#I don't wanna look at yarn for a while

[adorabledaylilly]

When you spend an hour and a half crocheting the last bit of your bandana, cut it and finish it off, weave in the ends, only to realize you put the straps on the wrong side 🙃

[invinciblerodent]

yes, the location or the lighting aren't the greatest, but, little Iona is done now! they're sitting in my yarn bowl ❤️

(which is something of an issue because I kinda don't have the heart to take them out of there so that i can use the bowl)

[moongothic]

Quick round-up of a few small projects; Scarf. It is a scarf. Used the remaining silk/wool yarn I had left from when our yarn store closed, the yarn was really thin so I ended up holding it double and yeah, got a really cute, comfy Halloween-y scarf. Very happy to have it. I do regret making the stripes as thick as I did, like they look cute but between that and me making the scarf a smidge too wide, I ended up having to cut the scarf shorter than I would've liked because I didn't have enough yarn to make it any longer- at least not with evenly sized stripes. Like had they been thinner I could've repeated the pattern a little longer, but oh well, it is what it is. With the scrap yarn I just made this ugly little neck warmer, and yeah, it'll keep my neck warm indoors.

And then, using the scrap yarns from the bleeding heart sweater, made a very Crimbus-y beanie. Sidenote but I did actually pre-wash the fucking red yarn before knitting this, because I did not want a repeat of the dye bleeding incident. But yeah, it's a beanie. Again, held the yarn double this time and I'm glad I did because oh, it made the beanie so soft. It is so comfy y'all, I can not wait for December so I can wear it. I still have more of that red yarn left though. No clue what I'm doing with it.

[webslingingslasher]

can you please give us something angsty between ethan and trouble? like how ethan texts her and she ignores the messages during the breakup. or when they run into each other in the cafeteria and trouble pretends he’s not there and walks away despite he’s calling out her name. the way trouble no longer crochets because that was her thing with ethan and it feels strange to pick up the needles and it makes her miss him.

*cleaning out my drafts!*

ethan is peter's best friend and by default, he owes you nothing.

you were a friend for the moment but once you and peter ended, so did the alliship. ethan didn't get that in the memo, but he's never made a friend through peter and lost her through him too. he keeps thinking everything is normal, like there isn't a giant peter shaped hole in the fence.

'hey, so i was thinking we could have a little study sesh at the library?'

'i'll rent out a room. and it would be just us.'

'obv.'

you miss him too sometimes. but he chose peter by default and you don't condemn him one bit for it, ally did the same with you. peter was ethan's friend first, so he should still be one when you walked away.

peter doesn't talk to ally anymore either. both friends became constant reminders of what you had and lost.

it might be a text message but you can hear ethan's voice in your head, he sounds defeated.

'i'm guessing that's a no.' you never open them but he knows you read them. it doesn't surprise ethan, you've ignored him since you dumped peter. he just never expected to be dumped too.

'i miss you.'

'i just wanna hang out with you again.'

'and if you don't want him around either that's fine with me.'

'i'll fly you somewhere in my private jet.'

'damn it. i was really hoping for a "you have a private jet???" response.'

'it's a yes btw. just because i know you're curious.'

'well, actually, it's my parents but you always say that's the same thing.'

you watch each notification appear and disappear. your teeth dig into your bottom lip to stop a smile, you can't go backwards. if you're around ethan it leads to peter and you can't do that.

ethan didn't realize there might be a reason why you haven't been texting him back, but he does now. what if you weren't replying because you weren't seeing them? he thought you were just ignoring him but it's been weeks of silence.

'did you block me too?'

he hopes not. he really, really hopes not. ethan knows why you pushed him away, he's just upset that he didn't get a say in it. ethan's never been able to tell you how sorry he is on behalf of his best friend and how he doesn't want to lose you over his idiocy.

you frown at the message, restraining your impulse to text him back, you hold your breath and wait for another message.

it comes two minutes later and your entire heart shatters.

'crochet buddy?'

you haven't been able to look at your basket of hooks and yarn, it feels wrong to finish your pig. you told ethan you kept messing up on the ears and he said he'd do them for you. he never got the chance. you wonder if he finished his lizard tail.

your thumbs move before your mind can stop you, not that it would. you had to tell him the truth, you can't have him wallow and sulk over you.

peter might deserve it but ethan doesn't.

'it would surprise me if you didn't have a private jet.'

'hey!!!!!!!!'

'don't leave yet pls.'

'let me take you out to lunch. we can go to the village or brooklyn.'

'i promise he won't find out.'

'please?'

'i miss my buddy.'

you think it's almost as painful as splitting from peter. ethan is peter's best friend and you can't get in the middle of that. it'll hurt peter just as bad and while part of you wants him to be hurt over you, you don't want to use ethan as the pawn to do it.

you back out of the conversation, lock your phone, set it down, and grab your unfinished pig before curling up with him for a nap.

---

ethan doesn't eat in kayte hall. you know he doesn't eat in kayte hall because you ate in cathedral hall with the sig nu frat.

used to.

you switched to kayte hall two weeks ago, it was an extra five minute walk but it was done with the purpose to avoid situations like this.

you try to move discreetly, it doesn't matter, he clocked you the second you sat down. you can't abandon ship, he's sliding in the seat across from you.

'you're avoiding me and i really hate it. you made me stoop so low i had to get a pledge to track you down for me.'

you're not going to give him the silent treatment, that would be plain rude.

'are you admitting to stalking me?'

'i'm admitting that i instructed someone to stalk you. are you flattered? you should be.'

'why aren't you at cathedral?'

'because you don't eat there anymore, duh. can i have a grape?' you hesitate before sliding your tray halfway up the table, he takes three.

you listen to the purple crush between his teeth, ethan looks a bit more serious after he swallows. you look at your cup, his stare makes you feel guilty.

'look, let me get this out of the way now so we don't have to talk about it again. i don't know all the details, park- peter hasn't really opened up to me about it.'

you swallow tightly, this is exactly what you didn't want to happen.

'from what i know- or pieced together, he disappointed me too. i'm sorry for whatever he did and i'm sorry it hurt you enough that i was caught in the crossfire, but between us, when i'm with you, he doesn't exist. this is the last time i'll ever talk about him, i'll offer you the same courtesy and we won't bring it up again.'

ethan's saying all the right things, you softly shrug. 'what's the courtesy?'

'you can ask me about him if you want to. it'll stay between us, i promise.'

the peter floodgates burst open, you'd done your best to push him from your mind but now you have the opportunity to indulge. you nibble at your bottom lip before looking up at him. ethan's smile is gentle, he's trying so hard for you.

'how is he doing?' from the little rumors you've heard it doesn't seem too good and the harsh bruise splattered across his jawline last week didn't do him any favors.

'um,' his smile tweaked, it's worse than you thought. you know it's bad because ethan's trying to find a way to be honest but not worry you. 'he's okay.'

'please be honest.' you know you ended it, you know it's real this time and you know part of you wants to hate him but if he's really down bad, you might have to give him a visit. ethan takes a deep breath and leans in closer to the table.

'yeah, he um, he kind of tanked. he's not himself right now. he's skipping chapter meetings, he's missing classes and if he's home, he's barricaded in his room or drinking.' your heart sinks, you're not hungry anymore.

