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pukicho · 2 days ago

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you're disgusting. an utter failure. fuck you. go kill yourself. we all hate you here. stop pretending like it'll get better. pull the trigger

What's better than this!! Just good old 2014 classic hate mail! No deep psychological incitement of my character, no scathing takedown of my art or work or body or whatever. Just big, grand general statements, one after the other. Boom boom boom.

#I feel like im back on the old internet #ahh the golden age

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orcelito · 5 months ago

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Ultimately I KNOWWW being born in 1997 means I'm not really a 90s kid, I didn't grow up in it, but I STILL do remember the turn of the century (however very very vaguely it is) and thus. People born in 2000 and later will always feel young to me. So I will continuously be surprised when I hear that someone I know was born in 2000 or later. Such is my affliction.

#speculation nation #back when i was first on the internet 2000s babies really did feel so young...#see when ur 16 a 13 year old is practically infantile... and my brain just never moved past that.#of course when i meet a 24 year old these days im like yea we r peers. of course. not much difference between 24 and 27 #but My God... then i learn they were born in the year *2000*... and my entire life is changed...#im just being dramatic lol but it still does feel weird. ah well.#im the one with a 1900s birthday ;p so im just gonna have to deal with more and more people born later than that.#sometimes i do think about when im old and grey and having a 1900s birthday is a mark of someone *old*#not tiktok old. im already old according to tiktok. but like actually old.#if i live a full human lifespan i might be among the last of the 1900s babies.... u ever think about that...? it's crazy....

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clancykisser · 8 days ago

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been seeing a lot of non-sharing stuff on my dash but just a psa that i love you and support you non-sharers you guys deserve all the love in the world from your f/os! Spreading positive vibes to every non-sharers way <3

#axel blabs #gen selfship #im a sharer and can't speak for everyone but i love and support you all!#i think everyone gets the right to enjoy their f/os and whatever else they want in the privacy of their own curated internet space #its online so never fee lbad about blocking or moving on imo #i feel like we have a much larger sense of danger/social constructs around internet culture like this and it skeeves me out #-old man voice- back in my day we put 'DONT LIEK DONT READ XD' on our fics and moved on with life /lh /silly

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funkle420 · 5 months ago

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i really wanna make friends with other artists here!!!

I have an artist discord server too if anyone's interested :3

edit: (this is for mutuals in their mid/late 20s-30s only)

#dm me if we follow eachother!!#idk today im just feeling nostalgic for old Tumblr #i never rly talked to anyone back then but i was so jealous of ppl who talked abt their internet friends #and like yeah i have artist friends on discord from around the internet #but i want MORE!!#i just like how consistent tumblr has been compared to other social medias #and the vibes are different

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schizowitchic · 3 months ago

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also like i partially found out i might be intersex because i was looking at trans stuff and there was like "(however many) months on t and finally seeing some bottom growth" and like pictures of t-dicks and i was like.... um.... that's kind of just what my clit looks like anyways. so i was like "hey google give me a quick rundown on this" and learned what clitoromegaly was and then i was like. hm. intersex resources. and it's like a sign? symptom? side-effect? of certain intersex conditions

