#baek sehee

[onmy-way]

Nie ma bowiem większej tortury niż niekończące się roztrząsanie uczuć względem drugiej osoby, z którymi nie potrafimy się uporać. To skutkuje jedynie powtarzającymi się sesjami wylewania emocji i bezsensownej utraty energii.

[felii-professionaldreamer]

[finehoney]

“You've lived with anxiety for a long time. Once your new experiences start overwriting your old ones, your view of yourself and others may become far brighter than it is now.”

- Baek Sehee, from i want to die but i want to eat tteokbokki (translated by Anton Hur)

[ijustkindalikebooks]

I Want To Die But I Still Want To Eat Tteokbokki by Baek Sehee.

When Baek Sehee started recording her sessions with her psychiatrist, her hope was to create a reference for herself. She never imagined she would reach so many people, especially young people, with her reflections. I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki became a runaway bestseller in South Korea, Indonesia, and the U.S., and reached a community of readers who appreciated depression and anxiety being discussed with such intimacy.

It takes in my opinion alot of bravery to use your art to take people with you through your own recovery and use it to help others, and I think this is a brave book for the author and it's not done nearly as good by others as Bae Se-Hee does in her books and with the honesty that she adds.

The openness she shares in this book with her psychiatrist about the experiences and the road she is taking towards being a better person are inspiring and really allow the reader to gain insight into themselves and also to help others I think to really grow as people - I know the first book for myself was revelatory and made me learn new things about myself, and this book is no different.

I found the first two chapters particularly interesting, especially the chapter around absorbing only the negatives of what is being said to us, and I think many can relate to that, but I think so many people could take something for themselves from this book and it makes for fascinating reading and one to chew over for a little while to process it.

Highly recommend and I can't wait to read more!

[samireads]

This year is going too fast I fear

August wrap up ✌🏻

[the-goal-is-growth]

'I'd confined myself to the wastelands within me, but there are geographies rich with green and blue inside me as well, which I will now try to spend more time in.'

- I Want to Die but I Still Want to Eat Tteokpokki, Baek Se-Hee

[mykonossalome]

“I wonder about others like me, who seem totally fine on the outside but are rotting on the inside, where the rot is this vague state of being not-fine and not-devastated at the same time.”

― Baek Se-hee, I Want to Die But I Want to Eat Tteokpokki

[leere-gedankenfluege]

„Aber wenn das Leben für einen Menschen mehr Leid bereithält als der Tod, sollten wir die Entscheidung zu sterben dann nicht respektieren?“

[xoxo-rielle]

What do I wish for? I want to love and be loved. Without suspicion, and with ease.

— Baek Sehee, I Want to Die But I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

[renji--abarai]

"There is no absolute good when it comes to relationships. I just hope you learn to differentiate the parts from the whole. Just because you like one thing about a person, you don't need to like everything about them. And just because you don't like one thing about a person, it doesn't mean the person as a whole isn't worth your time."

[gennsoup]

I was once told that you had to be able to write even when everything was all right, and I wonder if that takes practice as well. I only write when the weather, my body or my mind is dark. I want to write well while thinking well. I hate being full of heaviness and darkness and excess.

Baek Sehee, I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

[lettersfromzephyr]

[lazyydaisyyy]

Baek Sehee, I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

[thorin-is-a-cuddler]

Four books that have made me feel understood as a woman. Raw emotions, struggles, incredible psychological depth. 10/10 recommend!

[usesofenchantment]

From the Psychiatrist

"Me: I have this obsessive worry about not inconveniencing others...

"Psychiatrist: Sometimes the best thing to do with people who would never listen to you in the first place is to avoid them altogether... You need to accept that different people will have different responses to the same conversation... If you have a strict superego, the act of being punished eventually becomes gratifying... But the satisfaction from eating doesn't last very long." -- I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki (Baek Sehee, 10, 13, 17, 19).

"Psychiatrist: And the world is full of so much suffering that it's the easiest thing to find people who are having a harder time than you are... When you're having a hard time, it's natural to feel like you're having the hardest time in the world. And it's not selfish to feel that way. Just because certain conditions in your life are relatively better, it doesn't mean you're better off in general... you shouldn't torture yourself with questions like, Why can't I be happy with what I have?" (28-30).

"Psychiatrist: Your mood is extremely important. It determines how you interpret random events of your life" (45).

"Psychiatrist: ...you might find more satisfaction in cherishing the fact that you've someone you like. Once you start valuing the time you have together, does it really matter what kind of relationship it is?" (58).

"Me: My new friend also told me I should try being alone from time to time. To not rely on others so much. She said she had a period of being alone where she eventually came to the point of not caring if someone loved her or not, and she was totally fine" (61).

"Psychiatrist: You need to keep findind your own ways to comfort yourself" (63).

"...sadness is the path of least resistance, the most familiar and close-at-hand emotion I have" (83).

[samireads]

Just some Korean literature 🇰🇷✌🏻