#I always get so upset when it happens
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meteors-lotr · 1 year ago
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Biggest tragedy in the tolkienverse is that when the dwarves were captured by the elves in Mirkwood, Thorin lost his sickass fur lined coat
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Like don’t get me wrong the replacement ain’t half bad, but like that coat is everything I want in my life
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dirtytransmasc · 6 months ago
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I find it deeply depressing that every adult in Spider's life had children, yet he was never anyone's priority. every adult he could and most likely attempted to match in to. the adults he remembered as the closest things he had to parents since birth (Jake and Norm, even if they weren't acting as his parents, because Spider, genuinely, would not know better). down to his actual foster family (the McCoskers). essentially went out of their way to de-prioritize him.
like I'm not faulting them for having kids, for having a family. but Spider was their first priority. he didn't need to be adopted by any of them, per say, but he was their responsibility. he was their orphan, Jake especially, considering he was the chief of his people, but Norm as well, seeing as he's a prominent figure head of the clan/Hellsgate.
the McCoskers took him in, but over the years, as they had their own children, he was more and more neglected. he was now no longer his actually appointed guardians priority. and that only gets worse and worse as he ages until they become outright abusive (Nash does anyway, cause thats what I'm gonna call violently kidnapping his, throwing him in a room and locking him there, and trying to kill all of them, him included, when they run away. as abuse. and I'll get back to the whole "you have to turn yourself in to the RDA" x2 speech from Jake in a second). they also didn't really accept his culture. with their resentment towards the Na'vi brewing, Spider most definitely faced some heat for being more of the forest than of humans, in terms of culture.
3 times over, Spider came first and was put last. put last by parents who know damn well how much love, time, care, and attention a child needs. who should be able to see when a kid is being neglected. who dialed to advocate and protect him from neglect (instead of calling him a stray).
he was a child and they were his advocates. all three parties failed in their duty as advocates, to protect Spider. to ensure he always had a loving home that made him their priority. that fulfilled all his needs, not just the physical ones. but all put their own families first, and abandoned Spider to the scraps of their love, time, and affection.
imagine being Spider, an orphan who can't even mention his birth parents and is always treated like he is the physical rebirth of his father's sins by half the people around him. every adult in your life has kids and seems like they're such a good parent. you watch their kids being loved and tended to and having a steady home. they receive love and affection constantly. but your fosters pay less and less attention to you as they have babies. and now your a stray to the man you look up to so much. and the man who probably taught you how to put an exopack on has less and less time for you. no one has time for you. you're no one's child. no one's priority. just a stray. a nuisance. and you don't truly belong anywhere.
no one was putting him first. children need to be someone's priority. psychology. they need it.
and then the RDA returns. the McCoskers leave, Spider is expected to leave everything he has ever known, to join the very people he hates and has been trying so hard since he could understand what it meant, to prove that he wasn't like them. Jake, the man he once looked up to, was telling him to leave. sending him away. stripping him of the little amount of family he could somewhatly claim, that being his siblings.
once again, Jake is his chief, should be looking out for him. not even as a father, per say, but as his duty to Spider as his chief. a chief should never be sending away his most vulnerable ward, a child he should consider his own (as all of his clans children should be one with his own children), to the opposing enemy force.
this happens again when they're running away, Jake tells him ever more directly to hide in the forest alone until the RDA stops shooting at everything that moves and then turn himself in so he can his own children could run. once again, putting him last, instead of protecting all of them.
then for a year, Spider has no family. no one. the McCoskers are gone and no one has stepped up to bat for him. he's 15/16 and alone. his the big sibling to the Sully's. those kids are all he has, but they aren't really looking out for him. he's looking out for them. cause he's the oldest. that's just how it is. he is one with the clan. lives with them. does chores. watches out for his siblings, the whole nine. but Jake isn't doing his duty of watching out for his ward. he is once again giving and giving and giving, and not receiving.
and then he is taken, he is taken, and while Jake may not have had the means to go back for Spider, or been able to take the risk of going back for him, he abandons him without a thought for his safety, and puts his children first. it's the language and attitude be poses towards the situation that is wild to me. he has every right to be worried about his children, but he could not spare Spider an ounce of concern, even knowing the danger he was in, and is more concerned about him spilling details then anything else. Spider is, once again, not his first, second, or even third priority. he is a means to an end. a necessary loss.
people only care about Spider when there's nothing else they can put before him.
