#and then when she threw everything she had into a challenge and MAINTAINED her joy and enthusiasm despite getting crickets in return
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mousemarner · 4 months ago
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Third day in a row of me crying over Jan Sport btw
Second day in a row of me fully crying real tears over Jan thee Sport the queen of my heart
#the good (?) news is I just watched her elimination so there’s not anymore episodes to be devastated over#which as I texted Anna Grace about is both heartbreaking and a relief to watch the rest of the season without a debilitating sense of GRIEF#so so so so so rarely do I watch this show and genuinely from the bottom of my heart feel that someone was WRONGED#that they wholeheartedly from day one to day done deserved a better experience than they got#but it is like all-consuming with her#I have never seen anyone so happy to be there and be a part of things with such an earnest pure love for everything the show is#and they met it with just. simply not giving a single fuck about her#and even when she did THEE best and gave her absolute A Game#she just wasn’t Quite good enough for them#and then when she threw everything she had into a challenge and MAINTAINED her joy and enthusiasm despite getting crickets in return#they were like Well now she wants to please us Too much she’s doing too much#and they sent her home the second they could justify it even though she won the lip sync AND performed better in the challenge#they just didn’t care. she cared so much.#it’s just gut wrenching to watch it’s one of the most heartbreaking things I’ve ever seen play out on reality tv#anyway sorry for being insane#I just have a lot of feelings about rupaul’s drag race and right now All of them are wanting Jan to know how fucking talented#and gorgeous and funny and joyous and GOOD she is#the end#tags#drag race#in my life
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sapphic-yearning-lesbian · 3 years ago
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Animal Companion (RATLD-October Prompt)
Another AU where Namaari didn't try to steal the dragon gem.
I will upload it to A03 eventually.
Timeline: Still 12 years old
Warnings: None
"Pleaseeeee," Raya pouted as she sat at the end of her Ba's bed, clutching a letter close to her chest.
"Dewdrop, it's too early for this," Benja huffed as he shifted onto his side, maintaining his eyes closed. He knew the moment he opened his eyes and looked at his daughter, she would win. "I can't just drop everything and accompany you to Fang today."
"BUT--" Raya pouted as she jerked her body up and down, making the whole bed shake.
"What's so important that you woke me up before the sunrise? Only to ask me to take you to Fang?" He asked as he frowned his eyebrows at Raya's tantrum.
"Namaari is choosing her serlot cub today, and I just really want to be there for her" Raya cut herself off, scared of the personal information she accidentally shared, "I MEAN I want to meet the cub." 
Benja yawned as one eyelid blinked open. Raya looking directly at him, with a pout on her lips, puppy dog eyes, and both hands clasped together at her chest, pleading with him. 
"Tuk Tuk needs a friend! Look at his sad face," Raya said, then pointing to her lap.
Benja finally allowed both his eyelids to open as his gaze fell to Raya's lap. The pill bug also looking up at him with pleading eyes as he silently grunted. "UGHHH," He growled as he shifted to laying on his back, looking up at the ceiling. 
Raya knew her Ba was caving; he just needed a little push. "I realllyyyy think traveling to Fang will give us more time to bound, as the trip there and back is somewhat long by foot..." She grinned as she watched her Ba close his eyes, gulping. "I get to met a serlot cub, and you make up for all the bonding time we've missed this week BECAUSE of your busy schedule."
Benja sat up, a broad grin on his face. "Ohhh, you're good." He chuckled as he nodded yes, Raya screaming in her joy, "I'll take you, but I have to arrange a few things before we go."
Raya nodded her head happily as she threw herself onto her Ba, planting a massive kiss on his cheek.
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"Are you excited, Morning Mist?" Virana asked, reaching out and brushing her daughters hair out of her face. Namaari only looking back at her with such excitement.
"So excited!" She purred
"Princess Namaari" Atitaya voice announced, "Cheif Virana, You have vistors."  
Namaari had her back towards the General, but she watched as a wide grin appeared on her mother's face. "Ohh Chief Benja, and Raya! Welcome! It's a pleasure to see you both!"
No sooner had Namaari heard Raya's name had she fallen face down onto the floor, Raya having tackled her from behind. Everywhere Raya was touching, pulsing with a warmness that made Namaari's heart smile.
Raya lifted herself off Namaari, sitting off to the side, smiling as the other sat up looking at her. 
"Dep La! You came?" Namaari asked in disblief. 
Raya only smirked as her most trusted companion rolled off her shoulder onto Namaari's lap. 
Namaari using one hand to gently scratch his forehead as the other massaged his shell tenderly. "Of course! I couldn't miss the day you met your second best friend" Namaari's smile turned into a smirk as her eyebrows went up, challenging Raya's words.
"Who's my first?" Raya gasped as she let a hand fall against her heart.
"I'll just walk back home then," Raya taunted, but she had no intention of leaving.
"Kidding!" They sat on the floor, looking at each other, just smiling at the other. They've been communicating through letters for weeks, so now being able to see each other in person felt like the first sip of ice-cold water on a hot day.
"Princess," Atitaya announced once again, "It's time."
Both girls squealed as Namaari scooped Tuk Tuk into the palms of her hands, standing up. Once Raya was on their feet, she allowed Tuk Tuk to roll onto her shoulder again. Both of them grinning from ear to ear. "I bet I can get there faster than you," Raya stated with a bobbed eyebrow.
"Challenge accepted," Each of them exchanging a glare as they got into their running stance. "1...2...GO," both girls zooming off in opposite directions, as they didn't know where they were headed. 
After realizing none would win, they slowly jogged back to, Atitaya, Virana, and Benja. Who were engaged in conversation, patiently awaiting the return of the silly princesses.
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"Aren't you a cutie," Raya purred as she held a female serlot up to her face, rubbing her nose against the kittens.
Namaari was happy; she was having a blast sitting on the floor, surrounded by several kittens, but she couldn't feel a connection. Or a spark. And the longer she sat there petting them, taking in their kitten breath, the more guilty she became. "I can't do this." She exclaimed as she lightly pushed three kittens off her lap, standing up running towards the door.
"Morning, Mist! What's wrong?" Virana said, beginning to chase behind her daughter only to be stopped by Benja gently gripping her arm. Virana raising her eyebrows at him as he motioned with his head towards Raya. Virana instantly understating to allow Raya to handle the outburst.
Raya had instantly placed the kitten down, running after Namaari. Yet as she was about to leave the nursery, she spotted a separate room with even younger serlots. She smiled as she instead walked into the room, looking at the four kittens, her eyes landing on the runt of the litter. 
Raya watched as the other siblings tried to gang up on it, only for the runt to hiss and protect herself. That's when Raya knew that kitten was meant to be Namaari's. So without thinking, she scooped up the kitten and ran for the door. She knew she would be in deep trouble for catnapping the kitten, but Raya had to do this for Namaari.
When Namaari exited the nursery, she walked over to a bench and sat down, throwing her head in her hands. She was overwhelmed by the cuteness, but nothing was clicking into place. She thought that she would feel something within her when she saw a kitten or even held it. Yet, she felt like she was cuddling and playing with someones else pets.
"The Namaari I know never runs away! What happened" Raya announced behind Namaari, watching her shoulders go up and down with every breath. 
Namaari shrugged as she exhaled loudly, disappointed in herself.
Raya chuckled as she stood right behind the other, lowering her voice. "You missed a couple of faces on your way out." Raya gently brought the kitten down on Namaari's head, who seemed startled. "She wanted to meet you, but you left so fast she couldn't say hi," Raya whispered as she brought the cat back up.
After having felt tiny paws on her head, Namaari quickly turned around, finding Raya holding the most petite kitten in her hands. The kitten wasn't very happy with Raya, hissing and scratching her hands as if the cat didn't want to be held.
Suddenly the kitten looked at her, and she felt a desire to hold it and keep it safe. So she reached out, grabbing it from Raya's hands. 
The moment she held the cat within her grasp, the serlot sprung into action, scratching her across the cheek. Instead of getting mad, Namaari chuckled. The kitten didn't attempt to strike her again but did continue to hiss. Even so, Namaari watched the kitten with understanding eyes, realizing the kitten was acting in self-defense, scared that Namaari was going to hurt her.
That's when the pieces made sense. This kitten was no older than a month, but she was extremely small, meaning she was the runt of the pack. Being so tiny makes her a target to her siblings, resulting in her being forced to protect herself from danger.
"It's okay! I'm not going to hurt you," Namaari whispered as she slowly pet the kitten. Its hissing increasing as its back arched, yet Namaari wasn't about to give up.
As the slow movements weren't working, Namaari placed the serlot on her lap. The kitten now tugging and biting on her clothing. She knew this should upset her, but she couldn't help but smile, thinking the whole exchange was adorable.
"Hmmm," she thought out loud as she clicked her tongue. "Of course," she thought as she brought her fingers behind the cat's ear, scratching it with her long nails. Within seconds the serlot had stopped hissing and tugging at her clothes, only purring in contentment. Finally, Namaari had connected with her new companion. 
Raya had watched the whole exchange and had just decided to sit beside the other, her hands occupied by petting Tuk Tuk, "So what are you naming your feisty kitten?" 
Namaari was okay with the rest of the world, seeing this kitten as feistily, maybe a little rude, but Namaari knew that there was a softness in this cat that she was going to enjoy unveiling over time: A softness that would only exist for her. And that was enough. "Thuy"
"That's beautiful," Raya comments as she reaches for the kitten. She was half expecting the serlot to hiss, bite or even starch her but instead, Thuy licked her, "You are gentle, making the name perfect for you." 
The princesses having no knowledge that Thuy would grow to be ice cold to everyone besides Namaari, Raya, and Tuk Tuk, while only tolerating Virana. So to the rest of Kumandra, the name Thuy was unfitting. 
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I don't feel strongly about this piece, as I wrote it with a massive headache; even so, I'm just happy I completed it!
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essays-for-breakfast · 3 years ago
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One Look Forward
Melizabethweek Day 1: Flight/Freedom
“For someone who only found out they could fly three days ago, you’re a natural.”
Elizabeth pivoted higher, and the warm Goddess magic trickled through her nervous system, a power that turned the endless sky into her dominion. Her white-feathered wings beat against the force of gravity with ease. She was one with the light and the breeze. When she reached Meliodas’ side, who had been drifting a few dozen yards overhead, she beamed at him.
“In my defense, I do have memories of my first life,” she said. “So it wouldn’t be fair to say that I have no experience.”
Meliodas grinned. “I know. You used to beat me in a race more times than I can remember. But in my defense, I only have two wings instead of four.”
“And still, this never stopped you from inviting me to another challenge.”
“You know me, I’ll never get tired of chasing after you.”
They both laughed. A midair twirl and a somersault later, they interlaced their fingers, and Elizabeth’s heart raced with unparalleled joy, as though it wanted to outrun the winds themselves. Just as she and Meliodas had cast off the shackles of gravity, so too had she left her worries behind. Here, above the clouds, at an altitude where not even the flocks of barnacle geese or the daring goshawk dared to venture, the New Holy War had shrunken to a small scar on the world below them.
Unless she dared a glimpse at the ground. Several miles below, the hills of northern Britannia tasted their first afternoon of freedom.
The battles with the Demon King and Cath Palug had taken place only a day ago. For some people of Britannia, the wounds the forces of darkness and chaos had inflicted would never heal. Grey Demons had consumed hundreds of souls, each one a victim of a war they didn’t understand, and their red brethren had burnt uncounted villages down to the foundation stones. From the terracotta roofs of Sistana to the once lush lilac gardens of Belforet, everywhere across Britannia the New Holy War had claimed its toll.
Little more than a crater remained of Camelot. Thanks in no small part to the attack force of the Seven Deadly Sins.
“What’s with that gloomy face, Elizabeth?” Meliodas asked.
Elizabeth tore herself out of the cluster of her worries. “Don’t worry about me. I was just lost in thought, that’s all.”
“I know you better than that. Whatever it is, you can tell me.”
Elizabeth took time to answer. Her eyes darted across the landscape below them. Between the patches of differing greens and the sparkling rivers woven through the hills nestled Liones capital. Her home.
Their home.
The tall fortifications and the bravery of the kingdom’s Holy Knights hadn’t sufficed in protecting the city. The Demon King’s subjects had broken through the human defenses, and with terrifying ease. Construction sites would disfigure the market alley and the northern quarters for many months to come. The graveyard would see countless more tombstones. Escanor was only one of them.
“It’s just that…” Elizabeth began, struggling to find the right words. “A lot as changed during the New Holy War. And I don’t know if everything changed for the better.”
Meliodas tensed, and the purple Demon magic pulsated across his obsidian wings. “Yeah. It’s a lot to take in.” He placed a hand on her cheek; this touch she cherished more than anything else in this world. “But you know I wouldn’t change one thing. Thanks to this mess of a war, I can be with the woman I love. And I finally fulfilled my promise to you and got rid of your curse. Is it selfish of me if I wanna celebrate that?”
“Not at all! I feel the same. Nevertheless, I can’t help feeling responsible for all the people who are less fortunate.”
Meliodas’ smile showered Elizabeth with so much affection that she almost forgot to keep herself suspended midair with a flap of her wings.
“You’ll never change,” he said. “Always putting others before yourself. Always the hero others can only wish to be. You really are amazing.”
Heat rushed to Elizabeth’s cheeks. “You’re making fun of me…”
“Never. Don’t you know I only escaped Purgatory and drove out my father because of you? Without your kindness and your encouragement, the Demon King would have razed Britannia by now. Guess I need to step up my game to keep up with you.”
“What do you mean?”
“I gave old Bartra’s offer some thought. And I think I wanna accept.”
Elizabeth blinked, and for a moment she thought the squalls might have messed with her ears. “But you said you never wanted a crown! Even three thousand years ago, on the steps of the Heaven’s Theater, you swore that nothing could convince you otherwise.”
Meliodas gave her a half smile. “You remember that?”
“I will never forget! The time we spent there is among the most treasured hours of all my 107 lives.”
Elizabeth averted her eyes. It wasn’t like her to talk with such harsh fervor. Or at least, as the third princess of Liones, she would have never dared to say these things. Her past lives lent her a strength she had been missing before she had embarked on her journey to find the Seven Deadly Sins. How long ago the day seemed since she had stumbled into Meliodas’ tavern. And yet, the past year only amounted to the blink of an eye in the three thousand years they had lost and searched and found one another.
“So why,” Elizabeth continued more quietly, “why have you changed your mind all of a sudden? I wouldn’t want you to abandon your own plans for the future… just for me.”
Meliodas snickered. “You’re too worked up about this. It’s simple: I wanna spent the rest of our days with you, and since you’d never abandon those people down there, I’m not gonna do either. Besides, if anyone can mold me into a good king, it’ll be you, Elizabeth.”
Elizabeth looked at Meliodas, the face of the man she had loved in life and death, through heaven and hell, in times of peace and war. And what she found in his emerald eyes was genuine; a genuine belief in her.
She reciprocated his smile, and without minding the tears veiling her eyes, she threw her arms around his neck. He stroked her hair. They bathed in the familiar warmth of the other, a feeling of security and belonging that only needed one word to describe: home.
Locked in a tight embrace, they pirouetted downward, interwoven like two parts of a porcelain music box who had finally found each other.
“We’re gonna rebuild Liones,” Meliodas whispered into Elizabeth’s hair. “And when we’re done, the kingdom will be in such amazing shape that King and Arthur and all the other uptight royals will pale with jealousy. Can’t wait to see their faces.”
Elizabeth smiled. “Then it’s a promise?”
“It’s a promise.” Meliodas pulled back a little and grinned. “I sure love picking the hardest challenges to turn into a vow, huh?”
“As long as we are together, I believe there is no obstacle we couldn’t overcome. After such long a time, Britannia is free of the fires of war. We have to make sure this freedom lasts. And nothing would make me happier than to stand beside you and protect this peace. On one condition.”
“That being?”
Elizabeth tightened her grip around his shoulders. She felt the Demon magic course through the veins in his back, a power equal parts deadly and comforting.
Familiar. Like home.
“Let’s travel across Britannia before you accept the duty as king of Liones,” Elizabeth said. “It’s been so long since we could fly together like this. I want to maintain this feeling for a little while longer.”
Meliodas grinned. “I don’t think we’re gonna do much flying. You’re just going to stop and offer a helping hand to every poor soul we come across, aren’t you? Kay, then I’m in. In fact, I can’t imagine anything I’d rather do, Elizabeth.”
The tears welled up again. “I’m so glad to be with you.”
“Me too. Although Bartra probably won’t be too thrilled with the plan. I better write my testament before admitting to him that I plan to take his daughter and drag her all across Britannia for the next couple months.”
Elizabeth chuckled and swiped an escaped tear from her cheek. “After all the battles we fought, I believe we can even take on the wrath of my father.”
“Together?”
“Together.”
Hand in hand, Meliodas and Elizabeth drifted across the sky above Liones. They would return to the ground and face responsibility soon enough. But this first afternoon of freedom deserved to be savored for a little while longer.
A small, selfish while amidst the clouds.
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eyesfixedonthesun22 · 5 years ago
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New Year’s Eve
Summary: Steve and Peggy have a good friend who’s a handyman that comes and helps you out.  Pairing: Butcher/Handyman!Bucky x Female Reader Warning(s): Pure fluff. Widowed Bucky. Word Count: 2,711 Notes: This is my entry to @nacho-bucky‘s writing challenge! My prompt was “The smell of cologne on warm skin”. Thanks for hosting darling Cait!
“Do you need any help washing the dishes?” Peggy calls from your living room. Her and Steve lay sprawled across your couch, fire crackling and spitting in the hearth, spilling warm light in the otherwise dim room.
“I’m okay. The water pressure is still on the fritz. It takes so long to do them that I’ll end up doing most of them tomorrow.”
“It’s still-hic-broken?” Steve asks while rubbing his belly hoping to relieve some of the tension.
You can’t help the soft chuckle. He always got belchy when he overstuffed himself on your chicken pot pie. Tonight was no exception.
“The kitchen sink pressure is busted. The light switch for the second bedroom doesn’t work, my shower scalds me randomly. Ah the joy of owning an old house with charm.”
You’d moved to the small cozy town in upstate New York two years ago. Peggy and Steve lived a couple blocks away. After realizing that you and Peggy both worked at the same hospital, the two of you had become fast friends and Steve came along with her. You were a nurse at the town’s Veteran’s Affairs Hospital, and she helped coordinate the hospitals volunteer department. You were frequent visitors at each other’s homes for dinner.
“Really hun you should get those fixed.”
“I know. I’d fix it myself but electrical and plumbing are where my homemaking abilities stop.”
“I know someone who could help.” Steve chimes in. “I think he’s free tomorrow. He usually takes Sunday’s off from the shop and does some handyman work on the side. I could text him?”
You pause for a moment contemplating. Normally you’d balk at hiring help but if Peggy and Steve endorsed this handyman then he was trustworthy enough to let into your home where you lived alone. Probably kind enough not to comment on any mishaps you’d made in maintaining on your own either. Besides, you weren’t getting anywhere solving the issue on your own. You kept telling yourself that you’d set something up on your days off or take a look at it after your shifts. That had been happening since you’d moved in.
“Fine. Send him over.”
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“The sink first? No, the shower?” You scratch out your writing and reorder the to do list on the house once more when a firm knock nearly startles you out of your seat.
You aren’t sure what you’re expecting when you throw the door open in the late December cold, but it certainly isn’t James Barnes.
He’s a tall man. Nearly appearing to fill your doorway before you invite him in. While he takes off a bright red knit cap and gloves, you take a moment to study him further. He folds the hat and gloves with a delicate reverence and large calloused hands before tucking them both inside the pockets of his jacket.
The planes of his face are that of a different era somehow. Softer. His full cheeks are flush and rosy. A stunning compliment next to the blue of his eyes. The brunette hair that was previously hidden by the winter hat falls nearly to his shoulders and curls at the ends ever so slightly. He’s clearly a strong man but it’s blanketed by a soft belly that strains the waist of his pants where his flannel is tucked.
“James, right?”
“Yes, ma’am.” He stands politely in the entryway of your home glancing around a moment before you realize he’s waiting for instructions. “Steve said you needed some help with plumbing and electrical work.”
“Ah yes! I made a list but I’m not sure what will make the most sense to start with.” You start towards the kitchen but don’t hear any footfalls behind you. “James?”
“I only have my boots,” he says plainly while staring at the footwear. “They’re covered in snow. I don’t want to track it in.”
“Just leave them by the door.”
You could have sworn you saw the rosy blush in the large man’s cheeks deepen. There was something strangely intimate about seeing him pad towards you in his woolen socks, toolbox in hand.
You’d shown James your list and it had been as if his entire demeanor had shifted. He asked you quick questions, took notes, looked at and studied the defective appliances. Gone was the shyness. Instead was a confidence and assuredness you found pleasing. You found yourself wondering why you’d waited so long to get these things fixed in the first place.    
The afternoon had gone by with light snow flurries falling on top of the white blanket already coating the ground. You lit a fire once more and baked some molasses cookies. It was a warm spiced recipe you hadn’t had since your childhood. The task gave you something to do with your hands while a stranger roamed around in your bathroom; dangerously near your shampoo. When the cookies were iced you found yourself placing a small pile onto a smaller plate and walking to the bathroom.
“Cookies?”
“These look wonderful.”
He wipes his hands clean and before you can blink, he inhales two of the cookies. “These are the best cookies I’ve ever tasted.”
“I think you’re flattering me.”
“I’m serious! My wife wasn’t much of a cook. She used to burn nearly everything. I had to do most of the cooking, or we went over to Peggy and Steve’s. Before they moved up here of course.”
“I can send the recipe home with you. So, she can try to bake these.”
You aren’t sure what you’ve said but his face falls for a moment before regaining a small sad smile. “I’ll take the recipe, but she won’t be baking them I’m afraid. My wife, Natasha, she passed away five years back.”
“I’m so sorry, James. I didn’t know.”
“It’s okay. Steve doesn’t talk about her much. He took it really hard. Blames himself. They used to work together you see.”
You absently grab a cookie to avoid saying something else foolhardy. These two years with Peggy and Steve and not once had they mentioned James nor his wife Natasha or this past life. Some wounds must really run deep.
“You’re in your head,” James says nudging your shoulder. You hadn’t realized how close the two of you had gotten in the small space. At this range you could smell his cologne. There was something woodsy about it. Like clean pine needles and amber. You found yourself knowing he’d be wonderful to be wrapped up in on a cold day like today while the snow falls in front of your fireplace. You cursed yourself for the indulgent thought after just learning the fate of his wife.
His smile warms you once more. “I’ll have to come back. The plumbing tasks were more complicated than I anticipated, and I’ll need to go pick up parts. Does tomorrow work for you? I know it’s New Year’s Eve, but Steve said you were eager for it to be fixed.”
“I’m gonna kill that man when I see him.”
“I know the feeling.”
James’s laugh was one you felt reverberate from deep down in his chest. The thing seemed to fill him up and warm his cheeks once more from the inside.
“I’m free tomorrow.”
***
This time when James knocks on your door you’re ready for the blue of his eyes to knock you off your feet. He nearly bounds through the door; following a similar routine as the day before. He folds the red hat and gloves neatly and places them in his jacket pocket, but this time removes his boots and sets them confidently on your shoe stand.
