#I fucking hate neurotypicals so much dude

[tsunadadudi]

Lol. Lmao. May end up getting let go from my new job folks, I hate it here

[the-flys-buzz]

princess and the frog is good!!!!!! or just older animated movies in general? fox and the hound, the aristocats, the land before time...... i used to love dinosaurs.......

dad. i can no longer sleep peacefully. do we have a heating pad. a. and we might have to go to the store.

woe. your child is stuck as a human now. erm.

//@the-flys-buzz (HE SUFFERS WITH ME.)

“.,,?? A. Are you alright.?? i have heating pad I can run and get it if you’d like. Though, you’d have to stay with Jake.”

[funnywormz]

I think this shitshow with Toshiro stems from the trend of people INSISTING that interpersonal conflict must be a moral failing. Like I think there's something to be said about how people afford so much less patience to people who are autistic in the "wrong" ways, but also Laios and Toshiro just clash on a fundamental level that has nothing to do with that. Hell, you could read Toshiro as autistic as well. People related to Laios' side of the argument but instead of getting any nuance out of it they started projecting their experiences with ableist people onto Toshiro.

AGREE AGREE AGREE. i think that Fandom Brain gets people very used to thinking of conflicts in terms of "who is the bad guy and who is the good guy", so when they encounter a more nuanced conflict they don't really know what to do. i don't think toshiro is a bad person at all, in his conflict with laios he's just exhausted and starving and has been pushed to the limit and from his perspective, laios doesn't even seem that emotionally affected by the situation. i don't think what he said was right and it was pretty cruel, but i don't think he's a villain or deserves to be permanently hated as a character just bc he fucked up this time lol

also yeah you could definitely read him as autistic, and i think that highlights an issue in the autistic community in general bc like....... a lot of autistic people have conflicting needs which can lead to conflict between them/make them unable to stand being around each other. and it's not because either of them are neurotypical or bad people, they're just incompatible. like autistic people who loudly stim vocally and autistic people who meltdown when they have to be around loud noises, for example. it doesn't mean either of them is bad or not autistic, just that they have conflicting needs

i 100% agree with the last part too. i disliked toshiro at first myself bc i had been (and still do ngl) projecting onto laios hard and the conflict they had reminded me of times when people have been mean or angry at me irl for social blunders i've made unintentionally, or when someone i thought liked me/was my friend turned out to actually hate me. it's a common experience for autistic people and that scene resonates with that! but i think it also helps to take a step back from projecting our own traumatic experiences onto the scene and just look at it objectively. laios isn't perfect either and he's the one who actually starts the physical fight by slapping toshiro (i feel like i don't see many people mention this lol). i feel super bad for him in that scene but he's not a perfect victim and has done things wrong himself too

as an autistic person i've also been in situations where i can relate to toshiro too lol, like where someone is overly physically and emotionally familiar with me when we don't know each other well and i've wanted them to back off but haven't been sure how to say it without hurting their feelings. this kind of conflict is far from just being a "neurotypical vs neurodivergent" thing as a lot of people portray it in the fandom

idk i just wish people would think a little more deeply about the scene and put their own emotions and experiences aside to instead consider the conflict with the added context of the individual characters and their respective cultures + the situation they're in. people don't have to like toshiro but i wish they wouldn't paint him as a villain or make up awful shit about him just to justify their feelings when he isn't even that bad of a dude in canon yknow 😑. also we literally see him at rock bottom struggling and freaking out and i think that's important to remember. in a different context i doubt he would have ever said those things to laios

[skylarsblue]

billy loomis / stu macher x reader with autism? tysm! and if you can’t do it no worries ^^

(Autism gang, let's go! Also, I added Danny for my own enjoyment, forgive me.)

✦Ghostfaces With a S/O That's Autistic✦

✦Content; No warnings that I can think of, fluff, GN!Reader with nothing specified physically✦ ✦Stu; He/Him, Billy; He/Him, Danny; He/They✦

✧Stu Macher✧

I'm fairly certain Stu is neurodivergent, ADHD specifically. You look at this man and tell me he has a neurotypical brain, I dare you. Yeah, no, you can't.

Now given this is 1995-1996, the concept of people having ADHD & Autism wasn't super accepted. Honestly, people treated it like a devastating blow most of the time. (Sadly, not a whole lot has changed) I imagine Stu doesn't really understand what being neurodivergent really means. Like, he knows what autism is, but he's got a bit of a warped view of what it means for you. You can blame media for the majority of it, but don't worry! He's not gonna go Anti-Vax Mom™ on yo ass.

He'll actually listen to you, even if he doesn't fully understand. You'll have to break it to him that Autism isn't a life-destroying thing. It just means you process things a bit differently, have sensitivities, etc. He'll grab the concept pretty quickly.

When you explain stuff like sensory processing issues, he'll actually relate really hard. Stu's lived his whole life thinking he was just weird for his reactions to certain stimuli, but when you describe your own experiences, it makes him question.

Bringing up that he might have ADHD won't make him want to get tested, he doesn't see a need, it won't change anything about him and he's not huge on the idea of medications. But, he will ask you more questions. Autism & ADHD are different but they do have a decent amount of overlap and you know more than he does so he trusts your judgment.

"Wait is that why I feel like I wanna tear my skin off when I feel velvet?! ...YOU MEAN NOT EVERYONE HEARS ELECTRICITY? IT'S JUST US?!"

Mans has an epiphany every five seconds while you're talking.

When it comes to him helping you, he tries his best, but he's spacey and forgets certain things. Still, he does his best to keep it all in mind. If he knows there's one food you absolutely can't stand, he'll keep it off your plate. Even if it means scraping it all onto his own and making a mess.

Is there a sound that makes it feel like your head's about to explode? He'll cover your ears, put his head on your head/shoulder and hum something.

Sometimes, if you two share a sensitivity, he'll loudly express his hatred for it and insist you both leave/get rid of whatever's causing it.

Has probably broken something that was making a noise you both hated. "Ugh, finally. Look, see? Problem solved! Aren't I a genius, babe?"

Stu absolutely understands the consumption of hyperfixations and he supports you completely. If it's something he can't get into, sometimes he comes across a bit aloof to it, because it doesn't give his brain the dopamine rush it does for you. Still, he's glad you have something you enjoy and he'll still listen to your rants. As long as you do the same for him.

If you both are hyperfixating on the same thing at the same thing? Bro, y'all annoy the shit out of everyone and he does not give a single fuck.

If anyone makes you feel like shit for talking about it, he's gonna rip them a new one. He makes fun of their biggest insecurities if he feels they deserve it. Is it cruel? Yes, but he, doesn't, care. If you don't wanna feel his wrath, you sit there and listen intently to his baby's ramblings, damnit.

Stu's a pretty intense dude and he likes a lot of stimulation. But he understands if you get overwhelmed sometimes. His tolerance for lots of stuff going on is a lot higher than most people. Again, he'll cover your ears if it's a lot of noise. He'll cover your eyes if it's too much visual stimuli, keep you close to his body in a crowd. This also helps if you're shorter than him because he can surround you completely, helps feel like you're disconnected from the stressors around you.

He's hella rich, he'll get you all the fidget toys you want. All the shit you want for a hyperfixation. Best believe you get the best headphones and music player the market has to offer for those times you need to drown shit out.

He's a touchy-feely person and he's likely to forget your physical boundaries sometimes if touch is a problem for you. But he'll always apologize when you correct him. If touch isn't a problem, he's super cuddly. And if you're the type to be only okay with touch from specific people, he gets a huge ego boost from being that person.

He's a bit boney & fidgety but makes a decent human blanket.

An overall 10/10 for a Neurodivergent Partner.

✧Billy Loomis✧

I'm gonna be real with you, chief. He's not the best. He's not terrible! But not the best. I'm not saying he's gonna bully you for the things you do, no, he's an overall sweet partner in all honesty. He's patient and understanding.

Still, if he doesn't understand a thing you're doing, he might come across a bit annoyed. Like if you have an audible stim that you keep repeating, his tone comes across a bit snappy when he asks why you do it. He's not trying to upset you, his temper's just a bit shaky.

