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Why did I get all the math and science mutuals you guys SCARE ME
#sillyposting#shitposting actually#anyway#I am in awe of your huge brains#but also terrified of the computing power you hold within them#I see numbers and I want to throw up#the fight or flight kicks in#my eyes glaze over#I get flashbacks to a terrible time#it’s the Great War of 2013 (I am failing my math class)#I cannot escape the numbers#they know where I sleep (my 15000 alarms)#will I ever know peace?#no. not with y’all here. disturbing my peace.#what the FUCK is a Han Xin code Wathav#I’m SCARED#(again this is a shitpost I genuinely love your interests even if I personally can’t compute them LMAO)#at least without handholding#I would genuinely like an explanation if you’d like to infodump#ooh secret code I would love to learn about the theory of it all
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It occurred to me that I have yet to see art of younger Wolfwood after reading the three panels where he shows up, so this is my contribution.
#trigun#trigun maximum#trimax#nicholas d. wolfwood#trigun wolfwood#can you tell i CANNOT draw firearms#i'm getting terrible flashbacks from that time i made an omen fanart#i don't even play valo???#astreart
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Hornet headcanon!
'Hornet' is not Hornet's true name.
I'm still torn between different reasonings for her having the name either
A- It was given to her as an honorary title, by Queen Vespa, during her training within the hive (or bestowed upon her after having finished her training as a symbol of her accomplishments.)
Or B- She gave the name to herself, after the fall of the kingdom, as a way to separate her current self from her past while still honoring some part of her past. (The part that is easiest for her to look back on.)
As for her birth name my sisters and I have decided on Arachnè. (The name is from a Greek myth, where the protagonist Arachnè challenges Athena to a weaving contest, wins, and is afterwards transformed into a spider.)
#I'm pretty sure it's said somewhere#I might just be making this up but either way I like that idea#That the hive was only recently infected.#And like the mantises they could not be infected against their will but willingly turned to the radiance#because living under a hive mind is what they were used to#and their queen who had been protecting them had died.#Anyway all of this is to say#Hornet did not have any very terrible memories or trauma related to the hive at least for the majority of the time.#Which is why she stuck to a name associated with that aspect of her life.#Also! On a somewhat related note I really enjoy the headcanon that the Pale King's true name is Ozymandias that is perfect I'm keeping that#Hollow knight#hk hornet#hollow knight hornet#hollow knight headcanon#Also yes I recognize that there are several flashbacks scenes in my fic where she is referred to as Hornet#Which doesn't align with this headcanon unless we go with option A maybe#But either way idc#I have literally been constantly learning and coming up with new hcs and theories ever since getting into hk#They don't always align#Being in the hk fandom is so fun guys#Wow this is a lot of tags ok I'm done
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MAN I'm seriously so sad about season 2. Bc I wish act 2 had the same emotional impact on me as it appears to have on so many others. But rn I'm just somewhere between unable to care and actively annoyed by some of those writing decisions. Seriously the more I think about it the less I like it.
#act 3 come through please 🙏#I don't think it can salvage some of the things I have contentions with but still... please...#don't ask me about the silco vander flashback with jinxs + vis mom#or the bizzare choice to do so much of the storytelling through this weird music video format they've got going on#completely stripping it of the weight these plot beats could've had if they were... normal scenes#and also missing the point of how the music was used in season 1 and what made it so effective#bc it was complementary to instead of replacing the storytelling#seriously don't ask me about these things I will spontaneously implode on the spot#whyyyyy would they recontextualize season 1 like this with that flashback#to me it kind of ruins the character dynamics and themes in s1. it just makes me so sad you have no idea#also what even are they doing with Jinx rn for real#aaarghhhh just... so many things that are making me scratch my head#also I'm so terribly sorry but I could not care less about Isha sorry lol#like i get that its sad conceptually but she was such a non-character that i struggle to feel impacted at all#same with sky tbh. i thought her role in s1 was alright but there is so much emotional weight put on her now#in terms of her relationship to Viktor but that was barely established so it's weird to have her around#and clearly you're supposed to care but they haven't given me much reason to#isha and sky were non-characters just there to die to further the development of other characters#they didn't really have anything going on on their own and that's just a type of character and plot device that does nothing for me#also i thought the war between zaun and piltover + internal struggles in zaun bc silcos gone would be the main focus#but that stuff seems so sidetracked rn#also sorry i dont like what they did with vander and warwick either. that man should've stayed dead lol#it honestly just makes his death feel less impactful and i dont know what this is supposed to do for the story or the themes???#that just feels like a pointless plotline that is taking up time that could've been spent on other things#i just... i could go on like this for a while like there are so many things that just puzzle me#it's so weird considering how tight and thematically consistent season 1 was#let's see where act 3 goes but... i kinda have a bad feeling about it ngl#obv im glad others are enjoying it and this is just my opinion! also a lot of this are probs just my personal tastes anyway#arcane spoilers
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Do you ever regret what you've done?
