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GILMORE GIRLSÂ S01E21Â âLove, Daisies, and Troubadoursâ
#gilmoregirlsedit#lorelaigilmoreedit#tvedit#lorelai gilmore#gilmore girls#mine#set*#I am ... intending to return to this blog#not sure my laptop can actually take giffing though#this is from an old pre-rendered file#anyway literally don't know how this site works now so.. let's go I guess
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so uh. that 2.2 Special Program, huh
#hsr#honkai star rail#hsr 2.2#hsr spoilers#hsr leaks#the body of this post reads as far less enthusiastic than i really am#i just donât know how to casually return from my latest 2 week hiatus only to gush abt a game iâve hardly blogged abt before#but iâm not making a whole ass sideblog for it like i did for Genshin. nah yâall r gonna bear witness to my fixation with this one#so anyways donât mind me. vibrating into another dimension with anticipation for the next 11 days#itâs insane man. a year ago i Never ever woulda thought iâd be so invested in this game. and it took Months for the game to really grab me#but iâm v glad i kept coming back even when i was struggling to really get into it. like i just had this feeling that if i stuck around and#gave the game a chance to really like. come into its stride. i just always felt like there was Something there and i just hadnât found it#and holy shit i finally found it in Penacony. the devs really truly outdid themselves with this region and these characters and this story#not to discount everything thatâs happened prior. like i was genuinely Liking it all before now but i wasnât Loving it yâknow#but that may be more a âme having to fight tooth nâ nail to force myself to consume new mediaâ thing than it is a matter of the actual game#anyways i came here to talk abt the program! bc since iâm not filming my HSR stuff iâm gonna be insufferable abt it on Tumblr instead ! :)#and iâm probably not filming any more Genshin stuff. or anything else at all for that matter but letâs not talk abt that dead dream#pun not intended lmao. Anyways letâs return to the subject at hand while thereâs still room left in these tags shall we#iâm so fucking glad they had Aventurine on this program man. especially since heâs leaked to only have 18 lines in 2.2⊠it was nice to see-#-him here at least đ„č iâll take what i can get. his unenthusiastic little bird noises at the beginning.. him being reluctant to come out..#the way one of the first things to come out of his mouth was âyâknow DR RATIO once told meâŠâ like boy we get it ur in love with him đ (/J!)#i love how they canât go on these programs w/o talking abt each other itâs adorable. AND THE WAY HE WAS THE ONE TO EXPLAIN BOOTHILLâS KIT!?#they canât just fuel my crackship like this⊠god and his whole âmuddle-fudger.. son-of-a-nice-lady?â thing had me wheezing#Aven mocking Boothillâs inability to curse was not on my special program bingo card but fuck iâm here for it#and Robin being all curious abt him was so cute.. âwho /is/ he? ⊠does he order milk at the bar?â iâm crying sheâs so sweet#also the trailer was fucking insane. which feels redundant as hell bc all of HoYoâs version trailers go hard but like. still. wow.#that millisecond long shot of Boothill surveying the skyline is so fucking good. also what the fuck is Jing Yuan doing here!!#not complaining at all tho. weâve got JY & DH(IL?). Argenti(?). Boothill. Sunday. Aven. all my men r here and i am eating so fucking good#Seven.txt#viddy game stuff
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Long time no see but happy zoro label on the dash day :)
#not zoro#HIII my schedule was awful awful for the past couple months and might get worse later so we'll see how things go!!#still fully intending to return to this blog when the time is right :)#i hope you're all doing well! and excited for opla!!!!! i know i am :]
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G&S + TS: "When a wooer goes a-wooing" + "Hits Different"
"tears that blister" & "feelings fester"/"food for fishes only fitted" đ€ "threw up on the street" & "my sadness is contagious"/"I slur your name"
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I should think of someone newer
But I'm left here feeling bluer
When each memory is truer
It hits different 'cause it's you
(Hits
different
'cause
it's
you...)
#âthis is why they shouldn't kill off the main guyâ indeed#i am also indebted to another blog's answered ask#that i can't find of course#saying that in comparison to another songwriter (maisie peters?)#who can just outright *say* something vulnerable/visceral#taylor swift usually takes an entire song to get to it#and it's interesting that the narrator just says it in âhits differentâ#end paraphrase#and... I can think of another lyricist who Just Says Things!#gilbert and sullivan#taylor swift#working their magic 4 lines at a time#savoyard swiftie#tw unsanitary#i guess?#EDIT: now with the clean version of Hits Different#x2: I am reasonably certain that I meant to type#the yeomen of the guard#instead of youtube#the wandering question mark has also been returned to its intended place
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wild that i remember to come back to tumblr again now that the life responsibilities i was using tumblr to avoid a few weeks ago are over and i got notifs here about folks freaking out about my fics from when i was like 18 years old i love yall
#chatty blogging#i swear i intend to go and finish the reputation series someday; i see you lovely tumblr blogger expressing excitement#i do miss sanders sides ive been away so long i should really return someday soon#but alas i am currently in yet another hyperfixation chokehold and so the reunion must wait lol#ALSO I STILL AM AWARE I HAVE ASKS UNANSWERED I AM SO SORRY I HAD TO STOP AVOIDING MY LIFE RESPONSIBILITIES but i will answer them soon
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STUDY SYSTEM : DAILY STUDY ROUTINE ( EXAM EDITION)


hii looves so this blog is all abt how to optimizing your day for peak academic performance. This four-part daily system is the exact routine used during exam season especially finals to consistently achieve top grades with minimal stress. While the routine may appear complex at first glance it is built upon simple, intuitive principles rooted in human biology and psychology. It is not only practical but highly effective when followed consistently. Youâll learn to structure your day around ur natural energy cycles, use tools to boost focus, and incorporate essential periods of rest and release to maintain motivation and productivity.
SECTION 1: UNDERSTANDING UR ENERGY RHYTHM
The routine is built around the concept of the circadian rhythm, your bodyâs natural energy cycle throughout the day. On a standard day for example :
Energy peaks shortly after waking typically around 6:00 AM.
Energy dips mid-afternoon often around 2:30 or 3:00 PM.
A secondary energy peak occurs in the evening approximately around 7:00 PM.
Energy tapers off as bedtime approaches.
This predictable fluctuation is key to optimizing your study schedule. The two energy peaks will be your core study sessions, while the dip will be used as a rest period, and the late-night wind-down becomes your release period or bedtime .
SECTION 2: THE MORNING STUDY SESSION (STUDY SESSION #1)
ââ â§ Start Within One Hour of Waking Up
Your goal is to begin studying as soon as possible after waking, ideally within the first hour. Use the high energy of the morning to tackle your most challenging subjects.do ur morning routine quick as possible don't do intense workout or stuff like this cuz u will waste ur energy so always have a specific morning routine for days like these ! And u can workout go to the gym or whatever at the rest period !
Pre-Study Essentials:
1. Set Your Daily Goals (5 minutes)
Before starting, sit with a notebook or your computer and write down what you intend to accomplish. Be specific. Define exact tasks e.g. which past papers youâll solve, which topics to review so u will be more organized during the day
2. Activate Focus with Three Optional Tools:
Caffeine â coffee, yerba mate, or tea to boost dopamine and adrenaline.
Cold Showers â a physiological wake-up that increases alertness (personally I don't do that lmao but if u can that's good !)
Focus Warm-up (1â2 minutes) â pick a point in your environment and concentrate on it intensely. This warms up your cognitive focus system before you start.
ââ â§Deep Work Sprint Format
Commit to a 2â4 hour study block.
Use timed work intervals: e.g., 25â30 minutes of focused work followed by 5-minute breaks.
Use a visual timer to create urgency and focus. This serves as a âdeadline generator,â helping you push harder and maintain hope by offering visible progress.
â âčkey principle: work Like a warrior
Study in focused sprints. The more intense your focus, the less time youâll need to study. The idea is depth over duration not 12 hours of mediocre attention, but 2â4 hours of deep concentration.
SECTION 3: MIDDAY REST PERIOD
Timing: After First Study Block Ends (~Early Afternoon)
At this point in the day, your energy naturally dips. Itâs essential to give yourself permission to rest. This period is not for distractions like Netflix, YouTube, or social media.
ââ â§ Approved Activities:
Exercise or light sports
Socializing with friends/family
Taking a walk, especially outdoors
Napping (ideal: 20 minutes)
The goal here is active recovery choose activities that contrast focused work. Avoid anything with dopamine stimulation that mimics your âvicesâ or release behaviors.so this break allows your mind to reset, preventing burnout and increasing productivity in the next session.
SECTION 4: EVENING STUDY SESSION (STUDY SESSION #2)
Timing: During the Second Energy Peak (~6:00â8:00 PM)
Return for your second battle. This session is similar in structure to the morning study session, but with a few differences:
ââ â§ Change Your Environment:
Consider studying in a different location e.g., library, a new room, or another productive setting. (Personally I move from my desk to the guest room cuz it's far from family chaotic activities ifykyk )
This provides novelty and reduces boredom, which helps counteract distractions that are more likely to arise in the evening.
ââ â§ Eliminate Distractions:
If possible, leave your phone behind take that shit in another room
Create a space where your brain associates the environment with productivity.
ââ â§ Study Format:
Continue using timed sprints.
Session length: 2 to 3 hours, depending on your focus reserves.
The goal is to extract one final productive effort from your remaining focus reserves for the day.
SECTION 5: NIGHTLY RELEASE PERIOD
Timing: 1â2 Hours Before Bed
This period is crucial and often overlooked. It functions as your psychological release valve a scheduled time for indulging in your âvicesâ or desires.
ââ â§ why it matter
Without a controlled release period, distractions tend to creep in throughout the day. When you tell yourself youâll âresistâ TikTok or YouTube for three straight weeks during exams, it almost always backfires. You end up scattering distractions across the day, killing momentum and u will feel like shit
ââ â§ so solution:
Contain those activities to this specific window. Give yourself full permission to indulge whether it's gaming, scrolling, or Netflix. The only rule: Only do it at night.
ââ â§ psychological benefit:
Youâll find it easier to say ânoâ to distractions earlier in the day when you know you can give in later. It reduces the mental burden of constant suppression.
Caution:
This is not a prescription to develop new addictions or deepen existing ones. If you donât feel the need for this release, skip it . But if youâre honest with yourself about your impulses, this structure helps you keep them in check.
ââ â§ ADAPTATION AND FLEXIBILITY
â§ Everyone has a unique biology. Some wake up at 5:00 AM, others at noon.
â§ Adjust the energy curve and study blocks to match your personal circadian rhythm.
â§ This is a template, not a strict prescription. Principles stay constant, execution varies.
KEY TAKEAWAYS:
đïž Two deep-focus sessions aligned with your bodyâs energy peaks yield greater results than dragging your mind across a 12-hour marathon.
đïž Midday rest and nightly release are components of a sustainable routine.
đïž Use tools like caffeine, timers, environment changes, and goal setting to maintain momentum and focus.
đïž Structure breeds freedom. When your day is mapped with intention, your brain is free to focus trust me with this one
â§ This daily routine is not about rigid hours or perfection. Itâs about aligning your habits with your biology and respecting your mental bandwidth. When implemented consistently, this system transforms exam season from a stressful grind into an enjoyable and productive challenge.Now take what you've learned and design your daily routine with intention â§
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We Need Practice - JJK (18+)

A Sequel to Novice.
Pairing: Pornstar!Jungkook X Fem!Reader
Theme: Fluff, smut
Wordcount: 2.1k+
Summary: Jungkook wants you to ride him and you are too bad at that.
Warnings: Unprotected sex, messy cock riding, cumming all over body, they are down bad for each other, more fluff than I intended to have, confessions. NSFW!!
Minors are not allowed in this blog!!