“I was thinking of getting started on the kitchen tasks if that’s okay with you.”
***
“Oh shit. Shit shit shit.”
“Everything okay?” James voice sounds from the cabinet under your sink.
“Well Peggy and Steve asked me if I’m willing to cook this very specific dish for their New Year’s Eve party and I said yes a while back, but I’d forgotten about it until now.”
“And the party is tonight. And all the stores and closed.”
“How’d you guess?”
“Well first, it is New Year’s Eve. And second, I’m going too.” He pauses sheepishly enjoying your mild panic. You hurry about the kitchen opening and closing various cabinets trying not to trip over his tools that are scattered in front of the sink. “What if I finish up here and then you come down the shop and I’ll let you get what you need there?”
“The shop?”
You vaguely remember Steve saying that this was something his friend did in his spare time, but you hadn’t paused to ask what his primary job was.
“My butcher shop. I own the shop on the corner of Miller and Melrose in town.”
“The really beautiful one? Blue and white building? Red letters?”
“That’s the one. But really, it’s nothing. Plus, then I can say I helped and then my store-bought cookies won’t seem like such a consolation dish.”
“Deal.”
***
The shop is dark and quiet; closed for the New Year’s holiday. You’d made several protests on the drive over to James about the inconvenience, but he’d shrugged them all off.
“What’s the point of owning a grocery and butcher shop if I can’t help out my friends when they’re in need,” he said with a bright grin before disappearing into the back room to get you the cuts of meat you’d ask for your braised short rib recipe. You wondered when he’d crossed from your handyman into friend. Then again, he’s Steve and Peggy’s friend. And he is awfully easy to talk to. Perhaps he is a friend already.  
You quickly threw everything you needed into your tote. His shop was small but well stocked with everything you needed. You hesitated at the small old-time cash register. Surely, he’d let you pay. He had to. You set the bag on the counter and, against your instincts, go behind the counter and into the back room.
“James, I need to know how much I owe you. Come ring me up?” you joke.
Your laughter is cut off slightly when you find him hunched over a large stainless-steel table, clad in a black rubber apron, slim sharp knife in hand and a full side of beef on the table. He’s at work slicing and cutting.
It’s a grace you’d never have guessed his large frame and calloused hands capable of possessing. Before, you’d seen the brute strength he’s capable off with the other chores at the house, but this was different. Each stroke was deliberate. Each knick, precise. He could have done this with his eyes closed.
“Just the short ribs or did you want some extras for later in the week for yourself while I have this out.”
You startle a bit clearly engrossed in watching his hands make quick work of the animal. “You really didn’t have to get this all out for me. I feel horrible.”
“Well I knew the boys had already closed up last night, holiday and all. I don’t mind. Really.” His blue eyes finally look up from the knife work into your own. “Let’s get you some steaks and stew meat.”
“Are you coming over for pot roast and steaks?”
“Is that an invite?”
It was hard to guess who was blushing more.
***
“I’m gonna need to be here in the kitchen while you work if these are going to be done on time for dinner. Is that okay?”
“Of course. It’s your house, doll. Besides, I’m nearly finished and I’m sure the smells will be amazing.”
You go along slicing the onions and searing the short ribs until they’re caramelized a deep brown on the outside. The onions get added and a hefty amount of garlic next. It’s about this time that James pops his head out from under the sink.
“All done. Plus, that smell is heavenly. What is it?”
“Garlic and onion.”
You add in the red wine to the heavy bottomed dutch oven and throw the dish into the oven for the next two hours. It’s shockingly easy to pass the time with James until the short ribs are done. The only difficult thing is swatting James away from the oven from “checking” on them every twenty minutes or so.
Steve and Peggy only live a short walk away but it’s blustery cold and halfway down your block you can feel your ears are stiff and red with chill. James has offered to carry the dutch oven full of short ribs and you carry his box of cookies.
“You didn’t bring a hat. Did you?”
“I’ll be okay. The walk isn’t far.”
He sighs before stopping and setting the crock on the sidewalk and removes the knit cap from his head. His mitten covered hands don’t give you a chance to voice your protest before he’s dragging the material onto your head and over your ears. In seconds they could scream thank you for having a barrier to the wind.
“Thank you, James.”
***
“Why are you wearing his hat?” Peggy exclaims before you can get your whole body through the door.
“Because my ears nearly fell off my head?”
“That’s the hat Natasha knitted him. He nearly went on a murderous rampage when he left it on a city bus one time. I know you don’t quite comprehend what that means but it’s serious.”
You glance across the room looking at James.
He’s engrossed in a conversation with Steve. His plump cheeks are a pink as ever. You’d learned that it never really goes away. You found it rather endearing. He looked beautiful with a flush on his skin. Steve must have said something funny because James’s little belly jumps up and down with each chuckle that tumbles from his lips. He certainly doesn’t look like someone capable of murderous rampage.
“I’m starting to think that maybe Steve should have suggested Bucky’s handyman services sooner.”
“Bucky?”
“His nickname.”
“Yeah well...so am I.”
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The dinner party is small. New Year’s is rung in with drinks, laughter, and friends. Everyone enjoyed the braised short ribs and even Bucky’s (you’d teased him calling him this for the first time) cookies got sufficiently nibbled on.
“Can I walk you home?”
“Is James walking me home or is Bucky?”
You can’t tell if it’s the party jubilations, but you swear you see an eye roll as he playfully pushes you towards the door and your hosts. Steve wraps you in a massive hug, Peggy plants a kiss on your cheek and everyone says their goodbyes and Happy New Year’s.
The blustery wind from before has died down and the snow falls in delicate flakes undisturbed except from your footfalls. The world seems blanketed in a cold snow globe of silence.
“You know you had to walk back to my place anyway, right?” You finally break the silence. “Your truck is there, ya goof.”
He slips an unmittened hand into yours before saying, “Yeah, but I wanted to anyway.”
“Peggy told me about your hat and gloves.”
“Natasha took up sewing and knitting. She was good too; quick with her hands, I guess. She wanted to have a repair shop one day. Said she liked that being a seamstress almost always meant putting things back together and being a fixer.”
“That’s a really beautiful way to look at it. I managed to learn sewing pretty well but knitting I never mastered. Natasha must have been a special lady. I could only manage straight lines and barely that. There’s a graveyard of Frankenstein mittens lurking somewhere upstairs at my place.”
With that you earned what was becoming one of your favorite sounds; his booming laughter.  
James comes in at the promise of a hot toddy; as repayment for saving the day. The two of you are sat in front of the fire on your couch when, in a stroke of boldness, you pull his arm over your shoulder. Leaning into his side you can once again smell his cologne wafting off the warm skin from his neck; sweet amber mixing with the bourbon and cinnamon of the drinks and something deeper.
“Is this okay?”
He sighs a contented sound and nuzzles you closer into his soft side. “This is okay.”
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whereyoursoulresides · 4 years ago
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Without Words II - Our Orbiting Paths, Chapter 1
Summary: In their third life, Kunzite has finally won the heart of Zoisite’s civilian reincarnation, Kozakura Izou. However, as their lives become progressively more intertwined, certain challenges begin to crop up… Between the stresses of work, adjusting to modern expectations, and old familiar faces flashing from the shadows, can Kunzite maintain a meaningful relationship with his partner successfully?
Rating: T+
Characters Featured in Fic: Kunzite, Zoisite, Nephrite, Jadeite, Naru, Umino
Chapter Summary: It's been a few months of dating now, and Kunzite thinks they're ready to take it to the next step.
AO3 Link Here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/27826732/chapters/68145631#workskin
“Oh, you should’ve seen it, Kunihiro-sama,” the voice was saying over the phone. “Absolutely atrocious, I had never seen anything like it!”
“Hmn,” was all Kunzite said, albeit with a bit of a smile. He didn’t usually have much opinion on the matters of Izou’s latest gossip, but he was happy to hear Izou talk about anything at all. He took another bite of his dinner - plain white rice and grilled salmon. “And then?”
“Oh, I took myself right out of that business,” Izou continued, and Kunzite could just imagine his curls frazzedly waving in exasperation.
“It sounds like you might be out-growing that coffee shop,” was Kunzite’s observation.
Izou huffed over the phone. “Entirely possible. The staff is completely different now. Honestly, Kunihiro-sama, these new girls, sometimes their attitude is just appal- ow! ”
Kunzite quickly pushed some loose grains of rice past his lips. “Mn. Izou? Are you alright?”
There was a little hiss, and then a whine.
“Yes, I’m fine,” Izou answered. “Just a prick, that’s all.” The words came out mumbly as Kunzite could hear him suck on his finger. “Shoot, that smarts!”
Kunzite shook his head fondly. “Be careful,” he chided as he began to clean up the remnants of his dinner. He had about another five minutes of his break left. “Perhaps we shouldn’t chat if you need to concentrate...”
“Mn, oh no!” Izou insisted. The sound of the phone being adjusted to his ear cackled over the receiver. “At any rate, what time are you finishing tonight, Kunihiro-sama?���
“Late,” Kunzite answered. He glanced at the clock. “About midnight, I think.”
“Oh.” Izou sounded disappointed. “It’s been so long…”
It had perhaps only been a week since they'd last seen each other in person, but to both it had felt like an eternity. Between Kunzite’s long and odd working hours at the precinct and Izou’s equally erratic shifts at the coffee shop, it was difficult to set a real date time consistently, and every window of opportunity was never wasted. Although they chatted every night (and occasionally stumbled to work from either other’s homes), it seemed that their craving for the other’s physical presence was only growing exponentially by the day.
“I know,” Kunzite said kindly. He missed Izou too.
Izou seemed to gather up some strength. “Were you able to eat? You’ve mentioned before it’s tricky to get a meal in sometimes…”
Kunzite threw the plastic container out into the garbage under the sink.
“I managed to grab something. Although I must be hanging up soon, Izou…”
“Oh, okay,” Izou said in a rush. “Well, um, maybe I could drop by tomorrow, before my shift? I start late in the afternoon…”
Kunzite smiled. “That’d be lovely. Whatever works for you.”
“Okay.” Izou paused as though to say something pressing, but Kunzite chalked it up to their usual anxieties of never wanting to hang up. “Take care,” he finally said.
Kunzite tilted his head warmly.
“You as well. Chat soon.”
After hanging up the phone, Kunzite finished tidying up the break room and returned to his desk. In one corner stood the small rosebush that Izou had managed to resurrect. It was Kunzite’s pride and joy in the office, a perfect reminder in lieu of their photo from the Dark Kingdom. As he settled himself amongst his papers and computers, he thought briefly of how lucky he was. It was so surreal to think that this was where they - he and Izou -  were now.
In the past few months, Izou’s memories of his third life had rapidly solidified, and it had been fascinating to Kunzite to learn everything about Kozakura Izou. His parents - a concept that Kunzite was still struggling to come to terms with - lived in the countryside, on a small, modest farm. His mother was an artist, and his father was a photographer. Izou himself had moved to Tokyo at age fourteen to better his schooling and career opportunities. In between part time work and school, Izou loved to read, thrift, garden, and shop. His creativity energy would burst into little endeavours - sketches, doodles, collages - and was increasingly weaving into his sense of style and fashion. It wasn’t uncommon for Kunzite to hear a little yelp or hiss over the phone as he had earlier- followed by the endearing dismayed whine - from sewing accidents wherein Izou had stabbed himself at his fingertips. As Kunzite flipped through his briefing updates in his hands, he wondered which project Izou had been working on today, and if he would be seeing it soon.
“Saitou-san.”
Kunzite glanced up to see a younger officer leaning over the corner of his cubicle. He was holding two folders in one hand, while the other was scratching his head under his cap. Behind him, Kunzite caught a glimpse of the civilian as she left the precinct, her dark auburn hair swinging behind her.
“Yes, Kobayashi-san?”
“I just got another statement about the nondescript white van. That makes five so far.”
“No attacks?”
“None, just trailing.” Kobayashi scrunched up his nose. “It’s hard to get an idea though on where to begin. No identifiable markings, and none of the license plates line up. Still seems worth investigating.”
Kunzite’s eyes drifted to the other folder. “And the other case?”
“Mn? Oh. Just another sighting of the cargo truck with the black star. No attacks yet this week, but it’s definitely suspicious.” He looked at Kunzite sheepishly. “I guess you’ll probably want the more exciting one, huh?”
If it was one thing Kunzite knew very well, it was patterns. And he knew what would follow the cargo truck with the black star all too well.
“I’ll take the van,” he said curtly, taking the folder.
The younger officer grinned in excitement, holding the remaining case to his chest.
“Maybe this means I’ll get to meet a Sailor Senshi…!”
“I think you have much more pressing concerns than that,” Kunzite said crossly. He gestured to some of the boxes stacked up at the farthest wall of the precinct. “Why don’t you start setting those up instead.”
Flushing embarrassedly, Kobayashi straightened immediately.
“Yes sir!”
As the younger officer hurried off to set up the precinct’s newest surveillance testing program, Kunzite shook his head. Although he was the senior officer, occasionally Kunzite felt more like an unofficial mother hen than a leader. Quickly, he brushed the thought aside and returned to his paperwork with a sigh.
And when else had he felt like that before…?
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It had been a long night. While his precinct also technically dealt with thefts, burglaries, and other emergencies, Kunzite found the public-facing aspect of his job far more draining. Although he usually could leave it to the younger officers, the fact remained that most of them still needed guidance and training, which Kunzite had to deliver. By the time he climbed his way up to the top floor of his low-rise apartment, Kunzite’s stomach was rumbling, and he was ready to hit the hay.
However, upon arriving at his door, Kunzite was greeted by a little surprise that woke him right up.
“Izou?”
The young man had been sitting by the door, shrouded in a thick winter jacket with a backpack to his side. Seeing Kunzite, he jumped to his feet. “Kunihiro-sama, welcome home!” It was the biggest grin Kunzite had seen all day.
Despite himself, Kunzite couldn’t help but reflect a slightly confused smile back. He gently laid a hand on the small of Izou’s back. “What are you doing here?” he asked. “Is everything alright?”
“Oh, yes,” Izou assured, lifting what looked like a large stack of lunch boxes wrapped in a spring green cloth. “I thought you could use something heartier so late after dinner time,” he said cheerfully. “It’s just some takeout, but…”  His cheeks glowed faintly. “But...I couldn’t wait until tomorrow.”
As Kunzite inserted his key, he had to do his best to keep from growing into a ridiculous grin. Izou was just so sweet and thoughtful.
“You really shouldn’t have,” Kunzite finally said, as the bolt unlocked. Izou glanced up uncertainty.
“Was it too forward of me?” he asked.
Kunzite finally let the fondness of his smile show, and gently nudged Izou into the door.
“Not at all.” I’ve missed you too. “Please. Come in.”
Splitting into a grin, Izou slipped off his shoes and leapt inside. As he got settled and began to unpack the food, Kunzite’s smile faded when he realized how late it truly was. One in the morning, and while his area was safer than Izou’s neighbourhood, the city could still be a very dangerous beast at this hour.
“How long were you waiting for?” he asked as he slid out of his own shoes, watching Izou for any indication of polite refrain.
“Oh, not long,” Izou answered merrily, now plating the food into bowls. He gathered up the paper and plastic and swirled around to throw them into the garbage, not noticing Kunzite’s knitting brows.
“Izou.”
The boy paused for a moment to look up at Kunzite hesitantly. “About an hour,” he answered quickly. “But I knew you might be late so I brought a book, so it’s okay, really.” He then returned to cleaning up and setting the kettle for some tea.
Kunzite glanced down at the key that was still in his hand, and made up his mind. As Izou began undoing the tea tin, Kunzite gently but protectively began to wrap his arms around the younger man’s waist, bringing him close to his chest. Izou was clearly delighted by the closeness and looked over his shoulder to shyly smile at Kunzite.
“The city can be dangerous this late at night,” Kunzite murmured quietly into Izou’s soft hair. “You should be more careful…”
Izou was obviously touched by Kunzite’s concern, and brushed it off. “I’m fine, I can take care of myself,” he insisted. He placed one of his own hands on Kunzite’s forearm. “Don’t worry.”
Of course Kunzite couldn’t help but worry, he’d been worrying about Izou even before he had met him in this life.  
“Maybe you should consider a different place to live,” Kunzite suggested. “Somewhere safer.”
Izou shrugged and began to swirl the tea leaves budding in the hot water. “Maybe once I have a little more money,” he agreed.
It took Kunzite a few moments to consider what his next words were going to be. Eventually, he pulled one arm away from Izou and placed the key, with purpose, onto the counter in Izou’s line of sight.
“I was thinking…” Kunzite mumbled softly, “that maybe you’d like to live with me.”
At first, Izou blinked at the piece of metal on the counter, not entirely sure if he was understanding, or had correctly caught what Kunzite had said. Unawares, Kunzite tightened his hug marginally, hoping that his suggestion wasn’t a step too far.
Slowly Izou turned his head around to look up at him. When Kunzite saw those big, bright and breathless eyes, he knew his fears were unfounded.
“Really?” Izou whispered, almost shyly. “You...think we’re ready for that?”
It was clear by Izou’s exhilarated whisper that he clearly was delighted to think they were, and Kunzite was definitely certain they were. Well, he was also certain because of how well he and Zoisite had lived together in the past… So, surely they were more than ready to move in together by now.
“Absolutely.”
It was clear Izou could hardly believe this turn of events, trying his best to hide the big grin Kunzite could tell was growing on his face. Finally, after rolling his bottom lip between his teeth, Izou beamed and nodded.
“Sure.”
It took nearly all of Kunzite’s willpower to not pick up Izou and swirl him around in his new home. Instead Kunzite simply broke into a smile again, followed by a short, relieved chuckle...Very quickly, the two of them were grinning and flushing together with excitement. Was this it? Were they really ready for this? It was as if both men were suppressing an armory of feeling that they were not yet ready to give words to, and giggling and laughing was the closest way they had to release the tension of mounting exhiliation that they were both trying to restrain.
“I’ll help you move in, the next time you’re free,” Kunzite said earnestly, seeing that he wasn’t alone in wanting to live together as soon as possible.
“I don’t have much stuff,” Izou replied, who couldn’t stop grinning behind his hands. “Although...I don’t have much money for my share of rent...”
“You don’t have to worry about any of that,” Kunzite reassured immediately. “I’ll take care of everything.”
Izou’s eyebrows stitched up together. “But...what about food?” He glanced around. “Utilities…”
“I’ll take care of everything,” Kunzite repeated again, firmly but gently. “I want to share my home with you. I want it to be our home. I’ll get everything ready.”
It was clear Izou couldn’t believe his luck. He was practically dancing into Kunzite’s arms when suddenly realization flickered across his face. Kunzite caught it instantly and his smile disappeared. “What is it?”
Izou didn’t say anything, but green eyes darted over to the bathroom. There was a moment of silence as both of them realized what Izou had just remembered... and Kunzite suddenly felt a bit awkward and unprepared.
“It’s okay,” he insisted, although he knew the memory of it wasn’t exactly pleasant. “Everything’s  been removed, I promise.”
Hesitantly Izou glanced up at Kunzite, and it was clear how conflicted he felt about the situation.
“It’s empty,” Kunzite insisted again. “You can fill it with your things when you move in. Izou’s things.”
This seemed to make Izou feel a bit better, and the smile slowly resurfaced back up a bit. “Well it’s...not like I didn’t like the stuff ,” he mumbled a bit. “I mean, I did like that stuff and I still do like it but...it was just a bit weird seeing it all there ready for you, you know?”
“I understand.” Kunzite gently gave Izou a bit of squeeze.
“Did you really throw it all out though?” Izou asked. “It would’ve been a waste...I suppose I wouldn’t mind using it if you still have it.”
At that, Kunzite paused. He had gotten rid of it from the bathroom, but hadn’t actually thrown the items out…
Izou looked up curiously. “Kunihiro-sama?”
“Truthfully?” Kunzite asked.
“Truthfully,” Izou answered, but the smile on his face gave away that he was going to be okay with whatever Kunzite answered.
“Don’t look in the closet.”
Despite himself, Izou couldn’t help but giggle, and Kunzite’s shoulders released with relief. As Izou tried to hide his laughter behind his hand, Kunzite glanced up at the clock and saw how even later it was getting.
“Let’s eat.” He slowly undid his arms around Izou and lightly grazed Izou’s cheek as he pulled away. “I’ll undress and we’ll have supper.”
“Wait.” Izou took a step forward and placed his hand on Kunztie’s chest to stop him. There was a moment, and Izou’s eyes slowly trailed up from the bottom of Kunzite’s uniform, from its hem to his belt, to finally his eyes. “...Keep them on?”
Kunzite could tell that look anywhere and, hiding a smirk, he obliged. Gathering the food from the counter, the two of them made their way over to the couch to settle in for some cozy dinner. As Izou made himself comfortable nestling in Kunzite’s arms as they flicked the television on, Kunzite couldn't help but relish this humble but incredible moment between them.
Zoisite was finally home.
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Like a Million Dollar Bill | Jessence
Title: Like a Million Dollar Bill Summary:  Jaida has recently come to terms with being a widow after her husband suddenly passed under totally normal and not at all suspicious circumstances. As the sole heir, she also suddenly finds herself richer than she could ever imagine. But she doesn't stay a lonely widow for long, as one night at her friend's lounge brings a woman into her life that might even be more valuable than her fortune. Word Count: ~3.2k Relationship(s): Jessence (Jan Sport/Jaida Essence Hall) Rating: E Notes: this is my submission for the black girl magic fic challenge so a note for that is the title is from the song 'million dollar bill' by whitney houston. also big thanks to @janssports for beta-ing
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“That finalizes everything, Mrs. Whitham, and again, I am so sorry for your loss.” The man from the probate court shook Jaida’s hand before she got up to leave.
Jaida did her best to maintain the miserable expression she had on through the funeral. She thought about the disdain she felt when the man used her married name, how desperate she was to regain her sense of individual identity. She was free, only if she played her cards right. But this was a long time coming, to say the least. “Thank you so much, sir.” She dabbed her eyes with a handkerchief before leaving the room.
Sitting on a bench in the hallway was her younger sister, Heidi. She got up and took her hand. “You good?” she asked gently, coming off as nothing more than the concerned sibling of a grieving widow. But the look in her eyes reminded Jaida that she knew. She knew it all. Someone had to, lest the burden of keeping a secret became overwhelming and came out to the wrong person.
And Jaida continued to play her role, standing upright and swallowing thickly, because she was just struggling to stay strong. “I will be,” she said with a tremor in her voice.
“Who did he appoint as the…” Heidi furrowed her brows as she wracked her brain. “What’s the word again? For the person that’s gonna transfer his funds to you?”
“Executor,” she answered. “And it’s his sister, lord help me.” She sighed. Her deceased husband’s family had never been fond of her - due both to the twenty-year gap that existed in their relationship and outright racism. The only upside to that was no one outside the family took their complaints very seriously, but that didn’t mean she was at all happy to have to deal with her. “Anyway, I’m gonna go to Shea’s lounge tonight. She’s got a new singer, should be cute. You wanna come?”
Her sister shook her head. “Naw, I gotta get my ass up early to finish packing. Gonna take some time to move into that fancy-ass mansion.” She chuckled. It might not have been the best time to be visibly excited, but she was so thrilled to get herself and her dogs out of her one bedroom, seven hundred square-foot apartment.