'does he miss me?' you almost feel embarrassed to ask. ethan doesn't find the question pitiful, he's just glad you're talking to him. 'bad.'

it's brutal on your end too, but he sounds worse than you. at least you can get through the emotions of your day to day. you wish you could say you won the breakup but there's no winning.

'has he...'

you don't want to know the answer. you don't want to know the answer. you don't want to know the answer.

you still ask it. 'has he hooked up with anyone else?'

'no.' you believe him because he said it quick and with certainty. you nod slowly, it was the answer you wanted but it still didn't feel good.

'is he still going to the parties?' ethan shakes his head, 'i haven't seen him at any.'

'but he still has you, right?' if you didn't have a small support system you would've lost it ten times over by now. peter doesn't have a whole lot but one ethan overpowers ten mediocre friends.

'i asked if he wanted to talk about it, he said not really, i told him i was there for him and he said thanks. there really hasn't been much else, he's just been really quiet.'

ethan is all peter has, you can't rip that away from him. it would be evil to pollute the one thing he still had, you walked away from him and you shouldn't take his friend with you. plus... how could you move on if you have the peter encyclopedia at your fingertips?

'at least he's not crying.' you end it with a half laugh, half hum. it's sad all around and you're trying to lighten the mood, ethan avoids eye contact and your palms rest on the table.

'ethan.'

ethan's not sure if he is or not. he hasn't heard him but there are some days peter would shuffle out from his room for a water or snack and his eyes were a little red. there was evidence of crying but no tears, so he can't say with certainty but he knows.

'i don't know.'

it made up your mind. you can't do this to peter, you can't sneak around with his friend when he's still trying to mend what went down. you grieved the end of your relationship when you were with him, calling it quits was hard and it still is, but you were prepared. peter was caught off guard and he's still analyzing everything that went down, you know he is.

'so... are we cool?'

'of course we are, you were never a problem, ethan.' he looks relieved, releasing a sharp sigh he rests his hand over his heart and smiles brightly. 'oh thank god, i really missed you. so, are we done with the peter talk? are we ready to schedule our next crochet date?'

oh. he must've misunderstood you.

'no, we're not... we're not hanging out ethan, i just wanted you to know i didn't have any bad blood against you.'

ethan's not a mean person and you've never seen him mad at someone but he's hurt and his arms cross over his chest with a sneer.

'why am i being punished for what he did?'

'you're his best friend, ethan.' it's a statement and fact. it also has everything to do with you ghosting him. 'you were my friend too.' it's a raw confession, you can't look at him when he's this sad.

'i know i was. you were mine too, you still are. it's just different now and i'm not saying we can't be friends, but i think it would be better for everyone if we just took a break from each other right now.'

'it's not better for me. everything is weird right now, my best friend is a shell of the person he used to be and my other one pushed me so far away i was convinced she forgot about me.'

'it feels like i'm being iced out from all sides.' he's much sadder when he adds that on. you feel for him and you hate that you're part of the reason he feels excluded.

'i'm really sorry you feel like that, ethan. i promise it won't be forever, but i have my mind made up and no matter how many times you say please, it won't change.'

you're not sure if things between you became really quiet or if the dining hall doubled in sound. ethan's trying to come up with the right combination of words but nothing's good enough to make you come around on the idea.

If please doesn't work, he might have to force you.

'okay. i'll stop asking you to hang out with me.' he sounds fine with it, you're a little suspicious but he might've just wanted to talk to you, even if it was a formal goodbye.

'but i should go now.' ethan pushes against the edge of the table to slide out from his chair. his words are short but his tone is happy, you stare at him extra hard before nodding.

'i'll see you around?'

ethan sends a wink your way, 'see you later.'

---

the contents of your backpack are all over your bed, your phone nowhere to be found. you retrace your previous steps, you had it at lunch and you swore it was in your outer pocket at the library but after that it's blank.

it was either lost or stolen. your entire life was on it, you don't even have a way of telling everyone you lost it. you recheck your bag two more times even after holding it upside down, then fill it back up while giving yourself pity.

you wallow in it for ten minutes, not even a minute after that your roommate rushes in the door with her own phone held out. 'it's ethan.' you reach for it without thinking but pause before you can fully grab it, ally shakes it towards you. 'he said he has your phone?'

ally's unaware of what's happening and is being as helpful as she could but all you're thinking about is when and how he took it. you press her phone to your ear and ask him where your phone is, he plays dumb.

'i'm not fucking around, ethan. this isn't funny, i need my phone.'

'you left it behind at butler, it's a good thing my pledge found it for you.'

there was absolutely no chance of you leaving it, you clench your jaw and try to restrain yourself from throwing a million mean chirps. he sent someone to rob you.

'you stole my phone? why the fuck would you steal my phone?'

'oh, i didn't steal anything. you should be thankful one of our guys found it.'

'found it in my backpack?'

'did he? hm, interesting. but, hey! it's here and it's safe.'

'great, bring it to me.'

there's a pause on the other line, ethan sucks air in through his teeth. 'sorry, no can do, buddy. looks like you'll have to come get it.' your mouth parts in shock, that was the plan? forcing your hand to hang out with him?

'absolutely not. just meet me at kayte.'

'another no go, my friend. i'm stuck here and so is your phone.'

'you're not stuck anywhere, except in a house with my ex.'

'he's not here.'

'i don't believe you.'

you can picture ethan holding his phone into open air, he sounds far away when he calls out 'parker!' there's a solid ten second gap before he sounds crystal clear again. 'see? no threats.'

'ethan, please.'

'just come over, i promise it'll be fun.'

your eyebrows furrow, he thinks it's a game. 'no, nothing will be fun. this will be a business transaction and i'll be out of there in ten seconds.'

'so it's a yes? you're coming over?' if ethan had a tail, he would be wagging it. his plan worked and you're falling right into his hand. if it was anything else, you'd say fuck it and move on. but ethan took the one thing he can hold over your head and you both know it.

'i don't know how, but this is a rich asshole thing and you're being one.'

ethan ignores you. 'make sure to bring your crochet hooks!'

'i'm not doing that.'

'that's okay! i have a bunch of extras.'

'i mean it, ethan. i'm not hanging around!'

'what's that? sorry, you're breaking up on me. we should finish this conversation in person... okay, bye!'

the call disconnects suddenly. you stare at the black screen and take a deep breath to secure your thoughts before making a trek across campus.

---

'give me my phone.'

ethan ignores you and points to his bedside table, there's two waters and an entire box of grocery store cookies. 'here, come have a snack.' he drops his crochet tub on the edge of his bed. 'i got some new yarn, look at how soft it is.'

everything about it was a ruse.

'im serious, ethan. give me my phone.' he sighs and gestures to his desk, he keeps pulling out hooks. 'it's on my desk.' you search the surface, it's extremely tidy with no hiding place.

'no it's not. where is it?'

'hm... i must've misplaced it. i'll help you look in a second.'

if ethan wants to play dirty, you have no issue getting in the mud. you grab a small succulent from his windowsill and raise it next to your head.

