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amerasdreams · 1 year ago

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I still have a ticket from 2021 when my arm was so bad I couldn't travel to the west coast w my family 😞 I haven't gone on a trip vacation since 2019. !

I think the ticket is expiring this month tho. 😢 since I didn't have any money, there was no way I could use the ticket -- just half ticket bc I was going to join my family mid vacation. So i would have to pay the rest. And pay for things there.

I didn't have money bc I lost many clients during covid. Only now have I gotten a bit more business back. Perhaps enough to do something but the ticket is expiring! 😞

Will I ever be able to travel again?

#Ich habe wanderlust #Yeah 2019-2023 was rough #Ahha #Yes the only reason I could travel before was bc my family #Mom #Grandparents #Aunt Patricia to NY and Rome #Travel in midwest nearby. .#But not the same #Need try lots of different interesting things #I can travel around here and do things #But even that is hard #It is hard ro make myself irl.. also I hate driving also its expensive

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 years ago

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Some fantasy traveler inventory details (like what they would carry in their bags), based on two of the recent costumes I did.. love finding random little scraps and items and putting them together lol

#it's obvious who's is who's since they match their outfits HOWEVER.. consider if they were switched lol #evil villain looking man carrying around pressed flowers in a cutesy lacy pouch #fantasy costume #what's in my bag #actualyl that would have been funny to make a video. I should make a video #I'm sure someone else has already done this #but like.. lifestyle vlogger type content however I'm dressed in fully costume as some weird elf or something #pulling things out of my bag and showing them to the camera and talking about how they're useful for whatever #but it's all fantasy scenarios and talking like it's very common #'and of course. i know it's a bit cliche #EVERY traveler has one of these. but you know. theyre just useful! thats why everyone has one!' *pulls out a completely unrecognizable item #thats like some weird fantasy world prop and doesn't even explain it because In-world it's normal and wouldnt need to be talked about*#'room tour' video and it's just like 'yeah I sleep on this mat under a bunch of trees uh.. over here by these rocks. at least right now. I #kind of wander around a bit. so'#Like a clothing haul but it's a potions shop haul or something and they ramble about some obscure drama in the potions community and how the #y hard to barter and steal and entire flock of sheep or something just to get one of them. etc. etc.#I could do ones for different characters too like. multiple people from different walks of life showing what they carry around with them.#just like this but more interview sort of vlog format instead of photos #This is where not having much money and not having my own house with land becomes an issue though #I think it would take you out of the illusion if the background was always the same. I can make small sets because there's one blank wall in #a room that it's easy to move all the stuff away from in front of and clear a spot and like hang up fabrics or whatever but still.. hmms #So one of those 'fun idea but dubious about handling the execution' things. also One Of Those Things where without looking it up you're 100%#sure it's already been done and you don't want to look weird since it's vaguely niche. Like if 100 people have done something it's fine but #if only like 3 other people have then you look weird maybe ghhjbj.. or only one other person gods forbid. looks even weirder potentially #Or do people not care about ''copying'' anymore?? idk. I'm not updated with the internet's changing culture. I just have a fear of accidenta #lly doing something like that and then people getting mad even though it's really just that I competely had no idea it had been done because #again.. I live under a rock and am unaware of everything lol. ANYWAY. also would require my face being on video which I don't like. Though I #would be in costume so that helps. I think to be fully comfortable I'd need light modifications to make my face look different. which isn't #hard but is more effort when it has to be translatable in multiple angles. ANYWAY. ghjbhj... Now I think it would be funny actually. maybe #one day. I haven't made any videos (aside from on the gameplay/sims channel) in a long long time actually. hmm'st

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sulky-cabbage · 2 months ago

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Eve: "Regarding the lyrics, this time its about portraying the conflicts and feelings of the characters in Jujutsu kaisen. This kind of feeling inside me, made me choose the characters one by one and thus write the lyrics. I don't dare to say where or who..."

