relationship with RuPaul and World of Wonder, sharing that she’s never been approached about returning to Drag Race.

The Aussie drag legend went on Brooke Blurton and Matty Mills’ podcast First Things First this week. During the wide-ranging chat, Courtney was asked for tea on the long-rumoured rift between her and RuPaul.

“I don’t know… I’m definitely on, like, the bad kids’ list,” Courtney said.

“I’m off the Christmas card list.

“There is a literal Christmas card list… Although I did make it back on, I remember I wasn’t on it for years. Then all of a sudden, I got my World of Wonder, like, block of RuPaul chocolate, Christmas card, and I was like, ‘Oh, I’m back on the Christmas card list!’

“Maybe I still am. Maybe I just moved and I didn’t update my address.”

Courtney Act also confirmed producers have never approached her to return to the show, and explained at length why she’d say no if she was.

“No, I’ve never been approached,” Courtney said.

“I really loved being on Drag Race and being there and filming it is like the most fun.

“All of us, Adore, Bianca, Darian, Ben, Milk, Laganja, Gia, April, all these names that we know and love. It was such a golden era of Drag Race. The personalities were amazing.

“It was fun to film it, but there’s something about going back for me. There’s a certain amount of control that you give over to the editors, to World of Wonder, in telling your story and your narrative.”

‘I got sucked into the comment section’

Courtney Act explained that as season six aired it was “peak Twitter” and not having control of her edit had a big impact on her.

“I remember waking up every morning and there were nuanced characterisations about me that were portrayed on the show that I didn’t feel aligned with who I was,” she recalled.

“I kind of got sucked into the comment section. I’d wake up every morning, literally, the first hour and the last hour of every day was scrolling the comments. [I was] replying to people trying to make them love me.”

Courtney added, “I think post-Drag Race, watching it back was almost like a reckoning for me.

“I went in with this self-help, universe, law of attraction vibe, where I was putting good things out there. Then what I perceived that I got back was something negative.

“I was like, ‘Wait, I was a good person. I did everything right. Why am I being punished?’

“In a weirdly good way, it kind of set me free from that. Actually, in life, even if you’re a good person, sometimes s__t happens and that’s okay.

“To go back to Drag Race or All Stars or Global All Stars… personally, I think it would be so much fun. But there’s almost like too much at risk to hand over everything to somebody else now.

“I’m sure you’ll see me on another reality show somewhere soon because mama got to pay the bills.

“I’d rather host a show or make documentaries or do interviews or podcasts or chat shows or something like that.”

Courtney is speaking at SXSW Sydney

One of those upcoming gigs is an interesting talk at South by Southwest (SXSW) Sydney on October 18, on positive masculinity.

“There’s lots of toxic masculinity role models, like your Andrew Tates and your Joe Rogans and Jordan Peterson advocates for a lot of that sort of stuff,” Courtney said.

“All of these young men, particularly straight men, are finding a message in those people. I think a lot of that messaging is toxic.

“Toxic masculinity is toxic, so what is positive masculinity? Therefore, who are the role models? That’s what the SXSW talk will be all about.”

Courtney Act is also returning to Brisbane for the city’s new River Pride Parade on November 9.

The drag star is the parade ambassador, leading a flotilla of loud and colourful vessels from William Jolly Bridge to Brisbane Powerhouse, during this year’s queer arts festival Melt.

Read more:

Courtney Act reunited with Adore Delano and Bianca Del Rio

In November, Courtney is leading Brisbane River Pride Parade

Courtney Act got a big offer from RuPaul years before Drag Race

Courtney shares origin story of her and Vanity’s wig empire

Ru-vealed: Ten queens set for Drag Race Down Under season 4

For the latest LGBTIQA+ Sister Girl and Brother Boy news, entertainment, community stories in Australia, visit qnews.com.au. Check out our latest magazines or find us on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and YouTube.

[takoichigo]

Haven't written in a while. Honestly it's hard to string thoughts together now without getting distracted halfway through or rambling on forever.

