#I have been contemplating
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this would've been me if i was not raised with my mother and father
#ignorelist#☺️☺️☺️#I have been contemplating#you know#maybe its NICE to have a parent that fucking cares about you emotionally and cares about you as a person#maybe i want parent that fucking give me rules#maybe i want my parent to care more about me#but of course#the staple of phraud family is always how fucking UNCARING and APATHETHIC they can fucking be#when did anyone in this numbhole fucking care#we are too buried in our business to even know or understood each other#we were never ever fucking close ever#i dont even know what my sister or brother fucking like#and we as family also never even fucking know each other as a person#do my mom know what my sister fucking likes? No she fucking dont#does my sister know what i like? no she doesnt#AND I DONT EITHER#maybe this family was by design is cruel and uncaring#but idc lalalala i have other relatives that i fucking care more anyway and they also care for me#All i need nnow is just IRL friend that is fucking active and not a fucking slob that doesnt want to go outside :/ and maybe i can cope#being in this brain dead family#yk ironically my aunt pay attention to what i want more than my mom :x#like dont get me wrong im grateful for the thing she buys for me but she always are#ccontrolling.... on what i should be as a person#If i want a clothe she will pick one out for me and its the very style i fucking hate even though i already told her i do not like that sty#if i want things for me and for what i want its always what SHE wants#its probably the very reason on why i dont want to buy clothe with her ever...Or buy clothe
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sad: falling out of a hyperfixation
tragic: watching your beloved friends and mutuals fall out of the hyperfixation while you're still in it
#oughhhhhhh#this is about the dca fandom but also about every other strong fixation ive had over the years lol#i know it's normal and inevitable esp for less popular works or minor characters with little canon content#and there's nothing wrong with smaller communities of course those rock#but there’s just something special about getting into something at the same time as a lot of other people all at once#and existing in this chaotic fandom space that's just bursting with creativity and passion#i've been in fandom spaces for as long as some of you have been alive and i've only come across that sort of unbridled joy like#a handful of times at best#it's just a heartbreaking feeling to see real lightning in a jar fandoms like that wither away as people drift away#(understandably so!)#anyway don't mind me i'm just having thoughts#musing about fandoms past as well#that i too eventually moved on from but remember fondly even if im not active in anymore#also my music just aint hitting right so im just sitting in silence which makes me more Contemplative(tm)
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I love you spy churin, I'd let you play hot wheels on me
#tw blood#anyone who gets the metal gear references gets a kiss on the head from me#aventurine#dr ratio#veritas ratio#agent au#spy au#aventio#ratiorine#hsr#spyturine#?? is that a tag what do you call this#contemplated drawing him offing someone with a pencil (john wick) but that *might* have been too much#idk what came over me but once I started I couldn't stop + this new brush I found is a lifesaver#I switched to Clip Studio Paint just forthis singular brush. Don't let anyone tell you a brush can't change lives#hsr aventurine#honkai star rail#art#my art#sketches#fanart#artists on tumblr#blood#i tried to not make it danganronpa blood forgive me
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there are many reasons why olympic motorsport is one of the most impractical ideas humanity has ever had, but i still think we should try it, primarily because i want to study the hypothetical dynamics of an alonso-sainz-palou team spain lineup under a microscope
#it would be unstoppable force (alonso mind games) vs immovable object (unbothered alex palou) while carlos is there to chat shit#also i have been contemplating what team new zealand would be#f1#indycar
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I LOVE YOU, I'M SORRY The Secret of Us Tour — New York City, New York (Night 3) | October 14, 2024
#gracie abrams#gabramsedit#gracieabramsedit#the secret of us#the secret of us tour#tsou tour#I love you I'm sorry#musicedit#dailymusicians#dailymusicqueens#dailywomen#femalegifsource#femaledaily#*mine#*2024#*gifs#wanted to gif this when I watched the video when it came out the other day but I had an assignment due rip#I have been contemplating getting a ticket to n3 as well but I shall see what else happens on may 4 😅
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happy fnaf movie (uk) release day!
#art#obey me#it's 5am and i can't sleep but i managed to finish this in time so who's the real winner here#fnaf#obey me lucifer#obey me leviathan#obey me satan#jtta ik#fnaf saga#can you tell that i've developed a love for those big cartoony shock eyes since i first used them in the rpg comic#i feel like i've been drawing lucifer too much recently so i did contemplate using a different brother#but the scenario wasn't as funny with anyone else#in hindsight barbatos could've been funny but i'm not redrawing all that to put him in#i keep wanting to draw some cute dadcifer stuff but i feel like i ought to balance him out with some other characters first#luckily i have a Massive reserve of shitposts to apply them to#also i KEEP meaning to do more of those cat picture redraws but i keep not getting around to it
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daily dose of driftcells..