#to put a long story short#I am upset that every adult in Spider's life could have and care for their own kids#but could not look out for Spider#not even saying that they needed to be his parents#but they abandoned him. every last one of them. and no one did anything to protect him.#no one made him a priority#individually. no party is directly guilty. but the fact that they all watched it happen and didn't do a thing. didn't even notice.#makes them all guilty of one thing or another in my mind#Spider didn't deserve to have every adult in his life dodge responsibility over him#I always thought Norms kids were adopted and it genuinely made me hate him since I read the comics. that he adopted kids but not Spider.#I am still mad. but less so.#its still frustrating that. but I get that raising bio Na'vi kids snd a human child would be rough.#I feel the same way about him that I do Jake#Spider was. even if he wasn't their adopted child. their responsibility first. before they had children.#seeing as there positions of power/having a human body/etc. made him his advocates and caretakers.#and they failed him when they chose to have their own kids and that became a catalyst for Spider being all but abandoned by them#because even with foster guardians. Spider need people looking out for him to make sure he was actually being taken care#avatar 2#avatar the way of water#spider socorro#miles spider socorro#miles socorro#avatar#avatar spider#spider avatar#I didn't include Max in this cause we don't know enough about what he had going on for me to comment.
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sunfloralchaos · 4 months ago
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On being told you're too loud, too emotional, too much - either directly or indirectly and getting stuck having to unlearn the urge to just disappear as a result
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lyxchen · 2 days ago
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I think people have kind of lost sight of the type of show that Squid Game is. This show isn't a happy sweet show where bad things happen but in the end everything turns out well. This show is about death and sadness and injustice in the real world and most of all this show is about sending a message.
I am thoroughly impressed by Hwang Dong-hyuk that he stuck to exactly what this show is, even though he knew it was going make people sad. It's not the director's responsibility to make you feel good. It is however the director's responsibility to write a cohesive show that sticks to it's themes and the type of show that it is. That happens so rarely and it happens even less with shows whose concepts a based on the unfairness of the real world.
Hwang Dong-hyuk made and directed an incredibly well thought out show and did not let the pressure of pleasing everyone who watches it get to him and for that I thank him!!
#it is so so easy to give everything a happy ending#and i Love a happy ending#and i do think there's also an issue with giving shows sad ending when they deserve a happy ending#but this show was never set up to have a happy ending#and so it would be bad writing to still give it a happy ending simply because you don't want to upset fans#that's not how you make a show#that is fanservice to a high degree#and it's disrespectful to the show and the director to Want fanservice of him#i thing squid game specifically always needs to be looked at as the overall picture of it all#you can't complain about one small detail when that detail contributes to the being of the whole show#you can of course be sad and upset because believe it or not this show Wants you to be upset#this show is made to upset you so that you think about what exactly in the story upsets you#so directing all you sadness and feelings of being upset and the creators of the show#is an entirely wrong way to look at it#you should instead analize what made you so upset and try to prevent that from happening in your own life#that is what squid game always has been and that is what it will always be#i'm so glad that they wrote and filmed seasons 2 and 3 at the same time because i don't want to imagine how this show might have turned out#if they had to fully make season 3 while under the pressure of so many fans that focus entirely on the wrong parts of this show#netflix can promote the wrong aspects of it all they want but they will never change what Actually happens in this show#lea's random thoughts#squid game#squid game spoilers#squid game 3 spoilers#hwang dong hyuk#there will be no daeho slander no baby slander and no director hwang slander allowed on this blog!!!!#(the list keeps getting longer)#squid game analysis
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qoldenskies · 2 months ago
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i feel like out of everyone april would be the worst with self-deprecating humor. the boys have self-esteem issues but they're literally all the types to play up confidence or double down instead of addressing them (raph the least, but he can be pretty stubborn at times), but april's momentum only takes her so far and she is pretty willing to admit defeat if her usual methods dont work. the speed at which she falls back into the idea that she cant do anything right,,, there's probably a point where she jokes about it before it even happens to prepare herself for disappointment, right?