I watched an entire season of RuPaul's Drag Race today. I'd never seen an episode but since watching Dungeons and Drag Queens I have had my curiosity piqued. I don't typically watch reality competition shows (unless they're on Food Network) but I really liked it a lot. It also made me have some thoughts about my wardrobe, and about making things, and generally I feel a little inspired. It's much more creative than I expected and I love that. Also, I love shiny things and colors and I'm trying to learn a bit more grace and femininity.

Pain has been pretty bad lately if I'm honest. The last week or so have been very rough. I turned down company yesterday because I had a fairly traumatic releasing of the contents of my colon in the morning, and it took me all day to not hurt anymore. Hurting constantly is one of the worst things about this. Like the pain when I go to the bathroom is worse, but it goes away. When it just aches all day and I don't get relief from it, it's hard to even just watch something. It's exhausting. I'm pretty sure yesterday I was nearly totally blocked up. It hurt in weird places and I felt really nauseous beforehand. Nothing has really made me nauseous up til this point. I was a little this morning too, but overall it's been a little better today. I think I need to be really careful about eating when I take my meds, and I definitely don't think jumping in the tub is an option in the morning anymore, the heat made everything way worse.

Home health is coming tomorrow afternoon to get me started on physical therapy, which I am looking forward to a little bit. Anything to get me feeling normal again, please. Everything is so empty right now and I feel lonelier than I think I ever have. The endless shaking my legs do is really getting bothersome. It's like they don't want to hold me up anymore. Even when I'm laying down they shake. And my left knee needs to stop locking up. I've had some really bad scares this week from it doing that. It's also really fucking painful.

I'm still always tired and I really can't do much of anything for myself. It's a challenge to even walk through my apartment to get from my bed to the bathroom. I don't regret moving my bed to my living room; the bedroom in my apartment is too small to fit a queen mattress with anything else, but the extra walking distance is not great when your body is screaming at you and you can't walk very well.

I think I want to take up crocheting again, I could probably do that while laying down. I kinda want a new laptop too, or a tablet so I can maybe draw while lying on my stomach or something. Something not messy that doesn't require too much effort to set up or set aside.

Things are going to get better. I have to believe that they will. It's hard when I'm all alone. And I do have good friends that have been helping as much as they can. But not the ones I expected. I'm pretty sad about that. Haven't seen either of the people who volunteered to be my medical POA in at least a month. Not in person anyway. And one of them maybe hates me now. And that's making me really upset. I can't think about it or I cry. It's easy to make me cry anyway (shit I did it like 5 times watching Drag Race and twice in the bathroom today at least just from feeling bad and being afraid) but I don't really want to cry. I don't want to have these stupid hot flashes either but that's what we get for cooking my ovaries with a big radioactive beam I guess.

I was tired a little while ago and I thought if I wrote out my thoughts it'd help me relax a bit more so I could sleep, but now I'm just overly warm and sad. And my neighbor across the hall is being really loud. And I didn't get any of the stuff done today that I wanted to get done, except for taking a shower. And then I had a hot flash anyway and was drenched in sweat again a couple hours later.

I hate this all so much. I just want to feel normal again. I want to drive and see my friends and go do things and enjoy my life. Because this isn't life. It's just waiting, either for good news or for death. And while I have a lot of patience with humans, I don't have the most for feeling bad and being alone all the time.

Anyway. I'm gonna mindlessly scroll for a bit now and hope something bores me enough that I get at least a couple hours of sleep.

[biglisbonnews]

Jinkx Monsoon Slays Broadway Debut "So we're all just here to see Jinkx, right?" says Rickie, the festively dressed twenty-something young woman sitting next to me in Row F at the Ambassador Theatre for the Broadway revival of Chicago currently featuring Drag Race Queen of Queens Jinkx Monsoon as Matron Mama Morton. Rickie has flown in from Lubbock, Texas especially to see Jinx, as has the middle-aged woman from Dallas seated in front of me.Since Jinx took over the role, it's been standing-room only at the Ambassador. Tonight, five queens from the current season of RuPaul's Drag Race, which airs its 200th episode tonight, are also in the crowd: Marcia, Marcia, Marcia; Jax; Robin Fierce; Amethyst and Luxx Noir London, all decked out in glamour drag, have shown up to cheer on their sister.Marcia has performed on Broadway in Kinky Boots and she tells me her dream role would be in Wicked. Elphaba or Glinda? "Oh please," she laughs, "always Glinda!" Jersey native Luxx Noir London came to Broadway shows on school field trips. "My first show was Pippin, the revival with Patina Miller," she says. "That was the most iconic moment of my life ever." Now, that's what I call a Broadway queen. Jax started off with Disney musicals, Mary Poppins and Tarzan, but her favorite theater moment was seeing Billy Elliott with her father. "I think that was his way of telling me he knew I was gay," she says.Amethyst loves Rent. "I think I’d be really good at it in drag," she says. The Robin Fierce is super inspired by Kinky Boots. "That inspired my drag and that's why I sing in drag," she tells me.The energy in the house is electric, like the opening night of a monster hit, only this production has been running since 1996. When Jinkx first comes onstage, the roof nearly blows off the theater. The Jinkx fans' love also spills over onto the entire cast. The audience loves every minute of the show and is particularly enraptured anytime Jinkx is onstage. R. Lowe, who has played Mary Sunshine in the show for 18 years, says, "It's a resurgence of the show. It’s been so energizing for all of us. It's one of the most amazing things I’ve ever gotten to experience on stage."After the show, mobs of adoring fans wait for Jinkx at the stage door. Each night Jinkx stays until every fan gets an autograph or photo.PAPER caught up with Jinkx by phone on her way to the theatre to hear about her groundbreaking run and how she can handle eight grueling shows a week.Congratulations. What a sensation you've caused! How does it feel?It feels really surreal. But at the same time, it feels like this is what comes from lots of dedication and hard work and tenacity. But yeah, it's very surreal. I started my career as a dive bar drag queen. Now I'm on Broadway. It's taken its time for society to progress and art to evolve and all of that stuff, but it's a wonderful feeling.Do you remember the first Broadway show you saw?The first show I ever saw was the touring production of Rent. I must have been nine years old, and most of it went over my head. I didn't really fully understand the story, but I understood that it was people acting and singing and dancing on stage all at once, and I wanted to do that.How is Broadway easier than being a dive bar drag queen and how is it harder?Let me start with what's easier. What's easier is you've got a whole team of people supporting you and supporting the show. That's something that can't be overlooked when drag is very much a DIY art form. While it involves a community, while it involves your drag family or your coven or however you want to refer to it, a lot of the work falls on the shoulders of the artist and those closest to the artist. When you're working on Broadway, there's a job for everything and everyone has a job. Normally getting into drag takes me about three hours with me and an assistant. On Broadway, it takes me about an hour and a half because there's someone there to help me with the wig, there's someone there to help me with the costume, and all I have to do is slap my makeup on.You did such an amazing job on Little Edie and Judy Garland on [Drag Race's] Snatch Game. Was there some movie star or some singer that inspired you when you were growing up?I think I learned everything I need to know about comedy from Lucille Ball. Then there were female stand-ups that influenced my comic sensibility and philosophy over time, and that includes Margaret Cho, Sarah Silverman, Maria Bamford, Devon Green, Madeline Kahn. And I would add Meryl Streep to the setlist. Meryl Streep, though she's known more as a dramatic actor, her comedic sensibility is every bit as honed and skilled as any other one of her talents.I saw you on CBS News Sunday Morning, that's a big deal, congratulations. I think you were talking about the audition process. Did you do any spells or resort to any witchcraft to help get the role?Not to get the role of Mama, there wasn’t a specific spell being cast for that. But I have had a couple of ongoing spells to help with my anxiety and my depression, and then one that's just kind of manifesting success. Well, it started as a spell and then it transitioned to a charm. A charmed artifact that I carry with me at all times.Well, they're doing a good job because you're doing fabulously and having huge success. I love seeing on your social media the different friends who come visit you backstage. Have you had any surprise celebrity guests or favorite visitors back there? Yeah. Jesse Eisenberg was a complete surprise to me one night. Very, very sweet. And very complimentary. He brought his family and the whole family was sweet and lovely. Most people I've known were there. But occasionally people post that they're in the audience and I don't know that they're there. So, Sam Smith was a big surprise. Joe Locke, Ben Platt, they all discreetly posted they were in the audience, and I never would have known if it weren't for Instagram, but fabulous. It's just been really fun getting to perform for such a wide array of different theater lovers.Absolutely. I know that a lot of people are coming because they're your fans. Do you get a sense of how many people are Drag Race fans or just Broadway fanatics? I don't know how to get a sense of where the overlap is between Broadway fans and Jinkx Monsoon fans. But what I do know is the audiences have been, I think, a little bit more celebratory, and perhaps raucous than my castmates are used to. But they're loving it. My cast mates love how vocal and joyous and enthusiastic the audiences have been. We're all getting laughs where we want to get laughs, we're all getting claps where we want to get clapping. It's been a very generous experience across the board. Every cast member has been so generous, and I think it's because the audience has been generous. The audience being generous, the cast wants to be more generous and then it goes round and round. It's like that line that Roxie has in the show where she says, "The audience loves me and I love the audience, and the audience loves me for loving them, and I love them for loving me, and we all just love each other and that's because none of us got enough love in our childhood."And that’s showbiz, kids! I've seen the show honestly like 15 times with different replacement casts so I will let you guys know afterward. I'm sure that this crowd is particularly excited and delirious and appreciative. But now since this is a story about women in prison I have to ask, have you ever been arrested?No, I've never had any run-ins with the law whatsoever. I mean, that were my fault.If you were on death row and had to choose your last meal what would it be?I know it would include french fries. French fries are my favorite food.And maybe baked Alaska because it's difficult and would take longer to make.Do you have any dream roles on Broadway now that you are the toast of Broadway? Do you have any other roles in sight like Mama Rose or anyone that you'd love to play?I think I need to age into Mama Rose a little bit. I'd love The Witch in Into The Woods. I think my dream role of all time is Mrs. Lovett in Sweeney Todd.Brilliant.I always loved the show The Drowsy Chaperone, which is written with a lot of the same sensibility that I share and have always been attracted to in my work. So the Chaperone is a dream role as well.I always say it's amazing what Drag Race has done; some people give me a hard time. But I say that RuPaul is kind of like a Gloria Steinem for the LGBTQ world. Because of her, my mother knows who famous drag queens are and so do people all across the nation and the world. So what do you think about the Drag Race phenomenon? It seems like so many of you wonderful queens, Bob, Eureka, Trixie, have infiltrated places in show business that drag queens from 20 years ago would be shocked and delighted to see happen.Yeah. It's funny, because the phenomenon of drag race has led to lots of different outlets of entertainment and show business. Lots of TV shows do a drag episode or a drag cameo character. I think the ones that have been successful have been the ones that actually include famous drag queens that have already proven that they're very good at what they do. And I think the ones that have been less successful are when they have had cis, white pretty boys to play drag queens. That's not something you can learn in a day. They think it's the makeup and the costume that makes the drag queen, but it's not, it's the lived experience. It's committing your life to this. It's the authenticity that draws in the audience. Drag Race is showing the world look at all these drag queens with all these talents. And if people want to be a part of that, they need to include actual drag queens and stop trying to synthesize it or replicate it in an inauthentic or disingenuous way. So what's really exciting to me about being in Chicago is that I proved to the world through Drag Race that what I want to do is musical theater comedy performance. And then I was cast in a role that allows me to do that. And that's what I think is going to keep progressing the culture of drag, giving drag queens opportunities to do the things they've shown you they're good at.I hear you.I've just seen so many times when a show writes a good role, like a good drag queen role. Then they cast some heartthrob, pretty boy who has no experience being a drag queen. Then they think it's going to capture the same kind of magic, but that's asinine.Was it always Mama Morton that they had in mind for you, or did they ever think of having you do Mary Sunshine (a character who is presented as female but later revealed to be a man in drag)? I know that's the traditional drag role.When my agency reached out to me, they sent me the materials for Mama Morton and Mary Sunshine. And you're right, the Mary Sunshine role is the traditional drag role in the show. But I have always had a sincere interest in playing cis female roles to show that it doesn't matter what gender I am perceived as. I know what gender I play best on stage. I really wanted them to consider me heavily for Mama Morton first and foremost. So I told them I was only going to be auditioning for Mama Morton. But had they asked me to audition for Velma or Roxy that would have been a different story.It's great that you did that because it's thinking outside of the box. And I can't wait to see you do "Class" because that's one of my favorite numbers from any show. It's such a magical number, and it's so showbizzy. Anyway, I will see you tomorrow when you guys do your photos, and I'm so excited to see the show. I know it's going to be sensational.Yeah, I've been having the time of my life.Photos courtesy of Jinkx Monsoon https://www.papermag.com/jinkx-monsoon-chicago-broadway-2659464797.html

[potato-jem]

spiderman mug for da win! i’m making a cup of tea in the spidey mug right now, so i can (unsuccessfully) do my assignments 🤩🤩🤩

i mean, i have heard about it, but this year i truly realised how big it is. like i saw on social media and from what my friend told me, that there were drag queens from rupaul’s drag race there! and charli xcx was performing too! how fun would it be to go 😭😭😭

i understand that after a full day of school and travel, you might want to sit down, but just wait for a seat 😭😭😭 it’s not that hard 😭😭😭

LITERALLY! i have people asking me if i want to do something and i’m like i’m sorry i have work and i start work at like 8pm. (that was more last year, but i still only start later in the day). i am not built to do multiple things per day, i just exist in a constant state of sitting and waiting. 

i should get more merch (and of course i would show you!!!) and if you’re comfortable, please show me what you got to complement your tattoos !!! 🤩🤩🤩 and yes! that compliement for your six of crows tattoo must have been so nice considering the show is coming out next week (?) i’m still stuck on siege and storm tbh 😭😭😭

i’m crying everyday 😭😭😭

i’ll see if i can make it and i’ll give you my verdict  😌😌😌

i do not need to lie to you, cece. that was a good investment. it’s the only album a fictional band will ever make for real life!!! and vinyls look so cool, even if you just frame it (i debated buying the hold the girl vinyl for ages, despite also not having a record player) and judging by your blog, i would say it is one of your fav books, so i would say that was a good choice and you can tell your bank account to shut up 😌😌 i’ve been meaning to read djats for AGES, i might have something now to boost it up the tbr list

I KNOW! i have only just started going to concerts because travel is also so expensive! i think the only concert that happened in my actual city was the harry styles one? (that day on the train home was a NIGHTMARE) but other than that, i have to travel either a city or a state over 😭😭😭 it would be nice to just get home in half an hour to my own bed and go to sleep 😭😭😭 but also make sure you tell me about any concerts you go to as well! i love hearing about them!

i’ll write up a little playlist for you once i have done my assignment then! (i probably will get distracted and not do my assignment let’s be honest) 

ohh tea with biscuits!! i was really craving that now. i’ve been sick all week, i’ve been home from work for a few days but i still have some symptoms and it sucks. the biscuits help a lot tho <3 the sunny afternoon i just spent reading with simba on my laps also helped

i’m giving you a kiss on the forehead and a soft fluffy plushie <3333

aww bub 🥺🥺🥺 i hope you’ve been feeling better and had more sunny afternoons reading with simba! being sick is the worst 😭😭😭 i’ll give you a blanket and a cup of herbal tea <3

i’m giving you a kiss on the forehead and a warm blueberry muffin <33333

hello cece my beautiful wonderful beloved soulmate <3

i hope you have been well and looking after yourself! i don’t want you overworking yourself 😭 but it has been two days since i have come back from my trip (i have been exhausted plus i had work and uni to catch up on) so now i am going to sit down and tell you about my trip!! please grab a cup of tea and a snack while you read :)

so i went to sydney again, and i had a much more enjoyable experience this time around. i think it was because i knew what i was getting into, and i stayed in the exact same place, so it was all familiar to me.