Also Eve:

Alternative translations: 1 2 3 4

The lyrics hit different after ch 271. I kinda want this to be the op for s4 ngl

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #ryomen sukuna #gojo satoru #sukugo #my post #this is all eve all I did was take a screen shot at the convenient time to further my Sukugo agenda lol #I think the characters this is about are Sukuna Megumi gojo and maaaaybe yuji and yuta #But I think it's mainly about Sukuna's feelings during the shinjuku showdown especially towards gojo #It's art anyone can interpret it the way they want #but “my passion that towards you only cuts through the air like a wish” while showing the prison cube getting cut in half... yeah...#Also “lost emotions”??? Like what? Nervousness? Lmao #Love is when he makes you feel nervous for the first time in a thousand years #“thoughts voice words and lost emotions and love spin and spin towards the chance of victory” I love the use of the word “spin” here #cuz mahoraga's wheel spinning was like a count down for the you know what #I like how it starts with Sukuna's finger box and ends with it note how it has this black sludge thingy around it in the beginning #but in the end it's cleared (watch the video)#“Expectations overlap with regrets” *Shows their hands reaching* o m g????? That other hand is definitely Sukuna's it has black nails!!!#The other hand we see coming out of an eye !!!!!!#“the memory and love to be hidden and the eternal identity till death shall it be fine to keep them staying” While showing the last finger #And that heart cut in half!!!! it's probably about kashimo but kashimo was only created to bring the subtext into text anyways sooo...#That brain is definitely yuta taking over and I'd like to think that broken sphere is yuta's domain barriers that shattered in ch 263 #Expectations overlap with regrets indeed 😏 that being the slowest part of the song is so fucking funny Sukuna's really missing his wife #To me now this song is about Sukuna's unspoken love and regret and preserving this love and memory for as long as his remains exist #Also there's a line in the song about these feelings “riding on the past and future” which is just aghhhh reminds me of Kashimo's question #why mince your soul into cursed objects and watch all those years go by what were you looking for #Sukuna literally time travelled met his love said he will remember him for as long as he lives and died in the same fucking day #only for his remains to stay protecting japan and preserve that memory The body is the soul and the soul is the body yeah?#Also Sukuna is basically tengen now so the six eyes is bound to him 😉 Gojo is the reason Sukuna's memory is preserved and vice versa #kenjaku baby trapped him to do bad things gojo finger trapped him into becoming Japan's protector against curses... Gojo best wife

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simgerale · 8 months ago

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me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake….#I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour.#I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing?#y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day.#but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!!#I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

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lucalicatteart · 1 year ago

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-- Poorly Constructed Enchanted Tool --

A small tool carved from a fruit tree seed. Energy to power the enchantment has seemingly run-out long ago, and the method of recharging is unknown - but, based on the appearance, it's very likely that this was once used for detecting magic. Usually, looking through the glass center would highlight areas of higher magical energy concentration present in the viewer's environment, even if they were otherwise obscured to the naked eye. While this form of enchantment itself is highly advanced, the craftsmanship of the item is far less neat or complex than what might be typically seen in similar devices. It may have been made as part of training/practice, or as a hasty replacement for a previous tool that had broken.