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âDonât judge a book by its coverâÂ
You have heard this phrase for thousands of times in your entire lifetime but you have hardly had any chance of actually implying the same in your life.Â
But then you met Jungkook and you understood how true that one sentence can be.Â
Jeon Jungkook is the text-book definition of what those cliched bad-boys or fuckboys would look like.Â
With a hand full of tattoos, silver rings dangling from piercings, impressively structured body and a small waist that could rival female models, he really looks like someone who would be fucking people and putting on a show out of it.Â
And that is exactly what he does.Â
Pornstar Jeon Jungkook is actually very notorious.Â
But Jeon Jungkook as a person is a completely different story.Â
After that one encounter at that porn movie set, he asked for your number and you complied with his request thinking of he could give you some of the best fucks of your life (not that you have had many fucks to brag about in the first place).Â
If you are being honest, then you never expected him to be the sweetheart that he actually is. Since the day you two exchanged numbers, he never once asked if he could come over during god-forbidden hours of night. He never once asked for your nude pictures, neither did he ever force you to meet him.Â
Rather he sends you funny dog videos, funny tik tok clips and asks you how was your day. And you canât lie about the fact that your heart has already started acting strange, like it flutters everytime Jungkookâs name glows on your dark phone screen.Â
Itâs been more than a month since you have been chatting regularly and now you are getting a little impatient.Â
As much as you appreciate his good-boy vibes, you would like to see him again, touch him again.Â
So you do what you have been thinking of doing for more than a week now.Â
âSleeping?â you hit send, praying to the universe that he doesnât find you a desperate bitch for what you are going to do.Â
The clock reads 2:15 am already, and just then his reply arrives, ânah. Canât sleep. What about you?âÂ
âMe too. Canât sleep.âÂ
You take a deep breath before typing the next message, âdo you wanna hangout?âÂ
Just when you are about to add âat my placeâ to complete your proposition, his reply hits your screen, âSend me your address. And wear something warm before I ask you to come out.âÂ
Wait. is he? Taking you out?Â
Even though you were trying to ask for sex but this option feels even better to be honest.Â
So you send him your address and he texts you that he will be there within 10 minutes. Wearing your gray padding, you wait for him to arrive at your place.Â
Another positive point about Jeon Jungkook is that he is punctual. You might even call him a green flag because your phone dings with a âI am hereâ text right on 2:27 am.Â
The scene that unfolds in front of you once you come out of your apartment, almost leaves your jaw hanging mid air.Â
Jungkook has arrived with a bike, dressed in complete black. If you drooled a little at the sight then you would never admit that.Â
Once he sees you awkwardly walking towards him, he takes off his helmet and welcomes you with one of his infamous bunny smiles.Â
Your heart does a little flip inside your chest.Â
His big doe eyes shine amid the darkness as if those are made of some priceless stone. At this moment itâs really tough to believe that he is a pornstar, who fucks people on camera to earn a living.Â
âHey. you look beautiful.â he greets you with a compliment when you come close to him.Â
âYou look even more handsome today.â you return his compliment genuinely. And at that, the tip of his ears turn red.Â
âAh thanks.â he replies shyly as he hands you a helmet. And gestures to you to mount his fancy bike.Â
You take the helmet, slip that on your head and hold him by his shoulders to climb on his bike.Â
Once you have settled, he revves the engine.Â
âHold me tightlyâ he says briefly before setting the bike in motion. You wrap your arms around his waist and hold him just as he asked you to.Â
The deserted road, the trees whooshing by, the buildings that look peaceful, everything feels so beautiful.Â
Maybe itâs because of the hour or maybe itâs because you are with someone you like.Â
The bike comes to a halt at a crossing and you slide up the windshield of your helmet, âwhere are we going?âÂ
He looks at you through the mirror, slides his own windshield up and gives you another sickening smile, but doesnât say anything.Â
5 more minutes later he parks the bike beside a huge lake.Â
It looks like a secluded area. The lake is mostly hidden amid big trees and surrounded by fishing spots and some benches.Â
Jungkook spreads his hand before you once you both are standing side by side.Â
You take the cue and place your hand on his. He intertwines his fingers with yours and you start blushing. Thanks to the darkness, he wouldnât be able to witness it.Â
Once you are sitting on a bench, Jungkook starts, âI often come here to fish with my hyungs. This is my first time coming here with a woman.âÂ
When you look at him, you find him already staring at you, âReally? You look like the type to have a lot of girlfriends, you know?âÂ
âIs it because of my profession?â there is a hint of sadness in his eyes.Â
So you press on his hand, which is still intertwined with yours and say, âno. not because of that. Itâs just that you are generally very attractive and charming, Jungkook.âÂ
His face brightens up with a beautiful smile, âToo bad, I was about to say the same about you. But you snatched my words.âÂ
Your eyes widen at his compliment, âYou find me attractive?âÂ
âWhy? Why are you so surprised? Is it wrong to find someone attractive?â he giggles, staring deep into your eyes.Â
âNo. Th-thatâs not what I meant. I mean, you know, you work with far more attractive women than me. So.. itâs kind of unlikely actually.â you fumble with your words.Â
Jungkook chuckles at your explanation, âthey are just colleagues, Y/N. Just like any other profession, we have a strict business relationship. And honestly, they are not even my type. You, on the other hand, fit perfectly into the category of women I would love to date.âÂ
Your eyes go even wider at his confession, âyou.. You want to date me?âÂ
âIf you let me. If you trust me despite the nature of my profession⊠I would love to make you mine.â Jungkook breathes slowly, his eyes drop down to your lips.Â
Before you can voice your answer, your intrusive thoughts win and you reach up, placing a chaste kiss on his lips.Â
âI think I would love it too.âÂ
And then you find yourself being pulled by the back of your neck as Jungkook crashes his lips on yours. Itâs passionate, itâs overwhelming, itâs so beautiful and you never felt anything close to this.Â
He licks the seam of your lower lip asking you to grant him permission, you let him inside your mouth.Â
His tongue probes into your mouth testing each corner, you moan into his mouth. His other hand wraps around your waist pulling you even closer.Â
And then you feel one, two, three and then multiple drops of rain falling on you two.Â
He detaches his lips from yours, âfuck. Itâs raining.âÂ
âLetâs go back to my place.â you reply, trying to cover your heads with your hands.Â
Itâs been one of your bucket list wishes to ride a bike in the rain with the person you love and probably itâs going to come true today.Â
You hold him tightly, pressing your chest on his back, not in a sexual, but in a loving manner. It starts raining heavily within a few minutes, and Jungkook quickens his speed to reach your destination as soon as possible.Â
âWhere are you going?â you place your question, seeing Jungkook putting on his helmet again after dropping in front of your apartment entrance.Â
Even though the rain has turned into drizzle now, it still can be quite dangerous to drive a bike in this weather. Â
âHome. Where else?â he adds a little sheepishly.Â
âJungkook, itâs still raining. I donât think itâs any wiser to go home now, youâre drenched on top of that. Come inside. You can leave after the sunrise. If you want.. I mean.â you propose, he seems to think for a bit.Â
âI donât think I should go inside, Y/N.â Jungkook looks at the ground as if itâs more interesting than your face.Â
âWhy? Whatâs wrong?â you are truly confused now.Â
âI might not be able to control myselfâŠâ his voice fades by the time he manages to end the sentence.Â
âDid I say I want you to control?â you bite your lip, hoping that you donât appear to be too desperate to him.Â
His eyes go wider inside his bulky helmet.Â
Jungkook pushes your naked body on the mattress.Â
âI couldnât stop thinking of how good you felt that day.â He groans while biting down on the skin of your neck.Â
Your hands roam around the smooth skin of his back. Everytime you scratch his back, he moans a little.Â
âSo pretty, so delicate, so perfect for me.â Jungkook groans again.Â
One of his hands reaches down, finding your clit within a moment. Itâs as if he has studied the map of your body with earnest interest.Â
Drawing tight circles on your sensitive bundle of nerves, he pulls out melodic moans out of your throat.Â
âJun-jungkook mmm..â you moan again.Â
âYes baby. Say my name again.â he urges you while entering your heat with his middle finger. His digit plunges inside you, making you see stars indoors.Â
âJungko- Iâm closeâ you manage to voice somehow. And as soon as those words fly out of your mouth, he empties you.Â
You look at him being dumbfounded. He smirks at you, knowing what exactly he has done.Â
âI want you to cum on my cock. I am hard as hell, baby.â he confesses blatantly.Â
Just when you are about to hold him, he flips you around. So, now you are sitting on his thighs. Â
âI want you to ride me.â he adds a little breathlessly. And you almost choke on your own spit.Â
âWhat? I-I donât..âÂ
âI will guide you, Y/N.â he cuts you off.Â
He helps you in taking off his slacks along with his underwear. Once he is naked, he holds you by your waist and lines your entrance along with his cock.Â
âAre you ready?â he asks briefly. You nod in affirmation. And then he is sliding you down his length.Â
At first his length is overwhelming but you adjust fast.Â
âYou should move now.â Jungkookâs voice is laced with lust, his eyes are hazy, making him look even more attractive than he already is.Â
You honestly have no idea how to move. So you try to implement your visual experience. However, itâs tough once you start bouncing on his cock. Even though Jungkook is guiding you well, you are messy regardless.Â
Your moves and Jungkookâs thrusts donât match at all and the experience is nothing like that day.Â
You really are a novice.Â
Even though the friction is delicious for you, Jungkookâs expression tells that he is very underwhelmed. So, you start trying your best. With a few more bounces, you cum all over his cock, creaming it perfectly.Â
As soon as you are done, Jungkook flips you around again. He slips out of you and starts playing himself.Â
Even though you are in your post-orgasm haze, itâs embarrassing for you. You couldnât help him finish and he had to take the charge himself.Â
With a few more pumps, he cums all over your body. Starting from your face, to your stomach, everything gets creamed in his white hot seed.Â
And itâs hot. He is hot. And you are pathetic.Â
âI-Iâm sorry. I know it was bad.â you manage to voice once Jungkook is done with himself.Â
âYou are not bad, baby. We just need more practice together.â and then he is sealing his lips with yours again.Â
You certainly need more practice with him.Â
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(áŽáŽ-ÒÉȘ áŽáŽÊÉȘÊᎠÊÉȘÉŽáŽ) âœáŽčá”Ëąá”á”Êł á”á”Ëąá” á”á¶ á”á”Ëąá”á”Êł á”á”Ëąá”Ëą á”á”á”á¶ŠËĄá” ËĄá¶Šâżá”âŸ
đ«FAQ below the keep readingđ«
(I intend to return to this post frequently and update the FAQ whenever new frequent questions arrive :}} )
Do you take commissions?: I call them paid drawing requests, and you can order one here on my ko-fi when they're open! :))
Do you take drawing suggestions?: I do not. Sorry!
When you say you don't like fanart being made for you, does that mean fanfics and other kinds of media as well?: Yes. it applies to all of that <:/
Why don't you like fanart/fanfics being made for you?: The simple answer is it just makes me very uncomfortable. It feels icky when someone I don't know draws/writes about something I designed without asking me. I get that most artists love fanart and don't see it that way/feel that way about it.. but I do. And even if people ask for permission first, I just like to keep my works to myself..
How can we show support if you don't like fanart?: You can support me over on ko-fi! :)) Or, just send comments! In what ever form they make take. Reblogs, asks, direct comments, tags?? Which ever way you choose! My absolute favorite part of posting on Tumblr is reading all the responses. Whether its a huge paragraph or a simple "Loved this! đ" It always makes me smile to see people comment! :}}}
What drawing program do you use?: FireAlpaca! Its a free program and is easy for beginners to learn, yet also has a lot of tools available for the pros! Though be warned. It can be a bit buggy at times and has some weird quirks you're gonna have to learn how to work around.. đ
Why are your sonas hands bloody and bandaged?: When I was first designing my sona, it looked kind'a plain.. I wanted to add something to my sonas hands, but I wasn't sure what.. at the time, my hands were covered in Band-Aids due to dry skin and cat scratches. Looking at my patched hands I thought "Hey! My sona could have these edgy bandaged hands! They can represent my "artists hands" and my love for angst as well!" and so that's what I drew <XDD
Do you have any other socials?: I have a ko-fi and a YouTube channel, but I haven't posted to it in a few years now đ other than that, Tumblr and ko-fi are the only places I post my artwork to! :}
When will you get back to your FNAF AU?: No idea tbh.. Currently, I am battling some health problems that are keeping me away from my big PC. So working on my FNAF AU isn't something I feel like I can do right now.. hopefully I can get past this health trial, get back to my PC with all my FNAF files and get back to the AU soon.. <:/
When will you get back to Octonauts?: I will not be coming back. At least not publicly on this blog.. I had some very uncomfortable experiences with the fandom that persist to this day and so I decided to just step back and leave the fandom. (See this post for more details)
#Made a new pinned post to include my ko-fi info! <:DDD#If you have any questions please read the FAQ first! <:}}}
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Letâs start over.
Sneak peek: Aaron and Reader were together back when she was finishing her bachelorâs degree. It went on for a bit until Aaron started to pull away â after confronting him, you called things off. Years later you return to Quantico to streamline the new child crimes unit which will work directly with the BAU. Aaron is surprised to see you and asks you to dinnerâŠsome shocking secrets are revealed. (There are timeline edits to this story to fit my vision okay?!)
Aaron Hotchner x (Fem) Reader
Angst/Fluff
Word count: 5301
Part 2: bonus scenes
REQUESTS ARE OPEN - not edited - please be kind. Requests are open and feedback is welcome if it's constructive!
Warnings: My blog is 18+, minors DNI, age gap (reader is in their 20âs and Hotch is in his 40âs), explicit language, keeping a child a secret, Hotch not being the best partner (past), description of BAU and other FBI units â some canon typical subject matter, OCâs Nora (child) Theo and Leila (agents), mention of hospitals, and mention of febrile seizure, mention of Jack, mention of Haley (their relationship timeline was adjusted to make this work â they separated when Jack was like 2-3 y/o) let me know if I missed any!
I do not consent to having my work translated or reposted to any other site. That being said I do not own the characters portrayed in this story.
** 5 Years Ago, **
âAaron would you please just tell me whatâs going on!â You pleaded.
âNothing. I told you to just drop it. Nothing is wrong.â Aaron snapped.
Things had been like this for the past few weeks. Aaron was being short with you, snippy about menial things that had never bothered him before. You couldnât figure out what was going on, it had truly begun to weigh heavily on your relationship.
âWe both know thatâs bullshit. Why wonât you just talk to me?â You were practically begging him at this point.
âJesus Christ, would you just let it the fuck go. I said I donât want to talk. Why is that so hard for you to understand?â Aaron shouted. âMaybe Dave was right.â He mumbled.
âRight about what?â Your voice came out much smaller than intended.
âMaybe youâre too young, too immature. You just donât understand the stress Iâm under.â Aaron huffed out a sigh.
Aaron and you had been together for nearly two years. Initially it had been more of a fling due to the fact that he was teaching a course you were taking to complete your bachelorâs degree. He and you took things to the next level once youâd graduated and now you were about to complete your masterâs degree. You loved Aaron, but with how things had been going for the last few months, you couldnât help but wonder if that was enough.
âI donât know if I can do this anymore.â You whispered.
âSo what? We get in a little fight and youâre going to throw a tantrum?â Aaron spat pure venom.
âA tantrum?â You said, exasperated. âAaron Iâm not a toddler kicking and screaming because I am not getting my way. Iâm a grown ass woman asking for some healthy communication in our relationship. We havenât had a real conversation in months, and I donât think I can go on like this.â You gasped, the realization finally hitting youâŠthis had to end.
âSweetheart, we can work this out. Iâm sorry okay?â Aaron reached for you.
âNoâŠâ You took a retreating step, your back making contact with the back of your sofa. âI think itâs too late Aaron. And honestly itâs rich that you called me immature, when you are so emotionally stunted. You refuse to act your own age and talk things through. Instead, you bottle things up and push away anyone who cares about you. I wonât be your punching bag anymore, I have too much respect for myself.â Your tears had finally broken free, trailing down your cheeks clouded with black from your mascara.
âSo thatâs it then? Weâre done?â Aaron scoffed.
âI guess thatâs it.â You gasped.
With that, Aaron grabbed his bag and left. Pausing for a second, before shaking his head and making his leave. The moment you heard the lock click, your knees gave out and you collapsed to the floor as sobs ripped through your body. You laid there for what felt like days, broken and devastated by the loss of what you presumed was your forever. He was gone and youâd have to move on, something you werenât sure was possible in that moment.
** Present Day **
âHello? ⊠This is she ⊠Oh! Director Cruz ⊠yes I am getting everything ready. ⊠I canât thank you enough for this opportunity, truly. ⊠Of course, thank you. ⊠Alright, I will see you Monday. ⊠Thank you ⊠Bye.â You were practically buzzing as you hung up the phone.
âWas that bossman?â Hestia questioned.
âYes it was! He was checking in and making sure I have everything I need before I start on Monday!â You gushed.
âI canât believe you are moving back to Virginia. I am going to miss you so, so much!â Hestia whined.
âI am going to miss you too! But itâll only be like a month until you join meâŠright?â You inquired.
âYes! My lease is up then and as long as youâre still cool with us staying with you guys until we find our own place, we will be there!â She explained.
âUmmm of course you guys can stay with us! Free childcareâŠIâd be an idiot to pass that up!â You laughed as Hestia threw a pillow at you.
You were actively packing up your life and preparing to move back to Virginia. You hadnât been back there in nearly five years. After breaking things off with Aaron and completing your masterâs degree, youâd looked into PhD programs around the U.S. and had ultimately decided on the child psychology program at Colombia University, and while New York wasnât too far from Virgina, it at least put space between you and Aaron.Â
About eight months after you and Aaron had broken things off, Nora had come as quite a surprise. Despite the shock that was brought on by your pregnancy, Nora had become the greatest gift you couldâve asked for. Having Hestia around to make up for your lack in baby daddy had brought the two of you incredibly close together.
You had met Hestia in a pretty unconventional way, she was one year into her residency for general surgery, and you had appendicitis. So, she worked hand-in-hand with the surgeon who removed your appendix, and well, the rest had been history. Sheâs been with you through everything in the last four years, most importantly, sheâs helped you raise Nora. Youâd been sure to repay the favor, especially within the last yearâŠHestiaâs mom had passed, leaving her 15-year-old sister in her care. The four of you had become your own little family.
âSo, whatâs your plan tomorrow?â Hestia asked.
âOh, my parents flew in last week and they drove most of my stuff down on Tuesday. My mom said she wanted it to be set up for us, so weâd be able to move right in, especially since I start work immediately. So, I am just getting the last few things together today and we will head down tomorrow, and I guess we will finish getting everything set up this weekend. Theyâre staying with me, pretty much until you and Selene can come out. They donât want me to have to put Nora in daycare.â You explained.
âAw, Iâm so glad theyâre able to do that! I know by then youâll be ready to have them out of your hair, but it is nice that you wonât have to leave her with strangers right away.â Hestia patted your leg. âI do have a question for you thoughâŠare you at all worried about running into your ex?â
âI donât even know if he still works there Hes, itâs a huge place. Whoâs to say we even see each other at all?â You shrug.
