#I do have other diagnosed mental illnesses
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
creature-wizard · 3 days ago
Note
Out of curiosity, I've been looking into the RAMCOA conspiracy theory, and while it's obviously anti-Semitic bunk, I did have a thought - that it could easily become a kind of self-fulfilling prophecy, that someone unethical could (in theory) read the guides and manuals and whatnot and decide to try torturing someone to program them. Has anything like that ever happened, to your knowledge?
First of all, "RAMCOA" is not a conspiracy theory in itself, strictly speaking. "RAMCOA" is an acronym created to cover a broad spectrum of abuses, many of which actually do exist. It was just also created to include the types of tortures that the instigators and perpetrators of the Satanic Panic claimed existed.
If you specifically mean the DID programming conspiracy theory, you should just say that.
So, and I want to make this very clear, there are no DID programming guides or manuals. None. Zero. Not a single one. All of the literature describing these alleged programming methods are written by conspiracy theorists, and they're all way too vague to constitute anything remotely resembling a real programming guide or manual. They are by and large witchfinders' manuals, meant to convince the reader that all of this horrible stuff is really happening, and here are the Totally Real Signs Of It That Aren't Actually Signs Of Anything Else At All.
Is theoretically possible that someone might give it their best shot anyway? Sure. But it would take quite a lot of effort. The kinds of tortures and programming methods these books claim happen would take a fair amount of work to prepare and carry out. These books claim that DID programming involves a lot of elaborate rituals that use a lot of tools and props, plus individualized scripts for each alter/part/internal structure the victim is supposed to be programmed with.
Someone would need to collect all the necessary tools and props, come up with all of the rituals and scripts themself, and then inflict it on their victim. And then in the end, it wouldn't work any better than any other form of indoctrination or conditioning. (If anything it would actually be worse, because torturing someone into a state of dissociation would make it a lot harder for them to actually retain information and learn skills.)
Given that it wouldn't actually deliver the kind of results conspiracy theory literature claims is possible, it's difficult to imagine there would be many people who'd keep up with it for long.
But I also think it's not really all that likely that someone would try it in the first place. If somebody just wants to control someone else, all of the more typical methods usually work just fine.
Also - and this is something I think a lot of people overlook - the myth of DID programming is itself a tool of mind control. We have seen it used numerous times to manipulate others into adopting certain beliefs, and believing that they could only trust certain people. Mark Phillips, Fritz Springmeier, Teal Swan, Unwelcome Ozian - the list goes on.
The thing about the DID programming myth is that the diagnostic criteria are so broad and vague that you can diagnose just about any traumatized or mentally ill person you want with programmed DID, and it's completely unfalsifiable. It's much easier for a manipulative and controlling person to play the whole thing straight and convince others that they're victims of TBMC and need their help to heal and free themselves, than it is to try and reenact the alleged programming methods. It is, after all, the old "you're in danger from an unfalsifiable threat and only I can save you" con that works on countless people every day.
For anyone who isn't aware: RAMCOA, which stands for "Ritual Abuse, Mind Control, & Organized Abuse" is not an innocent catch-all term for religious abuse, institutional abuse, sex trafficking, etc. It was coined by conspiracy theorists to try and make far right conspiracy theories sound respectable within legitimate psychiatry. For more information, see this post.
20 notes · View notes
artinvain · 6 months ago
Text
guys, gen? I think I’m autistic ??? I can’t understand anything anyone says or does. like I have to know why all the time. my favourite word as a child was why because I don’t understand what the fuck is going on like 92 percent of the time. like is it just me or do people not explain things properly? so many euphemisms and skipped details that I’m…. just …. supposed to know???? like jokes aren’t funny to me, I don’t understand them because it’s very different to something that’s actually funny - like a situation or satire or banter (sometimes I don’t catch banter though).
also why is everyone always asking if I’m okay??? this is just my face. my brows are usually slightly furrowed and my mouth always points downward so I’m like? am I supposed to smile all the time????????
also whyyyy why am I so obsessed with things, I love certain shows and will watch them over and over until I’m downright mad with it and ready to spend hours editing? I think my life hyperfixation is writing?
and everything is SO LOUD! and everyone is always touching me and I can feel the socks on my toes and my toes in the divets of my shoes? apparently that’s not normal???