#written from the perspective of some fantasy traveler who checks all of the local thrift-stores and lost & found places for every #town they visit - looking for interesting items and documenting them or something #In reality - just another one of my goofy little avocado pit carvings lol. Still working on inlaying little stones in them and stuff #I don't really have the tools to make super intricate stuff but doing little plain swirly patterns is still fine enough lol.#WORKING ON NEW POLL ADVENTURE also I know I know it's been months.. I have been Busy and struck by the evils of summer #But like I mentioned in the previous one I do want to at LEAST finish the quest with the egg lol #ANYWAY.#Things like this would plausibly exist in Nanyevimi (my fantasy world) but wouldn't be very common as - like mentioned- this would be an #extremely advanced enchantment. REALLY advanced mages could sense magic around them (to varying degrees of pinpoint accuracy of location #) without even having to use any external device. But for a majority of people there's really no way to know someone is using magic near #you unless you either see visual proof or if it's strong enough to feel effects from it (since magic is kind of like radiation in that the #higher energy/more of it youre exposed to the more it damages you/can make you sick/etc.) and even then most people would just be like #'hmm why do I feel so nauseous and bad out of nowhere?' likely wouldn't directly think to link it to magic. Thus the only really reliable w #way isto just hone your senses over like 500 years as you become an expert mage - OR use enchantments like these. But a 'sense magic' encha #ntment is not as common as a just 'magic is not allowed here' enchantment. If you wanted to prevent magic from being usedin a space #it's easier to just put up a broad barrier enchantment around that space than to have some sort of Magic Sensor to pick out if it's being #done and then handle each individual case of it . etc. etc. These sort of things can have their uses (especially for people investigating #things or trying to be secretive about detecting something etc.) but are less common - especially in this form (where visuals are used. itd #be more likely to jsut have like 'piece of metal that gets warm or cool depending on magic nearby'.) ANWAY so this is why it's a notable #object. Though a majority of the realm is not very magic literate - if you were a researcher or a mage and found this at a pawn shop you'd #definitely be like 'oohhh!! :0 inch resting... ' if not you might just be like 'oh cool necklace!' lol #also love the quick 2min ''costume'' for the image of it being used. literally just 'wrap yourself in scarves from the waist up' and slap o #a wig and ears lol #on this blog I guess since it's worldbuilding related and technically art.. maybe more like crafting? I should have a crafts tag lol.. hmm

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blackvahana · 3 months ago

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Yeah. Man. I'm just sitting here remembering I've been doing this my entire life. I feel like there was a patch I wasn't, part of the teen years, and that's either I've forgotten because trauma orrrr something else but

No wonder I've never felt anchored on this plane. But it doesn't matter, well, no, it matters a lot, but this life is just constantly isolating in how it works so I will keep the talk of not fitting in here and what being weirdly one got in one foot out has done to talking to myself lmfao but... I remember. I remember being in the garden as a really young child and I'm not a young child. I'm this chimaeric fairy-type thing of swirling and bulging colours like a psychedelic faceted-insect-eye's led trip, four or more wings of different types that are again, so ungrounded, so psychedelic, vivid. Not uncertain. Not half-formed. Fully formed, the starbeing in me just barely contained in the shape of the human-pretending-to-be-a-fae it's pretending to be

I remember so much, actually, and it's. it's just weirdly melancholic....? Maybe not melancholic, but it's so sad and I don't know why. Actually. I mean I've been trying to piece it together for like twenty minutes now but... People get a little irritated at me for being very "you don't understand and no one sees me" but like. I have lived an entire life walkinv streets where no one sees me. It's very complicated, there's. mental health stuff in there because of course I've come across a lot of spirits but I have bad issues seeing people as real but like. Man yeah no I am a snail and one part of me can be physically seen but the other has always been on the other side

#There's a lot to this that I just don't want to get into because it's no ones business irt mental health issues influencing #isolation and then trauma and stuff. It's not a matter of ''I was involved in astral stuff and no one else in the world Ever has been''#lmfao like it's just that. Astral self is still me and man. Idk. Realising these past few years constantly the Trauma(tm)#And it makes so many physical events now make sense where like I felt like I could (do astral stuff) and #Man. It's just. There's so much melancholic distance in these astral memories kept behing the Mask Face expression #it really is like. you ever have to leave someone at a bus stop or airport and you're not sure you'll ever see them again #It's this weird heavy and distinct feeling looking at myself like this astral body is a family dog I've just left in #à forest at night and I'm driving away from them and they just know. It's not like Tears Flowing sad it's this. the entire form #just swallows existence. It just is eternally falling away from the world and swallowing it as it goes #It's not a dog left at the roadside its the goddamn ghost of one left years ago. You see it and you aren't sad about leaving your #dog you're like wow. That dogs still here. I don't know what to do. It's image is burned into my retina. It's looking at me #I can see it getting further away in the rear view mirror and no one would ever believe me I'm seeing a ghost so this moment #is etched into my mind now. Except. The memory fades anyway when you look away. It's so like....... It's not even sad #It's just a ghost. I was worried about connecting astral and physical bodies and starting this journey to projection #fully consciously because I knew there'd be a lot of Trauma but this isn't even trauma it's just... My god. I've existed my #entire life as a ghost. like. /ghost/ ghost. Ghost. haunting my own existence. And it's again not just sad it's this weird...#I feel like I've only ever been able to exist off this plane. I exist in this liminal state I exist most freely when unwanted #Not because I need to be unwanted but because what I am freaks people out #Yeah that. vision. that vision of my astral form in this weird obscure unplaceable large animal with a blurred #mask like face in the headlights or tail lights of a car - it's hard to know because it warps reality. I don't know what direction #I'm travelling. I don't know what this thing is. but it's on this forest-flanked road in these lights and it's looking and #there's no one around that can elucdiate the situation and............. Yeah. Man. Yeah.#ramblings //#Astral body //#Astral diary //

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burymeinwillow · 1 year ago

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#IM NOT DONE!!!#When my mom got sick and died- during that period I only watched Bonanza. It was my escapeism. It made me happy watching it-#it made me laugh during a time my life was falling apart around me. I was loosing the person most important to me -#I dont remember much from that time but I do remember how much I watched that silly western and how happy it made me #and that's what it means to me!!! that's why Bonanza is so dear to me!!! and it breaks my heart that I was scared to be more self-indulgent #with it. I was led to believe that I shouldn't like it. That I was strange for liking such an old show. My closest friend made feel weird-#about it. So Bonanza being my fav show was like... my little secret. I felt if I told people I liked it they wouldn't wanna be my friend.#Then Juni became my friend and she just changed all of that. She swooped in and just 'Hey you should be more self-indulgent!'-#and I remember thinking 'Is that okay?' She encouraged me about everything. About drawing... about Bonanza... she made it possible for me t #do things i thought were impossible. Like traveling to the US alone and go to a Bonanza Event?? She changed my life.#Made me realize it's okay to be self-indulgent. Made me realize liking niche and obscure things is NOT wierd.#as you can tell im very passionate about this #Juni came into my life during a very dark time and she changed my life and she changed me #and now im sitting here giggling and drawing this silly stupid cowboy from this silly old western #AND NOW IM REAL ANNOYING ABOUT BONANZA HEHEHE

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arolesbianism · 7 months ago

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I’ve been having a rough few days, but I’ve been feeling a bit better so I decided to make some lil thingies for some spiraling upwards kitties :3

#keese draws #warrior cats oc #spiraling upwards #I’ve posted art of ratstar and pigeonbillow before but the other three I haven’t I think #but yeah these are some more of the minkclan founders #and by that I mean two of them are and one of them was a kitten at the time #lightning is haveniris’ mom but she didn’t trust herself to raise him so her clanmates sort of collectively raised him #and by that I mean mostly pigeon and two other old ppl that aren’t included here #light did end up opening up to him more and acting as more of a mom after he chose to become a medic tho #the two have a complicated relationship for sure but they still care abt each other a lot #oh yeah and literally all of these guys are dead by the time murtle rolls around except for haven #pigeon died about two years before the other two and raincinder has been dead since before minkclan was properly founded #which is unsurprising given she’s such an old withering woman #she mostly made it that long because she was given a guide sponsor life #so long story short not all starclan cats actually get to use the cool starclan powers and those who do are usually ‘sponsored’ with an #extra life and a cool star like marking #this isn’t a well known thing tho and even within starclan only higher ranking cats rly know anything beyond knowing that every now and #then new guides are chosen #now usually what’s supposed to happen is that the sponsored cat has a close eye kept on them and if they are deemed worthy they’re allowed #to keep their mark and become a guide once they die the second time #the main flaw in this system is that the cat who sponsored them has to be the one to revoke it #so if they refuse to revoke it for whatever reason there’s not much that can be done about it #or in raincinder’s case her sponsor ended up fading before they could judge her fully #so even though by all means even the most rebel friendly guides would revoke it easily she managed to keep her mark til death #this was ofc largely helped by her living til 19 fucking years dear god woman #but hey I guess it means minkclan gets a guide even though she’s a rly shitty one #rly that mostly only matters for the sake of nine lives and the sake of travel between starclan and the living territories #which actually does cause a lot of problems when all the guides decide to go haunt a child instead #oh also guides also pass on their mark to leaders who’s life ceremony they hosted #not the guide role tho each guide gets a new mark

