#I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

[aletterinthenameofsanity]

Baek Sehee, from “I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki.” | Dead Boy Detectives (2024)

It’s getting hard to remember because Thomas smiles at him like he’s happy it’s Monty beside him – Monty specifically, not just another person – and laughs like whatever he just said was actually funny, and somehow, without him even realizing it, spending time with Thomas became the highlight of his goddamn day. 

(Which is catastrophically bad, obviously. Potentially apocalyptic.)

-anything_thats_rock_and_roll, people think i’m pretty (i’ll sell my pride instead)

inspired by @anything-thats-rock-and-roll's catcrow fic (especially the sentiment contained in this line)!

[gennsoup]

What do I wish for? I want to love and be loved. Without suspicion, and with ease. That's it. I don't know how to love or be loved properly, and that's what pains me.

Sehee Baek, I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

[the-pearlearring]

Twenty-year-old me to me of now

„What matters isn‘t what people say but what you like and find joy in. I hope you focus less on how you look to others people and more on fulfilling your true desires.”

- Baek Sehee

[rladpeps]

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𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚔𝚙𝚘𝚙, 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚛, 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚜, 𝚠𝚊𝚝𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚝𝚒𝚌/𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚎𝚏𝚞𝚕 𝚟𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚜 𝚘𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚝𝚞𝚋𝚎

⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡ﾟ☾ﾟ｡⋆˖ ݁𖥔 ݁˖ 𐙚 ˖ ݁𖥔 ݁˖

𝚙𝚊𝚜𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍: 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙴𝚖𝚙𝚒𝚛𝚒𝚞𝚖 𝚝𝚛𝚒𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚢 𝚋𝚢 𝙲𝚕𝚊𝚒𝚛𝚎 𝙻𝚎𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚍

𝚌𝚞𝚛𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚕𝚢 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐: 𝙸𝚗𝚟𝚒𝚜𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝙼𝚊𝚗 𝚋𝚢 𝚁𝚊𝚕𝚙𝚑 𝙴𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚘𝚗

𝚏𝚞𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍:

𝚏𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚜 (𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎’𝚜 𝚜𝚘 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚜𝚘 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚏𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚊𝚜𝚔 𝚒𝚗 𝚖𝚢 𝚊𝚜𝚔𝚜):

☆ 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚘𝚙𝚙𝚢 𝚠𝚊𝚛 𝚝𝚛𝚒𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚢 𝚋𝚢 𝚛. 𝚏. 𝚔𝚞𝚊𝚗𝚐

☆ 𝚋𝚊𝚋𝚎𝚕 𝚋𝚢 𝚛. 𝚏. 𝚔𝚞𝚊𝚗𝚐

☆ 𝚛𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚘 𝚜𝚒𝚕𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚋𝚢 𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚖𝚊𝚗

☆ 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚔𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊 𝚠𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚏𝚕𝚘𝚠𝚎𝚛 𝚋𝚢 𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚙𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚌𝚑𝚋𝚘𝚜𝚔𝚢

☆ 𝙸 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚒𝚎 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝙸 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚎𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚘𝚔𝚋𝚘𝚔𝚔𝚒 𝚋𝚢 𝚋𝚊𝚎𝚔 𝚜𝚊𝚎𝚑𝚎𝚎

☆ 𝚋𝚕𝚞𝚎 𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚘𝚍 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚊 𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 (𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚐) 𝚋𝚢 𝚝𝚜𝚞𝚋𝚊𝚜𝚊 𝚢𝚊𝚖𝚊𝚐𝚞𝚌𝚑𝚒

☆ 𝚢𝚘𝚕𝚔 𝚋𝚢 𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝚑.𝚔. 𝚌𝚑𝚘𝚒

✮ ⋆ ˚｡𖦹 ⋆🍓｡°✩✮ ⋆ ˚｡𖦹 ⋆🍓｡°✩✮ ⋆ ˚｡𖦹 ⋆🍓｡°✩✮

𝚏𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚝𝚞𝚋𝚎𝚛𝚜: 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚗𝙳플랜디 & 𝚔𝚘𝚝𝚘𝚗𝚘 𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚎

𝚖𝚢 𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚕��𝚑𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚠𝚜: 𝚟𝚘𝚕𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚗: 𝚕𝚎𝚐𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝚍𝚎𝚏𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛; 𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚓𝚊𝚐𝚘; 𝚖𝚢 𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝚙𝚘𝚗𝚢

𝚏𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚖𝚜/𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚠𝚜

☆ 𝚊 𝚜𝚒𝚕𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚟𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎

☆ 𝚏𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚌 𝚋𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚜 (𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚖 𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜)