âYou are so full of shit!â Hestia laughs. âDonât act like you didnât check to see if heâs still there.â
âUgh! Yes heâs still the unit chief of the BAU! Of course I looked. And yes. I am terrified, Director Cruz said my unit will most likely work with the BAU more than any other team and Iâm not sure I can handle that.â You groaned.
âYou canât avoid him forever babe. Are you going to tell him about Nora?â
âHes, I donât even know how I would begin to tell him.â You shook your head. âWe ended horribly and sheâs four now. What if he freaks out?â
âI mean he might. Hon, you have to tell him, sheâs his daughter you know⊠I donât think thereâs an easy way to do it. Like itâs gonna be ugly no matter what. But at least youâre telling him.â Hestia reasons.
You knew she was right, you had to tell Aaron about Nora, but honestly it could wait. You had an entire unit to run, and you couldnât let your fear of seeing him and having that conversation distract you from the important work youâd be doing.
Monday came far too quickly. Your parents had been a huge help, and the house was almost completely unpacked. Nora had settled in well with them being there with you both, and you were incredibly grateful to them for supporting you.
You had gotten up early to make breakfast and eat with Nora before heading into the office. When you walked into the FBI building, you made your way to the front desk to get your ID and then headed to the directorâs office.
âWelcome! We are so glad to have you and your team joining us at the FBI. Child crimes is something that has needed an official unit for far too long, I am just happy to have you leading it.â Director Cruz greeted you.
âThank you Director, it is truly an honor to have been asked to lead this team. From my understanding, Theo and Leila will be here tomorrow to begin officially.â
âThatâs correct. I want to go over some logistics with you before I show you to your office. As of right now your team will just be the three of you, if we see a need to expand, we will. I am going to assign you and your agents each a specific unit for if you are needed in more than one place. You will be the point person for the Behavioral Analysis Unit and the Sex Crimes Unit, Leila will take point with Violent Crimes and Theo will take point with Cybercrimes. I anticipate that your team will work closest with the BAU and SCU.â Director Cruz explained.
âThat all sounds good sir. Are the Unit Chiefs of these departments all aware of our arrival? I just want to ensure they will be prepared to work with us and that there wonât be too much pushback.â You posed.
âI understand. Yes, they have all been informed of your teamâs arrival and I have made it very clear that their cooperation is nonnegotiable. At the end of the day, we all have the same goal, so hopefully there will be very little pushback from our agents.â Director Cruz reassured you. âAre you ready to see your office now?â
âYes sir, thank you.â
Stepping off the elevator onto the sixth floor, you immediately took note of the directory sign listing that the BAU was housed on this floor. It made your stomach churn, knowing that you would most definitely see Aaron every day⊠not to mention in like the next few minutes.
âOkay so, through this door here is where the BAU is, as I mentioned before. There are two open desks down in the bullpen there for Theo and Leila, and your office is just there. You will be between agents Hotchner and Rossi.â Director Cruz noted as you entered your office. âIâd like to introduce you to agent Hotchner before I let you settle in; I think it is important given how frequently youâll be working together.â
âOf course, sir.â You nodded.
The ten steps it took to get from your office to his felt like an eternity. You felt sick knowing that youâd have to face the man that had broken you all those years ago. You may have ended things with him officially, but he had truly ended it when he decided that you werenât worthy of communicating with. At this point you were just hoping that heâd grown up in that area, because you really needed him to take the news of Nora well.
âAgent Hotchner, I have the new child crimes unit chief here for you to meet.â And before Director Cruz could give Aaron your name, it escaped his own lips, framed by his shocked expression. âOh, you two know each other?â
âAgent Hotchner was a guest lecturer for one of my undergrad courses. He was my inspiration for entering this field.â You supplied.
It wasnât a total lieâŠ
âYes, she was a bright student. Iâm not surprised to see that she made it to the FBI.â Aaron added.
âAlright then, I will leave you to catch up then.â With that, the Director made his way back to his office.
âHow umâŠhow are you?â Aaron inquired.
âIâm well Aaron. I donât really think anymore small talk is necessary. I should go get settled into my office.â You huffed out a breath before exiting the room.
You made sure to take your time getting settled. Placing some personal things out on your desk and shelves. You had a few plants, some of your favorite pens, some file folders, you hung up your degrees, you organized your psychology books on the shelves along with some law books, and the last, most important detail was a framed photo of you and Nora that you sat next to your lamp.
The day had sped by as you made yourself comfortable on the couch in your office while reading through some emails from other units and some case files of theirs from previous cases to see how they typically ran things. You had been trekking along just fine until a quite knock broke your concentration. Looking up, you werenât entirely surprised to see it was Aaron standing there.
âI just wanted to check in and see how you were doing. Itâs almost eight.â Aaron informed you.
âOh shit! I didnât even realize!â You scrambled to check your phone.
âI know that you said small talk wasnât necessary, and I agree. I would however really like to take you to dinner to catch up, and maybe I can explain some things.â Aaron requested.
âOh, I um. Iâm not sure thatâs a good ideaâŠI uh-â
âPlease. I really need to explain myself, for how awful I was back then. No excuses, just maybe itâll help you see my point of view. Iâve worked on myself a lot since then.â Aaron pleaded.
âI have to make a call first.â You conceded.
âOf course. Iâll give you some privacy.â He exited your office.
You quickly called your mom, letting her know that you were going to dinner with a coworker, asking her to take care of the remainder of Noraâs bedtime routine. You also had to inform her you wouldnât need to be picked up. After which you spoke to Nora wishing her a good night and giving her a kiss through the phone. You then gathered your belongings and met Aaron in the bullpen.
âSo, I donât have my car. My parents are in town, they helped me move, so I left my car with them.â You explained sheepishly.
âNo worries, if youâre comfortable with it, I can drive us. I can take you home after as well.â Aaron offered.
âYeah, that would be great. Thank you.â You offered a gentle smile.
Aaron gestured you to the elevator and you made your way down to the parking garage. Aaron, ever the gentleman made sure to open the car door for you, both in the garage and again at the restaurant. There was a tinge of sadness that flooded your mind as you noticed where Aaron took you.
It had been your go to for date nights back when you were together. It was a recommendation from Dave â who you couldnât help but feel a bit of resentment toward given the âtoo youngâ comment. You wondered if Aaron brought you here on purpose, and he mustâve picked up on your thought.
âIâm sorry, I donât know why I drove us here. I guess it was muscle memory.â He shook his head.
âItâs okay. Iâve missed the food honestly.â You let out a little chuckle.
âI have too. I uh, I havenât been here since we ended.â Aaronâs voice trailed off toward the end of his statement.
You were relieved that the night hadnât been filled with awkward silence. It had, however, been a lot of catching up while Aaron avoided the main reason he brought you here and you avoided talking about Nora. You were both saved by the waiter when he came by to get your order.
âWould you like to see the wine list?â
âNo thank you. Iâll just have water.â You were quick to answer.
âWater is fine for me also.â Aaron added.
âAre you ready to order your entrees then?â
âI will have the Mezzi Rigatoni, and she will have the Ricotta Cavatelli.â Aaron declared.
The waiter nodded and walked off. You couldnât help but look at Aaron with a bit of shock. It is what you always ordered, so you couldnât be mad, but it felt foreign and all too familiar at the same time. He always ordered for you when you used to go out, he used to know you better than you knew yourselfâŠbut that was then.
âIâm so sorry â I donât know why I did thatâ Aaron was quick to apologize âMaybe coming here was a bad idea. Itâs all too familiar.â
âItâs okay Aaron. I was going to order it anyway. Maybe we should talk about why weâre here.â You suggested.
âOf course. I want to explicitly state that I am not trying to make excuses for how I acted then, because I know I was horrible to you in the end. I do just want to give you some insight as to what I was going through at that time. I really want to communicate now what I didnât then.â He began.
You nodded for him to continue as the waiter brought your food and drinks. Â
âSo, you know that Haley and I divorced before you and I got together officially. Well once you and I became serious and my time was either spent at work or with you and Jack, Haley didnât seem to like that. She uh, she tried to fight me for primary custody of Jack.â Aaron explained.
âWhat? Aaron why didnât you tell me?â
âHonestly, because I knew youâd take a step back in our relationship. I knew that with how selfless you are, youâd offer to back off and give me more time with Jack and I didnât want that. I wanted to have you and Jack, so I kept it to myself. Which broke us anyway.â He concluded.
âI really wish you wouldâve told me; things may have been different Aaron. I am glad youâre telling me now though.â You desperately wanted to reach for his hand but ultimately decided against it.
Now was as good a time as any, you had to tell him about Nora. He confessed something and it was your turn. And just as you were about to open your mouth, a shrill ring sounded from Aaronâs coat pocket.
âHotchner. YesâŠCCU as well? Yes â Iâm with their unit chief now. Weâre on our way.â Aaron hung up the phone and looked over at you. âIs your team here in Virginia?â
âYes, theyâre not meant to start until tomorrow.â You provided.
âCall them in, we have a case. Time is of the essence.â Aaron signaled for the check.
The two of you contacted your respective teams as you made your way back to the car. Aaron once again opened your door for you and drove you back to the office. You texted your parents and informed them of the case and asked your mom to let Nora know youâd be home as soon as you could.
30 minutes later you were on a private jet to Chicago with your team and the entirety of the BAU. You had unintentionally sat beside Aaron and began going over the case details with everyone. Aaron had begun explaining the preliminary profile, and you couldnât help but chime in. Everyone was watching how the two of you riffed and bounced ideas off of one another so naturally.
âJust a reminder, there are new protocols for entry into the crime scene when we are locating the children. We need to follow those exactly to ensure we donât harm these children more so than they are already. If you have any questions about those procedures feel free to ask me or my agents.â You instructed.
âRight. Now for assignments, Dave, JJ and Theo Iâd like you to interview the family of the latest victim ââ
âMolly Leland.â You corrected.
âApologies. Dave, JJ, Theo go to the Lelandâs and find out anything you can. Morgan, Prentiss and Leila, you three go to the abduction site, I want to ensure CSU didnât miss anything. And Reid youâll be with us at the station to start on the geographical profile.â Aaron finished, gesturing to the two of you.
Six days. It had been six days, and you still hadnât made any progress on this case. Another child had gone missing, and things were incredibly tense. Both teams had been in the designated room within the precinct going over theories.
âI think weâre looking at this all wrongâŠâ Leila began, âI think the person abducting these kids is younger than initially profiled.â
âGiven their disorganization and the lack of consistent victimology, Iâd say thatâs a pretty plausible theory.â Spencer validated.
âOkay, Leila what were you thinking?â You inquired.
âWhat if it is a teenager? My thoughts were a kid who grew up in foster care â hence the random victimology. They just want siblings, and thatâs why there arenât any bodies.â Â Leila suggested.
âI think sheâs onto something. If it was a young adult who was newly alone in the world, theyâd be looking to find people to surround themselves with.â Morgan continued.
âGarcia, run a search for kids that just aged out of group homes and foster care.â Aaron called to their technical analyst.
âWithin the geographical limits I just sent over to you.â Spencer added.
When your phone rang, you excused yourself from the room, answering the call from your mom. You could immediately tell something was wrong given the slight lilt to her voice.
âMom, whatâs wrong?...Why do you need the childrenâs Tylenol. ⊠Fever? Whatâs her temperature? ⊠103? MOM! You need to take her to the ER. ⊠Iâm serious! ⊠Iâm coming home. ⊠Yes! ⊠Iâll be there as soon as I can. ⊠Take her straight to Bethesda. âŠOk. Bye.â
You turned and jumped in surprise at Aaron standing there behind you.
âI just came to let you know weâre splitting up to check out a few leads. Is everything okay?â He asked.
You could tell he had more questions and that heâd more than likely heard the entirety of your conversation but was holding back in asking them.
âUm no. My daughter is sick. She has a pretty high fever. I uh, I need to get home.â You panicked.
âOkay. We will get you home then. Iâll send the teams out and I will make some calls. For now, just try to stay positive okay?â Aaron had always been the calm in the storm.
He sent three separate groups out to find the unsub and had made a few calls back to the director to get you on an emergency flight home. He went as far as to drive you to the hotel and then to the hangar.
âAaron.â
âGet home to your daughter.â He offered a small smile.
âThank you.â
Leila had texted to update you that they had caught the unsub and would be heading home in the next hour or so. You had been grateful that the team had successfully closed the case. What was killing you, was the state of your baby girl. She had an excessively high fever, and it just wouldnât break.
âMiss, thereâs someone here to see you.â The nurse informed you.
You looked over at your mom who gave you a nod and you exited the room. Following the nurse to the waiting room, you were surprised to see Aaron standing there.
âI just wanted to see how sheâs doing, and how you are.â He declared.
âI um. IâmâŠâ You couldnât help but break down.
Aaron immediately pulled you into his arms and moved you both over to a couch in the waiting area. He let his hand brush over your hair and whispered reassurances to you. The two of you sat like this for a while before you slowly pulled away.
âSorry. She just has this fever, and it wonât break, and they donât know whatâs wrong.â
âSweetheart itâs okay. She will be okay.â Aaron grabbed your hand.
A moment went by and then an alarm sounded. Your gaze shot up as you watched medical staff make their way to Noraâs room. You got up and ran to her room, with Aaron hot on your heels.
âWhatâs happening? What is going on? Somebody tell me what is going on!â You were practically shouting as Aaron pulled you from the room.
Your mom was pacing in the hallway as Aaron held you back from storming back in. It was killing him to see you this distraught.
âIt was a febrile seizure. This can happen when children have such a high fever. Weâve given her a sedative to try and help her rest and we pushed some more Tylenol to aid in breaking the fever.â The doctor explained.
âIs she going to be okay?â You questioned.
âWeâre doing everything we can. A nurse will be by soon to take her temperature again.â The doctor walked away.
âIâm going to go find your dad. That way you two can have some privacy.â Your mom said pulling you into a hug.
âThis is Nora.â You told Aaron as you ran your hand over her forehead, brushing her curls away from her face.
âSheâs beautiful.â He complimented.
You sat in silence for a bit with him just watching Nora. You could tell part of him was itching to ask, but you also knew that Nora was a bit small for her age so he couldnât be sure that she was his. This moment of avoidance was terminated the second the billing staff came in to get all of your information.
âHey there, I wanted to confirm all of the info for billing. Do you have your driverâs license and insurance card?â The staff requested.
âYes, here it is.â You passed her the card.
She filled in all of your information, clicking away on her keyboard while the rest of the room sat with a looming silence. You could feel the question coming. You had been an idiot to give Nora her fatherâs last name.
âOkay and can you confirm the patientâs name and date of birth for me?â
âYes, itâs uhâŠNora Leigh Hotchner. Thatâs H-O-T-C-H-N-E-R. Date of birth is 10/4/2019.â You could feel Aaronâs gaze burning into you.
âAlright, here are those cards back. Thank you.â She made her leave.
âSeriously?â
âAaron, let me explain.â
âNot here.â He motioned toward Nora.
He swiftly made his way out of the room, and you were quick to follow. In noticing your parents, you signaled for them to sit with Nora as you practically chased after Aaron. He didnât stop until he was in a private waiting room, it was only then that he turned to face you.
âAre you fucking kidding me? Sheâs mine? And what, you didnât think to tell meâŠI donât know, FOUR YEARS AGO?â Aaron was fuming.
