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So I go on tumblr, and decide to look up the Chima tag because it was a Lego theme I loved when I was younger.
And I guess I was right about the internet: “You will learn something, wether you like it or not.”
WHAT DO YOU MEAN CHIMA’S CANON TO NINJAGO?!
#lego#chima#ninjago#I mean seriously#I stopped following ninjago after the whole vermillion thing which I barely had a grasp of#next thing I know#it’s been literal years since I last touched it#and now all this stuff’s happening and I have no fucking clue what’s going on#what the hell is an oni?!#why is the spirit world back?!#what is the wyldness and why has that been confirmed to be the lands of chima?!#AND WHAT THE FUCK IS THE MERGE?!#I feel lost and scared and
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he cares so much about them, but he has never known how to show it
and now, it’s too late.
#orion rambles#mephone was the character that got me attached to ii#seeing him this miserable makes me miserable#ive grown even more attached to him since the twist#i love making ocs....it can be really therapeutic to explore feelings through them#so to see a character do the exact same thing was wild#...but the contestants became these living breathing people#who now have to come to terms with the fact they were made to be a fantasy#dreamed up by someone who is lost. and broken. and scared#and now? he has nothing left#but he cared for them. he really truly cared for them. i would know#inanimate insanity#ii 17#ii movie#ii mephone4
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NO ONE ELSE CAN HELP YOU
NO ONE ELSE CAN HELP YOU
(objectober 2024 day 20: dream)
#dandy's doodles#inanimate insanity#ii#ii mephone#i don't feel like tagging the others... individually they're not that important anyway#objectober#objectober 2024#featuring lyrics from dream by roar :) one of my favorite songs of theirs#roar has an incredible capacity for expressing helplessness and isolation in their songs. it's so heart-wrenching. horribly real#i don't know the 'real' meaning but i've always seen dream as being about wanting to make your parents happy#and feeling like you're always failing#and now that they're gone you feel totally lost cuz you've based your whole life around making them happy#and you feel so alone and scared without them#and you don't know whether to continue following what they would've wanted#or to pursue dreams you feel you can never achieve without their support#i may or may not be projecting... but in any case it's very VERY fitting for mephone#and the prompt immediately made me think of the song and him... so...#very fond of how this turned out :)
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[OLD ART ALERT] A COLLECTION OF SCENES FROM THE GILLIONS CATSCRATCH ARC THAT BROUGHT ME GREAT JOY. i love fishy chips especially when its just gillion being delirious and violent and hostile
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi riptide#jrwi riptide spoilers#JUST NOTICED A MILLION MISTAKES FUUUUUUUUCK BUT WWHATEVERRRRR IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA HHUURRRLLL#SO I REALLY LIKE FISH AND CHIPS RIGHT. IVE BEEN IN LOVE W THE SHIP EVER SINCE THAT NAT 20 KISS#BUT I THINK I SHIP IT WRONG. OR LIKE. I AM CORRECT BUT EVERYONE SHIPS THEM DIFFERENTLY#THE FISH N CHIPS I SEE EVERYWHERE ELSE IS SO FLOWERY AND SWEET AND ROMANTIC. AND THATS NICE! THAT STUFFS NEAT#but gillion and chip would NEVERRRR enter anything similar to a romantic relationship. chips too damaged and gillions too uninterested#I LIKE MY FISH N CHIPS ONE SIDED AS FUCK#bc 2 gillion chip is his best friend in the whole wide world but hes also kinduvagross little man that took him a MINUTE to really warm up2#but to CHIP gillion is this powerful and gorgeous and heroic paragon of destiny and his best friend in the whole world who will#bring about the eschaton. 'i didnt believe in destiny until i met you' until i met a champion radiating with a light thatll alter the world#OHH REMEMBER THE FIRST ICE ARENA?he was so mad.still probably shaking from the ordeal.NEVER had he felt true divine radiance CLEAVE through#his SOUL like that.do you remember that moment in the forest w the bugs. an alien from the ocean; lacerating the land w lightning#when the realization flickered in chip for a moment.that the thing standing before him was more powerful than he could ever fathom#remember when grizz mentioned that the nat20 kiss was the 'best kiss chip ever experienced'. that has nothing to do w this. where was i.