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rikyos · 1 year ago

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i think something kazuha is not prepared for when he goes to liyue / further nations is how welcoming most of them are in comparison to inazuma? especially considering he grew up in ritou where all visitors & imports are processed and there’s so much talk about “outlanders” he was definitely used to that…. animosity? and the clear line drawn between inazuman and not. watching people pass through there as a kid is definitely part of the reason why he had such a desire to get out there and see the world but it also set him up for a lot of pleasant surprises in how easy it actually is to do so, once inazuma is behind him

#even if you talk to the npc’s there after the aq is tied up the shogunate are still so Pissy about outlanders it’s kind of depressing #no matter which context or angle i think about inazuma from it’s just batshit. can they pls be normal about one thing #⋆˚ ─── ⋆⋅🍁⋅⋆ ── （ out of character . )#tbd.#cute thought though is younger kazuha floating around pestering the businessmen and travelers that pass through ritou.#quizzing them about who they are and what they’re doing here and where else they’re going. where else they’ve been #absolutely an annoyance but but sweet enough in his curiosity that nobody can ignore him

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quietwingsinthesky · 10 months ago

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even deserves gentle forehead kisses

#and so do i but thats another problem #dw oc #thinking about. touch in their original environment is function only. necessity when it happens.#it is not a cruel thing. or not intentionally not by those doing it that even interacts with. because even does not. as a rule. interact #with anyone ‘Important’.#they are all simply following the same patterns they were raised with and have little reason to question because of the intense isolation of #space travel. i think a lot about. the inciting incident of even leaving is Sci-Fi Problems but more specifically. the death of someone #they were both attached to and felt responsible for. their older and previously injured coworker who would not be alive without even lying #about how much work he’s doing that they’re taking care of in reality. (which is a whole other thing. really the first things to know about #even are 1) that they will willingly put themselves in a position that endangers/harms them without hesitation if it means helping. and #2) even is a liar. that is what love does to them. for better and more often for worse. if it hurts — even will lie.#AND ANYWAY WE’RE GETTING OFFTRACK HERE #but the point is that what sticks in my mind that will go into a scene if i ever write anything about this #is that when that person dies. that person who even has built their life around protecting. buying just a little more time.#when the doctor is trying to pull even away because the danger is still present they are not safe it is still a threat. instead even squirms #away from him so that they can take their friends hand and put it on their cheek. and its still warm.#this is the person they were closest to. and this. this simple thing this simple contact. this is not something even has ever felt.#and their hand is growing cold.#anyway moving on from that this is why they should get cuddles #even headbonks the doctor to show affection like a cat pass it on.

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icewindandboringhorror · 3 months ago

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Recent game related things .. hrmm...