'give me my phone, ethan.'

you're fighting fire with fire, ethan eyes his plant in your hold but keeps a straight face. 'i forgot where i put it.' if that's how he wants to act, you have no choice but to follow through on your actions.

you drop the mini cactus, the pot shatters into a dozen pieces and soil spatters around the floor. ethan falls to his knees and screams 'no!' at the plant guts covering the ground.

'she was a kid, you monster! she did nothing to you!'

you grab the matching pot that was next to it. 'give me my phone or the sister gets it.'

'i refuse to negotiate with a terrorist!' you're breaking him, you can see he's hesitant to refuse your compromise. 'i'm sorry you feel that way.'

the clay pot falls just as quick, it lies in a broken heap next to it's twin. ethan acts like he's been shot, a throaty yelp was produced while he delicately held the cacti in his hands.

the plants were fine, all you did was bust the pots. and while breaking personal property was a bar too low for you, you know he has at least a dozen more just like it in his closet.

you look up at his door to watch it crack open, it's a swift movement but it feels like everything is moving in slow motion. you try to back up as quick as you can but you're cemented to the floor and all you can do is stare at the face coming through the door.

'what the hell is... hey.'

you swallow hard, he looks how ethan said. just a shell of what he once was. all you can stare at is the purple bruise on his cheekbone, your heart pangs when it's reminded it's not your job to care about it anymore.

you point at ethan who suddenly is really quiet.

'he stole my phone.'

peter nods slowly before peering down at the mess around your shoes. 'did he give it back?' you shake your head, you feel like a tattle tail, especially when peter looks down at ethan and tells him to give your phone back.

ethan pulls it out of his pocket and hands it right over, your jaw drops and you frown heavily at him. 'you do it when he asks but not me?'

'he'll beat me up, you'll just unhouse my plants.'

'peter would never beat you up.' therefore, his excuse is pointless. ethan disagrees, his eyebrows almost hit his hairline with how confident you are. 'over you? he'd fucking kill me.'

you wait for peter to tag in, you know something is brewing in his mind. something like 'damn right i would,' and you'd follow up with something about how he's actually a big baby and he'd say something like 'only for you' and you'd... but that's not real life anymore and he stays silent.

he's probably confused and a little hurt you're hidden away in ethan's room, you feel the need to apologize even though you're not sure why you're sorry.

'i'm sorry, peter. i tried telling ethan that we should take a break on our friendship but he won't let it go.' you threw him under the bus in a second and you don't care, from the looks of it neither does ethan.

'you can be friends with ethan. you should be friends with ethan.' it's the first time actually talking with him since the break up and it feels weird, he's too formal. he's being kind and reserved, he's pliant and you need some bounce back to feel normal.

'you always said i needed to unfriend him when we were together.' you might've tossed a taunt at him, you wanted a reaction. you wanted your peter and throwing the break up in his face might do it.

it works, his eyebrows furrow while his stature hardens. 'i said a lot of shit i didn't mean when we were together, trouble.' you point at him, your tone ice cold. 'don't.' you refuse to acknowledge the small spread of warmth at the nickname.

'you like ethan, ethan likes you. you guys are good friends, why should i fuck that up? i ruined enough shit for you. the least i could do is give you ethan.'

ethan could speak up to make a joke about how it's like he's a child of divorce or that he's a person, not a piece of property but it feels like you're both having a moment that needs to happen. even if there was a weird energy he was picking up on.

your eyes narrow, he's doing this for reasons beyond being a good person. you know him well enough to know that he has something up his sleeve.

'i can think of something else i'd rather you give me.'

you can see the heat brewing behind his eyes, you got him right where you want him. peter uses his serious voice, the one he uses instead of raising his voice but still demands your attention.

'we're not talking about this here.'

those two sentences just told ethan that whatever you were insinuating was what ended the relationship and peter's very upset stance solidifies his opinion.

'oh, trust me. you're not talking about it at all.'

'we're not unpacking this in front of ethan. i'm on my way out anyway, hang out with your friend.' peter tries to step past you but you circle around to step up with him and block his exit, his chest brushes yours for a second and it takes everything in you not to wrap your arms around him and sink your face into the body you once found homely.

'liar.' he doesn't want you to hang around and he wasn't leaving. you're met with a heavy sigh. 'yeah, probably.' you can't stop yourself, you lightly poke his chest and peter's head drops so he can watch your hold stick longer than it should've.

'be honest.'

'you might be ready to cut the cord but i'm not.' he'd rather keep you in his life as a tie through ethan no matter how sore it was. if you had ethan you'd never fully lose him and that kind of promise is the only thing he wants right now.

'neither am i.'

peter stares at ethan, 'shut up.' he's shunned into silence. you're starting to understand why peter said he wasn't going to unpack anything here, you look down at your hands and play with a ring on your finger.

you think peter wants to talk about it civilly but you don't think either of you are ready to do it yet without hurting either person's feelings even more than they already are.

but having ethan around is a nice way to keep peter close without damaging your healing.

'okay.' you take a deep breath and glance at ethan, who's still pouting on the floor keeping his eye line from peter. 'i guess we can hang out.' he lights up in a second, looking between you and peter in case either one of you vetoes it.

neither of you do.

'sweet! i have to repot these but i have some new templets in my basket, so if you want to pick one out and start i'll just catch up later.' you nervously look towards peter and immediately dart away when you make eye contact.

turning your back on him slightly, you feel a little better. there's something about him that makes you feel jittery, like when you were the first couple times you met up with him alone.

'i don't think being here is a good idea, maybe we should just stick to my dorm?'

'why? parker said he was fine with us hanging out.'

'because maybe parker was being nice and doesn't actually want to see me here?'

peter can speak for himself, and he'll use the correct name. in case you forgot. 'peter, is just fine with you being here. the only sucky part is knowing you hate me.'

you think he might be baiting you now but you can't help but set the record straight. 'okay, hold on now.' you speak very clearly towards him, you're not about to let him twist your words.

'i am a hundred different emotions towards you right now but i don't hate you. i think you know that, parker.'

'okay,' it's full of sarcasm. 'you have a goodnight, trouble. i'll see you later.' you bite your tongue and let him leave, if you didn't, you'd be making subtle shots at each other all night.

'your best friend is a dick.' the second you're alone. ethan shrugs, 'you were into that at one point.'

'no, no. if we're going to be friends you only ever sympathize with me about him, you're not allowed to bring up anything i did in the relationship.'

ethan has a pile of soil and a pile of shattered clay, you feel obligated to help him clean up. 'and for clarification, i'm supposed to sympathize with your ex boy toy when i'm with him?'

'absolutely not. you're on team me at all times. shame him if you have to.' the broken pieces land in his desk trash can. 'is this where i have to remind you he'd kick my ass?'

oh, you missed and loathe this so much.

'you're so whiny, clean quieter.'

'is it too late for you to ghost me again?'

'that's it. clean up your own mess, i'm going to make a crochet snake and not because it's the easiest but because that's how you're acting.'

ethan snorts and nods towards his wicked wicker basket of yarn, you're already eyeing different greens. 'be sure to make one for my twin next door.'

you do.

you leave it outside peter's door and while ethan never confirmed it, he knows you're the one who made it.

and it sleeps on his nightstand next to him every night. 

[cccakessslicemeee]

Spoilers!!!!!! For fantasy high !!!!!!!

