#I THOUGHT IT FAILED I WAS IN TEARS

[arthursfuckinghat]

I'm at that part of chapter three my friends, so let me be a reminder that Colm O'Driscoll's plan to lure in Dutch after taking Arthur failed because nobody came looking for him.

He would have died being held captive any longer, he barely escaped.

The gang did not come for Arthur.

[defiledtomb]

there's this really deep belief in me that says I can't post anything related to ouro anywhere anymore & I hate it & I hate it & I hate it. I have so much !! to say :(

[smolldust]

totk final boss spoilers

Most horrifying moment of my life

[gu6chan]

would've loved to have heard caim's wheezing laughter as a 42 year old man tbh........

[bookshelf-in-progress]

I've had an odd nostalgia for the Once Upon a Time series of mediocre short-novel-length fairy tale retellings. I've been wanting to read the retelling of "East of the Sun, West of the Moon" from that line.

The trouble is that there is no such book.

Which makes me want to write it.

Unfortunately, the only straightforward traditional retelling of that fairy tale I want to write doesn't fit with that style.

But thinking about it got me excited about that old idea all over again.

[eldritch-nightmare]

that mama's boy song guts me each time i hear it and i can't draw for shit but just know i have a very complex toby animation playing in my head whenever i hear it

[kisasan]

[p1ll-bugg]

*rapidly posts more art*

Drew these before I even knew the update was out. I was in the mood for Shelly angst idk why

was in a run earlier and died bc I had to sign exchange stuff and after I died a Rodger was complaining that I sucked at the game and I was like “I was doing paperwork” and they were like “what are you 40” 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[phoenixcatch7]

Cap marvel headcanons I Will integrate into a fic one day but also have Zero basis in canon to my knowledge (this ended up being LONG):

The living lightning is an ancient force akin to the speed force, and the 'true' guardian of magic, being possibly the first 'magical creature' ever created.

The rock of eternity only recently became based on earth, in the past several thousand years, with the planet's deities acting as mountains in the rain cycle - funnels to safely channel the magic back into the Champion. It's a fully symbiotic relationship that benefits the planet and its people immensely.

This means previously the rock has been based on alien planets. Previous champions are ancient aliens, many from species that no longer exist, either because the species died out or evolved into something unrecognisable.

The champion of magic may have inspired the oua (?), the creators and high council of the green lanterns. Ooh maybe an oua was selected as champion, which is how they learned of it!

The living lightning, when not in a mortal vessel, rests in the heart of the Rock in a large brazier, with a smoke lid of white edged with gold in a familiar pattern. It is tradition, or perhaps instinct, for a Champion to light the brazier whenever they visit the Rock. It will be lit for as long as the visit lasts, and be extinguished the next time they come.

Should it choose to take form, the living lightning resembles a washed out combination of each of its previous Champions. Its form is solid and clear, strong and made for battle, but distinctly uncanny. It doesn't leave its brazier, nor speak.

The 'ideal form' of a hero varies all the time, doesn't it? Especially if you're a kid still growing and learning about yourself and the world. Headcanon cap ever so subtly changes features sometimes. Gradually. Height and build changes sometimes. One of the league members has noticed but they really can't prove it to themselves and it's driving them crazy. Billy has no idea.

On that topic, the 'ideal form' also includes the clothes, right? The red costume? If Billy transforms with the intent of doing something outside his normal hero things (ie, attending a celebration), the outfit has every reason and ability to change to reflect that! Everyone expecting cap to show up in his normal gear and ready to throw a formal suit at him to wiggle on over his costume and he shows up in a red and gold set with a little one shoulder cape like 'yeah I have no idea either'.

Cap marvel Is An Adult. Billy isn't, but cap is in every single way that someone could count. This is probably canon but in some fics I think the jl forgets lol. It's still the same soul, just, with an adult filter instead of a kid one. However that filter manifests.

Not sure this is canon too, but the idea of the mind/soul/whatever of cap manifesting as this great impossible mass. A storm, or a tiger, or a barrier of lightning. This giant, untouchable, dormant mass of power and implied Danger™. Again, Billy has no idea. J'onn is eying warily from a very safe distance.

His wiki practically waxes poetic about his abilities and skills in strategy, mathematics, nigh precognition from ability to spot and manipulate patterns. Captain marvel is unbeatable at chess. Batman has lost to him. Billy cannot do fractions and it drives him up the WALL.

The champion, and ONLY the champion, can share his powers. If shazam wants a second champion he has to give a new set wholesale or convince the champion to share. Similarly, those patroned by the champion cannot transform unless the champion is also transformed. Because otherwise that would be too easy for Billy lol.

Every time Billy asks, tawky gives a different canon origin story. Billy has no idea which is true.

Billy's parents died accidentally freeing Adam on their expedition. Probably crushed by rubble :(. The wizard is the only one who knows and really isn't inclined to share, and Adam either hasn't connected the dots or never really noticed they were there.