#dead cells#hyper light drifter#the beheaded#bobby#driftcells#i was gonna make another comic but so many things happened and im just too overwhelmed :")#been struggling for a while im eepy#and so i draw angst LMAO#also DRIFTER FACE hehe#also i kept forgetting his species have a tail. at least some of them. and im contemplating whether to give him one or not#my art
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my latest origins run has had a slightly higher body count than anticipated
#in my quest for ghost pope stellian has also killed the one companion who liked him without being manipulated#i know this could have been avoided but after much contemplation the tragedy was compelling to me#dragon age#stellian surana#my art#wip? maybe we'll see
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Want to write a comment on AO3 but don’t know how? Lemme help! Choose as many of these prompts as you like:
1. What was your favorite part?
2. How did it make you feel? Did you laugh out loud? Did you cry? What parts made you feel something?
3. What emotion were you left with when you finished the chapter?
4. Did any particular lines stick out to you? Which ones?
5. Did something remind you of something from the source material? Talk about that!
6. Did anything surprise you?
7. Did anything stand out to you?
I know some people get anxious writing comments but I PROMISE YOU you will make the writer’s day! Even if you just pick one of these things to elaborate on in your comment, the writer will appreciate it! If you write a long comment, the writer will remember it for ages!!
YOU CAN WRITE THE BEST COMMENT SOMEONE HAS EVER GOTTEN!! I believe in you!! 💜 please feel free to reach out if you have any questions or doubts!
#ive been thinking a lot about fandom and community lately#idk it seems like tiktok is so consumptive and tumblr has always been so interactive#but that seems less and less true these days#(the erosion of tag culture is so sad to me)#ao3 in some ways seems to have maintained the interactive culture more than tumblr#and i just feel like fandom benefits so profoundly when it’s a community#idk just ~contemplating~#fanfiction#ao3#writing#fanfic#fandom
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there's no way the bathroom at peppino's pizza is actually that big but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ . hey ummm anyway.... i care them...... anyway there's a lil ramble on my take on fake pep's like psyche or whatever in tags on the og post if ur into that kinda thing :y
hey! it's a series! fake peppino world tour: [noise] [noisette] [peppino]<- u are here [gustavo] [gerome] [noisette again]
#ramble after realtags yeag. shoutout to serrangelic btw suggesting the silhouettes thing bc i would have Died otherwise#pizza tower#peppino spaghetti#fake peppino#gustavo and brick#arting#pizzaposting#so anyway i think fake peppino has like. a general awareness that he is supposed to Be Peppino and that he was Made to do that#and likewise he does generally try to...do that. the thing he does NOT realize is hes like really goddamn bad at it#not to be mean but like...c'mon. they are pretty distinctly different kinds of guys even beyond the physiology yknow.#he's neither on-brand nor fooling anyone dsjdsjjkgfsd. BUT!#since the rest of the cast generally likes him [at least as I play it] he thinks hes doing just fine#he's like 'oh they r happy with me so i must be getting a good grade in being peppino :)'#so getting told that 'yeah you actually really suck at that but that was never the reason people liked you'#and told that by og model peppino no less--yknow THE guy he's supposed to be living up to#who's already a bit intimidating for that and who ALSO totally wrecked him TWICE in the tower#making him acutely familiar with just how formidable the guy is and how much there IS to live up to....#it's a Moment for sure. not really a sad or hurt one though. just... contemplative.#thinking abt people liking him for being the guy he's already naturally been being even though that guy is Not Peppino#i don't think he's gonna be super broken up about realizing he has a bad grade in peppino given everything else hes got now#nor do i really think he cares enough to go like reinvent himself or whatever after the fact#he seems to b pretty clearly having fun with it already so i think he just keeps doing that#and in some cases he still has the pre-installed peppino traits/instincts like to cooka da pizza. and that's fine#is this projection. yes. but if youve been following me awhile you know most of my character writing is ghdhfdgf#gonna kinda expand on all this in the gerome one which is...one after next. itll be a bit but man.#anyway peppino will never admit to anyone and especially not himself that he's gotten a little attached to the guy. hee hoo#pep tends to be kinda surly but he certainly has his ways of showing he cares. all of which are on display here#''that thing is not my son'' says man currently watching thing's antics with the 'bemused dad' arms crossed pose. yeah ok buddy.#gus is totally onto him already but hes not gonna say anything.#if u read all this ur prize is not having to go decode fp's rot13. his lines are ''meant to be you...?'' and ''wrong question.''