“Suit yourself.” Jaida shrugged as she pulled her coat on. “I’ll call you tomorrow.”
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The lounge Shea owned was chic, calm, a place Jaida would probably still frequent if it wasn’t her best friend’s pride and joy. It was the type of place where she could dress up to go to, without feeling like she had to be on her best, most reserved behavior. And after all of the day’s events, she just wanted to relax, entering the club and making a beeline to her friend.
“Hey, I’m so glad you made it!” Shea beamed, hugging her tightly. “Just wait until you see our new act. She’s fresh out of university with a fancy musical theatre degree, and the bitch can sing. It’s fucking angelic, Jaida.” She didn’t mention Jaida’s husband’s death at that moment. While she didn’t know exactly what happened, she knew how miserable Jaida had been, how there hadn’t been any love between them in god knows how long. She knew how poorly he treated her and that his death probably wasn’t the worst thing in the world.
Jaida chuckled, walking with her to the bar while Shea ordered them a couple of drinks. “Damn, you really hyped her up, I’m gonna just take your word on it,” she assured, taking a sip of her drink when the bartender placed it beside her.
“Just come on, her set’s about to start,” Shea threw some money down on the counter and pulled Jaida along to one of the velvet couches so they could sit and watch.
Jan walked onto the stage, the spotlight framing her perfectly. She wore a strapless wine-red dress that just hit the ground and was tailored perfectly to her body, accentuating her curves while giving her an air of elegance one would expect from an upscale lounge singer. And her voice was as enchanting as Shea had talked it up to be and then some. There was no doubt that every patron of that lounge had their attention fixed solely on the stage.
“So, what do you think?” Shea asked once the first song had ended.
Jaida grinned, her gaze never breaking away from the singer. “I think I’m in love,” she retorted.
Her friend looked at her and let out a soft laugh. “What, are you following in your husband’s–may he rest in peace–footsteps? She’s twenty-two.”
“Bitch, I’m forty, not eighty. This is a new chapter in my life, who’s to say I can’t include a hot twenty-something in it?” Jaida scoffed.
Shea finished off her drink. “You know what? I respect that. I’ll introduce you two once she’s done,” she decided.
And true to her word, Shea took Jaida backstage once Jan’s set was over. “Wonderful job, darling,” she said as she walked in. “Jan, I’d like you to meet my dear friend, Jaida. We met when we were both in college, so, back when we were about your age.”
Jan looked at Jaida, tilting her head. “Well, how’s that possible when you’re clearly not a day over twenty-five?”
Shea rolled her eyes. “Oh lord, I’ll leave you guys to it,” she said and left the two of them alone.
Jaida chuckled. “Don’t you worry about her,” she said to Jan. “But anyway, you really were fantastic out there. That fancy college degree I keep hearing about did you well.”
Jan smiled, absentmindedly twirling her hair around her finger. “Why thank you. With all the debt it plunged me into, it better.”
The older woman clicked her tongue sympathetically. “Shit, how far in the hole are you?”
“About thirty grand.”
Jaida glanced around, then sat down beside Jan. “Listen, don’t go telling nobody, but I got you. I’m a couple days away from coming into a lot of money, like, well into seven figures.” She didn’t give a specific number because she wasn’t entirely sure how it all worked, but she could hire someone to explain it to her.
Jan’s eyes went wide and her jaw hung open. “A-Are you sure? I mean, thank you, that’s so kind. But if you don’t mind me asking… How’d you come into that kind of money?”
“Inheritance,” she replied, biting back a smirk.
“That’s just… incredible. If there’s anything I can do to thank you…”
Jaida waved her hand, brushing the suggestion off. “You don’t have to do anything. But I wouldn’t say no if you wanted to let me buy you a drink when you’re done for the night.”
Jan fluttered her eyelashes and shifted closer to her. “Of course, I was hoping this might be a little more than a random philanthropic act.”
This brought a feeling of relief to Jaida, the last thing she wanted was for Jan to feel obligated to express romantic or sexual interest in her. “I’ll see you on the other side, then,” she hummed as she got up and returned to the lounge, ready to watch Jan on stage for the rest of her shift. The only time her gaze broke was to text her driver to be on his way.
And once it ended, the two of them reconvened at the bar, with Jaida ordering them both a drink. “So, have you always been a singer?” she asked casually.
“Oh yeah, since I was four.” Jan chuckled. “At the end of the day there was just no other choice for me.”
“I like a girl that knows what she wants out of life,” Jaida mused, taking the glass once it was set down in front of her and sipping from it.
Jan smiled, lips just barely pursed around the rim of the glass. She sipped slowly, then set it down as she looked at her. “Then tell me,” she prompted, “what do you want?” She leaned ever so slightly closer, a sultry air lacing around her words.
Jaida smirked, pointedly looking her over. “Something about five-foot-four, brown eyes, voice of an angel…” she listed, voice trailing off as she spoke. “You know, something along those lines.”
Jan set her glass down once it was empty. “You better be taking that something back to your place then,” she replied simply.
“I intend on it,” she hummed. “You ever been in a Rolls Royce?”
“I don’t think I’ve ever seen one.”
Jaida grinned, leaving cash down for the bartender before getting up. “Come, Ralph is waiting out back for us.”
Jan tilted her head as she followed. “Ralph?”
“My driver. I inherited the staff as well, but they all liked me better anyway.” She chuckled as they went outside and stepped into the car, exchanging casual greetings with the driver.
While Jan did try to keep her attention on Jaida, she was distracted by how luxurious and pristine the car was, and when they pulled up to Jaida’s house, her eyes went wide. “This is where you live?” she gasped softly.
“Not too shabby, huh?” Jaida hummed as they got out of the car. “A lot of the staff lives here, no point in having a bunch of empty rooms. And my sister’s moving in tomorrow,” she explained, leading her inside.
Jan was trying her best to listen, but taking in everything around her meant her focus was being pulled in six different directions. It reminded her of her first time in Manhattan — everything was big and shiny, but she didn’t think she could touch anything yet. The first thing her hand felt was the railing of the spiral staircase she was following Jaida up.
“And this is my room. It could do with an update, I ain’t gonna lie. But she’s comfy and spacious, can’t really complain.” Jaida hummed. She had been the one that had pushed for such a big bed, and although she was quick to adjust to sleeping in it alone, she was more than happy to bring in new company. She turned to see that Jan had taken off her shoes and thrown herself onto the bed, sprawled out on her back and giggling softly to herself. “Feel free to make yourself at home.”
“Sorry, it just looked so inviting. I couldn’t help myself,” Jan replied, sitting back up.
Jaida smiled as she toed out of her heels. “I’m not mad, you look good in my bed.” She hummed, letting her eyes rake over Jan’s body.
“I’d look even better up close,” she cooed, beckoning Jaida closer with a curl of her finger.
“You know, I think you’re right.” Jaida chuckled as she crawled onto the bed, then on top of Jan, straddling her waist as she kissed along her jawline.
Jan tilted her head back, baring her neck as Jaida’s lips traveled down it. A breathy gasp slipped out when Jaida began littering her neck with hickies until she finally moved up to kiss her properly.
Jaida kissed her hard, deeply. It was the first kiss in years that made her feel so alive, that made her keep going back for more because the taste of her lips became instantly addictive. Her fingers tangled in Jan’s hair, pulling her head closer while her free hand unzipped the younger woman’s dress.
Jan wiggled out of her dress, not wanting to have to break away from Jaida to take it off properly. Her hand wandered across Jaida’s back until she felt the metal of the zipper under her thumb, then unzipped the dress in a swift movement.
When they did have to come up for air, Jaida took another look at the girl beneath her. “You always wear lingerie like this under your work clothes?” she teased, her finger tracing along the outline of Jan’s lacy, strapless bra.
“It helps me stay in the zone. You know, the soft, sultry lounge singer.” She hummed, walking her fingers up Jaida’s arm. “And it seems to have worked,” she added, her fingers stopping on Jaida’s bra strap and playfully tugging it down.
“Guess you got me there,” Jaida murmured, pressing another kiss to her lips as she unhooked her bra and tossed it aside. Her hands glided forward, cupping Jan’s breasts with her thumbs massaging her nipples at a teasingly slow pace, smirking when it elicited a soft moan. She trailed her lips back down Jan’s neck, to her collarbone, then between her breasts.
Jan’s back arched up, body already yearning for more touch, and whimpering softly when she felt Jaida’s tongue swirling around her nipple. Her thighs instinctively parted as soon as Jaida pulled her panties down, but she was past the point of feeling any sort of embarrassment - she knew what she wanted and was ready for it.
And who was Jaida to do anything but give right in? After finally undressing herself, she nudged Jan’s thighs apart with her hand, then gently traced her finger along her folds. She eased one finger in first, curling and pumping it slowly, her eyes trained on Jan’s face, watching her get more and more worked up. “That’s it, good girl,” she murmured as she worked in a second finger and built up her pace. She looked down with amusement when she saw how Jan was thrusting her hips forward, as if she was trying to fuck herself on her fingers. “And so eager,” she teased.
“Just love the way you make me feel, Mommy,” Jan purred in a way that sent chills up Jaida’s spine.
Jaida smirked and leaned over to kiss her. “Cute,” she murmured before moving down between Jan’s legs and, before Jan could offer any response, she replaced her fingers with her tongue, thrusting it and swirling it around.
“F-Fuck!” Jan gasped out sharply, hips pushing up again. Her hands gripped the comforter beneath her, knuckles turning white from the tightness of her hold.
And Jaida was only encouraged by that. Her tongue moved steadily and swiftly while her thumb rubbed at her clit. Her free hand kept her balanced by gripping onto Jan’s thigh, which helped keep Jan in place as well.
Jan was trembling and moaning, her body was red hot and she could feel her pulse racing. Her eyes squeezed shut and her hips bucked up despite Jaida’s grip. “A-Ah, fuck!” she nearly yelled as her orgasm hit.
It was only after Jaida was certain Jan was fully spent that she came up for air. “That good, baby?” she cooed, running her hands up and down Jan’s body.
Jan felt like her soul had left her body, feeling completely numb and utterly spent in the best possible way. “So good,” she breathed out. Once she regained the ability to remember how to move, she sat up. “Let me take care of you,” she whispered, and was already pushing Jaida onto the bed before she could get an answer.
Not that Jaida would’ve ever dreamed of objecting. She laid back with her legs propped apart to give her room, and tried her best to watch her, but the second she felt Jan’s tongue against her pussy and easing its way in, her eyes fluttered shut and her body shuddered in pleasure. She supposed it didn’t surprise her that Jan was talented any way she used her mouth, but god, that girl was an overachiever.
And Jan was nothing if not eager to please. She didn’t let up for a second, not until Jaida came as hard as she had, and even after that, she lingered for a moment, just in case. Then she moved back up Jaida’s body and kissed her sweetly.
Jaida hummed contently and wrapped her arms around Jan. “That was so good, baby,” she praised gently, pressing a kiss to the top of her head before shifting so they could be under the covers. “Think you’re about ready to call it a night?”
Jan nodded, letting out a soft yawn. “God, I’m gonna sleep so well tonight,” she murmured as she nestled herself against Jaida.
“I sure hope so,” she retorted lightly as her eyes closed.
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The housekeeper let Heidi in that morning, and Heidi didn’t think much of it. She knew her sister had never been a morning person, and they never did set a time for her to come over. Considering she didn’t need to bring any furniture, the transition to moving in was easily handled by herself, with some help from the security guard - she could only go up and down that long staircase so many times with arms full of luggage.
Once she was more or less settled in, Heidi went back downstairs to go into the kitchen with the intent of raiding Jaida’s fridge for some breakfast. What she didn’t expect to see was a white girl in one of her sister’s silk robes leaning against the counter and drinking coffee. “Now who in the fresh hell are you?”
Jan was unphased by this. “I’m Jan,” she answered. “You must be Heidi, Jaida’s told me so much about you.”
“Well she ain’t tell me shit about you, so my question remains unanswered,” she said bluntly.
“Right, that makes sense, since we just met last night,” Jan mused. “Anyway, I know you’re just moving in and stuff, I’ll go let Jaida know you’re here.” She finished her coffee and put the empty mug in the sink before going back upstairs, happy to see that Jaida was a little more awake than when she’d left. “Your sister’s here, by the way,” she said as she sat cross-legged on the bed.
Jaida sat upright. “This early? Damn. Well, I better make myself decent and go talk to her,” she said, getting out of bed and throwing on a t-shirt and sweatpants. “I won’t be long, boo.” She kissed her cheek before she made her way downstairs.
“You got some ‘splaining to do,” Heidi said as soon as Jaida came into her line of vision. “Now, who was that pretty little thing wanderin’ around here in next to nothing?”
“Jan’s the new singer at Shea’s lounge. Listen, I know it was fast but… I don’t know how to explain it, there’s something special about her. We had this connection that I just know is more than intimate.”
Heidi stared at her blankly. “Do you hear yourself right now? It hasn’t even been a month since the funeral and you’ve got a co-ed up in your room.”
Jaida sighed. “Look, I’m not planning on flaunting her out and about yet, but I’m not gonna deny myself just because the dirt on his grave is still fresh.” She chewed her lip. “This is the first time I’ve been happy in years, Heidi. I need you to let me have this.”
Her sister was quiet for a moment. “You really think this girl’s gonna make you that happy?”
“I do.”
“Then I won’t stop you.” Heidi gave in without any more resistance. “Just don’t go mixing any of that white powder into her drink, she seems real nice.”
Jaida rolled her eyes, then quickly glanced around to make sure they were alone. “Don’t you worry, arsenic milkshakes are off the menu.”
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artificialqueens · 4 years ago
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Like a Million Dollar Bill (Jaida x Jan) - Joley
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note: this is my submission for the black girl magic fic challenge so a note for that is the title is from the song ‘million dollar bill’ by whitney houston
“That finalizes everything, Mrs. Whitham, and again, I am so sorry for your loss.” The man from the probate court shook Jaida’s hand before she got up to leave.
Jaida did her best to maintain the miserable expression she had on through the funeral. She thought about the disdain she felt when the man used her married name, how desperate she was to regain her sense of individual identity. She was free, only if she played her cards right. But this was a long time coming, to say the least. “Thank you so much, sir.” She dabbed her eyes with a handkerchief before leaving the room.
Sitting on a bench in the hallway was her younger sister, Heidi. She got up and took her hand. “You good?” she asked gently, coming off as nothing more than the concerned sibling of a grieving widow. But the look in her eyes reminded Jaida that she knew. She knew it all. Someone had to, lest the burden of keeping a secret became overwhelming and came out to the wrong person.
And Jaida continued to play her role, standing upright and swallowing thickly, because she was just struggling to stay strong. “I will be,” she said with a tremor in her voice.
“Who did he appoint as the…” Heidi furrowed her brows as she wracked her brain. “What’s the word again? For the person that’s gonna transfer his funds to you?”
“Executor,” she answered. “And it’s his sister, lord help me.” She sighed. Her deceased husband’s family had never been fond of her - due both to the twenty-year gap that existed in their relationship and outright racism. The only upside to that was no one outside the family took their complaints very seriously, but that didn’t mean she was at all happy to have to deal with her. “Anyway, I’m gonna go to Shea’s lounge tonight. She’s got a new singer, should be cute. You wanna come?”
Her sister shook her head. “Naw, I gotta get my ass up early to finish packing. Gonna take some time to move into that fancy-ass mansion.” She chuckled. It might not have been the best time to be visibly excited, but she was so thrilled to get herself and her dogs out of her one bedroom, seven hundred square-foot apartment.
“Suit yourself.” Jaida shrugged as she pulled her coat on. “I’ll call you tomorrow.”
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The lounge Shea owned was chic, calm, a place Jaida would probably still frequent if it wasn’t her best friend’s pride and joy. It was the type of place where she could dress up to go to, without feeling like she had to be on her best, most reserved behavior. And after all of the day’s events, she just wanted to relax, entering the club and making a beeline to her friend.
“Hey, I’m so glad you made it!” Shea beamed, hugging her tightly. “Just wait until you see our new act. She’s fresh out of university with a fancy musical theatre degree, and the bitch can sing. It’s fucking angelic, Jaida.” She didn’t mention Jaida’s husband’s death at that moment. While she didn’t know exactly what happened, she knew how miserable Jaida had been, how there hadn’t been any love between them in god knows how long. She knew how poorly he treated her and that his death probably wasn’t the worst thing in the world.
Jaida chuckled, walking with her to the bar while Shea ordered them a couple of drinks. “Damn, you really hyped her up, I’m gonna just take your word on it,” she assured, taking a sip of her drink when the bartender placed it beside her.
“Just come on, her set’s about to start,” Shea threw some money down on the counter and pulled Jaida along to one of the velvet couches so they could sit and watch.
Jan walked onto the stage, the spotlight framing her perfectly. She wore a strapless wine-red dress that just hit the ground and was tailored perfectly to her body, accentuating her curves while giving her an air of elegance one would expect from an upscale lounge singer. And her voice was as enchanting as Shea had talked it up to be and then some. There was no doubt that every patron of that lounge had their attention fixed solely on the stage.
“So, what do you think?” Shea asked once the first song had ended.
Jaida grinned, her gaze never breaking away from the singer. “I think I’m in love,” she retorted.
Her friend looked at her and let out a soft laugh. “What, are you following in your husband’s–may he rest in peace–footsteps? She’s twenty-two.”
“Bitch, I’m forty, not eighty. This is a new chapter in my life, who’s to say I can’t include a hot twenty-something in it?” Jaida scoffed.
Shea finished off her drink. “You know what? I respect that. I’ll introduce you two once she’s done,” she decided.
And true to her word, Shea took Jaida backstage once Jan’s set was over. “Wonderful job, darling,” she said as she walked in. “Jan, I’d like you to meet my dear friend, Jaida. We met when we were both in college, so, back when we were about your age.”
Jan looked at Jaida, tilting her head. “Well, how’s that possible when you’re clearly not a day over twenty-five?”
Shea rolled her eyes. “Oh lord, I’ll leave you guys to it,” she said and left the two of them alone.
Jaida chuckled. “Don’t you worry about her,” she said to Jan. “But anyway, you really were fantastic out there. That fancy college degree I keep hearing about did you well.”
Jan smiled, absentmindedly twirling her hair around her finger. “Why thank you. With all the debt it plunged me into, it better.”
The older woman clicked her tongue sympathetically. “Shit, how far in the hole are you?”
“About thirty grand.”
Jaida glanced around, then sat down beside Jan. “Listen, don’t go telling nobody, but I got you. I’m a couple days away from coming into a lot of money, like, well into seven figures.” She didn’t give a specific number because she wasn’t entirely sure how it all worked, but she could hire someone to explain it to her.
Jan’s eyes went wide and her jaw hung open. “A-Are you sure? I mean, thank you, that’s so kind. But if you don’t mind me asking… How’d you come into that kind of money?”
“Inheritance,” she replied, biting back a smirk.
“That’s just… incredible. If there’s anything I can do to thank you…”
Jaida waved her hand, brushing the suggestion off. “You don’t have to do anything. But I wouldn’t say no if you wanted to let me buy you a drink when you’re done for the night.”
Jan fluttered her eyelashes and shifted closer to her. “Of course, I was hoping this might be a little more than a random philanthropic act.”
This brought a feeling of relief to Jaida, the last thing she wanted was for Jan to feel obligated to express romantic or sexual interest in her. “I’ll see you on the other side, then,” she hummed as she got up and returned to the lounge, ready to watch Jan on stage for the rest of her shift. The only time her gaze broke was to text her driver to be on his way.
And once it ended, the two of them reconvened at the bar, with Jaida ordering them both a drink. “So, have you always been a singer?” she asked casually.
“Oh yeah, since I was four.” Jan chuckled. “At the end of the day there was just no other choice for me.”
“I like a girl that knows what she wants out of life,” Jaida mused, taking the glass once it was set down in front of her and sipping from it.
Jan smiled, lips just barely pursed around the rim of the glass. She sipped slowly, then set it down as she looked at her. “Then tell me,” she prompted, “what do you want?” She leaned ever so slightly closer, a sultry air lacing around her words.
Jaida smirked, pointedly looking her over. “Something about five-foot-four, brown eyes, voice of an angel…” she listed, voice trailing off as she spoke. “You know, something along those lines.”
Jan set her glass down once it was empty. “You better be taking that something back to your place then,” she replied simply.
“I intend on it,” she hummed. “You ever been in a Rolls Royce?”
“I don’t think I’ve ever seen one.”
Jaida grinned, leaving cash down for the bartender before getting up. “Come, Ralph is waiting out back for us.”
Jan tilted her head as she followed. “Ralph?”
“My driver. I inherited the staff as well, but they all liked me better anyway.” She chuckled as they went outside and stepped into the car, exchanging casual greetings with the driver.
While Jan did try to keep her attention on Jaida, she was distracted by how luxurious and pristine the car was, and when they pulled up to Jaida’s house, her eyes went wide. “This is where you live?” she gasped softly.
“Not too shabby, huh?” Jaida hummed as they got out of the car. “A lot of the staff lives here, no point in having a bunch of empty rooms. And my sister’s moving in tomorrow,” she explained, leading her inside.
Jan was trying her best to listen, but taking in everything around her meant her focus was being pulled in six different directions. It reminded her of her first time in Manhattan — everything was big and shiny, but she didn’t think she could touch anything yet. The first thing her hand felt was the railing of the spiral staircase she was following Jaida up.
“And this is my room. It could do with an update, I ain’t gonna lie. But she’s comfy and spacious, can’t really complain.” Jaida hummed. She had been the one that had pushed for such a big bed, and although she was quick to adjust to sleeping in it alone, she was more than happy to bring in new company. She turned to see that Jan had taken off her shoes and thrown herself onto the bed, sprawled out on her back and giggling softly to herself. “Feel free to make yourself at home.”
“Sorry, it just looked so inviting. I couldn’t help myself,” Jan replied, sitting back up.
Jaida smiled as she toed out of her heels. “I’m not mad, you look good in my bed.” She hummed, letting her eyes rake over Jan’s body.
“I’d look even better up close,” she cooed, beckoning Jaida closer with a curl of her finger.
“You know, I think you’re right.” Jaida chuckled as she crawled onto the bed, then on top of Jan, straddling her waist as she kissed along her jawline.
Jan tilted her head back, baring her neck as Jaida’s lips traveled down it. A breathy gasp slipped out when Jaida began littering her neck with hickies until she finally moved up to kiss her properly.
Jaida kissed her hard, deeply. It was the first kiss in years that made her feel so alive, that made her keep going back for more because the taste of her lips became instantly addictive. Her fingers tangled in Jan’s hair, pulling her head closer while her free hand unzipped the younger woman’s dress.
Jan wiggled out of her dress, not wanting to have to break away from Jaida to take it off properly. Her hand wandered across Jaida’s back until she felt the metal of the zipper under her thumb, then unzipped the dress in a swift movement.
When they did have to come up for air, Jaida took another look at the girl beneath her. “You always wear lingerie like this under your work clothes?” she teased, her finger tracing along the outline of Jan’s lacy, strapless bra.