#i mean like pcos runs in the mums side of my family but i dont have all the symptoms of that #i do also have like. more hair?? than the average afab person #like dark hair on my stomach and chest and back #and my face. whats disappointing about the face hair is that it isnt enough to be able to grow a beard #so i cant even fuck with gender that way #tagging as nsft just because of like genital mention #genital mention #nsft #shoutout to transmascs on t who show their t-dicks on the internet it was really helpful #also i dont know how to describe it but like. my natural face shape is kind of masculine??#like it would be plausible for a cis amab perisex man to have my face without looking feminine #if you get what im saying??#if it sounds like im reinforcing sex or gender essentialism please say i am struggling to find words #unshoutout to the boys in primary school who made fun of me for having hair under my arms and starting a whole decade of insecurity-#-about having hair on my body lmao #for the record i dont think certain face shapes are indicative of gender and all im just going by like. patterns?? in afab vs. amab faces #also not that i think afab vs. amab is the entire categorisation of human sex characteristics but um. working with what vocab i have here #i think what also really kicked it off. was relating to a fair few experiences intersex people have socially #particularly intersex ppl who were afab and faced a lot of pressure to make their bodies conform to feminine beauty standards #and it was like.... oh lol.... my mum did that to me!!#it comes from her own internalised shit bc she has pcos (idk if she identifies as intersex even tho she could if she wanted) but still.#dont project that onto a 10 yr old lmao. she keeps buying me hair removal products #ALSO floored by an experience i have. in which apparently half my friends dont feel pressure to shave their legs #because the hair on their legs is like. light and thin and barely visible and i was like?? huh??#what do you MEAN your legs don't look like your brothers/fathers if you dont shave??#im starting to think they dont shave their arms. their arms might just naturally not have a load of hair #i dont shave my arms though. cannot be bothered with that and also like. why would i do that #also you know that like. happy trail i think its called?? on “men's” stomachs??#yeah i have that naturally yeah thats right im naturally sexy #if you cant tell i am putting “girls” “mens” “boys” “womens” etc. in quotes to indicate that is just the normal society way of saying it

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vnonsense · 1 month ago

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I wish this past weekend was longer

#im so unfulfilled with my work but it at least pays the bills and doesnt stress me out too bad #i took a break from Internet this weekend and it was so worth it #i missed talking to my friends but man it felt like every slowed down for a bit #and i have to drive up to the old apartment again after work and do it tomorrow. but then im done with moving stuff for like a week #i noticed earlier why i was feeling bad #i thought of a seniario that made my stomach churn #but now i just feel bad about myself and i dont like thay #i dont want to be so self critical and down #sometimes its hard when the world is fall apart and buying groceries for tacos cost $50 #i just want to create....#back to work i suppose #therapy notes #vspeaking

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gravityfalls4life · 6 months ago

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first, "I saw this one video once where when signing up on some website, it asked for your sexuality, and straight wasn't even an option anymore,"

I'm pretty sure i've seen that video/image as well. maybe the photo i saw was different from the video you're talking about, but the photo at least contained heterosexual. which. y'know. is literally just the fancy word for straight. and even if it didn't jave heterosexual as an option, it could have been out of context recorded from a LGBTQ+ resource that was not meant for straight individuals.

second, i have literally never seen anyone who has "identified as a chair." and even if they did, more power to them? ain't hurting anyone, i've never seen anyone be im anyone's face about neogenders and all that. some people are just like "my relationship with gender is complicated and i don't know how to explain it from a human standpoint, but in a way this animal, inanimate object, or concept resounds with me in a gender-based context."

and there's no exaggeration. we're just loud and proud

Sir/Madam/Whatever else there is nowadays:

This is a Gravity Falls blog

I'm sorry if I offended you with my OPINION, but if you want to complain,

Complain to my everything-blog:

@myverynormalacc

#what part of “I'm part of the lgbtq too” did no one understand?#i'm sorry #I'm just a minor #I'm still inexpierenced #But I feel like humanity's going mad #Not just with all the LGBTIA+ stuff #Like the internet #8 year olds are having iPads now #This Cocomelon bullshit is ruining everything #Yes im a minor too #But I'm older #I don't even have an iPad #It just makes me sad knowing how I have to grow up #Afraid of watching rainbows #Afraid of being accused of being an 8 year old on the internet #WHICH I AM NOT #but christ #Even in my school life everything is going south #I'm not okay rn #and i made this blog so i feel better #But everywhere people will find excuses to hate on a minor #Okay #I'm acting like a child #See you later alligator 🐊🐊#Oh and I'll reply to the asks later or tmrw #Cus I just met up with an old friend #And I'm tired cus I ran back home #OKAY BYEEEEEEEE

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florenceandthemachine · 8 months ago