why IS everyone always touching me, I like hugs and stuff but I can feel them very deeply like I can feel the way someone’s touch is making my clothes move if it’s too light. but I hate tight clothes I’d rather d!e.
not only can I see through my glasses I can also SEE MY GLASSES. I can see when they’re dirty, I can see their frame around my eyes and it’s a very conscious feeling sometimes that makes my brain feel funny.
and I can’t just cry? I must have a full blown panic, retreat into myself and attack myself and every minor inconvenience in that state will send me into further shock!!!!!!
and I AM SOOOO SENSITIVE, everything smells funny and mushrooms are too slimy.
someone explain, please.
I definitely would have qualified for electro-shock therapy or a lobotomy and became a boozy housewife 👍🏽
6 notes · View notes
caligvlasaqvarivm · 4 months ago
Note
wanna ask how you feel about the eridan bpd headcanon/theory(?? not sure what to call it!) you're so good at your character analysis and i'd love to see your outlook on it
Since I don't have a degree or any formal training in psychology, I feel deeply uncomfortable diagnosing characters. I've made an autism joke before but only because I'm on the spectrum. He's definitely traumatized and anxious, but I mean those as descriptors of his behavior rather than capital-D Diagnoses. I try to focus on those when I can - the cause and effect of cognition, self-image, and behavior - and those factors may very well match up with DSM criteria, but I try not to touch an actual diagnosis with a ten foot pole unless the author has explicitly stated that X character has Y condition.
#there's a variety of reasons for this#part of it is that im GROSSLY unqualified to be handing out diagnoses when it takes a full on PhD to do that in real life#part of it is that psychology is inchoate and we are still very much in murky waters#for example: complex ptsd isn't even IN the DSM yet#and iirc my therapist told me it was because theyre still figuring out how to classify it (attachment disorder? trauma disorder? etc.)#part of it is that (from my limited and undereducated understanding) there are diagnoses that you can assign by completing a checklist...#but some that require a hell of a lot more testing and ruling out other potential causes#and the cluster-b personalities are (IIRC) not even ones you're supposed to diagnose minors with#bc of fears of self fulfilling prophecy and because minors in general are still developing personalities In General#and like the fact that i can't say that with authority speaks to how unqualified i am to do any diagnosing right? hahaha#and part of it is just because like#unless the story is specifically About That and the author has stated so explicitly#i think diagnosing characters tends to put blinders on analysis#like if i were to seriously go 'eridan is autistic' then it would massively bias my reading and understanding of his character#and we have 0 indication that eridan was ever explicitly intended to be autistic or that the author was trying to do an autism specifically#that doesn't mean that the reading is invalid because like thats what death of the author means#all readings are technically valid including stuff the author didn't necessarily intend#but that's just not the way i like to engage with media and not the way i like to approach character analysis#because PERSONALLY it just feels kind of reductive - but also -#i'd wager MOST of us don't have degrees in psychology#so when i say 'X character has Y condition' it might mean something totally different to somebody reading my analysis#even people who have Y condition aren't exempt because a lot of mental illnesses differ from person to person#whereas if i explain “X character has Y thoughts and Z behaviors” there's no ambiguity in that#eridan struggles with noticing that people are suffering and with realizing that he should care#at least part of this is due to his horrific murder-filled upbringing which rendered empathy a detriment & so he learned to ignore it#it could be autism - but it could also be trauma -#or he might just be Like That without actually meeting the diagnostic criteria for autism#& you can't even technically be diagnosed with C-PTSD#or maybe he has a burgeoning personality disorder but you aren't supposed to DX those too early anyway#or maybe hes just 13. see what i mean hahaha. ive reached the 30 tag limit
27 notes · View notes
robinsnest2111 · 7 months ago
Text
sorry for disappearing. I promised I wouldn't do that again but it's always the thing I fall back on in desperate times. idk how to stop doing that
I'm just so tired and in pain, I wanna lay down and cry and never get back up again
16 notes · View notes
philsmeatylegss · 8 months ago
Text
It’s really rude how my computer has gained sentience and is purposefully making sure it changes my correct answers into wrongly spelled answers on my knowt.io flash cards because it definitely isn’t that I am just incredibly frustrated and have really low self esteem so continuous failure makes me split into a situation where I am the victim and right now I am absolutely a victim of my sentient computer who knows what it is doing is wrong and they just want to hurt my feelings and it’s fucking working and I’m very sure punching and slapping my laptop that probably costs a grand will surely remedy the situation and I am behaving completely normal right now I am very rational in dealing with this situation thank you
7 notes · View notes
mars-ipan · 1 month ago
Text
i have a check-up tomorrow morning and did the little depression screening thing online just now so it could be done. erm
5 notes · View notes
opens-up-4-nobody · 11 months ago
Text
God. One of my little sisters is such a bitch. She's done me some genuine damage in exacerbating my already social bad anxiety. But when I have dreams where she's been hurt or killed, it's so horrible bc she's still my lil sister :-(
#its bc last night my dad had a dream she was in a car wreck. he transferred that anxiety onto me#shes such a bitch tho.just like intolerant of things she doesnt understand. and she does not understand my unwell brain#i think she likes my youngest sistsr best now. which fair bc i do too but we used to be besties. we used to explore in the woods together#and play ellos and barbies and legos and poly pockets and magnets. and now we never text eachother. its sorta sad#its not just me tho. my youngest sister and i have a 4 year gap so we weren't really interacting much when were were little bc she was too#bby to me but shes such a genuinely lovely person now. shes a special ed and preschool teacher. i asked her mom how she ended up with both#of my sisters bc my middle sister is the most like entitled person i kno. like my parents r very generous and she doesnt think for a moment#about not accepthing things from them. she thinks shes owed that amd more. its so strange#and my mom was like. thank goodness i got the youngest bc otherwise id think something was wrong with me#im prob somewhere in the middle of them. my brain is just more fucked up so like im greatful but im struggling. theres not a ton of like#really obvious mental illness in my family tho. just here and there someone should b diagnosed and get a bit of help. my uncle is the only#other one who could possibly be bipo1ar but hes also got a lot of problems: severe adhd and possibly b0rderline. so it could just b that but#my dad says when u talk to him sometimes things just doent make sense bc hes had convos in his head wuth you so he thinks u kno already#idk. its interesting tho#unrelated
8 notes · View notes
torchickentacos · 2 years ago
Text
hot take but I think that those youtubers who 'expose' alleged mental illness or medical condition fakers are doing more harm for the rhetoric surrounding mental illness-and the people who really have it-than the people supposedly faking it to begin with.
#i mean neither are good but like#what they do is set a precedent of doubt whenever someone makes (mental) illness claims#it sets a precedent of finding and uncovering people who fake it and is just very bad imo.#inevitably i think this makes life ahrder for people who experience these conditions#especially for those who myabe have it but don't check off every symptom#and have to worry about maybe being seen as a faker since they don't have the msot extreme or visible case#idk. just rambling#worth noting this usually goes for things i do not have so i cannot in detail give opinions on specific diagnoses that this trend applies t#to*#however i do stand by this opinion as of right now#at worst. fakers spread misinformation and monetize/benefit from mental illness they do not have#at worst the people who expose this set a societal and online culture revolving around finding out who's REALLY got things#and who REALLY experiences it#which just. is icky. you aren't entitled to knowing anything about anyone's medical history.#plus imo if someone goes out of their way to fake something for attention then. there's probably a mentally ill brain doing it#like ok you don't have whatever you're claiming but like. mentally well people don't fake things like that usually#is this a cold take?????? like if i'm wrong then i AM open to other opinions and i'll change mine#but my initial opinion on this is it icks me out#inabber this is a pointed message. iirc he also made amber heard jokes#which like. i think no matter what side you're on with that#maybe. don't joke about domestic abuse. or alleged abuse if that's your stance on it.#like either way that's just shitty#ANYWAYS.
23 notes · View notes
seventh-district · 1 year ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
it’s finally getting cold enough that i can bring my cardigan collection back into rotation without feeling like i’m gonna melt into a puddle the second i step outside!!!
#Seven.txt#my face#i have rematerialized back out of the void to once again make my once-in-a-blue-moon selfie & life update post#i’m running on 4 hours of restless sleep and the single banana i ate for lunch earlier today. let’s do this#hrrrrg i hate the lighting in my bathroom but i refuse to take pictures in the absolute Mental Illness Disaster Zone™️ that is my bedroom#anyways. got diagnosed with Mystery Pain Syndrome at the dentist today. so now i take ✨steroids✨#the less funny explanation is that my tooth still hurts with pressure nearly a month post-root canal and That’s Not Good#so we’re trying some new medications to see if that fixes it. and if not then who knows. root canal pt.2 the sequel. or extraction. sigh#and so the Dental Saga continues. todays visit went quite well in spite of the unforeseen mystery pain delaying the tooth-shaving plans#we had some time to kill so he managed to fill some of my other tiny cavities while i was there today so that’s good#okay moving on. what else. uhh. OH they finally came out and ran the fiber to the house last week!!! now i’m just waiting on one more-#-guy to come and finish the interior install and the long awaited fast internet will finally be mine eheheheheeeee#now i can feel my hours upon hours of unedited gameplay footage breathing down my neck :)#man i’ve got so much stuff piled up right now. i’m drowning in Tasks and it’s a lil overwhelming but i’ll handle it all! eventually#uhhhhm my current writing project is coming along well! i’ve never put so much time and effort into a oneshot before in my life#its a labor of love though and i think i’m gonna be really proud of myself (and the fic) once it’s complete#even if no one reads it bc it’s so goddamn self indulgent and kinda lowkey throws canon out the window but like. fuck it!#if i want Astarion to write a song on piano and perform it for me while mentally taking me on a trip down memory lane. then so be it#fr though i’ve never written anything quite like this and i rlly want to do it justice. even if its unrealistic i still want it to be Good#in other news i received word that one of the chickens i sponsor at my local Gentle Barn has passed away so i had a lil cry abt that#i feel so bad for his little tiny chicken wife. they obviously loved each other and it’s like. so sad when one half of an old couple dies#like. she pulled him out of his depression after his 1st wife died. now who’s gonna be there to pull Her out…#anyways let’s not get all sad about that again. in happier news my cat who i presumed died/got killed has returned home uninjured!!!#after that huge stray dog chased her into the woods i thought we’d never find or see her again#but then the morning after i started grieving her she showed back up hungry as hell yet completely unharmed like the enigma that she is#so that’s one definite highlight from earlier this month. uhh what else. rapid fire summary of the past few weeks let’s go-#Jersey turned 10! Bullet turned 10! my 6 year Veganniversary happened! i’m approaching 700 days on DuoLingo!#i’ve written more than 20 thousand words! i’ve been facing some fears! fighting my OCD! taking care of myself! (kinda!)#anyways things are far from being all sunshine and roses around here but i’m trying to focus on the good stuff for the most part#for now tho i have a headache and have reached 30 tags so it’s time to go shovel some mashed potatoes into my mouth :)
7 notes · View notes
iwatcheditbegin · 7 months ago
Text
Idk as someone who has always struggled with mental health I do have empathy. but at the same time I think it’s okay to be realistic in regards to a relationship and realize that we can’t expect others to handle it. Contrary to social media mental illness isn’t a quirky thing and you can’t help people who don’t want your help.
4 notes · View notes
forgotten-daydreamer · 7 months ago
Text
one day people will stop saying they have bpd just because they get "irrationally angry sometimes", but that day is not today, unfortunately for us all.