Cap and Billy love each other, regardless of whatever version their whole thing is. They're the only reason the other remembers self care and that kind of self love, even if he's not sure he deserves it, makes a world of difference with how they portray themselves to the world.

Cap doesn't need to breathe to speak but he never remembers that and has repeatedly choked in water and space. Superman empathises but tries not to find it funny after the third time it happens.

Billy has showed the wizard memes.

The wizard internally refers to Billy as the 'sassy, lost child'. He has a pointy hat like any good wizard but refuses to wear one since Billy keeps asking him to, pretty please.

Cap once won an arm wrestle with superman by pretending to lick his hand. He didn't. Billy would have.

Cap marvel CANONICALLY bites but after the first time he regulates his jaw strength. Thankfully it was Black Adam so no one lost a hand. He had him in a headlock so who's fault was it really.

Ebenezer doesn't have a strong opinion on cap marvel either way. Billy thinks that's almost worse.

The living lightning isn't lightning. It was around before lightning. It is living, however. It is that 'living' that forms the main consciousness of the Champion form, in this case Marvel. Its not sentient or sapient itself, that's the vessel, but it is the building blocks of it.

In dc (again no idea if this has any basis in canon) magic is the fifth state of matter, above plasma. Yes this interferes incredibly with quantum physics and theoretical science. No the magic users don't know how it works either. No they will not help you they have their own research (into the exact same thing) to do.

If the Rock is obliterated cap marvel will die (along with pretty much everything else but irrelevant). However, if he manages to save the brazier, he will continue on. Magic as a whole deal won't be very happy and aeons of magical knowledge and history and artifacts will be lost, but cap will live and can rebuild from the ashes. The brazier is Heavy but enough super strength can move it if you don't mind bringing a chunk of floor. And the rock is so weakened it's literally falling apart but those are the right circumstances anyway so.

[blujayonthewing]

so in juniper's campaign we've just found ourselves in a high-stakes situation that I as a player do frankly find stressful and am anxious about, but hey hi also the DM was like 'okay here are the exact mechanics of how this is going to work because I don't want to surprise you with serious repercussions, also here are all the options you will have to try to do something about the situation-- [affected player] what do you think? honest feedback, I don't want it to feel unfair, I want to be clear that I am not just trying to kill your character, and if it ends up being badly balanced we can revisit it down the road' and oh my god I could COLLAPSE and WEEP with gratitude

[mxdotpng]

as much as i love tear and luke i was like thinking about how they market them as the main "duo" of tales of the abyss but ultimately fail to have a story thats about the two of them? the game is About luke, and has an equal share for each of its characters throughout the game, but never once did i really get that they were a duo as much as i did for other characters. luke and guy are a duo - their stories are intertwined. anise and ion are a duo - their stories are, again, intertwined. luke and asch, tear and van, etc and etc. but i never got the feeling that luke and tears stories were as woven together as they were likely intended to, which is a shame because the seeds are there. luke and tears stories are meant to directly parallel each other. tear calls luke a fool for saying he would give his life up for the world, despite she herself doing the exact same one act prior. she understands his want to keep his illness a secret, because she knows exactly what it is like for him to be in that position. and yet they fail to make anything truly meaningful out of it - their stories stop at being just parallels, and i believe the strongest scene with the two of them is luke and tear in the library in baticul. which is a shame because it, again, isn't advertised as "their" scene, or even really seen as such by fans. for as bittersweet and lovely luke's words the night before the battle with van were, it isn't even close to being the most meaningful moment between the two of them. it's the closest either of them ever really got to a fully fleshed out interwoven story arc, and it still feels unfinished, because the truth of the matter is the writers kind of just... forgot tear existed at some point in the story. which. again, is a shame, because the two of them have enough in common to be as meaningful as the other character stories in the game.

[librauzumaki]

oftentimes, when people talk about naruto and sasuke (and not even within the context of shipping), their main criticism of their friendship is that they spend most of their time arguing with each other and being rude to each other, but i'll say this: those people have never spent any significant amount of time with children because WITHOUT FAIL the kids that argue most are the ones that are the most obsessed with each other. kishimoto may have been goofy stupid with a lot of shit, but he was spot on with the dynamics of seven year old boys

[datastate]

kanna chose sou's life over kai's.

that alone is an action far heavier than she deserved to carry. she feels responsible for her sister's death, and she made another decision on how to disrupt the discussion in the first main game so she could ensure sou lives -- because she alone had the information to make the judgement that sou was more valuable than kai would've been.

by the time kai pleaded with them that he had information to escape, it was too late. the balance had already shifted against him. along with this, kanna risked her relationship with everyone else, but especially sara -- who suffered twice-over with the results of who was to be executed. their relationship was already fractured when kanna felt betrayed at sara following and contributing to these white lies; & in sara's mind, for kanna to go along with sou's lie marked her as gullible at best, or similarly malicious and untrustworthy. sara's hesitant to fully trust or forgive kanna again after this, even if she rationally knows she doesn't want to hurt kanna and that this is the mature route ... the situation of the death game makes it hard to process things, let alone in a healthy manner.