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trying to be ~back online~ after almost three years of disconnect feels like being the weird aunt who only comes over on holidays

I don't recognize my favorite cousins or know who's dating who and I've definitely missed some family issues and big milestones bc I've just been spectacularly out of the loop

but that doesn't mean I don't love u

#what am I even doing lol #I've been out of 'social' mode on tumblr for so long #most of the blogs I follow are back from the days of teen woof and naruto #now I don't even know who half the people on my dash are anymore bc I last interacted with them like six urls ago lmao #I hope all my old internet friends and moots are doing good even if I don't recognize their new blog or icons and can't call them out #do I try and write more even though im well and out of date on everything?#do I swan dive into a new fandom and hope they're nice?#do I delete my tumblr and ao3 and walk into the ocean?#(that is the most tempting of all the options btw)#feels like a genuine pet sematary moment like #sometimes dead is better #flospeaks #maybe it is time to sign off #prolly to delete later if I remember

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the-kipsabian · 9 months ago

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whiplashing so hard rn, google told me they'll shut down one of my old email accounts if i dont log into it, managed to actually get in and now im going through emails from fucking ff.net from 2018 what in the fuck

#i always wondered what email i had associated with that account. now i know #makes sense why i just feel like i stopped getting emails from ff net as some point randomly. i didnt even think i made a new email #but god yeah theres. not a lot of things in here actually. but there sure are story updates #im so sorry very old long gone internet friends whos stories i never read cause i started using just one email account as an adult so i nev #never got these updates. i see i missed some stuff wow #sigh. i wonder what those people are up to. from like 13 or so years ago when i was still active on that site #back when fanfiction was alive and well even if that site absolutely sucked ass as it always has #man.. i made myself kinda sad with this. lemme just empty this account and check the drive if theres anything and then get back to writing #night is an absolute mess on main

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skyllion-uwu · 1 year ago

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Am I nauseous because I'm hungry or because I triggered myself last night

#my stomach hurts and i need to eat but the idea of doing that is. ack #and i cant tell my parents why because id have to unpack so much spontaneously #like id have to explain i was on the internet before they let me make an account and that i didnt tell them when i was getting those dms #and how its basically ruined any neutrality i had towards sex because ill be fine and then BAM!#everyone else is 12 year old me and im an adult and im my abuser and im going to hurt them if i keep talking about this #just because it was only words doesnt mean it fucked everything up forever. i know back then i was aroace but didnt have the words #but i sincerely think id be just sex neutral if it wasnt for that fucking asshole and now i think about sex for too long and get sick #and i didnt say anything because i thought they were my friend and i dont know if they were 11 like they said they were or not either way #its just. im getting so much off my chest here i wish i could go back in time and tell myself to block after that first message #and i didnt say anything after i realized because i wasnt allowed to have social media and i didnt want to get in trouble over that part #fantasizing alone is one thing but as soon as someone else is involved theyre me and im that person on da and i hate it. i hate it i hate it #i hate it i hate it #is that a common thing. where you feel like youre the abuser in certain contexts even if youre nothing like them #whatever. i have physical therapy and then ask a prof if i can use him as a reference and then finish my application if he gets back to me #and then i can rot all i want #sky vents like amogus