A part of you understood his response, but another part of you was furious that he wasnât allowing you to explain before flying off the handle.
âDonât yell at me. If weâre going to do this, we will talk like adults. I will not sit here and allow you to berate me.â You held your ground.
âOkay.â
âI found out I was pregnant after I left for New York. And at that point Aaron, I was so devastated by our breakup, and I just didnât think I could be around you. I know thatâs not fair, but I had thought you and I were forever and then weâd just ended. I was going to tell you last week at dinner, but then we got called in. Aaron I am so sorry, and I know that doesnât make up for the time youâve lost, but I also need you to know that I did what I felt like I had to do.â You let your gaze fall to the floor in guilt.
âI understand. Iâm not happy, but I get it.â He reached for your hand.
You accepted the gesture and furthered it by pulling him into an embrace. He wrapped his arms around you and rested his head atop your own.
âIâve told her about you.â You whispered.
âWhat?â
âIâve told her about you. Sheâs seen pictures and heard stories. She knows you Aaron.â
He held you a little tighter and you nuzzled a little closer. After a few moments he suggested that you both get back to your girl. You both sat with her all night, letting your parents go home. At three in the morning, the night nurse gave you the good news, her fever had finally broken. The next day, Aaron drove the two of you home, leaving with a scheduled family day where you would introduce Jack and Nora. You had also discussed talking to the kids about their birthday party (since their birthdayâs are only 3 days apart). With Jack turning seven and Nora turning 5 in a little more than a month, you wanted to plan something big for the two of them.
** One Month Later **
âOkay, the bounce house is set up and the petting zoo guy just arrived. Where should he set up?â Penelope asked.
âOn the southeast side!â Dave hollered.
You were setting up the last of the hors dâoeuvres, while the members of both the CCU and BAU helped get Daveâs backyard set up for the kids birthday party. You were so incredibly grateful for this family youâd come to have.
âWeâre here with cake!â Hestia announced.
âHes! Selene! Hey guys, you can set that up on that round table over there.â You pointed.
Selene came over and gave you a hug, you snuck a snack into her hand and nodded over to your bag.
âMy iPad is in there with the Twilight movies all downloaded. Dave has a sitting room down the hall to the right.â You winked at her.
âThanks mom!â Selene said hugging you once more before heading off.
âDo you have another kid I donât know about?â Aaron joked, wrapping his arms around you from behind.
âHa ha! No, Selene just calls me mom. Weâve both taken care of her since their mom passed, but it became an inside joke that I acted as the mom to Nora, Selene and Hestia.â You huffed a laugh.
âItâs true!â Hestia confirmed, before taking a case of juice boxes outside to the cooler.
âYou know, I wouldnât be opposed to it.â Aaron murmured, pressing a kiss to your neck.
âOpposed to what?â You giggled.
âMore kids.â
âAaron! We only just got back together, and we are at our childrenâs birthday party! Behave yourself.â You hissed.
âI know, but this time around, Iâm not letting you go. I plan on marrying you and I just want you to know that Iâm open to more children, one day, when and if youâre ready.â He punctuates it with a kiss to your lips.
âWell, Iâm open to it too. And whenever you ask, my answer is yes Aaron. Youâve proven to me that youâve grown since we ended before and I canât stand the thought of going without you again so, Iâm in this, for as long as youâll have me.â You kissed him once more before carrying a tray outside to the party.
Aaron smiled and grabbed his phone, opening it to check the status of his order. There on his screen was confirmation that your ring had been customized, made, sized, quality checked, and would be shipping out soon.
He couldnât wait to spend forever with you.
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Phantom in the mirror
[COMPLETED] by catesartsworks (tumblr)
After Danny loses everyone he loves, he is determined to seek out a ghost named Clockwork to reverse his fate.
(note: There is even pdf version available of this comic!)
Archetype
[COMPLETED] by Joe-the-Hoe (Deviantart)
Story set in AU where Phantom and Fenton are separate.
(warnings listed by the author: angst, death, violence, gore, psychological horror, some strong language)
DoppelgÀnger
[COMPLETED] by eirian (tumblr)/skiltaires (webtoon)
DoppelgĂ€nger is set in an AU where the Disasteroid never threatened Earth (see: Phantom Planet) and both Danny and Vladâs half-ghost identities remained hidden. It takes place after Dan makes a return, seeking revenge on Danny for imprisoning him. Once defeated by the young Danny Phantom a second time, Dan finds himself spending many months under the Fentonsâ careful watch, mellowing out as a result. However, after learning about an old foeâs return, Dan realizes his problems are far from gone.
A Matter of Time
by sarapsys (tumblr & AO3)
A look into who and what Clockwork was, is, and will become.
The Phantom Comic
by tsubaki94 (tumblr & webtoon)
Danny Fenton has returned to Amity Park after having spent years in Wisconsin at a boarding school and intends to have a typical high school life at Casper High. However the day Vlad Master comes to visit is also the day Dannyâs fourteen-year-old life is turned on its head.
Danny Phantom AU Comic
by necrocoleum (tumblr 1&2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10 - 11 - 12 - 13 - 14 - 15 - 16 - 17 - 18 - 19 - 20 - 21)
Possible gritty Danny Phantom AU comic?
(note: Links between pages are broken, so I linked the pages separately.)
Divided
[COMPLETED] by coffeecakecafe (tumblr)
(note: This is the coffeecakecafe's comic from Ectober Week 2021, if that's the name you remember it by.)
Amity Thereafter
by ep-10 (tumblr)/ éżäœEP (webtoon)
A Danny Phantom fan manhua.
Good Vlad AU
[COMPLETED] by mfdragon (tumblr)
No one knows AU comic
by pricklenettle (tumblr)
Sam and Tucker never became friends with Danny, so heâs learned to deal with the towns new residents and the ghost attacks alone.
Souls of Stardust
by CorinnetheAnime (tumblr & Deviantart)
(note: To my understanding the comic will be mainly on Deviantart, but you can read at least the first 6 pages also on tumblr.)
Ectober Night
by okkennymay (tumblr cover - 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10 - 11 - 12 - 13 - 14 - 15 - 16 - 17 - chapter 2 cover - 18 - 19 - 20 - 21 - 22 - 23 - 24 - 25 - 26 - 27 - 28 - 29 - 30 - 31)
(note: Most of the links between pages 24 and 31 work, but I just gathered all of the links here since all of the earlier ones are broken.)
Danny Phantom: Recollection
by ghoulishautism (tumblr)
"Danny Phantom: Recollection" is a DP Fancomic anthology- loosely connected comics with the goal to reimagine Danny Phantom and its world. With a mix of popular fanon and personal headcanons, this comic aims to take DP places the original 2004 animated series couldn't.
(note: The website version of the blog is very easy to navigate!)
Lingering Spirits
by starlightshore (tumblr)
A Danny Phantom AU where Danny moves to Amity 2 years after the Portal Incident. Combo of Alicia Adoption (Farmboy AU) + Nobody Knows AU
Shared Cujostody AU
by duchi-nesten (tumblr)
Prison Ghost AU
by albinotopaz (tumblr)
After being trapped in Walker's prison for 16 years, Danny's friends get him out. But a lot has changed in that time.
Undercover AU
by artistfingers (tumblr & AO3)
Welcome to the Give Your Hidden Identities A Hidden Identity hijinks bonanza! a danny phantom no one knows AU featuring lots of silliness and maybe sometimes a little angst, focusing primarily on the newfound friendship between Phantom, Tucker, Sam⊠and Fenton. After a lonely year of ups and downs since becoming Phantom, Danny meets Sam and Tuck for the first time while stuck in ghost mode⊠trying, and failing, to fly under the radar.
DP Mechanic AU
by tatumsdrawing (tumblr)
This is an eventual Dash/Danny AU where Dash works part-time as a mechanic and Danny's car is going through it. Takes place their senior year of high school.
(note: mix of comic and fanfiction -both very good!)
The Amnesiac Ghost King
[COMPLETED] by ep-10 (tumblr)
Danny had no recollection of his past. It took him a year to adjust to his current state. He managed to find a few jobs and earned enough money to rent an apartment. As time passed, Danny's situation seemed to be getting better, that was, until the Guys In White came into his life.
Red Huntress
by sykloni (tumblr)
A comic that takes place right after Valerie has gotten her new suit.
(Fanning the Flames)
by starlightshore (tumblr)
My take on "Fanning the Flames!" While I like the OG episode, I wanted to take a different route on how it could go down, adding a focus on Ellie. (Danny's alternative timeline self)
(note: doesn't have a title so I put the episode title it's based on in brackets, I hope that's fine. This is a fun comic and I wanted to include it!)
Girl Out of Time
by lilianade-comics (tumblr)
Being set in the 1980s, Girl Out of Time is a prime opportunity for me to pay respects to the media of the decade. Dani's antagonist, the Extractor, is an homage to Terminator. I'm very fond of this AU because it fits so well within the boundaries of canon that I don't have to leap through many hoops to make things work. It cleanly replaces D-Stabilized as a sequel to Kindred Spirits, and I consider it a thematic successor to The Ultimate Enemy. Where Danny travels to the future for a second chance, Dani travels to the past.
(note: lilianade-comics has also a lot of other cheese melt comics and other AUs to check out.)
Ghost Hunter Family
by qianqiancandyjar (tumblr)
Secret Saturdays AU
The Fentons are supernatural investigators, ghost hunters as well as ecto-energy scientists. Danny and Jazz have been traveling all over the world with their parents to study all kinds of ghosts since they were born. Their goal was to keep the existence of ghosts in secret and protect humans from supernatural forces.
Phantom Frequency
by dannypocalipse (tumblr 1 - 1.1)
(note: I'm adding this immediately after I saw that this comic was going to continue! I will try to update the links if it gets a master post.)
Chess Piece
by neoyi -> preserved by chesspiecerehost (tumblr)
Chess Piece is a 2006 Danny Phantom AU fancomic made by Neo Yi. It was started sometime in 2006, and was discontinued around 2010. Eventually, the comic was deleted off of itâs former homes on DeviantArt and SmackJeeves, and was thought to be gone forever. âŠthat is until I was going through an old flash drive, and found that I had saved the first five or so issues on it.
"Taking place during the The Roaring â20s, it stars Prince Daniel Masters, heir to the Water Kingdom of Dalv. After the events of the Great War, his father, the King Vlad has tried to preserve peace and alliance with the other nations. Unfortunately thatâs interrupted by the aptly named Chaos Order who are on the search for the Seven Crystals that hold untold powers to those who utilize it. Along for the ride is Phantom, a mysterious denizen who wants Vlad for himself (whom he deems his âpapaâ) by creating a world of Nothingness. Naturally, Danny canât have that. After all, if the world is destroyed, then how can he rule it?"
(note: Prologue and different issues are tagged on the blog so you don't have to scroll through the whole blog to find the beginning.)
--Next some crossover fancomics!--
DP x SCP Foundation
by alen-lotz (tumblr 0 - 1 - 2)
(note: no master post so I'm linking the parts this far separately)
Half Normie AU
by spookberry (tumblr & Tapas)
âHalf Normie AUâ is just a Monster High/Danny Phantom crossover AU that Iâve been working on, with a big focus on Werewolf Tucker AU and a bit of Savant Par as well.
DP x ROTTMNT
by chasingrabbits-art (tumblr)
Phantom Universe
by 56thingsart (tumblr)
DP x SU
You Smell Like Death
by endouyuu97 (tapas)
DP x Gravity Falls.
(note: You might see the old version of the comic floating around in tumblr reblogs, but since it seems to be deleted by OP I want to respect that and only link the revamped version in tapas.)
Cold Front
https://coldfront.thecomicseries.com/
DP x Gravity Falls
Heroes of Millennium
by drawnfamiliarfaces (tumblr)
Secret trio + others
Age accurate secret trio
by beccadrawsstuff (Tumblr)
(note: couldn't find a working link to the beginning so you may need to scroll through the blog to find where to start reading)
Secret Trio Webcomic
by secretriowebcomic (tumblr)
Secret Trio
by squishy-lombax (tumblr)
(doesn't have a title)
[COMPLETED] by builtintripping (tumblr)
Nictoons unite
Fear of forgetting and being forgotten.
United
by chovomony (tumblr)
Nictoons Unite
5-years later
by The Ink Tank LLC (webtoon)
DP x Ben 10 + others
A cross-dimensional accident forces ghost-fighting superhero Danny Phantom out of a five-year retirement when his old arch-nemesis, Vlad Plasmius, allies himself with Eon, a time-walker on an endless crusade across the multiverse. With the help of the alien shape-shifting space cop, Ben 10, the Heroes must find a way to stop this mastermind. In a story of Morality vs Power, 5 Years Later brings together universes for an epic conclusion that takes them to the next level.
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Important announcement: the future of phantom statistician
Hi everyone! I'm just going to cut right to the chase. I have some good news and bad news to share. Let's start with the bad.
Bad news: As a federal employee, I will be required to return to the office 5 days a week starting March 17. This means that if I want to keep up with this blog, I'll have to devote my free time after work to doing so. Unfortunately, that is not how I'd like to spend my free time. What does this mean? I will be stepping away from this blog as soon as my queue of requests has run out. I will not be opening requests again. You all can go ahead and thank President Musk for this. I'm really sorry to let you all down.
Good news: Even without the return-to-the-office mandate, I had already made the decision to step away from Tumblr starting around August 2025 because... I am pregnant! Yes, my wonderful husband and I are having a baby. We are absolutely thrilled. With the arrival of the baby, it would not have been possible for me to maintain this blog anyway. I'm just going to be stopping a little earlier than intended.
I'd like to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for following me and supporting me <3 Your engagement has meant the world to me. Some of you have sent me the most kind, encouraging messages, all of which I've taken to heart. I've been making charts for you all since 2017. It's been a good, long run, and it's been an honor to serve you for all these years. I'm excited to start the next chapter in my life. I wish you all the very best.
Much love, Phantom Statistician
To support the baby fund:Â Kofi <3
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You can ignore this if itâs not up to code for your blog but what about some Halsin in bear form smut. We all know he canât always control it and he should be love no matter the shape
Summary: Halsin eats you like his personal honey pot.
Pairing: Halsin x F!Tav/Reader
Content: NSFW - Bear Halsin - Bear Halsin Eats You Out - Normal Halsin Makes An Appearance
Notes: So we are doing this huh? We are breaking this wall and writing for bear Halsin⊠Letâs do it anon. If I can write about ascended Raphael I can do this! Letâs go!

You let out a surprised gasp and dropped to the floor, your legs giving out from under you as Halsin buries his snout in your pussy. His long rough tongue sliding over your entrance, his bear snout wet against your sensitive clit, his hot breath fanning over your skin.
Halsin had always tried to control himself, always tried to withhold his desires, to keep his bear shape hidden away fearing how you would react⊠Which you wonât lie, it did frighten you due to just how large his bear shape was- and what if he lost control? But now, the way he's feasting on you, like youâre his personal honeycomb, you donât mind. You know he will never harm you, how soft he was being, how careful his teeth were as they dragged along your skin. He was gentle and caring, and so far from being frightening like this.
Your hand finds the top of his fuzzy head, fingers carding through his fur, âPlease, don't stop, Halsin-â Your words were cut off by another gasp, your hips grinding into his face as his tongue entered you. You had no doubt that Halsin could taste how excited you were. His tongue was rough and long, filling you and moving within you, dragging across your walls. Wriggling and twisting within you, hitting spots that made you cry out and your legs shake. Silvanus, it was like you were a honey pot and he was lapping up all the nectar you had to offer.