Sitting him down and explaining that you're autistic might get you a few annoying questions. He's not an asshole, he means well, but the questions come across rude. Ex; "But you don't act autistic.", "But you do (insert stereotypical thing).", etc. If you tell him that most of the stuff he knows is basically all poor representation and rumors, he'll give you a pretty basic apology and he'll stop. Billy will also ask what else is a result of shitty ideas of autism so he knows better. (You'll need to tell him that the R-word is a slur. He doesn't really use it but it's good for him to be aware.)

I personally see Billy as neurotypical, but he's been friends with Stu for a long time. If you have behaviors that overlap with Stu's, he'll handle it perfectly. He's a veteran at it.

Sometimes he'll think you're being a bit too sensitive about sensory stimuli, but when you explain it's not just that you dislike something, he'll be more willing to understand.

"It's just a bit of corn, it's not that bad." "Billy, when I bite into a single kernel, it triggers my fight or flight response, my body goes into panic mode, and I wanna tear my hair out and throw up. It is that bad." "...oh. Aight, here, trade me."

When it comes to overstimulation caused by stuff like noise and people, he actually understands. He's an introvert and large crowds exhaust him, which makes him irritable. If he sees you starting to get antsy and uncomfortable in a loud environment, he'll give you his walkman headphones and find a reason for you both to leave. He's excellent at manipulation, he'll find a way.

If you have skin sensitivity, he'll start keeping things on him that help alleviates it. Scissors to cut tags out of your clothes, a spare shirt(that's his because he totally has a kink for that), hand sanitizer, etc.

Best believe he's ready to throw hands with anyone who gives you shit. He will whoop ass, no hesitation. Billy's a very possessive & protective partner most of the time, he's ready to defend your honor at the drop of a hat.

He's got his hobbies and likes, but he doesn't have anything he'd consider a hyperfixation. Still, he'll be perfectly happy for you that you've found one. Sometimes he has to ask you to stop talking when you're rambling about it, but he learned after the first two times to specify it wasn't personal. He just needs quiet every now and then and he knows you'll get sad if he isn't actually listening to you.

Like Stu, he'll be very happy if your hyperfixation has anything to do with his own interests. Billy will actually be impressed if you know more niche facts and nuances than he is, this is often the easiest way to hold his attention when you're in a long info-dump.

He's not as rich as Stu, but he's got some decent money, plus a part-time job. His spare money will definitely be spent on your interests, no matter what it is. It could be a hyper-specific brand of toys and he'll buy the most expensive one they offer. He wants you to be happy! (And the terrible part of him wants to have the leverage to keep you loyal to him, no matter how terrible his actions get)

Despite his struggle to understand sensory processing disorder, he actually offers some pretty decent suggestions to get around it. Using myself as an example, I often struggle to brush my teeth because it'll feel like bugs are in my teeth. If you had something like this, he'd come up with a potential solution on the spot. "What if you brushed them in the shower? That way you can focus more on the water than the brushing."

Again, similarities between you and Stu will catch his attention and he'll make a mental note of it. One, he'll see if he can use his experience with Stu to handle your symptoms better. Two, he'll definitely consider asking you if Stu's neurodivergent.

Not the best, but he's trying his best. Solid 7/10.

✧Danny Johnson✧

ANOTHER NEURODIVERGENT.

I headcanon that Danny has AuDHD, which is both Autism & ADHD. Once he was diagnosed (well into his twenties), it was like they had opened pandora's box. Researching it made them go "OHH THAT'S WHY" every five seconds.

He grew up in rural Utah with a shitty dad who would definitely not treat Danny well if he knew about his son's neurodivergence. But that doesn't matter cause the bastard's dead. Letting Danny have the freedom to research the topic to his heart's content, which he does. It helped them immensely in terms of lifestyle.

When you come into his life and explain that you're autistic, he's completely accepting right off the bat. That's also assuming he wasn't stalking you for months prior to your relationship and that he didn't already know to begin with.

He's probably the most equipped to handle things like sensory overload & sensitivities, given he has so many himself. He's also, ironically enough, got the most patience for things like stims & info-dumping. Danny's a tempermental hypocrite but on this list he's the most chill with these things, funny eh?

They absolutely pick up on some of your stims and you pick up on his. It makes them so much worse, but it's cute. His main stims involve his hands and little sounds with his mouth, like whistling or humming.

Your food sensitivities don't need to be explained to him, he's got a million. It's aggravating because he wants to be a foodie so bad but then they have all these damn sensory problems. If a single piece of broccoli will ruin your entire meal, broccoli will be essentially banned from the house. He's a romantic like that.

Pre-cuts tags from your clothes, picks out things from pre-made meals that you hate before he even gives it to you, has a plethora of scented candles you like to cover up troublesome smells, and he's got a million versions of headphones/earbuds. They all work he just loses them constantly, buys more, then finds the originals again. Honestly, they have a whole drawer dedicated to music players.

Your ability to stick to a schedule helps out with his ADHD experience. He's got a pretty decent routine himself, but sometimes he'll fuck it up and find it hard to get back on track. For example, they've misplaced their meds and it's fucking up their whole morning? There you are with the correction and they're back on track. He'll jokingly call you a saint for it.

Sometimes his temper gets touchy and he'll get snappy at something you do. (This is more a general thing and less an Autistic thing) He gets real guilty when you look at him with sadness and quickly apologizes. Which is baffling, given they were pretty sure they were incapable of guilt for a long time.

"I'm sorry, sorry, it's not you. Not mad at you. Mad at this other thing, it's not personal, doll, sorry."

If you're overstimulated, Danny's got you covered, rest assured. He's got earbuds, at least three fidget toys, and he's always ready to give you comforting pressure. Whether it's by acting like a weighted blanket or a tight hug. They also really appreciate when you return the favor when they've had a bad day at work.

They get a huge ego boost if you consider him your main comfort, or if your comfort object is something of his. Like a gift they gave you or some article of their clothing.

Actively researches your hyperfixation so he can engage in conversation with you about it. They like seeing you get all excited when they bring it up. Most of the time, he ends up having a hyperfixation on it as well. If you do the same for him? You're asking for a cuddly bitch of a man.

Feels their cold heart melt when you do something to help their AuDHD. Remembering his safe foods, his fidgets, etc. If he wasn't obsessed before, he is now.

Anyone who gives you shit for being autistic is dead by morning, that's a basic rule. If you defend him against bullshit? He's fucking the shit out of you.(/hj)

Considers you a hyperfixation, honestly.

100/10, you caught a winner with Danny. If you don't mind obsessive behavior, possessiveness, and murder. But c'mon. You're here. Of course, you don't mind.

[raisinchallah]

you know the post that had me the most oh my god maybe im not autistic this is insane was this video where this guy was like acting out a fake dialogue with a neurotypical person who was annoyed that he was overexplaining things and hes like well ur not doing it right and like saying just full stop its the neurotypical persons fault for being annoyed at being told how to do stuff because they were unenlightened to the correct way and like seemingly not able to understand this would annoy someone and everyone in the comments was wholeheartedly agreeing wishing everyone was super normal about being told how to do stuff which is so wild to me cuz i get like the overexplaining thing and i know it often is not like malice or critique but literally how are u not driven up a wall because its like immovable object vs immovable object like this conflict would be worse with two autistic people tbh this isnt a neurotypical thing no force on earth greater than an autistic person and their specific routine like dont tell me this is wrong dont tell me what to do explodes u with eye lasers like akfkakkf im very familiar with this type of conflict my last job i had a coworker literally nicest dude in the world but was soooo particular about how stuff was done like more stringent than our managers telling me to only shake the noodles dry with a specific hand grip type stuff and again he meant zero malice and was just trying to help me and train me but i literally felt like i was clawing the fucking walls like um dont break my routine and like again i get the impulse i do i was like mentally feeling like noo how could u be doing it wrong (different from me) when working with my less experienced coworker and like i get the insane micromanager thing lol my autistic dad also hates being told what to do but will try to offer wayyy too much help and advice and corrections to the point u cant do it urself and i think i was just like so fascinated and appalled that like i fully get people being like of course my overexplaining is just helpful and kind cuz thats how its taken but having zero idea of the reverse of being on the other end of someone telling u how to do stuff but theyre wrong about it or simply different being literally the worst thing in the entire world the systems the rules the order comes crashing down and somehow instead everyones like yeah neurotypicals just gotta get it together and listen to our advice and im like no actually wheres the rights for people who are particular freaks to a degree they cant stand being told what to do in a different manner like how do u not suffer with this all the time if u have such strong opinions

[the-cat-and-the-birdie]

I vibe with hyperfixating w/ characters. To varying degrees I’ve fixated on: Armin from AOT for a while, 1D had a DEATH GRIP on me for a few years, (SEVEAL book characters through my teen years)I had an Alucard from castlevania fixation for maybe 3 ish years (‘ending’ only recently) and now Hobes lives in my head rent free ngl.