what?
i— uh. i mean, that's a tricky thing to find an answer for, so.
#quackitychirps#ask blog#avian event#ooc: anon im getting flashbacks to the fucking. 'torture q day'#good lord if thats what ur planning i will tweak /pos#SUCH TERRIBLE TIMING FOR HIM#if not then slaaay woo yah
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More size shenanigans!
#dragon quest monsters 3#dragon quest#dqm3#dqm the dark prince#vegandragora#knight errant#sorry for the terrible photo quality!#someday i'll have a monster as large as possible!#(and now i'm getting flashbacks to the time i used the best meat on the Cyclops)#(i didn't know meat didn't work on it)#(and then i beat it and my game autosaved after the fight so i lost the meat </3)
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I'm actually glad that I read this because this is something I have expressed myself in the past.
It is very clear while a work and creator may not be perfect, some people obviously don't care at all about what they say and how it affects that person they're direction their hostility, too.
Not just the JJK fandom, but for any fandom, just in general, some people need to learn the difference between criticism and being a total ass.
Criticism should be helpful, should be advice that allows a creator of any kind to take and refine what they do. Criticism is tips. Criticism is pointing out mistakes that can be corrected. Criticism is something that should make a creator feel motivated to do sharpen their art.
Death threats is not criticism. Wishing harm qnd misfortune on someone is not criticism. Saying "this sucks, it's not for me, I wasted my time" is not criticism. Thinking you're better than the creator and your vision of THEIR story is not criticism. Acting like a whiny prick because the story isn't something catering to just you is not criticism.
And since some people think they can just hand out "criticism", here's criticism for you.
Do better. The next time you think you're criticizing something, stop and think how you're going about it. Are you actually being helpful? Or are you just being an ass?
#reading that gege actually was going through mental problems brought me to flashbacks#of when i was going through something mentally a couple of times while working on a project#people being an ass towards you doesn't help#jjk may have had flaws but it's damn sure an entertaining story to me and i don't think anything gege had done with the story#should warrant someone to actually wish hin harm or any mangaka any creator really#like if you get upset about a plot point and think 'Kys' you are terrible and should do better#and i don't even mean it's a pass to do it in a joking manner either#because you'll keep doing it and think it's okay without realizing to the other person it's not#just kiya's thoughts#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#gege akutami#akutami gege
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shout out to the guy who entered my brain at the age of nine, caused what I can only call my first obsession ever and then proceeded to never leave, he does not pay rent in there, I fucking hate him
#my beautiful cringe wife#discord mlp#art#artists on tumblr#digital art#my little pony#oh MLP my long lost lover (/hj)#yes i did draw this from memory#because every time i see him i get terrible flashbacks#i cannot look at a reference of him for a life of me#mlp discord
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Who deals with Manus' logistics. With how many members they've been accumulating there's definitely a team somewhere dedicated to it. The corrupted manus soldiers might not need to eat or drink but the other arcanists definitely need to.
Do you think Arcana's involved with it or at least dabbled in it at one point. Like in her downtime when she isn't doing her fuckass blue makima thing she's on a desk discussing and writing logistics plans with her logistics team while at the same time thinking plans for harassing Vertin next time she sees her whatever grand evil thing she's trying to do. We love to see a multitasking queen.