although i did try to use the public transport this time, instead of ubering everywhere, and the buses were so bad, but the trains were INCREDIBLE! they were double decker and the back support moved so you could have a single row or two rows of seats face each other??? SO COOL

anyways, me and my friend caught the train to the airport at 4am in the morning 😭😭😭 (and i finished work at 12am!!!!) to get our flight. once we landed in sydney, my friend wanted to get merch from the early presale stand outside the arena and we were outside in 30 degree heat FOR TWO HOURS, with our luggage. good news, my birthday is coming up and my friend didn’t know what to get me, so he bought half my merch 🤭 bad news, i’m ginger and i get sunburnt in two minutes, so think about two hours… the worst thing is we had an umbrella for sun protection, but my right arm and the back of my neck was out so they were FRIED. i’m currently peeling like a reptile but worth it

we got some food from maccas because we were dehydrated and getting heat stroke, and then checked into our room after we managed to get our stuff. we both ended up napping in the afternoon, which we were both surprised about, because i had my phone in my hand still attached to the charger next to my bed and he still had his genshin impact loaded up onto his ipad 😭😭😭

unfortunately the place i wanted to take him to for dinner, the really good japanese place from last time, was under renovation, so we had dinner elsewhere but we had such a good time the rest of our trip

because we went to see stray kids, a kpop group, we had a lot of activities we could indulge in. they had this thing called a cupsleeve event, where someone in the fandom designs a cupsleeve to represent a kpop idol’s birthday, group anniversary or in our case, coming to the city. and i got so many freebies! we went to this kpop store that doubled as a cafe and the drinks were so good! i bought way too much but i have to remind myself that i can’t get it at home 😔

we also went to the biggest bookstore i have ever seen in my life! it took up a whole floor of the shopping centre and it was brilliant. it had books upon books, categories after categories. they even had an entire chinese and japanese section! i also spent a lot of money there BUT my best find was the entire completed infernal devices manga trilogy!! it’s so beautiful and such a rare find, i grabbed it immediately. i couldn’t find the tmi graphic novels though, but they have them on their website, so i might order them in :)

alright, the main event! the concerts! so i went and saw the kpop group, stray kids, two nights in a row! it was amazing. i was and still am a huge fan of their work, but especially because they got me through a really hard time in my life and really were my serotonin while i was at school 😔 i wasn’t allowed to see them when they first came here four years ago (parents: maybe next year, they’ll come! *next year being 2020.*) so i feel like i finally made up for it.

me and my friend also matches outfits! we did black and green (the concert colours) on the first night, and red and white on the second (to match the stray kids colours). i wish i could send you photos, we looked so slay 🤩

i do not have one concert video without me screaming the lyrics (yeah the korean ones too!) in the back. but i don’t care, it was so fun, i had a blast. and it was even better because two of the members of stray kids were from sydney and they just made it feel more homely :) do not regret how much money i spent on them or the sleep i lost at all! i’m so glad i can slowly start to give myself the experiences i missed out on as a kid/teenager :’)

anyways, enough about me! how have you been? what have you been up to? how is simba? 🥺 i adore you so much and i am enclosing this letter with a warm hug <3333

hello nero my amazing perfect beloved soulmate <3

yay i’m so happy to finally hear about this trip!!! i just made myself a cup of tea and brought out some biscoff cream!!

how was the catching up part?? did you manage to catch up without exhausting yourself too much??

nero that’s so great!! i think that having a familiar surrounding is always helpful, and staying in the same place makes it all less scary somehow. i’m really happy it went much better!!