I get the “being sad cuz you can’t meet them” part, I’ve felt it. I try to not daydream TOO much cuz otherwise it takes over my life and I’m doing a considerable effort to live OUT of my own head, but BOI do I LOVE just daydreaming about my blorbos of choice.

I don’t speak too much about it (mostly the daydreaming) cuz to an extent it feels like a ��me thing” (like something I don’t wanna share with anyone cuz it’s special to me), but if given the chance I DO info dump on my fixations.

I don’t think it’s cringe, not at all. These things are stuff that helps us process the world and our experiences with it. I believe everyone has sensitive weird shit that they don’t talk about, but if there’s something Ive learned is that we hardly ever have completely unique experiences. Most people just hide their oddness. Fandom being a prime example of how much our blorbos can mean to us. I think it’s okay and normal. (Until it goes overboard and people send idk violent messages to others because they headcanon something differently idk, the unreasonable stuff imo)

Can’t believe our of everything people would dare to make JOY and INTEREST the things with negative connotations. Being mean should be cringe, being a bully should be embarrassing. But unashamedly enjoying stuff?? That’s wonderful.

Anyone too embarrassed of their own vulnerability that they deal with it by making others feel bad about their interests are the most immature out if all of us.

Joy is everything that’s good with the world.

Even just seeing the letter 1D makes me wanna scream (in a good way!!) cause it takes me back to high school lol 1D was a bit older than me so my grade had Mindless Behaviour (does anyone remember them, where they even popular) but I remember the days where 1D was like the definition of summer songs

And I can totally understand the 'me thing'. Like I never really spoke about it but I felt like I knew my daydreams were more substantial or vivid than the 'average person' so to say.

Or when I spoke about characters to other people, I understood that neurotypicals likes characters, but they often didn't see them as fully formed 'persons' in the way I do - as to say, they didn't speculate or see emotional backstory, connections, or their behavior the way I did.

I never really shared any of my daydreams because like - I can't even get into it that's like asking someone to explain Star Wars to someone who doesn't even know space travel exists.

I grew up in a time on the internet where self-inserts and OC were seen as cringe, and someone would be very quick to call out 'Mary-Sue's (or flawless OCs) whenever they could.

It's not like that now - but in juxtaposition to canon x canon shipping, that bias is still there I feel like. Like it, as a work of fandom art has less 'value' that art or fics of canon only characters

It kinda bums me out still.

I think OC and daydreams and self-indulgent inserts are all the best part of fandom because it's the purest way of fans connecting with content on a personal level.

I'm happy that I see more people pushing back on that lately. Like after years of seeing people viciously hate furries when most of them seem like very nice, fun people, it's refreshing for people to be like 'nah, actually this thing is cool. and im gonna spend of time and/or money on this thing cause i makes me happy;

like you remember when the new Star Wars movie trailers came out and that dude reacted to it and he was moved to tears and people made fun of him??

yeah fuck everyone else that dude knows whats up.

Like yes, openly cry to your faves. Fantasize deep meaningful daydreams that help you process your feelings. Draw your OC with them, or learn every single thing their is to know about them.

That's why I wanted to talk about this. Because I've never heard it spoken about before. Maladaptive daydreaming, yes - and that can be harmful. But I hardly ever hear people talk about the basic mundane experience of it - or even how it can enrich our lives and help us emotionally develop of neurodivergent people.

When I think of it that way, it's something that makes me happy. I don't think I'll ever be able to describe it fully, and that's the point. Our stories are private to us, not because theyre embarrassing, but because they're so us that to even describe it would like describing a new world top to bottom

I love it. It's what makes humans humans.

[rin-and-jade]

Hiii! I hope you had a great year or at least you had fun and felt that you're alive, safe and loved :) the holydays are coming and I cant shake the feeling that I must wish you a peaceful one :'D I hate holydays :')

So. I dont know if you can remember me. Im that person who's told you about all my struggles regarding studying and having issues with controlling my attention and how I couldn't manage to pass an exam bc of my dissociation/ time processing i think a year ago i've written you that message... (I managed to pass the second one and it was great actually) but I wanted to ask you something. If you have the knowledge and/ or experience of course. At first I must point out i've been diagnosed with bpd, I dont know if this is a trait of it or if its DID... but. im having trouble with identifying whether this kind of problem is among others with DID or if Im just strictly borderline (maybe its just denial) and so. is it something thats related to bordeline if im not seeing this personalities as being "present" as I am? Like, i cant say they have ever been there at least as always as long as I am most of the time. I feel like they are always just standing behind me looking after me but at the same time letting me doing all the work. Sure. there are times when some dude is taking over to do the physical chores or the dude whos taking over just to have fun and get drunk (she's here right now cuz im tipsy and tried to "have fun") or when im in nature the hippy one comes near just to show me how important it is just being alive and appreciating nature.... but I dont feel like they are some separeted beings from me. As I was saying, they let me do all the work. I happen sometimes to have emotional amnesia and doing things without having control but they arent here! Does it make sense? Sometimes they speak to me and try to make themselves understood but only in those moments when im not aware as though they're sneaky and trying to hide from me... I doesnt seem fair, thats all.. and im really trying to make peace with them and whenever the persecutor comes into action im telling him to go fuck himself and try to be a bully with somebody else not with the persons who suffered. I mean why doesnt he try to come when we actually need him? For example when somebody is mean to us and we need to stop let ourselves be the black sheep or even when we feel verbally atacked? So im trying to get reasonable with him at that part. But there arent any signs that they really exist... they are somewhere deep I cant acces anything. And im thinking. I must have a to much active imagination. I given my sorrows and anxieties names, personalities overall. I feel guilty bc I dont want to seem like a bad person just for trying to find out what is going on in my dissociated mind (i dissociate a lot. So much that i cant understand my current life).... I dont want to seem like i pretend that I am someone or more likely somebodies that I am not.

So to summerize this: is it something common to find yourself that you lack the life activity around you of your personalities? They are only coming when its something urgent like remembering stuff at work or something that puts us in danger for not being neurotypicals, or when we need to remember what we studyied, what our names is, or how old are we (dont even get me started we sometimes guess wrong :'). ) when we have stuff to do and I feel like shit and I cant handle. What do you think? Sorry for the long message Im only trying to figure this out. Maybe you'll have a clue what im talking about because im getting the feeling that im too drunk to write concise (also this is not my first language)

Im gonna sign with two initials so you'll know from now on if we ever have other questions to ask you with L. (shes always trying to help shes the flower power one) and E. (shes just plain bold and very brave at everything she does)

Again im wishing you a wonderful day/night and a peaceful holyday (　・ω・)♡♡♡♤♤♤

Wait.. i KNOW you, it’s the brisk break method i ever told because sometimes focusing for too long depletes people’s energy faster and some other tips! Im so glad you actually passed because I’ve been sat here thinking if theres a change in your studies after seeing your ask being answered.

Would you pour me a glass too here as i say some stuffs,, also im having a great holiday, merry xmas.

I would admit that when we talk about alternate personalities between BPD and DID, its bit hard to actually discern which is which because it’s broad and everyone has it uniquely (aka will never be the same, thus cannot rule out easily) so.. hm. I have a way to explain and guide to your conclusion:

These two mental conditions fall into the same dissociative spectrum with different severity, thus why it may have similarities and could even overlap which will be harder to tell which belongs to what. That being said, the similarities with these two would be: some level of identity separation/disconnection, has normal and emotinal amnesia, automatic responses by dissociating to keep oneself from danger, and some inconsistencies with yourself.