☆ 𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚗 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚎𝚜

☆ 𝚋𝚕𝚞𝚎 𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚘𝚍

☆ 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚖𝚊𝚗

☆ 𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚛𝚎𝚍

#𝚛𝚕𝚊𝚍𝚙𝚎𝚙𝚜 𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚜 𝙸 𝚊𝚖 𝚎𝚡𝚌𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝

#𝚛𝚕𝚊𝚍𝚙𝚎𝚙𝚜 𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚜/#𝚛𝚕𝚊𝚍𝚙𝚎𝚙𝚜 𝚛𝚊𝚖𝚋𝚕𝚎𝚜 𝚒𝚜 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚢𝚊 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠, 𝚛𝚊𝚖𝚋𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐

#𝚛𝚕𝚊𝚍𝚙𝚎𝚙𝚜 𝚏𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚜 𝚒𝚜 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚏𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝𝚜 𝙸 𝚛𝚎𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚍

[littersletters]

Why are we so bad at being honest about our feelings?

Baek Sehee, I Want to Die But I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

[samireads]

March wrap up. I was coming off the SKZ high from last month and I went to Japan… this was the result 🫣

[ijustkindalikebooks]

I Want To Die But I Still Want To Eat Tteokbokki by Baek Sehee.

When Baek Sehee started recording her sessions with her psychiatrist, her hope was to create a reference for herself. She never imagined she would reach so many people, especially young people, with her reflections. I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki became a runaway bestseller in South Korea, Indonesia, and the U.S., and reached a community of readers who appreciated depression and anxiety being discussed with such intimacy.

It takes in my opinion alot of bravery to use your art to take people with you through your own recovery and use it to help others, and I think this is a brave book for the author and it's not done nearly as good by others as Bae Se-Hee does in her books and with the honesty that she adds.

The openness she shares in this book with her psychiatrist about the experiences and the road she is taking towards being a better person are inspiring and really allow the reader to gain insight into themselves and also to help others I think to really grow as people - I know the first book for myself was revelatory and made me learn new things about myself, and this book is no different.

I found the first two chapters particularly interesting, especially the chapter around absorbing only the negatives of what is being said to us, and I think many can relate to that, but I think so many people could take something for themselves from this book and it makes for fascinating reading and one to chew over for a little while to process it.

Highly recommend and I can't wait to read more!

[613rm]

[random--rants]

#Harsh truth of Birthdays

Can we just stop making these birthdays a thing after certain age.

Because the day after birthday is scary...

It's like I'm all abandoned and left stranded all over again.

It's like I'm starting my "lonely phase" right from the start.

It's infusing more emptiness to my loneliness.

It's like begging... "please don't disturb my state just to leave after that, it's really hard for me to revert back, to accept the truth that I'll always be a lone soul"

It's like a brief burst of fireworks in the night sky, dazzling and bright, but quickly fading into darkness and silence.

Tried turning this unsettling feeling into a poem or let's say something poem-ish👇, have a read and spill a feedback :)

On the day of my birth, my phone is a symphony,

The day after that, no one to accompany.

One day of warmth, then cold sets in fast,

A cruel reminder that such love doesn't last.

AGAIN, Abandoned, forgotten, left to my own,

Wishing for solitude, to be truly alone.

Tired of all fleeting embrace,

Let me reside in my own quiet space.

For the heart that is lonely knows all too well,

The cruelty of silence, the pain it can tell."

- Random Ranter

[the-goal-is-growth]

'I'd confined myself to the wastelands within me, but there are geographies rich with green and blue inside me as well, which I will now try to spend more time in.'

- I Want to Die but I Still Want to Eat Tteokpokki, Baek Se-Hee

[clearqueenllama]

can somebody who has read this let me know if this book is good BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO READ THIS NOW JRHCK

[utoshi-san]

На что я трачу лучшие годы моей жизни 🌚⬆️

Эти токпоки были божественны 🤤🍜

[renji--abarai]

"There is no absolute good when it comes to relationships. I just hope you learn to differentiate the parts from the whole. Just because you like one thing about a person, you don't need to like everything about them. And just because you don't like one thing about a person, it doesn't mean the person as a whole isn't worth your time."

[thequeerlibrarian]

Started I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki 😍

[lazyydaisyyy]

Baek Sehee, I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

[gennsoup]

I was once told that you had to be able to write even when everything was all right, and I wonder if that takes practice as well. I only write when the weather, my body or my mind is dark. I want to write well while thinking well. I hate being full of heaviness and darkness and excess.

Baek Sehee, I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki