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Read Chapter 19 here!

Chica remembers Bonnie. She remembers his easy laugh and playful eyes. She remembers the hole torn right through the band, sky blue replaced by lime green on Management’s orders. She knows that Bonnie is gone. And yet, Bonnie is right here. Also, Vanny finds out that she’s in a horror game.

Originally sketched as the cover for chapter 17, I decided it worked a LOT better for 19. This is I think the third time I've ever drawn Freddy XD

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I am so glad Ruin finally got his own tag a while back, but you gotta admit it's a LITTLE funny

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Current temperature in my office rn 8'D Surely the best time to be attempting to draw, right?

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Chica remembers Bonnie. She remembers his easy laugh and playful eyes. She remembers the hole torn right through the band, sky blue replaced by lime green on Management's orders. She knows that Bonnie is gone. And yet, Bonnie is right here. Also, Vanny finds out that she's in a horror game.

HEY GUESS WHO AIN'T DEAD?

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it's so funny to me that Eclipse and Ruin are my absolute favorite characters of TSAMS, and yet I didn't like either of them when they first appeared.

Eclipse's theatrics and confidence annoyed me. During the takeover arc I think Lunar was the more interesting one to me, mostly because he was a little cunt towards Sun.

(I've always loved Sun, by the way. Him dragging Lunar to Golden Freddy's to get Moon back while vehemently denying that he has anything in common with Eclipse lives rent free in my head. It's SUCH a good illustration of how Sun sees himself and what Eclipse represents to him, stuff that would come up a lot during his whole 'running into the woods with a sword to kill Eclipse' thing later. Mwah.)

And then Eclipse came back.... as a backup inside of Blood Moon.

And I found that hilarious.

He was terrified of Blood Moon even before his death, and now he's stuck with them! He fucking hates this situation! Everything about this is bad!

And then he creates Kill Code and approaches him to propose working together, and Kill Code brushes him off to talk to Blood Moon instead?

I was enamored. I really thought at the time we'd have a situation where Eclipse would be forced to work for someone else instead of being the one to call the shots, and going from The Boss to A Henchman would grate on him soooooo much. Even once KC fucked off so hard that the former antagonist had to step back up to plate, we had Sun's rampage and Eclipse's nosedive into rock bottom after getting the star. That's what hooked me into this stupid show.

I need my antagonists to be cringefail kings, and Eclipse delivers. He has the character depth of a spoon, you can do nearly anything with him and it'll be IC. I love him so much.

And then there's Ruin. Again, didn't really care about him when he showed up. His whole 'hee hee hoo hoo I'm crazy and evil!' thing didn't appeal to me, and I was honestly surprised that they chose to cure him. At the time I thought they were gonna kill him and adopt Blood Moon, not the other way around, and I suppose RUIN coming out is what changed that trajectory.

I sort of started warming up to him thanks to fanfics that liked to focus on how lonely and ostracized a cured Ruin was, because that shit is tasty, but I wasn't like, THAT interested in him?

And then Eclipse came back and touched him kidnapped him.

Me and @basilbots discussed this whole 'what-if' scenario of Ruin being niceys to Eclipse and befriending him in the like two days before that kidnapping was resolved XD It was that fast.

And then it got cemented with the Thanos snap.

Suddenly, he's not this sweetheart with uncertain motives. Suddenly, we have this individual of unshakeable conviction in acting 'for the greater good', no matter the price. I've got several essays written over the years (jfc it has been years now, huh) breaking down just what about his character is so compelling to me.

And then I tape them together despite the fact that they originally couldn't stand each other, which is also really funny tbh, and throw them into the microwave.

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"augh this chapter is taking ages" I say to myself, knowing damn well that it's a high-emotion chapter with horror elements from an unfamiliar perspective

really it's the balance of pacing and tension that are the hardest part with these o|< I can do action fairly easily, my recent oneshot with Eclipse and Charlie is pretty much just action and I banged that out in like 5 days. the hardest part is, again, pacing (the linebreaks in that fic were added purely to give it some 'breathing room', because it was otherwise feeling cramped)

internal monologues of self pity are also pretty easy. LOVE writing those. just sit there and stew on everything making you miserable for about 2k words

but hhh... chapters like this one I have to build up tension at a pace that feels good, without it breaking too soon or dragging out too long, and also balance multiple characters in the scene. that's HARD

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I wonder if it bugs anyone that I screencap the wordcount in whatever program im in, regardless of if it matches XDD

all things considerd, it's probably a reasonable worry for Vanny

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WAIT AAAAAA HELLO 8DDD

Hey at least you found it again and shared it!!! Gosh I love Moon's thousand yard stare, there is not a single thought in that head right now.

....SO I FOUND SOME OLD PERMISSION SLIP FANART THAT I MADE LITERALLY A YEAR AGO AND THEN NEVER POSTED OR TOOK A PHOTO OF AND THEN FORGOT EXISTS-

uhh hiiiii @thedemonsurfer / @thedemonscrawler this was intended to be for....... basically just chapter 17. especially the end of it but i have no idea what specific part because this was a year ago. (part of why i didn't post it is because, as i wrote in the corner of the page, "fuck my life he's supposed to be in a hoodie") (i think i was planning on redoing this one? but i never finished it.)

i don't know exactly when i made this- i didn't write down a date and i never took a picture of it- but i know it was sometime in june of last year. so! it's probably been over a year! that's fun! whoops!