#I do like the inconsistency of the first map. that is actually something older but that I re-found and added to my Game Reference stuff #so that when characters reference where they're from I can be accurate. I like that the whole map is kind of shifted up that way. Where the #actual south part doesnt even count as the south since its Too Far and Scary lol. and if you say you're from 'the north' thats basically #like.. one single continent. Though some people do make distinctions like 'north midlands' or etc. still. I like the ways that common #language isn't always precisely accurate like that. and thinking about why a culture would classify things a certain way or etc. etc.#The inventory page is so funny to me because it's literally just the BASe like.. sample layout just to make sure it works properly with 0 #actual design into it. just colored rectangles thrown together in MS paint. but what if I like... left it like that.. what if all the other #art in the game and UI is like stylized and fully matching BUT the inventory/journal/etc. screens I just left as plain colored blocks #with random misalignments and black spots and etc gjhbhjj... It looks unfinished in a Funny Contrast way to me.#the wordcounts are just like... my past few days of writing.. I am still not getting 2200 words a day done or whatever I needed. I'm lucky #if it's even half of that .... tee hee.. :3c I do also keep having appointments and other things going on but..grrr...#The full map of the area is probably not necessary but I thought it would be more realisitc if people were able to reference things. Like i #you have people all living in a city area probably at some point someone might mention a neighboring city or some landmark nearby #or etc. so I thought having at least the basic names of what's around for reference would be sensible. A side character mentioning #'oh yeah I don't live here full time I just travel from Marisene sometimes' or whatever makes it seem more like a Real #Fleshed Out Place than people just making vague references like 'the river' or 'i come from a city nearby' or 'i went to a place somewhere #around here' or 'the other city' or etc. lol.. Especially since global cities/global areas are weird as they operate almost like an #independent country within their walls. so it's like a micro country inside of another country usually. just plopped down in some agreed #upon plot of land that won't be too disruptive to the main country around it. That could get very complex depending on the cultural and #political backdrop of where they're placed (though obviously they try to choose the 'easiest' areas possible for it). Asen is a very mild #country without much history of conflict or anything so it's fine. But still interesting that Sifeh and the entire branched out global area #border three other districts of Asen. Which means like 3 times the local representitives you'l have to negotiate with for some major change #or anything. I think one of the 'random characters you can find around the world and have short discussions with just to make the area #feel more populated and real even though theyre not actual important npcs' is going to be a guy who actually serves on the council that #handles running the global areas and he's like.. some perpetually exhausted middle aged elf running around with a clipboard or whatever #ANYWAY...... hrgh... still trying to write when I can....#I WISH so badly that I had the scope for a simple character creation menu and all character interactions would allot for the background #of your player character. And also to have a simple day night cycle where places in the world you explore/people you talk to during the day #have new options or dialogue at night.. BUT alas... I already am so behind on everything as is lol.. aughhh... T o T #As the worlds number one Needless Detail And Complexity Enjoyer i must dilligently prevent myself from adding additional complexity

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zaggyzoo · 2 years ago

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tried writing in the gc b i'm literally desperate but i am already frustrated

#wrote asking if someone wants to travel with me during those two weeks i took off work for the uhm. wedding that is not gonna happen anymor #and i honest to god just want someone who is serious about it and is available to organise between this and the next month bc i don't like #doing last minute and it's the summer so it's gonna be more pricey and risky #and i already got three '' maybe '' in reply #like 😭😭😭😭 yes or no girl like by all means think about it for some days but i want this to happen so don't joke around with me. if you #know it's no just say that #sorry i know i am being unreasonable maybe but i never go anywhere ever I haven't gone on a more than one day trip for like seven years and #i can count the countries i visited on one hand and now that i have the time and money (my OWN money) i feel like i could cry at the #thought of staying home once again and being 28 and never seeing the world and being stuck here forever because i am scared of going #anywhere alone it's really scary i too wanna see places and things and art and everything #meanwhile all of my friends go on vacation in italy or outside every year and i am just stuck here watching all the photos #so uhm anyway yeah 👍 first world problems i know i know. allow me to be selfish sometimes

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ss-trashboat · 1 year ago

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hi friends, i think i'm alive

maybe

i'm not sure LOL

#trashy yells #hi i've travelled a bunch these past three weeks and am gonna do it again next week #because meow meow my beloved #also i hate this new tumblr set up what the fuck #anyways hi i'm here #will be around more over the weekend if i can figure things out #been doing a lot come say hi if ya want or whatnot

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calpicowater · 2 years ago

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Week 17/52: April 24th - April 30th 2023 | Abbotsford 🍟