#LOST MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT. BUT HEY. I THINK at the beginning chip absolutely knew that gill was smth grand n powerful n scary#when gillion revealed what exactly the prophecy was;chip got defensive and mad.sure he was sleep deprived but OOH. HES SCARED!#he believes gillion too! he believes that his destiny is to eradicate either the sea or land and that scares him!#but then he gets past it bc ultimately he trusts his bestfriend gillion so so much. he fuckin loves this dude.#he would throw himself intothe path of fire for this dude. he would boat across the ocean for this dude.he would build arenas for this dude#even if this dude will end half the world.even if this dude wields the power and the obligation to eradicate him at any second.#even if this dude is going to throw himself into harms way for his own comrades.even if this dude is just going to sacrifice himself.#one way or another one shall die for the other.these self-sacrificial bastards click so well with eachother!!#chip believes his body is best used to pave roads and gill believes his body is destined to pave prosperity.WHATEVER!!#i really love their dynamic!! they care for eachother so much!in MY heart tho. the icing on the cake here is the fantasy that chip is#just a bit more In Love w gillion than he realizes. like this powerful fish guy is HOT and PRETTY and KIND and FUNNY and LOYAL and STRONG#but gillion would never rly feel that same sort of attraction towards chip. its just not rly his thing. aroace as fuck man.#thats how it is in MY little heart atleast. and i sit here and play w my touys in my brain n i explore my silly lil one sided fish y chips.
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While ruminating on how stressful part 2 is going to be watching Penelope struggle to reveal herself as LW to Colin, I keep thinking about the whiplash she must be feeling.
She had spent so many years longing for Colin and had just come to terms with giving him up and starting a new life without the man she loves.
She was going to marry Debling and continue being Whistledown. That was the biggest draw for her, outside of getting away from her family- it was Whistledown. She wouldn’t have love but she would have solace in her work, her writing.
And now, in the span of one night, she has to come to terms with the rest of her life being completely different than what she thought it would be.
I know we’re all stressing for her to tell Colin, but I really do empathize with her probably feeling incredibly overwhelmed on top of being afraid of losing every last good thing in her life.
#she’s still in the wrong here for wanting to keep the secret mind you#but I totally understand the fear and hesitation bit#especially since she lost Eloise Colin really is all she has left#and then she’d be afraid the Bridgertons would cast her out#oh man this is such juicy content coming up#i’m scared#and it makes me feel excited#well excited and scared#bridgerton#polin#bridgerton season 3#bridgerton spoilers#bridgerton s3#bridgerton season three#bridgerton season 3 spoilers#penelope featherington#colin bridgerton#colin x penelope#penelope x colin#lady whistledown#lady Whistledown reveal#bton#as a girlie who gets over her head all the time and is afraid to ask for or accept help I get her so much#penelope#colin#Bridgerton s3 p2 trailer#Bridgerton season 3 part 2 trailer#bridgerton s3b trailer#bridgerton season three part two trailer
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Mym........
#dragalia lost#mym#she is so pretty........... i love mym....#someone kindly donated some money to me - a broke individual - and i offered art in return but as like. slow payback#so there will be a few more dl doodles here and there ! and most likely more mym bc i do love her and this#was kinda like a test run since i love her but never drew her cause i was too busy drawing idiot sons of mine in dl#also i wanna draw for a game i played recently but im so scared ? so if i end up drawing for it i may close my askbox in anxiety#even though i just wanna draw stupid lil guys being stupid lil guys and i think its expected of me to draw stupid lil guys#(at least not shocking when i draw them) i still kinda feel iffy on it bc im a coward with some games i like#but until then here is some cute lady dragon mym bc shes so lovely and i love her
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Do you have anything you've been thinking on but just haven't made a post about it yet? Also I'm really enjoying your fic!