#personal#i feel like raph would admit he has problems but the second you try to imply they're like Bad he's like WHAT???? NO#at one point i joked about him trying to pull everyone into family therapy but REFUSING to get individual therapy#because he will just undermine all of that shit even when it's really obvious. ESPECIALLY if he's called out on it#raph gets indignant pretty fast lmao#anyways april..... aprilllllll....... she literally has so much undiagnosed neurodivergent kid energy#she should do self-deprecating humor. she's not actually scared to admit fault like the others can be she's just persistent#actually a pretty good example is her ''my birthdays are cursed'' thing (same btw i get her)#she's so casual about it even though that should be something that's kind of upsetting#but she's just kind of accepted it into her normal. things dont go her way. Lol. Lmao. Whatever. right? (<- is probably a little upset)#i could see her having a ''well what was i expecting'' kind of response to shit going down#because she's so used to failure and disappointment and that's!!! intensely relatable#she's put a lot of walls so it doesnt make it so obvious when she's crushed in the face of her messing up which always seems to happen#because it feels so inevitable that all she can do is brace herself for it. i like to imagine she can find donnie's unguarded sensitivity-#-kind of alarming and frustrating because she hasn't unpacked that part of herself too thoroughly yet#if SHE did that people would shame and laugh at her yknow?#or she'd shame and laugh at herself. it's hard to say what she's really afraid of#maybe of giving up and laying down and letting it all process#despite her intensity april strikes me as deeply repressed. free my girl
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goldensunset · 7 months ago
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in my experience i didn’t get interested in kingdom hearts by watching or playing anything first. i got interested by watching people post about cute anime children murdering each other and i was like ‘fascinating. i wonder how this got past the disney censors. let’s find out’
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faaun · 4 months ago
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said goodbye to him feeling weird!
#hes abt to go skiing w his friend im abt to go back to the uk to an ordinary life#he is perfect and I've felt appreciated none of the time and i think it's not his fault idk#not how racemic compounds work not how amphetamines work not how people work#french suits his mouth but german does a bit more i think . climbed to a very beautiful place#asked him to be my boyfriend then almost took it back yesterday. chemistry is not his strong suit#he carries things for me he catwalks he gives me his jumper when im cold he's good at kissing#he got me a beautiful necklace on a riverside in amsterdam he lights my cigarette with his#he holds my hand and his only complaint about me putting lipstick on his lips is that it wasn't evenly spread#his eyelashes are long and he's sharp and scarily productive and very good at navigation#always on time always the right place . i make a comment about being a beautiful collective and he says yes but it's odd that we havent#received the social benefits of it. what you mean? well when im alone or with friends people just...give me things. flowers baked goods#compliments a pack of cigarettes he says. he asks me if I've ever had to pay for a pack. i felt genuinely SO UGLY like am i. downgrading u?#ppl see me next to you and..what you get negative attractive points? gosh.#unfortunately shutting the fuck up is not my strong suit so i never let that go. he says nooo it's just you are So Gorgeous that you scare#people away. OK!!! he knows he's pretty and he uses this to his full advantage#you're cool and you're friends with all the club bouncers and you take such good care of me and you know#the state secrets and we can scheme murders together and i love that you love your friends#but when i joked we wont get to see each other in months and you said 'so?' that rly did smth very upsetting!!!!#twisting and backtracking is his strong suit but unfortunately seeing it happen is mine#and sometimes it's endearing and sometimes i want to kill him about it. he would be a very good diplomat#who the fuck stumbles gracefully on cliffs? anyway his voice is gentle and he says i don't want you upset#he holds my hands he says lets talk about it please i want you to know i appreciate you#he says all the correct things i believe 0 things out of his mouth and he can tell#i am snappy and terrible and calm. i tell him he's sweet and i want more i want to be missed#SHUTTING THE FUCK UP IS NOT MY STRONG SUIT! would you be ok being just friends? eventually.#and the next day ive decided what to do with you. what is that? you can still be my boyfriend. he says thank you.#walking is our strong suit so we go everywhere. i tell him about my best friend his head looks great thrown backwards#im afraid this is too good for me and I'm also afraid it's not enough. not asking questions is not my strong suit.