4 notes · View notes
danielnelsen · 8 months ago
Text
there’s so much i wanna do this week/month/etc but i’m just too sick, i have no energy, i can’t sleep, i’m constantly nauseous and headachey and on the verge of a migraine, i’m stressed and irritable and impatient and panicky…….how tf did i survive nearly 5 years of high school untreated if i can’t even manage this when i don’t have any major obligations rn
#at least i finally got my meds so hopefully i feel a little better soon#although i’m now on 20 pills per day which is Just Great#whenever i’m in remission it’s nice to just. forget sometimes that this can happen at any time#kinda wish i had the typical kinda chronic illness that people talk about with ‘flares’#or at least triggers that i can plan around#the other times have all had an easily identifiable stressor tho tbf. idk what caused this one#the first time was whooping cough and the next few were all very major life stressors like my cat dying right after i started uni#and i think also towards the end of my honours thesis?#but this…….there’s no major stress right now. nothing wildly beyond normal#i’m a little concerned about my joints tho. they’ve been so much worse than normal the last few months#so i’m kinda worried i’m developing rheumatoid arthritis (also an autoimmune disease and it runs in the family specifically)#so if that’s happening then it could set my thyroid off? probably should get to the doctor at some point#obv i’m seeing my endo for thyroid stuff. but i should see my gp and get her to run all the autoimmune blood tests again#i’ve done that before but it’s been a few years and my ankles and knees are so painful i can’t even walk properly a lot of the time#BUT I JUST WANNA DO THINGS I ENJOY AND I CANT AND I WILL CONTINUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT IT#‘oh you’re so lucky you don’t have as many obligations because you’re chronically ill’ ha ha ha please swap lives with me immediately#personal#but seriously. i wasn’t diagnosed until i was nearly 17 and we can trace it back to whooping cough when i was 12#so it was the last half of year 6 and then all of years 7-10 and the start of year 11 of just being. uh. ‘very lazy and complaining a lot’#and TEACHERS joking about me and my sister (who was dealing with an arguably more severe undiagnosed disease) missing so many classes#wow so funny pdhpe teacher who’s supposed to be teaching is about health#and the thing with being a mentally ill teenager is that hyperthyroidism can just look like a very severe anxiety disorder#so i didn’t go to the dr until i was too sick to go to school at all. and luckily had a good dr who did a blood test#i’m just rambling now because i can’t sleep and i don’t wanna lie here doing nothing#might go play pvz or something. that’s been keeping me entertained
6 notes · View notes
possibly-eli · 10 months ago
Text
i dont understand what about this is so difficult for people to comprehend:
i just kinda want my thoughts on opinions on MY OWN HEALTH to be entertained instead of immediately disregarded
like. im 17. i shouldnt be having back pain so often. i shouldnt be having such severe leg pain. i shouldnt be dealing with such shitty hand joints. but FUCK ME i guess i dont get a say in jack SHIT about my own health!!!!! because what i say means fuck all!!!!! ok man!!!! whatever i guess!!!!!!!
#its shit like THIS that makes me TERRIFIED to bring shit up to my therapist#i cant tell her if i have an idea on what might be wrong with me because shell probably just NOT LISTEN TO ME#because thats what my LAST therapist did#and what my mother CONSTANTLY DOES#FUCK#this is why i have to self-diagnose by the fucking way#not that its any of your goddamn business what we do and why#its because of Trauma and Stigma and the fact we already Have autism so apparently. according to The Law or something#that means i cant be mentally ill in any Other way#so i GUESS ill go Fuck myself and have to deal with only being self-diagnosed with adhd. and atypical depression#and c-ptsd. for the rest of my life#and not get any treatment for anything despite it directly impacting my quality of life#and maybe being connected to my shitty memory issues#but lmaoooo that doesnt matter lol lmao rofl fuck this guy this guy doesnt know what hes talking about#how could any mentally ill person have an idea on whats wrong with them Thats Not How It Works#did i mention that that was a mindset i had btw#i dunno where i picked it up but probably from my parents#“a mentally ill person doesnt know theyre mentally ill” thats the stupidest shit ive heard in my life#also im not going to debate the validity of my mental illness with you#i have npd. that is a fact because of LITERALLY. FUCKING EVERTHING#im just not pursuing a Professional Diagnosis at this time because it wont do anything for me and itll be more trouble than its worth#and if i have my knowledge on That questioned i might Actually kill myself
2 notes · View notes
mars-ipan · 2 years ago
Text
honestly i don’t really think any mental illnesses have been like “destigmatized”- not fully at least. i think the stigma has just changed from demonization to “that’s not a real problem get over it god”