The difference settles on the severity, how its triggered, and what related symptoms are commonly associated with the disorder.

As a bpd holder i can clearly tell apart which is from the disorder or not; you will have some sense of alternation, with this it won’t be as bad and you are aware that it’s part of you (which not always the case for did) + it doesn’t necessarily involve a shift in age, worldview or how you see yourself physically and more limited to states, percievings, and feelings. The critics are also in first-person for e.g. “this is so fricking stupid of me to say __ before, why did i do that???” That won’t apply to did.

Thats for one, though i want to keep it short so in general i want to say that bpd is from “idk which version of me is the actual me and i have a hard time finding and sticking to an authentic one” while did is “idk who i am and i thought i like this which turns out untrue after a few hours and i barely have got a sense of myself which makes me get stumped whenever i got asked something” kind of thing.

Things that are more bpd related: have struggles maintaining relations, mood swingy, fear of abandonment, emotional impermanence, anxious, very susceptible to amygdala hijacking

Things that are more did related: shifted sense of time, significant memory gaps, problems with memory consolidation and recall, frequent dissociation, feeling out of body, feeling not like yourself, inconsistent preferences

I cannot vouch if this is a yes or no about the question, coming from a system myself. So i hope you can do a bit more digging and use my insight to further help you, also feel free to contact me via DMs if it’s stull confusing. For now, i advice you to read more resources and take my words into account,

See you later!

- j

[reynie-muldoons]

“A Joyful Lens” liveblog!

I know I’ve been kind of delayed on these but I want to watch the finale as soon as I can, so this liveblog is happening tonight LMAO.

RIP bingo for this one, I did not have time, and I don't have time for the finale either. I've been really busy, and work has me working weird hours, so I'm really sorry about that.

As always, spoilers under the cut!

0:58 it’s really fucking creepy how he sicced a kid on number two. Creepy ass child

1:21 just let him drink it dude

1:46 welp there she goes

2:09 well there goes that plan

2:22 “I could not poison my own brother” my guy it’s not poison

2:34 what the

3:03 I love that they have a code between each other LOL

3:10 “it’s our own system we made up to classify bug and animal threats to the farm and dictate our response” LMAO THOSE CUTE ASS NERDS

3:29 “I’ve stared down the barrel of Curtain’s brainsweeper. I’m fine staying put.” MY BABY GIRL KNOWING WHEN TO STEP ASIDE

3:35 “run silent, run deep.” REFERENCE TO THE INSTITUTE BREAK-IN

3:52 “thirty seconds pretty much guarantees they’ll be too far away to see our movements.” LMAO i take back everything I said earlier but at least my girl’s funny as fuck 4:13 straight jackets? really?

4:32 he is stone fucking cold. That's the face of a kid who rightfully held a grudge

4:47 you’d think the happiness technique thing wouldn’t make Constance lose her contrarian nature, just make it have a pleasant flare. It goes to show how much it’s truly altering these people

4:55 “just pull it.” why does he know how a straight jacket works

5:03 she ripped that thing off like tearaway pants LMAO

5:14 “that’s not my way, you know that Sticky” I hate that he’s already trying to appeal to him

5:48 yikies

6:01 and now time for the lovely intro. I really do like the style, I don’t think I’ll ever get tired if the vibe

7:06 it makes me sad that she was so unhappy, but at the same time it’s upsetting that it’s being achieved through manipulation and hypnotism

7:11 it really does seem similar to a manic episode

7:28 “but when I think with my mind I just want to resist with all my might” smart. Please listen to yourself

7:42 “what if you just don’t think as much? What if everything’s just fine?” this sounds like a neurotypical person trying to tell someone to just not be anxious

7:53 wtf is happening

8:03 again wtf is happening. This is like two drunk people pretending they’re sober

8:05 oh lord it’s both of them now hahahah

8:21 okay the hard cut was really fucking funny

8:25 is the two of them screaming out a song going to be an important plot point for the gang reuniting hahahah

8:34 “...wolves?” LMAOOOO

8:40 what on earth

8:45 OOP

9:11 “blink once if they have this room bugged” yikes

9:18 “sir, you’re dressed in the faded rags of a hostage” tell me why that reminded me of gert’s “the tower” (gert if you’re reading this i love that fic and its additions so fucking much)

9:24 “I’m getting my own soon” if they’re anything less than a loud yellow im suing

9:26 “I requested yellow” girl you’ve been hypnotized for like 5 minutes when did you have the time to do that

9:36 what is wrong with this child

9:52 rip rhonda and milligan’s free will

9:59 “it’s like a… horse-camel.” does Kate not know what a llama is??

10:29 Constance looks like she jumped right out of Hansel and Gretel

10:58 “I know I tease you, Sticky, but the truth is that I enjoy your scientific facts.” I wonder how much truth there actually is to that

11:24 AWWWW. I know Constance would not do that when not under the influence but it’s so sweet

11:27 “...what’s wrong with her” she didn’t even hesitate

12:07 oh my gosh actually?? Smooth. And very smart to keep up the act so that they can meet up with the other two

12:30 “you two need to blend in” as if they aren’t already on curtain and his team’s hit list

12:38 ew is this like a PR thing

12:51 I really don’t like the phrase “reach into someone’s mind”. Very brainsweeper-adjacent of you

13:07 is this supposed to be a masterclass or some shit

13:29 “and soon all of you will be ready to share your gifts with the world” this is getting very Whisperer-takeover-adjacent of you

13:35 I’m sorry but Milligan you look ridiculous

13:36 I love how they somehow managed to make the four maintain some aspect of their personal styles in their hobo clothes. Reynie has a collar popped for fuck’s sake LOL

14:04 happiness centers?? This is the same but opposite of the books’ SAD cases and facilities

14:10 yikes, they’re operating them? Curtain must be fully convinced that he has control over their minds at this point. Scary

14:17 another one bites the dust

14:24 “I got it, they’re undercover.” Sticky I love you but do you think Mr Benedict is that good of an actor. Like Milligan and Rhonda I get, they are skilled as hell, but he would never be able to keep his cool around his brother like that

14:32 oh that made me so sad, I saw how ecstatic Miss Perumal looked

14:46 wait it happened that quickly? You get one neck pain and then 10 minutes later you’re fully catatonic?

15:05 of course the guy it happened to was conveniently on a wheelie chair

15:27 I really don’t like the implications of “worldwide happiness revolution”

15:37 Mr B looks incredibly concerned. Did he break out of it? Is it possible to break out of it? Is it possible to feel things other than happiness? I have so many questions

16:28 “they seem… very happy to be with you.” fake asf

16:44 ohh Reynie sweetheart

17:15 ohhhhh Kate

17:35 “there is no point to that emotion” dude’s fucked

17:42 “you guys are so convincing!” “thanks :D of what :D” incredible

18:01 “we love it here Sticky, and you will too.” fucking creepy

18:38 “it’s only natural to want others to be as miserable as you are” I mean there’s her usually biting tone but also huhhhh

18:58 Garrison team up part 2 electric boogaloo

19:09 LMAO SHE YOINKED THE NOTEBOOK

19:40 oop they weren’t in unison that time

19:52 cover’s blown

21:13 “a correlation. Which is not the same as a causation.” just say you’re in denial and go

21:40 “and next time, do not bring me a problem for which you have no solution” so what I’m hearing is that homeboy doesn’t want to held responsible

21:57 AWW REUNION TIME

22:02 I GET THAT THEYRE MENTALLY COMPROMISED BUT MY HEART IS SO HAPPY SEEING THEM HUG

22:37 why does she write her r’s like that

22:37 I mean I get that it's a font but still

22:46 “optics. You mean like shining a bright light in someone’s eye?” don’t tell me they’re about to strobe people into awareness

23:06 “I’ve successfully stolen several items recently.” Kate, my love, I’m so proud of you LMAO

24:02 I’m really enjoying this compilation, each person is contributing in ways that play to all of their skills so dang well

24:19 that’s right, now learn to appreciate your dad’s contributions

24:36 “50/50… maybe…. 40/60?” loving the confidence lol. What a weird ass solution