Thinking about Riz and Kristen at the end of junior year past Kipperlily and the bullshit and everyone is chilling the fuck out.

Maybe they have a party. They call it a "party" but it's just a little get together and there's some alcohol sure but nothing too crazy. Riz is in his feelings and a lotta alcohol. He's drinking a lil stupid but hey he's earned it.

Kristen and Riz are on the roof looking at the stars. Kinda dumb considering Kristen's -4 dex but what's life without the risk? Anyway they are up there and it's kinda chilli. A soft breeze and Riz looks at Kristen but he can't ask the question.

She knows what he's looking for.

".....I can try-no I'd like to try. For you I'd try."

"It's been years..."

"yeah... I know it's been awhile. I can still try right? What's the worst that happens? Nothing happens"

"we don't have a body."

"it'll make things harder for sure....no bones? Nothing?"

"nothing....although....maybe we shouldn't? He's doing work up there. Or down there? Somewhere he's working on stuff."

"why not just ask him? You have that wrist thing right?"

"I don't have the coins for it."

"Fabian does. "

"...I don't want to bother him for stuff like that-"

"Hey can I be serious for a second? Like for five minutes I just wanna be real with you. If it wasn't for you I wouldn't have been class president. We wouldn't have had a chance against Kipperlilly and her bullshit if you weren't painting the prettiest of pictures about me and my campaign. By rights you should have been class president you're so much smarter than I'll ever be. You believed in me when the teacher didn't and you helped me study on top of attending so much shit. I feel like you've done way more for me than whatever stupid amount of coins it is. We'll get the coins. Promise. And I *want* to try. Okay? It's the least I can do."

They pass out on the roof.

Kristen does want to try and bring Pok back to life but she doesn't want to get Riz's hopes up so she doesn't tell him about it. She does have the other bad kids with her. Fabian for coins and Fig for moral support.

The first attempt fails. Of course it does. Fig says something about "oh it's like a knock at the door from an uninvited guest right? He don't know us." Which kinda makes sense.

Kristen introduces herself. All the bad kids do, to Pok's grave. Her grandmaster plan is to try and bring him back to life in time for graduation but that only leaves so much time. They spend so much time on this, tweaking little things and studying up on how to do a true resurrection. Good news, Pok hasn't been dead for 200+ plus years and there doesn't seem to be any force controlling or hell bent on keeping his soul so it should work. Cassandra and Ankarna are absolutely willing and able to lend a hand.

Riz is invested in his clue board because he's got another case, something less intense than murder but he's shuffling pictures and yarn around while he tries to figure out who has the better motive to steal the deed to some outdated historical building in Bastion city. The door to the apartment jiggles but Riz doesn't pay it any mind. It's Fig or Kristen or maybe mom came home early. Anyway he's just hyper focused on his board, eager to solve this low stakes case.

Pok comes into the apartment. It's different and yet so familiar. It's nicer now than he remembers it and there are so many more pictures on the walls. He says something to Riz who probably responds with something dismissive but not super rude. He's busy with his work. Pok comes close enough to see how his son goes about putting the pieces together. Focused and entirely calculating.

"I don't suppose you'd like a hand?"

"I think....that I've got....this one almost figured out. Petty theft. Family heirloom."

"Is that so?"

"Yes. The family is insufferable."

"Oh? That's a shame. It's safe to assume then they are a wealthy lot?"

"Loaded....the guy here sells engagement rings-well all sorts of rings but he's known for engagement and wedding rings."

They chat loosely back and forth but it's Pok just asking questions about his son's current project until Riz realizes who he's been talking to. It's a little silly to see how long it takes Riz to pull himself away from his clue board but when he dies there's a moment of solid, unbreakable silence as he realizes his father is right there. Completely corporal. They embrace and they both go to tears. He's fucking here! And he's home!

Kristen did it!

[fiapartridge]

hiiiiii !! i saw you write for beckett sennecke ! i love him he is so underrated !!! i was wondering if you could do some headcanons you have of him as a bf or something along those lines. if not, no worries ! i hope you have a really amazing day ! ily xoxo

beckett sennecke headcanons!! ⭐️🩰🪞💌🛁

💌 author's note: wait im literally obsessed with headcanons now i wanna do so many more LOL

bf!beckett is such passenger princess energy it's insane and he's ALWAYS on aux. like he'll literally fight for it.

also, he can only sit in the front or else he'll start complaining that there's either no space for his long ass legs or that he'll get car-sick and barf all over everyone lmfao

bf!beckett whoo buys you literally everything. like you don't even have to tell him you like something, like if you look at something for too long, he's already at the cash register buying it for you

bf!beckett who loves playing with ur hair. he's like a little cat with a ball of yarn. he tried braiding ur hair once and it just created a bunch of knots and he was TERRIFIED he was like "oh my god, babe. i think i just fucked up your hair."

bf!beckett who loves sharing updates on his day. like he'll be send pics of him and his teammates at a sandwich shop and be like "just ate the best sandwich of my life! we're coming here together next time!" or he'll be at a dog park and send a picture of all the dogs and be like "take your pick. i think i can steal one when they're not looking."

bf!beckett who calls you pookie in a teasing way because he knows how much you hate it. he says it the most in public because he likes to see ur cheeks turn pink.

bf!beckett who orders 3 entrees at restaurants and also eats the food you can't finish he's literally a human vacuum

bf!beckett who always shares his food with you even if it's his favorite. he just wants to share everything with you <3

bf!beckett who's drama is ur drama. like anytime he gets a piece of information and he has to swear not to tell a single soul, he always ends up telling you and it's technically not breaking the rules because you're basically an extension of him, so...

bf!beckett who is just the sweetest subconsciously. like he wont even realize he's doing things like pulling out your chair and carrying your bags and opening the car door for you. sometimes when you're at his apartment and he sees your cup is empty, he'll go refill it before you even ask. he just knows

bf!beckett who misses you all the time. even if it's just for a day, he'll start sending you texts about how much he misses you and your pretty face. roadies are the worst. he is always facetiming you and talking about you to his teammates, like "y/n would love this. let me send her a pic" or "what do you guys think y/n is doing right now?"

bf!beckett who gets your entire family gifts on their birthdays and christmas. even on valentines day, he'll get your mom some flowers and a note like "thanks for welcoming me into your family, mama l/n!"

bf!beckett who is super close with your younger siblings. like he loves playing video games with your little brother or playing tea party with your little sister. he'll even pretend to be a prince while your sister plays a princess. he'll be super into it to like calling her "your highness" and wearing a crown and cape.

bf!beckett who sends you a stupid meme every morning before you wake up. it'll be like a seal saying "top of the morning!" and you roll your eyes every time but you never want him to stop

bf!beckett who made you a playlist after your first date (which was at a diner and had one of those tiny juke boxes on the table. you chose "here comes the sun" and that was the first song he added to the playlist)

[talekinesis]

Reasons I will not Accept Umbrella Academy Season 4 as Canon (major spoilers)

I wanna preface this with: This is just my personal opinion, I am not telling anyone how they should or shouldn't feel. If you liked season 4, that is wonderful for you, I wish I could say the same

These two. I do not like their little romantic side plot at all for a multitude of reasons

I know Five's consciousness is like 68, I know he's technically an old man, but his body is around 19 years old, and Lila knew him while his body was still 13 so it just feels weird

I cannot imagine being in my 30s, married with children and being in love with someone who looks like they're 19, and yes, I know 7 years alone will do numbers on someone's mind, but still

throughout their whole little love montage, I was just begging, "Please let this just be a wholesome friend thing, please let this just be a cute, close sibling like dynamic- FUCK ME, THEYRE KISSING!?"