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honestly like a solid half of the reason that I focus on the Nexus era and earlier for writing with both Ruin and Eclipse is that uh

>>;;; I dont watch EAPS and therefore i have NO clue what's going on over there

like i have SOME clue. but not enough to be confident in writing a lot of characters OR locations. I am constantly scraping by on the bare minimum so i don't have to watch a bunch of eps to learn the personalities of Eclipse's kids for a one-shot

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Her dark eyes widen, and Eclipse feels a tug on his waist ruffles again. “But I know where Ruin is! You have to come with me, he’s really badly hurt. They were going to kill him.” --- In the aftermath of Ruin getting tortured by Jackie, Charlie goes to Eclipse for help. Eclipse does his best to pretend that he doesn't care.

Takes place immediately after "JACKIE ATTACKS RUIN!! in VRChat", which tbh I wasn't expecting to make another response to an episode fic, but apparently I cannot resist Eclipse and Charlie bonding time.

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the TSAMS robots being canonically with metal shells fills me with so much stress because i want to write an injury as being 'cracked' but

sheet metal (what you'd have for an animatronic casing) doesn't crack. it bends, dents, and snaps.

so now I'm torn between writing what i want for the description, and writing what would make sense for the materials

(what have I written for other fics, time to reference myself...)

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THAT I have no idea on XD Because it really could go either way. Since Davis plays both Dark Sun and Ruin, he could have planned it out that far, at least in a sketchy sort of way. Or he and Reed could have decided that there was a lot of fun to be had in sticking Ruin where Nexus could bully him, and Davis only came up with "and then he puts a bomb in Nexus" at a later point, and it fit into what they'd already done.

But however it was planned out, it turned out quite neatly!

God like over half a year later and it takes me plotting out a fanfic to finally realize why Dark Sun grabbed Ruin.

Ruin was insurance.

Okay so, Ruin finds i think what was supposed to be Dark Sun's dimension, goes to investigate and finds a badly damaged Moon. He chooses to put that Moon out of his misery, and in doing so ends up trapped in the same cell.

Or, flip it the other way--

Dark Sun baited a trap with a badly damaged Moon as a test, to see if Ruin was capable of killing a Moon who was "too far gone".

And Ruin passes. Just as Dark Sun hoped.

Because Ruin is who killed Nexus. Not Sun, but Ruin, by planting a bomb in Nexus' chest that went off when Sun used magic on him. And I'm certain a good portion of it was sheer spite (another reason to hand Ruin's leash to the man who hates his guts, to build resentment between them) but Ruin cannot act on purely selfish motives. He has to believe that he's doing some sliver of good with his actions.

And poor Nexus, half-dead from wither addiction anyway? A threat to himself and others, and a threat that would just get worse? Well, killing him would be a mercy, wouldn't it?

So yeah. Sun's choice was even more of a farce than it appeared to be. Nexus was always the one that was chosen to die, by whatever means Dark Sun could engineer.

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God like over half a year later and it takes me plotting out a fanfic to finally realize why Dark Sun grabbed Ruin.

Ruin was insurance.

Okay so, Ruin finds i think what was supposed to be Dark Sun's dimension, goes to investigate and finds a badly damaged Moon. He chooses to put that Moon out of his misery, and in doing so ends up trapped in the same cell.

Or, flip it the other way--

Dark Sun baited a trap with a badly damaged Moon as a test, to see if Ruin was capable of killing a Moon who was "too far gone".

And Ruin passes. Just as Dark Sun hoped.

Because Ruin is who killed Nexus. Not Sun, but Ruin, by planting a bomb in Nexus' chest that went off when Sun used magic on him. And I'm certain a good portion of it was sheer spite (another reason to hand Ruin's leash to the man who hates his guts, to build resentment between them) but Ruin cannot act on purely selfish motives. He has to believe that he's doing some sliver of good with his actions.

And poor Nexus, half-dead from wither addiction anyway? A threat to himself and others, and a threat that would just get worse? Well, killing him would be a mercy, wouldn't it?

So yeah. Sun's choice was even more of a farce than it appeared to be. Nexus was always the one that was chosen to die, by whatever means Dark Sun could engineer.

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adding to this is that I still want Ruin to be a cunty little bitch that makes Eclipse want to tear his rays out. These feelings exist simultaneously

I just wanna like

Put Ruin in a box

I wanna trap him, you know? Which he's been trapped before, so I really want to put him back in a box

And the frustrating thing about Ruin is that he's unflappable. The logical outcome to being stuck with a collar around his neck for so long is that he's numb to it-- his desperation has long since transformed into irritated determination. Even when Nexus went through his head to be an ass about it, Ruin's reaction was basically "oh FUCK you, you asshole". No matter what is done to him, he's had worse.

so i just kind of want to put him back in a box, and I want him to be miserable about it. I want him to feel miserable and hopeless and trapped. I want him to be unable to trust that anyone will care about his situation, to the point of wondering if it's worth the effort of asking for help

And then I want him rescued and hugged

Yknow just basic stuff

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I just wanna like

Put Ruin in a box

I wanna trap him, you know? Which he's been trapped before, so I really want to put him back in a box

And the frustrating thing about Ruin is that he's unflappable. The logical outcome to being stuck with a collar around his neck for so long is that he's numb to it-- his desperation has long since transformed into irritated determination. Even when Nexus went through his head to be an ass about it, Ruin's reaction was basically "oh FUCK you, you asshole". No matter what is done to him, he's had worse.

so i just kind of want to put him back in a box, and I want him to be miserable about it. I want him to feel miserable and hopeless and trapped. I want him to be unable to trust that anyone will care about his situation, to the point of wondering if it's worth the effort of asking for help

And then I want him rescued and hugged

Yknow just basic stuff

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man you guys have no idea how lucky you are that I'm primarily a oneshot author

because like, yeah waiting on updates for PS is a pain, but most of what i post is complete. you get the whole thing all at once.

meanwhile, I'm the one sitting there reading through my WIPs and going 'damn I hope the author finishes this' T_T

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oh yeah check out this fucking spoon I made 8D