I have a few things but it's likely mostly headcanons that I consider somewhat disconnected from my analysis.
Curly's parents had him old, only child, died shortly after he graduated and got the pony express position. It was the last big thing they saw him do which is a reason he stayed for so long.
Doesn't admit how much their death affected him
Jimmy has a largish family. One of the cases of too many kids to keep tract of, parent never really noticed any of them nor their behaviors
Anya lived in a lot of houses growing up, regular supportive family that just struggled to support themselves.
Became a nurse largely to avoid their financial struggles but mostly because she felt too many people weren't being cared for and advocated for in the world properly
Swansea likes high top sneakers most. Likes how snug they fit and how they shield his ankles at work
Curly has a bit of a caffeine problem since he can’t sleep. Can occasionally be found wandering the ship at “night” when he had some too late or just couldn’t sleep.
Daisuke knows a little about a lot of things. Starts conversations with “did you know” a lot but please don’t ask him deeper questions
Curly has known Jimmy longer but has worked with Anya and Swansea longer, met them during his middle years, met Jimmy shortly before college.
Swansea rents a house, Daisuke’s family lives in a big nice apartment, Curly has a condo, Anya live in a small one bedroom apartment and Jimmy has a studio.
Curly's home is very disconcerting. It's too normal to a like uncanny degree.
Anya is ambidextrous but prefers her left.
Anya and Curly are both not native English speakers so occasionally they forget words and bond over the mutual mocking they get from the rest of the crew. Daisuke knows some Japanese but is still learning, never picked it up as a kid
Only Swansea and Daisuke know how to drive, Earth in my mind is very post capitalist so only older people and like the extremely wealthy can afford cars.
It's also like walkable just due to how many businesses are in your face. Probably strict living vs shopping districts
I have more but the way that I headcanon about them is like too long.
#im still trying to figure out voiceclaims like I think Curly is the most generic lost his accent his accent like swedish or eastern european#guy cause he was raised by old immigrants and anya never had a thick accent but she talks with the cadence of one shes like slavic and east#asian to me. Swansea at most is like irish or italian but just an old white guy and Jimmy just has a bit of olivish skin like hes just whit#i think people should make them all weirder too like I think Anya loves showing the fucked up diagrams and pictures from premed and everyon#has to nod and act super supportive and not horrified cause Anya thats a guy with his leg broken in seven places it is not facinating to th#rest of the crew but she loves it cause fyi to go to med school you have to pass pre-med she has a BA if not a BS in nursing or bio atleast#Swansea randomly talks about shoe politics and its like hes talking about regular politics. Curly doesn't sleep walk but he pauses at weird#times or places and will just stand leave and not tell anyone anything cause even he forgot#Jimmy is himself ig and Daisuke always has some media drama they are too old for to get invested in and teach them about youth slang Anya#kinda gets it#also i think people make Curly and Jimmy way too old? Like In my mind Curly is sorta his late 20s- early 30s like he's in the settling#part of his life hence the fear about settling here anya is likel mid 20s to 30 cause she at least finished college we dont have the years#of how long shes been working and maybe Jimmy is just a bit older and feels weird envy about missing that introspection Curly is having.#Daisuke is like 19-22 in my mind like hes an adult but a kid by their standards#like Curly was recruited and its much easier to get younger people plus getting someone young is a good investment like they either got him#right after school and its like all he's known and it scares him#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#anya mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#ask#anon
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itll be alright