NO WAY THEY HAVE THOSE TRAINS THERE??? they look so cool!!! i’ve seen them on instagram once and i was so jealous of every city who had those trains!! you can literally choose if you want to sit alone or have company and that’s so cool!!! it’s basically a buildable environment!!! i’m getting way too excited about this lol

so you only had like three hours of sleep?? 😭😭😭😭 and you even had to stand in the heat for hours 😭😭😭 but yay!!! merch!!! that’s a really great birthday gift!!! (also when is your birthday??? only if you want to share of course <3)

anyway merch is so amazing and so expensive. this has got to be one of the best presents ever!!! even if it means you’re skinning like a reptile now lol at least it’s just two small spots instead of your whole self 😂 but i get the struggle. i’m not ginger but my skin is so light i always get sunburnt in 0.5 seconds too. definitely not fun, but worth it for some merch :D

that was probably a really fun situation to wake up to, but you both deserved a nap for catching a bus at 4am!!! especially since you had only a few hours of sleep after work!! at least you were rested enough to really enjoy the trip!!

oh no 😭😭 i’m still dreaming about that place!! i went to a my favorite japanese restaurant in my city a few days ago and i really wanted to try that beverage you told me about but i was driving so i couldn’t 😭 i hope this other restaurant was really good too though!!

no way!!! nero this is all way too cool!!! i’m so happy it was so fun and there were so many things to do!!! also this cupsleeves event sounds so cool!! i’m so happy nero, you’re making my day just by telling me about all these freebies and amazing drinks!! and you know i’m always gonna be the little devil on your shoulder telling you that spending money is good and you deserve all that amazing stuff :))

the tid manga trilogy??? how is that even possible omg you can’t find that anywhere!!!! i’m so jealous, i wanna live in this bookstore now 🥺 it’s got to be so amazing!! (you always find the best bookstores, i had no doubt there would be one in this letter too and i was so excited to read about it!!) and let me know if you do order the tmi graphic novels!! i’ve been trying to collect those too hehe

the fact that *next year* was 2020 is so painful. but you saw them two nights in a row!!! that’s amazing!! and it must have been so good to see them after so long, after they’d been by your side in a really tough time 🥹 i’m so happy you got to finally see them live!!

also, the matching outfits?? I LOVE THAT!!! i bet you looked so slay!!! that’s literally the best idea for what to wear to a concert!!!

nero i’m so so happy for you!!! you’ve made my whole day, i’m not even joking!! i’m so happy you’re finally getting to enjoy trips and concerts you couldn’t before!! and this one really sounded so perfect!!! also the videos with you screaming at the top of your lungs to every song are literally the best. i love it when i rewatch a video from a concert and i can hear myself screaming and crying and dying more than i can hear the band or the singer. it just makes me live all those memories and those amazing feelings again!!!

the money spent on this is totally worth it!!! and you can sleep now, uni can wait lol really nero i’m so happy this trip was so good!!! i’m so happy for you!!!

i’m good!! i got three days off from work this week so that was great, and i started to reread chain of iron so that i can reread chain of thorns right after :) i miss them so much already 🥲

anyway i just booked a trip for may, because a friend is coming to visit me and i’m gonna be off work for two weeks so i’m really looking forward to it and now i just wanna skip work and plan the itinerary 😂 and i want to book more trips too. which isn’t great because my bank account is already crying and begging me to stop buying stuff. did i tell you i got the illumicrate edition of chain of thorns with the alternative dust jackets? yeah so my bank account still hasn’t forgiven me for it :,)

simba is also doing really good, he’s eating a lot and sleeping a lot as usual 😌

also, ever since you told me about the rina sawayama concert, and because you always talked so much about her, i kinda started listening to her music a lot more and i’m obsessed with some songs now!!! i adore her style so thank you for this new obsession :>

i’m enclosing a warm hug for you too and a little bouquet of flowers <3

[depressed-teacup-inc]

Alright let’s talk wishmaker

I will admit I didn’t have a good feeling about this episode (and while I was partially correct in my theory) it wasn’t as terrible as I initially thought so let’s discuss some good things!!!