You were a squirming, shaking mess as Halsin ate you out. He was merciless, his tongue working you and his claws digging into your thighs, holding you in place as you bucked against him.
Halsin let out a growl as your fingers found the tip of his ears, gently tugging on them, âH-Halsin- I-I-â Your whole body felt like a string pulled taut, ready to snap at any second, âI- sâneed- Oh, gods! MâHalsin, I-I- AHH!!~â Your back arches, your hands gripping his ears as he pushes his tongue in as far as it will go, and the coil snaps.
You let out a wail, your orgasm washing over you, the waves crashing over your body as you squirt over Halsin's tongue and snout. He lets out a pleased growl, his tongue slowly moving, letting you ride out your orgasm as he laps up the sweet juices that had spilled from you. You are a panting, shaking mess as Halsin pulls his tongue from you, you shiver and whimper as his tongue runs over your folds one last time, licking his chops as he looks up at you⊠A golden light covering his bear shape as he returns to his elven form.
You reach out, cupping his cheek, and pull him in for a kiss, the taste of your own juices on his lips, you can feel him smile against your lips. Halsin pulls away and looks down at you, brushing a strand of hair from your face, a blush crossing his features, âAre you alright, my heart?â Halsin's voice was full of concern, his thick fingers finding the claw marks he had left behind, running his finger tips over them, making you moan slightly, thanking Oak Father he didnât break skin, âI fear I lost control for a moment, and did not intend to harm you- I apologize if I frightened you-â
You shake your head and reach out to grab his hand, pressing a kiss to his palm, âI'm okay, I'm perfect,â you whisper, âI- I was scared at first, but once I realized that I knew you would never hurt me, that you would stop if I told you to, it made it- made it exciting- It was exhilarating, and you, gods- how fortunate am I to have such a man between my legs.â
Halsin lets out a soft laugh, pressing a kiss to your lips, a gentle smile gracing his features, his hands coming up to cup your cheeks, his fingers stroking the back of your neck, âThe fortune is all mine,â he whispers, his nose brushing against yours.
#bg3#baldurs gate 3#baldurs gate#Halsin#halsin silverbough#halsin smut#bg3 smut#bg3 halsin#halsin bg3#halsin x tav#halsin x reader
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My first and only statement on all the accusations
Hello, Iâm sure most of you are aware of the accusations about me and some of the stories I posted on my account. This post is not only an apology post, but an accountability post that details everything that happened from beginning to end. Everything will be here, so I will not be making more posts about this unless itâs to direct to this one.
Adding a tw now for suicide baiting, death threats and mentions of razors. So sorry but it must be included.
First I just wanted to say, no I wasnât avoiding any of this. When this all started I was still in the middle of finals week, and I donât live on tumblr 24/7. I had to focus on my finals to ensure I can get my degree and graduate. That was my number one priority. If anyone was blocked or comments were restricted during that time, it was my mostly my irl friend ensuring I wasnât consumed by tumblr and could focus on my finals. I was already under a lot of stress and she offered to take over until I was finished with finals.
I was also getting death threats (people telling me to skin myself I alive and to jump). So she was ensuring that when I returned to my own blog, I would not see such triggering content. I have a history with suicide attempts and this was necessary for my mental health. The appropriate people were unblocked and remain unblocked to this day.
I always intended to make a statement, I just prioritized my real life first. It also took time to craft the post you are seeing now. I wanted it to be authentic, no misinformation, and well written.
So, as far as plagiarism goes, yes I did plagiarize specifically 3 of zombiekillerbiceps stories. I canât actually remember the names of them and the author has removed their account from the site. But on my end specifically âGetting Closerâ, âEdge of Controlâ and âThrillsâ were not my own writing. Before they deleted their account I had already reached out via dm and apologized. We came to an understanding. I do not know why they deleted their account but they essentially said in DMs they accepted my apology and wanted to put this behind us but they were very hurt that I had copied them.
Edit: I found the post they made calling me out and will attach it.

As far as His Watchful Eye goes, the only plagiarism that took place was specifically the first chapter of it and only the first chapter. The first chapter of Something Permanent and His Watchful Eye are very similar. The remaining 13 chapters are my own writing and ideas. I have already reached out to @explorevenus and apologized. She has responded and made her own statement regarding it if you want to go and read it.
The only reason it was in anon is because this account (dollgxtz) is my side blog. I couldnât figure out how to send a non anonymous message without exposing my main blog, so anon was the best thing. I didnât want people sending death threats too that one too. I shouldâve put my username in the anon, but it was already very late for me and I hadnât slept in about 26 hours. I just wasnât thinking very clearly and for that Venus I am also very sorry.
@manika-whims (the person that first wrote about all this) will remain blocked and some of her followers because I do suspect it was that group of people telling me to die. Manika wrote a very long post as she was upset that I âmischaracterizedâ Xavier in His Watchful Eye, called me a bitch and a loser because of a fictional man in a fictional story, and I will not entertain such immaturity. Full stop.
One of the anons that sent the suicide bait also called me a bitch and a waste of space. It was just too similar.

I also got this one. Itâs too graphic to show the entirety of it.

I apologize for the plagiarism. But I will never apologize for writing characters the way I do or for writing dark content. Itâs just not that serious. After she posted that I started getting these death threats and more.
You had every right to call me out for plagiarism Manika, but I stand my decision to keep you blocked. It had nothing to do with plagiarism accusations or me hiding from them, but I do believe you egged on your audience to come attack me over a fictional story and for that reason you will never be unblocked. Iâve attached screenshots below of the entire exchange. This is not to deflect from my own actions. This is simply to explain why she is blocked. She will say itâs because I was trying to hide from this but that is not true. I am just very sure the death threats came from her or her audience. This isnât to say that she absolutely did but just in case, for my own mental health and safety I had to have them blocked.






Now that thatâs discussed, I would like to address my readers and any future readers of mine. The plagiarized stories âGetting Closerâ âThrillsâ and âEdge of Controlâ. have been deleted and will remain deleted. Those of you asking for copies, please do not. They are not my writing nor my own works. Any remaining single work story on my blog is my own work and 100 percent my own ideas. My masterlist has been updated to reflect this as well.
When I first made my blog and posted those stories, I was a very insecure writer. I did not think I was truly capable of writing or making a good story. I did those things out of insecurity and not feeling good enough. But as time went on, I began to create my own stories and realize that I can write if I put my mind to it. These are not excuses, only explanations. Nothing excuses my behavior.
If you want to defend me, that is your own choice. I ask that you do not though in terms of plagiarism because I ultimately did plagiarize and that is 100 percent wrong of me to do. But in terms of AI usage accusations, these are not true. I have never and never will use AI to write.
I have spent countless hours writing chapters for His Watchful Eye, pulled all nighters, and even lost sleep making this story. I have timestamps in google docs that show me editing and writing my own story. I didnât even know AI had advanced to the point that you can write fully blown novels. But make no mistake, Ai checkers are not reliable. I had an incident in my first year of college where a paper I wrote got flagged for 77 percent ai generated content. That paper was written 100 percent by me over countless hours and still got flagged. It was a very scary time in my life and for that reason alone I will never use AI.
If you want to unfollow me, please do so. If you want to block me, please do so. I would never hold that against anyone and am not mad at anyone for doing so. Just donât come in my anon box telling me to jump, donât message me rude or disgusting messages telling me to die. I am a human, I am a real person behind the screen. What I did was wrong but you are no better telling someone to kill themselves. Please just block me.
All in all thanks for reading. If you unfollow, thanks for being here. If you donât, thanks for being here. If you want to be removed from any taglists, please just message me. You will not be blocked. Just removed from any future taglists! I have vowed to only post 100 percent of my own content from here on out, so if you stay I can promise you will only be reading my own work.
I am no longer the insecure writer that I once was, I now know my abilities and am confident enough to make my own stories. I have a 240,000 word fic out right now, I genuinely am still shocked I have done that. Writing has become a joy for me and I will not stop now. I shouldâve never been afraid to make mistakes or be bad at it. Iâm sorry to the people I hurt, my readers, and anyone reading this in the future. I am still growing and learning from my mistakes, and this has been the biggest lesson I will never forget.
Plagiarism is wrong and hurts authors. If you are reading this and have done so as well, please rethink your decisions and take them down, just as I have done.
I love interacting with you all, when you send me asks and messages about HWE or any of my original single fics. It is amazing getting to explain stuff or gush with you guys over the things that I have truly written. I truly love being an author and want my future as one to be honest and communicative.
The comments on this will be monitored, but not restricted. Voicing your thoughts is okay as long as they are respectful and not a direct threat to me or anyoneâs life. Questions are okay as well and I will answer to the best of my ability. Please no:
insulting me or any of the people mentioned in this post (manika, venus, zombie, etc)
death threats or suicide baiting anyone
I want this to be a mature and honest discussion, and that canât happen if I allow such comments. Despite what has been said about or to me, I do not want to replicate any insults/drama on my own blog. You can voice your displeasure or opinions without name calling.
Same goes for any messages or anon box messages you all may send to anyone involved here. We are all real people with feelings. Keep that in mind please before you message anyone.
We all make mistakes. Without mistakes, we cannot grow as people. Itâs what we do after we make those mistakes that truly attest to our character. And this is what Iâve chosen to do. Lay it all out for my readers and the rest of the LADS fandom to see, apologize to the people I hurt and only write my own stories from here on out. Thank you to the readers and friends who approached me with kindness and encouraged me to keep writing authentically. And thank you all for reading, I wish all of you the best in life đ€
-Umi à«źê° Ë¶âą àŒ âąË¶ê±á âĄ
Edit: The first chapter of His Watchful Eye had been rewritten shortly after this statement was released. It now reflects my own writing. That was the only chapter that had ever been plagiarized. All other chapters reflect my own writing and ideas, now including chapter one.
Just putting this here to clear up accusations in the reblogs. I never claimed that either author was okay with me plagiarizing off themâŠI simply apologized and linked to Venusâs original statement. I stated Zombie accepted my apology, but was never okay with the plagiarism. Venus never accepted my apology, and thatâs okay. I even told her I understood and that I didnât expect her to. Iâve never expected anyone to be okay with what I did. I did everything I could to remedy the situation and that was it.
I apologized, deleted the stories, made a statement and reworked what I needed to. Everyoneâs feelings on this are still 100 percent valid, and itâs totally okay to still be mad at me for this. I never expect Venus or Zombie to ever truly forgive me. However, letâs not spread misinformation. Reblogs are off from this point on to prevent the spread of misinformation. If you want to further discuss, youâre welcome to make your own posts. Thank you. âșïž
#umi rambles#love and deepspace#love and deepspace sylus#sylus x reader#sylus#lads#his watchful eye#dollgxtz#love and deepspace smut#sylus x reader smut#l&ds smut#lads smut#lnds#l&ds#love and deep space x reader#xavier love and deepspace#l&ds sylus#lads fic#love and deep space smut#lads sylus x reader#lads scenarios#love and deepspace zayne#rafayel love and deepspace
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Like Lovers Do
| Part 1 | Part 2 |
Pairing: Daemon Targaryen x fem!reader
Summary: You and Daemon would dream about marrying each other before both of you became victims of political marriages, very much against your wills: he was sent to the Vale and you to the Riverlands. However, when your lord husband passes away, you return to Kingâs Landing, only to find out that your childhood sweetheart is now wearing a crown of his own.
A/N: I am finally back for the Daemon x reader fics, you lovely people! I hope you still remember me after that loooooooooong gap... Anyways, I once again wrote too much and couldn't even get to the point I was heading - I intended this story to be a one-shot but it seems I will be writing another chapter for the spicy stuff ;) I hope you enjoy it! (I am also open to any Daemon requests you might have for me!)
Warnings: I am not a native English speaker, strong language
Taglist: @throughgoeshamilton @mirandastuckinthe80s @xicesam @mariamyousef702 @eddiemadmunson @dont-try-pesticide @sweetybuzz25 @hc-geralt-23 @schniiipsel @ttae-yong @syrma-sensei @asiludida164 @kaitieskidmore1 @irmavanity-blog @pax-2735 @trickrtreatart @shanzeyxsyed @random-human02 @scarwicht @xcallmetaniax @instabull @niiight-dreamerrrr @my-dark-prince @stargaryenx @abaker74 @babywolff @sonnensplitter @bi-narystars @softtina
You had almost forgotten the way his voice sounded.
Fourteen long years had it been, the last time you were given the privilege to let your eyes wander on his handsome face as long as they desired.
You had expected time to have changed you in all the possible ways anyone could ever imagine, the years you had spent at the Riverlands being no different than a bird in a cage did harden you to your very core; however, the moment his sweet voice reached your ears again, you felt yourself melting just as you did when you were six-and-ten.
For the first time in fourteen years; for the first time after you had left King's Landing, you were feeling the warmth in your heart again, waking up from its deep slumber, melting the frost that used to be your heart.
At first, you hadn't even believed it when you heard the whispers roaming the castle about the return of the Rogue Prince.
"Prince Daemon is back," the whispers had said, "and he is wearing a crown."
King of the Narrow Sea? You had thought to yourself, following the crowds into the Throne Room. Is he going to challenge his brother now? Have the years turned him completely mad?
And now, you were watching him, King of the Narrow Sea, give up his crown to King Viserys.
He really is back.
After the ceremony in the Throne Room was over, the Royals and the Small Council moved to the Godswood to celebrate the Prince's victory over the Triarchy. You weren't quite sure whether it was expected of you to join them; however, upon seeing the way your father looked at you, you decided to follow them. Your heart was racing as if it was trying to break free from your chest.
Your father's position in King Jaehaerysâ and after him King Viserysâ Small Council had allowed you an easy, enjoyable life within the walls of the Red Keep, allowing you to share the early years of your youth with Prince Daemon, growing up alongside him.
Until he decided it was time for you to marry a rich lord and be shipped to the Riverlands, of course. You had known long before your father made his decision that you would, sooner or later, have to marry someone - preferably some lord from one of the Great Houses.
However, you had expected your father to come to you with this delicate matter first, instead of shaking hands with the lords as if he was doing some kind of trade.
"I do not care about some stupid lord in the Riverlands," you had told your father upon hearing the terrible news about your future. "I am going to marry Prince Daemon, Father. How can you even begin to compare him with any other man in the Seven Kingdoms?"
"Prince Daemon is going to the Vale," your father had responded in a cold voice. It made you realize he had wished for you to become the Prince's wife perhaps even more than you yourself had. "It has been decided that he is to take Lady Rhea Royce as his wife." Upon seeing the tears beginning to form in your eyes, your father had held your hands. "I am sorry, my sweet girl, but there is no other way."
Even though you had known all these years, deep down, that your father's only wish was for you to have an easy, wealthy life (and at the meanwhile keeping his good connections, and establishing relations with the strong houses), the anger you had been feeling never really faded away.
Yes, you had led a wealthy life for the last fourteen years; however, being the second wife of a (compared to your six-and-ten self) fairly old lord had taken all the happiness you had ever known from you. It was almost as if you had forgotten how to enjoy life...
After arriving at the Godswood - since the Red Keep was enormous, it always took ages to get from one place to another - you too poured yourself a glass of red wine as you stood beside your father. King Viserys and some other members of the Small Council were talking with Prince Daemon, mostly about the war against the Triarchy.