& in trying to repair this, kanna attempts to make the 'ultimate sacrifice' in giving her life for sara's.

most of her reasoning points to sara resembling kanna's sister, but i wonder. if, when she saw kai's messages, that love was also on her mind. kai only seemed to reaffirm what compassion kanna saw in sara, and his words: "please survive, even if it must be you alone" certainly left an affect on her. realizing that, if there is no escape, they really will be picked off one by one... but, in surviving, kanna knows sara will keep a part of kugie alive. and sara's so loving, so kind, that she'll keep the hearts of everyone here and live for them. (kanna doesn't fully recognize the. pain of that... as shown in ch3, she's much kinder to herself than sara is and can genuinely use this as non-destructive motivation.)

but, as it is, kanna as of the second main game feels like she must repent for her actions. kai has failed in keeping sara safe with his last gift -- asunaro destroyed the program through physical means -- but kanna still has faith that sou is still the best option to keep everyone alive, to give them a chance at escape. and that's what all of them - no matter their allegiance - wanted when this all began. if they can put their selfishness aside, follow how selfless kanna is trying to be, then maybe... maybe she'll finally be able to contribute, too. like kai managed, she can still make her death worth something. it won't be a sudden tragedy like the yabusame, or necessarily used for a show of 'power' like mishima... she wants so badly to manage to push the group to work together because she's in a position where both sides care about her. re-emphasize joe's last words, too.

sou wouldn't willingly be the cause of someone's death like that again - that's what she believes, the moment she catches remorse. upon jou's death, a part of that callous, calculating part of him... seemed to break before her. that was his point of no return, and he realized as much. there may have been betrayal when he lied to her on the first floor to capture her trust, but as she's learned abt him, she's willing chosen to trust him.

kanna still trusts every single one of the participants, and will not break her loyalty to sou because she also trusts he also wants to find escape. that's why he was so desperate, wasn't it? on-guard & desperate to put up an act of being emotionally untouchable so he wouldn't be as easily manipulated. both kanna & sou see the 'worse' parts of sara; but kanna recognizes that sara's own 'act' is similar to kugie in her determination to push forward for everyone's sake, whereas sou reads it to mean she'll discard people who dare to stop her path. but when they were given a glimpse of escape, sou could let his apprehension down because there were finally more paths than forward into their deaths. he could be himself and live, again!

kanna genuinely believes that if sou sees that she cared for both him and sara, he'll have it in him to save the group as a whole (shaky as they are, now...) & honestly, even if kai were here too, she'd still choose sou for his more obvious 'humanity' in her eyes. whereas kai's priority was unwaveringly sara, and sara alone, sou is not the man he pretends to be. and that shows itself completely when he asks to be voted for instead of her. meanwhile, kai was not acting for "good" or for "evil" as keiji & sara speculate - he was acting for the chidouins and would ultimately prioritize them and unflinchingly carry whatever the cost is when the opportunity arises. sou gives the group as a whole a chance at another escape attempt in living; all she can do with her death is hope to serve as that connection between him and the group.

but the one thing kanna misses here is that... while trapped in the death game, she really is the only reminder sou had left of this 'life' she wants him to live. of who he wants to be. even if he escapes, it will not be unchanged.

sou didn't want to be... this, they both know that, and yet it's because he couldn't fully use this mask that he ended up letting kanna creep in and realized he couldn't. let her stand by. she's like him; she'd be manipulated and killed. and he stepped in to grab the strings before anyone else could -- only to recognize that this became protectiveness. he ended up becoming someone there to ground her and (harshly) remind her of the others' priorities, even (and especially) if it meant fueling distrust toward those kanna respected like sara or reko (after the doll situation) so she could be on the lookout. while he had puppeteered joe's situation, after those final words, he couldn't manage to let another kid die so. senselessly. sou was willing to give his own life up to stop that from happening, when it came down to it -- because what he's done now is unforgivable, isn't it? and kanna's all that's left of a life worthy of living, in his eyes. that person he can't return to.

in her last moments, when kanna tries to encourage others to trust him and encourages him to give everyone she's learned to care for a chance to survive... it's too late. just seeing the fact the votes are so split on killing a child is enough to shatter sou's trust permanently.

kanna can't live up to these expectations in the end; her death is orchestrated as asunaro intends it. the dead wouldn't scold her for it (& i'm sure there'd be some shame in her trying to follow those displays in the first place, a testament of strength even if she failed to make that same impact), but it's heartbreaking to know it's only gone to waste.

[shanti-ashant-hai]

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[teardropsonsmyguitar]

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[missrosegold]

Boyfriend's dog is getting put to sleep on Thursday. Please send her good thoughts everyone. It's going to be a horrible day.

We already lost her brother earlier this year. This year has been fucking horrible for dogs.