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pepprs · 2 years ago

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idk how to reconcile my new self with my old self. also i fucking hate waiting. GRAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#delete later #im getting a taste of my own medicine bc when im overwhelmed depressed etc i don’t even open emails or dms or whatever and then ifeel guilty #and let them build up and run away from them and literally do not reply for years. but ive been waiting for like 5 different but related #replies for 3ish days at this point and im soooooo impatient omg i want to bash my head into the wall.. and afaik no one i messaged has #opened the message despite being active online elsewhere which is EXACTLY what i do so i have no right to complain at all. but still. omggg #i just have a simple question (me and the ps5 voice) reply to my message boy #purrs #also.. ok yeah im gonna be honest about it even if there are consequences lol. idk why im on such a mission to get back all my old #characters but if i don’t i can and will go crazy. i don’t even do that kind of thing anymore and d*viantart is an irreversibly warped #landscape due in part to capitalism and in part to own mistakes and selfish actions. and i truly feel like my tumblr mutuals are the only #ones who understand me and feel safe and cozy on here. but i miss my old internet home. and i really miss my old internet friends and seeing #all the jokes we had and how we were all like interconnected w the same adopt groups and stuff and now we don’t even talk… it makes me so #sad and i feel weird messaging them just for the purpose of asking if they can give me back characters i gave them 4 years ago like a) you j #just don’t do that kind of thing i don’t think but b) it feels so transactional and would make the part of saying hey our friendship was #important to me when i was a teenager and even though we don’t talk anymore i think of you fondly and wish you well. like lollllll. and i #feel cringe even tracking them down / messaging them bc we are all jn our 20s now… embarrassing. but i am so mad at myself for letting those #friendships wither (not that i have the spoons to sustain them these days anyway but still) and for not keeping bettr track of my characters #when i sold them and for giving them up in the first place and for letting my old internet life just fall apart due to neglect bc it puts me #in a bind to try to piece it together again no matter how i try it and i shouldn’t try anyway. but i am so tempted to rn. lol #* itd make saying stuff abt appreciating friendship weird bc there’s a transaction tied in (source: i did this and feel weird and bad)#like the way i want to SCREAM seeing that dA ate all of the journals i made when i was a 14 year old and turned them into glitched polls. th #the way the wayback machine has terrible unreliable records of everything and i can never get some stuff back / track some stuff down. pain #anyways it’s stupid bc i feel cozy and listened to and as connected as i have the energy to be to all of u guys so why am i doing this. but #i miss the dA stuff too and i wish it wasn’t cringe and i wish i could have everything that’s ever been part of me all in one place. lol #also this doesn’t even take into account my poetry community on dA on my other account who i also felt so safe and cozy with and i abandoned #that too and lost touch with basically everyone even though we all knew each others deepest secrets for years.. the heartsickness of it all #anyways mutuals who knew me on deviantart i am clutching both your hands with impassioned urgency and kissing u on the cheeks. that’s all

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wilddogsdivorce · 2 years ago

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don't open up about shit before your finals. worst mistake of my life

#bro literally no one cares ‼ repress it again!#and yet. and yet!#rationally i know it's good for idk my healing journey and being more in tune with my emotions or whatever .#but mostly it makes me want to go back to just feeling nothing #and im back to being a scared seventeen year old who was really bitter about being a socially inept loser with no real relationships irl #with her third space being like. the internet. mostly.#like i guess in our age what's in the cyberspace could be now considered no less real and new definitions in the philosophy of mind #i don't know . it's been a hot minute since i decided to spill my guts on the internet. so i guess that's progress LOL

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6mayhem · 3 months ago

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but i would give anything for just one day spent in the life i had when i was 15. it may not have been perfect but i felt like i belonged somewhere. and i didn't worry so goddamn much about the big picture

#sighhh i miss when my biggest worry was my crush liking me back #i was such a typical teenager in hindsight bc of that #it seems a lifetime ago but it was only 4 years #2 years since we broke up thats crazy. everything changed i built my own life from nothing #im a completely different person #figuratively and literally though i will not use that to excuse my past actions haha #discord was like my whole damn world my center of the universe talking to my friends on there the highlight of my day #we had plans we had goals we had all thse big ideas and things we could do in our free time #now we go days without really talking to each other #in 2020 i said 3 more years and then we meet irl now 2023 is over and i am sure i will never see you. i wouldnt want to see you #i guess adulthood caught up to all of us. okay. most of us #i am just so sentimental #things had purpose back then and i wasnt this afraid #and i loved them #and i had someone who loved me #its fucked up how you dont even realize it wont last forever until its over #i wish it had ended differently. the whole friend group.#sometimes i wish we wouldve stayed friends. but thats just hopeful thinking because in my heart i know there is no way #were too different and theyre too committed to fucking up everything they have always #it makes me sad. makes me think they truly dont feel like they deserve happiness. i am kind of that way too #but i dont complain about losing the people i push away. so thats how were different lol #and i also dont suibait my mentally ill followers every other day because of some drama that only 15 year olds care about #so in that regard thank fuck i grew up. but also. thinking of them reminds me of simpler times #when this petty shit mattered to me. it really doesnt matter to me anymore and i cant get myself to care about anything that happens online #maybe its time for me to leave the internet behind for good. i dont know what its doing for me anymore.#i dont have anything im excited about on my laptop anymore lmao i have to desperately cling for straws for things i could do #to avoid sleep and being alone with my thoughts