Also Five wasn't even good to her, he lied about the book at first and just made the decision for her that she'd stay with him in that timeline forever. And yes I know he eventually told her, but even after that he kept trying to convince her to just abandon her husband, children, and family because "You're happy here." Diego and Lila have their own issues, sure, but he's still the much better option and wouldn't have tried to trap her like that.

Season 4 Five just feels.. off, he feels wrong. Bring back his little shorts and old man vests when he was in 'retirement.' Bring back the Five that went on a road trip with Klaus because he wanted to see things like the world's biggest ball of yarn or whatever it was, I don't like this Five who tries to trap a married mother in an alternate dimension with him

THE CLEANSE

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

YOU'RE GONNA SIT THERE AND TELL ME NONE OF THEM MAKE IT??

"Oh Talon, there can't always be happy endings, some endings are sad too," and I GET THAT!! But that doesn't mean I can't still pout about it >:(

I will sit here with a pouty lip and arms crossed for all eternity /ref

It just felt like a kick to the gut for the show to be like, "Oh and they ceased to exist, they were never born, none of this technically ever happened, and no one remembered or missed them. They saved the world, the timeline, and no one will ever remember them for it because it technically didn't actually happen to begin with," fuck you

These characters we got so attached to, these plots that we got so invested in, you can't just tell me, "Also they technically never happened because they were never born," what the hell??

So you know what?? No. I don't accept s4 as real. Just like the cleanse, it never happened. As far as I'm concerned, the story ended at s3, everyone is alive and well, they don't have their powers, and they all went their separate ways.

Viktor is still running a bar in Canada with his friends

Allison is still a happy mother to Claire

Luther is living in the mansion married to Sloane

Diego is still learning to be a parent with Lila

Five is in much needed therapy and in college reclaiming a young adulthood life he never had

Klaus is still sober and going strong, probably working at a café, he's someone's favorite barista and they have conversations

Ben is living in South Korea (where google said he was at the end of s3) and he still keeps in contact with Klaus and Viktor

[rockethorse]

Stocking Stuffer 1/5: A Bajillion Random Painting Recolours

Happy Holidays to all! While I'm proud that last year I finally managed to achieve a longtime goal of sharing a full TS2 Advent Calendar, I'm simply not gonna be able to pull it off this year. Nonetheless, the holidlay spirit has encouraged me to finish up and share a couple of things before the end of the year! I'll be sharing five little gifts over the next few arbitrary days. First up: A BUNCH of Maxis painting recolours.

One recolour each of A/B/C Stroke (yes, I still enjoy playing with these as three separate paintings) using vintage matchbook covers designed by Saul Bass for The Ohio Match Company.

Two recolours +frames for Abstrutionism; "Poppy Cake" by Adolf Fényes (1910), and then this edit of Christina's World by Andrew Wyeth (1948) to include Bella Goth (the original Tumblr poster has deactivated).

A recolour of Anonymous Masterpiece with these two digital paintings by user chestnutroan featuring their farmer Sim and his two alien daughters.

One recolour of the Arghist Soldier with "Friday Nights" by Deborah DeWit (2006), perfect for your novel-enthusiast Sims' reading nook.

One recolour of City Skyline with a fruit & veg painting by Twitter user snail_soup (you can buy a real print of this too if you like it!)

One recolour of the Fourth Element wall scroll with "From Stardust to Stardust - Raccoon" by user ArtOfMienda.

Four Vegetables recoloured with four deliciously juicy tomato paintings by artist Leah Gardner.

Geometry 101 recoloured with a beautiful palette knife painting by Lynn Boggess.

Two recolours of Grilled Cheese (you all know what Grilled Cheese looks like, c'mon); one vintage ad for Hollywood Diet bread which I cleaned/redrew to remove text/graphics, and then "Cloud Rows" by Ivan Eyre (2004).

In The Beginning (+frame) recoloured with "Little Thief" by Courtney / Trash Kitty Art (also available as an affordable IRL print).

Kitten vs. Yarn (+frame) recoloured with this goache painting by user ieafy.

"Until Tonight" by Mark Grantham (2019) slapped on Lady On Red.

Two recolours of Living Room; "Midwestern Summer Fun" by user ink-the-artist (you may wanna zoom in for a surprise), then "Girl On A Swing" (2000) by Andrew Macara.

One recolour of Marketing Print with the Beatles as drawn by other Beatles. I don't remember who drew who because I'm actually not much of a Beatles fan but I thought these sketches were really darling.

In Memory of Johnny Gnome (+frame) recoloured with a piece by Emma Roulette.

A recolour of My First Holiday with art from Twitter user heikala_art.

On Pointed Toes (+frame) recoloured with this digital painting by Twitter user catwheezie.

I fell in love with this Guinness ad so I tweaked it from the photo to fit on the Route 66 poster, then made an accompanying Simlish option.

A single Scruffles recolour (+frame) with this adorable cow illustration by Twitter user poodlewool.

Four recolours of the Sim Noir pop art print; three pieces by Al Parker I found through this Tweet (with some English removed) and then an edit of the original painting to look passingly familiar...

Two recolours (+frames) of Snoozing Enemies; "The Cat on the Pillow" by Adolf von Becker, and "Sleeping Sasha" by Lena Rivo.

Stiller Life (+frame) recoloured with this oil painting of McDonalds by artist Noah Verrier.

Two recolours (+frames) of Stumped Hound; "Shadow" by Tianyi Zhou and "cat falling off table" by user anasauruss.

The Muse recoloured with this Juxtapoz magazine cover by artist Josh Courlas.

And lastly, three recolours of Untitled (the Bella Goth pop art painting) with works by Hiroshi Nagai.

Download All Paintings @ SFS

[thedemonscrawler]

OH YEAH HEY MY WOOL PROJECTS, YEAH?

So at the start of March (I think), I ordered more raw wool to process!

Wooh!

This is East Friesian, which is actually a milk breed of sheep. The wool is moderately coarse, shiny, and wavy in that like you braided your hair while wet and released it kind of way. I got about a pound of it.

This is an impulse buy of Border Leicester (Loo-shes-ter), of an amount that I don't really remember 8'D Just shy of a pound, I think? It, uh.

It looks REAL similar to the Friesian. About the same coarseness and shininess, with the crinkle cut fry look going all the way to the tip of the lock.

It was also really sticky with lanolin >n< So much so that I was like 'you know what I don't NEED to sort this before washing'.

Merino-Rambouillet cross!

Guys. Guys I thought Merino was like real overhyped cos the stuff I'd gotten was like 'eh' on the softness, but I'm realizing that's probably cos I've only handled dyed Merino before now. I lovingly call this wool my 'poofs', because once they were washed and brushed out they became just like little cotton balls!

And it is SO soft! The seller offers this wool in 1lb and 5lb amounts, and I'm really tempted to order 5lbs from them.

