#I guess I'm in a bad mood

[gamblegun]

I recognize how much of an effort and an improvement getting out of the house at all can be, believe me, but there's something funny when someone is saying, "my lack of funds fundamentally robs me of having any life experiences whatsoever, and overwhelming traps me in my house", and someone goes, "have you tried wandering around a park for a little while, that's free 😁". Like, I know that's objectively a little better, but I have to admit, a patch of grass doesn't exactly do it for me.

[icewindandboringhorror]

Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~

(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)

[ratguy-nico]

yeah... if you read it yesterday I got myself rob, I'm kinda of...an idiot

So open emergency comms!

Also open a Ko-fi for this, again any help is more than apreciate it!

Same mechanic as common comms, but

IMPORTANT

I will start working on the commissions next week, since I'll be busy this week.

(but of course before any paymant you'll aprove the preliminar sketch)

[maxphilippa]

uh. vent art. or something. losing yourself and losing everyone who you cared about as a result

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

trying to psych myself up to finally do oc refs by doing fandom-related refs instead: volume 1

wanted to update my yuma from whatever tf this au is so he was a bit more unique... takes inspo from a lot of different things while also trying to be its own sorta thing? which is fitting given the au ;)

bonus chibi now that i'm also figuring out how tf to do chibis lol:

[symmetrycrypt]

thinking about how much i fucking hate totk again, like sorry, it really tainted my entire love for the series that was literally my special interest for so long growing up

[essektheylyss]

guess what I didn't do. guess what I didn't fucking get around to this weekend. my goddamn video game homework.

[sysig]

Red Eyes and Evil Time, practically the same thing right (Patreon)

[humanmorph]

does anyone have actual play podcast recommendations. I want something new to check out since I'm caught up with Oathsworn... I don't have many preferences except maybe no straight-up regular fantasy setting and. not to say it can't be funny (i think there will always be something funny at some point if you hang out with people you like telling a story together) but idc much for comedy as a main focus

[aaronsoceaneyes]

hey guys guess who won't see Kraven the Hunter at the movies after all 🥰😁

[despairforme]

Nnoitra would hear that someone was at his door. Which turned out to be Adelha. A huge paper sack in hand to have the scents of food wafting from it. Her smile is bright as she says with good cheer, "Hello, Nnoi. I brought you some festive food to enjoy this holiday. Including a bottle of bourbon."

To him, this was not a "holiday". OF COURSE he didn't fucking celebrate Thanksgiving. First of all - he wasn't American. Secondly - why the fuck would he be thankful for anything? It was just any other Thursday to him, and it happened to be one of his most hated days. Leave it to him to hate the middle of the week the most. Needless to say, he just wasn't in the best mood ( when was he ever? ).

The doorbell rang, letting him know that there was someone wanting to visit him. He'd had no head's-up with a text, so he assumed it was Adelha. She was pretty much the only one who'd show up at his place unannounced. Considering how much time Nnoitra spent outside his apartment, he wondered how often Adelha had showed up to his place and found it empty.

He didn't make her wait. Instead, he headed down to the first floor to open the door and greet her. Her smile was bright and cheerful, sharply contrasting with his bad mood.

Nnoi, she called him.

Tch.

He always disliked it when people didn't bother to struggle all the way to the end with his name. As if it was a long name. Noi-to-ra. Just three fucking syllables. He would've told her off about it, had it not been for the paper bag she was holding, which clearly contained food, judging from the scent. Giving him food was a sure way to disarm him.

❝ I don't celebrate that stupid holiday. ❞ He said, instantly giving away how bad his mood was. ❝ But I ain't gonna say no 'ta some food. ❞ The paper bag did smell good, and he hadn't had lunch yet. As for the bourbon? Nah. He didn't drink hard liquor anymore. And he didn't want to have whiskey. Too many memories.

[mildmayfoxe]

yesterday i posted "is my work shit???? am i a talentless HACK???" on twitter and nobody responded or even liked it so i guess it's official...... i'm a talentless hack..............

[backpackingspace]

an incomplete list of things I thought were pretty obvious bc I'm feeling petty

The jedi being about processing your emotions and grief and being able to work through the feelings in a healthy way

Odysseus being a rape victim

[sillyfreakx5]

i miss him so much :(((

(tw for implied grooming/csa in the tags)

[unproduciblesmackdown]

among the boundless billions zaniness like laugh track as it definitely has that moment of expressing "rolling my eyes as The Left makes a kerfuffle of Acting like they have a stance as a veneer over the true belief that [xyz] is cool & chill actually" like what, approximate 0.000% chance wendy isn't, as usual, given the Objective Stance of "yeah yeah ohh we are cancelling involved parties talking about how we Don't watch this But. we all love this damn epic movie & already have it memorized so shut the fuck up, kids today" like. don't wanna really delve into how much billions thinks taylor or anyone is "really" trans / nonbinary like not too much benefit of the doubt in this material including what does provide info abt that specifically