#arcana#reverse 1999#i really want to do chapter 5 but im busy with work#all info i know about it is just fandom osmosis and my friend messaging me about their playthrough#37 argues about the rules of hopscotch for like three chapters straight. regulus is having a terrible no good very bad time in greece#there is so much math concepts that im getting violent flashbacks#certified storm moments
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At this point you've written at least four different roleswap AUs, so I was wondering if you had any thoughts or takes about how a roleswap AU should be? - someone who's planning on making a roleswap AU
Please don't remind me. I'm embarrassed about this. I know I need to write other things. I don't know why the AU concept is so incredibly fun to write. I can't explain it. Roleswaps are very easy to write and a lot of fun and involve being a freak about everything. Who wouldn't write 10 of those bitches.
But yes, as someone whose roleswap AUs are like 9 out of her 51 fics, I feel qualified to talk about this. These are just my own opinions and takes, and other people might do it differently - if you write roleswaps too, feel free to add in your two cents!!
Before sitting down to write literally anything I always figure out the rules of the story. Writing is little more than a nonstop series of decisions, and if you abide by the rules of your story or characters then your decisions will be coherent and cohesive. By rules I don't mean worldbuilding - I mean the internal logic of the story and the characters. "X character will never explicitly say how he's feeling" or "the leads have to both win and lose every encounter".
I find establishing writing rules for roleswaps especially important - it's figuring out exactly how the roleswap works. Here are the ones that I find important, and kind of the process:
Decide what is swapped. Is it more of a universal swap, personality swap, backstory swap, chronology swap, or alignment swap? No matter which one you choose, all of these things are probably going to change anyway, but there has to be one central point for each character that guides your decisions. Are you actually swapping the narrative role in the story, or are you just changing it? You have to be really precise and have a very good idea of what exactly is swapped, and it has to be consistent throughout the story. It can't just (just) work on what you'd like to see, it has to be exactly the same between characters.
Decide the point of divergence. Sometimes that point is pretty abstract (She's a teenager in the 90s instead of the 20s). Sometimes it's much more specific, just one moment (He developed his superpowers at this moment instead of that). The point doesn't have to be immediately obvious, but you should know it - I did a backstory swap ages ago, and it seemed like a complete change, but like 150k in I dropped that a character dropped out of the police academy instead of completing it and that her entire life changed from there. If the swap is more abstract, then maybe it's just a series of smaller decisions - character A has these seminal points in his story, and I'm swapping him with character B, so here's what character B did during these seminal points instead, and how it changed him and his narrative.
Decide who the character is. This might be more personal, but for me, I think of the character as...there is a central tenet of them, of who they are as a person, that does not change no matter what. That's three or four traits of who they are, that you will not change, and that's what makes their swapped life their own instead of the OG dude's. But there's a lot of traits and behaviors around that core personality that's the result of their environment, backstory, and experiences. That's what should change. It's about figuring out how these essential traits + what is swapped + the point of divergence = an entirely different character and story. The roleswap you'll end up with will be a combination of all of these things: how the essential aspects of a character mix with what's swapped to create an entirely new environment and set of behaviors, which cause a chain reaction to create something new. As a writer, you sit down and say, "I'm keeping these parts of the character, I'm swapping out those parts, this new mix changes these points in their backstory, this results in this new person".
This is more of a guideline, but it's the most important to me: your characters have to be recognizable as the character. The reader shouldn't go, "this OC is making some weird choices". The reader should go, "I don't know how, because he's the exact opposite of his canon self in every possible way, but somehow he still feels like my favorite character". This is why you isolate those basic traits before changing the rest - so long as your character is still who they are deep inside, then they still feel like that character. And that's the fun of the story. You're selling something insane, and the reader is buying it.