“It helps me stay in the zone. You know, the soft, sultry lounge singer.” She hummed, walking her fingers up Jaida’s arm. “And it seems to have worked,” she added, her fingers stopping on Jaida’s bra strap and playfully tugging it down.
“Guess you got me there,” Jaida murmured, pressing another kiss to her lips as she unhooked her bra and tossed it aside. Her hands glided forward, cupping Jan’s breasts with her thumbs massaging her nipples at a teasingly slow pace, smirking when it elicited a soft moan. She trailed her lips back down Jan’s neck, to her collarbone, then between her breasts.
Jan’s back arched up, body already yearning for more touch, and whimpering softly when she felt Jaida’s tongue swirling around her nipple. Her thighs instinctively parted as soon as Jaida pulled her panties down, but she was past the point of feeling any sort of embarrassment - she knew what she wanted and was ready for it.
And who was Jaida to do anything but give right in? After finally undressing herself, she nudged Jan’s thighs apart with her hand, then gently traced her finger along her folds. She eased one finger in first, curling and pumping it slowly, her eyes trained on Jan’s face, watching her get more and more worked up. “That’s it, good girl,” she murmured as she worked in a second finger and built up her pace. She looked down with amusement when she saw how Jan was thrusting her hips forward, as if she was trying to fuck herself on her fingers. “And so eager,” she teased.
“Just love the way you make me feel, Mommy,” Jan purred in a way that sent chills up Jaida’s spine.
Jaida smirked and leaned over to kiss her. “Cute,” she murmured before moving down between Jan’s legs and, before Jan could offer any response, she replaced her fingers with her tongue, thrusting it and swirling it around.
“F-Fuck!” Jan gasped out sharply, hips pushing up again. Her hands gripped the comforter beneath her, knuckles turning white from the tightness of her hold.
And Jaida was only encouraged by that. Her tongue moved steadily and swiftly while her thumb rubbed at her clit. Her free hand kept her balanced by gripping onto Jan’s thigh, which helped keep Jan in place as well.
Jan was trembling and moaning, her body was red hot and she could feel her pulse racing. Her eyes squeezed shut and her hips bucked up despite Jaida’s grip. “A-Ah, fuck!” she nearly yelled as her orgasm hit.
It was only after Jaida was certain Jan was fully spent that she came up for air. “That good, baby?” she cooed, running her hands up and down Jan’s body.
Jan felt like her soul had left her body, feeling completely numb and utterly spent in the best possible way. “So good,” she breathed out. Once she regained the ability to remember how to move, she sat up. “Let me take care of you,” she whispered, and was already pushing Jaida onto the bed before she could get an answer.
Not that Jaida would’ve ever dreamed of objecting. She laid back with her legs propped apart to give her room, and tried her best to watch her, but the second she felt Jan’s tongue against her pussy and easing its way in, her eyes fluttered shut and her body shuddered in pleasure. She supposed it didn’t surprise her that Jan was talented any way she used her mouth, but god, that girl was an overachiever.
And Jan was nothing if not eager to please. She didn’t let up for a second, not until Jaida came as hard as she had, and even after that, she lingered for a moment, just in case. Then she moved back up Jaida’s body and kissed her sweetly.
Jaida hummed contently and wrapped her arms around Jan. “That was so good, baby,” she praised gently, pressing a kiss to the top of her head before shifting so they could be under the covers. “Think you’re about ready to call it a night?”
Jan nodded, letting out a soft yawn. “God, I’m gonna sleep so well tonight,” she murmured as she nestled herself against Jaida.
“I sure hope so,” she retorted lightly as her eyes closed.
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The housekeeper let Heidi in that morning, and Heidi didn’t think much of it. She knew her sister had never been a morning person, and they never did set a time for her to come over. Considering she didn’t need to bring any furniture, the transition to moving in was easily handled by herself, with some help from the security guard - she could only go up and down that long staircase so many times with arms full of luggage.
Once she was more or less settled in, Heidi went back downstairs to go into the kitchen with the intent of raiding Jaida’s fridge for some breakfast. What she didn’t expect to see was a white girl in one of her sister’s silk robes leaning against the counter and drinking coffee. “Now who in the fresh hell are you?”
Jan was unphased by this. “I’m Jan,” she answered. “You must be Heidi, Jaida’s told me so much about you.”
“Well she ain’t tell me shit about you, so my question remains unanswered,” she said bluntly.
“Right, that makes sense, since we just met last night,” Jan mused. “Anyway, I know you’re just moving in and stuff, I’ll go let Jaida know you’re here.” She finished her coffee and put the empty mug in the sink before going back upstairs, happy to see that Jaida was a little more awake than when she’d left. “Your sister’s here, by the way,” she said as she sat cross-legged on the bed.
Jaida sat upright. “This early? Damn. Well, I better make myself decent and go talk to her,” she said, getting out of bed and throwing on a t-shirt and sweatpants. “I won’t be long, boo.” She kissed her cheek before she made her way downstairs.
“You got some ‘splaining to do,” Heidi said as soon as Jaida came into her line of vision. “Now, who was that pretty little thing wanderin’ around here in next to nothing?”
“Jan’s the new singer at Shea’s lounge. Listen, I know it was fast but… I don’t know how to explain it, there’s something special about her. We had this connection that I just know is more than intimate.”
Heidi stared at her blankly. “Do you hear yourself right now? It hasn’t even been a month since the funeral and you’ve got a co-ed up in your room.”
Jaida sighed. “Look, I’m not planning on flaunting her out and about yet, but I’m not gonna deny myself just because the dirt on his grave is still fresh.” She chewed her lip. “This is the first time I’ve been happy in years, Heidi. I need you to let me have this.”
Her sister was quiet for a moment. “You really think this girl’s gonna make you that happy?”
“I do.”
“Then I won’t stop you.” Heidi gave in without any more resistance. “Just don’t go mixing any of that white powder into her drink, she seems real nice.”
Jaida rolled her eyes, then quickly glanced around to make sure they were alone. “Don’t you worry, arsenic milkshakes are off the menu.”
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cakesunflower · 6 years ago
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Reach For You [Dad!Calum AU] Ch. 9
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Previous Chapters: Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 | Chapter 7 | Chapter 8
Chapter 9
IF HE CAUGHT a glimpse of himself in the reflection of his drink, Calum would’ve thrown it against the damn wall. It was reminiscent of a few months ago, when he first found out about Luna and had a bit of a breakdown in his apartment, a glass already falling victim to his frustration once before. There was a point in his life, years ago, when Calum thought the most painful heartache he’d experienced was when Aspen left him. Then he thought nothing could beat the raging betrayal he’d felt when he found out he had a daughter. But now, with a truth so heavy and unbelievable and destructive ruling over his head, Calum couldn’t fucking think.
He didn’t want to. Not when he knew his thoughts would be consumed by what Aspen told him, not when he would be forced to think of the one woman he held on a pedestal in a way he never thought imaginable.
Calum’s head fucking hurt. Too much had gone on in the past day, his mind a convoluted mess of thoughts he couldn’t seem to weave his way through. He’d slept with Aspen. He’d let himself give into the primal desire that he hadn’t known was bubbling until the moment he let it all out, let himself get lost in her in the intimate way he hadn’t been aware he was craving. And then. . . Then she came clean. She told him, everything, and as much as Calum had wanted to know the truth, now he wished he hadn’t heard a single thing. How was he supposed to believe it? How was he supposed to accept the truth?
He’d called his mother, right when he got in the car after leaving Aspen’s apartment, with shaky fingers and an unsteady breath. When he heard his mother speak, greeting him happily, Calum’s eyes screwed shut and forehead rested against the steering wheel, jaw clenching shut tightly as he willed himself to sound perfectly normal. As if everything was okay. As if he wasn’t just told his mother was the reason he never knew he had a daughter.
But he managed to. He stayed sane, stayed steady, as he persuaded his mother to come out to New York with his dad to visit him. A conversation needed to be had and it needed to be done in person. Calum spewed some bullshit about wanting them to see the New York club and felt a prickle of satisfaction when his mum said they’d take the next flight out.
Though, nothing could replace the bitter, agonizing pain that poisoned his blood as Aspen’s words echoed in his head on a loop. So much needed to be done, to be said, to be decided, and Calum felt dizzy from trying to figure everything out. Sleeping with Aspen would change things, wouldn’t it? It’s not something they can take back or ignore. Things were already teetering on a fine line between them, and this just threw them off whatever balance they may have had.
Fuck, Calum didn’t even know how to feel about her, about what they did. Not when he could feel himself spiraling, drinking down to the bottom of the bottle of whiskey as he thought of his mother’s actions. Of Aspen’s actions. Was it true? Did he believe it? If it was, did he still blame Aspen? Could he put himself in her shoes and try to understand?
Calum’s grip on the glass tightened. But instead of shattering it against the wall, he emptied the rest of the whiskey into it and drank.
He was numb to the burn of the alcohol. Unfortunately for him, he was nowhere near being numb to the anguish from his circumstances.
                                                           *****
There was only one thing keeping Calum’s heart from racing, and that was Duke. His dog was thrilled to see Calum after months of being separated, his paws clattering on the floor of Calum’s apartment as he jumped around excitedly, and Calum felt a sense of comfort from the little dog as he pet him and let Duke lick at him. It was all that could maintain the calm facade Calum was sporting, his smiles genuine at the dog but somehow still forced, disappearing altogether when he heard the thick clacks of heels approaching from the hallway.
“Your father once again apologizes for not being able to make it,” his mum’s voice sounded, prompting Calum to stand up straight as Duke circled his feet. “He sends his love.”
Calum cleared his throat, feeling it tighten at his mother’s presence as he wiped at his nose with his thumb. “’S alright,” he responded, voice slightly hoarse, facing his mother. She stood there, still in her airport clothes, walking over to the bar in the living room to pour herself a drink. She was staying at a hotel after Calum conjured some excuse of a plumbing leak that was being fixed, not wanting her to stumble upon the many items in his apartment that showed Luna’s existence, including her bedroom. He wanted his mother to find out on his own terms.
He just needed to man the fuck up and do it.
“I need to talk to you ’bout something.” The words were slipping from Calum’s mouth at that thought, Adam’s apple working as his mother made her way over to him, settling down on the plush couch.
The dry tightness in his throat wasn’t going anywhere, lodged in the middle and taking great effort to push out words Calum needed to say. He knew, the moment he brought this up to his mother, the moment he questioned her about her grand interference in his life, it would all become a reality. Sleep had not come to him since the moment Aspen confessed everything, and Calum doubted it would come by any easier once this tormenting conversation took place.
It was taking everything in him not to stop himself from crumbling just yet.
His dark eyes met his mother’s, which were so warm and open and encouraging that Calum, for a moment, wondered if it was better to just stay quiet. But then the glittering green eyes of his daughter, the same ones of her mother, flashed across Calum’s mind and he was hastily blurting before he could stop himself, “Did you make Aspen leave because she was pregnant?”
A pin drop could be heard in the silence that followed Calum’s outburst of a question, like time stood agonizingly still. His fingers were digging into his kneecaps through his pants, grip tight and almost as painful as the rigid tension in his muscles. Calum’s gaze was on the floor in front of him, unable to look at the woman beside him as he impatiently waited for an answer. As each second passed by unanswered, Calum felt his heart picking up its pace and mind swirling with unimaginable thoughts he didn’t want to give the time of day.
But the silence was too much. He needed her to speak. “Mum,” Calum ground out through gritted teeth, eyes squeezing shut. “Answer the question. Please.”
“Calum,” she finally spoke up, her voice too gentle for the situation, sounding too innocent when Calum had a horrible gut feeling she wasn’t. “I don’t know wha—”
“Don’t say you don’t know what I’m talking about,” Calum snapped, eyes flashing open as he finally looked at his mother, expression forming into a glare he never thought he’d look at her with. She stared back, stunned and confused and, what Calum easily noticed, dreading. His heart felt as though there was a fist around it. Calum stood up on shaky legs, staring down at her with incredulously widened eyes. “You know exactly what I’m talking about. So tell me the truth.”
Joy put her glass down and Calum noticed the slight shake in her own hands, clearing her throat and trying to appear more nonchalant than the situation called for. She remained poised where she sat, lips pursed momentarily before she looked up at him. “Who told you Aspen was pregnant, love?” she asked with a dismissing laugh. “That’s ridiculous.”
Calum wasn’t having any of this. He could feel his blood beginning to boil, a fiery anger he’d never experienced before clenching his fists and tightening his jaw. His breathing was beginning to quicken, unable to inhale enough air to keep up with his rapid heart beat. She was acting too dismissive, was going on the defense, which meant she had something to be defensive about. Meant that she was, in fact, hiding something. And as those realizations slowly began settling in Calum’s mind, the more nauseous and angry and betrayed he felt.
“No,” Calum spoke in an eerily calm voice, gaze meeting hers once again. “What’s ridiculous is that you knew my girlfriend was pregnant and made her leave.” He let out a disbelieving scoff, expression forming one of heartbreak that he hoped made his mother realize just how badly she fucked up. “What’s ridiculous is that, ultimately, it’s your fault I never knew I had a daughter and missed out on so fucking much.”
He never cursed in front of his mother, respected her too much for that. But right now, with his heart aching and blood pumping, respect was the last thing he felt for her.
“My fault?” Joy repeated, staring up at Calum in disbelief, which just floored him because who was she to look shocked? She stood up as well, not even her heels giving her any height of her six foot son, but that didn’t matter. “She took the money, Calum. She could’ve said no, could’ve stayed—but she took it and left. What does that say about her, hmm?”
“Jesus, Mum!” Calum burst out, fingers flying into his hair as his widened eyes met her challenging ones, taking a few steps away. He pointed an accusing, ring clad finger at her. “Don’t turn this around on her right now—this is about you and how you purposefully played on Aspen’s intimidation and made her leave.” His skin was on fire, feeling a pain between his eyes that was a prelude to an oncoming headache. Calum let out a deep, sharp breath. “She’d always felt like she didn’t belong and you used that against an already anxious woman and ran her out of town!”
“That’s because she doesn’t belong, Calum,” Joy snapped, her serene expression falling into a scowl of her own, clearly not appreciating the way her son was speaking to her. She looked stern, matching her tone of voice as she continued once a silenced Calum stared at her with narrowed eyes. “Sweetheart, being a father when you’d only just turned twenty-one? It would’ve held you back. You weren’t done with school yet and all of your focus would’ve gone to a child conceived out of a relationship that wasn’t going to last in the first place because Aspen was not right for you. I’m sorry, honey, but I was doing you a favor.”
Calum wondered if his mother genuinely believed what she was saying—if the words she was spewing actually made sense to her, because Calum was just becoming increasingly more confused and outraged and pissed. She truly wasn’t making any sense to him. “Doing me a favor?” he repeated with a scoff. “You didn’t have the fucking right!” His voice bellowed through the suite and Calum was briefly aware of Duke’s head raising from where he sat on the armchair, but his furious gaze was fixated on his mother. “The choice should’ve been mine—not yours and not Aspen’s. I don’t give a shit about her not belonging or whatever you’re trying to justify. I loved her and I didn’t care about what anyone else thought. She was—is—a good person but you couldn’t look past the fact that she’s not who you pictured me with and decided to keep me from the best thing that ever happened to me.”
Joy was silent, not at all used to the venom in Calum’s voice, the fierce glare on his face meant for only her. There was a fire in his eyes and a rigidness in his stature, and Calum hoped she could see just how much she hurt him. He needed to talk things out with Aspen, he knew, but right now, all he could focus on was his mother and what her unjustified decision cost him. Her reasoning may make sense to her, but it didn’t carry an ounce of justification for Calum. It infuriated him, made him nauseous to think that his mother thought any of this was right.
His eyes were burning, tears of anger and betrayal and heartbreak flooding into them with the torrent of emotions he was experiencing. To think that all of this could’ve been avoided if his mother had gotten off her high horse, if Aspen had come talked to him, if he’d tried harder to find her. Never before did Calum feel such a strong desire to put his fist through a wall.
Instead, he dug his hand into his wallet, roughly pulling out the picture he kept in there before holding it up to his mother. “Her,” Calum gruffly spoke, voice audibly as shaky as his hand. “You kept her out of my life. How the hell am I supposed to forgive you for that, Mum?” He saw her throat work, his own shoulders slumping as her wide eyes were fixated on the picture of a smiling Luna with little daisies in her hair that she and Calum had placed during one of their days at the park. One of his favorite pictures he’d taken, immediately getting it developed. Calum’s hand dropped and he knew his mother was looking at his glassy eyes, downward turned lips, and devastated expression. His voice turned hard, eerily quiet as his brimming eyes narrowed and jaw tightened painfully. “Luna is the best thing that’s ever happened to me. And she would’ve been the best thing four years ago if you hadn’t forced her mum out.”
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He knew he shouldn’t be here. Knew his life felt like it had fallen apart and being surrounded by booze wasn’t going to help him deal with the situation any better. But there wasn’t much for him to do. The last person he wanted to see for now was his mum, and it was Aspen’s days with Luna.
Aspen.
Squeezing his eyes shut, Calum bowed his head as his grip on the glass tightened, the pounding of his heart louder in his ears than the thundering bass of the song playing throughout the club. It was hammering in his head, which still ached from the conversation he had with his mum yesterday. It’d been a whole day since he last saw or spoke to her, so while she had tea with her friends in the city, Calum stayed in his apartment with hid dog, refraining from breaking every piece of furniture in sight. Because this was shit. Everything was shit.
It had been difficult to wrap his head around the truth when Aspen had told him, but hearing it from his mother—there weren’t enough drinks in the world to numb him from this kind of pain. He’d been pissed at Aspen before, hadn’t been afraid to let her know how much she hurt him for reasons he had deemed as selfish. Now that he knew the truth, he was stung with hurt that she hadn’t come talk to him when everything was going on, but he was also disgusted. Disgusted with his mother for giving Aspen that heinous ultimatum and disgusted with himself for not trying to find her after she left.
She had gone, and Calum just. . . Let it happen.
But he slept with her. They slept together, and it had been just as dizzying and thrilling and wonderful as he remembered—even more so, if that was possible. Kissing Aspen, touching her. . . Calum could never forget how fucking amazing she’d felt against him, and the other night had just reminded him of what he’d been missing. He’d been with her before he knew the truth, had been in a state of aggravation and unexpected desire, but wanted her all the same.
Now he knew the truth. Now he didn’t know what to think. What to do.
“What’s up with you, man?” Calum lifted his head when he felt a hand clap his shoulder and Michael appear at his side. He was nursing his own drink, green eyes appearing dark under the colored lights of the club, but those couldn’t hide the concern Calum saw swimming in them.
“Nothin’,” the dark haired man responded once clearing his throat, standing up straight. He didn’t want to delve into his problems right now, didn’t want to wander in the dark corners of his mind despite the fumes escaping already.
Michael eyed him, not believing Calum for a second but not wanting to push him. “Alright, well, come on. Luke and Ash are already up top,” he urged, tugging at Calum’s arm to pull him off the stool he sat on.
Calum let Michael drag him through the crowded club, easily pushing past the many bodies gathered in his club as they went up the stairs towards the private section. Being around so many strangers wasn’t ideal for Calum, not by the least, but he didn’t want to be alone either. Not right now, anyway.
“There he is!” Ashton grinned once he and Michael came into view. He was sitting on the couch, Luke on the couch as Michael sat next to him. Jutting his chin at the drink in Calum’s hand, Ashton added, “Maybe that drink will make you look less miserable.”
With a roll of his eyes, Calum sat on the single couch opposite of Ashton, a glass table in between them littered with bottles and glasses. Calum didn’t even bother arguing with Ashton—he felt as though he had the right to look miserable. After the shit he just came to find out? Calum wasn’t even sure how to act. Honestly, he’s finished two and a half packs of cigarettes ever since that night at Aspen’s, and still he felt the itch to step outside and light another one up. He felt the blood tickle his veins unpleasantly, felt his gut twisting and churning painfully every time he thought of Aspen and what she must have been feeling all those years ago, made to raise a child by herself because she didn’t think enough of herself.
But he was mad at her, too. She should’ve gone to him as soon as she found out. Should’ve aired out her concerns to him. It was her body, yeah, but her pregnancy had just as much to do with him as it did her. Calum would have wanted a say in the matter, would’ve assured her that they would get through it together and that he wanted a baby with her. He’d loved her. Loves her. Does he?
Calum took another sip of his drink, glaring at nothing in particular as the music continued consistently. If he’d been conflicted about his feelings regarding Aspen before, he was now thrown into a pit of endless confusion and frustration. He shouldn’t have slept with her, he knew, especially because of so much between them had yet to be resolved. But he also didn’t regret it, which dizzied him. Being with her that night felt like being stuck in a downpour after a drought���revitalizing and something to soak in.
His grip on the glass tightened. But she had left. His mother had played a part in it. And both he and Luna had to suffer in the hands of the woman who raised him and the woman Calum loved unconditionally.
“Seriously, Cal, what’s up with you?” Luke’s voice pulled him out of his muddling thoughts, catching sight of the curious look on the blonde’s face. “Did something happen?”
Across from him, Ashton snorted. “What did Aspen do now?”
Calum swallowed the lump that had formed in his throat. He sat, elbows resting on his thighs and shoulders slouched as his gaze locked with his friend’s. “Don’t,” Calum griped, his voice rough and stern. “Not in the mood for you talkin’ shit about her tonight.”
Ashton huffed, leaning back in his seat with his arms resting on the armrest. “It’s not talking shit if it’s true, Cal. I get tolerating her for Luna’s sake but how’re you just gonna forget all that pain she caused you?”
It was like Ashton pulled the lid off of Calum’s simmering, bubbling aggravation.
“Is that what you fuckin’ think I did? Forgot?” Calum demanded, no regards for the glass as he slammed his on the table, the sharp clank drowned out by the music. But the heavy indignation in Calum’s voice could be heard loud and clear, earning startled looks from his three best friends. He didn’t care, though. Calum was frustrated and pissed and heartbroken and betrayed and he was ready to explode. “I didn’t fucking forget anything, Ashton. I remember, quite clearly, how it felt when Aspen left and I’m still trying to work through the shit I feel when I think about the fact that I have a daughter that was kept from me.”
With each word, Calum’s voice rose enough to drag the attention of others towards their seated area, but Calum couldn’t give a fuck. His body was heating up with vexation and exasperation, muscles tight with tension he desperately wanted to be rid of. Calum pointed at Ashton, accusatory and hostile, as he seethed, “You don’t know the whole story, so let it go.”
They all looked confused as Ashton’s eyes narrowed and eyebrows furrowed, but it was Michael who spoke up. “Do you know the whole story?”
“Yeah, I fucking do,” Calum snapped before letting out a humorless scoff, giving his friends a look. His words were quick and harsh, carried with a bitter firmness in a thick voice. “The fuck do you think I had Mum fly over for? Had to ask her if she really did give Aspen money to run out of town with my baby. It’s all fucked and I don’t need any of you chiming in with your own opinions—especially if you’re gonna shit on the mother of my kid.”
His words were followed by a heavy silence amongst the boys, deaf to the music playing and people partying all around them. Ashton, Luke and Michael all stared at Calum, eyes wide and jaws hung and disbelief written across their faces as they tried to process what Calum had just told them. He wanted to scoff—as if they’d have better luck understanding this shit of a situation than he did.