And finally, the fleece de résistance:

A WHOLE FUCKIN' FLEECE, BABY

This fleece is from a Shetland sheep named Lotus! I got it from the same person I bought the last Shetland from, since I liked the type. Lotus' fleece is a lot more uniform, without the coarser hairs that were in Hamon's.

I wanted to try washing these without separating the locks, to see if it made much of a difference (and also it was late at night), but i did still divide up the Shetland some, as there were matted sections around the neck. Tearing the fleece into locks made it much easier to find those matted parts.

After experiencing the ordeal of being soup and then drying for a while...

All clean!! 8D

I've been steadily working through the combing process for these, while also fending off the desire to order yet MORE wool. I think I wanna try a fine Shetland next, and see how soft superfine Merino really is.

(if you've worked with beads or yarn, you know the feeling. yes i have plenty but i don't have THAT one)

But until then, I have plenty to keep me occupied. I've been spinning up some to dye in yarn form, and also getting some ready to be dyed as locks-- with actual professional acid dyes this time >8D

[the-prophesied-disco-gay]

So I have this thing I wanna do that's been kickin around my head for a while, but I'm not sure how to go about it.

I want to make a "usable trash" depot in my area. This would involve a warehouse type building along with a fenced outdoor area where people can bring or send stuff that would normally go to the landfill but is still usable for *someone* and folks can come look through it and take what they want/need. Volunteers would sort it into sections (plastics, wood, metal, glass and ceramic, fabric/thread/yarn, electronics, etc) to make it easy to find what you are looking for (because people won't use it if it's too much of a pain in the ass).

I've repurposed broken tile, construction scrap, tiny bits of scrap fabric, all kinds of stuff. Whether for art, utilitarian purposes, or both, these are things being used rather than wasted. That's the goal, that possibility made easily available.

Acquiring volunteers and getting the word out, that I have a handle on. Organizing the setup and the management part I know how to wrangle.

Here's what I don't know how to accomplish:

This would have to be a charity type setup. I don't know how to get funding for the building and the land, nor ongoing expenses like utilities.

Finding out what types of licensing/permitting/insurance would be required

Registering the charity and handling taxes properly.

If anyone has some links or advice for me it would be so appreciated. I'm in the US so info would need to be applicable to US laws.

Also if anyone wants to implement this idea on their own in their area, no objection from me and no credit or anything needed. For all I know this exists in every state but mine lol. I just don't know what terms I would search to find out. TIA!

[rex101111]

So as the resident Anbai enjoyer I wanna know your thoughts, what are your feelings toward Anji/Asuka? Any particular reason you feel the way you do?

I made a couple posts about the dynamic between those two a while back, but I'll give a quick refresh:

Toxic yaoi, absolutely caustic. Thier relationship started because both of them wanted to take advantage of eachother. Both of them knew this, but never said so.

Both of them found eachother during a period of their lives where they were both at rock bottom, morality wise, each desperate to achieve thier goals no matter what.

Anji is the only one who worked for Asuka who turned away. Who left, turned on him with no repercussions. Anji looked over the devil's shoulder and learned his secrets. Asuka can't touch him.

Until he needed to. Asuka walked back into Anji's life and tore it apart in a minute. Anji learned the devil's secrets, and Asuka in turn is probably the only person alive who KNOWS Anji, in ways not even Baiken knows. And to a professional liar and trickster like Anji, that's the same as living with a knife ready to cut your throat at any second.

They both know each other intimately, and not in the fun way. In the "i know where the gaps in your armor are" way. In the "i know how to poison your food" way. " In the "one sentence from me will tug apart your life like loose yarn so don't you DARE fuck with me" way.

I don't ship it, but I find it interesting in the same way Anbai does, the way it shows a side of Anji he usually hides.

With Baiken, she cuts through his bullshit and makes him honest.

With Asuka, he sinks to his level in the mud and makes him angry.

[fizzyangel]

crochet for littles 💚

do you crochet? well so do i! and i have a really hard time focusing when i regress and wanna crochet and i feel overwhelmed by all my big projects

lemme introduce to you! mini skeins and scrap yarn!

all my big skeins feel super overwhelming and i feel like i have to do a big project when i just wanna be in my own world watching my little pony or paw patrol. or gravity falls. so i have small and instantly gratifying patterns for you! instantly gratifying meaning that the end result is pretty quick but if you wanna make sweaters/blankets/etc, well, that may take a while but in this post im focusing on just the components for that and other mini skeins ideas

«1» classic granny squares

i know, i know, boring and unoriginal. but i made a granny square bad recently and you can just do a few rounds(i like doing 3-4 when im small) and you can make so many! now angel, you may be asking, what would i do with a kajillion small granny squares? you can put them together for scarves, blankets, sweaters, bags, anything! if you don't want a blanket then there's a great nonprofit called project linus that gives handmade blankets to traumatized children that need extra love and care 💚

«2» solid granny squares

same reasons and ideas as above! if you don't like the look of a classic but still like granny squares, I got you

«3» 15x15 single crochet squares

for the little ones who don't like granny squares but like the vibe of a patchwork project. or just for funsies. i like making a lot of coasters like these

«4» pencil pouch

woo! one that's super functional! the one i made was a pattern by mahum(i think it was called a pouch. the thumbnail has a strawberry checker pouch). it holds all my crochet hooks and it worked up fairly quickly

that's all i can think of right now! thanks for reading! also, feel free to send asks or dms and chat! i like talking 💚

dividers by @kodaswrld

[field-o-dandelions]

Wii/3DS/Wii U Era Games that make me go absolutely FERAL

i don't know why exactly, but i've been hit by a sudden rush of nostalgia a few minutes ago. so below the cut is my unhinged rambling + lore about a bunch of nintendo games

Wii

the wii was the first console i ever owned, so it's only natural it goes first

Where it all began: New Super Mario Bros. Wii

my first game ever, which had quite the significant impact on my life. this game is how i watched my first ever playthrough, mostly because i missed a star coin. an important thing to establish for later entries in the list is that i used to watch playthroughs while or before playing games, which is how i never got to upset with games with cryptic design philosophies.

but yeah, what's not there to love about this game? the overworld maps are a highlight for me.

i really love most of the wii games on an aethetic level, not to mention the nostalgia factor.

also, i can not recommend mayro's series on nightmare mario wii enough, a stupid hack which makes this game needlessly and hilariously tedious

A New Space: Super Mario Galaxy

this game is just great! the vibes are absolutely immaculate, lots of desolate areas everywhere, the movement is fun, especially with the ability to spin in midair, there's great music, an emotional backstory and so much more. honestly, i just wanna present one of my favourite galaxies from this game

freezeflame galaxy! honestly, as overused as it is, nothing beats a good hot-and-cold level. this place is especially gorgeous with its ice mountain and lava stars.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA: Super Mario Galaxy 2

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THIS IS THE PERFECT SEQUEL I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU LOOK YOSHI IS IN THIS GAME NOW THAT'S SO COOL THE GREEN STARS ARE SO FUN TOO AND THE OVERWORLD AND AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