It's a lot of really heavy character work. You have to really understand the characters you're writing - the less I get the original character, the more issues I'm perpetually having. I tend to fly fast and loose with characterizations, but when writing roleswaps I have to refer back to canon and the source material a lot ("In canon he did X thing, with his newly different backstory how would that decision change?"). The more you're rooted in canon, then the funkier and more divergent you can get.
Personally, I like to play a fun little game I call: how exactly opposite can I make this character until he stops feeling like this character? I Sometimes my goal in writing is "how deeply can I ruin this story". This is not a good game and people should not play it. I find that the lazier I get about getting in touch with the canon character, about keeping track of the canon decisions, and about following these guidelines, then the more difficult a story is to write. If you structure a story well then it's easy to write, and roleswaps are pretty easy. Thanks for the question!
#my asks#my writing#ok I have no idea how to politely say this#so ill say it in the tags where the rude words live:#if you only think about fanon characterizations when figuring this stuff out#or if you write a characterization based on their role in the relationship dynamic#then youre not gonna be able to do this stuff well#if you write a good guy as a bad guy then you have to#honestly engage with their flaws and their terrible decisions#you can't just swap one archetype for another#and people work so backwards in characterization that. ajksldfjsadf it's 9am too early for salt#sorry I was thinking about my tma roleswap while writing this and#its giving me tma fandom trauma flashbacks#never been in a fandom so completely uninterested in any of its characters. at all. it was insane.#anyway the way im seeing ppl write vash im getting the impression that#people aren't registering that he's the biggest compulsive liar in anime#he is nonstop lies. all of the time. stamp's closer to deflection but. pure lies this man.#i read ppl writing vash and im like MAN you bought what this guy was selling hard huh#anyway roleswap vash has a bridge to sell you and gaslights to girlboss
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i played the remastered alan wake a while back and am replaying the original on steam, and, honestly, they’re so similar, I couldn’t tell which is which if you held up comparisons. ive come across reviews about the game looking outdated and bad (mostly compared to other releases in that time), but the original looks great and I like the hazy dark lighting for both this and awan
#might delete#I can’t wait to run into all the product placements#like yeah I know it’s not. top graphics of that year. but I’ve stopped and looked at the environment So many times. it’s pretty!#this is because im biased but I *loved* AWANs choice of scenery. although I wish it was as detailed and expansive as the original games#all of remedy’s games do pretty great in terms of the environment. ignore controls terrible map and the Oldest House is an incredible space#to navigate just by following signs and all the little details. the atmosphere!#don’t even need to explain how aw2 is good with that#but even Max Payne 1 has this beautiful eerie quality where everything is this fever dream of grungy or old environments#even before the literal nightmare sequence it felt like navigating a dream of this Not New York City. like of course it’s likely born from#the limitations the developers had when making it. but the emptiness and placement of npcs added to the experience#QB so far is my least favorite in its style and environment but it’s still had some good moments. the use of flashbacks + time overlapping#onto abandoned and destroyed environments was genius. the college campus itself and the train(?) cargo(?) area was neat to go through#there’s some really good stuff there! *im also. not done with QB so im still hoping things get more wild!!#im honestly more forgiving of QB as a whole and find it interesting since it went through a lot of hell in its development#this might seem negative but it’s not! it’s a shockingly beautiful game. graphics exceed expectations#the style and some locations is where it’s more boring for me. but still good. im so tempted to buy it on steam to finally finish it#endless apologies if u opened this and ur entire page opened up an essays worth of tags
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the bear s3 was just ten episodes of absolute nothing. literally nothing happens and it feels like everything that does happen is just to pad time. i didnt come to a show about a restaurant to spend 30 minutes watching a woman get a job or another 30 watching a woman give birth. i didnt come here to watch hours of flashbacks. nothing gets resolved, no conflict feels interesting or the interesting ones are rehashed from previous seasons