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do you ever think about how in the literal very first scene with Rebecca, we learn that Unit Bravo had no idea she even had a kid
she chose UB and The Agency over the detective so consistently, so frequently, that her team didn't even consider that she had some kind of life outside of them, with someone waiting for her at home
#twc#Rebecca I am obsessed with your brain#like N and F especially are so moved by the ideas of family and normalcy and having a home to return to#i just want UB to really sit with the idea of what the detective missed bc their mom chose to be their handler#twc rebecca#the wayhaven chronicles#wayhaven#Rebecca's grief and fear and sense of duty melding into one giant nightmare creature of work-life imbalance#I've been contemplating what a rebecca & mc relationship would look like if rook hadn't died#much to consider#the rebecca lore is making me insane the more i think about it#like if anyone was going to have any inkling of Rebecca's personal life it'd be UB and theyre like 'child?? dead husband??'#she trusted agency sitters enough to watch the detective but never let even hinted her own team that she had a kid !!!#idk im rambling now
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This pic, obviously
#literally the first thing i saw when i woke up and i just. had to quietly contemplate for many many minutes#5sos#5 seconds of summer#luke hemmings#luke#hatc magazine#boy ep#kh4f post#like#head truly truly empty#you'd think it would be filled with many thoughts. observations. hopes. dreams. commentary.#but no.#absolutely no thoughts.#never been a thought in my head actually.#but Crystal what about that thing you just said to so and so about-- 🤫🤫🤫#no. thoughts.#having such a normal time here#for normal reasons
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This may be the most relatable a celebrity has ever been;
David Tennant interviewed for Hello magazine (2009)
#I don’t have hobbies. I played squash 3 times and I was quite good at it#<- something I’m pretty sure I’ve said at some point in life#also being a little shit at a new random hobby. we’ve all been there#celebrity interviews#David tennant contemplating life after leaving doctor who (the first time)#david tennant
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This answer always fucks me up bc
1) of course momota didn't notice bro was busy trying not to die from a disease while also figuring out a way to end the killing game
2) even tho it's still ambiguous imo the implication that if only harukawa realized her feelings and confessed sooner, or if only momota had more time, they might have had something together is so delectably cruel.
#yuli speaks#but of course they couldnt then#because maki had to contemplate if it was even ok to even fall in love in a KG in the first place#and momota was on a timer the moment he coughed up blood#they had no time#which again makes the ch5 confession perfect#instead of lamenting what could have been kaito made sure maki could love herself and live on without him#apologies for the google translate#but i made sure there wasnt any missing context or such at least
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I'm so normal about the fact that the crew chose to use the unicorn hoof of all things for Izzy's new leg, its unbelievably moving. The unicorn was the figurehead of the ship, and back then figureheads embodied the spirit of the vessel, offering the crew protection from harsh seas and safeguarding their homeward journeys. Now i don't think i need to really explain just how beautiful this is, but, I'm also incapable of shutting up about Israel Hands, so. Izzy seems to assume everyone still hates him, and is drinking his many sorrows away, alone in his room, not knowing that the crew fully recognizes that Izzy saved them from Blackbeard, that he chose to protect them. The note said that Izzy is the ships "new unicorn" i.e. the new figurehead, this means that he also embodies the spirit of the vessel, and that they have faith in his continued ability to protect them, as is the job of the figurehead. Even the fact the hoof was painted gold seems intentional, gold in the bible represents love and protection, as if they are saying thank you for protecting us, now let us paint you in our protection as well Izzy. When they knocked on his door to give him his present, Izzy derogatorily calls himself a cripple, showing that he's feeling particularly clumsy and weak after his fall in front of everyone, and assumes this must be how everyone sees him now as well. But, unicorns actually represent power and grace, they've not only enabled Izzy to feel sturdy again physically with a new leg, they've also taken a bit of the weight off his shoulders emotionally by proving to him that he's not alone. Similar to his new leg, they're willing to bear some of the burden for him. And that's the thing, Izzy always tries to do things on his own, he gets drunk alone, he cries alone, his version of self-healing involves coming up with stories about sharks biting his leg off, and he even does that alone too. Yet they're giving him a sign that no matter how much he tries to self isolate, he's actually shit out of luck because they're there for him. What I appreciate about this show of support is the fact that they didn't force Izzy to accept the gift face to face, rather, they left it outside his room, proving that they know him quite well, and didn't want to push him too far too fast. Just like their extending of friendship, they are letting Izzy come to them when he's ready. But what i love most of all is that it actually works, this is what finally snaps him out of his spiral of depression, and gets him sword training again, improving himself rather than giving up, and engaging with the crew and helping them. This one show of solidarity, gratitude, and compassion, opens his eyes to the fact that he's a part of their messed up family, he belongs to something, and this fact alters Izzy forever.
#izzy said that piracy is about belonging to something and i think hes been contemplating his life as a pirate for a while.#not feeling he belonged anywhere esp because of how much ed has changed and the uncertainty of who he is and what his purpose is#so in one fell swoop they have given him clarity. direction and a fresh start i cannot wait to watch him fully blossom i love him sm#oh i also just like the simple explanation that hes a unicorn cuz hes special and one of a kind hehe#israel hands#izzy hands#ofmd#s2e4#ofmd season 2#ofmd spoilers#ofmd s2 spoilers#unicorn#meta#ofmd season 2 spoilers
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BLOODLINES. BROTHERHOOD. BETRAYAL. TRIBAL COMBAT: ROMAN REIGNS vs JEY USO WWE SUMMERSLAM: DETROIT (AUGUST 5, 2023)
#wrestling#wwe#jey uso#jimmy uso#solo sikoa#roman reigns#the usos#the bloodline#wweedit#wrestlingedit#my gifs#i have been obsessively thinking about the shot of solo looking away contemplatively as jey breaks down in the ring forever now#everything about solo is so subtle and can go any direction it drives me insane i love it
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