24:49 it is so deeply strange seeing them all frolicking

25:01 I find it hilarious that the hippy pants don’t have belt buckles so Kate had to make a sash for her bucket

25:22 good grief. I know I said it earlier but it’s like they’re drunk off their asses

25:24 so did Mr B just like… forget about what he saw or

25:35 “that… is an unexpected vision.” agreed

25:47 “where’s my dad? Let’s start with him.” she can pretend she’s not worried about him all she wants but I will simply not believe her

25:57 okay so he didn’t forget. But he’s still dancing. So does the hypnosis thing kind of interject happiness into everything else, like force it to the front no matter what? Is that why he’s so chill? I still don’t quite understand how this works logistically

26:03 “and I knew I should feel something but I couldnt, which terrified me” okay so that does kind of answer my question, from what Mr B’s saying it negates other feelings to the point of overriding them

26:22 Milligan my guy chew with your mouth closed

26:42 I know he’s compromised but I think he would’ve responded the same way if he wasn’t because he’s so soft for her

26:54 “you are an amazing person, Kate Wetherall.” “I have strong genes.” AOJSDLFKSJDLF

26:54 THEY ARE SO PRECIOUS

27:19 moment of truth

27:28 “...you deliberately misled me at the gates.” LMAO HE’S BACK AND HE’S BITTER

27:45 MY HEART CAN’T HANDLE THEM

27:57 “looks like you’ve gotten acclimated :D” creepy

28:34 RHONDA’S FACE HAHAHAH she’s like “I can’t believe this shit”

28:43 “Oh, can it wait? I’m vibing.” drunk queen energy lol

28:53 “trust me.” “and I do, with my life” LSKDFJLIDSFJ AWWWWW

29:07 they’re going to be a problem if they’re watching so closely

29:13 first of all, don’t J&J recognize them from school?? LOL. second, called it

29:58 why did they have to tackle him like that adfjlafj

30:06 “my shoulder! It’s dislocated!” “STAY WITH ME” “it’s just my shoulder but thank you!” these two hahahhaa

30:58 “she gets a vote now?” in this house I demand respect for Miss Perumal 😤

31:52 “us :)” awwwwww

32:18 so is he like trying to do it to himself or

32:21 he WAS damnit that’s sad

32:28 equal parts sad and creepy. This is a desperate man

32:47 LMAO HUH

33:08 so number two’s original plan is in action lol. He is in a literal body bag

33:47 LMAOOOOO they’re fucking zoomin

34:06 why do they call them the greys too? Like.. don't they have an actual name for them. Like, say. Recruiters

So I did this liveblog in a few parts, but as I’m typing this it’s Wednesday night. I’m about to watch the finale.

34:24 idk why I gasped bc I knew it was coming

~

Damn, this season really took a hard left LOL. I have 0 idea what to expect for the finale. See you guys there!

[doodlepede]

yeah i still cant stand toshiro i dont caaaaaaare if it's socially acceptable for him as an eastern lordling this is feminism 101 you arent entitled to a woman just because you want herrrrrrrrrr fuck off and explode!!!!! you dont have the right to question Laios (or Marcille lol) for doing literally anything to bring Falin back, SHES HIS FUCKING SISTER AND YOU'RE JUST SOME GUY + you fucked off after she died to go bring your own party down to get her back, like some kind of knight in shining armor wow yeah i bet he thought she'd HAVE to marry hin since he saved her. oh my god i hate toshiro so much

yeah i still think its fucked up that everybody loves falin who is just as autistic and weird as laios. its the objectification, its the ableist double standard. ohghhhhhh this shit still piss me OFF i fucking hate toshiro dude fuck this guy. if he ever fucking talked to falin and treated her like a real person, he might figure out that she's weird but no she's a manic pixie dream girl to him. i hate you

yeah that slap. laios slapping toshiro. very cathartic. fucking get his ass babygirl what fucking right does he have, he barely even knew falin and i cannot stress enough how laios is her fucking brother. oh my god

'i tried to tell you in ways most people would pick up on' why do neurotypicals act like it's the biggest worstest most horrible imposition ever to use their words like a fucking grown up KILL YOURSELF!!!!!!!! GET THE FUCK OFF MY SCREEN

"I'm going back to my country; i wont be coming back to this island" GOOD RIDDANCE GOODBYE ADIOS SAYONARA AUF WIEDERSEHEN the only reason i dont hope the boat sinks on the way back is because i like the oni girl she's cute

i sincerely hope he manages to endear himself to me in the future but my fuck are we not off to a good start

[finsterhund]

I found a story where the narrator starts off by describing his uncle as "probably on the spectrum" that goes into detail about how he's weird and reclusive and doesn't like talking with his family only then for his special interest he poured all his love and care into coming to life and killing him with his last words being how much he saw the error of his ways and wished he could have spent more time with people (and evidently been less neurodivergent) and the narrator going on about how if he just spent more time with people and less time isolated with his creepy old special interest he wouldn't have died. And the narrator ending the story with a "be careful having obsessions because you don't know what they'll do to you" ass "the moral of the story is" segment and man neurotypicals really do just fucking hate us for existing huh. How meanspirited do you have to be to think that way? It's like a completely taken seriously made for the purpose of revenge "my trains" (lemon demon) ass scenario where the story really does feel like it was only written for the purpose of getting revenge on your relative who builds models by literally having it where somebody is killed by theirs with no rhyme or reason as to why. Nevermind the complete lack of narrative logic of why something you cared for and treated with love would come to life and murder you in the first place. No reasoning was given beyond "the narrative is punishing him for having a hobby in a way that isn't societally approved" like logically if this thing was alive it only thrived because the dude laboured over it and by killing him it guaranteed itself to languish and rot and suffer and ultimately be destroyed. Makes no sense. Just left a bad taste in my mouth. It's the polar opposite of that cute comic I saw a while back where someone finds a haunted doll and as they laboriously restore it the toy feels loved and as a result doesn't harm their new owner.

Idk maybe I'm just reading too far into this but it really came off as a "fuck you for devoting your life to a weird hobby instead of making yourself available to other people in a neurotypical way" and that sucked.

Also an aside but it frustrated me when the narrator was like "oh these models aren't really around anymore, they've fallen out of fashion for being creepy and dated" as if the problem isn't that the neurodivergent people who'd love nothing more than to pursue these hobbies can't because their status as "lesser than" in our capitalist wageslave society making them exploited and unemployable means they're a group less likely to be able to afford these hobbies in the first place and less likely to have the space, time, resources, accessibility to pursue them as their contemporaries/elders did decades ago. If you have the space you're a "recluse" for spending time there, if you don't you're a "hoarder" for trying to pursue these hobbies in the tiny little boxes afforded to you. No I'm not bitter that one of my many childhood dreams after visiting Miniature World is impossible because I don't even have a fucking basement of my own that I can set up a little model town in why do you fucking ask?

Idk maybe there's another perspective of what happened in this universe where the uncle has an entire online friend circle catered around his hobby and the evil paranormal shit happened because of a bitter family member casting some curse and it turns out the narrator of the canonical story is full of shit and it's a classic case of wildly unreliable narrator. That would be funny in a very morbid ass way. Like,

Narrator: my mom cared so much for him and tried to keep him in her life even though he kept pushing everyone away

Uncle, on his Usenet board: my sister keeps mocking me for spending my money I earn as an adult on my models and acting like she's our mother. She's had our entire childhood to practice being cruel about the things I care about without overtly coming across as abusive and she gaslights me when I try to confront her about it what do I do?

TrainBoy64: She's trying to hurt you but knows better than to do it in a way that will make her look like the asshole. Try "grey rock" like I mentioned last week. Nobody deserves your time or commitment even if they're related to you.

Uncle: thanks man. Wanna see the new conductor I painted?

TrainBoy64: sure thing just remember to keep the photos under 200kb this time. My bandwidth sucks.

Narrator: my uncle freaked the fuck out when I accidentally damaged one of his models

Uncle, online: hey guys, today my sister brought her kids over and I tried to explain to them how these things are delicate and they need to be careful because they're not toys but my nephew directly disobeyed me and damaged my favourite building. I got upset and started crying and my sister yelled at me and said how her kids were more mature than I am but I thought I very clearly explained everything. I still feel bad though because I want to encourage kids to get into the hobby and don't want to stop them from visiting if they still want to.