EVERYTHING IN THIS GAME IS SO PRETTY IM GOING INSANE SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE-

Least Controversial Series Ever: Super Paper Mario

modern paper mario fans are willing to throw each other under the bus for their game to come out on top but I DON'T CARE. she's an icon. no one did it like her. weird puzzle platformer with rpg mechanics about the end of every possible universe because an interracial couple got hatecrimed and every partner in the game is a weird fairy creature.

also there's a random parody of weebs in the middle of it i could only find low res pictures of. because fuck you, that's why. but there's also that gameshow in the public restroom, luigi being brainwashed for like 90% of the game, that point were the game has you type out "please" five times, and also LISTEN TO THE SOUNDTRACK RIGHT NOW OR I SWEAR TO HELL I WILL-

A Different Type of Texture Issue: Kirby's Epic Yarn

this game is very different from other kirby games, but charming nontheless! the fabric and yarn aesthetic works absolutely beautifully for the entire cutesy vibe of kirby, not to mention the fun gameplay, which is a bit more controlled and not as chaotic due to kirby not having copy abilities.

also the way levels are unlocked is just so cool! after completing a level you get a patch that you can place in the overworld for something to happen. for example, here kirby uses the alarm clock to awaken the bear and create a new hill to walk on. i absolutely ADORE these little cutscenes!

3DS

the nintendo 3ds is the next cronologically and is my favourite handheld probably ever. no wonder i have a lot to talk about!

first of all, let's get something out of the way: most of these games i've played during a time where i was... questionably good at games. playformers were really easy, but my stupid little 9 year old brain couldn't be bothered to understand how rpgs were even meant to work. so i have no idea how i managed to achieve anything in those games on this list, but regardless-

Blocky Paradise: Super Mario 3D Land

god, this game. even the title screen fills me with childlike whimsy, with mario running around an obstacle course to show off all of the games features. but yeah, where to begin?

this game is HUGE, first of all. there's 16 total worlds in addition to a final really difficult level. and once again, the level themes for this game are just immaculate.

most of these levels are just so weird and out-there, and i wouldn't have it any other way.

Please help me I've been here for over an hour already: Zelda - A Link Between Worlds

pretty sure this one was my first zelda game too - and once again, my first one didn't follow the typical formula. a big change in this game is that items have to be bought outside of dungeons, as opposed to finding them inside. still, this didn't bother me at all. i was moreso absolutely shocked at the plot of the game.

eleven year old me was not prepared to find out that hilda was a traitor the whole time while in the car on a parking lot infront of a clothes store. and her being betrayed right after? i was SHOOK.

also the art is great, as per usual.

Part 2

[stormimur]

i wanna talk and ramble about the crochet scene from days gone by and i aint waiting for someone to ask me about it to trigger the nonsense

I LOVE the idea of Moon having a creationist hobby a lot...I feel like we as the dca fandom always assume and assign Sun as the more creative one out of the two for obvious reasons, so the idea that Moon not only finds a hobby first, but ends up with numerous ones tickles me. crochet requires a lot of patience, acceptance of needing to redo all your hard work because you missed a stitch, and its so satisfying when you finally get done with something. it's everything Moon typically isn't!! Moon is impulsive and impatient! Moon does not like change!

the way i write kvei and moon's little crochet nights is always so nice to me too...not only for the routine (kvei for retracking in life, moon because moon just needs one to feel safer, more secure, and to get anything done), but because they end up talking a lot. another thing moon doesnt do a lot of! the rest of the story showcases moon as closed off, blunt, and kinda socially daft for a long while. yet the yarn compels them to blabber. i like it because for me, the way I intended for it to be seen, its a showcase of feeling comfortable and content. its not something obvious to kvei in spite of their time with the two nerds, but to me it is. the subtle signs that in spite of everything, sun and moon still find comfort and a reprieve in their tiny friend.

it makes me hehe when i write the angsty parts. you tiny lesbian. look at you being so stereotypically inept. yes, they like you. yes, they are flirting with you. a lot of human bonding is nonverbal action, things sun and moon have picked up subconsciously from decades of being near people

also also it does make me reflect as i write rn on how this fic is definitely a slow burn, but isnt like the... "oh we gotta get to know each other" type, more the slow pining type. comfortable with what it is that you feel, but discretely eager for more while not knowing what exactly it is that you yearn for. sun and moon discover it first, significantly before kvei will (self sabotage is a bad habit that when ingrained young, becomes so second nature that you never notice its presence) and will spend a STUPID amount of time gently brushing out in the void to find where the boundaries, if any, are. where the lines lay. what you respond to. what they need to do to communicate certain things to you when words are just not enough. the actions they explicitly choose to do, even if they don't feel like you feel. two different ways of experiencing emotions, yet when you do it together, it's addicting.

kinda why i always mentally argue that exploring more nsfw aspects of s/m are inherently FASCINATING and why I anguish that I rarely see people really explore it. if they do, its so brief and easily waived/explained away. i dont like that!! I really dislike the idea that S/M learned sexual attraction. i am so firm in the camp that they don't and can't experience sexual attraction due to how hormone based it is vs romance is so emotion based. that isnt a deterrent though. its forcing a different, less explored path that as an aroace person I REALLY wish I saw more representation of!! I HATE HATE HATE the "oh im aro/ace/etc, i dont find romance/sex appealing. yucky, icky!" rep. its important and it should exist, but its all we get when aromantism and asexuality are fascinating. they inherently change how we approach, react, and feel about a very, very deeply important part of human connection and the human experience. isnt that massive? isn't that worth discussion?

to boil it down to a simple, lukewarm "im not interested" in a character is such a lazy attempt at representation and i dont like settling for it. so i aint. my content is for me and i write and draw what I wish I saw more of because I know nobody else will if we all play the waiting game. the engagement or lack of engagement in these aspects of life does not negate how you feel.

[raspberryconverse]

(gif by @peaceoutofthepieces, because Tumblr's gif search sucks)

Beau #7 Boyfriend #1 came over last night, straight from the airport after flying home from a business trip. I had dinner ready for him. We ate and talked.

So, because of his STI, I've been running into some problems with my other relationships. Both The Tree and Moxi's husband have huge concerns about it. The really frustrating part is that transmission of this STI is damn near impossible between women. There is only one documented case. Still, he doesn't want us having sex (and I'm not even sure what that entails, TBH) and I don't like it. I feel like someone else is dictating what I can and can't do in my relationship with someone else. As for The Tree, I haven't heard from him since I told him (well, he responded when I was having a panic attack during my move, but that was it).

Boyfriend #1 feels terrible that he's caused these problems in my other relationships. I told him that he's worth it. Some of it is definitely NRE, but there's something about the way we connect that I haven't felt in a long time. He's incredibly affectionate, which is something I always missed in my marriage. And the sex is next level amazing! Like seriously, this is the best sex I've ever had.

He's someone I can see weekly. His apartment is just 15 minutes from my new house (12 minute bike ride 🚴‍♀️). Basically, Tuesday-Thursday he stays at his apartment. Monday and Friday are his days alone with the kids and weekends are family time with his wife. So he's able to get together with me during his apartment days and it's really lovely.