#it actually wont#💔#but hes just a baby. and she is his everything#the 3rd ep hurt me.....#but also thinking about how during the earlier times on the ark when he was much much younger#maria would be the only solace he would have#between the scientists treating him like a test and subjecting him to painful experiments just because he cant die#and the scorn of anyone else#the only place he can find warmth and love is in her light#shadow confused and lost not knowing his purpose well yet as hes forced to face all of it. like a scared animal#i know gerald would be decent to him but its never going to be more than firm kindness that wont ever take priority over his responsibility#they gave him his rings but in the early days they probably wouldnt be bothered to dress him and just let him go from the lab as is#hes doing it all for her but hes just small#god#im feeling a lot#shadow the hedgehog#maria robotnik#my art#shadria#not romantic in this case. just his most important person. taisetsuna hito. etc. they need to make a tag for them pls
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Constantly thinking about that post that’s like “people think Talia was controlling Jason in lost days, Jason could barely control Jason let alone Talia” because literally one of the first thing he does after regaining consciousness is outmaneuver league agents to run back to Gotham. If he wanted to leave he could that’s why she brings up the idea of training in order to stall his plans to kill Bruce (at some point he does clue into this). To me the dynamic of Talia manipulating Jason while Jason is semi aware of this and consciously going along with it is a much more interesting dynamic to explore than “Talia is an evil temptress and Jason is hapless to her whims” you constantly see in fanon. To me their post Lazarus pit dynamic is like if you took in an injured wolf and now that it’s healed it may bite you or fuck off at anytime but it sticks around for food and company also it keeps on bringing you dead prey animals
#Sorry for making another Jason and Talia post it will happen again 🙈#There’s literally a scene where she’s like ‘I don’t know what he may be capable of and it kinda scares me’#She certainly didn’t feel like she had total control over him. That aspect that gets lost in translation in fanon#Jason Todd#Dc#Red hood lost days
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sun hasn’t even risen yet and I’m feeling so emotional about how Dan is living proof that growth takes time but is so worth it and sometimes you don’t work through the hard stuff until you’re well into adulthood bc just getting by took enough energy and you simply didnt have the tools yet and we now know that things got so dark for him and im sure the darkness will come again bc that’s how these things go but now he’s smiling with his crows feet and laugh lines and silly clothes bc now he can love his body enough to put it in silly outfits before going out into the world and he’s goofy and playful and in love and idk guys life can be so defeating and it sure was for him at times but here he is this gleaming imperfect beautiful example of work and growth and acceptance and self love
#love you Dan I’m sorry that I’m such a sap about Dan#but idk man it’s 15 yrs and he was just a boy and then he was just a scared mess#trying to keep everything under control#and now he doesn’t have to bc he’s safe in himself#and Liam’s dead and maybe that tangentially has something to do with how I’m feeling#bc man I’ve lost so many people to mental illness#and I know it’s so complicated and to use that broad stroke categorization to describe something so personal is simply wrong#but it’s also not all that complicated we just need to feel safe and worthy and loved and need to have enough space in our psyche for hope#enough space to imagine a tomorrow. and when you don’t have that it’s so hard to just keep on trudging through the mess. but it is worth it#and the fog clears#dan and phil#dan howell#me yapping
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I AM ILL
#the way he SMILED AT HER#I FRICKIN LOST MY MIIIIIND#He's so gentle with her#😭😭😭#she was always there to calm him down when he was feeling existential#always there fro him when he was upset#but this shows that he was always there for her too#when she was feeling scared and upset#he'd reassure her and give her a smile I jsut ksdjglkdjflksdf#I AM ILL#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#sonic x shadow generations#shadow generations#shadow the hedgehog#maria#maria robotnik#shadow robotnik#ark siblings#fanart#digital art#WOW was Maria's face hard to draw#Maria I like you why did u make me suffer#trying a new shading technique lol#again
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WHAT???????