Somehow, it seemed like Daemon didn't even notice you were there, maybe he didn't really recognise you after all those years - you couldn't say.
Until King Viserys saw you standing next to your father, the Master of Coins.
The King's face lightened with a bright smile as he turned his eyes to his younger brother, placing his left hand on Daemon's shoulder. "Brother, you surely remember Lord Beesbury's lovely daughter," the King spoke with a delightful tone. "She has, too, recently returned to King's Landing."
The world froze around the two of you when Daemon's purple eyes met yours. Every other person standing there with you faded away, and all the other sounds melted into silence until it was just you and him, the same memory playing in front of your eyes.
"I am going to make you my Queen one day," Daemon whispered in your ear. "I promise you."
You were out at the Godswood, sitting under the moonlight - both of you had to be around sixteen, it was shortly before the calamity that was your marriage.
You raised an eyebrow in his direction. "So you plan on winning me and the Iron Throne?" You asked him, only to earn a cocky smirk.
"You would be surprised to see what I am capable of, my Lady."
I have seen what you are capable of, my Prince, you thought as you came back to reality. You were breathing heavily. Capable of winning a war without the support of the Crown, earning your very own crown - but you still gave it up to your brother.
To prevent the awkward silence from getting any longer, Daemon quickly wore his famous smirk as he nodded at the King. "Of course, how could I not," he spoke with a charming aura surrounding him. Taking a step towards you, the Prince held your right hand gently and brought it to his lips. "It has been many years, my Lady." The Prince told you. "Though, it is somewhat unfair that the years have not touched your beauty, not in the slightest."
The poker face, which only showed a humble smile fitting of a lady of your position, would never give away that you were, in fact, dying inside. Feeling his lips and his touch for the very first time in fourteen years had hit you like a wall of bricks.
"You flatter me, my Prince," you spoke with your best I-am-a-noble-lady tone. "Congratulations on your victory."
Before continuing the conversation with his brother and the other Lords, Daemon gave you a small nod - only you realised that he had allowed his eyes to linger on your face longer than they needed to.
[Time Skip}
"I wasn't expecting to see you here again, after all those years."
Hearing his velvet voice, you raised your head to look at Daemon, who was standing to your right. Fixing your silver dress and crossing one leg over the other, you waited for him to continue speaking.
"Why aren't you at the Rivenlands?"
You raised an eyebrow at the Prince as you responded while mimicking the same cocky tone he always used. "Why haven't you been at the Vale all those years?"
The edge of Daemon's lips curled upwards as he shook his head, he was wearing a red, long-armed tunic under his long, black cloak - proudly carrying the colours of his House. "Your attitude hasn't changed even in the slightest, love."
You rolled your eyes at him, keeping your attitude, not letting it falter under the heavy weight of the love your heart still carried for him. Of course, it would have been a lot easier to give into your heart's whispers and welcome him with arms wide open; however, you had grown overmuch furious with him over the years.
First and foremost, he had broken off every damn contact with you at an instant as soon as you had left King's Landing. You haven't heard from Daemon for fourteen years. News and gossip about his doings had reached your ears, of course, but not from Daemon himself.
And second, it had hurt you too fucking much when you saw he had done nothing to fight for your love. As the Prince, he could have had more of a say in the matter than you, but all he had done was tell you goodbye and disappear into the night. That was the last you had seen of him, fourteen years ago.
At first, you had thought that perhaps, Daemon had found the idea of marrying Lady Rhea Royce more appealing than marrying you. Until the news had reached the Riverlands about the Rogue Prince's failed marriage - not long after, he had returned to King's Landing, never to visit the Vale ever again.
Rhea Royce had never been what Daemon desired, and apparently, you too - else, he would have at least tried to find a way to arrange something, anything.
Placing your hands on your lap, you asked. "Can I be of further assistance to you, my Prince?"
"You can start by providing me with an answer, my Lady," Daemon said, arching an eyebrow in your direction. "Why did you return to King's Landing? Has your lord husband got a place in the Small Council now?"
"He has passed away," you spoke with a low voice while playing with your fingers. "A few months ago."
The Prince licked his lower lip. "I would wish to offer you my condolences, love," he spoke, "but I have never liked the sight of that cunt."
Your eyes widened with shock upon hearing his words, you hissed between your teeth. "Seven hells, Daemon!" The Prince shrugged in a careless manner. "Show at least some respect to the dead!"
"Will you be staying here?" he asked, earning a nod from you. "Why not stay at the Riverlands?"
This time, you turned your eyes away - his intense gaze was making you feel dizzy. "There is nothing for me there, at the Riverlands. My late husband's eldest nephew holds the Lord title now." Taking a deep breath, you leaned forward to pour yourself some wine. "You see, we didn't have any children to inherit my late husband's position, hence there was no more need for me."
Upon feeling Daemon's hand closing on top of yours, you quickly raised your head to look at him. Gently, the Prince took the carafe from your hands to pour you a glass of wine. With slow movements, he handed you the glass.
"I thought the whole idea behind you marrying that old man was to provide him with heirs," Daemon spoke, his purple eyes lighting with curiosity. He didn't even explicitly ask about the reason behind the failure but you could easily read it from the way he looked.
"We did try, for years, but..." Taking a moment, you took a big sip from your wine. "He could have tried with a dozen other women for another ten years and it still wouldn't have changed anything."
Daemon pursed his lips upon understanding the meaning behind your words. "I see, this explains why he didn't have any heirs from his first marriage, too." You nodded. "Good riddance, should I say now? At least you are free from that burden of yours."
"As if you cared about me or my burden," you snorted. Upon seeing the confused look inside his eyes, you first drank your half-empty glass - all at once - and then stood up. Raising your head, you looked Daemon in the eye, your faces standing dangerously close to each other. "It has been fourteen fucking years, Daemon," you spoke with a low voice but still, your fury could be heard in every word. "And not one fucking raven from you. You just walked away from my life, as if I meant nothing to you!"
Towards the end, your tone tended to become higher, thus you took a deep breath to keep yourself under control. From the corner of your eye, you could see Queen Alicent and your father taking a curious look in your direction.
With his left hand, Daemon held you firmly on your right wrist as he whispered, looking down at you. "You meant everything to me," he put emphasis on each word. "Don't you dare act as if you don't know it."
Your chest brushed against his with every breath, you could feel the warmth radiating off his body. At that very moment, the only thing you wanted was for Daemon to push you against the stone wall behind you and kiss you until you couldn't remember your own name anymore.
With slow movements, Daemon leaned into your ear, his warm breath brushing against your neck. You didn't even realise you were pressing your lips against each other - your breaths were heavy, your head felt dizzy and you slowly got drunk with his smell surrounding you.
"Do you have any idea," the Prince whispered in your ear, his voice full of sex appeal. You could melt right then and there, inside his arms. "How many nights I have spent, thinking about you?"
Back then, when you were both young and in love, Daemon had never touched you other than sharing small kisses (and rarely not-so-small kisses) for you wanted to wait until marriage.
In retrospect, you believed your younger self to have been too naive and, well, young - after seeing one could in fact do whatever they desired as long as it was discrete enough.
Now, all the lust and desire you both had been bottling up for years came to the surface.
Holding onto the last bits of your will, you took a step back, putting some visible distance between Daemon and yourself - so that you could think clearly once more.
"Then why," you asked, your voice sounding weaker than you wanted it to. "Why did you disappear from my life?"
The Prince cast a quick look at the curious people around you - some of the council members seemed kind of interested in your conversation with Daemon since they were sending curious looks in your direction every other second.
Muttering something under his breath - he was probably cursing at the nosiness of the people - Daemon quickly put on one of his most charming smiles. "Perhaps the lady would like to grant me the honour of dining with her this evening," he spoke with his velvet-like voice as he took your hand and brought it to his soft lips. The mild wind was causing his silver hair to sway ever so gently. "Where we can discuss further, as long as she likes."
Your heart skipped a beat.
Of course, you knew what his true intention was. This invitation was more than just a dinner where you could both scream at each other about the fourteen years you have lost - it was also to make up for all that time.
Your brain was shouting at you, telling you that you were making a big mistake - the Prince was still married, even though his marriage had been a bigger failure than yours - but your desires were stronger.
"I would love to, my Prince." The words left your lips before you could even think.
Daemon winked at you before leaving Godswood. "I will be waiting for you in my chambers, love."
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Once More, An Evil From Which You Can't Return SE - Part 1: Elbert Greetia
áŻœPlease note: I am only translating Elbie's end for this part one event. Meaning it's Elbert's chapter, the Ending and Epilogue. The "second" Chapter is solely Alfon's Chapter and has no bearing on the story. And sorry if it sounds a bit stiff, it's been a while since Iâve translated Elbie.
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(Huh?âŠ.Where am I?)
When I woke up, I wasn't in my room at Crown Castle, but lying on a bed in a strange room.
(I remember that last night Alfons and Lord Elbert invited me to drink some delicious alcohol...)
The sweet apple-flavored liquor was easy to drink and scrumptious.
I had only intended to drink a little, but they urged me to drink more, and before I knew it, I had passed out.
(Someone brought me here while I was sleepingâŠ..?)
Amidst my confusion in an unfamiliar place, there was a knock on the door to my room, so I opened it.
Elbert: âŠ..You woke up. Good morning.
(Good thing Iâm in a place where I know peopleâŠ!)
Kate: Pardon me, Lord Elbert. I don't remember coming to this mansion...where am I?
Kate: Perhaps, Iâve lost my memory againâŠ?
It was only yesterdayâŠ..that I experienced amnesia when I woke up.
So, I ask timidly, worried that I've forgotten something today too.
Elbert: Al and I brought you to the mansion while you were drunk and passed out, so it's no wonder you don't remember.
Apparently, this is a mansion owned by Lord Elbert.
Kate: I seeâŠâŠ.I'm glad I didnât get drunk and storm into someone else's house or anything.
(But why was I brought here?)
(If I was drunk, they couldâve just returned me to my room at Crown CastleâŠ.)
(Well, whatever the reasonâŠ.Itâs probably the best not to overstay here.)
Kate: I can't cause you any more trouble, so I'll be returning to Crown right away.
Kate: Thank you for all of your helpâŠâŠ -?
As I was leaving the room, Lord Elbert grabbed my arm.
Elbert: âŠ..Roger explained that if you change your environment, it may help recover your memories.
Kate: Is that why you invited me to your mansion, Lord Elbert?
Elbert: âŠ..Yes. Iâd like you to live here for the time being.
Kate: Lord Elbert, why do you want my memories to return?
Elbert: âŠâŠ
Kate: Oh... I'm sorry. It was rude of me to ask such a strange question...!
Kate: I also want my past memories to come back.
Kate: Itâs just, Iâm a bit confused as to why youâre treating me so kindly, Lord ElbertâŠ!
As if to ease my tension while I tried to explain, Elbert gently smiled.
Elbert: Itâs fine. âŠ.I understand.
Elbert: âŠ.You may have forgotten, but I do have a reason.
Elbert: Kate, the reason why I want to recover your memoriesâŠ.. is becauseâŠ
Perhaps itâs because Elbert is standing with the sunlight at his backâŠ
âŠ.But a shadow suddenly fell across his face, making his expression look heavy.
Elbert: And nowâŠ..I have to protect you.
Kate: Protect�
Elbert: No, Iâm sorryâŠ..Please forget about it.
The questions were growing, but the atmosphere wasnât conducive to digging deeper, and Elbertâs grip on my arm didnât weaken.
Kate: I understand. I think Iâll stay her for a while.
Elbert: âŠ.Iâm glad. You can think of this as your homeâŠ.So, spend your time at ease.
Thus began my life at Elbertâs estate.
To keep my spirits up, Elbert takes me by the hand and shows me things everyday.
Today, Elbert took me to the mansionâs garden.
The sun was rising in the direction he was pointing, and as I squinted my eyes at the brighteness -
Kate: OhâŠ! What a cute little bird!
There were seeds in a wooden box in the garden, and several birds were visting to peck at them.
Kate: Lord Elbert, do you always feed seeds to birds at your mansion like this?
Elbert: NoâŠ..I tried it after you came to the mansion. I thought that looking at cute animals would soothe youâŠ..
Kate: Thank you, Lord Elbert. HeheâŠ.the little birds look happy too.
Elbert: Itâs only been a few days since I started leaving the bird seed, butâŠ..Day by day, more and more little ones come.
Kate: Maybe the birds are spreading word about the nice garden with delicious food.
Elbert: âŠâŠPerhaps youâre right.
Elbert: Kate. Does this mansionâŠ..feel comfortable to you?
Kate: Yes, very much.
Elbert: âŠ.Could you, stay here forever?
I hesitate to answer.
From Elbertâs expression and tone of voice, I sensed an incredible weight in the word âforever.â
Kate: UmâŠ.
Elbert: âŠ..I see.
As I stammered, Elbert just smiled sorrowfully.
Kate: Do you want me to stay at the mansion to protect me?
Elbert: âŠ..Yes.
Kate: UmâŠ.Can you tell me? What is it youâre trying to protect me from, Lord ElbertâŠ.
I wanted to know what was making Elbertâs expression cloud.
To know and remove the causeâŠ.I wanted Elbert to smile.
Elbert: Thatâs -
Just as Elbert was about to speak,
Alfons: Lord Elbie.
Alfons appeared and called Elbertâs name.
It was like he was trying to prevent Elbert from answering.

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AFFECTION'S EDGE: PART I
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|| alpha!suguru getou x omega!afab reader || E/18+ || wc: 6.5k || ao3 || Part II -> coming soon! || masterlist ||
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âYouâve got it all wrong,â he murmurs, âbut what am I to expect from a stray like you? Youâve lived off scraps and abuse your whole life; of course you donât know what to do now that Iâve given you food and shelter.â Suguruâs fingers ease up towards your neck as he continues, âa warm bed to lie in. Toys to play with. A collarâso youâll never be lost again. No oneâs ever given you this before, hm?â
***
Suguru tries to tame you.
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â§ SPRING FEVER collab masterlist â§
cw: omegaverse, brat taming, mind games, toxic behavior, yandere suguru getou, yandere reader if you squint, biting, blood, marking, eventual forced bathing in later parts, eventual forced feeding in later parts, eventual smut in later parts; masturbation, voyeurism, a blurring of boundaries, consent as punishment?
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âI think youâd be perfect.âÂ
Suguruâs voice is a caress, low and soft, as he sits across from you.Â
Somehow, he always makes you feel like he is just beneath the surface of your skin, even if there is a respectable distance between you. He always makes you feel as if he is lurking somewhere in the lowest parts of you, pulling at strings you once thought hidden to yourself.Â
Youâve kept your distance for this reason.
You swallow hard.Â
And then you manage to get your voice to unstick, to find it somewhere inside of you and bring it to life. Itâs firmer than youâre anticipating and youâre proud;
âI donât think I would be.âÂ
Suguru looks at you in a way that makes you feel as if heâs seeing through you, pulling you open slowly to gaze at all the inner workings of you. His dark eyes are keen, so sharp, even if theyâre shaded by half-lidded lashes.Â
He smiles pleasantly and indulges you, but you know he believes very firmly that he is, in fact, right, âwhy not?âÂ
âI told you when I agreed to join youâall I wanted in exchange for helping you, was to be an unbound Omega.â You force yourself to meet his eyes and to not get sucked into the dark tide of them.Â
âYou asked for my protection.â He reminds you.Â
Your eyes flash this time, heated, a little spark that skitters to life inside of you.