Honestly, I think I'm in love

I only see Moxi about once a month because she's busy with her kids and other things. The Tree and I were never actually dating, as much as it felt like it sometimes. I really wanted to be his girlfriend, but he wasn't in a place to do that emotionally. And every time I try to talk to him about his breakup that's the issue (his ex is still living in their shared apartment while he lives with his sister and BIL), he shuts down. So even before Boyfriend #1 was in the picture, I wasn't sure when he'd be ready for a real relationship. And now that he's gone radio silent, I think the answer is pretty clear.

So yes, I'm sacrificing quite a bit to have him as my boyfriend, but this is the kind of relationship I've been looking for since my ex and I opened our marriage. It's what we were lacking and it feels really good to have it now.

I miss The Tree and I'm mad because I made a cross stitch thing for him

and I'm working on a hat that I bought really soft alpaca yarn when I was in Denver just to make it for his bald head. I might still give them to him, if he agrees to see me again.

Losing him really sucks because he was one of the most supportive people throughout my divorce. But he doesn't seem to be able to give me the kind of relationship I desire from him. So I'd rather let him go and continue to build this relationship with Boyfriend #1 than hang onto something that might not ever come to fruition.

But anyway, Boyfriend #1 spent the night last night. We had fantastic morning sex (6 orgasms! 😯) and in the post sex "I don't wanna leave this bed but stupid capitalism is making me," I asked him what he thought about labels.

"I'm still new to all of this [poly relationships]. You mean like 'girlfriend?'"

I nodded and he said he liked that. So, I have a boyfriend! And a girlfriend! And a lovely FWB (FWB #2) who truly is a friend. Oh, and I hooked up with the hottie who runs the local poly group (Boyfriend #1 were actually talking about how hot we think she is). So there might be something brewing with this Lady #3 as well, though she also doesn't have a ton of 1 on 1 time to offer me.

I feel like I'm settling into something nice with my poly life. And now with the stress of the divorce and home buying and selling over, I've closed that chapter and am starting a new one. I mean, I was saying before my birthday that I was turning 40 and starting over. And it seems to be pretty great so far.

I haven't been this happy in a long time.

[srovtl]

TRANSLATION MASTERLIST

A few notes:

I allow taking screenshots of my translations. and using them in quote bots.

For contacting me, my ask box and messages are open, and I am on Twitter as (@/srov_srov)

I accept translation requests but only for the south and only if you can provide the raws.

For corrections i am okay if you told me about the big ones (like a whole sentence repeated or missing) or asking for clarification on stuff that you straight up don't understand, but if it was a just little cluncky, avert your eyes.

A tip: If you're new to mhyk and don't know where to find other translations, there are two masterlists, one from the start of the game to 2022, and the other from 2022 to now.

EVENTS

A Melody Of Serata On A Night Of Requiems from Chapter 4 to 10

Offering A Prayer to the Wandering God Event

MHYK x Aunt Stella Cookies Collaboration Short Story

Etude of Frog Sheltering From the Drizzling Rain Event Owen Parts

Obbligato of Soot-Coated Bravery Event

CARDS

Oz 💛

(Protection illuminating The Cave) Oz SSR Card

(Thwarting Monstrosities) Oz R Card

(Brewing Perilous Experiments?) Oz R Card

(Pacifying the Raging Lands) Oz SR Card

Arthur 💛

(Wandering Statues be Silenced) Arthur SSR Card

Riquet 💛

(Welcome Guests) Riquet SSR Card Episode

(On High Alert) Riquet R Card

(Curious Encounters in the Air) Riquet R Card

(A pic to Commemorate the New Work) Riquet R Card

Mithra 💜

(Spectral Speck on the Cheek) Mithra R Card

(I will open it) Mithra R Card

(Yarn decoration) Mithra SR Card

Owen 💜

(What’s With This Get-Up?) Owen R Card

Faust 💙

(Verifying the Right Measurements) Faust R Card

(Avert your Eyes from the Truth) Faust SR Card

(Polish With Care) Faust R Card

(in here, a magic that connects hearts) Faust SSR Card

(Bewilderment Sweeps Between Your Fingertips) Faust SR Card

Shino 💙

(Rumors of the Blacksmith’s Town) Shino SR Card

(A Friend I Can Be Proud Of) Shino SSR Card Episode

(Make sure to stretch) Shino R Card

(You Call that Adorable?) Shino SR Card

Heathcliff 💙

(Catching Falling Stars) Heathcliff SR Card

(The Day Time Stopped) Heathcliff SR Card

(Sweet, Invigorating Bite) Heathcliff R Card

(Disobedient Garland) Heathcliff R Card

Nero 💙

(A Light Garnish On The Salva) Nero R Card

(Wanna Test Ya Brawn?) Nero R Card

(Embrace God’s Fragrance) Nero SSR Card

(For Ya, Sage) Nero R Card

Shylock ❤️

(Beginnings of a Foolish Burdensome Love) Shylock SSR Card Episode

(Lilac Smoke’s Delicate Lit) Shylock SR Card

Murr ❤️

(Here’s the Perpetuity Ring!) Murr R Card

(Shimmering Prying Jades) Murr SSR Card

(Generous Mouthful of Cream) Murr R Card

(Strike a Pose!) Murr R Card

(Exciting Gifts) Murr SSR Card

Figaro 💚

(the joy after eating) Figaro SR Card story - episode

(Wave for the Dancing You) Figaro SSR Card

(Warmth that Flows Through His Hands) Figaro SSR Card

(A Command Echoing Through the Trees) Figaro SR Card

(Now Who Should I Give This To?) Figaro R Card

(Judgment on the blasphemous) Figaro SSR Card

(in here, a magic that connect hearts) Figaro SSR Card

(The Banquet’s Last Moments With You) Figaro SSR Card

(As a Casual Gesture) Figaro SR Card

(Tea Etiquette Lecture) Figaro SR Card

(Lower-back Protection) Figaro R Card

(A Smile that Commands My Vision) Figaro SSR Card

(Overflowing Cynicism) Figaro SR Card

(While brushing off the dripping dew) Figaro SR Card

Rutile 💚

(Now You’ve Done It!) Rutile R Card 

(Gentle Memories Sheltered by the Peafowl) Rutile SR Card

(Kindness Is Hot and Bitter) Rutile SR Card

(Stitching a Fluttering Thread) Rutile R Card

(Sealing Curse Wrapping) Rutile R Card

(in here, a magic that connect hearts) Rutile SSR Card

(Hand in Hand With Little You) Rutile SR Card

(The Feelings In My Heart) Rutile SR Card

(Ta-da! Look at What I Bought!) Rutile R Card

Lennox 💚

(A double serious face and a sweet cake) Lennox R Card

(in here, a magic that connect hearts) Lennox SSR Card

(Working a Refreshing Sweat) Lennox SSR Card

(A Considerate Kindness) Lennox SR Card

(Bite-sized Variation Gap…) Lennox SR Card

(Pondering a little) Lennox R Card

Mitile 💚

(Strange Footsteps Approaching) Mitile SR Card

(in here, a magic that connect hearts) Mitile SSR Card

(Study Time) Mitile SSR Card

(An Introduction to an Exciting Survival) Mitile SR Card

(Unstoppable Magicks) Mitile R Card

LOGIN STORIES

Flor of the Crybaby Bunny and Hat - Login Story (1)

A Spell For You On This Starlit Night - Login story (2)

CHARACTER EPISODE

Faust Character Episode - Master and servant