“She fucking took the money?”
Ashton’s words had Calum springing to his feet, teeth clenched together so tightly it was a wonder they didn’t shatter. All eyes were on him, but the scowl on Calum’s face was not one to be reckoned with. He didn’t need this. He didn’t fucking need his friends questioning the situation when he could barely understand it, didn’t need Ashton’s bias clouding his fucked up judgement because he didn’t know what to do. Calum wasn’t in control, was desperately looking for a way to be, but he didn’t know where to fucking start.
He hadn’t been in control of his life for years now. And the last thing he wanted to do was spiral.
Calum gave a shake of his head, the thundering music doing nothing to help his pounding head. “Fuck this.”
And then he was gone, ignoring his friends’ calls of his name as he left his own club, ready to head home and make use of the jar of weed he kept in his bedroom.
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peraltasames · 6 years ago
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your love is bright as ever, even in the shadows
for @jameshalpert who wanted a fic about jake and amy cuddling after the january 6th flashback bc of course they cuddled on the coldest night of the year
also for the anon that requested this kiss prompt: 36. Starting with eskimo kisses before moving on to soft kisses.
alternative title: i have a lot of feelings about how in love these two dorks are and the fact that amy’s favourite moment of their entire relationship was a simple act that proves how much jake cares for and loves her and jesus fucking christ will i ever again write something that isn’t just jake and amy cuddling in bed
read on ao3 :)))
Six days into the new year, Jake wakes at an ungodly hour to the feeling of arms wrapping around him from behind and warm breaths tickling the back of his neck.
It’s been six days since they threw their first New Year’s Eve party as a married couple, complete with gold streamers and champagne flutes and fireworks to be seen from their window over the Manhattan skyline.
It’s been six incredible, glorious days spent mostly indoors to avoid the cold, both of them taking the entire week off after being forced to work through most of the holidays - crime does not take a break on Christmas, much to Amy’s dismay (Jake is...less than upset that they miss the Santiago family Christmas to work an awesome drug case, but he tries not to let it show).
Much of this week off has consisted of drinking hot chocolate, watching movies in pajamas and obscene amounts of cuddling. It’s the most time they’ve had the privilege of spending together since their honeymoon, and he’s savoured every moment.
The ring of their alarm clock in less than five hours and their reluctant return to work are looming, but Jake turns to face his wife with the faint hope that she’s awake and not just burrowing into him in sleep as she often does. He’s desperate for just a few more minutes of their cocooned vacation bliss before their return to reality.
Her eyes are open and full of adoration when he rolls over, her arms remaining around him. He returns the loving gaze and slides his hand around her back and under her worn-out t-shirt, his nails lightly scratching her skin until she breathes a sigh of contentment.
“Hey,” he murmurs with a gravelly, sleep-heavy whisper. “You warm enough?”
She fell asleep earlier than him tonight, wanting to get sufficient rest for their first day back, and couldn’t resist taking a break from playing games on his phone to climb out of bed and grab a warm pair of socks for her feet after seeing his wife shivering slightly right beside him. His body temperature is always a little higher than hers, it seems, but even he can feel the wrath of winter at its peak just outside their window.
She’s beaming at him now, and though he can’t quite ascertain why she’s looking at him like he hung the moon and stars and maybe the entire solar system, it’s certainly a welcome sight. “Yeah, I’m good.”
Jake nods, satisfied with the knowledge that she’s comfortable, and shifts marginally closer to her.
“It’s freezing out there.”
“Coldest night of this winter so far, according to the news this morning,” Amy supplements, squeezing his torso. “Good thing my husband is like a personal heater.”
Jake feels a surge of warmth in his chest - he does every time she calls him her husband, still in utter disbelief and awe that out of all the people in the world she’s chosen to be with and love him forever. He’s hardly the philosophical type, but he knows he must have done something right in a past life to deserve this.
“It’s one of my many amazing talents,” Jake sighs, grinning to himself.
“I don’t know if I would say many...”
He looks down at her teasing grin and shakes his head, smirking as he prepares a rebuttal.
“I don’t think you felt that way on New Year’s after our guests left.” A slight blush creeps into her cheeks as she fondly recalls the night. “Or the other day on the couch, or this morning in the shower-”
“Fine, I take it back.”
She’s laughing now, so close to him that their noses touch. He brushes his nose against hers, making her laughter taper off into soft giggles of contentment. She presses her lips gently to his after a moment, and they fall into a blissful silence as they continue to kiss softly in the dark. He guides her on top of him without escalating the intensity of the kisses, his hands settling on her back.
“I don’t wanna go back to work,” Jake says after pulling away with a soft groan.
Amy furrows her eyebrows. “You love work.”
“Yeah, but I love cuddling in bed with you and watching movies all day and ordering takeout for every meal so we don’t have to go outside significantly more.”
She smiles reverently, cupping his face from where she hovers slightly above him and leaning down for another quick peck. “I could get on board with that.”
“Although I’m pretty sure you would get bored of me eventually.”
“Not possible, Peralta,” she says with an eye roll overpowered by the cheesy grin that’s spread across her face.
This time, he hides his rosy cheeks by burying his face in her neck as she settles back into his side. They don’t always sleep this close, but there have been a fair number of nights between the beginning of their relationship and now that they’ve huddled together, either for warmth or out of sheer refusal to let the other go throughout the night. After he returned from Florida and prison, she maintained physical contact with him each day for as close to twenty-four hours as life and work would permit.
“It’s gonna be a really good year,” she hums against his chest once they’re half-asleep again.
She said the same thing roughly a year ago, when they were still engaged and prison still haunted his recent memory, and though he was reluctant to indulge himself in the possibility of a perfect year after the torture the last few had put them through, she was as right as she is about nearly everything. The mere fact that he married Amy Santiago last year makes it the best one of his life thus far, but compared to many others in his past it was, on all fronts, relatively free of conflict and hardship.
So, this time, it’s a bit easier for him to believe her. He’d be willing to bet, in fact, that every year he gets to be married to her is going to be just as full of love and joy and excitement as their first.
“I think so too,” he murmurs with a kiss laid on top of her head. “Love you.”
She smiles confidently as she says “I love you more,” the element of competition not wavering in their relationship even in the moments bursting with raw affection, and Jake is reminded of his beautiful, intelligent partner who annoyed him daily, was the only one to ever challenge his status as the best detective at the precinct, and for whom he fell harder than he’d ever dreamt of falling before. The woman that is now, and has been for longer than he realized, the best thing that’s happened to him in thirty-eight years on this earth. The person he’s going to spend every day he has left with if he has any say in the matter.
He smiles back at her and says with more certainty than he’s ever said anything in his life:
“Not possible, Santiago.”
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squipsheere · 5 years ago
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Guess who wrote more Cassarian angst!!
(It's the big battle against Zhan Tiri, and I was going for a self-sacrificing-Varian kinda thing. He's 18 heere don't worry)
   "As someone who loves you I have every right to tell you how stupid that idea is." Cass yelled over her shoulder, a smile playing on her lips as she punched in the face of an advancing solider. The man crashed to the ground, already out cold. From behind her rang out the shattering of glass, followed by an explosion caused by the vials Varian was throwing. Varian, whom was back to back with her as they fought together.
   She grabbed Varian's wrist without glancing at him, scanning the battlefield for places to hide, as well as any approaching enemies. While she didn't want to leave the battlefield she had to talk some sense in him, and that would be difficult here. There, she saw it; a mostly intact wall well enough out of the way.
   "Hey, Cassie! I thi-hey!" Varian tried to protest, but was interrupted by Cass dragging him behind her. Her unseeming strength never ceased to amaze him, evident from his look of surprise.
   Cass pulled him behind the ruins of a once homely cottage, shielding the two from the battlefield for the time being.
   "Listen up," she growled. Now that she knew exactly what he was planning she was going to do everything in her power to change his mind. A difficult task, but Cass was up for the challenge. "I know you want to do the noble thing and sacrifice yourself to help everyone. Believe me, I know you well enough.  But you have to listen to me when I say that it's too dangerous for you." Cass pleaded in an angry tone. Varian began to question how that was even possible, then shrugged it off. There were more important matters at the moment, he chided himself.
   "Cassie, I-" he interjected before Cass sileced him with a death glare. They were her speciality, usually reserved for Eugene. But this was a special case.
   "No. No you don't know what you're doing. Look, that machine is dangerous and we don't know near enough about it. Last time we used it, yea it worked, it saved the kingdom, but it also released the minions of Zhan Tiri and led us to this. We don't know what could happen this time, and I'm not so sure we want to. Maybe I'm being overly cautious, but I don't want to see my nerd hurt or dead because of something neither of us could protect you from."
   She was unknowingly gripping both of his wrists like they were the only thing supporting her, keeping her standing. Varian looked down to her, a soft smile on his face. 'My nerd, how endearing' he thought, almost saying it out loud. That was the first time he's heard that, and hearing it filled him with an unexplainable joy.
   "Yes, it's dangerous but I have to do it. No one else can figure out how to work the innards of the Demanitus Device. And Cassie? I'm terrified, for myself, for you, for everyone. I don't know what will happen if I do this, but I know what'll happen if I don't. The Princess and most of the forces are busy fighting Zhan Tiri himself, Eugene and Lance are leading everyone one else against his forces. And we're losing Cassie. More of our men are falling than his, and I'm not going to see you be one of them, not when I can do something to prevent it. You're right, we don't know what will happen to me because of it but I know it's the only thing I can do."
   Varian pulled Cass into a hug as he spoke, and looked down in surprise as she let him, no resistance whatsoever. She held on to him tight, afraid to let go, afraid he would be gone after this.
    "Wait for me." He finally said, pulling away from the hug. "I'll come back to you, just, just please wait for me Cassie." Cass looked up to him, nodding silently, not saying to speak. She felt vulnerable, showing an of these emotions, and on the battlefield no less.
   He turned to walk away from her, bracing himself for her to do something, anything to stop him. So it came as no surprise to him when she grabbed his arm and turned him back to her. What he hadn't been expecting was the kiss that followed, long and speaking lengths of Cass'love for him. It told him the things that she could never figure out how to say.
   "I'll wait, just please come back to me." She whispered as she finally pulled away from Varian. Before he had a chance to answer she was gone, gone charging back into the battle alongside Eugene. She hoped he hadn't seen the tear that began to make it's way down her cheek.
   Taking his cue Varian strode off towards the Demanitus Device's underground cave, willing himself to not look back.
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   "Oh goodie, the viper lady! You feel like taking some guys out?" Eugene greeted, fighting off three soliders and maintaining an effortless look.
"Why not!" Cass shouted back over the clang of swords hitting each other. She easily swept out the feet of one man and slammed the hilt of her sword into the back of the other's head. With the other two gone Eugene took down the third and final man in seconds.
   "That's right fellas, nobody survives the wrath of the viper lady. Except moi, of course. It's not easy, let me tell you-" Eugene's boasting was cut off by a punch to the shoulder from Cassandra.
   "Can't you be serious for once in your life, Fitzher-jerk?" She crossed her arms, giving him her death glare. Although she would never admit it out loud, especially not to Eugene of all people, she was glad to see him keeping up his aloof personality. It was refreshing in the battle
   "Oh come on Cassandra, have some fun for once. We're in a battle, isn't that the one thing you love? Give that cold black heart of yours something to warm it up." As Eugene went on Cass saw another soldier heading their way, and turned to face him. Eugene's words caught her ear, and her mind thought back to Varian, her fears returning. She had no idea where he was, if he was alive or dead. It was terrifying.
   The ground shook and she stumbled, nearly falling over. She righted herself at the last second and stood back up to feel a blade cutting into her arm. The pain was searing, she switched sword hands, ready to retaliate.
   Instead, the man pitched forward and crashed to the ground. Eugene stood behind him, a pan in his hand and a smirk on his face. He whistled, impressed with his performance.
   Eugene opened his mouth to speak, but was interrupted before he could utter a word. An explosion that came out of nowhere rocked the world, the force of it pushing people to the ground.
   "Where did that come from?" Cass asked as she sat up, groaning from the feeling it being thrown to the ground, a hand on her head.
   "Oh, judging from the smoke I'd say the cave where the Demanitus Device is in. Although I'd say it's not there now, huh Cassandra?" Eugene replied, laughing to himself at his own joke.
   "No." Cass whispered, shooting to her feet, paling more than she already was. "No, it, it can't be, Varian's in there!" She took off running towards the black cloud of smoke, hee heart and mind racing. 'He has to be alive. Please let him be alive.' She drilled the thought into her head, each word matching with the push of her feet against the ground.
   There, she saw the rubble. It was a charred, smoking mess with nothing left standing. Cass rushed into the rubble without a second thought, searching for a bright blue steak.
   And there is was. He was half buried, and unmoving. Cass was at his side in a second, already working on digging him out. Her brain left out how still Varian was, never reacting to the shifting heap he was on
   "Cassandra, Cassandra, Cass! Listen to me, look at the kid, I'm not sure there's anything you can do for him." Eugene says lamely, tears welling up in his eyes as he shook Cass' shoulders to pull her attention away from Varian.
   She turned to fire off a retort, but she was interrupted by a weak cough. She looked back to Varian, and he coughed again. He was alive. She didn't know how well he was, but he was alive.
   She threw her arms around him carefully, letting tears stream freely down her face. She couldn't bring herself to care about the tears just now, there were more important things. Eugene let out a sigh of relief from behind her.
   "I, I think that I may have blown up the Demanitus Device." Varian muttered, cracking his eyes open. He squinted, trying to look at the scene around him. His body shook with a coughing fit.
   "Varian! I thought you were dead!" Cass said, breaking away from the hug.
   "Cass-Cassie? Yea, so did I. But I, I told you I'd come back. Although I'm pretty sure I got hit in the head with a rock or something. I'm not sure if what I did even managed to stop Zhan Tiri. Sorry about that." Varian moved to sit up but Cass stopped him pushing him back down.
   "You need to stay still, Var. We don't need you to make things worse for yourself. You're alive, you're here, that's what matters right now." She felt the back of his head, a huge bump evident, and she decided to keep it propped up. Eugene whistled low as he saw it.
   "Wow kid, you got hit pretty hard." He commented, sinking to the ground next to him. He looked to the gathering crowd, any fighting seemingly gone with the explosion. He scanned the crowd, but saw no head of 70 feet of golden hair. He was worried about her, unsure of where she could be right now; she should have let him fight by her side. For now he prayed that whatever Varian had done had garuntee Blondie's victory.
   "Eugene, is that you? Cassie why is it so dark here? Where, where are we?" Varian asked quietly, squinting in the direction he thought he'd heard Eugene's voice come from.
   "What do you mean? Varian, it's the middle of the day, it's brighter than a carnival out here." Cass was beginning to worry.
   "I can't see a thing. You don't think that when I got hit in the head it affected my eyes, do you? I mean that would make sense, it's only a matter of how severe it is. I have a chance is being able to see again, but we won't know until it actually happens." Varian began to ramble, trying to hide his fears that were beginning to grow.
   Cass took his hand and held it tight cradling his head in her lap, being careful of the bump. She looked up to the darkness rolling in to the sky, with green lighting shooting through the sky. The storm that followed Zhan Tiri was coming. Whatever Varian did to the Demanitus Device hadn't been enough.
   "Cassie? Is that you?" Varian asked weakly, straining to see her. Even just a glimpse would be fine. But all he saw was a suffocating darkness all around him, cutting him off from the world.
   "It's me. I'm here for you. I'm not leaving you." She assured him, stroking his hair.
    Varian smiled, his last though before slipping into oblivion being 'my Cassie'.
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An Alternate Journey (Pokeshipping; part three)
Authors - @warlordess and @miyatoriaka
 Notes – Here be chapter two/part three of my joint project with Miya. I decided to post this one a bit early due to Valentine’s Day. It’s also Leaf’s introduction, which was a little harder for me to write because I don’t know much of anything about Leaf as a character. I mean, in the games, she’s the avatar of the player’s whim (should they choose a female character) and I’ve barely read the Adventures manga, nor have I seen Origins (and I have no clue if she’s even in it). So I threw a bit of info together from the game and gave her a bit of Gary’s mean streak from early canon… but also tried to write her as a bit more complicated than your average rival/bully, which eventually shows through between this chapter and the next.
Anyway, read on and please review/comment/reblog! Unless you’re one of those derpy anonymous trolls. If you’re one of those then you can go choke.
You can find the prologue here.
You can find chapter one here.
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 Title - “An Alternate Journey”
 Summary - Eleven year old novice trainer Misty starts her Pokemon adventure, best friends Gary and Ash by her side. But will she withstand every test her travels throw at her and become the greatest master trainer of all time? Fic co-crafted with famous fan-artist, Miyatoriaka!
 Ages - Misty and Leaf are eleven years old, Ash and Gary are thirteen, and the adults are adult-aged so who cares about ‘em? Lol.
 Chapter Two - Rival
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 The cotton candy sunrise came and went while the three trainers snoozed, making up for their disrupted sleep from the night before. The sun had fully risen by the time they did wake, all of them eating a light breakfast of bread, jam, and fresh fruit before Misty released Gastly so he could direct them towards their next destination: Pewter City.
 “Wow, we got here much quicker than I thought we would considering how many days we were stuck in Viridian Forest,” Gary noted, his hand saluted against his brow as he took in the sights. He hadn’t visited this staple city recently since his gym and familial locations were settled in the more southern areas of Kanto.
 “It’s all thanks to Gastly!” Misty responded proudly, “Because of him, Eevee and I will face off against the gym leader here right after a quick trip to the PokeCenter!”
 “Ah, well, maybe you should pace yourself,” Ash warned her cryptically.
 “Wha’d’ya mean?”
 “It’s just… You’ve been a trainer for all of - what? - two weeks, almost half the time of which was spent stuck in one place, and now you wanna march straight up to the nearest gym to demand a battle? Much better prepared trainers than you have set themselves up for major loss because of that kinda recklessness.”
 “Okaaay… so do you two know anything about the gym? You both are part of the league yourselves, right? There must be something you can tell me.”
 “Hm, well, like much of the architecture here alludes, the gym utilizes rock-type Pokemon. Unfortunately, there was an upset a few years ago so the trainer in charge has alternated a couple times. Even the representative at league events has varied. Because of that, I dunno what their skill level is or what specific Pokemon they’re likely to use. I can say,” Gary paused to release a huff as the group of three humans and one ground-traversing Pokemon carefully ambled over some particularly uneven terrain leading from the plateau that divided Viridian Forest and Pewter City, “that, due to this gym being the first stop for most new trainers, the league challenge presented is kept at a moderate level.”
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“Doesn’t mean you shouldn’t expect a good fight though,” Ash began next, almost losing his footing and having to take a moment to regain his step. “The challenge level might be maintained for new trainers but there’s basically no Pokemon you can catch around here that has an advantage against rock-types. You either have to force the advantage yourself by picking a starter that can measure up or you have to get really lucky.”
 “Well, let’s just get to the PokeCenter first,” Misty mumbled, her formerly impressive ego vastly reduced by the information that had been offered.
 “Yeah, and maybe we’ll walk around town while you come up with a strategy. We’ll still need to stock up on potions and food and stuff. There might be some interesting sights to see too.”
 The group finally made it into town, catching sight of the PokeCenter’s great red roof even from their distance and making a Beedrill line for it. Misty withdrew Gastly back to his Pokeball with a word of gratitude, picked Eevee up into her arms, and approached the front desk where a young woman with a pink uniform and even brighter pink hair was waiting with a cheery grin to greet them.
 “Welcome to our PokeCenter, here to heal your Pokemon’s every woe! I’m Nurse Joy and I’ll be registering your Pokemon in our database so they can be admitted for healing or check-ups.”
 “Hey, wait, didn’t we meet her in…?”
 “Oh, yeah, you don’t know, Misty, but every Center is run by a relative of the samy family. The same holds true for the police force,” Ash informed her.
 “Relatives…?” the redhead replied with a brow quirked in suspicion. “You sure they aren’t clones?”
 She had said such a thing offhandedly, meaning it as a joke, but when she next returned her gaze to the aforementioned woman, that originally sweet smile was suddenly looking a little strained.
 “My aunts, nieces, sisters, and cousins are all just as human as I am, just as we all share the same passion for caring about Pokemon.”
 Next moment, any residual malice had vanished - though Misty retained her apologetic expression for a few seconds longer - and Nurse Joy held out a tray with six empty Pokeball slots on it.
 “Please deposit your Pokemon for me here and my assistant Chansey will escort them to their room after admission. Will your friends be leaving theirs as well?”
 “Yeah, might as well,” Gary relented, and he and Ash both began to remove the round miniature devices from their belts while Joy placed two more trays on the counter and scanned Misty’s with an electronic reader, then typed a few things into her computer.
 Before she could follow suit with Ash and Gary’s Pokemon, Misty took the opportunity to place Eevee on the counter as well.
 “Um, she’s one of mine too. Do I…? I’m hoping I won’t have to force her into her Pokeball. I didn’t before.”
 “Oh, my, a trainer who travels with their Pokemon outside of a Pokeball? And this Eevee doesn’t seem to be an infant either. But it’s absolutely no problem! We have plenty of patients who are more like companions and visit just like this.”
 Nurse Joy accepted the fox-like Pokemon into her arms, giving her a comforting pat along her back, then turned and placed her on a timely delivered stretcher that Chansey had rolled up. She finished scanning and entering Ash and Gary’s Pokemon IDs into the computer, added their trays to the stretcher as well, and Chansey rolled everyone to the back area of the Center.
 Afterwards, the three trainers reserved a room and left to take in the sights around town, including the PokeMart and a couple of specialty stores. When they’d finished with lunch, they headed back to the PokeCenter to retrieve their Pokemon, Gary taking the opportunity to check their funds and make a budget for their supply costs.
 “So TMs are…?” Misty was asking him in the meantime as the whole lot of them waited for Chansey to grab their Pokeballs.
 “Well, they’re short for ‘technical machine’ but, as for what they do, they’re used to teach Pokemon moves they wouldn’t ordinarily learn through training and natural growth. There are some real powerful ones available.”
 “Thanks,” Ash said in reference to the nearly always smiling Nurse Joy handing over their Pokemon. “Are we heading back out?” he asked this time to his friends.
 “Ah, about that… I was wondering if it’s possible to go visit Pewter Gym?” Misty began, picking Eevee up into her arms with a kiss to her forehead before allowing the Pokemon to climb over her shoulder. “You know, like I used to do back in Cerulean City with you, Ash. I figure this is the only way I can prepare myself more for my own gym battle. Unless you wanna let me battle you. You never replied to me when I asked yesterday.”
 “Well, it’s true that most gyms have open hours for spectators to come watch but we’ll have to go check and see what hours those are…” Gary replied to her, nudging Ash into prolonged silence before he could come up with a retort.
 In fact, the raven-haired trainer was going to respond anyway to Misty’s commentary about him supposedly never answering to her challenge the night before but he was interrupted by yet another person as soon as they’d made it out the sliding double doors of the PokeCenter.
 “Oho! My goodness, if it isn’t the late bloomer of Cerulean City!”
 Misty’s expression immediately darkened as she stopped in her tracks, already apparently knowing who the voice belonged to without turning to see for herself.
 “Oh, no.”