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blackknight-100 · 9 months ago
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More Apollo fic excerpts for you all, because I'm on a roll:
Looking at Father is hard. Apollo has learnt this early on, but Apollo is also either incorrigibly foolish, or insurmountably stubborn. Either way, he tries and tries and tries; the truth is his, and he will look into the King's eyes while he gets it.
Lightning crackles around Zeus's lashes, fine white scars upon his dark skin. He sighs unhappily, and somewhere around Cretan Ida, rain-black clouds are blown away. "Why do you ask that, child?"
"Hekate thinks it is unjust."
"Did she say that to you?"
"No."
Apollo does not mention that she said that to his sister and his mother, because that was not what Father asked. He does not speak of her grief either - the King is a forge of hot power thrumming with ill-supressed rage, a rush of deadly cloudstrike and bitter ozone under his tongue - and Apollo is... apprehensive, if not afraid.
Zeus sighs again. The rain clouds return, and drought is averted. His beard droops, and the riot of spiked hair curls into itself. "It is fate," he says. "There had to be a safe place for you to be born."
"And fate is greater than justice, then?"
"You know the Fates. You know Fate is greater than everything."
Apollo says nothing. In the following silence, father and son stare at each other, picking away at the other's minds.
As always, Father breaks first. "I could not lose you," he says. "You are to be a great god."
Perhaps Apollo should be kinder, perhaps Apollo should be blind. But he is not. Here too the Fates are unfair - he can see Ares' quiet pain, he can see Hera's righteous rage. And his memory is terrible in its divinity - a hundred thousand words of fatherly love will not wipe away all those days of his mother's tears.
Or perhaps it is not fatherly love at all. Apollo is to be a great god, a mighty cog in the automaton that is Fate, and like Hephaestus, Zeus its builder cares little for who the cogs are, or where they come from. They must only exist.
Or perhaps it is just him - Apollo, the Destroyer. Under his hands is the ruin of a hundred women, and then some more, and Hekate is one notch among many others. Perhaps Apollo blames fruitlessly, for it is his father who chased his aunt, and his birth that holds her down. Perhaps his father loves them - him and Artemis and Mother Leto, and has only sought to turn fate in their favour through his ruthlessness. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps. So many chances, so many answers.
Apollo looks at Father, and does not believe even one.
"I see," he says. "Thank you for your time, Your Majesty."
Zeus-King frowns. He holds out a hand as if to call out, then drops it and turns away. "You may leave," he says, and Apollo does.
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cluescorner · 1 month ago
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The most important thing about a Megatron ship is that it cannot end well.