& the general like [head in hands. what do you think any of this could possibly be about (you're the one that made your show at all about Power)] of "yes, it's bad/wrong to be someone that someone has done something to / victim of something" like that to be anti misogyny All Women Must Be Epic Winners b/c there's something to be proved: that they don't Deserve to be victims (of misogyny), not taken as a Given. while when we see some epic winner men stepping on other men (who need not all be guaranteed Winners so as to say misogyny is wrong), that's often Good, well beyond any assumption that various forms of basic disrespect / violation / patterns of emergent/entrenched power difference as Bad (for being things done to people, not for there being people they're being done to), & generally billions has to take an extra step when ppl get shitted on & tell us the Specific Cases when it was undeserved actually & someone was being mean to a specific person who didn't deserve that. & the specific cases when hey guess it wasn't that bad(tm) or when hey It's Okay that you're someone something was done to, in this case. & tell us what we were supposed to know all along like when someone who something was being done to (wrong Of Them, whether b/c they inherently deserve it no matter what, &/or b/c they failed to be someone who could make it Impossible to do anything to them, which, how do you do that besides being The Authority / Superior yourself, exactly? nonrhetorically? what if the in group vs out group / fascism / authoritarianism protected Me?) was actually being treated Too Well b/c ah well the abuse meant you were getting any attention, maybe it meant you were claimed as any superior's property, maybe it meant you weren't Already disposed of, as all Losers were in the end, You're Welcome.

obviously referring to winston where it's spelled out all the abuse towards him was deserved, & More than he deserved in the case of rian having more access & taking advantage of that, all for billions' enjoying its own sendoff there of, again, maximizing violation & violence short of [real violence is physical & leaves bruises / draws blood / Literally kills] which would be distasteful in general But doesn't it make wags look like the winner & winston the loser is that the former's completely unrelated completely impersonal ego blow gets way amplified taken out on winston, the most vulnerable recurring character when spyros as [first & ultimate Everyone Hates Him role] is more entrenched in there & billions still magnanimously pities tuk, as it does winston too, just not quite as much. again that like completely surface level realized power fantasy of forcing the mirror up to the Inferior so they're like nooo my inferiorityyyy & in doing so like, the projection in that lmao, we get it re: the valuing of & need(tm) for such Power Tripping & Reaffirming My Superiority & My Ego Restored; Everyone Claps like good god. & then for all ben & tuk are the slightly softer Two Too Nice Boys duo to the rian & winston quant duo, also like too nice i guess but not as much, ben is in charge of tuk but Any instance of rian being in charge of winston outstrips them in that "yay interpersonal abuse" dynamic, like then in the end billions may be like "yeah it's possible to be mean to them unlike how being mean to winston is actually Nice b/c he deserves everything he gets, we only vicariously enjoy it vs Feeling Bad for tuk & ben sometimes (still magnanimously & it's Not That Bad / just goofin)" like ben & tuk still Fail by not being people it's impossible to do anything to. & not Exceptions who anyone is really being Too Mean to. like if they were women, in which case, no problem surely with a "positive" kind of victim blaming where there is something Inherent that Will be victimized so hey how about to cancel that out there's this special Paternal Protection you Need always, Or Else? :) but instead they are men who are asian & is ben gay & w/tuk & winston nobody mentions glasses or fatness but billions doesn't really do much or very in depth textual mentioning of Anything, even w/nonzero mention that there may be gender & race in this world. a gay man, once. no disability. we just Know who are the inferiors who deserve it when they're treated inferiorly, or if they don't, they start deserving it when they fail to stop/avoid it, but if you start mentioning the factors behind who we all totally agree is inferior like whoa nobody was Saying any of that? being the real agent of oppression on the basis of the factors only You spelled out, much? nonbinary? i never say anything about the Gender Binary when i'm subscribing to it, sounds like You've created & enforced it. obfuscation & deflection onto [so Just Normal nobody has to label, explain, or argue it] couldn't serve a purpose & protect the existing power differences as they are. maybe You're the problem? perhaps you brought it upon yourself & now you're causing too much trouble standing up for yourself while everyone else's criticism is laser focused on you as the prior & continuing negative actions done to you are taken as a given / unquestioned / covertly protected to overtly encouraged?

anyway so wild if the Completely Normal(tm) Victim Blaming is uncritically recreated & oft embraced for "if you're watching this & don't wish you were axe / find him appealing" [billions as a sequence of vicarious power trips] purposes in this series....but a bit wild considering like this is your multiseason show that wasn't just purporting to be those power trips for [enough demographic & apparently specific personal tastes overlap w/creators] & was at all purporting to question the matters of power at play in the material, or yknow, at least to not be completely superficial material while said material is textually & thematically all about power difference being leveraged, how, the consequences, & so on. thus i will have to intermittently talk about it forever like this like lord unbelievable. & the funny little & sometimes less funny less little characters it has trapped in there so that those of us who were never meant to be in the audience can be cursed with this knowledge. like i have some feedback. "imagine not victim blaming" & "imagine adjusting your perspective can go beyond superficial layers added to politely defer to some other ppl while they're present but really like cmon do they deserve that. am i not just saying what we're allll thinking"

[timelessbian]

*said with clenched fists, through gritted teeth* cringing at something i wrote nearly a decade ago is actually a good thing and i am being so strong and brave by reading it without clawing my eyes out