 “I’m sorry, what was that?” asked the girl with long brown hair, a black high collar sleeveless dress, and white trainer gloves, leaning in close and smirking, prodding Misty in the cheek.
 Ash had to blink in wonder, curious as to how she’d moved in so quickly (and who she was for that matter).
 “I said, hi, Leaf, how’ve you been since you left Pallet Town?” the redhead rephrased, stiff plastic smile on her face as she made a half-hearted attempt to swat the other girl’s hand away.
 “Oh, well, thanks so much for asking! Everything’s been going so perfectly! I’ve gotten six badges, I’ve made so much money and fame that it’s almost unnecessary for me to even compete in the league and become the Pokemon Master! But of course I still will,” the snarky preteen added in afterthought, “And lastly, of course, is that I’ve caught the perfect little team of Pokemon! They’re all so cute!
 “But silly me! You shouldn’t let me talk about myself all day! So what about you, Misty dear? Still a late bloomer as always, I see! It looks like you’ve barely started out! So… when did you finally leave home, hmm? And when were you planning on introducing me to your handsome companions?”
 It had felt like every sharp word spilled from this girl’s lips in a single cunning breath. Her passive-aggressive jabs and flaunting self-promotion were enough to make Misty’s blood boil. But then again, Leaf had always had a way of crawling under her skin, ever since they were youngsters in school together.
 “Uh, anyway, Ash and Gary, this is Leaf. She’s my…” What? The only term Misty could think of to describe her was ‘bane of my existence’ but the redhead couldn’t help thinking she needed to say something more subtle. “... I’ve known her most of my life. Leaf, this is Ash,” she paused to point him out, “and this is Gary. They’re traveling with me.”
 “Oh, that’s so sweet! You have yourself a couple of babysit - I mean, training coaches!” The slip-up did not go unnoticed. “You’re just so lucky! Most of us have to accept the burden of traveling independently, taking full responsibility for our own goals and struggles, but having others take up your slack sometimes works too, I suppose. In fact, it even suits someone like you!
 “Anyway, boys, the pleasure is all yours, I’m sure. I hope you both are taking good care of Cerulean City’s late bloomer.”
 Misty couldn’t help the slight twitch of her tightly hunched shoulders every time she was called that. And her subdued fury only doubled when she saw Ash mouth the words over to himself as he and Leaf shook hands, clearly confused but knowing better than to ask at the moment.
 Leaf shook hands with an oddly tongue-tied Gary too and then swung back towards her old friend with a sly grin, taking in the sight of Eevee for the first time and bending down to greet her.
 “Why, hello there, cutie! I didn’t notice you before! I apologize for that! How could I miss such a sweet baby?” the brunette cooed genuinely with sparkling eyes, reaching out to stroke Eevee’s fluffy mane and seeming the slightest bit perturbed when the Pokemon didn’t respond to her earnest enthusiasm in kind. Rather, the normal-type Pokemon curled herself around her trainer’s ankles as if trying to disappear from view.
 “So where did you catch her? Eevee are really rare in the wild, you know. You usually have to breed one. I should know; I’ve been looking for one for myself for months now.”
 “Actually Eevee and I are partners because of Gary. He’s Professor Oak’s grandson. He was able to talk the professor into letting me breed an Eevee from an egg two of theirs managed to make. See, Eevee wasn’t caught. She’s my first Pokemon. That’s why I had to wait so much longer than everyone else to start my journey.”
 Because she and I were especially meant to be together! So there! she couldn’t help but add internally at the ever-so-slightly faltering smile on the other girl’s face. It sure felt good to come out on top!
 Indeed, her rival seemed quite put out by the reveal of such details but shook off her envy within seconds and reached her full height once more.
 “Well, Misty dear, that just gave me a marvelous idea! Why don’t we have a battle now that you’re finally a Pokemon trainer too? Just a little one-on-one practice. I know how hard it can be for you when you’re just starting out! You could probably use the experience and money. How about we battle starter against starter? Since I’m sure you don’t have much of a team yet. And it seems like fate had us meet each other here today.”
 “Actually, Misty has caught herself six Pokemon already!” Ash blurted out from the background, retreating and regrouping when his redheaded friend glared at him. “Though Eevee is definitely your strongest option at this point,” he clarified finally.
 “You know what, Leaf?! You’re on! Let’s do this, right now!”
 “Well, that’s great then, isn’t it? We even have an audience for our first ever official battle! Now, c’mon, there’s a practice field over there we can use…” And then, at the sight of Misty looking quite suddenly embarrassed, “... Or did you forget we’re standing right in front of the PokeCenter in the middle of a busy street?”
 “I, uh, I - of course not! Let’s go, Eevee!” the redhead huffed aloud, turning up her nose and stomping in the direction of their aforementioned battleground, the rest of their group following after them.
 “This is a one-on-one battle between Misty and Leaf, starter Pokemon only, no items allowed during the match. If these terms are agreeable to both trainers,” Gary paused here during his impromptu referee speech so that any complaints could be voiced if they existed before continuing, “then you may call out your Pokemon and begin!”
 “I call Eevee!”
 “Woo! Go, Misty!” Ash shouted from his place on the sidelines, pumping a fist into the air.
 The redhead offered him a grateful smile for his camaraderie before turning a determined and scrutinizing gaze on her opponent, waiting to see what challenge she and Eevee would have to face.
 Leaf had almost an entire year up on her experience-wise, and it wasn’t until this moment that the novice Pokemon trainer realized how remiss it was of her to not have paid attention to what Pokemon the other girl had chosen for the start of her own journey that fateful day all that time ago. And no matter which starter she’d picked, it had probably evolved by now, perhaps even more than once.
 “Come on out, Squirtle!” the female trainer shouted, elegantly tossing a Pokeball forward, where it snapped open and unveiled an all-too-familiar beam of scarlet light which morphed into the outline of a small turtle-like Pokemon Misty had learned much about back when she wasn’t sure which Pokemon she should choose as her first.
 Still, back to the present, she wasn’t quite sure if she was more relieved or disappointed by the sight of this particular opponent.
 “I hope you don’t mind us making the first move while you’re busy thinking? Squirtle, tackle!”
 The water-type Pokemon gave a firm nod before running bipedal in Eevee’s direction.
 “Ah!” Misty gasped, collecting herself and responding by instinct, “Eevee, dodge it and use your sand attack!”
 The fox-like Pokemon leapt out of the way and then u-turned as Squirtle careened past, digging his stubby feet into the ground to try and keep himself from going too far beyond his original goal. Unfortunately he wasn’t quick enough to avoid his adversary’s follow-up attack and was punished by an onslaught of dirt in his eyes, momentarily blinding him.
 “Use your water gun to wash your eyes out!” Leaf commanded.
 “I hope you don’t mind us continuing to battle while Squirtle is busy with that,” Misty commented smartly, barely able to conceal her condescending and prideful tone as she mimicked her rival’s statement from barely more than a minute ago.
 Leaf’s facial features tightened into a restrained grimace, clearly catching on but choosing to refrain from commentary and instead redoubling her efforts in the rest of their battle.
 “Eevee, tackle!”
 “Counter with withdraw!”
Squirtle paused in the middle of washing out his eyes, curling all appendages within his shell just in time for Eevee to smash into him. The normal-type squealed in pain and recoiled but shook it off rather quickly otherwise.
 “Try your tail whip and then use quick attack, Eevee!”
 “Use rapid spin!”
 The fox Pokemon wagged her tail in Squirtle’s direction just as he’d unfurled from his withdrawal but, while quick attack was an accelerated move, rapid spin was much faster. By the time Eevee had jumped from all fours to launch her weight at him, Squirtle was already curled up and swerving out of the way. But the relentless speed didn’t stop there as the water-type glided circles around his opponent before lunging at her, smacking her to the ground and flying a solid ten or so feet away before popping out of his shell again and landing gracefully on his hind legs.
 “Ah! Eevee, you can get up, right? We can still…” No sooner had Misty spoken these words than her Pokemon stumbled to her paws, looking the worse for wear in every regard but not wanting to let her trainer down. “Yeah, we can still do this! We can still win if we just keep attacking! Use your bite!”
 “Iron defense!”
 Squirtle withdrew into his shell once more, with the added effect of it shimmering a glossy white, just in time for Eevee to clamp down with her fangs, which proved to be quite the mistake. She whimpered as she pulled back, mouth clearly sore after such a folly.
 “Water pulse!”
 “Dodge--”
 But there was no time. A jet stream of high-powered water shot towards Eevee, making contact less than three seconds after the order was given. The already wounded Pokemon was thrust that much further towards the side of the field, hitting the ground hard and rolling limply a few times before coming to a stop, struggling to get back up even after such a beating.
 But Leaf wasn’t finished quite yet, and she no longer seemed interested in playing her games either.
 “Now finish it with your skull bash!”
 “Wait, what?”
 Misty’s head drew a blank at the confident utterance that was Leaf’s command. Skull bash was Squirtle’s signature move, one of the most powerful techniques he could learn. Compared to that, there was nothing in hers and Eevee’s arsenal that could compare. If this next attack made contact…
 “Eevee, lower Squirtle’s strength with your growl! Or at least get out of there if you can!”
 It was no use, everything was over so very soon. Squirtle had started dashing at her precious Pokemon but that trot had turned into a mad sprint, during which the water-type was moving so quickly that his feet, then his stubbly legs, and then his body as a whole were powerful white blurs of agility and power.
 Eevee successfully growled but it seemed to have no effect on the incoming threat so she attempted to follow through with Misty’s secondary command... However there wasn’t enough time.
 Squirtle’s hardened skull smashed into Eevee and sent the normal-type flying through the air before she hit the ground and wrenched round a few times in the dirt, coming to a stop in the left-hand corner of the field on her trainer’s side.
 Speechless and distraught, the redhead couldn’t wait for Gary’s official call to the end of the battle and began cautiously stumbling towards her unconscious Pokemon, but her half-hearted gait gained traction with every step until she was full-on running, her breath stolen from her throat, eyes both somehow watering and burning dry at the same time, her skin cold and heart hammering with fear.
 Pokemon fainted and lost battles every single day, she knew that, but… not her Pokemon. Not her Eevee. Never before this moment.
 “Misty--,” Ash began, on his feet in an instant and ready to support her in her time of need but he was interrupted by the somewhat restrained sound of Gary’s voice.
 “Eevee is unable to battle, which makes the winners of the match Squirtle and Leaf!”
 “Great job, Squirtle, come here!” Leaf called out, her Pokemon responding obediently with enthusiasm and waddling towards her. She fondly patted him on the head, kneeling down and granting him a soft kiss on the cheek before calling him back to his Pokeball and regaining her full height once more.
 “Do you see now, Misty dear? Pokemon come in all sizes, types, and strengths. At the end of the day, it doesn’t really matter that your Eevee was bred especially for you or that your friends gave up their time to help you on your journey. What matters to you most - or what should matter - is the bond you share with your Pokemon and the time you’ve put in together.
 “Squirtle and I have been together for almost a full year. We’ve won six badges together, earned a living and survived and thrived together. We’ve built a team together too.
 “Nothing can replace or replicate the bond I have with my Pokemon or the time we’ve spent working towards our goals. Even a novice like you who just started out will have to work at it if your dream is to truly become the greatest Pokemon Master ever.”
 “Hey, Misty, you okay…?” Ash asked, kneeling down beside her as she sat in the grass, cradling her unconscious Pokemon in her arms. “You know, once we get Eevee back to the PokeCenter for awhile, she’ll be good as new in no time!”
 Gary walked up to them both as Misty, still dispirited, managed a nod.
 “But, then again, I’ll have already finished collecting badges and challenging the league long before you, which means that I’ll naturally become a Master class trainer first. And it seems pretty clear to me from the battle we just had that you’ll never be a match against me anyway, will you, Misty dear?” Leaf goaded more shallowly now, drawing a hand through her long brown hair and hmphing with a mild smirk adorning her face. “After all, once a late bloomer, always a late bloomer, am I ri--”
 “--Hey!” Ash shouted, on his feet in an instant and staring her down from a considerable distance, quite fed up with her condescending attitude. “What makes you think you can talk to my friend like this?! Just ‘cause you’re a stronger trainer and just ‘cause--”
 Gary laid a hand on his shoulder, averting his gaze slightly under Ash’s increased ire, though the raven-haired trainer was also effectively silenced by his friend’s maneuver.
 “I don’t think that’s it.”
 “Wha’d’ya mean?”
 “I think… I’m just saying…” And Gary dropped his tone to such a lower murmur that Ash had to strain to hear what he was saying, meaning Misty probably couldn’t hear it at all (which was probably the point), “... that she needs to learn this lesson too.”
 “Yeah, well, that doesn’t mean that she,” Ash paused long enough to jack his thumb in Leaf’s direction, “should be the one to teach it! But it’s fine! If she wants to talk about bonds made and time spent with Pokemon then I’ll gladly match her! After all, Bulbasaur and I have been together for years! And Weepinbell too! And--”
 “--No, Ash!” a strained voice rang out from the ground, and the two young men faltered amid their discussion as Misty vigilantly rose to her feet, still holding Eevee just as closely and tenderly as ever. “I don’t need you to fight my battles for me. I don’t… I don’t really get what you guys were saying but I just wanna say one thing! Eevee and I are a great team! Whatever we may be missing now we’re gonna find and master! Do you hear me, Leaf? The next time you and I battle, we’re gonna be the ones who best you!”
 Leaf threw her hands up in a casual shrug, her lips curling upward so faintly that none of the others could even see it.
 “Whatever you say… little miss late bloomer,” she replied aloofly, turning on her heel and marching proudly away. “Now if you’ll excuse me, I’ve got a date with an ancient Pokemon exhibit.”
 “What was her problem?” Ash begged aloud as soon as she was gone. “Misty, are you okay? You shouldn’t listen to Leaf just ‘cause she beat you in a battle, okay? You and Eevee are plenty close and plenty strong, right, Gary?”
 There was an edgy pressure to his tone that not so subtly demanded Gary had better agree but the Viridian gym trainer was still staring after Leaf with awkwardly flushed cheeks and sharp eyes.
 “Yeah… Ash is right, I guess…”
 “You guess?!” the raven-haired trainer yelped, though his expression darkened as he looked his old friend over with pursed lips and furrowed brows, apparently catching on to something he’d missed earlier on. “Are you just saying that ‘cause you’re--”
 “--I’m just saying that because, even though Leaf came on strong,” the burgundy-haired trainer countered, pointedly interrupting what he had a feeling was going to be a very embarrassing and very accurate accusation, “she made a good point… and a strong impression,” he added.
 “C’mon, Ash, like I said before, Misty was going to have to face this moment sooner or later. You gotta remember that we’re here to help her when it’s needed and give her advice here and there but… there are just some things it can’t be our responsibility to teach her.
 “I mean, isn’t that why you blew off her requests for a Pokemon battle? Because you were worried you’d accidentally end up playing the role Leaf did?”
 “... You’re too smart for your own good, ya know that?” Ash begrudgingly admitted, blushing.
 “Guys…” Misty’s voice rang out from behind them, and both boys jumped nearly a foot in the air, having basically forgotten during their heated discussion that she was present to hear their every word. “Guys, it’s okay. And thank you. I… don’t really know what happened or like how it happened but I’ll get stronger from this and we’ll win the next battle against Leaf, just like I told her.”
 Perhaps Ash was imagining it but he couldn’t help thinking that the expression on the redhead’s face was more affectionate than it should have been as she stared wistfully in the direction Leaf had vanished in, considering what had transpired between them during their match. Huh. Maybe there was more to the girls’ relationship than he could comprehend at present.
 “Anyway, can we get Eevee back to the PokeCenter now?”
 “Sounds like a good idea to me,” Gary responded with a rare warm grin, perhaps feeling that one of his sarcastic or blunt quips would be better saved for another time.
 A couple of hours later, after Eevee had received both a good nap and some decent first aid from the talented and dedicated Nurse Joy and her assistant Chansey, the group of three trainers left to pay a visit to the Pewter City Gym and see about its open hours, which they’d unfortunately missed for the day, so they went out to grab dinner instead.
 Misty, who’d been sitting on the question since that afternoon, finally got around to asking Ash and Gary about the odd event that Leaf had mentioned in passing earlier.
 “Ancient Pokemon exhibit, hmm…?” Ash replied first, staring into the distance as if deep in thought for a few seconds before deadpanning, “I’ve got no clue. Oh well!”
 “I think she was talking about Pewter’s Museum of Science and Natural History. They have a department dedicated to the excavation and research of ancient Pokemon species. Rumor is they’ve even been involved in potential resurrection or cloning with the use of DNA,” Gary rattled off informatively.
 “Wow… I don’t really understand it but that sounds pretty amazing! Can we go check it out?”
 Misty smiled down at her perfectly healed Eevee, suppressing the guilt that bubbled up in the back of her mind at the sight of the Pokemon. It still stung some to think back to their battle earlier with Leaf, still bothered the redhead some to remember the harsh lesson she’d learned. The first thing she’d done for her Pokemon after Eevee had woken up was apologize profusely for letting her down, but of course Eevee had just licked her hand and nudged affectionately against her fact, not quite understanding but wanting to make her trainer feel better.
 Misty and friends made their way up the few blocks to one of the bus stops on Main Street, which would take them the rest of the way northeast where the museum was apparently located.
 After the ten minute commute, their group found themselves standing in front of a massive four story complex, facing a magnificent courtyard and stately architecture built out of the same slate gray stone that seemed to be the main source material used in most of Pewter City’s historical builds.
 “C’mon guys!” Misty called out, perfectly carefree if the way she was skipping excitedly towards the main entrance was any indication.
 Just as she’d opened one of the double doors, she and the others heard a distraught and irate shout from inside the building.
 “Wait! Thief! Stop them please!”
 A tall figure in black sprinted through the door Misty was holding, so strong and reckless that they inadvertently collided into her and caused her to tumble to the ground.
 “Hey, what’s the…” she began angrily in response to this transgression but faltered at the sinister expression and demeanor of the man before her as he glared icily before remembering he needed to be on his way.
 As soon as he was gone, many things happened in succession. Ash was checking to make sure she was okay while Gary was staring suspiciously after the man in black, followed immediately by the front door bursting open again and a whole slew of people appearing all at once, including a few in blue security uniforms, a fair number of curious bystanders, and two people sporting white lab coats.
 “Oh - oh no, are you alright, honey?” the first one, female with a rather meek and neurotic personality, simpered, giving Misty a once over, bouncing on the balls of her feet and pacing to and fro in clear distress. “Oh no, oh my, but there’s no time, we have to hurry! Oh, I can’t believe this happened! How could it - how will we ever find--”
 “--Penelope, calm down please,” her coworker attempted to cajole her authoritatively, having just apparently finished a phone call because he was placing his cell in his pocket. “I just contacted the police and Sergeant Jenny will be here soon. There’s nothing else we can do for now without potentially risking our safety. You three,” he motioned towards the group of trainers, “I’m sorry to approach you like this but we’re in the middle of an emergency situation. We’ve just had a very valuable fossil stolen from one of our exhibits by someone wearing a black jumpsuit. Did you happen to notice anything we might be able to report to the police when they arrive?”
 “No, how could we when--?”
 But Ash was cut off before he could say anymore.
 “The guy looked middle-aged, had black hair but there were gray streaks on the sides, gray eyes. He looked at least six feet tall. He exited through the gate and took a left. It seemed like he was trying to u-turn around the museum campus and escape into the northern woods,” Gary recited and, after catching sight of Misty and Ash’s bemused expressions, he added, “I was watching him go just in case it might help.”
 “Thanks, son, that was very smart of you. You three!” And the male scientist turned to face the security officers. “Go around back, fan out with your Pokemon and chase the thief down. Don’t do anything to risk damage to that fossil. If you can safely stall until Sergeant Jenny and her officers show up then do so, otherwise send someone back here so they can lead the police in the right direction when they arrive.”
 The trio of security personnel nodded in affirmation of this instruction and ran off instantly afterwards. Misty finally got back to her feet and watched them go, feeling mysteriously equal parts excited and frustrated over how she’d let the criminal get away. Still, to think someone had been able to steal an artifact from a well-guarded museum in (mostly) broad daylight…
 The thought had barely even crossed her mind when a more familiar figure, smaller in stature with long brown hair and wearing a black turtle-collared skater dress, dashed by them all in a blur of tricolor, out the gate and circling the campus in an instant, following the security guards.
 “Wait, was that…?” Ash started tapering off towards the end of his perturbed comment.
 “I think… it was…” Gary replied, his tone somewhat more admirable. “Wait, Misty!”
 For the redheaded novice trainer had already taken off as fast as her legs would allow, Eevee ever loyal at her side. The two boys had no choice but to pursue their reckless friend, ignoring the shouts from the administrative scientist and his more panicked assistant.
 “Grr… those kids better not cause any damage to this operation!”
 “I just pray everyone will be alright. With Team Rocket behind this, we can’t… always be sure, can we…?” Penelope responded cryptically in a somber tone, immediately sobering her superior up, his expression softening into shame and concern.
 “Yes, you’re quite right.”
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 Notes - And thus ends this chapter with a somewhat unintended cliffhanger. Miya wasn’t able to guess what went down in the next chapter so I wonder if anyone else will be able to? Lol. It’s not that special to be honest. Also coming in the next chapter is Misty’s first gym battle! And, oh… is Ash jealous…?
Next chapter will be posted around the end of March.
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Nehemiah 12:27-13:31 , 1 Corinthians 11:3-16 , Psalms 35:1-16 , Proverbs 21:17-18
Today is the 17th day of Auuuuugust (Brian pronounces August a it a little weirdly and laughs abut it)…although I don't think that's really how you say it…but August. It’s the 17th day of August How are you in the middle of this month and at the end of this workweek? Hope you're doing well. And no matter how you're doing, this is the right place to find some serenity and some peace and some quiet and some stillness and allow God's word to speak as we move forward and take the next step. And this week we've been reading from the Good News Translation. And, so, that's what we'll do. Nehemiah chapter 12 verse 27 through 13 verse 31 today.
Commentary:
Okay. So, we concluded the book of Nehemiah today with the dedication of the wall surrounding Jerusalem. And two choirs processed their way in opposite directions atop this newly completed wall. That must've been this moment of divine satisfaction for Nehemiah because it had been a very challenging and opposed task, but for all that they endured God had been faithful. With His guidance, the mission had been accomplished. And Nehemiah returned to Babylon to serve king Artaxerxes's afterward, but he was later granted permission to return and when he did he discovered how quickly the people began to drift away from all that they had vowed before God. Eliashib, the supervisor of the temple storerooms allowed Tobia, who had been one of the chief instigators of intimidation and discouragement during the building of the wall, he gave him access to a large storeroom within the temple to use as he pleased, because they were family related. Additionally, the Levites and singers hadn’t been resourced, right? So, they had to leave their sacred jobs to go back to their fields just to survive and to provide for themselves and their families, which, of course, negatively affected the worship, the prescribed worship at the temple, which was already being neglected. And the people also began to ignore the Sabbath in favor of trade and commerce, which horrified Nehemiah. And finally, the people began to intermarry again with the surrounding nations. So, it’s like, Nehemiah left with everything moving in the right direction and he returned to find that everything was moving in the wrong direction, the very direction that had destroyed them in the first place. So, in the face of this discouragement, this is a good lesson for us as we are enduring because nothing stays. Like, we can get everything moving in the right direction, but it's not going to stay that way unless it's maintained in our own lives and in our own relationships. So, in the face of the discouragement of Nehemiah, he turned to God. He asked God to remember all that he had done out of a true heart on behalf of the people. And that shows us another important example in leadership. In the end, we can’t always influence people to do the right thing but we can do the right thing ourselves and we can follow God's leadership by stewarding ourselves and taking responsibility for what He entrusted us to do. If we do this with a pure heart we can also pray the final words of Nehemiah. Remember this in my favor oh my God.