#obviously demonization is more Actively Harmful#but to say things like depression and anxiety have been destigmatized is. incorrect i feel#yes we are not treated like we’re evil. which is for sure an improvement#nobody deserves to be treated like they’re evil#but our illnesses are now being dismissed. ‘oh everyone has that’ not like me#‘you’re just being lazy’ i wish that were true#like. ok hold on let me use an example bc i’m worried abt reading comprehension on this website#(not my followers i trust u guys but i act as if every post i make will get popular)#my brother is autistic. i have GAD.#my brother was diagnosed when he was 2. he’s faced a lot of bullying from both kids and adults and it sucks and he didn’t deserve it#because of all that bullying (especially as a kid) he’s rejecting his autism and focusing really hard on being as ‘normal’ as possible#i was diagnosed last year at 17. i’ve been having these issues my whole life (my mom and i both saw it) but my issues were dismissed#by all the other adults around me (save for family) because i wasn’t visibly struggling and i was doing well in school#it made me doubt my convictions for a long time. what if i’m wrong?#as such i didn’t seek a diagnosis for a long time until my anxiety had gotten to a point where i knew i couldn’t keep ignoring it#now that i have that diagnosis i’m able to wield it as a weapon. my struggles aren’t made up#they’re real. and they always have been. and i can’t just ‘calm down’ like you can. and that needs to be respected#so while i think one is more actively harmful (bullying and harassment lead to self-rejection and loathing)#the other is also harmful- just passively (constantly being dismissed leads to self-doubt and not asking for help)#also why are people angry about the idea of a mental illness being destigmatized?#one group freeing itself from oppression isn’t gonna immediately forget about the groups who helped them get there#if i’m one day able to get perfect accomodations for my anxiety and nobody looks at me like i’m dramatic when i talk about it#i’m not gonna suddenly stop advocating for mental health issues to be normalized#if anything i’ll argue HARDER. you learned to understand me now learn to understand my siblings#learn to understand those with bpd. with psychosis. the sociopaths. the narcissists. the systems#i’m not gonna act like i have it worse than people who are heavily stigmatized. i’m not gonna get attacked for stuttering at mcdonalds#but that doesn’t mean i have /no/ problems and it doesn’t mean i think i’m better than anyone else#i don’t get why people fight each other about this. it’s a good thing so long as we remember where we came from
15 notes · View notes
stinkrascal · 2 years ago
Note
Plz tell me how you got diagnosed with autism? I defiantly have symptoms but don’t want to assume ):
i could sit here and tell you to drop thousands of dollars on a formal assessment or hundreds of dollars each on therapy sessions, but i will tell you a secret instead. u are not harming anyone at all by assuming you have autism without having a formal diagnosis. i promise it isnt as big of a deal as you think it is and anyone who tells you otherwise is uneducated
#jade answers#anonymous#self dx is not harmful in the way people pretend it is#especially when receiving a formal diagnosis can go upwards of thousands of dollars#it's classist to suggest that you're only allowed to relate to symptoms if you pay someone to confirm your suspicions#also people who arent formally diagnosed cant 'steal resources' from those who are formally diagnosed like some suggest#and also also even if people are 'stealing resources' (they arent) thats not how resources work#resources don't disappear because they're being used that's the opposite of how resources function#it's like basic supply and demand you know. and also monetary resources aren't typically given without professional diagnosis anyways#so in that regard self dx individuals can't steal those resources at all. so there's no argument there#also self dx is a great tool in your pathway to actually receiving a diagnosis if that's something you plan to do#or something you can afford to do#relating to symptoms. researching symptoms. then bringing up these symptoms to your doctor. that's all part of the journey#i think people have this weird idea that when u see a doctor they're the ones who have to organically recognize the symptoms within you#but that isn't true. you are allowed to recognize those symptoms within yourself first and bring that up#basically self dx is not a huge deal at all and the people who pretend like it is are generally just uneducated and kinda classist#or honestly just insecure. they're like the people who took out loans for college who don't want college to be free for others#because they're like Well i had to pay for college! so why can't everyone else pay for college?#and i'm not trying to say that to sound rude either. i used to be avidly anti-self dx and it was rooted in my own insecurities#about the legitimacy of my own mental illnesses which i had to fight tooth and nail to receive official confirmation#so yeah. just don't worry about it so much anon i promise it is not as important as people online make it out to be
21 notes · View notes
shaw-kai · 2 years ago
Text
the best thing about having a diagnosed mental illness(es) is people assuming you're always wrong and/or lying because "you're mentally ill" so no one ever takes your opinion on anything, or interrupts you because what's the point of listening to a crazy person
7 notes · View notes