#when ep 1 was all flashbacks and basically zero dialogue i had a bad feeling#not that ep 1 was terrible but to use 1 of your 10 eps for that shows something#this isnt a 25 episode season where you can spend more time on side characters or flashbacks#doing an entire episode of tina job searching that was so repetitive it said nothing except job searching sucks#everyone knows that get to the point#the claire situation (which was the worst part of the bear and still is) is still not fucking resolved#i was so worried theyd end with sydney still not deciding on whether to leave or not and they did - why cant they just resolve things#having characters indecisive about something youve previously shown to be important to them is not compelling#the bear#the bear season 3
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my only general predictions for jjk is that Yuuji will be able to target the different souls in Sukuna’s body to be able to reach Megumi’s suppressed soul and attack sukuna’s. Im actually interested in how this will all go down, especially with Higuruma in the mix, since these fights can’t be as simple as two overpowered characters with the loss of multiple special grade sorcerers. With the potential of a court trial domain or Yuuji’s knowledge of the soul, I imagine it’ll become more psychological or metaphysical in the fighting, with a lot of good insight into sukuna and/or yuuji, megumi, etc. As for Kenjaku, I have NO idea where their story is going (apart from Yuuta wanting to kill them), but i enjoy that part of the story being unpredictable—it fits their character
#jjk spoilers#I feel like it’s a given at this point that yuuji is planning something w Sukuna’s soul#since yukis book and literally everything else that points to shit happening w the soul and body#the methods and execution are unknown but yeah despite general fan consensus I feel like it’s obvious saving megumi IS in the mind of Yuuji#and there’s probably gonna be a lot of metaphors and whatnot about identity and the body and soul#hopefully sukuna and heian era flashbacks 🤕#kenjaku on the other hand is simultaneously a detailed planner with a mission and an unpredictable entity who has to adapt to any situation#meeting takaba for example 😭#I’ve said this many times but kenjakus appeal is not just them being a typical evil mastermind who controls the plot#we get to know them. and how they ARE despicable and cunning. but they’re also kinda a loser who runs into a lot of issues and trials/errors#it makes it feel realistic. and also just entertaining to watch#there’s probably a more clever way of describing who kenjaku is vs what they desire but I don’t have the brain for that lol#I’m just vaguely very fascinated by their character#kenjaku#sukuna#itadori yuuji#if making excessive rants in the notes was a competition I would destroy any competitor 😭#i feel like there’s a lot of interesting stuff with kenjaku and sukuna that I never see people discuss 😭 but I’m also terrible at writing#so I can’t put anything to words
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me: i think i will not romance lucanis, i would like to try to romance for once someone whos not so obviously my type (guy with a spanish accent and Problems)
lucanis: *speaks*
me: oh........... oh no..................
#*having absolutely terrible flashbacks of meeting Zevran in Origins*#HIS STUPID SEXY VOICEEE#ever.txt#ok heres my thoughts so far#scout harding. kind of not my type but i think its neat what theyre giving her#Neve. Oh my god. I have a stupid huge crush on her#Bellara. I want her and my rook to be best friends#i have not met the other companions yet. seems to take a long ass time to get everybody
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BABY WATCH 2024!
First 24 hours with the new kitten. Thought it was a she, but did a closer inspection earlier and I’m leaning towards a he.
Anyway, the good stuff: he is the sweetest, most well behaved kitten I have ever seen. He’s an angel. He spent most of last night sleeping on my chest. I haven’t had such an actively affectionate cat in ages. The two I have now are sweet, but they don’t really cuddle. This little dude does. This little dude is awesome. He follows me around, doesn’t get into things he’s not supposed to, and instantly knew how to use a litter box. If he wasn’t so young, I’d think he was an abandoned indoor cat. But he’s baby. My baby. Still needs a name, though.
The not so good stuff: I DO NOT need another cat! I live in a small apartment with two other adult cats and a small dog. New cats are also expensive! He’s gonna need shots and to get fixed and, to be painfully honest, I really don’t know if I can afford that now. Shit, I’m basically out of (human) food until I can get some cash on friday. It’s rough. I’m really anxious. I love this little guy. I didn’t just pick a random kitten. I’d seen him outside a couple of times and I just… I hated the idea of this way too trusting little guy trying to survive out in the world. He just kept crying out at me and following me. There are other stray cats around, but this one is so small and so sweet and he followed me home and he loves me so much I literally started crying while holding him bc I didn’t want him to ever have to fight just to survive out there. I hate it. I mean, I love him, but it does make me feel kind of sick inside bc I know it’s not exactly a smart decision to take in a stray right now. Life sucks. He’s curled up next to me in bed now and if he wasn’t so tiny and sweet and wonderful, I might be okay not keeping him & letting him stay outside with his friends. I’m glad he’s not a human baby or I’d really be freaking out right now.