TrainBoy64: your sister probably talks about your models to her kids as if they're toys and speaks down about you around them. I know it hurts but try to remember that it's their mom's fault, not theirs. If you want to keep inviting them over maybe try setting some ground rules until they're a bit older or make a cheaper area just for them to play with.

The uncle: thanks. I love my nephew and it makes me so happy when he visits. I just wish he was a bit more careful.

TrainBoy64: that will come with time. Remember when you told me how you accidentally ruined your first model plane when you were 11? Maybe he felt just as bad as you did but was better at hiding his emotions.

The narrator: after my uncle went missing my mom did everything she could to get law enforcement to take the case seriously and she was very upset

(the mother feels an extreme amount of guilt for pushing her brother away just as much as he "pushed her away" and it took him fucking dying for her to realize this. Or, alternatively, the guilt at her using dark magic to "teach him a lesson" and accidentally killing him in the process is absolutely fucking eating her up inside)

Idk. That's what I'm going with now. Made me feel a little bit better about the whole thing.

[anotherghoul666]

You said you want anything in your inbox so I’m just gonna tell a little story that’s probably not all that interesting to you but I find it very sweet.

The first roommate I had here in the psych ward (they were absolutely awesome and we’re luckily still in touch) and I skipped small talk all the way, as we are both nd and just fucking hate it. And as I hung up my pics on the wall, we started talking about our interests.

Later, we‘d infodump to each other about our favourite bands, which meant I talked lots about Ghost.

After a while, we had this thing where I’d read fics for them out loud so they could fall asleep to my reading.

And one evening when I made them choose a new fic just by the name of the writer, they immediately chose the fic written by you (yeah, I was talking VERY positively about you haha).

As I said, probably not very interesting for you but i think it‘s sweet.

~owlish anon

WAIT. No, Owlish, this is super interesting and I'm Invested XD First of all, yes to skipping small talk, fuck small talk dude, neurotypicals can keep their shitty mode of communication ok, I want nothing to do with it XD Second of all, how extremely sweet that yall allowed each other to talk about your special interests!! ❤️ Lovely stuff and I'm happy you got to talk about Ghost with them! Third, and that's the real meat and potatoes here, I have to know which fic dude XD Oh my god XD Which fic of mine did you read out loud to someone to help them go to sleep becauseeeeee xD There are many ways this could go and some of them ave very funny hahaha.

But also, dude, thanks so much for speaking of me in a poositive light in your real life, what?! People do that? You're so sweet ❤️ No words, too cute. Thank youuuu aaaaaaaaa

[braiding-his-hair]

i hate my roommates i hate extroverts i have not having silence i hate being surrounded by party people grrr

[cakesplice]

45, 46, and 48 for the ask game?

heyo thanks for asking! ☆

danganronpa ask game

(dr3 spoilers below)

45. unpopular opinion

might be controversial but i dont think nanami should have died tbh? i also have a love-hate relationship with the concept of class rep nanami. her classmates revere her as some sort of martyr after her death which was such a rushed plot hack the more i think abt it,, like i know her death is integral to the plot of sdr2 but i wish she just got to be normal (not like neurotypical normal because lord knows her brain is full of autism /pos but like alive and well normal) but i do like how mostly everyone perceived this scene as hinata healing from his trauma and letting nanami go so he can openly love again :( kmhn 4 da win

(not necessarily unpopular but related and something i think about a lot) i do think hinata struggles with comphet. given the fact that he is fucking obsessed with hopes peak to the point that he would go and lobotomize himself over it sorta mixed in with the weird feelings he was experiencing over nanami's (an ultimate) attention, he probably misinterpreted his own twisted admiration as a crush? meanwhile nanami saw him as her only real friend. hinata kinnie momence lol the dude will crush on anyone who gives him attention lol idk if that makes sense but yeah

46. unpopular headcanon

au in which chiaki is very much alive and well and is in fact roomies with komahina post sdr2 (ibukane are there) (this isnt unpopular it simply does not exist) (i am currently making it exist as we speak) (teehee)

48. favorite ost

kami-iro awase by binaria, zettai kibou birthday by megumi ogata, and every ver of underground trial by masafumi takada !! also debate scrum because shitty edm brainrot

[indra-istari]

Thoughts While Watching Every Ninjago Season (s1 edition)

(excuse my spelling i did most of this while tired)

Episode 1: Rise of the Snakes

The intro is good, specifically the music but the end card makes them look like a sitcom family

these seasons go through cycles of being unable to do things competently and being op

ooo Lord Garmadon

That is a fucking child, an annoying one at that.

I love how the fake snakes sound like a

What's a wife's tale? Why do only wives have tales?

Publicly Humiliates Child → Child Becomes Evil

Oh, Green Ninja prophecy

The Green Ninja prophecy will cause internal conflict within the team

"no one has ever found the tomb of a serpentine tribe" Lloyd *finds one almost immediately after being tossed out of a village for pretending to have control of the serpentine

Ah yes, they are going to use their extremely powerful weapons that can literally rip apart the world for sparring

The old man yells at them

Now Lloyd has actual serpentine, they have mind control powers too, funky

Spirit Smoke? Never mention that ever again

Kai is a Serpentine denier, how tf does Nya know that the antivenom is in the staff?

Zane "we can't use our golden weapons" Zane *uses golden weapons*

That dude who tried to control Cole is going to cause problems later

Teach us! Teach us! these idiots are stupid

I was right, Cole's partially mind-controlled

Episode 2: Home

The rest of the Ninja after saying Zane is weird because he laughs during sad movies.

Do they have Fan Mail?

Oh Zane's an orphan

Oh that snake guy is named Scales, that's stupid as fuck

"Snakes don't belong in trees"

Bird!

"If I see one girl in here, I'm going to go ballistic" Lloyd is in his woman-hating arc

Zane's arc rn is just Neurodivergent in a house of Neurotypicals

Cole's mind control is a problem.

Jay almost pulled a Peter Petrelli

So they decided to not leave anyone behind to guard the monastery? idiots

They have no home.

They decided to blame Zane for destroying their homes even though he couldn't have known the snakes would go for the monastery.

The snakes are fighting for command of the tribe

Scales got wombified

I miss Zane. Zane! No Zane! *Zane shows us*

He found a fucking sky boat

Lloyd is stalking them

Episode 3: Snakebit

Wake up call is "Evil doesn't sleep so you shouldn't"

the Chore episode

Using their powers to clean things

"He hates it when we tell people he was born in a junkyard"

God, I hate parents episodes

Ed is the name of my dead uncle.

Which ones are these? oh the vampire snakes!

Lloyd is an annoying motherfucker

They have hotel Transylvania vibes

oh his parents are here, which means they are going to die.

They chew on machines and the machines turn into snakes

Jay has a crush on Nya and Nya is Kai's brother

They are migrating? of course, dragons are so unreliable

"Hello Uncle" Lloyd is so annoying

I think Nya is going to be the green ninja

Their weapons can turn into vehicles??

"Does your flute turn into anything? *looks at flute* "I wish"

The boat can fly

The staff slid out of the cabin and off the ship into the Vampire snake's hands

Episode 4: Never Trust a Snake

Zane is having a Dream

Lord Garmadon!

Green Ninja is Kai?

They are punished by training more

Scales and the Vampire Snakes are friends?

Green Ninja has all of their attributes so Zane's dream is pointless in the context of finding the Green Ninja's identity

Lloyd is going to the Anacondrai place and he met a British dude

This British snake guy is sus, he wants to eat Lloyd

We both have no friends? Cool! Let's be friends!

A stupid child is going to break the world

Boarding school time.

Lloyd is paranoid

elevator music

SNAKE BETRAYAL

THE SNAKE DISAPPEARED

L for Lloyd's bowl cut

Episode 5: Can of Worms

I bet Lloyd is messing with everyone

I hate children

Zane is pink

Why does Kai hate Nya so much

smh they are flirting

"But this is the mountain of a million steps

They just went inside but there are snakes on the loose

Snakes say Musicians dni

Uh oh

Kai's worst fear is gingerbread clown elves

They are gonna die

That red bitch after knocking tf out of the ninja after saving them

Kai is high

They are stupid as hell

skydiving without a parachute

Zane is still pink

Scales knows he knows, he knows

Let us blow this popsicle stand!