I will say, I absolutely loved the LGBTQ metaphor with Alec, tho the show made him an extreme asshole this episode for no reason???? But hey, Rupaul’s drag race is lit, and that akuma did actually have an awesome design for once

(Live your truth yall)

I will say, while there are many Lukadrien moments I enjoyed (it was basically despersada, with like some cute affectionate stuff like shoulder touches and nice looks, and trust me that’s what Lukadrien shippers live off at this point) there was a weird emphasis on Lukanette vs. Adrienette. Like, the Kwamis making a point of saying how marinette flip flops between two boys, Marinette struggling to choose which one to sit next to, and Luka scenes as always have a lot more emphasis on him and Marinette and how he feels about marinette! Like, there was definitely that love triangle shoehorned in and I don’t appreciate it, but hey! We got some gay.

And now, for the big thing everyone has been talking About… Luka knowing Ladybug and Chat Noir’s identities✨✨✨

And honestly? Shit is underwhelming.

Like literally, Luka again has the personality of flour and doesn’t say anything, and again, he only gets a scene with marinette to try and elaborate on how he feels!

And like. Marinette doesn’t need anymore of that! All that scene with Luka and Marinette really did was say “yep Luka is even more in love with marinette and cares about her so much and now he also understands why she disappears so he’s even more respectful of her and will stand aside while Marinette gets to be with Adrien!”

Like dude. What about Adrien?! What was Luka’s reaction to Chat Noir?! Yknow, realizing he was the one guy to select him to be a hero, that he still is a friend he cares about and that hey kids! Chat Noir literally has no one to confide in and Luka is right fucking there!!!

(If only we got to see something more, but hey I take what I can get)

But no. Marinette and Luka.

Point is, while I loved certain parts of the episode, there are… so many missed opportunities.

Sidenote: Adrien’s dream being to be whatever his parents wanted him to be just screams “abuse victim”

[ellavaday]

What are your Drag Race hot takes? Your most controversial opinions?

hi! okay i don't think i have that many but let's see...

S13 is actually good. The first episode was a crime against humanity but the actual season was good.

seasons being longer now hurts the show in the end bc the fatigue is real, by the finale nobody has got any clothes left and we are so sick of the non elimination episodes, we just don't care and they just multiply w each new season

rupaul has always had favorites from day one and it's usually young queens with a clear storyline and the fandom just decries them when it's not their favorite one but if you think it over? getting annoyed about it is just a waste of time. It's still her show.

speaking on favoritism, i need 3 to 5 business days to learn the names of all the skinny (and often blonde) girls this fandom decides are the new fan favorites and every time it gets harder and harder for me to see how are they remarkable in any way shape or form (but to be fair i used to confuse Madonna with Gwen Stefani when i was a child and the same way white people seem to be unable to tell poc apart is how i feel about skinny blonde girls)

It's throughly demoralizing to see how shipping potential affects the popularity of the contestants sometimes (and them often being the same five skinny fanfaves is not a coincidence)

this show is dying as soon as rupaul kicks the bucket and the newer spin offs (painting w raven, queens of the universe, etc) are in my opinion just the show trying to evolve so it doesn't all die w her

this is stolen from an interview w a DRES1 girl that i translated but she is right: the show is lately just a competition over who's got better contacts and/or spends more money

on that note, and speaking of S13, the only look that should be judged on ball challenges is the one they have to make themselves (this is a hill i am willing to kill on and yes utica should have won that challenge instead of mik🤷🏻‍♀️)

i don't know if this is a hot take outside of tumblr but i am so agressively neutral about jasmine i couldn't care less about jasco despite bosco being one of my faves for s14 (maybe i will get into it once the hype around it dies down, who knows and even if Bosco is one of my favorites i also think she gets away w a lot bc, again, skinny and white, people would be giving her a lot of crap about wearing underwear every other runway otherwise)

more on the fandom: a lot of people need to stop throwing the word milf around like a frisbee (yes i see the irony on the namesake of this blog being a self described milf lmao)

i understand S12 being the sole source of serotonin for a lot of people when it was airing but that season only reminds me of my lowest point on my mental health so despite jaida being one of my favorite winners, it's only based on social media interactions i've seen *after* S12 finished ('vodka or tequila?' 💀) bc the season by itself is unwatchable between the editing around shitty pie and it only serving me as a reminder of what was going on in my life back then