Prayer:
Father, we invite You into that. We invite You into everything that we encounter in Your word and ask Your Holy Spirit to speak to us, implant it in our lives. We have faced discouragement because we've tried to encourage people who do not want to make any kind of change. And often this exposes things in us, our controlling tendencies. We get bitter and angry that they will do what we want and then we realize, oh, we’re doing this to You too. That path won’t lead us anywhere. The path that Nehemiah shows us will. Although he couldn't change everyone's heart, he certainly could give his heart to You and follow You. And, so, we do this and we ask Lord that You remember the things that we've done out of a true and pure heart for Your people. And we pray this in the name of Jesus. Amen.
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Hello. This is Tony from Germany and I want to just call in, just to give thanks for our prayer warriors. And Victoria Soldier you always come to mind. Your prayers are so beautiful, rich, and powerful. And now I’m hearing Sonja from Tampa. And Sonja, please don’t stop calling. You speak to my soul the way you pray and it’s…I…I would love to pray like you do and I guess that is just with time maybe or maybe it’s just your beautiful gift. And you speak to me. Your prayers resonate with my soul about how powerful our prayers can be and how we can bring down God’s power here on earth, bring down His kingdom. So, I just want to thank every…the prayer warriors…and I am missing a number…but you too just really come to mind and I thank you. So, I just wanted to speak. I pray everyone is doing well. I’m grateful to be part of this DAB community. You…it is so important to me. It is an integral part of my life. God bless everyone.
Hey __ from Alabama. August 14th. I don’t know if you caught Nehemiah 8 verse 9 and 10, when the people heard with the law are required they were so moved they began to cry. So, Nehemiah who was a governor __ and the Levites were explaining all this. The law told the people, this day is holy to the Lord your God. So, you are not to mourn or cry. Go home, have a feast, share your food and wine with those who don’t have enough. Today is holy to our Lord. So, don’t be sad. Catch this, the joy that the Lord gives you will make you strong. Did you catch that? __ and how much we need grace and mercy. Then let’s not mourn her cry all the time over our past. Know you are forgiven child of God. Today, this day, is holy because you have been made holy by the blood of Jesus. So, don’t be sad. Go have a feast. Go share with others because it’s not yours anyway. And remember this if nothing else, the joy that the Lord gives you will make you strong. So, let’s live this out in Jesus name. And one thing I want to ask, I know I’ve asked before but I appreciate your prayers. I go in tomorrow morning August 15th for an echocardiogram. A virus attacked my heart earlier this summer. It gave me congestive heart failure temporarily and I just ask that the doctors are just as amazed that this happened that they’re going to be amazed that I’m completely healed in Jesus name. Thank you. Love you. Appreciate your prayers.
Good morning dear brothers and sisters. Thank you so much for all that you do for the community, for the helping and praying for each other. I am reaching out to you folks to pray for my…my broken family. My daughter committed suicide three years ago and left four gorgeous children, two of who tried to resuscitate her and tried to help her. They were 13 and 16 of the time. They are floundering. I’ve had my granddaughter here this weekend and she was just heartbroken and said she feels like she has no home since her mom has passed. Doesn’t matter where she goes it just feels wrong. And now she found a boyfriend at the age of 16 and her boyfriend is 18 and he’s an atheist. And her dad and stepmom have kicked her out of the house because they feel like they need to live by the letter of the law as opposed to grace. And I know we do need to be obedient to the calling of the Lord and I just pray that you would reach out and pray for my daughter’s children. The oldest is into pornography and has a young girlfriend himself who he is living with. And these children are just lost and we all are. And my ex-husband, the day that he and I split up, threw something across the yard and said, for God’s damnation upon whatever. And I just feel like all of this, because I chose to leave husband has ultimately broken up the family in such a way. I’m remarried __ even a brand-new marriage. So, I pray that the peace of God of all understanding. He is the God of understanding...
Hi family. This is his little Sharif in Canada. I just finished listening to the community prayer and I just love the diversity of this community, don’t you? I love hearing the different voices. And it reminded me that we are supposed to be this way. We’re meant to be different from one another. That’s what makes the body of Christ beautiful. So, I just wanted to call in and remind you and myself that there is no place for comparison in the body of Christ because each of us is completely unique. I mean, how sad would it be if Victoria Soldier felt second-rate because she didn’t write poems like Blind Tony or if Blind Tony didn’t call in because he doesn’t sound or pray like Victoria Soldier. Everyone who is part of this community contributes something vital and they do it just by adding their DNA to the mix, those who don’t, and as much as those who do. So guys…ahhh…the truth is, each one of us is Jesus’ favorite. Did you know that? When we know and experience that, His specific and unique affection for each one of us, it frees us from measuring ourselves against someone else. So, I just want to thank you all for embracing me as I am, his little Sharif who prays with doodles and puzzles and whatever else. And I want to thank you for being exactly who you are. Please don’t try to be anyone else. We need you to be you and I like you the way you are. So, thank you so much for being a part of this community. I love you family, each one of you. God bless you. Bye-bye.
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“Mephisto!” He hears his name before he sees her; a flurry of auburn and molten butterflies hurtling towards him. Alarm bubbles in his throat, bursting into a startled grunt before he can call out. Then he’s got a face full of crumbling crystal and pain rockets through his nose and forehead and suddenly something’s raining down from above��
The pieces come together with a disorienting click. Mephisto bolts upright, hissing as the world around him swerves. Eyes squeeze shut, grappling at the ground for stability. The action jogs his memory and his vibrant-green gaze snaps open again. Praxina.
“Praxina!” He cries, scrambling to his knees. Stomach lurches, knocking his heart into his throat. No. No no no where is she? Then he sees it: that same, flustered flurry of reddish-brownish, identical hair color to his own. Fanning amidst chunks of glowing rubble, beyond the ledge that has become their battleground.  “Praxina!”
Praxina turns her head, blue eyes wide and dazed. Fly, he begs, and tries to say it aloud, but that battlefield tilts and he clutches his head and suddenly kneeling feels impossibly difficult to maintain. Nonetheless, his eyes remain on his sister; just as wide and glittering with fear. Come on, fly, get out of there. It’s just crystal, after all. Glowing crystal, but nothing his twin couldn’t escape. How long had they’d been chasing the cursed princesses? And how many of those times had they narrowly gotten away? These crystal casualties should be a—
He swears he hears her gasp. Hears her say his name a final time. Her eyes, however, scream louder than words ever could:  ‘Mephisto, I’m sorry, forgive me, I don’t want to leave you.’
Those eyes are the last thing he sees before the world explodes in violent purple light. He’s thrown to the ground for a second time, landing hard on his front. Copper erupts in the back of his throat, but it’s hardly a second thought. Praxina. Praxina, no!
“No!”  Agony lances up and down his body, but he doesn’t care, doesn’t care about anything but the very real possibility his sister might be—
Dizziness strikes again, tag-teaming the rattling throb inside his chest. Just as suddenly as he manages to stand, footing disappears, and then he’s falling, falling the same way Praxina had, hurtling helplessly towards the ground, below. His sister’s name passes through his mind before the world blacks out.
When he comes to, everything hurts. A grueling, all-encompassing pain that sits on his body like one of their monsters gone astray.
Their monsters. Their.
“Praxina…” Mephisto moans, sagging into the earth. Head dips and presses against a bed of grass, dusted in fine crystal but otherwise unblemished by chaos. At any other given day, he’d make some ridiculous comment about the princesses finding it surprising, even hopeful…but this wasn’t any given day, and he had no one to joke with.
Not anymore.
Tears fuzz his vision, and then they’re falling, disappearing into the mossy green. The princesses. Those damned, righteous idiots always won in the end! And for what? To add another stupid little gem to Ephedia’s crown? He and his sister were living, breathing Ephedians! Did they ever stop to think about that? No, he thinks, slamming a fist into the ground. The action immediately triggers nauseating pain. He stops, choking. No they didn’t.
He isn’t sure how long he lays there. How long it takes for his body to numb and dull to hollow resignation. For the tears to dry and stick to his cheeks; visible one moment, disappeared and gone the next, its only trace a raw and very real aching heart. Just like Praxina. He doubts very much anyone on this cursed world would remember her death, if they’d even notice it at all.
Right hand forms another fist, joined this time by its partner. Though sore and strained, they hold together. “It can’t end like this…” Princess Iris and her candy-colored crew could not get away without punishment. Can’t they? Countered a miserable voice—his own, dredged with exhaustion. You were barely victorious as a team. What will you do alone?
It’s a question he doesn’t want to answer. Praxina would know. Praxina always knew what to do when he failed to conjure a solution. Praxina isn’t here.  No, no she wasn’t, and that was the entire point. Mephisto was on his own. No direction, no temporary allies to rely on…nothing but beaten bones and a gnawing, rattled yearning for vengeance.
Vengeance can be yours, child.
What?
Mephisto looks up, a sharp twinge seizing his neck. He ignores it, a colder, more prominent feeling condensing in his stomach.
“Banes…?”
The beast stands before him, dark fire rolling across its back. The same flame coils around its tail, crackling and swinging methodically, behind. Beady white eyes bore into Mephisto’s weary greens, almost challenging, daring him to ask: ‘did I speak? Can a creature as I do such a thing?’
Ultimately, Mephisto decides it doesn’t matter. Not right now. If Banes is here, that means one of two things. Either Gramorr requires backup (although why he’d need Mephisto’s help with the crown poisoned is a question in itself), or—
…or the war was over.
As though reading his mind, Banes pushes something forward with its massive paw. Mephisto’s breath catches. For a split second, the sound around him drains and fizzles out.
“Gramorr’s mask…”  He murmurs. So it is true. The old Sorcerer had met his match and left nothing but a fragment behind. A fragment and Banes, he thinks, looking to the creature again. That soulless stare hasn’t wavered. ‘Take it,’ they seem to say, encourage, accompanied by a low and rumbling growl.  ‘Take it and show them what you can do.’
He wonders what his sister might think of all this. What she’d do if she could see him, now. Would she urge him on, as Banes did? Chastise his hesitation? Steal it for herself?
The wounded teen pushes himself to his knees. One arm stiffens, holding him upright. The other reaches for the mask. Dark energy crackles and stings his fingertips. He winces, but doesn’t pull away. Praxina saved my life. Maybe she’d have done the same, right now. Mephisto sits back on his heels. He turns the fragment over and puts it on.
They’re celebrating, as he knew they would be. Dazzling enthusiasm oozes like a harmonic pulse around the castle walls: all vibrant, all made up of those same, sickening blues and oranges and pinks.
He hates that color most of all.
With a snarl, Mephisto’s visible eye glares hard at Ephedia’s grand empire. His sister hated the color, too. So bright and cheery and full of nonsensical promises like joy and love and better tomorrows. Does it look like I’m doing better, Iris? Is this what they mean by happily ever after? Dark energy spirals up his ankles, writhing and twisting like snakes.
“Guess we’ll find out.” He mutters darkly, then disappears in a puff of black and green smoke.
Oh, if Praxina could hear the way they gasp his name, she’d finally be proud of him. He stands in the center of the throne room, so different from the shadowy cavern Gramorr had called home. Vibrant. Colorful. Glittering like sunlight through the towering, stained glass windows on either side.
Sickening, all of it.
Mephisto steps forward, hair grown longer swaying in front of his face. His outfit, too, has been altered under this new power: inky black solidified in armor, only color his glowing serpent emblem. They follow him, too, the snakes, looming shadows hovering behind his heels—seamless, colorless, save for their striking green eyes.
“Mephisto…?” Ventures a quivering voice. Head snaps towards the source, but he’s already identified the fool. Pretty-perfect Iris stands in the center of a crowd, hand clutched to her chest and crystal blues nearly bulging from her head. Good, he thinks with a sneer. Be terrified. See how it feels.
“Surprised to see me?” He laughs, a cold, hollow laugh that bounces around the room.  “Don’t be. I know you only care about yourself.”  
“Myself?” Iris echoes, as if she can’t believe he’d dare tarnish her with accusation. On cue, bodyguards blue and orange flank her sides.
“Don’t you say such things about Iris!” Orange—sorry—Auriana cries. Mephisto’s jaw tightens. Black humor jitters and threatens to give. Remember Praxina. He does. If nothing and no one else, he always will.
“Why not.” Mephisto spits, almost hisses. “It’s true, isn’t it?” Gaze darts back to Iris. He raises an arm. His reptilian entourage rear their heads. “You, all of you, so bent on ridding Gramorr from this world; where were you when my sister needed help!”
Blue stiffens now, baring teeth. Before she can speak, the aggressive purple one pipes up. “Are you serious? You’re the ones always terrorizing us!”
“Carissa, don’t.” Warns Iris with an outstretched arm. She reels it back in a moment later.
“I’m really sorry about what happened to Praxina.” Iris says, and it’s with such a sad earnestness he almost believes her. Almost. But he’s been through this before, been down this road and seen the closed door on the other side. There’s no place for truce among them. Not now, not ever.
“Sure you are.” He barks, and now it’s his turn to raise an arm. “You’re so sorry, you threw me a pity-party. Oh wait! No you didn’t.” The serpents dissolve as he speaks; they reappear around the royal family, mouths open and fangs bared. A silent cry of panic circles the crowd.
“Mephisto, stop this!” Auriana again. “You can’t blame us for your sister’s death.” He ignores her, crossing closer.
“I can, and I’m going to.” He growls; as before, it sounds like a hiss. “You’re going to pay for what you did. All of you.” He adds, just in case it weren’t clear. Auriana steps back. Talia stiffens. Then something happens he doesn’t expect. The king places a hand on his daughter’s delicate shoulder. With his other, he draws his sword.
“Stand down, evil one.” He declares; it’s just cliché enough to evoke an inkling of a smirk.
“You really underestimate me.” Mephisto flicks his wrist, summoning a dark cloud around the blade until it’s not a blade, anymore. The king gasps, dropping a newly-formed smoke-colored snake. Mephisto bends his wrist again, and the creature dissolves.
“If I wanted you dead, you’d be dead.” He explains, bathing in the undivided, utterly terrified attention at his command. That inkling slides further across his face, coaxing and curling his upper lip. “I want you to suffer. And I know just where to start.”
He looks to Iris again, then casts a deliberate glance towards the sky. Three, two, one…
“What…what are you implying?”
Of all incompetent aggravations. “Earth!” Snaps Mephisto, expression souring again. “I’m going to attack Earth.”
If they notice this slip-up they make no indication, too distracted, it appears, by his startling announcement. Of course they are. He’d just sworn revenge against their precious, mortal loved ones. Given them a taste of helplessness. Promised a lifetime of irreparable, haunting grief.
“You can’t do this.” says Talia, fists balled at her sides. Mephisto’s visible eye narrows.
“Just watch me.”
The spindly, snaky forms disperse from the group, merging with the floor until they find their place around him, again. “Heed my warning, princesses. From this point on, the blood is on your hands.”
The final word trails off with that same, feral hissing. With one last, long look, he steps back among his shadowy friends. They follow his lead soon after, compiling together until all that remains is one massive, seamless serpent. Toxic light skitters across its form like lightning; the creature lingers, as Mephisto had done, then barrels forward and through the back wall.
As it does, the ghost of a snarl not its own echoes behind.
He untangles himself some ways away, panting and puffing but grinning like a loon. Or however the earth phrase went. Earth. Mephisto touches his mask. A planet unprotected, ready and waiting for his murderous hand. Our murderous hand. He throws a glance at Banes, seated between two jagged boulders. The old beast flicks its tail.
Praxina really would be proud of him.
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This request was a bit of a challenge because I’m new to writing violence and intimacy, but I enjoyed it all the same. For clarification, things do get steamy, but I wouldn’t classify it as smut. I’m worried that this is low quality and that the pacing may be poor so I’d love any criticism or feedback so I can continue to improve.
The poster requested a Michael x Reader fic in which Michael finds himself in a bit of a bind after getting caught up in the illegal side of the business and runs to the Reader’s house for medical attention and support. As best friends she cares for him and things heat up. 
Michael x Reader
Warnings: mild violence 
He whinged with pain. The crack of teeth and bone echoed continuously in his left ear. The right was consumed by a shrill and disconcerting ringing. His knuckles ached under peeled back skin; crimson peaking through the lily of his flesh. His shoes were damp with blood, and he had long since lost track of whose it was. His woolen socks had swollen, absorbing the claret and making his boots all the heavier. Everything was heavier after a fight. His mind. His body. His breath. It was unbearable and dense because suffering always is. Michael thought it was as if people shoved their burden, their hate, their anger, the very toxicity of life, into every punch and that’s how pain was made. He subconsciously licked at his split lip and was met with stinging.
Welts were forming on his face, creating alien mountains and adding hues of puce and mauve to his alabaster skin. Scrapes bit around his sharp cheekbones and into his eyebrow. His thigh and shoulder bubbled with blood staining his once posh suit. Unlike his cousins, Michael was soft in feature. Smooth skin untouched by the flames of war, coupled with charm and class from a life outside of the family business left him with a cherubic face. Indeed, from afar he appeared innocent; angelic. However, upon further examination, he held the satanically commanding stare of his mother’s side. In fact, that was not the sole Shelby feature Michael possessed in spades. He had a lust for destruction. He found a sadistic joy in violence. Like Thomas, he was calculating and wise, often cold in his devastation. However, when pushed too far, Michael would lapse into the wicked madness found in Arthur’s fists.
He enjoyed his legal and safe career as Chief Accountant with Shelby Brothers Ltd. It appeased his mother and kept him sharp. The pay was more than fair and he enjoyed the platform it provided for his ambitions. Yet, hidden away in a quite room, behind frosted glass and golden nameplates, Michael was deafened by the silence. The position was straitlaced and confining. In turn, Michael squashed feelings of reproach and chaos to keep up appearances of a pristinely legal firm. He bottled up anger and irascibility under high pressure. He was a time bomb. Always perceptive, Thomas had proposed an inconspicuous arrangement for Michael to keep levelheaded. On days when Michael found order overwhelmingly trite and numbing he would ask Tommy for a name. It was always a single name on a slip of betting paper. And for the night, on behalf of the Peaky Blinders, not Shelby Brothers Ltd, Michael gave that name bearer hell.  
It felt good to be hired muscle; to beat the shit out of someone. Michael reveled in the power to strike fear into a person’s being. He loved the catharsis of pain and ache. He could release a week’s worth of exasperation into one sap of a man, all in the name of the Blinders. He was grateful for Tommy’s assistance and discretion. He felt more a part of the family when he fought, but could rest easy knowing his mother was ignorant of his volatility. It was comforting and it was becoming routine. 
That was until tonight. He had always accounted for a single opponent; one man or boy who needed leaning on. For weeks things had gone smoothly. Messages were received, payments made, and Michael could maintain composure at work. But this night he stumbled into a conflicting group of three. Never one to back down or retreat he carried on and as a result, took a beating. More than once he had unsuccessfully reached for his pistol in defense. The three men were stocky and powerful. They bore calloused palms and engorged muscles from time at the BSA. Their fists pummeled resentment into Michael’s saintly face. He could feel his ribs splinter and his lungs scream for air. He threw punches and kicks to little avail, like a hummingbird in a hurricane. Overcome with desperation, Michael’s body began to violently convulse. He lashed out with tenacity, throwing his body about as a weapon. No sooner had he thrown the men off of him, then he thrust his hands into his pockets retrieving small defenses.
Razor blades and daggers danced in the smoggy lamplight, kissing flesh with virgin scars. The brawl was messy and filthy and crude. Metal loops guarded Michael’s punches and his victims’ teeth flew from their gums. As metal made contact with the soft weakness of eyes, screams and blood perforated the night. At one point, the fracture of a skull on cobblestone rang out and everything fell silent. The largest of the three men was sprawled on the street, sanguine liquid pouring from his head. Retching and writhing in agony, Michael could see Death approaching the name on the betting slip. The gravity of the situation was plain. It had escalated too quickly and now the possibility of a murder charge was looming. He looked up at the other two men and saw only witnesses. All three remaining men pulled guns. Four shots broke the silence of the early morning hours. When the smoke cleared and the echoes faded Michael was the only man standing. He heaved as he felt where the two bullets had ripped through his left thigh and shoulder blade. He picked up his brass knuckles that had fallen to the street in the scuffle and felt panic begin to settle in his gut. 
He needed to lay low and get off the street. Fear gnawed at cogent thoughts and pushed forward distraction. Looking at the gore on the cobblestones, he knew it appeared indiscriminate and random. He scanned the perimeter for incriminating evidence and found nothing that explicitly pointed to him or the Blinders. His lungs struggled to inflate against his broken rib unleashing a hellish burning in his chest. He was hurt and scared. Following his heart rather than his head he stumbled a few blocks to [Y/N]’s apartment. He needed a place that felt like home, and as his closest friend, she was it. 
Leaning against the doorframe to [Y/N]’s apartment, he felt blood run down his leg and continue to pool in his shoes. The brown cotton laces were stained a deep port and the leather of his soles creaked in places where blood had begun to dry and restrict movement.  He didn’t want her to see the vileness of his aggression. He was overcome with shame, but pain superseded pride. He rapped on the thick wooden door, weakly calling her name. His head felt light and his breathing was becoming shallow. He could hear a slight clamor within the tiny apartment. Shortly thereafter warm light flooded his face as [Y/N] opened the door.
“Jesus, Mary, and Joseph! You need a hospital, Michael. Let me get my coat, I’ll run to Mrs. Paxton’s down the way, she has a phone. I can get an ambul…”
“No time. Please, just…” his voice was hoarse and he began to collapse before the thought was completed. Wrapping his good arm around her petite frame, [Y/N] cradled him inside. She struggled to lift him onto her kitchen table as his mind danced in and out of consciousness. In the short walk from the door to the kitchen, her white cotton nightdress was running damp with scarlet. She hurriedly bolted the door and escaped into the back washroom for provisions. Michael’s usually intense eyes were becoming opaquely glossy. They flitted across the water stained ceiling, looking vainly for redemption. He coughed and was met with volatile burning in his shoulder and chest.
“Fuck… [Y/N]?! [Y/N]?!” he cried for her in a needy whine, like a child for a mother.
“I’m here. I know it hurts, but just give me a sec.” She returned to his side, arms full of ointment, bandages, towels, and a quaint sewing kit. “What the fuck did you do, you little tosser? Completely ruined a good suit is what you did!”
In spite of himself, he cracked a toothy grin. That was why they were friends. She wasn’t afraid of the way morbidity followed his family like a shadow. Her humor was dark and she could hold her drink. Sitting and talking with [Y/N] felt like drinking bottled sunshine. Michael always felt safe when she was nearby. He admired her fearlessness and independence. They would stay up late drinking whiskey from the bottle in the back room of the Garrison talking about life and love. She was his confidant. She was his friend, his best friend.