#i am. actually floored#the thing about the books. is that the characterisation is either a little too kid-friendly or just absolutely unhinged#why the hell is this boy carrying around two daggers and an axe. i feel insane#can anyone hear me#me so scared of writing jay ooc & in coke melissa with a steel chair#what a fucking bit of characterisation#now i need to rewatch descendants knowing that jay has two daggers and an axe on him at all times#descendants#descendants isle of the lost#jay son of jafar
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"george, i will stand with you between the heavens and the earth. i will tell you where you are. do. you. love. me?"
#I LOVE YOU#FROM THE MO-#FROM THE MOMENT I SAW YOU TRYING TO GO OVER THAT WALL#I HAVE LOVED YOU DESPERATELY#I CANNOT BEATHE WHEN YOU ARE NOT NEAR#MY HEART CALLS YOUR NAME#RAHHHHHHHH#IMAGINE RETIRED MISSION WORE JOHN WHO LITERALLY FEELS LOST WITHIN HIS MIND#WITH HORRIBLE NIGHTMARES AND ALL THAT#AND THIS WOMAN WHO JUST COMES INTO HIS LIFE AND MAKES IT ALL SUNSHINE AND RAINBOWS#BUT THAT SCARES HIM#AND HE KEEPS AWAY FROM HER BUT HE LOVES HER SO MUCH#AND THEN SHE FINALLY CONFRONTS HIM LIKE#AND YALL#REWATCHING QUEEN CHAROLETTE#AND OMFG#THIS BUT MAKE IT MODERN AND#RETIRED#captain john price x reader#call of duty#captain price#call of duty modern warfare
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Hello tumblr, can you tell me about your day or send me cute pet photos or something. To ease my melancholy 😔
#I'm feeling super burnt out and overwhelmed at the moment 😔#I've burnt out badly in the past. like to the extent where I lost skills and have never really recovered#And I'm always so scared of that happening again#But such is life I guess
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some of my faves,,,,,
(click for better quality)
#kotlc#keeper of the lost cities#sophie foster#keefe sencen#maruca chebota#sorry for not posting art for a while I’m rusty on digital#and traditional tbh :’(#I have been so busy jeez but the semester is almost over#and idk I’m just not that into keeper as I was when I started this account but I’m scared to post other fandom work#bc the things I’m into now are too like. big idk their fandoms scare me#so maybe day oc work to come???#I’ll stop blabbering in the tags I’ve missed this place but idk I’ll catch up w ppl once I like 😭#have time#feel free to send asks or dms tho :]#I’m trying to stop being so lurky here lol#also still have not read stellarlune so hashtag fake fan ig#my art
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i also like to think that as children javier and og lloyd got locked in a toxic cycle where javier felt like he had to. make up. for og lloyd's bad behavior. like a part of him recognized that his presence in the household was causing og lloyd to act up even worse than he already did normally and he tried to make up for the trouble he 'caused' by being as good of a kid as he could. and this in turn made og lloyd hate him even more because he saw it as an attempt to make him look like a worse son by comparison and that made him act up even more. and then the cycle repeats.
#i talk a lot <3#tged#javier asrahan#og lloyd frontera#also. at the beginning javier's perfect behavior was definitely also him trying desperately to make him staying with the fronteras worth it#to arcos and marbella. like. he's painfully aware of how tenuous their relationship truly is and he's terrified he'll lose his second home#because him being there is causing more troubles than he's worth#so he thinks that maybe just maybe if he's a good enough kid if he makes them happy enough that will make it worth keeping him around#of fucking course sending him away was never even an option to arcos and marbella but he's a kid and he lost his parents#and he was left to fend off for himself for a good amount of time so he's just. scared. he won't be good enough to keep.#if he's anything less than perfect.#he would eventually grow out of that but the impulse to be a good kid so he can make the fronteras happy never really goes away#it just shifts to him feeling guilty he caused them more trouble with og lloyd and feeling like he has to make up for it#THIS IS NOT CANON I'M JUST MAKING THINGS UP DO NOT FUCKING @ ME#og lloyd was truly terrible tho that one is actually canon lol
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