âI didnâtââÂ
âIs that not what youâd call it?â Suguru asks, âwhen I interfered, every time, to be sure no other Alpha got to you? Or when I scented you to keep them away?â
Prickling warmth dots your cheeks, can feel at the back of your neck, too, the tips of your ears. You try a different tactic.Â
âIâm not a homemaker.âÂ
His smile is soft, âI donât want a homemaker.âÂ
âIâm not obedient.â You counter again, as if you could dissuade Suguru Getou once heâs made up his mind.
âYouâve been quite good for me.â Suguru says smugly and this time, a little noise of embarrassment or frustration eeks out of you. A short, sharp little growl from your throat, almost a groan of irritation. Â
âIâIâm doing your dirty work. Thatâs our agreement! You give me assignments that I complete and in return, I get my freedom.âÂ
âI donât know why youâre so opposed to this. Is it not similar already to what we have now?â He asks simply, âIâd still let you roam, if thatâs what youâre so scared of.âÂ
âNo itâs thatâthat power and mentality that I donât want you to have over me.â You snap.Â
âI already have it,â he says and it isnât intended to be cruel, but certainly is, âhow long do you think youâd last, without the protection of an Alpha?âÂ
âI didnât have any before you.âÂ
âYou were starving, injured, and constantly on the run before me.â You open your mouth to protest, but he cuts you off, âit would still give you what you want.âÂ
âI donât want to be yours.â You say frankly, perhaps to be cruel yourself. And then you show teeth a little, flash them in warning, âI donât want your mark.â
Suguru looks amused, if anything, by your display.Â
His smile is knowing and insufferable. It makes your anger ratchet up inside of you, hackles rising. You feel a little growl working its way out of your throat. It tears out of you in annoyance, when he says, âI donât believe you.âÂ
You slam the door so hard on its hinges that it rattles the entire wall. You wish it would rattle all the world.Â
***
Your cursed technique rips to life like a star exploding outwards.Â
Beast that you are, it overtakes you, transforms you until you are all claws and dripping, little fangs. Your body elongates, elegant, and built for speed, viciousness. The horns atop your head are sharp, too, curled the slightest into a crescent shape. The beast in you stretches and pulls at your bones, fits your skin to it in a way that you have come to know well.Â
(âCursed technique: Cursed Creature,â Suguru hums, âallows you to turn into a cursed version of yourself, a sort of,â he pauses, looking you over, âmonster?âÂ
âThatâs right.â You tell him, body trembling all over, in dire need of food. Care. Sleep.Â
He places a large hand on top of your head, strokes gently, until his hand nudges your cheek, beneath your chin so you are forced to look up into his eyes. Depthless violet.Â
âYou have a deal.â)
The sorcerer is cast backward with the force of your transformation. In this form, everything heightens, sharpening into brilliance. So much brighter, clearer. So much more overwhelming.Â
You are a flash of darkness when you move, a mass of lethality.Â
The sorcerer doesnât stand a chance, the moment you dash past him with a deep swipe of your claws, you know this will be an easy match. You chitter in this form, excited, warbly little sound erupting from you before you careen towards him again.Â
This time, he is warped away.Â
But you are fast, changing your trajectory mid-step to catch up to where he was warped.Â
Except, this time, a white haired sorcerer takes his place.Â
Your claws meet air.Â
A growling hiss erupts from your throat.Â
Satoru Gojo.Â
Suguru told you to stay away from him. At all costs.
And speak of the devil, your name is called, whistled almost. Your head turns to find Suguru appearing, too.Â
Faintly, the more human part of you wonders what the occasion is.Â
For a moment, all you can see is threat. Your hackles rise as your growling gets lower, more sinister, your form moving behind Gojo as if you might circle him, unable to let down your guard.Â
âCall off your pet,â Gojo says.Â
Suguru calls your name again and thereâs something else in his tone now, a little sharper.Â
(Fear, you wonder faintly, in some far away part of your mind. Is he worried Gojo would hurt you?)
You come to heel at Suguruâs side, remaining in this form, making a low, threatening sound still. Warning. Your claws still drip with the blood of that sorcerer.Â
âGo,â Suguru says to you.Â
Your head snaps to look at him, eyes narrowing. âIâm not leaving,â you snap and the words have a bite to it, around the curves of your fangs. You look back at Gojo. If this comes to blows, you donât want Suguru facing Gojo aloneâyou donât want to leave his back suddenly unguarded.Â
Itâs counterintuitive to you, goes against all of your instincts. You donât leave him, you donât leave his side, his back.Â
âGo,â Suguru says, harsher this time and the command seeps into you. You waver. And then, âI wonât tell you again.âÂ
When you hiss at him in that warbling way of curses, he smiles faintly, almost fondly, as your teeth drip with venom. But you do listen to him this time.
And with your heightened hearing, you hear Gojo underneath his breath as you slink away;
âHow interesting.âÂ
***
When Suguru returns to you, he is unharmed.Â
Youâd paced the length of the hallway outside of his room in the compound until you could have worn a hole into it.Â
Few would be brave enough to wait for Suguru outside his door.Â
When he arrives, he is mildly surprised to see you, before his expression melts into a sort ofâsmugness. A knowing glint to his eyes.Â
âWhy would you send me away?â You snap.
âYou couldâve gone in, you know, if it wouldâve soothed you.â Suguru says instead, head nodding towards the door to his suite. âWould you like a key?âÂ
You blanche, taking a half step back, âI donâtââ
It allows him to get to his door and open it. Youâve been here before, in the privacy of his suite, but now it feels strange. A little different. He holds the door open for you.Â
You glance at the threshold and feel as if youâre making an important decision.Â
âCome on,â he says smoothly and before you can think twice about it, you are being led inside, his hand drifting somewhere near your lower back. He never touches you, the feeling is a phantom one, the impression of it. You shiver a little.Â
But you round on him again, âwhy would you send me away?â
He doesnât acknowledge you, instead he goes rifling in a drawer, digging around a little.Â
His suite is larger than others. The living room is open and attached is the kitchen. Itâs all light wood, with tall windows that overlook the courtyard. You know, despite never being inside, that his bedroom is down the hall and to the left. The bathroom is across from it. Youâve sat many times on the floor of his living room with him, going over assignments, plans that he has, and what heâd like you to do.Â
When he finds what heâs looking for, he makes a soft noise, before turning to you with a small, gold key.Â
âI donât want a key!â You snap.Â
âItâs a spare, take it just in case.â He replies and when you donât move to grab it from him, he takes your hand in his much larger one, and opens your palm to him.Â
He places the key in your hand.Â
And then his eyes catch yours, âyou were worried.âÂ
âNo-!â you get out, âI donât like beingâIâm supposed to protect you.âÂ
Suguru smiles, hand still swallowing yours, âisnât that sweet?â he remarks, âan Omega attempting to protect an Alpha.â
Immediately, you jerk away from him.
The key is still in your shaking fist.Â
âDonât start,â you snarl, low and vicious and hurt, âIâve always been the one at your side.âÂ
âYes,â he agrees, hand falling back down to his side listlessly. âI already told you that.âÂ
Youâve always been at my side, heâd said, when he was trying to convince you toâ
âThatâs not what I meant!â Your voice rises without your consent and you feel an embarrassed, angry flush through your face for being so worked up. The room is thick with your worry and anger and frustration, all of your pent up energy like a knot in your chest, in your voice. Itâs in your heart and the way you look at him.Â
âIt doesnât matter what you meant,â Suguru says easily, âitâs still the truth.âÂ
When you slam the door this time, you hear something fall from the wall.Â
But the key is still in your trembling hand, digging indents into your palm, and your heart is still a beast in your chest.
And behind the closed door, Suguru Getou smiles fondly, and retrieves the fallen, shattered frame from the floor.Â
***
For a while, you avoid Suguru.Â
You stuff the key he gave you in your nightstand drawer, far in the back, in an attempt to keep it out of sight and out of your mind.Â
And at first, you think he is respecting your boundaries; you receive assignments through others from him. You see him only in passing and he never speaks directly to you. He hardly acknowledges you.Â
But after a week and a half, it begins to feel like punishment.Â
And the key is starting to burn and itch in your mind. You think about it at night, tossing over in your bed; you think about unlocking his door at this hour. What would you find? Would he be asleep? Awake? Alone? Fully dressed?Â
You think of him half bare and lounging, hair slipping over his shoulders, and the scent of sandalwood and fig. Tonka or something woodsy, maybe. You know it well and it lingers long after he leaves you.Â
You suddenly miss it, crave it.Â
Him.Â
You twist beneath your sheets.Â
Why did he have toâ
You make a soft noise of frustration, turning over again.Â
Youâre restless.Â
Something beneath your skin begins to itch and squirm.Â
Previously, Suguru had hardly mentioned your status as an Omega. He rarely acknowledged it; you were too brilliant of a sorcerer for him to care, you thought. You were too powerful. The only instance he brought it up was to scent you, a form of caution in a particular instance, for a particular mission. The memory still simmers in your mind, the way heâd rubbed the gland on your wrist with a careful thumb. Heâd given you clothes of his to wear. Heâd had you sit in his quarters for long hours, until it seemed as if you were his, in some way.Â
But now that heâs actually brought it up, offered you his bite, to be his, it paints him in an entirely different light.Â
Had he alwaysâŠwanted you?Â
Was he always planning this?Â
The naive, desperate parts of you want to believe this is a recent thought of his. Previous to this, he only ever saw you as another sorcerer, a powerful one that aided him. You had always been one of the closer ones to him, at his heel, his beck and call.Â
Youâd be lying if you said youâd never thought of Suguru this way; as an Alpha. An unmated one, who kept your company.Â
And he does, no matter how badly it burns to admit it, protect you.
You know he wards off Alphas.Â
You know he perhaps does more than even that.Â
But you donât wantâ
You donât want to be mated.Â
You donât want to suddenly be coddled by him, held back, donât want to be the little thing that keeps his bed warm.
Your face heats with the thought.Â
Images flash through your mind, flickering, melting together like film that bleeds and runs, of him overtop you. Shrouding you. His hair on your shoulders and back. You think of his mouth on your throat, teeth in your neck.Â
You rub at your eyes suddenly as if to clear them.
You know he leaves on a mission for a week in two days.Â
You assume, at some point, heâll speak to you. And break this strange silence.Â
Youâll both return to normal then.
And then perhaps you wonât lose any more sleep over him.
***
Suguru never says goodbye to you.Â
It shouldnât bother you as much as it doesâyou just figured heâd finally drop this silly little silence game.
You suppose he mustâve thought the same of you.
Besides, what were you expecting from him? An apology? Itâs foolish to even entertain. You knew you werenât going to apologize either. The least youâll do, when he returns, is act as if all is normal again. Perhaps itâs better that way, not to address what heâs put in his head recently.Â
The more you speak of it, or think of it, the worse it unravels in your mind.Â
On the second day that he is gone, you realize you miss his scent.Â
You realize it has become such a staple in your everyday life that its sudden disappearance is almost alarming. It makes you more irritable, more vicious. You snap at the others faster, bite out insults and brutalities.Â
Youâ
Well, you miss it.Â
Him, maybe.Â
The admittance is a hard one to swallow around. It burns going down.Â
On the third day, youâre genuinely craving his scent in a way that makes your teeth ache. You had no idea you could even miss a scent like this, need it so bad that your body would betray you with a physical pain in your chest. Somewhere in your mouth, under your tongue.Â
You try to ignore it.Â
You go on with your life.Â
But by the fifth day, you are agitated and aggressive. Everyone knows something is wrong with you. You know something is wrong with you. You can feel it beneath your skin, crawling, squirming. It makes you want to tear out your hair, rip at your nails, or sink your teeth into something. Youâre restless.
You canât sleep.Â
You can hardly eat or think.Â
And as you lay awake in your bed, kicking at sheets, sweating and twisting, you know what it is you need.Â
Youâve known the whole week.Â
You throw back the covers and wrench open your bedside drawer.Â
The key rattles, hot, like it knows itâs finally about to be used. Itâs musical sound a siren song, itâs been burning away in there the whole week.Â
You swipe it and turn sharply from your bedroom. From your own apartment.Â
Itâs the middle of the night; not a soul sees you in the compound.Â
Like a person possessed, you walk. Your back is straight. Your steps are quick. Your mind is set, on fire.
Suguruâs door has haunted you the whole week.
The key in your hand digs into the flesh, carving itâs divots there like your hand might be the lock itself.Â
You try not to think about itâyou unlock the door. You throw it open.Â
You shut it behind you, slide the lock back into place.Â
Darkness greets you.
You wander in like you know the place (you do, you doâ)
You wander in like itâs yours to wander in.Â
Instantly, something loosens inside of you.Â
You exhale hard.Â
Inhale sharp.Â
The smell of him, fainter because heâs been gone, assaults your senses, sweeps over them. You take in a lungful like gasping for air, you smell faint traces of fig and sandalwood. Notes of tonka that you long for, that urge you to move deeper into his space.Â
In the dark, you make your way down the hall, towards his bedroom.
You haunt the arch for a moment.
Guilt or regret or embarrassment almost seize you. They make you pause.Â
Some sane part of you is clawing at your insides, wailing to turn around and leave. Leave now.Â
But he gave you a key.
He gave you a key, you think in circles, again and again. He gave me a key.Â
You cross the threshold.
You sink down into his bed and his scent is strongest here, even still, after several days itâs his.Â
You turn over the covers to get beneath them, cool sheets against your legs, sliding and smooth. You turn your face into his pillow and inhale.Â
A soft little groan works itâs way out of you.
Instantly, your muscles slacken.Â
Everything leeches from you; your anger and irritation and restlessness.Â
It soothes you so deeply and so swiftly it makes your head spin.Â
You curl beneath his blankets and take deep pulls of breath, squirming a moment if only to bring his scent tighter around you. You envelope yourself in it.You shroud yourself in it.Â
And finally, after five days of restless nights, you fall asleep almost instantly.Â
Not a single dream. Not one moment where you wake or stir.Â
You sleep deeply.Â
In the morning, the sun warms you through the broad windows like a content cat.Â
You stretch lazily like one, too.
Suguru will be home tomorrow.Â
You know you need to leave his bed, hope that your scent dissipates by the time he returns.Â
You didnât do anything wrong, you knowâhe gave you a key.Â
He gave you a key.Â
But rather, you know he would never let you live it down. He would use it instantly, as ammunition for his argument, the debate that the two of you keep circling.
You donât quite leave as quickly as you should still, though:Â
You linger.
Youâre comfortable.
Calmed for the first time all week.
And when you do slip out, itâs silently, locking the door behind you.
Like maybe you wonât ever let yourself back in there, trying to shut it like it was a one time indulgence and gone now from your mind and body.Â
But his scent clings to you.Â
And little do you know, your scent clings to his sheetsâand to Suguru, itâs sweet as can be and unmistakableâirreplaceable.
He collapses in his own bed when he returns and knows youâve been all over it. He can smell the crush of dark berries, jasmine, the soothing note of vanilla that clings to you, that heâs come to adore.Â
He grins to himself and knows then, heâs got you right where he wants you.
***
For a moment, you think Suguru is going to make you be the bigger person and apologize upon his return.Â
Instead, he finds you.Â
And he doesnât say heâs sorry for his recent behavior, but he does say;
âIâd prefer if you didnât avoid me in the future.â
It feels like sorry enough.Â
And for some time, things return to a state of normal.