His eyes followed her as she rushed to the stove, lighting the gas burners. She put a pot of water on, waiting for it to boil. As she rummaged through cabinets in search of supplies, he found himself staring at her. He had never really noticed the way fabric clung nicely to her frame or how the sway of her back gave rise to voluptuous hips. She turned around and was met with blush on his cheeks. For a moment he feared that his peeping was revealed, but she was far too focused on the task at hand. Worry crept into her brow. Even under duress, Michael found her face sweet and her lips tantalizing. She placed the back of her hand on his forehead. 
“You’re burning up. You’ve lost so much blood. I don’t know if this is a good idea. Is it normal to lose this much blood?”
“Well I was shot twice so…” he mumbled.
“Jesus, Michael! Lead with ‘I’ve been shot’ next time!” he winced out a small smile in response to her concern. It felt nice that she worried.  It felt nice to be looked after.
“Shit, I hope there isn’t a next time.” He exhaled through gritted teeth. The water was boiling and she dropped the towels into the pot.  
“I’ll make sure of that. I’m telling Polly. You can’t go…”
“Don’t you fucking dare! She’ll actually kill me.” [Y/N] laughed at Michael’s fear of his mother. She grabbed a half emptied bottle of cheap gin from behind a cabinet door and hastily poured a full glass.
“I’d prefer you sober now, thanks.”
“Cheeky, but this is for you, Mickey, not me.” Opening the sewing kit she pulled out shears. She sloshed them in the economy gin and dried them on her nightgown. “I’m sorry, but I have to get to the bullet. I can’t jostle you too much or I’ll lose it. So the posh pants will have to go.” Before he could ask what she meant, [Y/N] began cutting up his left pant leg until she revealed the crater in his flesh. 
“Christ on a bike.” She revolted. Michael was surprised. He had never seen her so squeamish. 
“Y’know, I’m the one that was shot. I thought this shit didn’t bother you.” “It’s different when you care…” She dropped the shears lazily in the sink and reached for two long hatpins from her sewing. After dunking them in gin, she opened a drawer and retrieved a wooden cooking spoon. 
“Right, so there’s no way about it. Bite down on this.” She placed the spoon in his mouth. “It will hurt, Mickey. I’m sorry.” Using the hatpins as makeshift tweezers, she began excavating the bloody hollow. [Y/N] dug for the metal as gingerly as possible, trying to steel herself against his aching sobs. Drool, sweat, and tears were forming an odd lake on the table around his throat. On the verge of passing out he grabbed at the hem of her nightshirt for comfort. “You’re doing great, Michael. Just a little bit more. Remember to breathe.” Her voice was steady and calming. “We’re gonna pull through. I’m here, don’t worry.” 
When metal finally hit metal Michael screamed. She secured the pins around the bullet and began extraction. He wailed and gurgled back tears while maintaining his bite on the wooden spoon. 
“Got it!” she said with relief plopping the slug into the gin glass. Michael was drained and appeared to be taking a brief respite, spitting out the spoon. [Y/N] seized the opportunity and poured a fair amount of gin on the wound. Michael howled. 
“What the ever loving fuck?”
“I’m sorry, but it needs cleaning. Okay, one more and then we’re all done. If you’re good I’ll give you a sweet after.” He laughed.
“I’m not four and this isn’t a shot. You owe me a fucking drink after.”
“Well, I’m using the last of the gin on you so I’ll have to buy you one at the Garrison.”
As [Y/N] unbuttoned Michael’s shirt, she realized that she was successfully undressing a man that she had feelings for. She blushed, and it didn’t go unnoticed. [Y/N] repeated the process of removing the bullet, this time from his shoulder. Knowing that the hellish sting of gin was coming, Michael quickly grabbed her hand for support. He squeezed tightly and she smiled softly to herself, happy to be needed. She gathered the bandages from the counter and packed both the wounds with gauze. After wiping away excess blood, she dressed the two large lesions. Lastly, she rang water from the towels on the stove and gingerly dabbed ointment on the small cuts on his face.
What seemed like an eternity had passed since he had stumbled through the door.  [Y/N] hadn’t really had time to think. She was tired and sore. Michael’s blood was everywhere; on the floor, on the table, in her hair, all over her clothes, under her fingernails. She needed a bath and a good night’s rest.
“C’mon, you need some kip.” She said, lifting him off the table. “You’re staying here tonight, because face it, you can’t walk. You can sleep in my bed, but we’ll need to find you a change of clothes. I’m not having you stain my sheets.” Michael was too sore to protest. He wrapped his arm around her shoulders while she snaked her arm around his waist to steady him. Leaning on her as a crutch, the pair hobbled into the cramped bedroom. She propped him against the wall, making her way to the wardrobe. [Y/N] shuffled through drawers looking for clothing in vain.
“I don’t think I have anything that’ll fit you. I think the only thing that’ll work is this,” she shrugged handing him a flannel lounging robe. He started to absentmindedly undress, sliding off his unbuttoned shirt and waistcoat. Even injured and covered with blood, [Y/N] found him to be beautiful.
“Enjoying the show?” his voice was strained but playful.
“Oh Jesus, sorry. Spaced out. Well, I’ll leave you to it,” she said too quickly. Her cheeks burned with embarrassment. She could hear him chuckle as she scurried off to the washroom. [Y/N] took an icy bath, not wasting time to heat the water. She wanted to scrub the blood from her body as quickly as possible. In some places, it had dried like thick paint on her skin, leaving blotchy congealed rubies of violence. She grimaced as the soap and water washed away the reminder of Michael’s pain. The water was bitingly frigid, but the blood was more repugnant than the cold. Finishing swiftly, [Y/N] slipped into clean pajamas, opting now for a Billie Burke set rather than another nightgown. She walked out of the washroom into Michael’s gaze. [Y/N] was still mortified that she had been caught gaping and was trying to play it off. She yawned, feigning ignorance at his stare. When she turned to meet his gaze he refused to look away.
“Do you need anything? I can get you another blanket or a…” In spite of herself, [Y/N] spoke with hurried trepidation.
“I’m fine. I hurt, but I’m fine.”
“Good, well try to get some rest. It’ll help you heal. I’m off to bed. Night.” She smiled and began to leave the room.
“Wait, so where are you going to sleep then?”
“Just the chair in the hall, you need the space. Don’t worry about it. If you need anything, I’ll be right here.”
“I’m not tired yet. Let’s talk a bit, like at the Garrison.” Michael wanted her to stay. He felt an increasing need to have her close. What he had known to be feelings of friendship were blooming into something far more romantic.
“But I haven’t any more gin…”
“It’s fine, can you just… be with me right now?” His voice was tender and exposed.
“Yeah, of course, anything you need.” 
Michael shifted under the duvet, wrapping the flannel robe more tightly around his chest. The white and red of his bandages peaked through the collar of the housecoat, and she was reminded of his discomfort. Michael slowly propped himself onto his right side to face [Y/N]. She apprehensively sat at the foot of the bed, fearing that any sudden movement could be injurious. 
“There’s plenty of space here,” he ran his hand over the sheets to the right.
“Alright,” her voice wavered breathlessly. She lifted the duvet and slid gingerly onto the bed, cautious not to rock it. [Y/N] turned onto her left side, positioned eye to eye with Michael. The tension was palpable.
“So what is it that you want to talk about?”
“I don’t know. I just didn’t feel like sleeping.”
“Look, Mickey I don’t ask questions, but I do feel entitled to answers, especially if you’re coming round with one foot in the grave.” Her eyes were honest to a fault and he could see her concern plainly. He sighed.
“It was business… it just got out of hand. I didn’t know they would be waiting for me. Guess I walked into a trap.”
“If it had to do with business, why not go to Pol or Arthur or John? Hell, Tommy’s in Arrow House, but you could have crashed at the betting shop.” He hesitated to respond.
“When I’m scared, I feel most at home with you. I knew you wouldn’t judge me and that you’d piece together how to patch me up. God knows Arthur and John aren’t sober this time of night, and mom would reign hell if she saw me in a state.” She laughed at his frankness. “I also just wanted to see your face.”
“And why would you want that?” she asked coyly.
“Because I need to kiss you.”
He reached up to cradle her cheeks warmly in his calloused hands. He could see her pupils dilate with desire and lust kiss flush into her cheeks. His lips were swollen and tender from the earlier brawl, but he didn’t care. He leaned in letting his mouth softly find hers. The ferrous taste of blood nipped at her tongue. Her fingers slowly laced their way through his mussed hair. Michael’s feet moved forward and their legs gradually intertwined. The kisses were slow and lazy. As the pair innocently explored their newly found intimacy, Michael felt the pain in his left side diminish. She yawned mid-kiss and he knew that [Y/N] needed sleep. He smiled and kissed her forehead fondly.  
“Alright, time for bed.” She moved to get up, but he held her tightly. “Sleep here tonight.”
She smiled.
“Tomorrow I’ll see to that drink and maybe we’ll find some patches for your posh pants,” she quipped.
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I was a full-time college student when we found out we were "expecting" a baby girl in three months. We were not actively looking, but it was dropped in our laps in a very "God is at work here" kind of way. Two months later, we were doubly-blessed to bring home her biological half-brother who was 16mths old at the time. Seemingly overnight, I was the first-time parent of a newborn - that had her days and nights backward - and a traumatized, neglected toddler who had only met us a handful of times before he got into a car with us, took a nap, and woke up with a new family. Unfortunately, for his safety, it had to be under those circumstances. All while taking full-time college courses working toward my Bachelor's degree and no family in the area to help. I was clueless, overwhelmed, and - knowing what I know now - most likely suffering from post-adoption depression. But I fought for my children. I took Joshua to speech therapy despite everyone's insistence that I was overreacting and got him help. The therapist said we had caught him up on two years of language in a year and that he was "only" 6mths behind, but I felt the shame and guilt that I imagine his birth parents would have felt had they been in my shoes at that moment. We taught him that bath times are fun, that food is always available, that he is safe, loved, and secure. I would sneak into his room at night and gently pull him into my arms, sit in the rocking chair, and weep, pray, and hum to him for hours. Pouring all the love I had into him while I could when he was sleeping, relaxed, and "letting" me hold him close. So yes... I fought for my children. But his body gained weight and strength faster than his heart healed. And I was more often than not impatient with the process. I didn't know how to connect with a little boy that had lived what he had... who kept me at arm's length and eyed me with wariness. I wasn't comfortable with big feelings and had no idea how to handle my own much less his. I was frustrated on every imaginable level. I remember sobbing on my mom's front porch and pouring out my soul. And when I was done, she said, "Amber, I know you're going to succeed and that God put you two together. And do you know why? Because not once in the last twenty minutes did I hear you say you're ready to give up. So keep loving him and praying for him and as hard as it is... be patient." While I have a massive list of "could haves, should haves, would haves", I did. I was. And friends... let me tell you... God was not kidding when he said, "My grace is sufficient for you." Somehow... through all the blunders, missteps, ignorance... we slowly found our way. When he finally called me "mama" for the first time - eight months after we brought him home - I cried for an hour. But something was still missing and I couldn't figure out what. I could feel it but I didn't understand it. And, really, isn't that the root of the behavior problems that come with our kids from hard places? It's amazing how God was prepping and training my heart even as I walked through it. Refresh (our adoption community) has given me the words and taught me the basic, but key, tools for connecting with our children. Our church motto is "connection is everything" and I find that it is just as true in our homes as it is for our communities. I began to look past the behaviors to see the needs. Then we began to identify the feelings and the roots. And from there, create strategies with - and provide tools to - our kids to help them work through whatever they are facing at the moment. Those simple tweaks have set off a powerhouse chain of events for myself and my family. Because as I began to recognize their triggers, I also began to recognize my own. I started creating time for self-care and, just as importantly, I began working through my own past traumas. I began to see how events were linked: the abandonment of my birth father, the emotional unavailability of my dad, the need for male attention, some risky behaviors that led to an ultimately unsuccessful sexual assault, the subsequent rejection of my friends followed closely by the loss of my brother, which ultimately drove me to my knees and back into church... where I got right with God, started dating my husband, who also wanted to adopt children, and enter Joshua and Emmalyn. The four years that followed, before an unexpected pregnancy threw our world into chaos again, were spent figuring out how to be parents. We embarked on a search for an adoption-friendly church as my pregnancy pushed us to recognize that our kids needed more support as adopted children. Hence we found our way to Overlake. ❤️ Circling back to working through my own trash: Letting God, with the help of our crazy tribe, turn my trash bag into a toolbox, has revolutionized the relationships in our home in every direction. We are all more well-adjusted and I have honestly never been more happy. There's a joy in my soul as I give and receive grace more freely and watch all of us blossom. Only a master weaver could have created a tapestry like this. The stitching has been hard and painful in so many ways. But his spirit in us, his Holy Word as a rock to stand on when the enemy whispers lies, and family and friends to speak truth when our feelings are raging, minds are confused, and hearts are bruised... has kept us moving forward to this place. The other side. The one we knew existed but couldn't see. And it's glorious. ... Albeit not "perfect." At this point in our lives, we are preparing for a move to Phoenix. My kids will be uprooted again and we are walking in blind faith. There is significant stress with this. But... we know God is pushing this as we are needed there. For many reasons, but in part, to look for opportunities to share what we have taken from all of our loved ones here. ❤️ And with all that craziness, my challenge is going to be starting my second year of grad school a week after we leave here and maintaining the peace that has settled over our home like a warm blanket. I had no idea how overwhelmed and stressed I've been the last 6yrs doing school and parenting and working until I took my first summer off from classes and dropped my FTE at work to part-time. It's like I can breathe again. We are believing/planning on me staying at home once we are moved so I can raise our babies and finish my Masters in Social Work. I'm even planning on taking up yoga and joining a monthly book club. 😳 It wouldn't be the craziest thing God has accomplished on our behalf. And we are trusting in Him because He sees us. And He sees YOU.
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So I wrote a letter and I would like to share it with you all!
Mr. Trump,
My name is Cinthia Zuniga. I am writing to you today to inform you why I do not and will never support you. I will not support your Cabinet, who who are composed of xenophobic, sexist, white supremacists.
You see, Mr. Trump. I am a woman, a feminist who will fight for the rights of every human being, I will continue the fight that many Americans started back in the late 19th century. The goal that we still continue to strive for, despite the years of abuse, disrespect, and blatant ignorance that people like yourself and the GOP have heaped upon us for decades. Planned Parenthood will continue to strive to help serve women like myself who have seen or lived through sexually transmitted diseases, teen pregnancies, unsafe abortion methods, and illnesses that have manifested themselves in the form of cancer, among others. We will continue to fight for our lives and the lives of our future children, who hopefully will not perished because of your ineptitude and misinformation.
I will continue to fight because I am also a former undocumented immigrant from Peru who was greeted by Lady Liberty at the age of six. I did not come here to steal jobs or to take opportunities. When I was born, I was deemed a blue baby, a term used to describe a child born with a severe cardiac malformation. If my father had not brought me to the United States, I would not have survived childhood. I did not have the chance to enjoy childhood as any normal kid would. I tired easily and have been on the brink of death on many occasions. I was not even allowed to cry for fear of tiring myself to death. I came under dire circumstances, and yes, I am fully aware that it was an indiscretion on my father’s part to allow me to stay. However, he could not bear the pain of parting from me any more than you can separate yourself from your family. Such was his love, that he threw caution to the wind and committed what you would call a crime. You see, Mr. Trump I am my father’s only surviving daughter. My father could not bear the pain of not watching his only daughter grow up, he also could not tolerate the thought of his daughter growing up in a world of extreme poverty. We did not grow in a grand house. We have never had the chance to borrow the small sum of a million dollars to begin anything anywhere. Our only chance was a sponsorship from a brother which allowed my father to travel to the United States.
As I grew older, Iwas made aware of my immigrant situation. I took steps into rectifying my then illegal status. I proceeded to become a resident while still paying taxes. I worked jobs you wouldn’t even think about in your wildest dreams. I was paid very poorly and worked long hours only to be fired, not because I was a bad employee but because I had no way of backing up my status here. So yes, Mr. Trump. You may call us lazy criminals, killers, rapists, but we have consistently shown you that we are not any of those things. After all, you could verify the amount of immigrants who have tirelessly worked for you, only for you to rip us off. We have gardened your yards, we have taken care of your children, we have been your maids, your construction workers, your custodians, and even your factory workers.We have helped make America a flourishing democracy and in return, you have ravaged our image to your heart's content. We do not glorify our uncertain circumstances, but we are and will continue to be proud of our heritage with and hold our heads high with dignity.
I will continue to fight you and those who have backed you relentlessly because I have a child with special needs and the fact that you mocked and ridiculed a man with special needs appalled me to no end. Is this what I’m expected to look forward to now that you’re in office? To have my child relegated as an object merely to be made fun of? I absolutely refuse to treat my child like an object. She is the greatest gift and joy that life could have ever afforded me. She is a seven year old little girl, who happens to be autistic. She is and has always been a sweet girl who greets anyone she meets with a generous smile. I hope you will not have to face the unpredictability of having a special needs person in your life. They would not only feel ridiculed and isolated, but powerless and attacked. Special needs people are not idiots. They do not need to be mocked for you to feel grand, to earn the false respect that has been given to you.
Every start of the month, I receive help from the state as a result to my daughter’s condition. I do not spend the money on needless things. I do not even spend it on myself. That money is reserved for food and clothes and sometimes any small gift that can challenge my daughter’s intellectuality. My husband and I cannot afford to live as comfortably as we would like. We’re not even middle class, and before you can refute my reasons, I would like to add that I am a stay at home mom. I do not choose to be so simply because I enjoy it. It is not something I should do because I’m a woman who should stay at home while the man works. This is not the 1950’s. I choose to stay because I want to be present for whatever situation might arise concerning my daughter, good or bad. Mr. Trump. I hope with a very pessimistic heart that you understand the love I have for my child as you would have for your own children. You rejoice in their successes and weep at their misery. I want only to provide a good and happy life for her and her children should she choose to have kids.
I cannot in good conscience accept you or your cabinet because I refuse to accept a sexist xenophobe as the man in charge of this country. I do not revel in the many, many accusations heaped upon you. It would be like inviting Bill Cosby for a cup of tea while alone in my house. I cannot respect your blatant sexism towards women. You cannot come to me and call me a pig when it was you who has forced yourself unto unwilling, unsuspecting victims. Like them, I feel the utter helplessness and fear. I understand the way it feels to have your dignity violently taken away because of your monetary power. We are not objects, Mr. Trump. We cannot be given a score of 1 to 10 on attractiveness. We will not accept you walking into a dressing room full of underage, naked girls. We cannot and will not accept you disrespecting a woman who has gracefully run against you. If she is a nasty woman, then consider me a nasty woman who will do anything and everything in her power to discredit and sully you every chance I get.
Finally Mr. Trump I don’t consider you my President simply because I am a pagan. Like my Muslim brothers and sisters, I am not afraid of being diffferent. I refuse to be cowed for my beliefs. My husband stands with me shoulder to shoulder as an atheist because we believe that we reserve the right to worship whoever and however we please, or not to worship, if we choose. We are not the terrorists, Mr. Trump. Those you fear so much and so often are those who back your claims. Ever since 9/11, the Muslim community has been vilified and persecuted. They have suffered countless injustices under the name of your Christian god. It reminds me of the the what I read about the Holocaust and the man who persecuted and vilified Jewish people. He put the blame of a decimated and broken society on the back of Jews. He gave false and erroneous hope to the people who felt they were handed a terrible card by Fate, and also by those too rich to care. A few of course were sensible enough to ignore the wrongful edicts that were being fed through the radio and television; just as you have used today’s social media, and the entertainment industry to spew you slanderous hatred. Some were desperate for an easy way out, thereby ignoring unethical, disgusting, and downright cruel punishments in the name of a God and money. I am not here to discuss my thought and ideas on faith and religion, although you can clearly see my point of view on the matter. I am here to tell you that if I can enjoy the kind words of the Presbyterian man who was known as Mr. Rogers, be in awe of the strength of a Methodist woman who ran against you, respect a Jewish 75 year old man from New York then you are capable of stepping back and allowing people to worship as they see fit. After all, extremists come in all religions and backgrounds.
Speaking about white supremacy, I would like to add that I fully and completely support everything they are against. I do believe that Black Lives Matter. I give my thanks to Malcolm X, Rosa Parks, Martin Luther King Jr and his wife, Emmett Till, Shirley Chisholm, Tawan Boyd, Maya Angelou, Tamir Rice, Laverne Cox, and Alton sterling. They have paved the way for minorities who are now the majority to brave the waters and fight against injustice. However, we are not victims. We are freedom fighters with the sole purpose of giving others a reason to continue the fight.
White supremacy wont snuff out the light of hope to my fellow . The Native American and the LGBTQ communities have been maligned for the basic fact that there is and have been people like you in office, though not as unprepared and woefully unqualified as you. They, like me have been displaced, mistreated, disrespected, and ignored when it was convenient for you. Before the United States became what it is, Native Americans were displaced and attacked for a land that was claimed by European conquerors despite the fact that they were here first. We enslaved African’s to make profit. We persecuted LGBTQ members out of fear and misinformation. We have ravaged this land that we call home by carelessly dumping our oil on the waters. We have hunted animals to extinction for the purpose of a prize. We have willingly allowed ourselves to become and maintain our ignorance on climate change. All while claiming that we are a great country.
Well Mr. Trump, you are wrong because we are a great country despite our shortcomings. Despite the hate, and ignorance. Yes, the world is full of “Bad Hombres”, and “Nasty Women” but for the reasons you believe. We have “Bad Hombres” who have fought for freedom and the American dream. The “Nasty Women” of this country have raised children who have and will continue to improve our livelihood. It is not your GOP or even you who will make ‘America Great Again’. American is great already and it will be people like myself who will fight you tooth and nail for our rights to be equal, to make it even better. Mark my words - we will make these next four years hell, just as you made it hell for the last eight years for the President who has graciously endured your bad mouth and unwarranted suspicions. A man who has not had a single scandal, unlike you and your team who haven't been able to keep your hands clean before even stepping foot in a House that should’ve never belonged to you in the first place. We did not vote for you and I hope you continue to twitter fight your way into oblivion.
In conclusion Mr. Trump, I guess it would be redundant to say that you will never be my President. You are everything that is wrong with humanity. Your pompous ego will not be tolerated. Your once glowing, albeit inaccurate grandiosity has been diminished. I cannot in good conscience share or even respect your views because unlike you, I don’t have a nanny to raise my child. I want my daughter to be proud of where she comes from and to whom she is related to and you Mr. Trump are not the way. You seem to have forgotten that this is the United States of America not the set of the apprentice. This great, big, beautiful melting pot of a society has come together through love and understanding. Through respect and clarity of mind. We are not in a reality show where you can cut out scenes and edit dialogue. You are dealing with real lives. Whatever misdeeds you impose on us will affect us and our future generations greatly. Your cabinet along with you will be solely responsible for what could very well be the end of this already great America, but we will not let you. We will prevail. We will fight. We shall overcome!
sincerely,
A woman who is tired of your ignorance and deceit.
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