#megatron#transformers#I'll talk about the ones I'm insane about in the tags I guess#Megop. Self-explanatory. Most continuities have them being besties until SOMETHING happens and now they're enemies for life.#Their relationship ends in a civil war that dooms their entire planet (and that's when Megatron isn't actively genocidal).#It is not just canon compliant that it ends badly. It is canon NECCESSARY. Most canons cannot exist without that.#Megasound. I love them so much. Even if the Decepticons won (which they don't) I still don't think they could ever be healthy.#Megatron will never be satisfied with his position. He'll always want to conquer more planets or create a bigger army or further wipe out#dissent. Alternatively if he realizes how fucked up he's made things then he will leave the 'cons altogether and work with#the Autobots. Soundwave is loyal to Megatron but she is MORE loyal to the cause in every continuity except maybe Prime.#If Megatron defects she will fight him. And if he stays loyal then she will still always be 2nd place to an end-goal that keeps shifting.#That's all without anything happening to the cassettes or all of the other reasons they are so fucked up /pos. Cannot end well.#Megarod. Jesus fucking christ I love them so much but I firmly believe that even in the 'good' ending they don't end well.#This is for like 110000 reasons but the big ones are 1) There has GOT to be resentment there on Rodimus's end. And there should be#Even outside of Megatron literally killing him (which I would actually argue was one of the better things to ever happen to Hot Rod#but that's a different post) he basically says that Megatron is worse than Zeta Prime after Megatron compliments him#for what happened on Nyon and orders Bumblebee to be fuckin scrapped and then gets used as a shield BY MEGATRON#(I might be getting the exact order of events wrong; it's been a while since I've read Autocracy)#so like Hot Rod really fuckin' hates that guy. And there's also the dozens of times Hot Rod probably lost someone in the war and#all of that shit is Megatron's fault. Then you've got the 'Megatron killing him' thing and then Rodimus actively wanting#Megatron to be tortured by OP + being upset at OP for seemingly going easy on him...yeah Rodimus hates him and has good reason to.#And obviously Megatron has improved as a person. That is the central conceit of his character in MTMTE (how much/is it enough#is up for debate). But another central conceit of his character is that his improvement doesn't get rid of all the harm he's did.#That should extent to any relationship he has with Rodimus and fits Rodimus's character as well. He cares about and loves Megatron#but that doesn't make the resentment any less visceral. There is also probably resentment on Megs's end but nothing quite so personal.#2) Megatron is still kinda in a 'self-discover/healing/redemption' era and while having that tied in so much with Rodimus is awesome#from a shipping/analysis/I just like it perspective it does not always translate into a healthy relationship.#Despite being literal millenia old Megatron is still changing a lot. We SEE him change a lot during MTMTE and it's awesome#but relationships that last are generally built on a stable foundation. Rodimus is already shaky on that front but Megatron#is NOT in a stable place right now. He's in a BETTER place 100% but he's just been through a major character arc and he needs
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theinfinitedivides · 1 month ago
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popcorndispenser · 1 year ago
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Hershel is actually the only character I've ever projected my dpdr onto. Idk, it fits him really well imo. Des' PTSD gives him uncontrollable fits of anger, Layton's makes him dissociate.
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cheekblush · 4 months ago
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so it was officially my crush’s last day at work 🥲
#we hugged#he smelled good#i’m probably never gonna see him again 😔#i’m upset with how everything turned out#i ruined everything by asking him about those stupid rumors it’s just been downhill since then..#of course he didn’t ask for my number he didn’t show any interest in staying in touch with me 😔💔#like it’s fine that nothing happened between the two of us i would’ve loved to just get to know him better as a person and become friends#but he clearly wasn’t interested in that#he actually couldn’t have made it more obvious that he had no interest in me at all#i just wish i knew the reason… like does he have a gf or hoes he just genuinely not care about me or maybe even dislike me?!#the not knowing is truly what drives me insane the most and these what ifs will probably haunt me for a long time#like what if i didn’t ask him about the rumors and didn’t annoy him maybe we would’ve gotten closer after all??#ughhh idk and i’ll never know and that’s what bothers me the most 😩#i just have to accept that i won’t get any closure and that it wasn’t meant to be whatever the reason may be#it’s just such a shame bc i haven’t liked anyone so much in like 12 years??? so who knows when i’ll genuinely like someone again :(#and we got along so well before i ruined everything with approaching him about the rumors 😭#it’s my own fault really even though i didn’t have any ill intentions 😔#i guess with time it’ll get easier but he’ll probably always be the one who got away for me 🥲#☁️
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king-lena · 3 months ago
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they should invent a period that doesn’t feel like dragging around a cursed amulet for at least seven days
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gayjermamexico · 3 months ago
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hummmm i looked around a bit and i guess it just depends on how u interpret their actions…?