In Abbotsford for work for the next 10 days... this was my week one. Fairly uneventful. Just work, scroll, rinse, repeat. My hotel was the worst... did not have a functioning shower... but otherwise, weather was super warm. Hello to summer weather! Had some really good Church’s Chicken. 2 piece spicy combo with fries and biscuit... and fanta! 🍊

#365 #52 #abby trip 2023 #fried chicken #abbotsford #i'm so sad to find out that i was only assigned to in town convocations in june after i come back from calgary :(#the whole point why i work here is so that i can travel lots especially during spring convo season #but this season is just a disappointment #i should just be grateful cuz all the calgary trips have been mine since being hired but still #can't help but feel a bit sad knowing that i cannot go to places that i want ;(#i need to learn to deal with disappointment but every time i think about it im so sad #i wish someone was still here to ask me for preferences....#because right now i literally got assigned to everything that i do not like </3 #actually broken #if i can make good money here too then sure but knowing how much i like floating around i just know i would be happier if i was out of town #but maybe things just happen for the best #issssok.#at least i tried to fight for it to get it .. at least i tried my best #at least i asked . i would be even more sad if i didn't even try to ask for the jobs that i want lol

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indigodawns · 2 years ago

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#had an okay writing day for my thesis yesterday and it was a rly nice day overall and then idk. rsd hit i guess and #i went to sleep way too late so ofc today i've been feeling foggy and i haven't written a word and it's 6pm like..............#makes me feel like i wasted the work i did yesterday and i should've gone to my grandpa's bday celebrations yday #even though that didn't feel viable. he sure made me feel like shit for missing it too!#it just feels like see i could've gone and done yday's work today or some shit which ?? but sure #i just know myself and im p unbearable to be around rn/when im stressed/on a deadline so yk. + travel time + adjusting plus socialising...#also had a long talk w/ my friends yday and it was nice and it was all about how you experience consciousness but also idk.#also i keep being so sharp and kinda mean to one of my friends and it's sooooooooo she says it's fine and it's not that bad but ughhhhhhh #im sure the core of this spiral is i just rly don't like myself and i think im right not to so like. what now #and none of this even matters like. get it toGETHER #also adhd meds aren't magically fixing my life so that's another scam (but ok they DO help at least i can actually write and think then)#anyways.#i think it's. feeling this & hating myself and my friend talking about how they're past that and life is still hard for them #and it's not about me but it does make me feel stupid like true all my problems are self-made not even circumstancial like.#also feel like i keep saying the wrong thing to people and i keep messing up my words lately and boooooooo idk #anyways im ok i just don't wanna moan abt this to anyone specifically but clearly im stuck so yk?#should i share more nice moments here too??? i just always feel like whatever emotion im feeling disappears when i share it so???#maybe bc i overthink it then or whatever #but i can!! maybe i should #for yday: had a rly rly fun convo with a friend who gave me the wildest updates ever + spent time with 2 of my best friends #+ smelled the flowers and that v v specific spring to summer air and felt the sun on my face #FINE maybe therapists have a point

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bisexualpackrat · 2 years ago

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#Talking here because where else am I going to shout into the void about things I can't control? I'm just mad about capitalism lately. Like #I'm always mad about capitalism but these days I just see how it affects every corner of my life and it fucking enrages me.#I hate how working just sucks the energy out of you even if you like what you do because the 40-hour workweek isn't for humans #I hate how there's no flexibility in most jobs around what hours you work.#I hate how if you're working outside of the private sector that's basically an invitation to overwork you and underpay you #I hate how in pursuit of a terminal degree I'm not going to make more than $40k a year before the age of 30.#I hate how that even matters when all I really care about is the work I'm doing and the life I'm living not the money.#I don't care that my salary is shit--I hate how it affects my life. I can't take vacations or travel or visit loved ones or own a home.#And even if I could I'm so drained by the end of the day I can't really engage with other people #I look at my life and I see that everything is revolving around work and as much as I hate it I don't know how to change it #Life was never meant to be about labor. Life is supposed to be about community and growth and creation #but instead we do this all so some fuckwits I'll never meet can save two pennies.#just ignore me lol #jq speaks

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