#I can’t believe how small it is

[bellpeppersand-beef]

-“I think we’re gonna have to kill this guy, Jet.” -“Damn.”

[dykedvonte]

Mini rant below and in the tags, the only time I’ll talk about this and my personal take on it.

The way people talk about hypothetical male Anya on Twitter and the idea of how Mouthwashing would play out if the genders were swapped makes me remember how people still don’t take sexual assault and rape with male victims with the same gravity, especially when the perpetrator is female.

[cvsette]

Explained to my 40-something self-described ‘small town girl’ coworker Heather today that I was dumped and she said “men suck.” Patiently explained that the woman I brought to the company Xmas party (“what, her boyfriend dumped her or…?”) was my girlfriend, not ‘girl friend’ (I had been referring to her all this time as such just assuming she understood), and that I had moved here for her. after less than a beat Heather replied, without any sign of being surprised by me being a lesbian despite somehow not understanding this beforehand: “well, women suck!”. Heather you will see the gates of heaven. I wish you the best of luck with your divorce.

[dailycaligura]

Day 39. Practically funny number.

Other daily accs(Pav and Samarie one) doing it so why not, even though it’s not some round number. Thanks for (6)66 followers!! Who are you people, hope you enjoy or whatever.

[joyfuladorable]

Read all the official Peni content… she’s an Absolute Fave now!! 💕💕

[nuppu-nuppu]

Meet Dante <3

[kelpermoosee]

I need to draw Booigi real soon, the lack of them is making me itchy

[goldendiie]

Hi small update. Realizing that the third blink literally only works as cars fanfic (historically speaking) led me to the Golden Topic for my masters thesis. I’m going to argue that counterculture was prominent even in middle America, despite a vast majority of the historiography only bothering to talk about happenings at large universities and in population centers. What about small towns? Non-elite colleges and universities? What about children of blue-collar families?

God damn I can not escape the implications of this fic in my real life.

[tariah23]

Never understood ppl who eat food in the bathroom that’s so unsanitary…

[jesuistrestriste]

Cooking & Cleaning has genuinely become my magnum opus i fear

[livvyofthelake]

well basically like raise your hand if you’ve ever been blocked by a close mutual you though you were actually friends with and not just fandom-mates because you expressed an emotion they didn’t like because apparently they only want to interact with people who watch the same media as them and when you didn’t anymore they stopped talking to you and the media you DID have in common they gave up on once they found something more popular and seeing as that thing happened to be your favorite thing you graciously let them have because you believed you were friends and they would treat it with care and love but they didn’t and it made you feel like they didn’t respect you or like you or think of you as a person but rather as a faceless entity who sometimes could make Posts about tv shows you have in common. despite the fact they know what your face looks like because they’ve seen it because you’ve gotten together on zoom and watched movies together like friends do but that doesn’t mean anything i guess if you try to delicately have a conversation about how you feel because they just immediately dismiss you and start talking to you like you’re coworkers in a polite email chain because you said you didn’t like their tv show. which was a fact they already knew but didn’t take seriously because they were apparently never viewing you as a person! or has that only happened to me.

[twigstarpikachutroll22]

🍁There’s a quiet strength in just existing. It’s easy to overlook, especially when everything feels awful, but simply getting through each day is a huge accomplishment. You might not always see it, but just by being here, you’re adding something uniquely important to the world. It’s not about doing something extraordinary or being the best; it’s about continuing on, even when things are tough. Your presence matters, and it has a positive impact in ways you might not notice, but others do. Give yourself credit for the small victories, the moments when you keep going despite it all. Those moments show just how strong you are, even if it doesn’t feel that way. Hang on to that thought, because it’s a truth worth holding onto as you face whatever comes your way.🍁

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[rosicheeks]

🤦🏽‍♀️

[mutalune]

on one hand I am very glad that ketamine therapy has been helpful for my severe depression and anxiety and ptsd and whatever else is going on up there, and I’m grateful that it’s available to me as part of my treatment plan

on the other hand I’m not a huge fan of the payment for that help being a 50/50 chance every time of having a bad trip that unlocks some deep scary part of my psyche and then having to address all of that in therapy until the next trip

[pepprs]

ok so. today i am going to

fly (and travel at all) by myself for the first time since making the emergency return home from br!ghton bc of c0vid 4 years ago (extremely distressing and scary experience). and fly by myself two weeks after a mixed bag of a conference experience / plane ride home that included a massive scary depressive spiral that i had someone there to help me through as much as they could but it wasn’t enough which was absolutely not their fault but was deeply distressing to me at the time. so im about to be in a very similar environment but this time that person won’t be physically with me and it’s going to wreck my brain in multiple directions in part bc i have not yet recovered from the depressive spiral. i am still in it. lawl <3

ride in an uber by myself for the first time. ride in an uber at all for maybe the 5th time. as a very short young woman. which i have been expressedly warned by my parents not to do. lol <3

check into a hotel by myself for the first time

walk in a big city by myself for the first time (technically slightly untrue bc wjen i was last in ch!cago 5 years ago i did power walk from the hotel to the conference venue (like a block away) on the last day bc i was pissed about a situation but that was like… a block and i saw ppl i knew walking in that area. this time i will be in the same city and know no one at least for today

give myself a self care evening at the recommendation of my therapist…. for the first time. (maybe after i take a walk which i will do specifically when it’s still light out to see what the area is like). tonight no one i know will be in ch!cago yet and i have no plans to do anything. im going to play video games and draw and sing and give myself space and time to just enjoy being by myself and see how it goes

[void-tiger]

I don’t know how to not either mold myself into a shape that makes it easier for others to stay, or let myself slip through a drain discarded instead.