A version of it.
It isnât quite like it was beforeâin fact, you seem to spend more time around him than previously. He calls on you more. He brings you into his space more frequently, often urging you to eat with him, beside him, at his table.
This is ideal for you. Close but not too close.
Although, he begins to ask, donât you have your key? Canât you let yourself in?Â
You say you havenât used it.
He hums like he knows differently, but doesnât press you.
Until finally he asks you to retrieve a notebook in his study and bring it to him.
Fetch, he says.
âItâs locked, isnât it?â
âYou have your key.â He answers simply, not looking up from the book he is reading.Â
For a moment, you almost protest, but something stops you. Maybe the twitch in his brow.
Itâs a useless argument to pick, anyways.
You do have a key.
It would be fastest, easiest, to just use it.
So you do.Â
And you hand him the notebook he asked for, fingers brushing against his as he takes it from you with gentle hands.
âThank you,â he adds, voice so smooth and low, almost tempting.
You swallow a little.
Then you quickly avert your gaze.Â
âWhatever,â you grouse, but he smiles fondly, amused.
And it opens another door, more than just the one to his suite.
***
Tentatively, you begin to come and go.
The first (second)Â time you use your key to enter without his order, he is careful not to react to you any differently than how he usually does.Â
His eyes brighten a little, though, like a leopard thatâs caught something interesting in its sights and is waiting to see what itâll do.Â
Still, you grow more comfortable entering his space on your own.Â
You claim portions of it; a corner of the couch. A particular cushion around his low table. All of the sunny patches in his suite become yours, scented with you, indented with you. More than that, some horrible, hidden part of you adores that your scent is all over his space.Â
Itâs comforting to find it beside his scent.Â
It soothes a part of you that you donât wish to admit to.Â
His hands grow bolder.Â
Now theyâre always hovering at the small of your back, the nape of your neck. He tucks strands of your hair away from your face and though you jerk away from him, itâs often half-hearted. You snip at him and he only smiles.
Pleased. Smug. Knowing.Â
His hands guide you as you walk beside him.
You grow accustomed to his touch in some wayâhe makes sure of it.
Then, as if to prove somethingâ
Another cult member begins to cause trouble with you; he is another Omega. He begins with snide comments and remarks that test your patience. He doesnât stop until you are growling and bristled and ready for a fight.Â
And all it takes to stop you is Suguruâs large hand coming down on the nape of your neck.Â
His thumb rests atop one scent gland at your throat, fingertips pressing delicately into the one on the other side. Hand wrapped around the back of your neck.
âEasy,â he murmurs and just like that, you can feel some of your aggression slip from you, deflate like a balloon.
Itâs involuntary, the energy and anger unspooling from your body in an instant. In the back of your mind, youâre alarmed; how easily it was for him to effect you. Itâs terrifying.
You swat his hand away, lurching from him, another little growl in your throat.
But you donât fight him or the look in his eyes, the way he tilts his chin up in the barest hint of dominance.Â
You storm off.
Instances as such continue to happen, though, where heâs able to sooth or quell your temperament with a touch. A word. A look.Â
It comes to a head while youâre eating dinner with him.Â
âYouâre so wound up,â Suguru comments lightly, âyour scent is so sharp with it. Whatâs bothering you?âÂ
Reflexively, you snap, âyou are.âÂ
And itâs meant to be some sort of insult but Suguruâs lips twist into this hitched little smile. âItâs my fault youâre wound up?â He asks lightly.Â
âDonât twist my words.â You respond, fixing him with a glare, âyou bother me.âÂ
Heâs still deeply amused by this, you can tell by the twinkle in his eyes. The smug way he holds himself.Â
âWould you like me to help you?â He asks.Â
âNo,â you say reflexively.Â
A beat of silence before he says, âcome here. Iâll help you.âÂ
Thereâs a command in his voice, laced there, and doing something strange to your head.Â
You hesitate.
He pounces, âjust a massage.â He soothes, âI can tell your shoulders are knotted up and tense. I can see it.â
His voice has dropped into that soothing lull.
Warily, âaway from my glands?âÂ
He smiles, âof course.â And then, âcome here.â
Your body moves easily now and he murmurs, âsit in front of me. Back to meâthere, thatâs it.âÂ
It feels more vulnerable than it should to show your back to him, to sit in front of him like a child to their mother. You try to keep your posture straight and careful.Â
But then he sets large, warm hands to your shoulders. His fingers dig into the meat of them gently, pressing into your muscles which spasm and twitch in pain. You yelp, jerking away.Â
Suguru tsks, âsee how tense you are? Youâre in pain.â He scolds softly and you feel heat smart across your face, âsit still for me. Iâll be gentler.â
True to his word, he eases up, fingers careful as they run into your tense muscles.
He finds bundles of twisted up tension in your back and shoulders, pressing into them until a noise springs from youâa groan, a whimper, a little growl. He works the sounds out of you. You swear heâs doing it deliberately and you wouldnât be surprised if it was all just to humiliate you a little.Â
But you finally loosen and slacken for him.Â
When you finally sink into his hands, he murmurs, âI donât know why you fight this so badly.â
You let go of a heavy sigh, âyou do know why. Donât play dumb, it doesnât suit you.âÂ
âBecause youâre stubborn?â Suguru asks lightly and you snort, despite yourself, âbecause you donât know whatâs good for you?â
âYouâre no good for me.â You respond.
Suguruâs turn to sigh and if he digs his fingers in to make you yip in pain, heâd never say it was purposeful.Â
âYouâve got it all wrong,â he murmurs, âbut what am I to expect from a stray like you? Youâve lived off scraps and abuse your whole life; of course you donât know what to do now that Iâve given you food and shelter.â Suguruâs fingers ease up towards your neck as he continues, âa warm bed to lie in. Toys to play with. A collarâso youâll never be lost again. No oneâs ever given you this before, hm?â
Reflexively, you jerk away from his touch, you turn to look at him over your shoulder with a sneer.Â
âIâm not a pet.âÂ
Suguru does not heed your warning and instead gently pulls you back towards him by your waist.Â
âNo?â He asks lightly, fingers resuming their steady massage. You go completely still like prey, unsure, wary. Angry. Humiliated. âItâs not a bad thing to be a pet. Youâre thinking about it all wrong.âÂ
His fingers ease up towards your neck and you stiffen again.Â
âSuguru,â you say in warning as he nears your scent glands. Perhaps to what heâs said.
âYouâre my pet now,â he continues, âthough you donât like to admit it. Itâs not so bad, is it?âÂ
Stubbornly, you donât answer him.
But after a moment, you say, âif Iâm already yours, why do you need this last bit of me? If you already see me as your pet, why do you want me so terribly, in this wayââ
Suguru suddenly pulls you back deeper, into his lap, against his chest.Â
You squirm, but he holds you tight, hooks his chin over your shoulder.
Alarm bells ring frantically in your head now that heâs so close to the glands in your throat.Â
âDonât play dumb,â Suguru muses, half-mocking, âit doesnât suit you.âÂ
âLet me go,â you snarl low and hot.
âWhat are you scared of?â Suguru responds, âthat Iâd trap you? If youâd take my Bite, Iâd let you roam further than I do now. Youâd be safe.âÂ
âLiar,â you hiss, âIâm not dumb.âÂ
âIâm not trying to stifle you, Iâm trying to set you free.â Suguru almost purrs and his voice is warm and low and creeping up over your spine and trying to find its way inside you.Â
You begin to squirm this time, thrashing in his hold until you manage to wriggle free, falling forward onto your hands and knees.Â
Instinctively, you turn to keep your back protected, scrambling away from him. You bare your teeth at him.Â
âI donât believe you.âÂ
He watches this show of aggression with amusement, tilting his head slightly. And then he sighs, âI donât think anything I say will convince you at this point.âÂ
You narrow your eyes at the tone. Your hackles rise.Â
In an instant, he has grabbed you by the ankle and pulled you back to him.Â
Underneath him.
You shove hard at him, twisting and fighting as he settles himself over you.Â
You realize how solid he is, how strong, and large. He doesnât budge. He doesnât even flinch.Â
âSuguru,â you hiss at him, pushing as hard as you can on his chest.
âSee how easy it was for me to subdue you?â He says then, voice smooth and low. âIf I wanted to take you, I simply wouldâve already. Youâre no challenge to me; if I wanted to trap you, I wouldâve.â
âGet off me!âÂ
You thrash hard beneath him and in an instant, he has your hands uselessly pinned above your head, stretching you out beneath him.
His nose dips, near the scent gland at your throat. You squirm.
He squeezes your wrists, âstop squirming.â He murmurs low, âor my instinct will be to bite.â
Your stomach does a horrible flip, a flutter ofâfear, excitement.Â
âJustâget offâleave me alone!â You get out, voice high and tight. You try not to arch away from the way he lets his face fall to the crook of your neck.Â
âHush,â Suguru hisses, nudging his nose beneath your ear.
Heâs scenting you.Â
Heâs done this before and despite everything in you, you finally go slack. You force yourself not to tilt your head or offer up more, rather let him urge you into the way that he prefers.Â
He nudges his cheek and nose against your jaw. He lets out a relieved breath, fitting more of his body to you and you feel the push of chest into yours, his hips.
You squirm a little and a growl erupts from his throat.
You fight back the sound that almost works its way out of you now, swallow around it.
When heâs finished, he asks, âwould you like to scent me?â And instinctively, you want to say yes, but you temper yourself. Then he adds, âIâm sending you away on a mission alone. Iâll be scenting you until the day you leave now.âÂ
You catch his eyes, glinting.
âSo, I thought it only fair if youâd like to scent me, too.âÂ
You donât know why, but something squirms inside of you, something a little hurt.Â
âYouâre sending me away?â
Suguru hums softly, âI need you to take care of something for me. I only trust you to do it.âÂ
You flex your hands a little in his hold, but he doesnât budge.Â
He nudges at your jaw again, gentle, and murmurs, âthis would be easier if youâd take my mark.âÂ
You turn your head then to shield your throat, and face him. His nose nearly brushes yours and you look up at him through your lashes. You bite your tongue from any further complaints, dipping down to the crux of his throat now.Â
Easily, perhaps eagerly, he bares his throat for you.
Satisfaction erupts beneath your skin as his scent washes over you, dark fig and oud, sandalwood and musk. Carefully, your nose runs along the column of his throat.Â
âIâm not evenââ you huff, retry, âI havenât had a Heat inâit wouldnât take, anyways.âÂ
âAh,â Suguru says and you wish you hadnât told him at all. Realization dawns over his features the way a cat might realize itâs caught its mouse beneath its paws. âIs this what youâre so scared of?âÂ
âNoâI prefer it this way. Itâs another reason that you canât. It wouldnât work.â You say stubbornly and perhaps in your irritation, you burrow further down into the crook of his neck, tuck your cheek to his skin to nudge.Â
âI could give you a temporary one,â he murmurs, âIâd let you do the same in return, of course.âÂ
You go quiet, brushing your lips against his skin, hesitating.Â
âI donât need it.â You finally decide, even as you let the blunt side of a tooth nick gently against his neck. âI can protect myself.â You pull away to look at him again, âam I not one of your strongest?âÂ
âYou are my strongest.â He agrees, he praises. âBut am I not also strong?â He asks, âand yet you still insist on protecting me.âÂ
You open your mouth to protest, but he takes your chin in hand suddenly, words dying before they can escape.Â
âYou are my strongest.â He says, âI would like the world to be aware of it.âÂ
âI told you, I donât want to be yoursââÂ
âThen stop protecting me. Flee. Run away and never return.â Suddenly, his touch, his body, all of him is gone. He rolls off of you and onto his back beside you. Cold air sweeps in. You can feel his touch like burning imprints on your skin.Â
You turn your head to the side to look at him.Â
âYou would hunt me down if I ran.âÂ
A flicker of a smile ghosts his face.Â
âAnd if I ran from you?â He asks, âif I discarded you?âÂ
Something twists so viciously and sharply in your chest that your eyes sting with it. You lock your jaw tight. You stare up at the ceiling.Â
âYou refuse to speak but your scent is spiced with distress, sour with despair.â He turns to look at you, ânot so easy to hear, is it?âÂ
âI canât stand you or your games.â You get out.Â
âThere are no games.â He says evenly, âonly the one youâre playing with yourself.âÂ
You scoff, âwhich is?âÂ
He sits up slightly, over you, looking down at you, the inky silk of his dark hair sliding over one shoulder.Â
âSeeing how long you can outrun what you want.âÂ
You exhale roughly, in exasperation, and then you ask dryly, âand what do I want, Suguru?âÂ
âTo be taken care of.âÂ
âI donât needââ
He cuts off your growl before it can start, taking your chin in hand to turn your head towards him once more. âYou never have, but it doesnât mean you canât want it.âÂ
âI donât want it either.â You snap. âYou have some grand delusion of me in your mind that I am some weak, submissive creature in need of your care.âÂ
âIâve said none of that, have I?â He hums. âNow youâre twisting my words, being purposefully churlishâin hopes of, what? To scare me off?âÂ
His palm opens up against your jaw, your cheek. His thumb touches your bottom lip.Â
âYou snap and you snarl and posture as some ferocious, independent creature to scare everyone off. I donât blame youâI am certain you protected yourself many times this way from lesser people.â His voice is soft, almost a lull, you allow his palm to open against your lips, to turn your face into the cup of his hands. âYou donât believe anyone can handle you and you hope if you bite hard enough, tear into them, theyâll run off. And then youâll feel vindicated; you were right, you are too much to handle. You were right, you are a monster. Youâre unworthy of care or companionship or protection.âÂ
His hand moves upward, baring his wrist to your mouth now, âgo on,â he encourages, âbite me. As hard as you like. Scream and cry and tear into me. Loathe me and scorn me.â He leans closer, over you, as he hushes like a mother to their child, âIâll still be here, with the rings of your teeth marks littered in my skin. Iâll be the only one, bruised and bloody, still taking care of youâno matter how badly you fight me.âÂ
Out of anger or frustration or something else entirely, tears prick your eyes. As if to hide them, you open your mouth against his wrist, gentle firstâwarm and soft lips and tongue. He looks enraptured. He looks starving.Â
You sink your teeth into his skin viciously.Â
He hisses in pain, sharp, but doesnât pull away. âThere,â he coos, leaning over you, sinking into the pain, âis that what you wanted?âÂ
Blood bursts into your mouth in a way that is almost startling, sharp and metallic. It should be gross and horrible andâyou whine a little, somewhere in the back of your throat and bear down harder.Â
If thatâs what he promises, youâll make him prove it.Â
If he wants to be the one beside you, youâll make him pay.Â
He leans down to kiss at your cheeks, gentle, humming. You realize there are tears. Your jaw aches.Â
But you donât let go and he doesnât even flinch.Â
âDoes that feel better? To get your teeth into someone who isnât scared of you?â He murmurs, nudging at your tense jaw, kissing there. âShall I do the same to you?âÂ
You release his wrist and shove him off, hard enough that he gives and he goes.Â
You stand up and storm out of his chambers, slamming the door on its hinges as hard as you can. You hope it knocks over every painting on his walls. You hope the entire compound somehow hears it. You hope it breaks something in the same way that something has been broken open inside of you.
You wipe his blood from your mouth with the back of your hand.
Suguru doesnât even bandage the wound. And he wears his sleeves high, so that all the world might see it.
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