Ice vs snake, Ice wins

Fridge snakes

Episode 6: Snake King

a lost city?

Damn that's a big city

Green Ninja arguments

Lloyd gets the box

The samurai did their job for them

Sensi Wu loves Ferris wheels

They are all fucking stupid

Kai is being an older sibling to Lloyd

That child is sneaking into snake town

Lloyd fucked up

they didn't realize that Lloyd is missing

idiots walked right into a trap

They are fighting the samurai

Creation tornado

The samurai just saved them big time

Mans got the golden weapons

Kai's separated

the samurai is Nya?

They just let Lloyd stay there with Pythor

AYYY Kai!

Sensei Wu Knows

Episode 7: Tick Tock

Zane is sitting underwater petting fish like Percy Jackson

Oh they are True potential

L for Lloyd

Sensi Wu is off to find "someone who can help"

Snake politics

Kai is just like 'he, she samurai"

The bird!??

really good music for literally no reason

slowly, everyone is leaving and it will only be Zane

Kai isn't giving up

THE FALCON IS A ROBOT??

ANOTHER ROBOT?

That tree is a house

many stairs

ZANE IS A ROBOT???

Sensei Wu is buying tea from a mean old lady

Wait if Zane is a robot how does he use spinjitzu

oh a memory switch, how convenient

Zane's creator died

The Queen!

Zane is op

The snakes are plotting

Sensei Wu is doing some weird tea ritual

LORD GARMADON???????

Episode 8: Once Bitten, Twice Shy

Of course, Jay is wearing perfume and Nya is allergic to it

This is awkward

Oh she's going to die

That bug became a snake

Sensei Wu and Garamdon are fighting like a dysfunctional family, oh wait

Sensei Wu is trying to talk t him but all Garmadon knows is murder

at least he cares about Lloyd

They are brothers

Ah yes, an amusement park

Jay is trying to flirt but he's turning into a snake

Date ruined.

Date not ruined

So Garmadon is evil because of a snake

They are so awkward

Jay dissing the samurai when Nya is the Samurai is the most awkward thing ever

Jay is turning into a snake

Hallucinations

Zane fucked up his true potential stuff

Samurai saves everyone again

Oop, Pythor unveiled Nya

They are going to execute Nya

Nya comes out as the samurai

True Love's kiss saves the day

True potential moment

they're gaslighting Kai

Brothers Vacation

Episode 9: The Royal Blacksmiths

using children as bait

Kai is the jealous one

Cole has a picture of the fang blade

Lying to your parents is fun

Climbing a mountain for family bonding

the mountain became a man

use the bell, son

Cole's dad is annoying

oh they can't sing

Cole's dad is going to train them

"Zane, you're like a machine" CRYING he looks so proud of himself

Pythor and Scales are flirting

I feel like something bad is going to happen between Garmadon and Wu

I was right

when you're farming and a fucking vortex opens up

oh boy, he is coming out to his dad as a ninja

Pythor ate the real Judge and is impersonating him

Zane has butterflies in his stomach

they are performing the theme song

They won!

Cole's dad is proud of him :)

PYTHOR TRIED TO KILL COLES DAD

Kai's still in his 'I'm the green ninja' mindset

Episode 10: The Green Ninja

I think this episode will reveal the green ninja

we start with someone in red clothing stealing the green ninja suit

maybe its cole bc they show the scythe blade

oh Cole is fighting serpentine

so is Jay, so this is either Kai or Nya

It's not Nya

God Kai, you're so embarrassing

SENSEI WU IS HOME!!

"Zane's a nindroid" "Zane's a what?"

Lord Garmadon appeared!

"But Sensei! he has 4 arms!" Love you, Zane

He is a smug mf

He's pure evil but he's still Wu's brother

Kai's impulsive

Me when I sharpen my teeth with a knife

and eat evil worms

When you're on a date but then the Lord of Darkness starts third wheeling you

When you're trying to sleep but your roommate is pondering the orb

Falcon theme my beloved

oh a volcano

dumbass

Nya green ninja arc???? please??

Kai is a fucking idiot

Cole is the reasonable one

GARMADON HAS ALL THE GOLDEN WEAPONS UH OH

Because fucking Kai is a fucking idiot

The volcano is about to explode and they are going in it.

Lloyd! Son! Son! STFU Son!

Of course, they see the ninja in the reflection

THAT SNAKE JUST GOT THROWN INTO FUCKING LAVA AND HE'S OKAY????? WHAT THE FUCK

Idiot Kai took out his Golden Weapon and activated the Volcano

The snakes destabilized the volcano

Lord Garmadon may be evil but at least he cares about his son, unlike my parents who

That is a fucking dramatic show for a lego show

Kai and his self-sacrificial act

LLOYD IS FALLING AGAIN L

Damn Garmadon, 4 hands, and you still can't catch your son

They left Lloyd and Kai in the volcano

Garmadon is screaming crying rn

It's Kai! and Lloyd! Kai's finally got his true potential powers!

Kai passed the fuck out lol

"Dad, is it really you" "yes son" "Dad, why do you have 4 arms?"

what? Kai: "my training wasn't to become the green ninja, it was to protect him" that means that Lloyd is the green ninja?

HOW TF DID HE FIGURE OUT THAT LLOYD WAS THE GREEN NINJA THAT MAKES NO SENSE

Wait Lloyd has been around the golden weapons multiple times what the fuck do you mean the weapons only react now

Lloyd chose one arc

Oh that means he has to fight his dad

The fang blade didn't melt?

Shit writing tbh

Episode 11: All of Nothing

They are all harassing one snake

this snake is like "i hate you" "no i don't hate you"

But they don't have noses

Zane can connect his eyes to the Falcon :D

Garmadon and Lloyd are bonding

Lloyd b like Daaad :((((((

Ever since the Devourer bit me Evil is in my blood

they/them prns for Lloyd my beloved

Garmadon doesn't want Lloyd to be like him im crying real tears

Ooof Lloyd ROASTED his Dad

Garmadon got kicked out by his son L

Firestarter is a lit nickname lmao

Jay is so in love and it's kinda funny

ITS A TRAP OH NO

Oh its Pythor

poor Lloyd has no clue what the fuck he's doing

SLITHERPIT SLITHERPIT SLITHERPIT

they are playing chess

what the fuck is a vengestone

they are pirates of the carribianing this shit

Pythor jumpscare

Nya: I have faith in Lloyd.

Meanwhile Lloyd: Ninja roll! Jump! *falls down the stairs*

This is bad

Poor Lloyd

God Pythor be original for once "You and who's army" mf

GARMADON IS BACK AND HE HAS AN ARMY

YEAH FUCK SNAKES

L for Scales

They are Brothers, your honor

I THOUGHT NYA STEPPED ON KAI LMAO

Garmadons and Lloyd </3

Headpat

THEY :'(((((((((

He is gone

PYTHOR IS ON THE SHIP????

Episode 12: Rise of the Great Devourer

the smoke of future sight

the future smoke says big snake will come

Lloyd gets beaten up by an inanimate object

Pythor is terrorizing children

Pythor is mean and british

Sensei Wu talks about dying

Sensei Wu starts Dying

Sensei Wu stops dying

Pythor has the fang blades again

HES GETTING AWAY

they all start dying

Nya stops them from dying

the snakes steal a bus

the bus is alive

snake motorcycles

"if we drive any faster the engine will explode " that's not how that works i think

Zane is kicking ass while Kai is on the window

Cole just blew up Scales

The engine exploded

SENSEI WU IS SACRIFICING HIMSELF FOR THEM??

LLOYD!

Sensei Wu got his gold tornado

Wu is beating Pythor for the moment

And the train flipped

Pythor is about to awaken the Great Devourer

Lloyd is going to get himself killed or smthin

"Go Ninja, go"

IS THAT A GOU'AULD

Episode 13: Day of the Great Devourer

Season finale!