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gunkbaby · 8 months ago

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being on tumblr is crazy bc u can be 17 and doing ur thing and get jumped by a random 30 yr old you’ve never interacted with before

#It’s real. it happened to me #I have no idea what happened therr like i was being an unhinged mentally ill kid and then this random 30 yrs started beef w me #Like dude.#dk what happened to them i left the internet for like a year but #thanks random 30 yr old. i was having a rly hard time and you made things so much worse. dick.#Whatever #When i get a therapist they can hear abt this #For now its just my fans #Im not mad abt things that happened on tumblr when i was 17 bc it was mostly me having undiagnosed bpd #Like yeah. It was bad. I was rly unhinged #But i have bpd. I didn’t know that back then. I will never not feel guilty for how i acted back them. I wish i had known #But still. This random guy inserting themselves into my bs for no fucking reason??? Yeah that wasn’t my fucking bpd #That wasn’t my fucking fault #Anyway #vent #like I’d apologise to anyone else i hurt in 2021/22 but like dude. ur 30. why r u starting shit with insane teens in tg tumblr like 😭😭😭😭#Fookin millennials man /j

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todaysbird · 7 months ago

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Friends and Family, for the third time this week, I have OCD.

sometimes it’s easier to laugh about the silly thoughts and not the debilitating, dark thoughts that you can’t help with OCD. do better and mind your business when it comes to other people’s lived experiences. im a stranger on the internet and you can assume what you like about my mental illness or lack of it, but trying to call someone you don’t know out about their mental illness doesn’t accomplish a lot of social change.

with the holes you can actually play lamprey like an ocarina but nobody talks about that

#tw rape #tw assault #TW animal death #tw death #getting sick of entitled internet folks correcting me on the symptoms of MY illness.#I owe you no justification for anything I say regarding my mental illness.#Also half of you correcting me…still don’t know what the fuck an intrusive thought is.#You don’t have any idea what I’ve gone through or what intrusive thoughts I don’t feel like sharing with the entirety of the internet #mind your fucking business #Anyway im going back to the old man cave. I have ocd and I’m tired leave me alone forever.#also sorry OP for apparently starting mental illness discourse with the silly lamprey reblog

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gapbetweendimensions · 10 months ago

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why is every youtube drama nowadays such a nonissue lmfao

#like. before they were still fucking stupid but at least they were things that should've been addressed #now it's just “youtuber hurt my feelings and this secretly means they do really bad things to people behind closed doors xoxo💋”#and its always just ppl treating the internet as their personal jury #when the matter couldve been so easily solved with like. three dms #GOD im just tired of everythingggg 🫠#this is abt a bunch of stuff that i def dont want to get involved in so im not tagging/mentioning any of it. sorry for vague posting!#vagueposting #<- incase ppl have the tag blocked <3 #they should make a “dying in a glue trap” emoji bc sometimes 🫠 just doesnt cut it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#theres always absolutely NO PROOF either but everyone blows it way out of proportion #and acts like the youtuber like doxxed someone and conducted a smear/harassment campaign against a ten year old #whtever. back to my carefully curated hole-of-not-caring :D!!#rambles yadda yadda #uhhh if anyone wants this tagged as ranting lmk!#not sure if it counted bc most of it is in the tags but idk #personal yadda yadda

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