#cheese *blush*#i saw some ppl saying that it wasnt friendship which i agree with and that it was simply them being allies which makes the most sense in my#eyes#but i also saw ppl saying hua cheng being mean or cold towards he xuan was to just play it up for he xuans sake since he was in disguise#which is interesting? idk how i feel about it particularly cus sometimes hua cheng was just straight up mean to him LOL#i also saw someone say hua cheng doesnt care for money so he xuans debt doesnt actually matter much to him and he just wants something else#to keep he xuan tethered to the world which is#really really interesting to me and i can kinda see it? although id imagine he xuan pays his debts with information more than actual money#idk! all in all umm its still complicated LMFAO#i will say the way they both suffered probably helps whatever kind of mutual understanding they have of eachother#like theyre both not ignorant to the world and its cruelty which idk maybe its a relief to hua cheng#ive said it before and ill repeat that i do think hua cheng is probably a little relieved that the other ghost king is agreeable#for the most part and he didnt get stuck with some maniac that wants to cause problems all the time#i think its however close to friendship hua cheng is willing to go which isnt far at all but kinda impressive that he xuan has made it#to that point#it is kinda funny how quickly he takes to yushi huang over he xuan who he’s probably known for like… centuries LMFAO#but id assume its just cus shes genuinely kind towards xie lian and Minds her business#whereas he xuan accidentally dragged xie lian into his beef (Lol)#also i just wanna say i dont hold hua chengs meanie behavior against him LOL i just think it . needs to be pointed out for the sake of Well.#making a point#i like when hes a meanie! i support that!#alsp yeah i didnt say this but i always thought hua chengs coldness towards he xuan in black water was because xie lian got involved and#god i cant remember if this really happened but im sure hua cheng has told he xuan to stay away from xie lian LOL#so idk its cool seeing someone else interpret it as#hua cheng playing along and not just him being simply upset his husband ended up in a dangerous situation#but who really knows! hua chengs a little mysterious so i may never get a perfectly clear read on why he does this or that
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kissentz · 7 months ago
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i'm honestly tired of thinking that everything i do is bullshit
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styxxsyringe · 2 years ago
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i wonder if white people specifically white progressives realise that black people are only ever seen as their skin color first and foremost
#this goes for all poc but im talking about black people here#black people are constantly connected to their skin color and tone in good ways and in not good ways#people will always see you as your race first because white is considered the default#like if someone wanted to insult me the first thing they would go for is my race or gender presentation#whenever an actor is cast for a role people see the fact that they are black before anything else - talent. style. etc is ignored#black people are othered in society to put it bluntly . that is why white people get so upset when black people are cast as any role#or when they uuuuuh you know exist#and if the other becomes the majority - say a movie with mostly black people or a black-exclusive setting#then white people will get uncomfortable and complain#maybe the way i explained it is weird idk im not good at explaining#what im trying to say is that blackness is not something you can hide unless you are able to pass as white/are biracial etc.#and so the many stereotypes about black people are what people see first#what i'm trying to get at is that the way people percive black people completely changes our experiences esp if we're queer or women#a white and visibly queer person will have a different experience than a black and visibly queer person#and white progressives often forget that#sorry if this was explained weird im not a good explainer and also some bad shit happened today so my head is not really in the game#do people even say that god#whatever man
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