The Great Devourer ate sensei wu (and pythor but idrc about him)

JAY DONT FUCKING FALL

They got away

Oh they didnt

They lost like 1/4th of the engines

Oh it grows

Oh the classic "we lost it" *sneak attack*

Nya holding Lloyd like a doll is so funny

Screaming Death Core

force ghost Wu but maybe its a hallucination idk

Russian snake

poor Lloyd is too short to be included

LMAO THE MAILMAN DOESN'T SEE THE BIG FUCKING SNAKE IN THE BACKGROUND

Creation tornado

Zane is self-aware

and Zane got stabbed maybe

HE'S OKAY!

his face came off tho

"it's heading towards the city!" it.. came from that direction?

"what's that in the subway?" "a fucking snake"

Jay's parents are gonna die

Cole threw a car at the snake

Lord Garmadon is buying tea

The Dragons are Back!

The snake is going up the building

Garmadon is going to stop the snake

Since when could Zane run possibilities

Lord Garmadon just got the golden weapons

time to see if garmadon can beat him

"You bit me once, now you'll know what it's like to be bitten back!"

the snake fucking exploded

SENSEI WU!

foreshadowing for Lloyd vs his dad

the end of s1

[literaphobe]

dude so sorry about the weirdos :( i was super excited to see ur post-mcc takes and i hate to see people being ableist dicks for no reason hope ur doing ok !!

yeah honestly i just think most of them are so goddamn dumb n have no fucking reading comprehension and some of their attempts to ‘counter’ me are so bloody goddamn stupid that i am praying for themmmm i don’t wanna directly interact bc they’re dumb n they’ll probably cry about how they’re getting cyberbullied by anons (VERY ironic how some of them said i shouldn’t have posted a ‘bad take’ if i wasn’t ready to get ‘clowned’ like ok then don’t dogpile someone if ur weak ass doesn’t want anon ‘hate’? lmfao) but i remember one of them being like ‘ughhhhh 🙄 op ur so dumb if people are short in basketball that doesn’t mean we make the basketball hoop easier to reach!’ and that’s such a lousy comparison to make that completely LACKS compassion too like damn i’m sorry but when people have adhd or they’re colorblind schools that aren’t EVIL will be like oh i see! do you need extra time to complete assignments and exams? is there are anyway we can assist you on questions that have color identification involved?

and yes, mcc isn’t school but they are run by people with COMPASSION. and the willingness to make changes if they see how badly affected some of their players are? like, they’ve made changes to buildmart before, notably the subtitle that pops up n shows what the name of a block is when u go near to it! and that’s great! but some of you are acting like it’s laughable to want different/further changes upon review? its like giving someone a monocle and then laughing when they say ‘these help, but i think having something like prescription glasses can help even more’ and when people say shit like ‘god, x just affects a minority of the players. most of them are just fine’ DO YOU HEAR… YOURSELF

i don’t think i need to recontextualize that sentiment to show how devoid of awareness that is. who cares? who cares if the only issue w buildmart is how it disproportionately affects people with colorblindness and the only colorblind player was george? (he isn’t. btw. but he arguably has the worst case of colorblindness) or that buildmart disproportionately affects people w adhd n there was only one player who had it? scream and cry about how it’s not that deep all you want, i KNOW so many of the people who tried to mock me didn’t watch any of the povs i was talking about. like didn’t some of y’all cry about how parkour warrior supposedly gave someone a panic attack? if that’s valid criticism then (which i think it is! i do think that parkour warrior became flawed after all the difficulty reworks and if it was so upsetting to certain people then a rework of the game is needed) why isn’t any of this stuff valid now? and why is it so hard to believe that someone also had a similar reaction playing build mart?

and another thing. like i see ‘oh if it bothers you so much then don’t play mcc? every game gives u anxiety should they remove every game then?’ like look. i have anxiety and adhd. anxiety is Not neurodivergency. there is a big difference between an entire event being a huge trigger and giving you panic attacks at every potential turn and 1-2 games that you physically are unable to play like a neurotypical person because your brain structure prevents from doing things that could be CHANGED to help you and others like you. if someone just can’t handle the pressure of a competitive event like mcc and it makes them crack and suffer bouts of anxiety that is a Health issue. it is a health issue and if they want to step aside from something that hurts them in its Entirety, then that’s fine. but if someone can’t find sand blocks n cracked gold blocks bc they can’t detect the differentials in the shades of the colors n all that would need to be done was perhaps. changing the colors to be much more distinct or the textures of the blocks to be easier to identify without color then… why can’t people Want that. why can’t people ask for that

i understand! that people are being toxic and rude n overshadowing people’s victories n perhaps even shitting on the people that won on like, twitter or something. i get if you’re mad that people on dttwt are sending hate or something like that! but this isn’t twitter! i never once implied that mcc was a bad event or was being run by bad evil mean people who rig the whole thing. don’t take your grievances out on me! don’t interpret my posts in bad faith and then cower and cry wolf when u find out people who see sense are willing to stand up for me! and if u wanted to see if i was complaining about the winners of this mcc like some people were after the last few mccs as well then you could’ve scrolled down my blog and looked at my other posts instead of having weird preconceived notions about what i am or what i stand for. its possible to feel happy for others’ success while still wanting changes to be made to certain games. like. survival games gave mcc15 red rabbits the win. but i still think that the point system needed to be reworked after that bc it gave too many coins. u can be happy and still think things can change/improve to be more fair/make the event better. which is what noxcrew DOES. they want to make changes not because they think they’ll get hate if they don’t but because they care about their event being good and they have integrity about it and that’s why they take feedback on this stuff all the time. ultimately, the decisions they make as event organizers and minecraft developers are theirs, but it doesn’t mean people can’t speak their minds

[livebloggingmydescentintomadness]

Hi, random but I was scrolling down ur blog and saw a post u reblogged saying something like 'don't be afraid of failure, be afraid of being in the same spot next year' and I know this was supposed to be a nice msg but it made me feel even worse because it has been my own situation the past few years and is my worst fear for the next. I didn't make a lot of efforts to change it and I hate being passive and depressed like this. Ik t wasnt your post but ig I wanted to talk to someone about it

hey there hon. believe me, i completely understand what you're saying. i'm disabled bad enough that i've been housebound for more than a decade, and i spend most of my time bedbound due to chronic fatigue and chronic pain.

i wasn't able to go to college, i've never been able to have a job, i don't really have a lot going for me. i pretty much spend all my energy surviving and distracting myself from depression and anxiety. i don't know if my life is ever going to be anything more than surviving and distraction.

however, while i completely under seeing that post and interpreting as the 'big' things in life you can't change, like a job or relationship, when i reblogged it i was thinking about the small things that you do have the power to change.

i hope that a year from now, i've grown as a person. i hope i'm wiser, i hope i'm kinder, i hope i've learned new things, i hope i've recovered a little more from the shit i've been through. i hope that i've consumed more art and learned more about the world, whether the things that i've learned are deemed 'important' to capitalism or not. i hope i've written more, even if they're things no one will ever read.

like i said, i have a lot of health troubles, and a big thing right now is that i officially have metabolic syndrome (my insulin is very high), and my blood sugar is dancing on the edge of diabetes. type 2 diabetes runs in my family, but i really want to do everything possible to avoid it. so right now i'm trying really, really hard to eat better, which means cooking as much as i'm able, and i'm trying to exercise that tiny bit my body allows before i overshoot and hurt myself.

i've been doing pushups against my sink countertop, and yesterday i was able to do 12 with perfect form! not so long ago i could only do about 6. in the past month, i did a yoga routine for the first time in years.

i also hope that in a year i'll have started seeing a psychiatrist like i've been meaning to for 3 months already, where i hope to get an official adhd diagnosis and get my meds better sorted out. i think getting my adhd treated would probably make a big difference in my mental health and ability to function.

for a healthy, abled, neurotypical person... all that wouldn't amount to a lot of progress for one year. but for me? it's all i'm capable of. and fuck, dude, if all i have are inches compared to other people's miles, then i'm just gonna have to crawl those inches as best i can.

if i'm a few inches further one year from now, it'll be better than not moving an inch at all.