Anyway, I’d die for him now so it’s a done deal. My baby now.
#baby watch 2024#I love him!!!!!#im also really anxious and sad about how I’m going to afford/live with another cat#this is why I can’t look at the adoptable cats at pet stores. it will 100% ruin my day.#absolute unobtainable dream would be to one day own a large piece of land and adopt/foster as many strays as possible#blegh… stressful#but he’s a little angel so it’s okay#it’ll work out in the end#the juice is worth the squeeze as they say#a baby#I should say I do have a ton of experience with raising kittens#things were kinda… out of control when I was a kid#at one point my family had almost two dozen cats in the house which sounds terrible I know#hoarders level terrible#there were a few stray cats we fed and then took in#and then they turned out to be pregnant and had babies everywhere#so yeah we had a ton of kittens#we managed to get most of them adopted though so it wasn’t like we were living with a horde of cats everywhere#just long enough for them to ween off milk and be adopted#it was a very rough time#so this past day I’ve been having a lot of flashbacks to taking care of kittens#skipping school to take care of them. in like 5th grade. stressful. not smart life decisions.#what can I say I’m dumb as hell#this isn’t important#you can ignore this#text#mine
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My biased, really unpopular take is that I think rit/su/maya is an objectively boring ship.
#just to be clear I don’t hate it there’s absolutely nothing wrong with the ship it’s just such a nothing burger to me#like ok yes without a doubt Maya has a crush on Ritusko absolutely this is backed up by canon material#but from Ritsukos side the most the viewer comes away with is that Ritsuko holds mayas skills in decently high regard#a few moments of friendly chit chat and that’s it#it would be one thing if we actually saw Ritsukos more personal opinions on Maya but we never see that so fandom has to fill in the blanks#and now barring that all aside it’s just a ship dynamic even when fleshed out in fanon that im not intrigued by#in a show where the characters are so messy and terrible the ship feels so out of place#ohhhh Maya could fix Ritsuko NO she could not#the only way I could find the ship interesting is if you get weird with it#like focus on the inherent power imbalance of a boss and an employee how would they deal with that?#how would things change as the show progresses and Maya realizes Rituskos blurred morals#how would the ship work with Gendo in the picture? how would Maya actually help ritusko overcome her issues and deep rooted problems#and even with all that being said it’s just not interesting to me#Maya doesn’t have enough going as a character for me to care to ship her with Ritsuko#this is partly why I like misaritsu so much#you know so much about their individual characters and their dynamics that it’s easy to expand it further into hypothesizing#their relationship in a romantic light#evangelion#like misato and Ritsuko are individually super well written fleshed our characters and on top of that put in moments like the elevator scene#or Ritsukos flashback to talking about when Misato hooked up with Kaji for a week#or just every time Ritsuko looks at Misato if you really want to reach#there so many moments of good characterization between them that it’s so easy to ship them#the point I’ll give to ritsu/Maya is that the one sided crush is 100% intentional and implied in canon#Misato and Ritsukos relationship (as far as I’m aware) was never intended to be romantic or queer coded or anything like that#i’m not delusional#I don’t think anno or sadamoto was writing subtextual nuclear toxic yuri when they were thinking about Misato and ritsukos relationship#no one was in the writing room saying “oh boy I can’t wait to write subtext about how comphet Ritsuko is in unrequited love with Misato”#I’m not that far gone but purely from a potential ship perspective misaritsu has so much more going for it#asu/rei too that’s another super interesting f/f ship that people ignore#asurei isn’t my do or die ship but that’s a ship that’s genuinely super interesting to think about as a potential romantic relationship
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